Intimacy As A Spiritual Path

Intimacy is our next frontier. At least it has been mine for the last 10 years. Intimacy with Self, the Divine, and Other. As I continue up this ascension path, I have realized how non-intimate I have been most of my life. When you start to really get to the nuts and bolts, it is quite stark how this is true for all of us.

It is vulnerable to be intimate. To see and be seen in all our textures both ‘good’ and not-so-good. When I lived on my own and in a community of One, I could avoid at lot of things and I was blind to a lot of things as well. It was up to me to challenge myself. That is a good thing too, but when it comes organically you really see yourself (or selves) in more authentic ways.

Kasha and I have found ourselves in a very tiny place before we move on to Portugal in July with our soul fam. It has brought up a lot to be with in our union. Edges and irritations that are possible to avoid when in a larger area. This is a birth canal for us. It can be a deepening or completing when you get real at each moment.

The lack of space brings us in closer contact with our inner truths and needs. Do these align, or do they separate? This is true in all moments in conscious, sacred union. Through this I get to see myself more authentically as well as my own relationship to the Divine. Without that we would be navigating this thing like a boat at sea without a rudder or sails.

Intimacy with all three brings us to new dimensions of our humanity and our spirituality. Our Humanality. In years past I would have sought more solitude, but now I feel different. I need Others. I need my beloved community. I need Kasha. I need the Beloved. I need intimacy. They are the portals into New Earth. Into a new me.

This is not an easy path. I have lot more to learn, discover, and embody. I am grateful for that, for her, for community, for Love. I realize that intimacy IS a spiritual path. It is an initiation to our Humanality. I am here to walk that path as well as serve that path. I am a student and teacher of the path of sacred intimacy. I am both surprised and honored by that. This is my journey and curriculum.

For those that are seeking more intimacy in your life’s journey please reach out. We are all here to support you along the way. I do offer a free 45-minute intro call to see how we may do that.

Here’s to your sacred intimate ascension journey.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

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The Great Reconiliation

My, there is a lot moving and shaking going on in consciousness right now! I feel this Great Reconciliation between the Heart and the Head, the Masculine and the Feminine, the Dark and the Light going on right now. In that process of Reconciliation it appears that there is a great polarity being drawn to the surface to look at and determine where we want to go with that.

There was a great polarity happening here amongst us as a family/community that has taken each of us to new places inside that have had unforeseen, yet not surprising, results such as reunion and deepening between souls and the Divine Beloved Itself.

The veils and/or compartments that have been holding Truth and Love at bay are starting to crumble. I can feel how parts of me have identified with those veils and walls. The crumble can create a rumble inside. It takes more effort to suppress that to express now. If that is the case, more Truth will come to the surface all over and that can be messy and scary.

I feel how the Masculine polarity has held a large swath of territory in consciousness. With the Feminine pole coming into balance, it can feel to the masculine that it is being sieged or devoured. Losing its control hold and its identity in a way. Yet what I feel from the Feminine is an Embracing. An Invitation back into Wholeness. It can look like a devouring from a certain perspective. But this whole process is inevitable. It IS happening…

I feel a brotherhood of men that are wanting to be a part of the Great Reconciliation inside and out. There are Knights and Kings of Heart that are seeking to balance these energies inside even if they are not consciously aware of it. This may be coming out in depression, anxiety, or frustration. He doesn’t know what the fuck is up and the default consciousness may be fear or violence toward self and other.
In this process, I feel the Feminine can assist by claiming her own needs, follow her own heart’s desires and intuition, and heal the polarity of the Masculine within. The bond with the Beloved is the shelter in the storm of the rumbles for us all. It takes us to the other side of the other side.

I am here to offer my heart to those that are feeling that desire for inner reconciliation and a return to Balance and Wholeness within. I feel compassion and care for all men that are struggling with so many emotions and circumstances. There is a path to health and inner prosperity and joy. Please do keep me bookmarked in your heart as someone who wants to help. I have been through many Dark Nights and rounds of addictions and despair.

Sending much love to all humanity in this process of Reconciliation.

******

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Coming Out Of Separation and Into Twin Flame/Counterpart Union

By Jelelle Awen

I am emerging from my Honeymoon bubble with Raphael with a bit of wobbly legs, palpitating heart, fuzzy/altered mind, and hugely renewed sense of life/love/service! We’ve gone in deep together in the way that is unique to our bond in these last days….exploring physical body nuances and pleasures….I could share so much about the shared consciousness altering portal that is Yoni kissing, for example, and will someday!

We’ve also been diving into emotional areas that need to be felt and loved as well. Bringing realizations that arose during our separation and dropping in together into the parts of us that need to be felt in their fears, tensions, and doubts as well so that they can be bonded.

Rather than deny these parts of us or put them in shadow now that we are together again, we bring them forward to heard and felt by each other. We feel remorse as needed, advocate as desired, and LET GO of resentments/grudges and the past as guided. In this letting in and then letting go process, the past resentments literally dissolve between us as they’ve been felt so deeply by us as individuals. The new then arises out of this compassion for ourselves and each other.

Trying to transact EVERYTHING and resolve it just in the bond in a horizontal way doesn’t move it. It isn’t just about more conscious communication together or ‘staying in the room’ with each other or whatever a marriage counselor might advise as ‘saving the relationship’ type strategies. Sometimes a deep inner reboot is necessary where only YOU can hold the safe space that parts of you need to let go into, especially when you are connecting to archetypal energies and deep soul pieces that are many lifetimes in the making.

This was what Raphael and I were invited to go into by our Magdalene/Christ soul family recently. An intense initiation in which we couldn’t feel the hope for a future between us, where we truly needed to let go and lean into ourselves fully. We were gifted so much support during this arduous journey with our soul family here in the physical and in etheric connection with Anna, Yeshua, etc., as our soul family hardly ever went through these initiations alone. Avalon held the space for us with necessary activations and even the quietness of the winter season served us.

I felt during our vow renewal ceremony the Magdalenes celebrating our successful navigation of these grounds and endowing us with the gift of holding the mantle for pair bond reunion and soul family reunion for those drawn to us. Anna shared words with us of support and admiration and we all felt tears as she reassured us that she would ‘never ever leave us.’ And now lately has been the necessary celebration and feasting that comes after the initiation has been ‘passed’. The recovery and reaping the rewards that come from loved freed up from fear by truly GOING INTO that fear and transmuting it.

This is the process I feel Ascension is inviting us into in every moment, whether in a twin pair bond reunion or not….to move into our fears, even the ones at the collective level, and trust that love and the Divine will hold us through them. The bliss and joy I have felt these last days now surpasses the darkest hours of sadness and hurt and pain I felt during our separation. The grief is fading now….replaced by the pure ecstasy of rebooted appreciation and gratitude that flow out of a heart rapturously falling in love with the Beloved.

I can only experience the Divine AS Beloved most deeply and truly when I am with Raphael in deep union as he holds the Divine Masculine expression of it. This is how my soul ‘wired it up’ at the soul family monad level before individuating.

I have surrendered more deeply into this now as my purpose for being here to experience this reunion and am wanting to teach/serve from this awareness more deeply as well, even as I am constantly learning from it.

If you feel drawn to experience the clearing of the pathway to experience the Beloved through deep inner connection and through a pair bond supported by soul family, do feel into a 1:1 session with one of us and/or attending a group call event (like the one we are doing on Valentine’s Day February 14th) and to join our online community Portal. More information at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

So many of you on our social media accounts, especially facebook, have expressed your support and resonance withur separation and reunion so you very well may be feeling a call and draw to come closer. There IS a reason you are drawn to our story and that you feel deep resonance with it. Exploring that reason could open up a whole new timeline life of goodness and love!

The home of the love with the Beloved is waiting for you. Claim it and all the love you can possibly let in can be yours….love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community portal, and writings/books at soulfullheart.org

Pair Bonds/Twin Flames/Counterpart Reunions As A Bridge To The Beloved

By Jelelle Awen

Love is IN the air leading up to Valentine’s Day! Reunions of pair bonds/counterparts are happening at increasingly accelerated rates as the previous veils are lifted and you can see/feel and CLAIM each other again. What once felt like very real and valid reasons to not be together; to be together yet not fully and completely; to not ‘find’ or draw each other in the physical; to have push/pull patterns with each other….these barriers are now being dissolved by the Divine’s all consuming desire to experience reunion again.

The separations ARE as sacred as the reunions. The separations offer a full landing in self. What is learned and accessed within during this alone time is so precious and important to the transactability of the bond on heart/body/soul/mind levels once you do come together. The deepening of the sacred union within you; the cultivation of connection between your inner masculine and inner feminine; this union within as a temporary experience of an internal ‘opposite’ provides a template for your beloved when they return to you.

If you are currently single, you can trust that the process you are undergoing to heal yourself on all levels, be with the Beloved within, and connect to the Divine AS your Beloved is the most important ground you can navigate in readiness for sacred union with your counterpart. Surrendering the timing of that reunion to the Divine allows for an experience of joy, goodness, and even bliss in that singleness rather than suffering, angst, and pain.

This is the ongoing journey of sacred union…..being invited to LET GO of fear, distrust, wounding, and separation-based relationship templates from 3D. To feel and heal the deep pain of separation within you that we ALL have……the shock that reverberates within our very DNA and at a collective level from that original separation moment from your pair bond, your ‘twin’ and counterpart. The reeling feeling of being ‘cast out’ away from your Beloved at the soul family monad level before you individuate into your Metasoul and the veil of amnesia comes down so that you can truly be an individuated consciousness.

The masculine torn away from his beloved feminine and she from him….seemingly severed in an abrupt way that was so unnatural in the moment…..shocking……and yet completely necessary to the ongoing unfolding of the Divine duality experiment. And then, always seeming to be reaching again for each other with an active ache to BE in that union again….Reeling and reaching in repeated patterns, over and over, lifetime after lifetime….until the ONE lifetime where you choose to truly be together in full conscious commitment and finally complete the cycle of reeling and reaching.

THIS lifetime is the one that many pair bonds are choosing to come back together in the physical again. The ultimate reason is always for the service of love and to/with the Divine. It is not for ego reasons at the 3D level or even for the gratification of the individuals, although it is very nourishing to both. It is during this time of Humanity’s Ascension, during this Dark Night moving into the Light of Day, during this time of Matrix collapse to finally be free again…..this is the NOW for which pair bonds are most needed to be again in union.

If you have chosen for this reunion experience as deeply connected to your service of love here and the primary WAY for which you will serve the Divine, you have probably felt the call to sacred union reunion for most of your life and felt your counterpart ‘with’ you in a deep way, even if you have not met yet in this life. You may experience this as a deep sense of missing something and that you are not quite ‘complete’ even as you may experience great fulfillment and self love/worth in being by yourself.

Please join us for a special group call event in one week on Valentine’s Day to explore these sacred union grounds, counterpart reunion, and provide a Bridge to The Beloved. Raphael/Taliesin and I will offer teachings and sharings about our recent necessary separation from each other and what we are discovering about our own counterpart bond in coming back together. Gabriel and Kasha will also share from their newly reunited union, which Gabriel shares about today on his FB feed.During the call, we will provide a sacred union transmission to you with support from Yeshua and Mary Magdalene’s Divine union template.

We will guide you in a meditation to bridge to the Beloved (in whatever ways you are currently meant to experience that whether to support the inner sacred union, the reunion with your counterpart, or deepening with the Divine AS Beloved). There will then be space for personal sharings for whomever would like to.The two hour group call is by whatever donation you feel to give (average is $15 CAD) via soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will email you the zoom link. The call is at 5:00pm/17:00pm GMT/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST. If you can’t attend live, you will also receive the recording. More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/1061373757681405/ and https://www.soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Love from Avalon…..where the Divine Masculine Michael and Divine Feminine Mary ley lines entwine in ever abundant union,
Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community, books/writings at soulfullheart.org.

Into The Ring Of SoulFire

“If your beloved has the life of a fire, step in now and burn along”
~ Rumi

This past month has been a whirlwind. Completions, separations, polarizations, realizations, communications, and reconciliations. It has been a sacred fire that has burned, illuminated, and alchemized the sacred union inside and out.

The re-union of Jelelle and Taliesin (Raphael) sent a wave of energy that sparked a lot of emotion that was attached to a big structure within myself that was a veil to my deepest need, desire, and truth. It was a way that I have related to them, others, and myself that has just lost traction and use. I am finding another layer of my True North and SoulFire.

I woke up digesting our last Monday group gathering and realized that my heart still had a huge compartment with Kasha’s name written all over it. We were not reconciled somehow. Something was not ‘done’ within me. We needed to divorce. We needed to go our own ways. We needed to come back together in service, and we needed to roll out a ‘friendship’. But that all came tumbling down when the SuperNova Sacred Union codes came into our fields this week,

I can’t shake what this woman does to me and for me! We hold keys for each other and a deep well of Love for and with each other. We have both done a lot of inner work the past 8 years and have had our ins and outs, and ups and downs.

We have a lot to continue to digest about all of that. It is a scary place to go back in and face all of those things and the places we had feared to tread between us, but the draw is undeniable. I love her. I need her. I want to serve love with her. So as Rumi said, into the Fire we go!

We have our challenges and our ease. We have something that is in need of deep exploration and illumination. She is my Divine Feminine expression embodied. I get to see and feel myself in a deeper way through her. She gets to do the same. We get to feel the Beloved with us, through us, as us, and serve from there. This is our deepest desire and mission.

Many of you have been around our past iterations and may not be the least bit surprised. It was both surprising and not for us as we just know this soul story somehow, yet we get to create a new one together on blank pages while rereading the previous chapters and taking notes for the next.

I am blessed to be writing this with you, Kasha. Ecstatic and terrified both! Yet I believe in my heart we both have enough inside of us to keep going in and keep getting as real as we can to cultivate more of that Love we are meant to serve to the world. I have thrown my hat into that Ring of Fire. Now time to see where that takes us next.

I love you…

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Bridge To The Beloved: Sacred Union Transmission Group Call On Valentine’s Day February 14th | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

The Beloved is the energy of the Divine in a specific frequency as lover and mate that brings you into personal states of gratitude, rapture, and forgiveness as you receive this grace. The Beloved activates your longing for reunion with your counterpart soulmate, which also happens within you between your inner masculine and feminine if you are currently single. And it is all yours freely by birthright, something you never actually lost, only reawaken to as your soul is ready!

Raphael and I are excited to share from the overflow of a deeper embodiment experience of the Beloved within, with each other and with the Divine during this group call over Zoom on Valentine’s Day Sunday, February 14th at 5:00pm/17:00pm GMT (London, UK timezone….9:00am PST/10:00am MST/11:00am CST/12:00pm EST)!

During the call, we will share about our recent personal experience of death and rebirth within our long-term union that brought us to a place of renewed awareness of the Beloved as the third energy in a coupleship into which we can lean, from which we can draw all the support we need, and unto which the relationship is in service to. We will share about healing the False God projections that block experience of the Divine in this very personal and embodied Beloved frequency, along with feeling and healing the trauma from this life and karma from other lifetimes related to your capacity to let in and embody this frequency.

During this call, we will co-lead a meditation with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene/Magda to bridge to and energize the Beloved through devotional frequencies that come from the heart and soul of our renewed bond and twin pair soul connection (we’ll share more about that too.) and our soul family.Whether you are connecting primarily to your inner sacred union, have a partnership or ache for one, and/or just want to deepen your experience of the Divine AS your beloved, this transmission offers a needed bridge in the moment to support that exploration and invites you into visceral experience of the Beloved!
More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/1061373757681405 or https://www.soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

This group is open to the public and to all women and men over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. The average amount is $15 CAD. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawenand we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the February 14th group call and check that your email is current.

This group call is also available free to those who are members of our SoulFullHeart Portal, an online community for personal sharings, community connection, and receiving guidance/asking questions with us….I feel it may be the warmest place on the Internet!

You can join the Portal for $14.99 USD exchange per month: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

Love,
Raphael and Jelelle Awen

Reunion and Reconciliation in Our Sacred Union (Personal Update)

By Jelelle Awen

Oh, the dance of sacred union with a beloved counterpart is not a known, set, or predictable thing! It is full of surprises, challenges, initiations, deaths, and renewals. It can continually reinvent itself yet often the old grounds have to be completely let go of…a painful death process for which what is no longer serving the love is completely burnt up.

I am so grateful in this moment and celebrating to be re-emerging into romantic exploration again with Taliesin/Raphael after almost two months of separation from each other! After connecting more together and as a group in the last week, our new ground began to reveal itself and desire to explore it as well…surprising us both and yet not at the same time!I had some places of fear and resistance to navigate in my own inner sacred union for which the space from the intensity of our bond and connection really served me in that.

I was able to see and feel patterns of defensive reactivity at times from my inner masculine and feminine sourced in a deep fear of rejection/hurt/abandonment wound that I feel originates in the original separation from masculine and feminine twin pair bonds at the soul family monad level…much more about that to come as I am still in so much learning mode in the moment!

The sister connection and space living with Kasha has been so nourishing as well to my feminine expression for which I can feel more able to come out with Taliesin now. I am so grateful for her support and ongoing processing with me, including holding space for me to drop into some places that I needed to go with parts of me and on the Metasoul level as well.

Gabriel has also been a key support to us both, and esp to Taliesin, as their brotherhood bond deepens and their alchemy together and desire to serve men sparks and ignites in a beautiful show of SoulFire. I am grateful to both of them and to Deya as well for the support, witnessing, and trust they have in our souls to find our way through this. It has not been easy at times for them to be involved in this initiation process with us yet I do feel it has offered its own gifts for them as well based on their sharings with us about it.

I am taking it one moment at a time in terms of responding to this new calling into union with Taliesin (who feels like a NEW being in many ways yet so familiar too)….with waves of emotions coming in….a cascade of relief from the grief, some fear or distrust, and deep desire for the next level connection we are feeling is possible as we move out of the karmic room and into the bridal chamber of the Beloved. I do feel this was the invitation offered to us the entire time, an upgrade into more embodiment of our twin flame consciousness connection at the soul family monad level to bring it into more real life and yet we had to go through some solo initiations first to get ready for it.

I truly do feel this kind of resurrection out of so deeply letting a previous ground die and let go is so much more possible through this SoulFullHeart process!

Thank you for your support and love to and with us during our blissy and messy phases both….I hope it has all been template and inspiration to activate your own desires for inner and outer sacred union. There is NOTHING like the experience of it to move your personal growth and embodiment of your Divine Self to the next level!

love from Avalon (whose energies greatly supported us to let go and to come back together again), Jelelle

Pic is of us giving rose offerings at the Chalice Well (a lifeline) and declaring our intentions as we move into our next phase together…which we will also be doing today in connection with Imbolc or the beginnings of Spring.

Feeling The Fears Of Deepening Intimacy In Sacred Union

by Raphael Awen

When we hide and compartmentalize our deeper truths to ourselves and others, we are rolling a stone up a hill, that gets larger and larger with time. Eventually, that stone gives way and demolishes those compartments, and reveals much about our fears, our shadow, as well as our light.


I have found this as a pattern that has shown up in my earliest relationships this life, and also in my Metasoul family as well. It came up yesterday (again) in my deepening intimacy with Jelelle, where even the finer attempts at compartments falter sooner and sooner. Ultimately, those compartments are about the fear of intimacy, and strangely (or maybe not so), even a fear of a deepening and proven intimacy.


To a part of me and in my Metasoul, it is still like the deepening intimacy is the stone being rolled up a hill, rather than the withheld truth. Then ‘the truth’ can be used as a threat in an attempt to return back to safety, to manage the fear, which gets into control and manipulation.

I was churning on all this last night and got out of bed to digest with Yeshua and Magdalene as well, being the perfect guides for a gender and Sacred Union need. They both assured me that this is the growth edge of the masculine and feminine now to lead with their vulnerability and their truth, in that order. They were also kind of amazed that I would seek to first find that reality inside as the source of the outward manifestation, as this wasn’t the deeper conscious reality in their lifetimes here on Gaia.
They also energized so much gratitude to me for being willing to walk this out, which spoke deeply to the remorse and almost shame I felt for causing hurt or blocks to intimacy in all of my relationships, regardless of the degree.

This I feel is the new playground ‘I Am’ being invited into, one my soul has always craved and longed for – truer and truer Sacred Union within and without.

~

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Sacred Union W/Self & Other Group Transmission 6/8 W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

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Settling/shrinking in relationships, especially long-term romantic ones, has become the standard in 3D relationships and even those more in 4D or soul frequencies. In these relationships, the ground of transactability between each partner in the areas of soul, mind, body, and heart nourishment and resonance diminishes over time…..if it was even transacting much to begin with. The ‘honeymoon’ fades and the draw to each other along with it.

Lack of transactability is often overlooked or just ‘lived with’ as parts of you may start to feel that it is impossible to have more or BE in more. Fears of security and safety become the glue that keeps the relationship together even as underneath it, there is much unexpressed frustration, unhappiness, and discontent. Sometimes, capacity on the soul level is fixated on (like often in the Twin Flame paradigm) and the LACK of transactability ignored or bypassed, which leads to a pattern of push-pull relating, codependency, deadness/flatness, running/ghosting, etc.

The 5D Sacred Unions that we are being invited to remember and inhabit AGAIN are about an overabundant, nourishing, and lasting experience of love and resonance on ALL levels with our partners. This may sound like fantasy, yet it is very real and possible as we heal from within the polarized relationship templating we received from our parents, 3D culture/programming, and from our Metasoul patterns in the denser timelines.

Experiencing this kind of sacred union is not only possible, it is encoded in our genetic codes and in our DNA (as those ‘sleepy’ ones come AWAKE again….from two active DNA back to twelve again and beyond. ) This kind of sacred union is only possible with the inner work being the primary focus to heal the fears/resistances to love so that self love and worth are overflowing into the bond.

The inner work is about understanding and feeling the relationship between our inner masculine and feminine, what was templated by our parents around this, how polarized are feminine and masculine are to each other, etc. Feeling these grounds and healing them allows for the overflow into a sacred union bond.

Join me and my sacred union partner Raphael Awen on June 8th at 10:00am PDT for a transmission of sacred union codes shared from the grounds of our lived in and loved in bond. You can join us live (highly recommended) or receive the recording of the teachings/guided meditation/sharings for $11 USD/$15 CAD energy exchange here: PayPal.me/Jelelleawen

more info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2266192267032102

Love,
Jelelle Awen
To see previous group transmissions and receive the recordings, go here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/grouptransmissions

Painting is by Evi Maes

Beltane Blessings & Celebrations Of Love & Healing

By Kalayna Solais

Happy Beltane to you ALL… this day is a day to begin anew, to remember what you are worth as man or woman, to be in the ache of your springtime renewal inside, that wants and waits to share and BE with a mate that loves and cherishes you as much as you do… and cherishes themselves too. The Beltane fire helps us to burn away the old, the rigid, the now stale old harnesses of the ‘past’. Being with parts of you who have reactions to this process is important on this and every day…

This poem I composed two years ago and it still stands as one of my deepest, as my soul so knows Beltane from many sides of it and many roles within it. I feel personal themes emerging this year of letting in the bigness of this soul within me that knows how to gestate in inner healing processes and celebrate the emergence of a new sense of my bigness and desire to serve.

I dedicate this poem and all of the frequencies within it this year to my beloved husband/mate Gabriel Solais with whom I share my heart, body and soul and many exquisite layers of each, and I dedicate it to my beloved Inner Masculine too, who has been and always will be an inner rock for my feminine parts to lean into. ❤

I dedicate it to YOU as well, seeker of heart and soul, that you’ll find what’s next for you on your sacred path becoming revealed to you on a deeper level, whether wrapped in self-mateship or mateship with an other.

~

This Beltane Call, For The Love Of US

by Kalayna Solais

Beloved that you are,

When the smoke clears

on life’s regulating ways

and gives way to the undulating meadows

of new love’s first spring,

there I’ll be

standing in the light

of the sun shining above me,

firm in the ground I walk on

yet lightly walking toward your ready stance,

singing a song

we will both remember.

In Beltane’s past, my love

we dined and danced

and brought together our intertwining

everythings

to mingle in the love light

of the divine masculine and feminine dawnings.

In Beltane’s new arrivals, love

we’ll linger long

in embraces for only us to feel

in the eye of the mind’s connection

until the refreshing breath

of a crisp and ripe chapter

brings us closer

in all elements of this life’s wanderings.

In myself I stay here for you, love

finding more treasure long buried

to show you

in vulnerable ownership

echoing the also deep claim

you have inside of you for you.

The winds of change

and graspings of renewing tides

grip at our thrown-about clothing

to move us closer

to the edges

that keep US alive…

Together we will meet, my beloved

and there we will find

what we have been searching for…

a counterpart

not to bind, but to bond

not to cling, but to sing

not stifle with duty

but to bring out with bounding life’s alterations and celebrations…

of each new movement

here…

Bring your mountains out to greet the new day, love

and see the power of our sunshines mingling

on a new insatiable appetite

of a love reunited

in a way that was agreed to

long ago and yet NOW too.

Even NOW I make a vow to you,

to be all the more loyal to myself

and dedicate overflow to you

to what we will create together

in our messy masses of alchemical baths

and swooning passes.

Love, when we do meet again

here

I will dress the moon in your honor

and harness the sun’s rays for your Kingdom to come

and our world that is being reborn…

On this Beltane celebration day,

As I ache for you

I prepare that place in my heart

that is you-shaped

where you already live…

and that place in my body’s life

where your essence will connect

so much

oh, so much…

with mine.

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.