Author: Raphael Awen

DF: Happy Birthday, Wayne.

W: Yes, thank you, Divine Father.

DF: 54 years this life and what a life, Wayne…

W: Thank you. I’d really like to feel how you see my life.

DF: Thank-YOU, because that’s where I wanted to go today.

W: I open my heart to take in your words and perspective.

DF: You have relentlessly journeyed, relentlessly chosen your own growth and next phase of your life that life brought you, not in spite of your fear, but in full face of your fear. You’ve grown in so many amazing ways, that you are an anomaly in today’s world. And that you can just humbly be you, in everyday life, doing dishes, treading cob, watering the gardens, without need for any kind of false glory recognition touches me so deeply Wayne. You embody and hold my love, and you let it shape and move you, you let it fill and fulfill you.

I’m not done…there’s more.

You are like a newborn at 54. Life is taking a brand new beginning and I feel like a proud father looking in the hospital nursery window to use the metaphor you knew this life. Hell with this looking in the window shit. I’m going in. I want to hold you, and look in your eyes and convey to you my joy and crazy delight and anticipation for your life, and for what comes now. To be accurate, I don’t feel like I own you, or that you owe me anything. I just am so honored that you would bear my name and heart, and let it fill you and reflect me, and I wondrously don’t know where this will go and how this could all turn out. Of course I can’t know. Who are you is so unknown, only to become known as you unfold and do life in this newness that you keep showing up for.

I know you have never quite been in the unknown as you are right now Wayne, with beginning totally afresh with your soulmate and soulfriend, in Mexico, so off-grid that the word off-grid is merely a starting place to describe where you are. Thank you for completing a 30 plus year career last year. Thank you for choosing a new geography and life in alignment with your next growth. And triple Thank you, for not saying you couldn’t afford it, that you couldn’t go on any further, into any more crazy unknowns, that you understandably took in all you could this life. You had every chance to do just that, and I would have wept, not with disappointment, but with joy for all that you did, and my tears right now in this moment are in a state of wonder that you would and did choose what you chose, again.

I might be close to done, hold on.

I’m sorry that you’ve had to ride a line of being seen as a freak in the relationships you chose to leave and enter. I’m sorry for the loss of people connection and the pain you endured of being misunderstood at so many of your choice points. And I’d like to tell you that an era is coming to a close. You had to enter a wilderness of meaningful people connections to find this love inside of you that you find now, to know it more and more, to be enabled to fluently speak this heart language, first, you to you, and now, in an newer and more public way, you to others. This is who you are. This is your true currency. This is your true value in the world. It will be as natural as breathing and a harvest of so many of your choices and learnings up till now.

Wow, I’m waxing prophetic, Wayne, but I feel this for you. I feel you feel it for you. And I think the universe is offering you that if you want this, then you are to own it and live it and breathe it and let it in. In other words, this is still another choice point for you, not a given. I hope it is an easy choice point for you.

W: The birds are going crazy out the window right now, a whole bunch of clatter and answering to each other. I do feel the universes invitation and offering, and I do so accept this gift and my god, I can’t think of a better gift for my birthday.

DF: It’s a bit of a paradox, Wayne, because it is a gift and you earned it. Both are equally true. Being enabled to receive gifts is always a function of your choices and growth and learning.

W: Wow, okay, so I’m letting this in and the tear tracks are pausing on my face in the moment. I feel like I only have a one word vocabulary in the moment, that word being thank you.

And what comes is a feeling of feeling so special, that how could anyone else be as special as me, like you’ve used up all of the specialness jar on me. I hope it’s not a resistance to letting in what you are offering, but I want to invite people following this dialogue to be enabled to take this in personally for themselves too, somehow.

DF: Yes, because love isn’t real unless it multiplies and spontaneously combusts in hearts. Yes, because where love is without tears of deep eye to eye and heart to heart feeling, is a tragedy, lacking true flow. This love needs to be known by others, or it’s a bubble. A love bubble, mind you, which is a good thing and like love in many ways, but love is meant to flow. And what I hear you asking Wayne, is that you want others to know this love and feel this love and to help you bear this love.

W: Yes.

DF: I’m reminded of the meaning of your name – ‘burden bearer.’ You have born this burden and you still do, and a fruition is coming to pass in all of this for you. I want it for others too Wayne, just like you do, but I want them to have it with you.

W: Isn’t that a bit me-centric?

DF: It could be, if you were still running that wound, and needed to heal it. I get that the love you bear and spread to others can only come to you in the form of personal relationships to a degree that you can bear them and make room for them in your life. But I hope you see that you are to spread this great love and courageous choice ability from your heart to many others hearts, not just the few of deep personal relationship and intimacy, but also to the many. Others are to feel and know, and awaken to this love as it is given to them in the giving of your gifts. You’re the gift, birthday boy. And, yes, to answer your question, it is a bit you-centric. In fact, it’s a whole lot you-centric. What’s love without a you, and a me, fully in, emptying the specialness jar like big selfish hogs.

W: Another paradox, self centered love.

DF: Yeah, you get that one. Any love that isn’t centered in self is no love at all.

W: I wonder if I’ll need to pause the dialogues for a week just to let in today.

DF: I think you got this one Wayne. You are bigger than you know, you know?

W: I know. I know I don’t know.

DF: Another paradox. True knowing is always contained in not knowing.

W: Thank you so much Father for this incredible gift today. I love you.

DF: I love you too Wayne, so much. Happy birthweek!

Wayne Vriend is a healer and author of 90 Days With Yeshua. Visit soulfullheart.com for more information.

W: Hello, Divine Father.

DF: Hello, Wayne.

W: Father, it is so quiet and peaceful here at the ranch. I believe I only heard the sound of an internal combustion engine once in the past four days, and that only faintly for the tiniest moment. I think it may be hard for people to relate to where I live.

DF: Wow, Wayne, I get that. People have lost so much in relation to peace and tranquility that they don’t really notice its absence anymore. It seems the only way back is to make absent the industrial noises and notice from that experience what has gone missing.

W: As I type this, I can hear birds, and other creatures that make chirps, tweets, and I think I max out on my vocabulary trying to describe the other sounds. Some of them are very faint and distant and others a bit jarring, like when the rooster took to hanging out just beside the verandah. The dogs are usually contributing, but they must be resting in the afternoon overcast. There is a virtual heaven here in sound.

DF: And if you listen to the sound, is there a voice or a message to the sounds? Go ahead, try it now.

W: Interesting, Father, as I set out to do this, one of the first things I noticed in listening was the sound of my computer’s fan, as quiet as that is, but when I got past that, I hear a creative energy, creatures in creativity, doing things that are distinctly native to them, of which I am left in curiosity as to what it might be. There is no sense of stress or anxiety.

DF: Good, and now see if you can hear a message in that, roll out some words when you are ready.

W: Nothing like putting a guy on the spot.

DF: Go ahead, you can do this. You’ve done it a lot before, your conscious mind has just forgotten.

W: Okay, let me feel some more.

The many birds together say:

Only be that which you most truly are. Take in the energy of the sun and the universe that provides all things and let it move you to be you. Let go of that which is not you. Let your life force flow through you as a song that brings beauty and joy to everyone who has ears to hear.

Wow, Father God, the birds are actually talking to me.

DF: Of course they are, Wayne, of course.

W: Wow, Like, that’s what they’re really sayin’ then, you agree?

DF: They bring what you need to hear when you need to hear it. And, yes, that feels like what they are saying to you right now. And they’re pumped to have your ears. They can tell when you are giving them the gift of your attention.

W: This is cool stuff, Father.

DF: Okay, so it is. Now, see if you can transport yourself back to a busy noisy place somewhere, tune that in and see if you can hear the message or words in that noise.

W: Okay, I got to think of a place…ok, got one, the intersection outside a condo I used to live in, on a major thoroughfare.

DF: Perfect, get yourself seated there somewhere, close your eyes and listen and feel.

W: Got it.

The message I hear is. ‘No Time, I gotta go, or I’ll get behind. Gotta get ahead. The only person who cares for me is me. There is no beauty, only ‘progress’ and ‘development,’ but certainly no place for joy, or deep and real pleasure, or connection.

DF: And how does the message make you feel?

W: There is gasping for air, hunger to be seen and noticed and appreciated, in all of this speed and efficiency. If only I could do it faster and more efficiently, that would be perfect. There is great stress on the edge of a breaking point.

DF: And anything else you notice?

The birds here are mostly only a nuisance, nesting and pooping where they annoy people. They make messes of open trash cans and tossed out fast food bags.

DF: Wow, Wayne. That’s a pretty full deal right there. One setting opens you out and celebrates you, the other shuts you down, but still drives you, leaves you in stress and disconnection.

W: I’ll say, wow.

DF: So why did you live there?

W: I don’t know…

DF: Why do you think you lived there? This may be a bit hard to feel, but I think you can get to it.

W: As I feel it now, I could say it was about convenience, or proximity to my work, but that wouldn’t be true on the level you are talking now. The deeper truth I can feel is that I lived there because the message of that setting resonated with how I felt about myself. The lack of space to naturally and fully be myself, was somehow wired up as a side benefit of living there. And under that, I can feel this deeper me not resolved yet on whether it was then ready or not to be born into a world of beauty, and being seen and noticed.

DF: I’m so glad you live where you live now.

W: I am too, Father, most of the time. It isn’t without its adjustments and missings of something familiar.

DF: Yes, I have so felt you feeling your way through those missings as they come up for you.

W: Thank you. I feel that. I have felt your support to fully feel what I miss and have tears when I need to.

DF: The old familiar needs to be mourned and let go of to make room for a new familiar. The good news is that you are not meant to be without familiar comforts that make you feel helped and protected and loved and connected with.

W: I like feeling that, Father. Thank you again.

DF: Listen to the animals, they will help you move through these changes with less discomfort and pain. They are gifts to you to help you with your ongoing transmutation. You are not meant to do any of this without support and love and connection.

W: You come through the animals then?

DF: I do. There’s no hangups between me and them.

W: I will do that more and more, Father. I know I keep saying thank you, it’s just that I feel grateful when I feel our connection.

DF: That’s a good sign, Wayne. Everything you have has been given to you, so it’s your default state actually – Gratitude. All of life is a gift. Live where you can feel the gift, and express the gift to others. Receive the gifts of others gratitude in return. I want you to be well, really, really well.

W: Thank you, Father.

DF: Thank you, Wayne.

Wayne Vriend is a healer and author of 90 Days With Yeshua. Visit soulfullheart.com for more information.

W: Hello Father.

DF: Hello Wayne.

W: Father, I have a curious question for you.

DF: Curious I like. Please.

W: What is this connection that you and I share?

DF: Say more.

W: I mean, is it real, or is it imagined? Who is the you that I contact? How are the people who are reading this supposed to hold it? Am I like, ‘downloading God’? That’s quite a claim. If I could convince folks of that, it should sell for a fortune.

DF: I know you’re playing a bit dumb here, Wayne, but I can play along. Hopefully, we don’t offend folks with our condescension.

Of course, this is your imagination. And it’s very real. Both are true. Every belief about God that is on the planet now began in the imagination of one person, became stronger as that became a shared imagination and what came next were stories. There is nothing more profound than stories to move people and the universe. Hopefully, you and I will get real comfortable in your imagination and begin a brand new story.

W: Wow, so why do we trip over that, Father, the argument that something real isn’t imagined? As you say… what you just said, I can get that everything we call ‘real’, obviously began in the imagination, as an image. ‘Imagination’ and ‘real’ aren’t as far apart… as we imagined.

DF: And I don’t mean to jump to far ahead here, Wayne, but once you get that, then and only then can you actually take responsibility for the stories you are living from, the stories that are living you, and the stories you are giving strength to by doing so.

W: Let’s go there in a moment. I need to feel this piece that God is all in my head.

DF: And your heart.

W: And my heart.

DF: Right.

W: Not sure where to go now, you’re tweaking me.

DF: Tweaking’s good.

W: In the Christian bible… now there’s a story and a half that really held my consciousness for most of my life, first book ever written in fact…the deal was whether I believed the story as offered to be ‘thee truth’ or not that determines if I would go to heaven or hell. Those are two more very big stories, which goes to show…. what, Father?

DF: That anyone can be a really lousy story teller and get lots of people to listen.

W: You’re calling me a dumb dumb?

DF: Ahh, Wayne. No, I didn’t mean it that way. It’s just that we’re going to need to have some fun with this if we’re gonna blow up a story the size of the moon and come up with a new one.

W: So that’s what you have in mind.

DF: Father God vs. Heavenly Father. May the best God win!

W: You’ve already got a bit punchy in the first two days about false god stuff. It scares part of me with the shit you might stir up. I might need to double check with my parts if they are up for this ride?

DF: You may need to. You’re right.

W: Okay, I’ll do that.

DF: Good.

Here’s the thing, Wayne. The whole world is drowning in stories that have outlived their usefulness. The old God stories are stories in the most absolute sense possible. Humans are only and ever moved by nothing more than story.

W: Even I used to admit as a Christian, that the God story of the bible was in the truest sense, only and ever a story, but one that I believed to be a true story, something that really happened, that the story just gave an accurate account of.

DF: But you had no way of actually knowing if the story was a literal account or just a story pulled out of someone’s…mind.

W: All I could do for me, or offer to the person who I wanted to adopt the story like I had, was that they needed to believe, because there was no other way of proving per se. We don’t have talking snakes in our present ‘real’ world.

DF: And you know, that’s another bummer. I think all snakes should talk.

W: You’re proving to be quite a character.

DF: If we are busy reinventing God, don’t you think we should make it interesting? I’d like to be interesting.

W: But God, there’s a lot of people who’d be pissed as hell if these dialogues go anywhere out there in story land, and they’ve proven they can do some serious shit when they all get together and get pissed enough.

DF: And I say, piss on them. Truly. They are in the hell of their own choosing and there is no helping them.

W: Do you really mean that, Father God? I mean, it hurts to feel people really beyond help.

DF: Okay, so I’m a bit of an ass. It’s just how I’m feeling today. Maybe tomorrow, you’ll get something different out of me. The deal is though that people, if they are anything, they are subscribers to story. It is story that leads, guides and directs. Consciousness arising is simply taking responsibility for the stories you’ve let get in on the inside. Want a real and lasting deep life change? Look at the story you are reenacting, and find a new one, or better yet, make one up! God dammit!

W: There’s still stories I still want to change in my life.

DF: See, you’re anything but a dumb dumb, Wayne. You see that everything literal is born of story, and all story is imagination, and an imagination led by heart and love literally recreates the world. Nothing can stop a story whose time has come. And nothing can save an old story whose time is up. Sorry ‘Heavenly Father’,… loving jerk with ninety some percent of your subjects roasting in eternal hell-fires with not even the courtesy of an end to existence.

W: Wow, when you say it that way, you’re not half as nasty as that guy.

DF: You think I’m nasty?

W: I’m just getting to know you.

DF: With a couple reservations…

W: Maybe a couple…

DF: Good, you don’t want to buy any more tall stories.

Thank you again, Divine Father. I want your help in feeling the stories I have running, and guidance around finding replacements. Ones I can feel and heal with.

Let’s do that, Wayne. We’ll get beyond the angst, really we will, into heart and love and passion. I’m not sure what, but like I said, no use coming up with a dull story, nobody’d pay no mind. Manana, Amigo.

Wayne Vriend is a healer and author of 90 Days With Yeshua. Visit soulfullheart.com for more information.

W:  Hello, Divine Father

DF:  Hello, Wayne.

W:  Thank you for being and thank you for being here with me.

DF:  You’re welcome, Wayne.

W:  Well, Father, I’m not sure how to begin.

DF:  You just start.

W:  Okay. I can feel Tristan inside of me, he’s my retiring contractor wanting to tell you a little story. I’m glad he feels okay to be this direct with you.

DF:  I’d love to hear that story.

Tristan:  Tristan says: Hello Father.

DF:  Hello Tristan.

T:  Yesterday, after we talked with you. I felt a bit overwhelmed taking on another big project of writing every day. There’s the time needed to write, check it over, and then get it ready for posting and all of that. Then there’s the impact on the morning work schedule we’ve been keeping around cob building that affects working with Jillian and Christopher. So I asked you for some guidance and support around all of that. I felt myself settle into trust around it as the day went on, but then at bedtime, there was a cool gift.

DF:  Cool gifts are really good. What was it?

T:  A firefly flew right into our room, after dark, landed on my e-reader, buzzed around, all lit up, and then sat on the wall on the slow fade in and out setting. We named him Sparky.  Jillian got out of bed to get our animal totem booklet and this is what it said about the firefly: Keep your hope strong. New Inspiration is awakening. Trust your own rhythms. Hope is critical to fulfillment and accomplishment.

DF:  Awesome, Tristan. And how does that help you now?

T:  Well, I’ve been doing so much linear mind stuff all my life, technical customer service stuff and painting contracting that it was difficult to feel any of it inside of a divine container. Stuff like the firefly’s message helps me see the divine reverence for all of life that underlies all things. I really want to see that more and more.

DF:  And Tristan, so you shall my friend, so you shall.

T:  Thank you Father.

DF:  No, thank you. Thank you for your overwhelm, for being willing to feel it and  ask for help from inside of it, feel your trust, find your answer and especially thank you for being willing to share it. You are a great man with a child’s heart.

Wayne:  Thank you for feeling Tristan, Father.

DF:  You’re both welcome, big time.

W:  Now my heart is overwhelmed again, but with a really good feeling of being loved, and unique, and connected. I can feel your energy and heart going into Tristan and me both.

DF:  Divine overwhelm.

W:  So you are into fireflies?

DF:  I am. That is just part of the whole lit up deal, you know.

W:  The whole lit up deal?

DF:  The whole lit up deal. That’s as good a name for it as any. It’s when life takes on a new and deepening glow because you choose to see.

W:  I choose to see and yet I know that I want to see so much more.

DF:  If you are willing to see, Wayne, and willing to need and feel, I can assure you the rest of your days will be filled with deepening wonder, deepening experience of love.

W:  Wow, I really wonder if I can let that in, Father. How do I really feel deep down inside of me about a never ending deepening in love and wonder?

DF:  Wayne, even the means to let in more capacity to let in love is something that is given to you inside of relationship. You use up what you have and come back for more.

W:  That’s feels like what’s really true for me right now Father, thank you.

I want to let in my next pieces, big or small. Life has changed so much this past year with leaving Canada, laying down an old livelihood, and moving to an off grid ranch in rural Mexico. Many times, parts of me feel a missing of something, having let go of so much, being in so much newness and trust. But really, I can’t really place what it is that I miss from my old life. It feels like what I am really aching for is a deeper and more moment by moment felt connection with you. I guess I’ve used up what I had and am hungry for more, like you say.

DF:  Wayne. Love is here now. For you. With me. A deep awareness that all of life is arrayed in union to bring you goodness, heart, and meaning. Everything that I am and all that I have, I share it with you, as you do likewise. Nothing can separate you from this love, never, ever.

W:  And I choose again in this moment to let this love in, to let it fill me, move me, bathe me, to let it color how I feel about myself, how my parts feel about themselves.

DF:  Wayne, do that. Do just that. Please. From my end, love that doesn’t get to flow because of a stopped up heart that can’t or won’t receive it is a royal pain in the ass.

W:  I’ll bet. Like clogged plumbing.

DF:  Exactly.

W:  Thank you, Father. I feel to pause on words and conversation and let in this feeling that is here now. Not that we can’t talk more as we go, it’s just that I need to walk it out. I feel you shifting something big in me, making room for where we are going, wherever that is.

DF:  Good call. Tomorrow then?

W:  Yes, as we say here, Manana.

Wayne Vriend is a co-founder of Soulfullheart Community, healer and author of 90 Days With Yeshua. Visit soulfullheart.com for more information.

Recently, Jillian, Christopher and I, were feeling together the need and desire to embrace the voice of the Divine Father in this time of deep global transmutation and change. Who are you? What is your deepest and truest path? What changes should you embrace to find that? I deeply hope and desire that Dialogues With The Divine Father will take you naturally to your answers to those questions, and to more of your own unique and sovereign connection with The Divine.

Wayne Vriend

A god who can’t feel you, or that you can’t feel is no god at all.

Dear Divine Father,

This is Wayne.

I hope you don’t mind being called that. I need a personal name for the sacred masculine and I’m open to calling you whatever you’d like. It’s just that the Christians took up heavenly father already, and look where that’s gone, and you seem so much more here than heavenly, and the native term of father sky seems too far off somehow for me too. Maybe this is because of my heavy conditioning this life to see the sacred and spiritual as cordoned off somehow from the natural and everyday and mundane. I’d sure like to talk more with you about that one for sure. What I’m feeling is that I long to relate with you and integrate that relationship into my real everyday life. Then I had this idea that I’d like to have and write a daily dialogue starting today, and I’d like to know what you think of that. Like, if I’m going to do this, why not make it public and share it as an offering of my deepest gifts into the world? I did that for 90 days With Yeshua and it changed me so much, that I’m still trying to catch up with it in many ways. Yeshua has a ton of the sacred masculine running, as you know, and our species, me included, has never needed a big dose of the sacred masculine more than it does now.

I feel, Divine Father, that spirituality in general has muddied the waters to the degree where most people don’t see a personal connection with you as a birthright, or native to them, but as a far off removed attainment of some weird kind. My sense is that talking with you, feeling and listening, and then writing what I feel in response is the real deal, available to all. I know so many have tried to make it something more spiritually spooky than that, but mostly what they did was exclude themselves as well as install what amounted to a control and power mechanism over others. No offense if you actually are more spiritually spooky than I’ve imagined, it’s just that I have a heart that feels and speaks and listens and I want to engage that, trust that, that that is enough to learn what I need to learn and long to learn.

Yeshua said so much about how true learning begins with not knowing, the quest of true questions, and I feel how he got that all from you, by not knowing, and questing with his questions. I have a ton of questions, Father. Tons and tons. Each answer I get leads to more questions.

Calling you Father just now makes me feel the young part of me that I call ‘Magical God Child, or MGC for short.’ He’s a new part that I just met recently and I’m guessing that a more personal name will arise for him as I get to know him better, but I wanted to tell you about him, as I can feel his interest in this conversation.

In short, Divine Father, we are so longing to find a sacred masculine energy with which to sort ourselves out. The masculine and the feminine too are at a deep crossroads, our entire human history it feels like is at a place of a sacred death and rebirth. Something huge is collapsing, something whose time is completing and making way for something new.

All of that metaphysics is way cool of course, but then there’s the me who lives in Mexico, on a remote ranch, with my wife and close friend, that really wants to be able to apply this connection with you when I’m watering the garden or treading out another batch of cob for the cabanas we’re building. What is moving in me moment by moment? And how is that a reflection of what’s real in my relationship with you, Divine Father?

I should wrap this up because I can feel you eager to respond and patient too to let me say all I want to say. Thank you. Thank you for the prompt and the idea to start this dialogue. I need the connection and I need to give my deepest gifts of sharing that connection.

Yours truly,

Wayne

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Dear Wayne,

This is Divine Father.

Thank you for contacting me. You’re right, contacting me is so easy, so easy in fact, that’s what makes it difficult for most people. It only requires need and vulnerability and desire. Sadly though, getting there is the biggest and hardest part of the journey. But so doable, if anyone wants to.

Wayne, you are so all over the place, (if you don’t mind me saying), in a really good way. I have always loved that about you. Thank you for questioning and thank you for not being satisfied with the answers. Most people have yet to conceive that there is much I don’t know. They then create a false god image of me who is all knowing so they can pretend to be little sub versions of it, godliness with a sprinkle of false humility to keep the cover.

I said ‘they’ just now, didn’t I? I don’t mean to be distancing in my wording, it’s just that there is in fact a big distance between me and so many. The distance is not innate, or uncrossable, but it is relational. Need, desire and want has to lead. Truth is, I’m lonely for connection with you, and in danger of learning to settle for the lack of connection. Nothing lights me up more than someone who wants to connect. See that, contrary to popular misconception, needs is another thing I have.

Back to your letter. Pardon me, I was noting you for being all over the place. I feel a booming yes to everything you said, but let me see what I need to mention specifically. Calling me Divine Father is fine, as long as I can call you Divine Son. I am not ashamed in any way to be called and known as your father, but so deeply honored. You could call me Wayne’s dad too for that matter. Yeshua was never my only begotten son, but let’s save that for later. Yes, we can fill up a lot of days with dialogue. I’d like that a lot. It’s going to take us some time to feel totally comfortable with each other, but that’s all good and part of the process. I’m liking the 90 days thing again actually like you did with Yeshua, but we can let that unfold and see where it goes.

I feel Magical God Child inside of you and I’d like to get to know and feel him deeply as we go. Thank you for introducing us already.

You’re so right about the complications and pretzels people put themselves in trying to relate or not to relate to what really amounts to their own divinity. I am not ‘god’ as many conceive of when they use that title. That bastard is a false idol construct created out of the ample supply of true relational disconnect. I’m sorry dear Christian, dear Buddhist, dear Muslim if that offends, and I know it does, but I invite you to feel into the possibility that any real and dear feelings you have towards ‘god’ are in fact a measure of your and my actual and real connection. Your true and deep connection with god is owned by no one, cannot be certified by anyone, and cannot be taken from you or given to by anyone. It’s sovereignly yours, because you are a sovereign. We get to share and relate inside of sovereignty. Anything less is a fraud and a deception of everything you and I actually are.

Yes, we can take all this up and more up in question and quests. Let’s call it that instead of question and answer. I can promise you that you will not come out the other side of this the same. People know that intuitively, don’t they? Real relationship always changes deeply, hence the false substitutes. Change needn’t be nearly as scary inside of a real relationship. Change is as natural as being born, which is meant to be the first of many. You so touch me, Wayne, with your willingness to embrace change, to let it in and welcome it.

I feel your heart’s cry for a deeper knowing and feeling of real divine-sacred-masculine energy and power in your day to day grounded and real life. How you feel about yourself in any and every moment is the essence of life, the essence of divinity and the essence of the sacred journey called humanity. So let’s feel together, Wayne, every day, if we can. Let’s share the feeling, because a feeling is only a feeling if it is felt by an other….hello?

A god who can’t feel you, or that you can’t feel is no god at all.

Man, I get what you say, Wayne, I should probably end this for now. Save it for our daily digest. I think I need the day to get ready for what’s coming tomorrow. Thank you for taking my suggestion so seriously. I hope this touches many and deeply so, and draws more people to connect with you, and Jillian and Christopher. I feel the project you are undertaking.

And one more yes. Yes to you giving your deepest gift to the world. There’s one of the biggest secrets in the universe about how to find your deepest and truest destiny. Set out to give your deepest gifts. Let that lead you step by step, and you can be rest assured that will lead so many fewer regrets, and deep joy and love of being.

Yours truly,

Divine Father

aka ‘waynesdad

Wayne Vriend is a healer and author of 90 Days With Yeshua. Visit soulfullheart.com for more information.