By Kasha Rokshana
Every time I shift my geography or a life phase itself, I’m doing so with a whole lot in my heart and awareness. I’m choosing what I’m choosing because it feels like a calling. It feels like being true to why my soul has chosen to be here on this planet at this time and it feels like the best and closest Divine alignment I can choose in order to truly live into that.
I feel a shedding of identities and ways of seeing and feeling the world that no longer fit where I’m headed and where I most need to go in my consciousness.
I feel, in every shift really but especially this latest one, that I’m returning to an instinctual way of living. I’m removing, piece by piece and layer by layer, the ‘padding’, if you will, of a life where I could afford to be told what was true, told what I needed, and encouraged strongly to lean into the structures and authorities in place without question or at least not SO many questions and especially ones that are actually about life and death.
What I mean by that, is that I was afforded a luxurious life being born into a country where corruption was well hidden yet also always in open view, more or less, if you knew where to look. I was groomed to be a part of a system that never sat right to me and that parts of me formed in order to interact with and survive in.
I’m not the only one.
The Great Awakening is a peeling back of these layers for all of us, even at different rates. There’s so much to reckon with and recognize. There’s also still SO much to question, perhaps now more than ever, and it’s actually our instinctive selves that are the ones who sniff this out.
It’s our instinct to question and to seek out answers beyond the sleepiness we’ve been accustomed to. The sleepiness of the daily grind, of occasional holidays, of living to work, of saving for the promise of ‘freedom one day’ through ‘retirement’. And now that sleepiness is being counted on by government and medical systems everywhere to bring us to an even deeper slumber through their poisonous means which have actually always been inherently poisonous with many ‘wolves in sheep’s clothing’ running the show.
If you pause for even a moment and turn off the voices all around and inside of you while simply feeling what’s rumbling through you… you may just begin to tune into that instinct you’ve been told to stuff down since childhood, that you’ve been taught to tame through the education system, and maim as you medicate in the various ways that advertising and Netflix films have taught you to embrace.
‘Fight or flight’ has either been overly active in you through the anxiety parts of you have felt for many years or non-existent because you’ve believed your caregivers/authority figures when they’ve told you that everything is ‘fine’ as long as you ‘follow the rules, pay your taxes, do what you’re told is right by those who should know better than you what that even IS’.
This instinct to question, to run away, to push away, is not wrong now nor has it ever been wrong… it was just trained to go dormant, same as it is for those who have been a part of any ‘high-control cult’ where questioning is out of the question or you will suffer greatly and be gaslighted endlessly.
To return to our instinct and let it be real again is to return to the sacredness of our humanity and to heal the suffering of many years of deep and even dark indoctrination. There’s been goodness too of course and much has been learned, for you wouldn’t be who you are now without these lessons and growth points and now you and we ALL have even more potent ones to walk out.
What I feel in all of this is a mourning and a sobriety but also a lot of hope and trust. If the way things were is falling apart at the seams as we all cast off our heavy blankets and shake off our slumber, we’ll no doubt start seeing the shifts we’ve been craving. If we can let it all fall apart and hold onto to our inner Ark, we have more than just hope… we have the promise of a new day and a new Golden Age which we will usher in together.
Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.