The Bliss Mess/Push Pull Moments Of Awakening

By Jelelle Awen

Push and pull….wanting to love and then resisting love. Wanting to change and then resisting change. Opening UP WIDE and then closing in again. These bliss moments are of heart doors swinging open and your heart pouring out to touch ALL of life. These mess moments are the heart doors shutting and your heart retracting again in pain.

These bliss mess moments of push and pull ARE your awakening process of heart and soul. Why would it be JUST bliss when this is not what you have known here in 3D living? Why would it be JUST about the highs when this has not been the reality you’ve experienced here? And, what is really learned from only UPs with no downs?

It is during the climbs and the crawls for which you learn the most about the substance for which you are made….in contrast to that which you are NOT. 3D reality doesn’t honor the climb, the process, the journey….yet wants the results and the gifts immediately. It wants the quick fixes rather than the long term gains that come from unfolding process.

A patience for the process allows that with UPs there will come downs too and wants BOTH. Your soul can hold space for the part of you formed in 3D life to learn, to sort it out, to open up and then close down. Your soul has access to Infinite Patience in this process and understands that it ‘takes the time that it takes’ to heal and clear the ground of your deepest densities.

These deepest densities are valued by your soul, not seen as ‘lesser’ at all, but rather a precious aspect of your journey here with Gaia. Not judged by the soul, yet rather held with curiousity and much love so that the required densities, traumas, and toxicities needed to fit into a dualistic 3D world can be let go.

The soul helps your 3D self unanchor from what it has needed to become attached to. Your higher heart allows this process to be held with much love rather than inner battle and resistance loops that lead to suffering.

With a consistent heart and soul response from you to the deepest densities of your 3D self, it can let go of the push-pull it has known so often in your life and begin to let in LOVE more and more with less and less contraction away.

Here is a transmute any trauma with a loving response and energy teaching and guided meditation with me: https://youtu.be/H20_fT-tKYg

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com

This writing is an excerpt from my book Bliss Mess: The Wonders and Challenges of Ascension, which you can purchase here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

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Unanchor From Being In Pain: Message From A Local Oak Tree

by Kalayna Solais

I wanted to take in some nature the other day, to connect in with myself more after some pretty deep emotional detox waves moved through this last week. There were several huge tidal waves of emotional and existential pieces I hadn’t felt so deeply in a very long time and it turned out that much of the pain I was feeling had to do with several Metasoul brothers who were awakening, stirred up, and needed me. They embody themes of betrayal, nobody wanting to listen to them, inadequacy, comparison to others, not fitting in, disempowerment, banishment, etc. I’ve only felt two specific ‘brothers’ so far, but I feel like there are more.

The veil being so thin right now seems to of course bring with it more opportunities to reconcile other lifetimes. I’ve even recently felt an ‘abusive husband’ archetype in my own Metasoul and that was a huge one to deeply let in and feel. This reminds me that during these times of the veil being quite thin, there are these opportunities to feel deep-seated soul themes that still need our hearts to hold them and our Divine love connection to help forgive and heal them. These darker themes can’t emerge within us unless we are ready for them to, so I always take this as a reflection of my progress even though it may feel absolutely crazy-making to walk out.

It’s also SO important to actually go into and feel these lifetimes when they do come forward, because it does help us understand WHY these themes are so alive today not only inside of us but inside of so many others who express/embody them, usually unconsciously, in different ways.

While connecting within and with nature today, I felt to sit underneath a beautiful, wise oak tree. I touched her trunk, connecting with my heart, wondering about sitting below her and leaning in for a while. The immediate warmth I felt was so inviting that I did just that. I felt rest and safety as I sat down in the tall grass and leaned into her sturdiness. I consciously reminded my parts and my Metasoul aspects to let in the love exchange.

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The oak tree told me,

“It’s time to un-anchor from being in pain”.

I felt this message not just for me but for a collective that seems to be moving through so much right now and always.

I could feel the truth of how this has been an undercurrent throughout my process over the years and how it’s steadily and surely been healing. I feel how this is the invitation for everyone who consciously chooses to keep going inward to clean house, to refine and redefine what it means to love yourself and also to love and serve others. We get to find our own finesse with our ongoing process, to be able to let in as much arising joy as we do arising woundedness. It does feel SO critical that we ALL begin to consciously hold our processes this way if we aren’t already!

There is definitely a balance between the transcendence or bypassing of soul and heart pain and the staying anchored in it.

We get to create a NEW ‘normal’. A new baseline frequency and sense of self, life, and how love moves within us. This is a very personal journey for each of us and for each part of us along with each Metasoul Aspect too. 

My beloveds and I are passionate about not just doing this within but supporting your own journey, should you feel resonant with what we offer! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Being In The Void Space As You Move From 3D To 4D

By Jelelle Awen

The void space….the space ‘left behind’ when your soul wakes up inside of your 3D life and your consciousness shifts into fourth dimensional (4D) and you make choices to align with your soul frequency. I feel 4D as a consciousness phase of much sorting through, learning and re-education about the ‘real’ world from the one you’ve been taught. It is a phase of seeing the false matrix and understanding WHY it has been chosen and feeling its impact on your reality and unplugging from it. 4D waters your ‘rebel’ and the void is what happens as you push away from 3D.

The void is the space that happens when you let go of something you don’t want in order to let in more of what you do but the something new hasn’t come quite yet or not consistently. In this void, you are no longer your 3D version of who you used to be and yet you are not yet your 5D/higher self coming into your body version that you most want to be either. You are in transition and in between, moving back and forth between the ‘worlds’ and riding the waves of consciousness states related to this.

The void space is what arises as your higher self and soul lead you through the awakening process of deconstruction, dismantling what has been to allow what wants to BE to arise into your life. In this process of deconstruction, you are letting go of 3D beliefs and ideas, you are sloughing off conditionings that no longer fit. This can be a VERY painful process at times as so many parts of you are identified with and attached to these 3D energies and the emotional body purges out all you’ve ingested as you detach. Of course parts of you are attached to 3D because they have HAD to be in order to survive in the dense 3D experiment that you signed up for to grow and to learn.

This attachment to 3D frequencies can especially be felt in ‘long-term relationships’ that have run out of resonant ground, yet continue on from mostly past energies and associations. These relationships can provide an anchor into 3D that feels safe and good to parts of you (especially younger aspects such as the Inner Child and Inner Teenager) as these are the dominant energies that have needed them.

The void comes from completing relationships like this, from moving on from 3D-based careers and businesses, from leaving familiar geographies, from shifting livelihood means. The impact of these choices is your process for quite awhile…the mourning, the negotiating, the eventual letting go. The letting go and more letting go as feelings of isolation, rejection, abandonment, unworthiness, disconnect all come UP from your emotional body to be felt with each movement.

So, then, what is meant to come and FILL this void and this space that has been freed up from all this letting go? When SO MUCH has been let go of…….then WHAT?

This has come up many times in sessions as a response to souls who have so courageously given up and completed what hasn’t felt like them as they integrate their soul awakenings into their world. And, then, the ‘now what?’ comes up as a pressing question because they may feel the completion of the lone wolf phase and their cozy cave existence that they have so needed to be in while they went through this 4D deconstruction.

However, remaining too long in the void while feeling loneliness or blocked by anxiety about moving on or existential tensions (fear to move into surrender of the Divine) or stuck in scarcity or lack (which comes naturally as you let go especially of 3D secure money earning) may keep you stuck or capped in your growth if it continues on without inner negotiation.

I’m sharing about this as I feel many souls may be at this place in the moment. I WAS at this place of void many times in my awakening journey where ‘now what?’ was the pressing question. Some souls may be here after many years of letting go and the ‘being in two worlds’ reality. Surrendering into what love wants to bring you now and where it wants to bring you comes from negotiation and feeling with the parts of you that are afraid, stuck, tense, anxious about moving out of the void and into the NEW.

Ultimately, we are invited to let go in order to then let in. Love wants to come and fill this VOID now. Love wants to move you into your HIGHEST reality in all moments. Love wants to fill the void that you’ve created by your soul choices. Love in the form of sacred union relationships with a mate, with friendships, with commUNITY. In the form of service of love in the soul purpose form that you are meant to offer it and then receive abundance in exchange for offering it. In the form of sharing your gifts with the world in the ways you are called to and letting in gifts in return. In the form of giving love and receiving love in transactions that serve love.

Moving into receiving mode and sharing mode is the next place beyond the void where you are FILLING up again….only, this time, with the most nourishing frequencies of LOVE!!

There is more in this article about the 3D/4D/5D selves in expression in the seven key areas of life that may help you identify how your 4D transition is playing out: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com
We offer the letting in of love through sessions, group calls, retreats/gatherings, community: soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Sirian Energies Offer Hope/Possibility/Forgiveness During This Time Of Peak Fear & Violence: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Aug 5, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

The Lion’s Gate Portal energies have been swirling for some time now, coming to a head around and on 8/8, the day of the official portal opening. In our leading piece this week, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Co-Creator/Facilitator, Jelelle Awen, offers us a download from her own Sirian Aspect, Sela. Sela offers through and with Jelelle, a picture of the violence in the world right now finding reconciliation in every individual heart and soul, and a sense that this is all a sacred part of the process of our Ascension that plays out for our own individual transformation:

“This process of trusting goodness begins from within. It happens as you feel/heal/connect with the aspects of yourself and your soul that are living through and in violence, experiencing traumatic deaths, living in shadow, harming others in different ways, and being harmed too.

As you become a love ambassador to yourself and connect to the aspects of your Metasoul that can provide you a feeling sense of your own soul’s transformational journey from 3D into 5D (like the Sirians), you can FEEL in your heart then the goodness that lives and breathes in EVERY soul.”

We have two in-person gatherings coming up!

Come join us in the beautiful New Lemurian grids of Victoria, BC for a four-day SoulFullHeart community gathering this September, 2019 for the Autumnal Equinox. The gathering starts at 10:00am on Friday the 20th of September and goes through 5pm on Monday the 23rd. This four-day gathering offers the opportunity to immerse into your soul and heart realities in a deep, powerful, and transmutational way.

We will be having another four-day community gathering this December, 2019 for the Winter Solstice. The gathering starts at 10:00am on Wednesday the 18th of December and goes through 5pm on Saturday the 21st (each day’s events are from 10:00am until 5:00pm).

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

There are several new articles and audio blogs from Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Kalayna Solais, and Gabriel Heartman. These articles include energy updates, digestions of the Lion’s Gate energies, and ways to digest current events in a personal way.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

Sessions with Jelelle are $100 CAD minimum donation while sessions with Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna are $77 CAD minimum donation. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Our online shop is NOW OPEN! You can visit it to pay for individual sessions or to attend any of our gatherings, purchase the recording of past group transmissions or pay to attend an upcoming one, or to purchase books. Keep an eye out and your heart open for other offerings in the near future! https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

The Heart Stays Alive, Even Through Heartbreak: A Poem

by Kalayna Solais

Even in solemnity
the heart is alive with possibilities.

Even in darkness
the beacon of light that you are
shines through the cracks.

Even when you’ve bottomed out
new seedlings sprout
from the ground burned by life’s wildfires.

Even when your heart is broken
it still beats its melody of surrender
knowing that it cannot know
how the whole story is going to end…
only how this one chapter has seemed to.

The death of what could be, but isn’t
brings your heart to its knees in an instant
yet this is only for a moment
in the grand picture
of your sacred life’s journey.

~ Art by Julia Watkins ~

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

6 Things To Remember On 6/6

By Kalayna Solais

1) It’s just as important to take the time to breathe, integrate, INjoy, as it is to dig deep and continue to uncover/discover what it is you came here to do but more importantly, what/who you came here to BE.

2) Feeling what is true is more important than ‘truth’ based on facts. Whether or not your intuitions, gut instincts, senses of things are exactly ‘right-on’ with what science or other sources are saying is THE truth, YOUR truth is what is the most important in this Now moment and is subject to change as you do.

3) Serving the body vessel is one of the most critical things you can do for your overall well-being, especially as parts of you feel the trauma they’ve long held or hidden in a deeper way (which so often will reveal itself through the body somehow). One of the most essential ways to love yourself and them UP is to love the body. Doing yoga, even for 10-20min a day, is one way. Feeling into eating lighter, more nutrient-dense, and non-violent foods is also helpful… and eating less in general can be too as this aids detox symptoms in so many ways!

4) Every day is sacred… every day is a portal/gateway into new possibilities and alchemy, into new revelations of Love…

5) Being YOUnique is what you came here to do… to return to Oneness and Unity within so you can return to Oneness and Unity outside of you while taking everything you have learned, remembered, revealed on the inside with you.

6) You are always loved, always supported, even during those times when you feel as if the Divine is far, far away. You are, beyond any shadow of a doubt, LOVED… just for being WHO you are and WHERE you are right now, bravely walking out everything you are.

Much, much love to you on this 6/6 day! 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Your Relationship To ‘Empowerment’ In Your Life & Healing Path

by Kalayna Solais

“Empowerment” has been a theme arising in a few sessions I’ve had with women lately.

Empowerment around really stepping up for their own healing. Empowerment around finding their independence. Empowerment around collaborating with life while holding the parts that may feel afraid of it, anxious about it, sad that it doesn’t seem to be giving them what they feel they want.

I’ve had so much anxiety myself over the years… coming into this lifetime feeling as if I “never belonged“. On the other side of that coin though, I can feel now how others in my life really genuinely tried to connect with me sometimes yet there was so much within me that was rejecting myself that I rejected others often unconsciously. Also, there’s a way that I knew I was never meant to belong in the same way others did. I had to have something to push against in order to find the true me. It’s almost like I was born more into a 4D reality rather than a 3D one, at least internally.

To find your empowerment and the healing of this anxiety/depression is a journey. It’s deeper than what medication can touch. It’s deeper than what many spiritual/therapy practices can touch too. It’s not there to be transcended because if you do this, it will fire back like a boomerang over and over again until you can really feel it and heal it through empowered steps within.

You are not your birth family. You are not your current social world. You are not your school, your grades, your upbringing.

You are a unique tapestry that needs expression in this world that also needs YOU. You are full of gifts that may actually be dormant or buried right now until you can find those steps into your independence, creating the space they need to emerge and unfold. You are a story that is yet to be discovered. A record skipping on one note until you nudge the needle in another direction. So much of what you want to heal inside of you starts with taking a step (even a cautious one) into what’s next for you, whether it feels like a small step or a big one.

You get to choose the path that feels most empowering for you, that helps you feel as if you get to heal AND have a life of goodness, stability, independence, and endless self-discovery. The one I’ve found most empowering is the one I offer, where you get to connect to and have a deepening relationship with the part(s) of you that are deeply afraid, that identify so closely with anxiety and/or depression. Once you can show up for these parts and give them all of that sweet love in your heart, they shift, they open-up to possibilities, they transmute their fear into courage.

You get to feel this gift of self-empowerment to whatever degree you’re ready to, any time you feel ready to, one step at a time. 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

What Is The Violence Telling Us?

The latest attacks in Sri Lanka have left another gaping hole in the heart of our collective humanity. I could feel my own initial numbness to it as “just another day in the news”. I really didn’t want that to be the case, but it can be hard when tragedy seems to strike in so many different places. I don’t take in too much of the details as I can get be a lot to let in, yet to feel what it is that is going on in our world, in our Heart.

We can’t help but to be affected by each of these acts of violence. They shake something deep inside of us even if we are not paying attention. Our soul knows what is happening. There is an underground river of despair that runs through our shadow. This despair can foment into so much need for resonance. Anything that makes one feel that they are not alone. There is a community that forms around this wound, this need for acceptance, purpose, and empowerment. The manifestation of this level of violence is a reflection of this depth of this pain.

Even the Lone Wolves seek audience.

We are a global community in need of feeling loved. Feeling like we belong to something greater even if that ‘love’ shows itself as violence. We have something deeply guarded in all of us that finds its way to the surface in one form or another. No policy, sanction, or security measure can heal that. It can mitigate it but not truly transform it. The only power we have is Love.

It is healing locally to shift globally. Nothing gets more local than you. What lies in each of us that is seeking our love? What violence still resides inside? What does Love truly mean to you and/or parts of you? Getting away from the chatter of the news cycle, the despair, and the rage, gives us a chance to go within to feel where Love still has its work to do.

I feel this as a sober reminder to myself that there is more to feel. More timelines that are recapitulating and recycling back onto the world’s stage for remembrance and reconciliation. Where do I live in all of that? What is still afraid to be seen in fear of retribution? This is the deeper work of our personal power and responsiveness to ascension.

Heaven is felt into, not fought for.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Springing Into The Service Of Love Self

This has been a March for the memory banks. Shuman spikes, supermoons, retrogrades, and the like all swirling the pot of our emotions and soul trajectories. High highs and low lows came in and out like spiritual weather fronts. One of the themes that came out for me this month was “the only constant is change”.

We are changing. You are changing. Gaia is changing. It is a big global birth pang I feel we are going through. As sensitives to this growing shift in consciousness, we are becoming aware of all of it in one gestalt. This can be a LOT to be with, let alone digest. Feeling what is yours to be with as separate from others and the collective feels like a vital part of April.

Going into your own emotional body, feeling where the rumbles lie is an essential part of this continuing wave we are all riding. Self-love is more than just what you feed yourself, the exercise you do, and the rest and relaxation you take. All of that is essential too. It is also about feeling and loving all the energies/parts of you that are in this reaction to all that is occurring in this ascension of your Service of Love Self.

As this higher ‘version’ of you arises with the tide of Gaia’s path, the hidden, rejected, guilty, pained, and shamed parts are coming up for healthy and loving integration. How we are with those parts matter. I don’t feel that they can be just seen and integrated in one fail swoop. They need tender and constant caressing and compassionate feeling. Holding court for their needs and stories to unwind and be felt in the deepest wells of our loving human heart.

This includes so many ‘this life’ parts as well as ‘other life’ aspects that live in other dimensional frequencies. If you can reframe these from ‘negative’ and feel them as they are, a trauma in need of being felt, then you take a whole new direction in the journey of what you came here to do and BE. Serving love to your selves first IS the first step to serving love to others.

I encourage us all to make April be about this invitation to cultivating this inner garden of your heart and soul. There are things to unearth in that soil that become the seeds of your highest and most treasured timeline. The one you already exist on yet have needed to forget in order to learn and remember. The support is here. The energy is there. The time is always Now. The courage of choice and feeling are what can take you there.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Ascension Is Growth

by Gabriel Solais

Ascension is growth.

It is baked in the cake of our DNA. Growth happens when you come face to face with your truth, your pain, and your fear. It also occurs when you feel your desire, passion, and calling. They lead you to the fire of the next death and rebirth cycle. If you want to ascend, you must let go, let in, and move on.

Just like breathing assists in physical birthing, so does feeling in emotional and spiritual birthing. It is the merkabah that takes you into the New. It is the portal. It will be your guiding light and your safety raft in this escalating pace of change that you have signed up for.

It is feeling the parts of you that are afraid of this and why they feel the way they do. You create the ship that they can trust to take them where you are meant to go. The Divine is your ship that you get to lean into as well until the day you realize you are Divine. Trust is no longer something you have but is something you just ARE.

Change is the only constant here is, so let feeling and trust become your copilot.

If you are feeling the need for support and a safe space for feeling through all that is coming up on your shore, I am available for a 90-minute bridging session to see how the SoulFullHeart Healing Process can help.

Photo by Samuel Zeller
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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s Facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.