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Journeying To The Counterpart Pairbond In Sacred Union/Twin Flame

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By Jelelle Awen

My beloved Raphael and I have been journeying lately to our Counterpart Pairbond source field together and separately as well, asking for guidance/messages/support for deepening in our bond together and in service expression. An angelic guide Ariel came to us recently, who is the gatekeeper and bridge to our Pairbond, the original source of our masculine/feminine entwinement and separation.

We both see our Pairbond as separated from the torso upwards and yet entwined still at the lower half, wrapping like snakes around each other, like the energies of Kundalini, the dragon ley lines of the Tor (or sort of like the painting below by Lorraine Sadler). The two upper halves are undulating around each other, coming into union again and then dividing again, over and over in an infinite loop.

The Pairbond source field seems to be the dimension above the soul family monad groups and ‘under’ the Archangels. It is where the first split off of individuation happens for us as souls, where masculine and feminine expressions divide into two separate halves.

Separating out of the pairbond is the masculine half then incarnating into so many timelines/lifetimes and the feminine half incarnating as well. This separation is a source of deep, deep wounding for us. The masculine feeling inadequate to truly provide for the feminine that has helped create his new form yet aching to be ‘free’. The feminine feeling rejected by the masculine’s need for independence and yet compelled to respond to it.

I believe this is what people are tuning into when they name someone as a ‘twin flame’, yet they tend to be too literal about it, mislabeling karmic soul mates as counterparts (who actually prepare you for the counterpart), and use it to justify all means of codependent behaviors in toxic relationships. The counterpart pairbond is actually a much more subtle division that when we are reunited in the physical invites us into healthy, mature relating that is both deeply committed and unattached/surrendered at the same time.

Life change can happen suddenly and abruptly in counterpart reunion as everything that doesn’t serve the bond falls away. All transaction of the bond in terms of nourishment levels, timing to be together, purpose of coming together, etc. is surrendered to the Divine ultimately and not about ego gratification or attainment. Connecting to the Pairbond brings up deep feelings of humility and gratitude, over and over again inviting you to heal with compassion for yourself and your counterpart whatever gets in the way of its loving transaction.

Sometimes there is reunion between the counterparts in a specific lifetime; sometimes there are many reunions in different lifetimes, configurations, roles, relationships, etc. (and even switching gender expressions) in order to work out karmic patterns/clearings.

Ariel offered that EVERY soul has a counterpart at the pairbond source field level. It’s just the way the Divine wanted to play with polarities and dualities when It started to be curious about that. More counterparts are in reunion this lifetime than before in a “Matrix/3D anchored” lifetime as there is so much possibility now for healing, for reconnecting, and for service to the Divine. Counterpart reunion frequencies are also needed right now to assist humanity’s ascension out of 3D and into 5D.

Raphael and I both feel a deep validation and appreciation for our ongoing reunion this life through connecting with our Pairbond source field. And, a renewed desire for creative expression together. We’ve been guided to write the story of our sacred union journey, going back to 18 years ago when we first met, sharing about the three years before we finally got together, and our experiences during 15 years of marriage.

The book will be written from both of our perspectives, channeling the parts of us who were going through whatever phase they were then. We would love to release and publish the book on our 15th wedding anniversary, March 28th, 2024.

Writing this together is a way to celebrate the ongoing bliss mess reunion that we get to be in this life, after so many lifetimes of hiding, pining, dying, and suffering over each other. So many lifetimes of experiencing the separation between us with seemingly no hope of being together.

I hope you join us for this written journey and also what we are seeing as a new sacred union group call series launching next year as well to support our book.

You can connect with your Pairbond source field at ANY time, whether you feel that you’ve drawn your counterpart mate this life or not. Whether you are in any ache to be with them or happily single.

Tuning into it reminds you that separation has been a temporary illusion; Union is our natural state; and this may be the lifetime where reunion with your counterpart is TRULY possible.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Info about 1:1 and couples sessions with me/Raphael or us together at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

The Emerging Me Through Natural Education

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By Christopher Tydeman

In my former life, I was a teacher. I taught a range of ages from 7 to 12. I taught reading, writing, mathematics, history, science…et al. While I was teaching I was wondering if I was really teaching anything at all. I mean, yeah, I was helping with some basic fundamentals that are the building blocks of an education. But the content was a mixture of somewhat useful and interesting to downright drab and boring. I tried my best to bring in something meaningful and engaging but, to be honest, it was a lot of work. It all had to tie into the β€œStandards” of the prevailing curricula. Oh yes, the Standards.

We want our children to be β€œcompetent” so that they are β€œsuccessful in today’s highly competitive world.” As a former parent to a school-aged child, I bought that with half my heart and all my mind. I passed that down to my students and their parents and care-givers. If they could demonstrate β€œproficiency” they would have a much better chance of β€œmaking a better life for themselves”.

I agree that my use of quotes is a bit tongue and cheek seasoned with sarcasm. That is my intention. Even while I was buying and selling those words, I could feel how devoid of humanity they really were. The Standards System, or Core Knowledge, or whatever the hell they are calling it now, is nothing more than a conveyor belt by which the Industrial Machine can create its submissive robots. I couldn’t participate in that system anymore without being guilty by association.

Why am I writing about this now? Great question. It has been two years now that I have left my teaching career. I am also now just learning what real education is all about…self-sufficiency, emotional awareness and fluency, and a place to discover and nuture our Divinely-given gifts. I guess I just realized I am in school for the first time since I was a child, where learning happened through creative play and experimentation. As an adult, I can add a lot of physical work to that list. This was the education I wished I could have given my daughter and my students. This is the shit that really matters. I knew it mattered because my students went crazy for nature, food, play, and art. They, as well as us older children, were born with the Divine Fingerprint. The desire to be with what we need most as human beings.

Somewhere we forgot that along the way. Convinced ourselves it must be more complicated than that. But as I sit here in Mexico with gardens literally popping out the ground from our own research, intuition, play and labor, I can tell you it isn’t. Granted, it is hard work. I have worked hard before, but this is for our food. Our sustenance and currency. Our hearts and our souls. You can’t get more real than that. I am learning more about myself and nature, as Mother intended. This is the real classroom.

So, I am back to being a student again. That is hard for the Industrial part of me who thought we had it all figured out. Put in the time and retire in peace. But once you feel your true, wild, natural self you can’t stay in the System without feeling the rub, the pain. The un-naturalness of it all. The insanity. This part of me is becoming more aware of how much happier he is now than he was then. I am beginning to feel a new me arising from this transition from teacher to student. From Industrial Self to Natural Self.

At some point I see myself teaching again. Not sure what that would look like, but I know what it wouldn’t. Been there, done that. I see being a part of a new reality for education. One that will emerge from the collapse of the old. For now, I am enjoying the ride of sitting in the student seat. Learning from my SoulFullHeart family, the ranch workers, the animals, the plants, and the Divine. They are the best teachers I have ever had. Time to rewrite the standards from the inside out.

Emotionally Conscious Education: What’s Possible Between Adverbs and Algebra

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By Chris Tydeman

I was invited by Jillian to write an article about emotionally conscious education and how our current school system supports or does not support it.Β  I am a third grade teacher.Β  My experience for several years has always been with children between the ages of 7-11.Β  An age I feel is ripe for setting a foundation for the turbulent world of the middle school years.Β  In this age range, children are more open to be honest and receptive to authentic emotional guidance.Β  If they like their teacher and see them as a real human being rather than an authority figure alone, they will β€œhear” us rather than just listen (if we are lucky!).Β  In this case, β€œhearing” is an aspect of feeling what I am saying.Β  You feel me?

I spend many hours a day with a population of children who come from a wide range of family dynamics. I chose not say cultural or economic dynamics because both of those, in my opinion, are included within the family dynamic as a whole.Β  At this age, they are beginning to form the early stages of their relationship to the outside world.Β  Their assumptions and feelings of themselves and others begin to take shape.Β  These formations are greatly impacted by their family dynamic.Β  If a child is neglected emotionally at home, they come to school depressed, angry, or needy.Β  What they need more than math is love.Β  More than cursive, is a place where they feel safe to express themselves.Β  Others come with a β€œwhat’s in it for me?” formation.Β  What they need is to feel empathy for others and the joy received from lending a helping hand or an encouraging word.

As a teacher, we call these β€œteachable moments”.Β  Unfortunately, they are not units or even lessons.Β  Just moments.Β  As someone who is becoming emotionally conscious, I find it my desire to be as authentic as I possibly can.Β  Just doing that, I hope to provide a model for being an authentic human being, not a robot.Β  If all teachers could be that, it would begin a shift toward an authentic respect from the students.Β  They would β€œbuy” into us.Β  From that point, I try to provide a space where the students feel comfortable to express themselves in a way they ache for.Β  To be heard, understood, and felt.Β  Not judged or punished.Β  I let them know they can come to me if they need to.Β  The more students feel comfortable with me, the more willing they are to share.Β  It is imperative I be there β€œwith” them during these times or I lose that trust.Β  When they do come, it is a great time to get the children to express their feelings.Β  This takes a long time, as it is foreign to them and to most of us.

During the school day, I have my students applaud other students for being brave at sharing their writing or math problem.Β  This hopefully supports and acknowledges self-worth.Β  When they have to cooperate, I must continually act out how they can respectfully communicate and how to bridge differences.Β  This is REALLY hard!Β  Probably the most difficult lesson to teach.Β  Their opinions of each other are so definitive that it is a challenge to deal with sometimes.Β  But with any challenge comes opportunity.Β  However, by this time, most teachers are so emotionally drained themselves, we lose our own patience. Β It is a daily workout, but one that can bring the gift of a child hugging you for no reason other than the desire to show you that they love you.

As I began to write this, I was prepared to conclude that emotionally conscious education is a false hope.Β  But after reflecting on what happens on a daily basis, I feel it is possible and have experienced myself in moments.Β  For it to truly have legs, there would need to be more emotionally conscious teachers and administrators.Β  The curriculum doesn’t need to change, just our relationship to ourselves and our students.Β  It is possible because emotionally conscious education is what can happen in the moments between adverbs and algebra.

Note from Jillian: Children represent the young parts of ourselves. In loving and feeling them (whatever our role in their life is), we are also loving these young part of ourselves. Also, the more we create an emotionally conscious relationship with young parts of ourselves through journaling and having them felt by us and during sessions, the more our self love overflows to the children in our lives. Chris, who is engaged with the SoulFullHeart process, is growing in capacity to love and feel his parts, which opens up his heart to feel and care for his students in a deeper and more emotionally authentic wayΒ  beyond just teaching them academics. What shifts internally impacts our external world as well.

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