Peak Fear: The Uphill Climb Before The Surrender Into Love

by Kalayna Solais

We are living into a big crescendo right now, especially pushed up by the coming Equinox and this trinity of Supermoons. I keep being offered to call this crescendo ‘Peak Fear’ and that’s certainly what it feels like is happening. We are living into a dark time where the rumble of awakening out of 3D slumber and into lower 4D awarenesses is understandably pushing up fear.

The fear though is not so much coming from a need to fear what’s on the outside and how what’s rumbling in the collective will affect you personally. The fear is actually a reaction to what’s been in your personal shadow and is now coming up to be witnessed, felt, and ultimately loved UP. The fear of seeing timelines/lifetimes where your personal Metasoul has been involved in some of the terrible crimes that are actually quite triggering for you in this moment… yet, it’s surfacing because it’s time to not blame others for the state of the world and to begin taking responsibility, finding forgiveness and love inside so that you can feel compassion for what’s happening outside.

This is not an easy process, to really feel through these darker timelines of which your soul has been a part. Yet, we’re all invited to inhabit this sometimes daunting and heavy task with a pace we’re ready for. It feels like opting to go on journeys via Ayahuasca or Peyote or any other methods of inducing these sort of processes could add to the trauma of suddenly being thrust into these timelines of darkness, yet, if this is something you feel drawn to it may be important to go into it this way. The only piece here is to remember to hold self-love around it and to have a self-loving plan for integration and space for processing what you’ve now unearthed.

This whole process of unearthing and remembering could be much more step-by-step and self-lovingly held and paced if you choose to access your Gatekeeper first, who holds the keys to these alternate and other lifetime realities alive and well in your soul. It’s through getting to know them and negotiating with them that you can begin the descent into your inner cave, unveiling the dark and the light in your personal Metasoul. Here is a guided meditation from Jelelle to help you meet this aspect of you and to start the process of getting to know them too:

I personally have not been drawn to the intensity of plant-induced journeys and have preferred the pace of self-negotiated steps facilitated by an open-hearted other who has also been there. Yet, this is what my soul has gravitated towards with having experienced many lifetimes of these induced journeys for the sake of being an oracle, psychic, etc. and may not be what you actually need at this time.

What we’re intending to heal as a collective cannot be healed by pointing fingers. This method of shaming and blaming hasn’t worked yet in our ‘history’ to genuinely change the world we live in and how it operates. We cannot fire guns (figuratively or literally) and expect to find prolonged, sustainable peace, unless the parts of you that are attached to gunfire being the answer are deeply felt and given the love they so desperately want and need.

We cannot continue to ask world leaders to hold and give us the answers when they themselves haven’t gone inward to find what’s really going on inside of themselves or their own souls. More and more leadership is being invited out from inside of you, starting with leading your own explorations into the shadow that continues to be illuminated by what you’re hearing about, reading about, and reacting to on the outside.

The beautiful thing about all of this, is that we aren’t being asked to do it alone. We aren’t actually being asked to go deep into the desert and suffer for our ‘sins’ or find penitence and to strive for forgiveness from outside of us. We are already forgiven. We are already loved, despite it all, because we have needed to walk all of these timelines out for the sake of discovery, learning, growth, and the path back to the love we’ve come from and simply ARE. Now though… now we have the choice about what we want to do with this information and we can choose to be curious instead of fused to the same reality of Peak Fear we’ve been witnessing and perpetuating in different ways.

Much love to you as you feel into whatever your shadow is illuminating for you… I, myself, am curious too about where this exploration will take me next, for there are ALWAYS gifts to integrate from even the darkest of places we must go within and I trust deeply that I will not be the same person (in a really good way) on the other side of each journey inward.

For more info on connecting with one of us for bridging sessions and facilitation to help you become this love ambassador to your own soul, visit: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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Love Can Never Be Lost To Trauma

By Raianna Shai

After a traumatic experience, parts of us tend to feel this desire to go back to who we were before the incident. They desire to be blissfully unaware of what is to come, to return to the untainted heart that felt full and content. Or maybe there’s even a desire to return to neutrality and boredom for that feels less painful than where you’re at now.

I asked the Divine that very same question just now in meditation, “When will I return to how I felt and who I was before this all happened?”

I immediately heard a response back saying, “You will never be who you were before any of your life experiences. You will, in fact, be that much closer to love and your true essence. Every human experience you have, whether it feels negative or positive, gives you a closer look at who you really are. A trauma does not take away from love in your heart, for love can never be lost. It can become a story, or it can become learning and growth. It can be lost in the shadow or it can be brought into the light of day to be seen, loved, and healed into something rooted in love. You are always you, nothing can take that away.”

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Knotted Cords Untying: Being An Ambassador Of Love Within

by Gabriel Heartman

All emotion is energy that seeks motion…movement. This movement is created with vulnerability. When an emotion is denied its need to move, it gets balled up and stored in the physical and subtle bodies. Each of these energy pools can become densified and attract themselves to others inside of us over time. This creates a network of dis-ease on several levels. 

Each of these nodes can be related to as a part of you. They have a name, a voice, feeling, and a consciousness. When related to as such, an unknotting of the energy is created by connecting and re-feeling that which caused the suppression. This allows a flood of stored energy to be integrated back into your whole and can affect the nodes that it was connected to, thus creating a new layer of healing. 

This is not an endless process but it is a dedicated one that requires your deepest desire to heal all the trauma and suppression that can lead you back to a more authentic and present You. One that can lead with the vulnerability needed to continue to move your highest vibration into the world. This energy is the overflow of Love that was created by your choice to heal from within. The knotted cords untying. 

On a multidimensional plane, these cords represent timelines both ancient and future, what we call the Metasoul. As we continue to move through Gaia’s ascension, these cords, or chords, are being plucked to key us into what needs re-tuning. This re-tuning is what many of you came here to do and align into your highest timeline and connection to soul and star families. 

The support is here. The love is here. The time is now. 

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.


Struggling/Hopeless/Intense Feelings Offer A Portal

By Jelelle Awen

The struggling feelings are real. The depressed feelings, the suicidal feelings, the hopeless feelings, the lost feelings, the confused feelings. The ‘I don’t belong here’ feelings, the alienated and the abandoned feelings. The judgement and the corresponding shame feelings. The unworthiness and NOT being good enough feelings. ALL of these are REAL and exist in your emotional body, in your subconscious, in your soul field.

These feelings exist for a REASON. They are not there because you are doing something wrong or because you are not positive enough. Or because you are not doing enough yoga or meditation or spiritual practices. Or because you are a sinner or a ‘dark one’ soul or because you deserve them as a punishment.

They are there because of traumas you’ve experienced in this life and other timelines/lifetimes too. Traumas that you agreed to experience as a soul and learn how to transmute as a soul too. Traumas that are STILL being experienced by parts of you….over and over again in a stuck setting of frozen feeling states. These feelings are showing you that these traumas exist. They are compelling evidence of where love is needed.

Lead with a curious and compassionate ambassador heart in response to ANY of the feelings that parts of you have. See that it is part of you that is feeling them (no matter how intense they seem) and not ALL of you. Begin to separate from the feelings with love.

Be the bigger space holder for the parts of you in this trauma and they can start to lean in, reveal to you where they are stuck. These parts can begin to trust and surrender into love with YOU…..and that is when they can move out of the trauma and into love. That is when they can begin to choose to unanchor from 3D frequencies and lower 4D (bliss mess) frequencies and choose the higher timeline with YOU.

BE the bigger energy of love toward all these parts of yourself…..as you probably do and are toward so many others. That is often the biggest feeling of all….that others deserve this objective and compassionate response to their feelings, yet you (and parts of you) do not. This feeling of unworthiness CAN receive love and transmute into the visceral, unconditional experience of your core, innate goodness as a fractal from Divine Source.

None of these intense feelings are bad….rather they are a portal….offering you an opening to endless discovery about yourself and soul!

Here is the playlist to my recent 33 Day video series offering an expansion on this teaching and guided meditations every day to support your 5D self, meet parts of yourself, and explore other timelines too: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

Jelelle Awen

1:1 healing sessions with me and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators are available to support and empower YOU to hold space to process, digest, and connect to the reason for your feelings. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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The Scientist, The Sage, & The Artist: Seeking Love Through Experience And Knowledge

What did your soul come here for? Experience or Knowledge? What did you come here to experience or know?

Healing is a digestion and an integration of this experience into knowledge. I don’t mean the kind of knowledge that you find in books, but the kind that is stored in the depths of our DNA, the unconscious, and our emotional body. Our circumstances are reflections of this inner experiential knowledge data bank and what It is seeking to learn and understand.

The scientist, the sage, and the artist are intrinsically the same.  There is an exploration happening. A reconciliation of an unmet need, an unanswered question, or a prolonged trauma. There is a drive to fix, transmute, understand, or transcend these. Pain is one of those aspects of experience that we try religiously to avoid until it cannot be avoided anymore due to the nature of the Souls journey.

It is hard to wrap our head around why certain people experience certain unimaginable things. It is hard because we don’t really ‘know’ what the soul is needing and wanting to learn and understand unless we get to a place where are deeply curious. This curiosity is what brings the questions that lead us on the quest.

The answers to these questions lie within you. The words of those that have traversed these depths are like guideposts along the way and can provide insight and direction. As a parts work and Metasoul healer, I assist in guiding others to aspects of themselves that hold keys that unlock doorways to places within that hold these answers. They hold the experiences of trauma, depression, anxiety, and dis-ease. By relating to them as parts, and not the totality of who you are or what you are experiencing, you create a space that can bring in context rather than drowning in the content.

The result is a new awareness of yourself as a divine creator seeking to know and experience Love, and often knowing Love is to know Pain until we don’t need it anymore. There is a world of You that you get to become privy to. I call it your YOUniverse because, yeah, you are that damn big and that damn amazing, whether parts of you want to believe it or not. Let’s go find out together.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Activate Light Language Guided Meditation – DAY 31: 33 DAYS DEEPEN W/ Jelelle Awen (VIDEO)

DAY THIRTY-ONE: DEEPEN 33 Day Video Series – Activate Light Language Guided Meditation W/Jelelle Awen
This is day thirty-one of 33 in my daily video series called Deepen. In today’s video, I talk about light language or star language as it is also called. The ability to activate light language and express it (through voice, language, and/or hand gestures) often connects to trauma healing that you’ve done with your Star Seed child that allow fluid transmission to come through. I offer a guided meditation to connect with your Star Seed here: https://youtu.be/p3_E642aYyQ
Access to your Star Seed arises as your more 3D-based Inner Child is able to let go of traumas from this life to vibrate at higher frequencies of consciousness. Digestion and remembering of visitations with Star Family this life also helps to open up access to light language. Direct connection with your Metasoul aspects that live in Galactic timelines allows the flow of language to come through in an organic way as you merge more with their consciousness.
Activating light language is not a matter of capacity or ‘special’ gifts as we ALL have galactic DNA and therefore the ability to access it. It is rather a matter of healing the trauma that keeps the veil in place of our remembering and expressing it. Your Inner Punisher may also ‘judge’ if you are doing it ‘right’ or that you are ‘crazy’ for expressing it, etc. so working with that part of you to allow the fun and joyful expression of it helps as well.
In the meditation today, you activate, clean, and connect with your Ascension Chakras: the Stellar Gateway (Personal Sun), Soul Star, and Causal Chakras. All of these are connected to the expression of light language. I share different light languages that come through me as we go through each chakra and invite you to ‘babble’ and talk along with me. You focus on your fifth or throat chakra especially to feel if there are blocks there to expression of your truth due to undigested trauma or karma.
Thank you for joining me on this thirty-first day of 33….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!
More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
You can watch all the videos in the series here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3
I will be hosting a group session over Zoom to digest your experience during this series for a $11 USD minimum. The next one will be on Saturday, February 2nd at 11:00am PST. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/21893… You are welcome to share your experiences of this guided meditation here and I will respond to your sharings. Jelelle Awen 1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with me for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel and Raphael with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

 

Transmute Your Trauma With Love Guided Meditation – DAY 30: 33 DAYS DEEPEN W/ Jelelle Awen (VIDEO)

DAY THIRTY: DEEPEN 33 Day Video Series – Transmute Your Trauma With Love Guided Meditation W/Jelelle Awen

This is day thirty of 33 in my daily video series called Deepen. In today’s video, I talk about the healing of trauma through a transmutational process of connecting with parts of yourself that are experiencing it (both this lifetime and other lifetimes). During the video, I read out loud this writing I did today to you about transmutation of trauma: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/love-is-the-only-energy-th…/

As you separate from the energies of the parts of you experiencing and unable to digest the trauma, then you are able to BE there for and with them in a new way. You are no longer ‘fused’ to the trauma. You are able to channel Divine love and compassion to them so they are able to let go and ‘leave’ the traumatic scene and move into the higher timeline with you.

I’ve been offered that the transmutation of the trauma we experienced from this life and other lifetimes is KEY to our ongoing Ascension and awakening process. As we transmute it into love again, so we are able to raise our vibrational frequency TO love.

In the meditation today, you are connected with your 5D self, who can hold space for the transmutation of trauma with parts of you and journey into Metasoul timelines to heal it there as well. You move into a higher vibrational space and then connect with a traumatized energy in your field and the part of you who is experiencing it. You offer that part of you Divine love through Mother Mary and Yeshua energies. You then invite that part of you to move into a higher timeline space with you to receive more love and healing connection with the Divine.

Thank you for joining me on this thirtieth day of 33….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You can watch all the videos in the series here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

I will be hosting a group session over Zoom to digest your experience during this series for a $11 USD minimum. The next one will be on Saturday, February 2nd at 11:00am PST. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2189383564650970/

You are welcome to share your experiences of this guided meditation here on FB and I will respond to your sharings.

Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with me for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel and Raphael with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

 

 

 

Love Is The ONLY Energy That Transmutes Trauma

By Jelelle Awen

The trauma can seem bigger than you……esp. when you are shaking with it, quaking with it, and fused to it. The moments and memories of trauma acting like magnets to keep parts of you stuck in looping around the same suffering seconds over and over again even as your body ages and time ‘goes on’.

When it feels like the trauma is bigger than you, then the pain becomes more real than joy. When it feels like the trauma is unhealable, the fear claims more ‘real estate’ and space than love. When it feels like the trauma is unknowable, the confusion overcomes any clarity.

You may doubt your capacity to hold space for the feeling and processing of trauma as you haven’t been templated and shown and supported to do this. 3D consciousness offers the next drug, the next diversion, the next quick fix, the next substitution. These things then will somehow try to take the place of your SOUL big and HEART big presence that is MOST needed here. These things will try to provide a poor replacement for the richness of SELF love that is MOST required here.

During these moments that caused trauma (from this life and other lifetimes), the parts of you that experienced them felt like they were alone and they BECAME the traumatic experience with no way to digest it. As you become a loving, compassionate, non-judgemental presence that can BE with them during these traumatic moments, supported by Divine energies, these parts of you can digest the trauma and move into a new timeline beyond the experience of it.

The ONLY energy that offers true transmutation is love. Anything lesser or denser or coming from a fix it/judgemental place can’t offer the transmutation of trauma that love can. As you become this loving transmutational energy, so are all parts of you and their traumas able to become the LOVE again that they truly are in their essence.

The transmutation of the trauma you experienced from this life and other lifetimes is KEY to your ongoing Ascension and awakening process. As you transmute it into love again, so you are able to raise your vibrational frequency TO love.

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My video today, Day 30 of my series, offers more teaching about this and a guided meditation to bring a part of you experiencing trauma into a transmutational love experience with Mother Mary and Yeshua.

 

Jelelle Awen
1:1 healing sessions available to BEcome the love that is needed to transmute the traumas of self and soul. More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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