Let’s Try Being A Hu-Man First

When will we men stop trying to be ‘men’ and just start being more human? This does not mean to me to be more feminine (although a deep connection to the feminine is needed), but to just be a human being with aches and pains, passions and visions. Yes, we have different ways of being in the world that are in contrast to women. We have different expectations placed upon us by society in general. We have different modes of operation. We do have different experiences, clearly.

Yet, at the core we all have something that we crave and need, but somehow men have been convinced or conditioned we don’t or shouldn’t need them. Deep down I believe all men, as human beings, want and need to be seen. We want to be felt and heard if we are brave and vulnerable enough to get to the core of what we really feel.

Most of my life was spent in a tumble-dry around what it means to be a man. Then it was about being divinely or sacredly masculine. All of which led to comparison, judgment, and feelings of inadequacy. NONE of that felt good. It’s crap! Sacred crap, but still crap. I feel for men who, like me, just want to embody our own authentic sense of self in the world. We may want ‘more’ of what we categorize as masculine, but in reality we are just wanting what feels like our truest nature shorn of all the comparative bullshit.

So, we are really not lacking anything we don’t already possess in our Essence. We are all the masculine we can possibly be. We have just been wounded. Been through trauma. Been told how to be in the world. We have hidden the gold in the shit pile of cultural conditioning and shaming. It has been hammered into us to not be vulnerable. To not feel our feelings. To not express anything other than a warrior’s call to arms, or exude the goo of a spiritualized porn star.

Who is it that lies under all of that stuff? Who IS our human man? What pain does he still hold? What grief has gone untouched? What truth and passion has been cordoned off and set to the side in the name of trying to be something we’re not? Trying to just ‘get by’ and survive?

I continue to unearth that man every single day. Not usually in epic movements or illuminations, but in day-to-day feeling and expressing as well as reflections from my beloved mate, Kasha, and soul community. This is where my sacred huMANity comes to play, learn, and witness itself. I have been going back to some very painful times of my life that are serving as a springboard and a catalyst for a different me in the world rather than the ‘me’ that I feel I had been trying to be with mixed results.

These times are rooted in the teenage years and I feel they offer many of us a gateway to not just our inner health, but also our deeper relationship to magic, real spirituality, and the sacredness of our expression in the world. I will go into that deeper in future writings and videos.

For now, I just felt like connecting my man’s heart to yours, whoever you are, wherever you are. I sense there is an army of men out there who feel the same and who just want to feel and be the man that is uniquely them in all the flavors from the Shadow to the Light. I would love to connect with and serve any man who feels the call to fall into his own grace and heart-centered power.

I love you, Man.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Arising Of The May King

The Horned God comes into union with The May Queen. He sets his sights, opens his heart, and commits to the bond through his own need for growth and creation. A powerful and sacred coming together that begins on the inside and extends on the outside.

I did not have much connection to this day in my past, but it as become an increasing profound and beautiful day of honoring the masculine and feminine sacred union as well as our relationship to Mother Gaia and Her gifts of Spring and Summer. It has triggered feelings of inadequacy in my past with Kasha as she has had such a deep experience and relationship to it. Yet, as with all triggers, they are gateways to our deepest fears and rewards.

I can meet the wounded masculine within and hold space for his healing and arising into his own May King. The masculine that can show up to all of the ebbs and flows of the stillness and fire of the Divine Feminine May Queen. The King that can be in his own truth as well as meet his own shadow and vulnerable parts that are still in hiding and integration. This is no small task. It is a life-long journey that is both challenging and rewarding.

I have been fortunate to have been in intimate relationship as well as community to help reflect and mirror both my arising King and wounded man. They are always in orbit of each other and offer both solace and gifts. On this day, honor them both, as well as the feminine within me that has guided me to let in the union I share with my beloved, Kasha. This had to start from the inside from me to me first. I had to feel ready and worthy enough to go into the depths of vulnerable intimacy, as challenging and scary it can be.

I felt to share a poem I wrote years ago as a call to my Queen before I knew that it was Kasha all along. Many Beltane blessings to all both in and out of union:

Come with me, my love
Down the spiral staircase of my heart
Into the garden of my humanity

Bear witness to it succulence
It’s uniqueness
It’s burned and broken places

Come with me, my queen
Along the paths of weathered words
And the trails of new beginnings
Water the wilted with your loving care
Ignite the growth with your fiery passion

Will you follow me into the unknown?
Into the cauldron of our being?
Will you dance with me among the golden lilies
As well as the prickly cactus and forest ablaze?
Will you join with me in the exploration of our sacred sexuality?

The slow caress of my hands
Upon your beautifully sculpted, divinely feminine curves
The electric sparks that leap off our tongues
Setting fire to our chakras one by one
When we reach the gateway of our heavenly union

Will you come with me?
May I come into you?
Into your atmosphere where you shine and fly?
Into your hidden and protected caverns?
The places where few have been allowed to tread
Into your luscious and sacred garden?

I will not pluck your flowers
Or step on your sprawling vines
I will sit patiently for you to join me.
To share with me you tales
Your stories of adventure
….of agony
….of strength
….and weakness

I will etch them into my heart
Weave them into the tapestry of us
Though they belong to you and you alone
They share a sacred place in between you and me

Come with me, by beloved
As far as we both were meant to go
To unravel the mystery of who we were meant to be.

May this May Day open you out to the gifts of this season and these celestial constellations,

*****

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Message Of The Morning Star

The past week or so I have had the pleasure of meditating with the beloved Venus right before sunrise. I don’t think I have ever had such an intimate experience with the Morning Star before. She feels so poignant right now, both personally and collectively.

I have felt Her gentle yet also direct illumination. She offers a perspective that is different than Mars in how to be as a man during these times. While Mars has more of a Warrior King draw, Venus calls to the Love Ambassador within. It activates the masculine connection to his heart via compassion as well as passion.

Venus is a force that draws the Sun (read ‘Son’) from his slumber. She calls him to his deepest purpose of shedding light and offering warmth to all he touches. He also activates movement and courage to stand in truth without resorting to violence. There is much shadow that is being drawn out at this time and this has a myriad of reactions.

Venus is calling me, and maybe you too, to see the world as it is with all its apparent chaos, and feel all the feelings that emerge from rage, to anxiety, to grief. We have felt separated from our Divinity and from the Divine in all its forms. We have projected this onto so many external aspects of our lives and now we are seeing how that has worked out for us.

We had to do this to really see that we are, and can be, the Kings and Queens of our own existence on this glorious planet. We are not alone yet parts of us may feel so. We may feel far away, but we are also so close to Love that it may feel it is too close as well. A sacred push-pull if there ever was one.

Venus reminds me that as a masculine emissary of Love I have a responsibility to love myself first, be present, honest, and vulnerable in my sacred union as well as with my intimate community. I have a responsibility to be myself in full embodiment of my mission and purpose to serve this SoulFullHeart kind of Love to other men and women that need me to stand in that space for them as I have been from those that have served me.

The time with the Morning Star reminds me that we are not hopeless or helpless. We have support and guidance standing right there in front of us even when it doesn’t feel that way sometimes. Our higher selves are held in a Divine Trust account just waiting for to claim it when we are ready.

I feel the Unknown of what is to come at the same time I feel the Known of the Love that is holding it all. May Venus be your guide to the love and leadership that awaits you as the mystery and drama unfold.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Inner Feminine Guided Meditation: Video 27 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael Awen & Gabriel Amara

In this twenty-seventh video of our 31-day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Co-Creator Raphael Awen is joined by SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator Gabriel Amara as we explore Sacred Masculine Awakening in this fourth of four videos exploring the Sacred Masculine within the larger Deepen 22 series.

In this video, Raphael and Gabriel discuss:
-the significance and their personal experience of connecting with their own Inner Feminine aspects within.
-why the masculine is hesitant to acknowledge the feminine within.
-how the Inner Feminine Relationship connects with a relationship to Divine Mother.
-How a false feminine can hold the space in our conditioning until we bridge to this aspect and help it feel and heal its way back to its true essence.

In the guided meditation portion of the video, Gabriel and Raphael lead you back into your castle, but this time, you go in to find your Inner Feminine chambers and take in how it feels to be here. You get to meet your Inner Feminine aspect and bridge to what feels real now between you and her.

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about a Deepen 2022 group call on January 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Purpose And Meaning Guided Meditation: Video 25 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael Awen & Gabriel Amara

In this twenty-fifth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Co-Creator Raphael Awen is joined by SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator Gabriel Amara as we explore Sacred Masculine Awakening in this second of four videos within the Deepen Series

In this video, we discussed:
*How a human embodiment requires purpose and meaning and how needing purpose and meaning isn’t some ego attachment to be transcended in the name of a higher frequency or some kind of spirituality.
*That we are created as and by purpose and meaning and that our journey is ever ongoing in remembering that, discovering that, and how that changes as we move through ascension. We are not out looking for a purpose, but rather remembering the one encoded deep within.
*We spent some time feeling what a 4D expression of purpose and meaning can take on a big warrior kind of stance battling for freedom from the tyranny of the oppressors from whom we must wrestle back our freedom, and then compared that to what to a 5D expression of purpose and meaning looks and feels like in contrast where we move into a love-ambassador stance of being.
*We also discussed what role a community plays in purpose and meaning, how we can’t really embody purpose and meaning in any way as a lone wolf, even as we all have phases of needing a lone wolf kind of experience.

In the guided meditation portion of the video, Gabriel and Raphael:
*Lead you into your purpose and meaning room, where you find your personal akashic record imprint of your purpose to see what you are ready to see and feel.
*We then looked at a future self version of you expressing in purpose and meaning.
*And then we felt the gap between where you are today and where your future self is expressing.
*We then exited this room into the full light of day to take in the light codes to support this awakening.

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about a Deepen 2022 group call on January 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Grief and Mourning Guided Meditation: Video 24 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael Awen & Gabriel Amara

In this twenty-fourth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Co-Creator Raphael Awen is joined by SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator Gabriel Amara as we explore Sacred Masculine Awakening over the next four videos.

In this video, we shared about how undigested grief and mourning seems to be the big piece holding the masculine back from entering the true ground of their emotional body from where real authenticity and presence and being arises; how this grief can be related to experiences this life, and can even stretch back all the way back to our original separation wound held by an Inner Orphan part of us that was created when we were soul-born into an individuated separate consciousness out of the Divine. We talked about how the masculine’s entire relationship with life, with meaning and purpose, with self-identity is then skewed by this undigested grief.

In the guided meditation portion of the video, Gabriel and Raphael lead you into the grief room to feel what is ready to be bridged to and felt, mourned, and then taken out into the light of day – from mourning to morning.

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about a Deepen 2022 group call on January 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.
We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed
For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

The Love Language Of Divine Father: Women’s Group Call May 30th

by Kasha Rokshana

His sacred ROAR clears the room. His bright beacon of Truth shines our way through all darkness. His compassion holds us, infinitely, though we feel challenged to hold ourselves.

Divine Father is an energy that, in its purity, is MUCH different than the punitive he-god of religions. When He appears in different forms and faces, our projections place lightning bolts or swords in His hands, yet when you feel His tender heart, you realize that He could never and would never weaponize his love for all of us. 

I experience Divine Father through the energy of my heart and soul’s connection to Yeshua most often, yet sometimes I also feel Him just as Fatherly energy without form that simply does not caretake or want to coddle me. Instead, I feel how He challenges me to grow, to arise, and to lean-in to Him. 

He is much different than my experience of my birth father in this lifetime, who was seldom fully present to me, barely ever watered me as a young and budding woman, and didn’t know how to offer affection and direct love without the runaround of ‘providing’ and having that be his only ‘love language’. When my father passed away, I know he helped me see some of the patterns he passed down to me. I deeply got that he wanted me to heal from them while also overcoming them as behaviors inside myself. 

In some ways this relationship with him blocked my true relationship with the heart of Divine Father, yet also, it offered me something to differentiate it from. 

As woman, Divine Father can be especially challenging to let in and feel. It’s as challenging as letting in a true soulmate. It’s as challenging as understanding that indeed, some men are deeply GOOD, even if they choose not to caretake or coddle you. Men who are on their own paths to wanting to see and feel themselves, to recognize with humility their own imperfections and need for healing may be rare in a way yet they are emerging. They represent the love of Divine Father who also feels humility and who infinitely supports our ongoing Ascension as Sacred Humanity arising… as a humanity that is learning to love itself again just as the Divine loves us and longs to feel our love return to them as well.

The healing that is possible for men and women through genuine connection with Divine Father from within is immense… His light shines so brightly and his love even brighter. He holds with tenderness our experiences in His heart. He feels us all deeply in his infinite capacity for feeling. He is a guide, in whatever form you’re ready to let in, and He will not push or force his way into your life and your own heart… patiently, he waits for your attention, intention, and desire, with such an embrace that spans the whole world. Even your own whole world inside, as complex and complicated as it’s become.

Jelelle Awen and I will be offering a women’s group meditation call this coming Sunday May 30th at 5pm BST on Zoom, focused on healing the father wound inside to let in Divine Father. It’s by donation and you can attend live or receive the recording to take in later. 

You can find more information on this upcoming call here: soulfullheart.org/events

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

To The Great Mother On Mother’s Day

To the Great Mother of All,

As your Divine son, I feel how much I have needed to push away
As well as needed your reassurance.
I have longed for your embrace and your grace
I have denied your Love yet ached for it too.

It can be confusing for parts of me to let you in
To let you ‘win’.
To surrender into your open arms
And to be challenged by your open heart

You have been there always in my darkest days
And my brightest nights
You have sent me messengers and teachers
Ambassadors and beloveds

You have never grasped for me or tugged on me
You have been a silent cheerleader
And a fierce catalyzer
With the knowing that it was always for my highest Good

Thank you for never giving up on me when I was ready to give up
For never doubting me when I felt doubtful
For always seeing me when I couldn’t see myself
For always holding me when I felt I was falling apart.

I will forever be in gratitude to you
You will never let me rest when it is time to run
You will never let me run when it is time to rest
I wish to gather your sons and kings of heart
Back to the power and grace of your womb, dear Mother.

I am blessed to be in your service and in your sacred heart.
You told me once, “Your steps will never be longer than your stride.”
I trust that more than ever and thanks to you my strides are getting longer and stronger.

Love to you Dear Mother of All on this Mother’s Day. 🌹❤

Your Divine Son,
Gabriel

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Quest Of Sacred Knighthood

There is a sacred Knighthood that lives among the hearts of men. A Kighthood that needs to be revisited in our souls to heal the division amongst us so that we may once again find a unity within us.

We were once called to a Higher code of vision and purpose before being hijacked in our hearts. We all agreed to this. We chose it to work out something inside and out. I am being called to be one of many that wish to see this Order to be reestablished and embodied once again.

An Order that is committed to self-healing and Divine expression. One that looks beyond the machinations of the System and derives its sovereign authority from Love Itself.

It is an Order devoted to committing itself to vulnerable leadership, community-building, and sacred union/intimacy within mateship. Co-creating and co-leading with the feminine inside and out.

This is dismantling the old orders of warriors and nice guys. They are integrated into a more wholistic and sacred service of creation not bound by fear, hate, domination, and guilt. This a call that starts not by fixing or transcending, but by feeling and courageous embodiment of what is clear and aligned with Love.

That is the new Quest I have been called to participate in alongside Raphael Awen. The new Call to Arms which means going into the heart. Into the soul to find where we left Love’s Grace and to reinstall it back into our Being and back into Consciousness. A new order of Knighthood that leads us back to our one true Kingdom of Heaven on Earth.

For more information on being a part of this quest, I offer a free 45 min. introductory call. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Preface To ‘The Quest: A Men’s Healing And Ascension Journey’

I started working on a book about the quest of the sacred masculine and its healing journey about this time last year when I was apart from my soul fam in SoulFullHeart. Of course, it couldn’t help itself from being anything less than what I had learned. It was a way for me to see myself, feel myself, and hopefully help other men in the process.

I have gone back to it recently and felt a pride in what I started and feel drawn and guided to continue on. I may share excerpts along the way as they highlight themselves. Today, I felt to share the Preface as it has relevance to our current collective situation and how are huMANity and masculinity relate to it. I look forward to where this journey takes me in my leadership and service of love to the men (and women!) it is meant to land in.


“IT IS CURRENTLY 2021 and I find myself, along with all of humanity, in a very tumultuous time in history. A global pandemic of fear, psychological and informational warfare, disclosure, and governmental authoritarianism is reigning supreme in our collective drama. Those that have been ‘elected’ or determined to be the leaders of the glorious mothership we call Earth/Gaia, are showing themselves to be ‘emperors with no clothes’.

I started to write this book about the awakening, sacred masculine right around the time the world went into a frenzy of lockdowns and an ever-mounting case load of information showing that we are being hooped and reigned in by a consciousness that is dystopian, dysfunctional, and dis-integrated. There are cries that the Old Guard of the Patriarchy be taken down and dis-membered (many times expressed literally!). There is the disclosure of the ‘Deep State’ as well as the hidden hand that is its ‘Luciferian’ influencer.

I put words in quotes not to dismiss them, but to highlight that these words are portals into something more contextual and less exact. This is not a book about evidence, data, or convincing this or that. It is about feeling within the current circumstance we find ourselves in as human beings, and more specifically as the masculine side of that equation (more on what I mean by that in the following Introduction.)

The male/wounded masculine dominance of the past few thousand years is being brought to trial and exposure by the collective arising feminine as well as the awakening, healing masculine. This is not an anti-man exploration. My journey has been to find the roots of our collective wounding through my own personal healing and introspection/integration process. In my heart it is very PRO-masculine, the healed transmutation of what has not been working and the honoring and cultivation of what has.

As men on a quest for our authentic expression and embodiment in this drama, we are being called to initiate ourselves into something new that brings us face-to-face with the Shadow that is appearing right in front of our very eyes these days. We are being invited to seek our calling and purpose in this death and rebirth process known as ‘Ascension’.

We all have a huge part to play in the years to come. Yet to recreate and rebuild I feel we need to do that from a more healed and honest place within us. Who we truly are is a result of seeing and feeling what we have been through with a courageous and compassionate heart as well as passionate conviction to be the change we want to see in the world.”


Raphael Awen and I will be hosting a Men’s Group Call on Saturday, March 27 via Zoom at 5pm GMT. The topic will be Power, Adequecy, and Vulnerability. We will be doing a video conversation and meditation soon to bring this into clarity. But until then you can visit our page at: www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls for more info and donations for the link.

*****

Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.