Ahimsa: Healing The Inner Violence To Feel Our Non-Violence

Ahimsa. It is a Sanskrit word that means “non-injury” or “non-violence”. In my recent process of diving into sexual and emotional trauma as a young boy and teen, I have been able to access the more innocent and essential aspect of me.

This In-Essence, I am calling it, is so very sensitive yet strong and enduring. When I tap into it, I feel how much violence I have learned to be with this life, and many others. This is true for all of us when we get to this very kernel of our Being. When I go outside, I am aware of the violence all around. Things that I would not have deemed as violent before. Sounds, words, actions, thoughts, energies, etc.

Now, going down that awareness road could lead me to just hold up in a cave somewhere and never come out. Of course, that is not what I want (well, maybe a part of me would be okay with that for a short time). What I want to feel is how I can practice Ahimsa in each moment with myself, with Other, and with the World.

The first thing for me is to be aware of the violence within and hold it with compassion. From a SoulFullHeart perspective this violence can come in the form of an Inner Punisher and/or our inner unworth. One parcels out the violence the other acquiesces to it. Holding space for both brings them into relationship, into forgiveness, and into healing.

The more we can heal the violence and unworthiness within, the more we become aware of what is not Ahimsa for us in each moment. That which did not seem violent yesterday may seem much more so tomorrow. The thoughts we have, the things we eat, the way we eat, the way we have sex, the way we talk, the things we say, the feelings we have, the expression or suppression that ensue. The list goes on.

It is Consciousness loving Itself in the most subtle of ways. Compassion is the bridge that takes us there. We cannot find ourselves in a vacuum devoid of violence but we can choose what we are a part of and/or how we respond to situations. Ahimsa becomes a momentary mediation on Love, just as much as holding the part of us that doesn’t feel it has ever really known it or deserves it.

Take a moment to be still and feel Ahimsa. Feel what is not. There the healing begins.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Waves Of Awakening Into Love With Love

by Kalayna Solais

Love pops you open sometimes.
You cry tears you didn’t know were there.
You lose track of what your mind once thought was important.
You start feeling more than efforting anything.


The flow begins and the changes take hold.
The choices made bring you closer to what your soul has wanted all along,
Even in the karma trauma that comes up to be felt between yourself and others.

When love pops you open
You know it’s love because you feel held
You feel like shit but you feel like you’re finding your way
Even in some small way.

And then you feel,
Slowly but surely,
How much more you now have to offer yourself and the world
Because you weren’t afraid of love popping you open.

And so,
Love thanks you.
Love celebrates all of it with you.
And you bring in more conscious connections of real love,
Held and expressed with others
Who have experienced the same.

Together, then
You flow and feel
And heal
And offer healing
And in all of this
There is always more to experience of love’s expansive gifts
And the forever of being Divine without force, bypassing,
Or overly giving to others while forgetting
And even celebrating
your own deep desires
And love-supported needs.

Love,
Kalayna Solais

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Reclaiming The Lost Boy Of Our In-essence

As a sensitive boy growing up, I could feel so much around me yet had no real guidance on how to interpret, digest, and integrate it all. This is really true for most if not all of us. The biggest piece I am revisiting now is the depth of my sexual trauma as a boy moving into manhood.
Confronted with so many images, energies, and conditionings around sex and sexuality, this boy in me found himself between a rock and a hard place (pardon the pun). There was the desire for innocence to be the name of the game. To dance with the essence in both the boy and the girl. Like a journey of discovery and playfulness.

Instead it was about fitting in to the dominant culture of woundedness. Girl became an object of my need to be validated as a man in the world. Her yoni a portal back into the womb of The Mother. But Girl was wounded too. She was looking for her own needs to be filled…so to speak
Now Boy is caught between fulfilling the needs of both the wounded masculine in his power over the feminine and the wounded feminine in her need to feel some hook into the masculine. Both invulnerable and unable to really see each other in their innocence or in-essence.

I reconnected with that boy in me again and replayed those days while feeling the innocence in contrast. The pain of what this boy packed away in order to survive in that world was heart-wrenching. I could feel the toxicity and pain swelling in my cells. All of the trauma that I never categorized as trauma because men don’t do that in what is just ‘those teenage years’.
If, as men, we were to really feel where we lost our innocence, we would really get to a core of who we are as a man. Why we have done, and to some degree still do, the things that we do. If we can ‘come to Jesus’ with this Lost Boy inside of us, we would find the root and beauty of our masculine innocence. Something we packed away a long fucking time ago.

In that innocence we also find the warrior who has fiercely protected him. The warrior who has both shadow to heal and truth to tell. Between them both is the Man who has a vulnerable heart and a willingness to call bullshit when he sniffs it. He is willing put his heart on the line but not his power. He is willing to seek forgiveness but not condemnation.

There has been no greater process for me than the one I am currently in. This Lost Boy in found again in my heart. I am loving him with every once of it that I have access to. It is my current sacred bromance. It is this process that activates and unearths more of my King or Sacred Sovereign Masculine Self. It is this process that leads me to more self-love and ability to see, feel, and relate authentically to the feminine within and without.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Gatekeeper As An Essential Part Of Our Awakening And Ascension

The timeline gates have widened. Gaia is continuing Her ascent. Love is doing its Work. It is not pretty or neat. It is real. What has been in Shadow is coming to the Surface. It will continue to do so. There is no more ‘normal’. There only navigation, surrender, and self-love. As chaotic as it appears, it is necessary so we can find ourselves again.

The ‘past’ is finding its way to the present. That ‘past’, or other timelines, are weaving in and out of each of our fields. A great final act is underway. So how can you navigate all of this intensity and increased Love Bath at the same time?

The Gatekeeper is an aspect that holds many keys to our emotional and spiritual healing and ascension. It is the Purveyor and Guardian of your deepest traumas and gifts, both. Through access and relationship with the aspect of you, you get a wider view of what is going on inside and outside of you. How does your soul story relate to what is happening now? Where does all the pain, fear, anxiety, depression come from?

This is where your Gatekeeper can be a guide alongside your humanity. Many times we can fuse to this energy and it is INTENSE! More than our human bodies and hearts can handle at times. A deeper connection and separation from them can help to feel your sovereign self among the chaos.

I made the top image below to represent what a Gatekeeper may feel like to some. This is how he came to me in the beginning stages of my process. With much work and inner process he has changed quite a bit to a more angelic presence. They do, and can, hold many varied frequencies. For more info on this aspect you can read this great article here:https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Humanity’s Return To Innocence

by Kalayna Solais

Believe it or not… and I’ll bet parts of you feel skeptical (and reasonably so) right now. Yet, I’ve been offered that a huge aspect of the process we’re in right now on Gaia is a great ‘Return to Innocence’. It’s not a simple process by any means. Yet laid out for us, it is. And invited into it deeper, we are.

This ‘innocence’ means seeing and feeling the world through the eyes of wonder and trust, even though there may be tears sometimes when you feel what is burning away in your own life and in the lives of others. Actually, this innocence means there is a renewed sense of your own heart’s purity, which despite the trauma you’ve experienced, remains deep within you. This is what you return to when you’ve healed through so many of the defences parts of you have needed throughout your life. This is the place you interact with others from more than ever before when the younger parts of you who are now much wiser because of life experience but not bitter (anymore) are able to feel this innocence within themselves.

Even all of the purging going on with Cabal, illuminating collective darkness and shadow so that we can dig deeper and move away from this timeline of suppression of love and truth (which can’t ultimately BE suppressed really), is leading us back to our innocence. These darker energies that have influenced and held the larger spaces of politics and fame and even spirituality, are loosening their grip and returning to their own reconciliation within. To meet and match these energies and defend against them as well, parts (especially your Inner Protector) and Metasoul aspects in other timelines have had to adapt and defend, become fiercer than they truly are or want to be, and forget about their realest vulnerabilities and the core of their heart’s desires. This is leading us through a BIG detox of what has NOT been us, individually and collectively, and is challenging us to feel our hearts again.

It may seem sometimes during this purging process that things are getting worse… but when it comes to toxicity, quite often things get worse before they get better. Storms happen before rainbows. And even rainbows happen sometimes while the sky is still clearing of rain and clouds. So it is that our innocence, our Divine Child light, can still find ways to shine through, even though there is still so much churning in the world.

It’s a deep, many-layered process. As I feel my own empowerment in my own process to feel all of this emerging in my own being, I feel how much work it’s taken to get to a space of feeling more of my innocence again. More of the desire to genuinely and heartfully connect, to bring vulnerability even when it feels iffy to do so, is able to emerge now. I can feel this as a new form of leadership that gets to arise now from within me and invite others to find the same within. It’s worth all of the shadow processing to get here and I trust too that this feeling of my own ‘Return To Innocence’ will help hold the space for any more shadow explorations that follow.

And so it can and will be for you… if you keep choosing the curiosity, the inner work, and the desire to hold space for yourself and others as we continue this transition to the most ALIVE-feeling life that we could ever have imagined.

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

New Moon In Gemini: Releasing The Trauma Bond

What a new moon portal today! The last few days have been intense to say the least. I have become aware, through my deep dive sessions with Raphael, of a particular trauma bond that has existed inside of me between me and my sister even as I have not been in contact with her for over seven years.

My sister and I were born very close apart. When many people met us they thought we were twins at first glance. What I am realizing is that this twin recognition came from an energetic bond between us that I am learning has visitation and abduction trauma built in, as well as many lifetimes in one form of relation or another.

I have come to the realization that this bonded trauma created a pairing between us. A contract that we would forever be in each other’s life so that we would not feel the depths of the trauma. Well, I broke the physical contract years ago, but the etheric contract remained.

I was offered to connect to my sister’s higher self and let her know that I was no longer going to hold my end of the bond anymore as it is time for me to go into the galactic and soul wounding that had kept us in a bind. I have recognized how much of this has effected my relationships with women, as it served as a protection and a projection of wound and care-taking.

I have been so focused on healing the Mom wound that I finally found the more subtle sister layer that was out of my awareness due to the depth of the trauma that it was founded on. I am reaching the edges of my galactic wounding that has alluded me for most of this life until this came into view.

What came to me is that this may be true for many of us at this time. Not so specifically from brother to sister, but any bond between two people that has deep roots in trauma. This can be especially true for twin flames. The New Moon energies in Gemini feel to be highlighting this twin dynamic for those that are meant to see it right now.

The trauma bond is something that is hard to let go of as it has such a long history. I had deep tears that I couldn’t place many times today but I could get a sense that this trauma bond was leaving my field and it is almost like losing an essential part of your being that you didn’t really know was there!

The release and detox of this bond feels like a shedding of a skin. It can be a hard process, but when held in sacred space it feels like the most important part of our ascension. I can feel during this time how there is a collective trauma bond exhibited by the fear of this virus. As we clear our own inner trauma bonds, the less energy is added to the collective and thus helps to move the needle one more step toward Love.

I also feel how this will help me to let in sacred romance on a much deeper level that I have not previously been able to transact due to this energy in my being. Quite a remarkable ride the last couple of days. I hope that this provides some insight into your own relationships to see where there may be these contracts that may need a deeper release in order to bring in the Love that we ALL are here to experience.

Much love on this New Moon evening.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Gift Of Feeling Pain &Trauma

By Deva Yasmin

There are so many ways I can see, of how parts of me can push beyond feeling pain in order to attain or achieve certain experiences. The spiritual search for a long time was a search for a place free of pain for me, the attainment of bliss states and higher consciousness feeling so much more superior and desirable, than acknowledging the pain and suffering parts of me were experiencing. I still see it playing out for parts of me, especially as we taste more of the bliss, joy and contentment that is arising, they desire to stay there, but as Embodied Divine Humans, that is not our purpose to remain there it feels like.

The thing is these states are actually arising, from me being willing to acknowledge, feel and listen to the pain and trauma my parts have experienced, not from any pushing away of, or striving towards, a particular state, this actually blocks bliss. It feels like the reason I can experience these more joyful feelings is because, as I deeply know the experience of the opposite, I can appreciate the true simplicity of what joy truly is. This is a constant circling between the both for me and my parts, there is no end place and yet there is a place of experiencing more and more goodness coming in, only as I am willing to let go of what is not loving or bringing feeling of goodness.

This is the cost it feels like, to experience the fullness of who we are, and what this life and universe has to offer us as Divine Humans. Through feeling the pain and trauma, I am liberating parts of me from the prisons and Matrices they have learnt to call home, but to leave the only home they have known is painful too. To leave behind what they felt was nurturing, loving and resonant for so long, to go towards the more that I feel is available, brings up so much for them to digest. To realize how much of what they felt was Love, has actually been toxic and kept them inside the prison walls, is painful, tender, vulnerable and raw.

There is a time, and a self loving paced, organic-ness to being ready to soberly look into the reality of the life that was known for so long. As parts are felt and validated in what they have experienced; first by others in sessions, which then templates how we can valid ourselves, more space opens inside of us. As I am deepen in this process, I experience how this space becomes available for higher dimensional aspects of myself, as well as Divine beings to come in and support my continued exploration with my parts.

The ones we have been longing for, the parts of us who have the higher wisdom we have been seeking for, and the Beings of Love who we have been calling for, for so long, forgetting how close they have always been, come in to us. It feels like our commitment to keep showing up for ourselves, is a beacon, as we become more attuned to feeling, we become more sensitive to the higher frequencies all around us. This for me is so much more embodied, which brings a visceral confirmation of what is real and the Love that is always here.

When I have pushed to attain a certain state, the higher frequencies can feel ‘floaty’ or ‘wishy-washy’, they cannot ground and actually be beneficial in my everyday life. My parts cannot let it deeply in, in the ways that is needed for them to feel, heal and integrate their past experiences. They cannot rest within me if they cannot FEEL, the stable presence of the safety these higher frequencies and Divine Beings are offering them, especially I feel Divine Mother. She feels so significant to my parts process right now, as I digest with parts of me who have never felt held or nurtured.

It feels like if we keep pushing beyond pain as it is arising, not being sensitive to the subtle contractions, we keep ourselves in the prison of feeling alone and in pain, we keep ourselves in the suffering loops. As I write this, I feel how I am learning to be really present to the subtleties of all this, this no longer has to be a process of digging and trying to unearth pain or trauma, the pain arises organically in response to just BEing in life, being available to the healing life is offering us in every moment. As there is more and more goodness arising, it can be quite the process as well to let that in, I feel many of us who have been on this journey for a while will resonate with the striving and pushing for healing, or the over focusing on what is wrong, it can feel quite addictive to parts who are so used to the frequencies of abuse and trauma, to want to stay there it feels like.

I feel I am entering into more of a space of flow with the process, and an availability for what is real in the moment, letting life and what is in my heart lead my process. This feels to me what it means to be embodied. Parts of me no longer want to get out of the body to find home, or out of feeling pain, because they are realizing more and more from experience, that their true home, their higher frequency origins and their Divine nature activates and arises from within, as they feel and clear the pain and trauma they have held onto for so long, because that is what has felt like home.

The empty space that is opening up within me and within my life, through my willingness to feel pain and no longer hold onto places, people & patterns in my life that cause more pain, can feel both completely full of potential and completely void. So many questions, and so much time to explore them, so much to digest, and so much clarity to be birthed in me too, A space of feeling, healing and becoming.

I find myself in the moment honoring a very tender process with my younger parts as they let go of relationships that have been abusive and toxic, non of this is easy, but it is real and honest, and that is what my Soul longs for. This is what my woman’s heart longs for, and as my parts learn to trust me, and they experience the beauty and goodness living life lead from a tender, vulnerable, open heart brings, feeling pain becomes SO worth it and SO valuable, as it becomes the Inner Compass guiding us home, always, to LOVE.

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

Feeling The Inner Masculine To Move from Surviving To Thriving

By Deva Yasmin

I have been noticing for some time a certain pattern or habit within me. I have been feeling and exploring this much deeper these past days as I adjust to a new way of being, it feels like. As I transition from dream space to waking space, I notice anxiety coming up, this automatic pattern that has been there for so long to get up, get doing, get working. Already in my dream space I sense a chaotic-ness as I am stirring into conscious reality.

I felt yesterday a part of me called ‘David’, my Inner Masculine I have been working with for a while. As we felt together I felt how long he has been in this way of life, getting straight up out of bed, straight into work/survival mode; to move into my day from a place of rest and stillness felt so alien to him. That is the invitation and opportunity now it feels like, as I no longer have work to go to, as many of us are experiencing. I feel that this is also an invitation into a new way of being for us all, of moving into more thriving than only surviving this life. I feel inside me the growing desire to move in all areas of my life from a place of inner peace and stillness.

David expressed to me that it was new to not have to go into the day from a place of stress and to-do lists, but that he also does enjoy the practical aspects of life. I felt him not so anxious about it, rather desiring to be acknowledged as the part that is here to provide for me and my parts practically. This felt so lovely and soothing to other parts of me, to feel I have David here to help with those things as they are needed. He then transitioned to becoming my Inner Father which opened some touching healing between him and Yazzy, my Inner Child.

It was interesting to me then to feel the same anxiety arising as I woke this morning, and when checking in I could no longer feel David but a new part coming through who was very anxious about having no work. I felt a lot of fear around how we will support ourselves financially and feed ourselves too. As I felt deeper, this part revealed himself to me as ‘John’, a Metasoul brother it feels like, in a timeline of starvation and poverty. He was very concerned, he felt taking time in the morning to ease into the day was frivolous, something he could not afford to do. I could feel him being the sole provider for his family, a wife and two small children, who were all starving and dying as were many people around them, it felt like. He told me how he had to feed his children, feeding them before himself, his fear so triggered by me no longer having work, as well as my new geography in London it feels like, and me now desiring to step into a new way of earning money, rather than the old way of employment that my parts are used to.

I was able to acknowledge his experience and his feelings, although I could not do anything to change his reality. I helped him feel that starvation and poverty are no longer a part of my life now, even as I live on less money and eat less too. My relationship to food is not coming from a poverty mindset, but rather from years of transitioning to feeling what I actually need versus overeating as a cover over to not feel my emotions. Feeling John so explains why I have had a fear based connection to food this life, feeling him starving in his. I supported him to feel the reality of his situation, soberly feeling the outcome, that him and his family may possibly die yet he did not have to suffer. He had the choice to be present with his children, love them, soothe them, rather than keep panicking about what to do. This softened something for him as I felt him moving into being in what is, and with his beloveds while he still could.

Feeling John I felt so much gratitude for what I do have in the moment, the food I have even if it is not the amount parts of me have been used too, grateful to feel that starvation isn’t part of my timeline now although I know it is for so many. I sense how much I have held onto because of the fear of survival, feeling how unhappy it has made me to stay in jobs I do not like and how even relationships too can be a way of covering over the fear. I feel how society can make women feel like they need a man to provide and survive and I am sure men have their own version of this too.

For me right now I have let go of so many things that have made me feel safe, as I have chosen to move towards my desires for more resonance and purpose in my life. I have a feeling of how I wish my life to feel, so I am having to meet all the fear of moving towards it. I feel how I have been in this transition for some time especially around money, having struggled to manage full-time employment. I had to question how much I actually needed. Feeling how much energy and inner resources it takes to maintain work that is not my passion, I no longer wanted to do it and with the exchange of money no longer being a big enough draw for me either, I now desire to thrive not only survive.

Exploring what it feels like to thrive is a new exploration ground, feeling through the transition of having less money to truly feel what thriving feels and looks like. It feels like a transition we will all have to go through at some stage in our Awakening. For me, thriving does not mean the same thing as success; thriving is not solely based on financial abundance but can include that too. To thrive for me feels like TIME, to have time to actually live, to enjoy the world around me, to breath it all in. To be grateful for the simplest of things, vulnerability, connection, intimacy, honesty, and service of Love to others and self. Feeling balance in all areas of your life and to be leading from love, peace and lots of joy rather than lack and fear. These are not things that can be maintained or even experienced when we are so overly focused on the 3D survival matrix paradigm, as I have just remembered, again, after needing to go into full-time employment that is not my passion or Soul purpose once more, to finally be able now to leave it behind.

I feel an empty space between where parts have been focused for so long on 3D, to where we are heading in 5D/Golden Earth Reality as I checked in with Enu, my Pleaidian aspect around this. Also, to feel where I am now as I explore how to transition personally. Enu told me that in her world, they do not work with the energy of money, that it is an Earth experience/challenge and frequency, part of human life only, it feels like. I feel her holding the picture of energy exchange, of freely offering our gifts to one another when needed, of sharing with others and of not being scared of asking for help when it is needed either, that all resources are shared in her timeline. Abundance means so many things in her world, whereas here on Earth it can so often be felt or seen as only money equals abundance. They are also deeply connected to their creativity and gifts which gives them life, as well as living on prana too, rather than physical food as we do. They absorb life force from the world around them, through breath.

This feels so much like what I have been longing to experience and am on my way towards especially joining SoulFullHeart as a Collaborator, with the desire to be a Facilitator in the future, as well as one day living together in community. It is what I moved towards more, moving into my new place in London too, with beautiful resonant souls, a choice that was financially risky after losing my job but that David navigated and manifested financial support for me around too. Now I have the space to breathe and question what I want to bring into the world, what is my passion and the creativity/wisdom and healing I have to offer to others through my own healing. I feel the desire and LOVE in my heart switching on to be of service to others, for which I will need to continue to feel the parts in fear around all of this.

Feeling the higher timelines available does soothe my parts and helps me be more in the moment around everything, keeping my vision alive and burning, anchoring me in my commitment to keep going IN and feeling all the difficult reactions and timelines within my Soul. Feeling with sobriety when things are not working, when things have become stagnant and when we need to move in a different direction is SO hard. Feeling when there is nothing to do, but to feel the pain, sadness, grief, trusting that that is what will move us forward when the time is right, and the Divine knows the timings here not us.

Learning to trust the perfection of this life, this universe, comes to me through being able to sit in, be in, and feel everything that is moving within me. Feeling the Love growing for myself, feeds my truest desires and gives me the courage to keep moving towards NEW Earth, even though the way through is in the Valley of the Shadow of Death. This does not have to be a scary transition anymore though, as more and more resources from within our Soul are activated as we feel the lifetimes/timelines where we have been training and preparing for these times for so long. Everything we need for these transitions is within us.

Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

 

 

 

“You Are Moving Into Love’s Reply To The Darkness” – Yeshua

by Raphael Awen

Raphael – Yeshua, this is Raphael. I’d sure like to ask your take on this Corona Virus reaction around our planet.

Yeshua – Hey, Raphael. Thanks for asking, but what is your question more specifically?

R – I feel how surreal this all feels for me personally. I feel parts of me wanting to stay ahead and be in the know of what’s really going on, and I feel reality itself being changed on so many levels. I feel hope for a true new world order of things and yet, I also feel how deep the conditioning goes around living under the taken-for-granted oppression that has been here my entire lifetime. How do you see all of this from where you are?

Y – I say ‘pinch yourself’ man! This is real. It is what has been longed for, for so long. The longing is and was part of the manifestation, so was the suffering and the deep darkness – all of it is connected and vital and all of it is love’s awakening journey. Love couldn’t be known, not to itself and not to an other, were it not for fear and what is called evil. Evil itself, and harm originated when love birthed both duality and other out of its original state of oneness. Love needed both contrast and ‘other’ to know itself.

R – It was hard to type those words just now, that harm and evil originated from love. I can’t see that being very popular of a message, Yeshua. Aren’t we intended to right the wrongs, to stand for the good, and oppose hate, fear and harm?

Y – Raphael. You were birthed into duality and individuality out of oneness, but you never were separated from love in the process, it only felt like that, understandably so. The great fall was a fall in perception, yet all too real at the same time. The great awakening is equally an awakening in perception, that similarly creates a new reality.

R – But Yeshua, the pain, especially to the innocent children feels so off the charts, so evil…

Y – The children are the greatest testament and trigger to the awakening – there are so many tears that are needing to be cried and cried.

R – I recall the text where you told the disciples ‘Suffer not the little children to come unto me, for of such is the kingdom of heaven.’

Y – Heaven has registered every last price paid in this awakening journey of love itself to itself. The children, like we all were, and yet are still at heart, are heaven’s biggest debtors and creditors both. Those who have suffered the most will know the greatest fullness and all will be forgotten and forgiven. Their debt will not and does not go unacknowledged. It simply cannot. When ‘evil’ makes a stride, it invites love to meet it. You are moving into love’s reply to the darkness that has held a long and deep hold.

R – So it’s like then, the evil or harm is the agent of love, the agent that calls love forward?

Y – This is so new to feel, and even new to me, so don’t feel bad. I had a big deal investment into fighting the evil for a long time too, until I no longer did. It’s a big, big piece to awaken to, but when you do, it changes the foundation of everything. It’s all love. There is no evil in the sense of something separate from love.

R – …but there’s still big contrast…

Y – …bigger than ever…

R – …in this heightened drama of duality

Y – …where love is wanting to complete what it started, where love IS completing what it started, where love itself is suffering, where love is birthing an expansion of itself, a reconciliation to itself, and you get to watch it all, and be a part of it all….and even more, You are this unfolding. It’s all you.

R – You’re like too much sometimes, but in a good way.

Y – I’ll take that as a compliment then.

R – Thanks, Yeshua. You always help so much!

Y – Good! Stay in touch!

R – I will!

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Demonstrate Trust By Admitting Your Fear

by Raphael Awen

My easiest access point of connection to self, other and the Divine is the owning of my fears, my needs, my confusion. Anything else is a stress-filled, very tall-order-kind of posturing and hiding. In my weakness, I am strong, and in my strength, I am weak.
When the collective rumbles and activates the resolve of its deeper shadows with these Coronavirus playouts and reactions, it’s going to activate something for each of us to feel and be faced with personally, no matter how attained (and beyond fear reactivity) I might consider myself to be. We all created this together and I don’t actually have an option to not participate. I do however get to choose the set of my heart-sail.

In this time of business as unusual, I get to demonstrate my trust by admitting my fear. I get to access love by deeply feeling and admitting my fear of its loss, and how that fear shows up. I get to connect with you around owning the weakness of my fear of connecting with you and then wanting to disconnect from you.

I am love out learning its way. I am the Divine out divining. Fear, panic, hatred, anxiety, shadow, and even the darkest and most despised acts of suppression and violence are a part of the Divine learning of itself, and come from the Divine, which I AM. There is no battle of good vs. evil except the one we create in our own minds and reality because of our disowned fears. What we call evil is only and nothing more than love’s opportunity. All evil wants to finds its way back to the full embodied remembrance of love, from where it was born and to which it is in process of returning, while never having lost its essence of love. Love birthed everything. Consciousness is finding its way through you as you trans-parent it with your transparency.

If this wild picture of reality is true, then how does that apply to the current news cycle and where you are right now? It offers you the courage and opportunity to feel your deepest fears that up till now have in all likelihood been off your radar, understandably. It offers you the opportunity to feel, admit, and be nourished by and because of your deepest need for love with self, other and the Divine.

You get to cry the uncried tears of many lifetimes that you’ve never cried before.

Now you get to feel like the real champion you’ve always wanted to feel like. Now you get to all that you’ve so longed to become.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.