Struggling/Hopeless/Intense Feelings Offer A Portal

By Jelelle Awen

The struggling feelings are real. The depressed feelings, the suicidal feelings, the hopeless feelings, the lost feelings, the confused feelings. The ‘I don’t belong here’ feelings, the alienated and the abandoned feelings. The judgement and the corresponding shame feelings. The unworthiness and NOT being good enough feelings. ALL of these are REAL and exist in your emotional body, in your subconscious, in your soul field.

These feelings exist for a REASON. They are not there because you are doing something wrong or because you are not positive enough. Or because you are not doing enough yoga or meditation or spiritual practices. Or because you are a sinner or a ‘dark one’ soul or because you deserve them as a punishment.

They are there because of traumas you’ve experienced in this life and other timelines/lifetimes too. Traumas that you agreed to experience as a soul and learn how to transmute as a soul too. Traumas that are STILL being experienced by parts of you….over and over again in a stuck setting of frozen feeling states. These feelings are showing you that these traumas exist. They are compelling evidence of where love is needed.

Lead with a curious and compassionate ambassador heart in response to ANY of the feelings that parts of you have. See that it is part of you that is feeling them (no matter how intense they seem) and not ALL of you. Begin to separate from the feelings with love.

Be the bigger space holder for the parts of you in this trauma and they can start to lean in, reveal to you where they are stuck. These parts can begin to trust and surrender into love with YOU…..and that is when they can move out of the trauma and into love. That is when they can begin to choose to unanchor from 3D frequencies and lower 4D (bliss mess) frequencies and choose the higher timeline with YOU.

BE the bigger energy of love toward all these parts of yourself…..as you probably do and are toward so many others. That is often the biggest feeling of all….that others deserve this objective and compassionate response to their feelings, yet you (and parts of you) do not. This feeling of unworthiness CAN receive love and transmute into the visceral, unconditional experience of your core, innate goodness as a fractal from Divine Source.

None of these intense feelings are bad….rather they are a portal….offering you an opening to endless discovery about yourself and soul!

Here is the playlist to my recent 33 Day video series offering an expansion on this teaching and guided meditations every day to support your 5D self, meet parts of yourself, and explore other timelines too: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

Jelelle Awen

1:1 healing sessions with me and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators are available to support and empower YOU to hold space to process, digest, and connect to the reason for your feelings. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Photo by Daniel Burka on Unsplash

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Intense Unsettledness, Unrest, and Uneasiness Feelings Coming UP To Be Felt And Loved

By Jelelle Awen

Intense unsettled feelings….unrest and uneasiness coming up. These are being catalyzed by the 12/12 to 12/22 SOULstice gateway, which feels to be a powerful one. The schumann/Gaia resonance and SOULar winds are spiking right now, along with a comet that came very close to Gaia yesterday. These energies are contributing to the feelings of uneasiness that may already BE in your emotional body. They are often the Inner Protector, who wants to maintain ‘control’ over life in some way and is struggling to trust the Ascension process. Struggling to trust your soul. Struggling to trust YOU as a growing 4D/5D energy.

This can go deeper too….and is for many souls. The deeper feelings that are emerging out of the previous shadow lands of self and soul can be suicidal, crazy making, and deep despair too. These can be SO challenging to hold space for as life itself feels untrustworthy….existence itself, and the Divine and Star Family feel VERY distant or not real.

I feel this SOULstice gateway is also pushing up this deeper layer of feelings as well. Feeling so often like not wanting to be here, in 3D, in this density, stems from your Star Seed child…..who never felt like they belonged here anyway. They feel disconnected from star family with the necessary veil of amnesia coming in so that they cannot remember the visits with them during your lifetime. Or, they ‘remember’ them as traumatic and fearful abduction experiences that remain undigested. Until you can connect with them directly (if your Protector allows it), their feelings of abandonment, loneliness, unworthiness…. can run very deep.

Also, the Protector/Gatekeeper can feel just ‘done’ with the whole process of Awakening….as challenging as it can be in moments to move from SUCH density of 3D polarized reality into the more porous frequencies of soul. Feeling the despairs/frustrations/exhaustion of this parts of you helps them feel supported, starting to collaborate with you, brings in new energy and focus on the ‘mission’ of awakening.

There is more here about parts/Metasoul aspects and how we feel them in our SoulFullHeart process: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

There can be an over focusing on the detoxification of the physical body as connected to these energies….yet I feel them mostly working on the emotional body level (as connected to our soul field too.) The body symptoms are so often manifestations of this deeper trauma that needs to be felt.

So much love is available from the Divine Feminine energies of Mother during this gateway, including a full moon on December 22, to provide a holding and support for all this feeling.

Please do ask for support and receive empowerment during this phase if you feel drawn to what we are offering. We are all available for 1:1 sessions over the holidays too. More information about sessions over zoom and in person in Victoria, BC here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Here is a mediation to connect with your Protector: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ciJIvrn0xA&t=1170s

Photo by Larm Rmah on Unsplash

Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about galactic activation, bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.