Finding Alignment Within To Align With Other (And Life)

By Kalayna Solais

The most important and powerful alignment is the one inside of you.

Aligning and (ALLYing) with your heart, body, soul, mind. Divine Align and living into your higher timeline comes from this place, actually, and brings you closer to discovering and experiencing the bigger purpose for all you’ve been through and all of the healing work you’ve taken on and gone INward with.

I’ve been in a process with my beloved, Gabriel, in the last couple of days and it’s unfolding into an ongoing process which we both need to keep being with and being real about. We’ve been feeling misaligned and disconnected… which has been so hard and sad to really let in and feel. We’ve felt to take some space from each other, even sleeping in different spaces, in order to to go inward but also come together and digest what we’re discovering and feeling through with parts of us about our bond and how they’re really feeling about themselves and other aspects of our individual lives too.

In other words, we’ve been taking space to align more inside of us so we can see where and how we can align together. ❤️

We’re already benefitting from this process in huge ways… experiencing more love on the inside that can flow more easily on the outside with less resistance to each other. We were even able to have a fun date night last night where we could feel new grounds of joy and aliveness!

Less resistance to the love that wants to flow inside helps the love flow on the outside, which helps align you with the love you truly desire to experience in all areas of your life. This I keep learning over and over again and this, I feel, is one of the most powerful ways to feel what your next steps are on your healing and Ascension path. Where the love isn’t flowing in your life is a reflection of where the love isn’t flowing within, between parts of you and you and each other too.

Much love!

This photo is from our date last night…. in new joy waves together, starting within. ❤️🔥☺️

***

Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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Sacred Union W/ Self & Other Group Transmission: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (June 3, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

Tomorrow, June 8th at 10:00am PDT, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be hosting a virtual Group Transmission over Zoom, focused on Sacred Union within and with another. In this week’s featured article, Jelelle Awen writes about the different kinds of romantic relationships and invites you to feel more about what a 5D Sacred Union romance looks and feels like:

“The 5D Sacred Unions that we are being invited to remember and inhabit AGAIN are about an overabundant, nourishing, and lasting experience of love and resonance on ALL levels with our partners. This may sound like fantasy, yet it is very real and possible as we heal from within the polarized relationship templating we received from our parents, 3D culture/programming, and from our Metasoul patterns in the denser timelines.”

Raphael and Jelelle also share a video where they talk about the Group Transmission and offer a sense of their energy together and the energy of their Sacred Union.

You can join in on the Group Transmission live or receive the recording for $11 USD/$15 CAD minimum donation. Go to paypal.me/jelelleawen to donate

More info on this event can be found here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2266192267032102

On Monday, June 17th @ 6pm, Gabriel and Kalayna Solais will be hosting an in-person guided meditation and sharing circle at the SoulFullHeart Community House in Victoria, BC, Canada. This guided meditation circle is for connecting to the Sacred Union within by connecting with your Inner Masculine/Feminine and possibly also connecting with your Sacred Union mate’s energy, whether you know them yet or not.

There are three Group Transmissions coming up, including the Sacred Union group tomorrow!

The focus of the group on Friday, June 21st, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to celebrate the seasonal Solstice, which is an energetic time of seasonal transition into summer for those in the southern hemisphere. The Solstice often acts as a portal gateway to your Next Level of soul expression, soul activation, and transformation. Jelelle will guide you in a meditative space in which you can connect to the Solstice codes and bring them into your Ascension Chakras with your Protector and other parts that may join in. You will journey to Stonehenge, where the Solstice is ritually celebrated.

The focus of the group on Tuesday, July 2, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to connect to the codes and activations available during the first total SOULar eclipse since July, 2017. Jelelle will teach about how SOULar energies provide a sacred masculine activation of clarity, soul purpose, empowerment, next actions and choice points toward your higher timeline. Eclipses offer a truly powerful boost of this energy with many people reported major life changes and transformations happening during and after them.

For more information on these and any other upcoming events from SoulFullHeart, you can visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events for more info.

There is a new video this week from Kalayna Solais. In this video, she introduces herself and some pieces of her journey to where and who she is today. She awakened very young, around the ages of 12-14, and shortly afterward started to dream of ways to serve love and help others heal as she also sought after her own healing. She does her best in this video to summarize some of the highlights of her journey to date yet, of course, there’s always more to share and she warmly welcomes any questions you may have.

There are new articles and audio recordings this week from Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, Kalayna, and Raianna Shai. These include energy updates, poetry, Crop Circle message digestions, and some more ways in which you can feel through what could be coming up for you right now.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

Sessions with Jelelle are $100 CAD minimum donation while sessions with Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna are $77 CAD minimum donation. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

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Sacred Union W/Self & Other Group Transmission 6/8 W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

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Settling/shrinking in relationships, especially long-term romantic ones, has become the standard in 3D relationships and even those more in 4D or soul frequencies. In these relationships, the ground of transactability between each partner in the areas of soul, mind, body, and heart nourishment and resonance diminishes over time…..if it was even transacting much to begin with. The ‘honeymoon’ fades and the draw to each other along with it.

Lack of transactability is often overlooked or just ‘lived with’ as parts of you may start to feel that it is impossible to have more or BE in more. Fears of security and safety become the glue that keeps the relationship together even as underneath it, there is much unexpressed frustration, unhappiness, and discontent. Sometimes, capacity on the soul level is fixated on (like often in the Twin Flame paradigm) and the LACK of transactability ignored or bypassed, which leads to a pattern of push-pull relating, codependency, deadness/flatness, running/ghosting, etc.

The 5D Sacred Unions that we are being invited to remember and inhabit AGAIN are about an overabundant, nourishing, and lasting experience of love and resonance on ALL levels with our partners. This may sound like fantasy, yet it is very real and possible as we heal from within the polarized relationship templating we received from our parents, 3D culture/programming, and from our Metasoul patterns in the denser timelines.

Experiencing this kind of sacred union is not only possible, it is encoded in our genetic codes and in our DNA (as those ‘sleepy’ ones come AWAKE again….from two active DNA back to twelve again and beyond. ) This kind of sacred union is only possible with the inner work being the primary focus to heal the fears/resistances to love so that self love and worth are overflowing into the bond.

The inner work is about understanding and feeling the relationship between our inner masculine and feminine, what was templated by our parents around this, how polarized are feminine and masculine are to each other, etc. Feeling these grounds and healing them allows for the overflow into a sacred union bond.

Join me and my sacred union partner Raphael Awen on June 8th at 10:00am PDT for a transmission of sacred union codes shared from the grounds of our lived in and loved in bond. You can join us live (highly recommended) or receive the recording of the teachings/guided meditation/sharings for $11 USD/$15 CAD energy exchange here: PayPal.me/Jelelleawen

more info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2266192267032102

Love,
Jelelle Awen
To see previous group transmissions and receive the recordings, go here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/grouptransmissions

Painting is by Evi Maes

Moving From 3D Non-Transactable Relationships To 5D Sacred Unions: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (May 20, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

Relationships of all kinds are continuing to rumble and shift as every individual moves along on their own awakening and ascension path. 3D relationships, especially romantic ones, are feeling the heat of the healing heart and the call of deeper awakening. Jelelle Awen offers in this week’s featured piece that not only are 5D consciousness-based romantic bonds ideal, but they are possible and the more you continue to work with parts of you that are afraid of them and that maybe are resistant to deep and resonant romance, the closer you become to drawing the Sacred Union of your dreams:

“The 5D Sacred Unions that we are being invited to remember and inhabit AGAIN are about an overabundant, nourishing, and LASTING experience of love and resonance on ALL levels with our partners. This may sound like fantasy, yet it is VERY real and possible as we heal from within the polarized relationship templating we received from our parents, 3D culture/programming, and from our Metasoul patterns in the denser timelines.”

There are a few upcoming events taking place this join, both in-person and virtual, with more to be announced in coming weeks too!

On Sunday June 2nd @ 10am PDT and Monday June 17th @ 6pm PDT, join Gabriel and Kalayna Solais in person at the SoulFullHeart Community House in Victoria, BC for a guided meditation and sharing circle. The theme on June 2nd will be Sacred Connections and the theme for June 17th will be Sacred Union. You can RSVP for the address by emailing: soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

On Saturday June 8th @ 10am PDT, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be co-hosting the next virtual group transmission over Zoom. The focus for this group is to assist you in the ongoing integration of sacred union codes….both to solidify your sacred union within and with a partner mate. They will guide you in a meditative space in which you can connect to your Inner Masculine and Feminine, feel their relationship to each other, and also bring in/connect to your Sacred Union/Counterpart mate partner (either currently in your life or maybe not).

For more information on these events or how to register/RSVP for them, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events.

Two new videos for you to take in this week!

Gabriel Solais introduces the Inner Protector for men. In this video he describes how the Inner Protector is formed and how it keeps men from fully embodying and manifesting their deepest gifts, relationships, and higher timelines. It is about a curious connection and relationship to this part of the emotional body and not about judging or trying to fix or eliminate.

Join Gabriel and Kalayna Solais as they offer this teaching and guided meditation on connecting with your Inner Masculine/Feminine parts of you. Your Inner Masculine and Feminine aspects may have many different ways that they express through you in your life, relationships, and even your spirituality.  Connecting with these aspects is very illuminating and can help you understand why you have related to men and women the way you have, how you’ve related to your own “woman/manhood”, and why you seem to approach different aspects of life in one way versus another.

There are several new writings and audio blogs this week from Gabriel and Kalayna Solais along with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. They include digestions of the ongoing transition from 3D to 5D in every way and in every aspect of your life, and offerings of ways to be with and integrate your current emotional/spiritual healing process while letting in the Divine/Galactic support you have available to you always.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Moving From 3D Non-Transactable Relationships Into 5D Sacred Unions

By Jelelle Awen

Settling/shrinking in relationships, especially long-term romantic ones, has become the standard in 3D relationships and even those more in 4D or soul frequencies. In these relationships, the ground of transactability between each partner in the areas of soul, mind, body, and heart nourishment and resonance diminishes over time…..if it was even transacting much to begin with. The ‘honeymoon’ fades and the draw to each other along with it.

Lack of transactability is often overlooked or just ‘lived with’ as parts of you may start to feel that it is impossible to have more or BE in more. Fears of security and safety become the glue that keeps the relationship together even as underneath it, there is much unexpressed frustration, unhappiness, and discontent. Sometimes, capacity on the soul level is fixated on (like often in the Twin Flame paradigm) and the LACK of transactability ignored or bypassed, which leads to a pattern of push-pull relating, codependency, deadness/flatness, running/ghosting, etc.

The 5D Sacred Unions that we are being invited to remember and inhabit AGAIN are about an overabundant, nourishing, and LASTING experience of love and resonance on ALL levels with our partners. This may sound like fantasy, yet it is VERY real and possible as we heal from within the polarized relationship templating we received from our parents, 3D culture/programming, and from our Metasoul patterns in the denser timelines.

Experiencing this kind of sacred union is not only possible, it is encoded in our genetic codes and in our DNA (as those ‘sleepy’ ones come AWAKE again….from two active DNA back to twelve again and beyond. ) It is also provided as template from Yeshua/Sanada/Jesus and Magdalene, as they experience it in the higher dimensions now and can download it to us.

This kind of sacred union ONLY seems to be possible with the inner work being the primary focus to heal the fears/resistances to love so that self love and worth are overflowing into the bond. It is also only possible if you aren’t settling for something lesser than this in your current relationship without consciousness about it and desire to shift it together.

Being in a relationship where EACH partner is focused on their own growth and healing in a conscious, humble, and ever expanding way allows for the quantum healing of sacred union wounds AND experience of the deep bondings/mergings from other timelines too. BOTH partners being engaged in an active spirituality that is alive for both of them is also key here….not just one partner ‘supporting’ the other in often vague ways that don’t lead to actually new ground arising between them.

Raphael and I will be co-hosting a group transmission offering sacred union codes for self and with others based on and coming from our eleven year exploration of these grounds together on June 8th. You can join us or receive the recording for $11 USD/$15 CAD energy exchange here PayPal.me/Jelelleawen

more info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2266192267032102/

Here is a guided meditation to feel the exploration of inner sacred union between your masculine and feminine aspects here, a wonderful place to start, esp if you aren’t currently in a relationship: https://youtu.be/nvi_m4i1KvQ

We GET to experience the most alive, dynamic, and growthful bonds possible in sacred union or any relationships/friendships/soul family connections, etc. Settling for anything LESS than this is where our inner work calls us to go in exploration, discovery, and feeling/healing.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

1:1 sessions available to explore these inner and outer sacred union grounds with SoulFullHeart Facilitators. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Beltane Blessings & Celebrations Of Love & Healing

By Kalayna Solais

Happy Beltane to you ALL… this day is a day to begin anew, to remember what you are worth as man or woman, to be in the ache of your springtime renewal inside, that wants and waits to share and BE with a mate that loves and cherishes you as much as you do… and cherishes themselves too. The Beltane fire helps us to burn away the old, the rigid, the now stale old harnesses of the ‘past’. Being with parts of you who have reactions to this process is important on this and every day…

This poem I composed two years ago and it still stands as one of my deepest, as my soul so knows Beltane from many sides of it and many roles within it. I feel personal themes emerging this year of letting in the bigness of this soul within me that knows how to gestate in inner healing processes and celebrate the emergence of a new sense of my bigness and desire to serve.

I dedicate this poem and all of the frequencies within it this year to my beloved husband/mate Gabriel Solais with whom I share my heart, body and soul and many exquisite layers of each, and I dedicate it to my beloved Inner Masculine too, who has been and always will be an inner rock for my feminine parts to lean into. ❤

I dedicate it to YOU as well, seeker of heart and soul, that you’ll find what’s next for you on your sacred path becoming revealed to you on a deeper level, whether wrapped in self-mateship or mateship with an other.

~

This Beltane Call, For The Love Of US

by Kalayna Solais

Beloved that you are,

When the smoke clears

on life’s regulating ways

and gives way to the undulating meadows

of new love’s first spring,

there I’ll be

standing in the light

of the sun shining above me,

firm in the ground I walk on

yet lightly walking toward your ready stance,

singing a song

we will both remember.

In Beltane’s past, my love

we dined and danced

and brought together our intertwining

everythings

to mingle in the love light

of the divine masculine and feminine dawnings.

In Beltane’s new arrivals, love

we’ll linger long

in embraces for only us to feel

in the eye of the mind’s connection

until the refreshing breath

of a crisp and ripe chapter

brings us closer

in all elements of this life’s wanderings.

In myself I stay here for you, love

finding more treasure long buried

to show you

in vulnerable ownership

echoing the also deep claim

you have inside of you for you.

The winds of change

and graspings of renewing tides

grip at our thrown-about clothing

to move us closer

to the edges

that keep US alive…

Together we will meet, my beloved

and there we will find

what we have been searching for…

a counterpart

not to bind, but to bond

not to cling, but to sing

not stifle with duty

but to bring out with bounding life’s alterations and celebrations…

of each new movement

here…

Bring your mountains out to greet the new day, love

and see the power of our sunshines mingling

on a new insatiable appetite

of a love reunited

in a way that was agreed to

long ago and yet NOW too.

Even NOW I make a vow to you,

to be all the more loyal to myself

and dedicate overflow to you

to what we will create together

in our messy masses of alchemical baths

and swooning passes.

Love, when we do meet again

here

I will dress the moon in your honor

and harness the sun’s rays for your Kingdom to come

and our world that is being reborn…

On this Beltane celebration day,

As I ache for you

I prepare that place in my heart

that is you-shaped

where you already live…

and that place in my body’s life

where your essence will connect

so much

oh, so much…

with mine.

***

Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Celebrating Sacred Union On Beltane/May Day

By Jelelle Awen

Bright blessings to you on May Day……Beltane as those with Celtic/Avalon/Druid timelines know this day! My soul knows Beltane, celebration of the completion of winter and the beginning of later spring/summer. My soul knows dancing around the May Pole with ribbons that reflect the newly blooming buds. And my soul knows prancing around the bon fires that light up the night sky with a nearly full moon as a celestial feminine witness to the celebrations. My soul knows channeling the Goddess, floating out of my body and into the Infinite Spaces of near complete merging with Her.

It knows the reunion and coming together of sacred feminine and sacred masculine on this day. The pursuit of the stag king and the claim of the priestess representing the Goddess during their sexual union. My soul knows the feeling of this claiming and communion, whether literal in the physical with a man or in a symbolic dance of masculine and feminine energies from within.

You can tune into these sacred union energies today especially as you feel your desire for a counterpart to mirror your deepest leading and trailing edges. I am still in celebration at the reconciliation and reunion going on for Raphael and I. After a short yet very deep phase of separating from each other, we are now discovering in the last few weeks NEW grounds of intimacy between us as we come together again. It feels brand new even as it has the familiar depths and intimacy of over a decade together and MANY timelines of counterpart pair bonds as well to draw from.

Our latest sacred union activation happened very sweetly last night, Beltane Eve, as we welcomed our next batch of Andara crystals into our world and set up an altar for them. Our metasouls were reunited with two Lemurian aspects from inner earth/Mount Shasta area, where many of the Andaras come from and have been discovered. These meta aspects of ours are Andara keepers and began to flood Lemurian light language through us, reminding us of the legacy of Andara consciousness and what it offers us during this phase of Ascension.

There is much more to share in the future about these very special Andara crystal BEings and what they are offering us at this time. I look forward to using Andaras during sessions, including my new 1:1 remote and in person Ascension Energy Healing sessions, which you can read more about here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/ascensionenergy

You are SO invited to ignite your inner fires on this Beltane May Day. Feel the connection of your inner masculine and feminine and how they dance together….or how they may be polarized in some ways from each other. This is such a valuable inner exploration that leads to the outer manifestation of a deep soul/mind/heart/body bond with another in the grounds of sacred union exploration!

Love,
Jelelle Awen

1:1 sessions available! More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Here is a guided meditation with Raphael and I to connect with your inner masculine and feminine:

Here is a guided meditation with Raphael and I to activate sacred union and your sacred sexuality:

 

Death/Rebirth, Relationship Shiftings And New Alignments From Within: Personal Update From Raphael and Jelelle

By Jelelle Awen

Raphael shares vulnerably below his recent death/rebirth process that entwines and connects to mine and our ‘usness’ together too as we separated during it. This latest phase of our journey together has brought me so much into my own heart space, into tender holding with parts of myself and multiple metasoul aspects as well….at one point working with four different timelines at once! I could feel and focus on myself as a woman/queen/mate/healer, etc. and even with the times of immense grief and sadness coming up….so feel the core of self love and goodness and trust that is THERE inside for me always to lean into after all these years of parts/metasoul work and deep connection with the Divine.

I am amazed (yet somehow also not suprised?) as the timeline shifts again to realign us all together in community again. I certainly felt during this time of separation from Raphael, the trailing edge and karmic frequencies of our bond together, manifesting this life and other lifetimes/timelines too. I fully went into owning and feeling my side of the sometimes contentious energies between us. I learned and continue to learn so much! This is deep work to we have signed up to continue to do together, as so many counterpart soul mates have too!

I have been so amazed at how the SoulFullHeart process itself has so been there for me through the grief, the pain, the letting go, the realizations….all of it and then some…and I am amazed at how Raphael is moving through what he is too as he leans into it more as well.

With this shifting, we are feeling to remain rooted/grounded/based here in Victoria BC with plans to travel to Europe in the fall to scout out future retreat/group session places there too. It just feels like I want it ‘all’ honestly…the rooted/grounded heart home with my beloveds and the adventure/activation of travel into these ancient places and eventually hold groups/retreats there too.

My heart feels relieved and lighter too as the Divine seems to be gifting me with exactly what I want and need as I was so willing to let it all go (as seems to be the process honestly). Timelines really are collapsing and re-emerging SO FAST these days!

Thank you all of your sweet support during this time!
love,
Jelelle Awen

~

By Raphael Awen

I am so glad and relieved to be on the other side of what has felt like my deepest dark night experience this life to have opened out a deeply profound and meaningful reconnection with my beloveds after a long feared relationship meltdown.

I wanted to update those of you who have held myself, Jelelle, Gabriel, Kalayna and Raianna and our growing community in your heart.

I can’t hardly describe to you the death and rebirth process, the dark night of the soul process that is now opening out to love and life. It’s like the karmic shadow bill came due quite suddenly on what was underneath my relationship with Jelelle and by extension; inseparable relationship with SoulFullHeart and its community.

Really letting go of being in romance with Jelelle brought up, pretty quick after what felt like a treasured phase of deep and real appreciations, being faced with my own buried resentments based in real dynamics in our bond (as Peter Gabriel says ‘the seeds of my undoing that had been there from the start’), but so amplified by Metasoul realities that have been a long time in wanting to be felt and owned by me. The ripening projections of what was not reconciled me-to-me all but made it impossible to really feel and process any of those resentments, reactions between us that had been placed down under to protect a goodness and bounty where on one level, I always felt like I was in a permanent honeymoon phase with Jelelle, and by extension with our growing community. Maybe some of the cognitive dissonance of ‘this is all too good to be true’ had to do with this unreconciled shadow that always threatened to undermine the goodness. Gabriel and Kalayna can certainly speak to the rumblings that would come out of the woodwork at times between Jelelle and I.

This week, I found and connected with a Metasoul, whose name is Pillar (pronounced Pee-lar), whose timeline is the fall of Atlantis, who knew deep romance with his beloved Charee, (pronounced Kah-ree), and love within community, a ‘haven within a haven’ as he called it, but lost it all when he spoke to what he felt was the unowned shadow within the group. We felt and digested his devastating experience with being shunned, and losing it all, and the blame and shame, and all the after-the-game quarterbacking about what could have been different had he done things differently, particularly with more vulnerability. He also felt the words famously quoted from the Bhagavad Gita, by Robert Oppenheimer, the man credited with inventing the atomic bomb; “I am become death, the destroyer of worlds.”

Pillar and others in my parts and Metasoul have also deeply felt this theme of their truth being the torpedo of all that was good. My this-life history of leaving Christianity and the loss around that, as well as later losing the group that Jelelle and I met in, after being kicked out, so amplified these themes in my Metasoul, coming back to haunt me once again. I so get what people are speaking to when they mention their or someone’s ‘Inner Demons’, but see it as aspects of our soul awaiting our open heart to digest what they need to move their trauma, and afford us the overflow from their movement.

Pillar had the opportunity this week, being held in my heart, to feel me sort through, my own agony of feeling a future without beloveds, without SoulFullHeart, and then to make new choices and vulnerable reconnections. It began while staring down an insanity, seeking the handrails of goodwill and decency being restored here in the house we share, which was really rumbled the day before I moved downstairs to the basement suite, where part of me got vulgar in words towards Kalayna (the real low point). Gabriel’s subsequent help with daily checkins and space holding for Pillar recently helped things move through the birth canal. Each step brought new openings, and yesterday, after not seeing Jelelle for 2 weeks, and having limited contact with our community here, we met together as a group for some very precious words and tears together, and I was welcomed back into their hearts and my familiar treasured community.

Imagining a future of starting over in seeking a new community, a service of love expression within that and future romance possibilities looked and felt so hard, when my truth doesn’t resonate with any other known offerings that are out there, leaving me some hard road of beginning from the ground up, based in and on unresolved resentments, and ‘I’ll show them’, did not feel like a path I or any of my parts really wanted to embark on.

Well, that’s the short version of all this, which I hope to expand out into a new lived in reality on the other side of a huge compartment in my heart and soul and relationality now being integrated.

Jelelle even said to me at one point while we had a moment yesterday, ‘you never know what’s going to arise between us’, and my heart swooned, all the while knowing that time and space for integration and new discovery, new ways of being are also needed. I can tell you, with some trepidation, that it remains my (now, not-so secret) hope, that what does arise between us flowers naturally back into romance, but if it doesn’t, I really do trust that what arises can be and will be even better. I truly died to what was between us, and even SoulFullHeart, and am sooo grateful to be emerging back from the dead.

Parts of me are seeking guarantees from the Divine that there isn’t any more dark nights that will need to be this difficult. I trust that the fusion and pain was all necessary, though I really do hope to never again suppress anything on this magnitude, as it just hurts way too much. In that way, I can be the answer to the above prayer.

Thank you to all of you here who have ached for me, letting your heart be broken with mine, and rooting for me and loving me. I couldn’t have done it without you.

Much love and anticipation for the good that wants to come for us all, even through the shadow,

Raphael, xoxo

Honoring & Grieving As We Complete Our Sacred Union Relationship: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Mar 25, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

It’s been a week of digesting some waves of letting go and letting in… featured this week is a piece by Jelelle Awen and Raphael Awen too, as they transparently and vulnerably share about the completion of their 10 year marriage and beloved Sacred Union. In this writing, they share their appreciation of each other and what they had, even as they walk out a deep letting go of the romance. Their experience of Sacred Union is a powerful template for a new way to be in relationship and in a romantic bond. As Jelelle writes,

“We always held our sacred union as a moment by moment choice….not like a ‘death till us part’ vow…..not something that would bind and tie as in 3D marriages. Yet, rather we entered into each moment transacting with the bond between us that would arise to serve love to each of us…..or wouldn’t. To be in a sacred union like this is to feel always that something is ‘at stake’ even as it becomes more and more comfortable to be truly vulnerable and intimate with each other. This kind of sacred union asks you to always keep deepening the sacred union within you in order to be able to transact it with each other from a place of overflow. And sometimes, too, it also asks you to commit to that inner sacred union with complete devotion and focus for a phase of time.”

There is much NEW on the horizon as well, as Jelelle and her daughter Raianna Shai plan a major relocation to Europe in the coming months with a focus on serving love in different geographies. More details on this as it unfolds.

Jelelle will be facilitating an in-person group session day here in Victoria, Canada on Saturday, April 6th from 10am – 5pm PDT. During this monthly group session day, you get space to share what your current process is and receive feedback and reflections from others. We will lead a guided meditation to bring in high vibrational energies to support Divine connection and emotional feeling too. You will also have the opportunity to receive energy healing as well if that comes up in your process.

There are new articles and audio blogs this week from Jelelle, along with Gabriel and Kalayna Solais. There is a theme this week of grieving, letting go and letting in, learning how to be with your parts and be real about the pain coming up while also letting in trust in the bigger picture and support from the Divine. There are also several energy updates to take in.

Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna (Kalayna is available to serve women 30 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Solar Flare/CME & Supermoon Reveal and Heal Karmic Polarities: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Mar 18, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

This was a MEGA energy week of geomagnetic storms, strong SOULar winds, Schumann/Gaia frequency spikes, Supermoon occurring during the Equinox, and even SOULar flares and Coronal Mass Ejections (CMEs)! SoulFullHeart Creator/Teacher Jelelle Awen offered many energy updates to keep you current on these cosmic events and how they may be impacting you.

 

“We were receiving SUCH strong Divine Feminine codes of shadow illumination and revelation of more fear-based/karmic healing timelines with this Supermoon. She seemed to invite us to go deeper into our shadow wounds, especially those connected to the ‘opposite’ gender and our feminine/masculine relationships within and with others. She was unsentimental in this mirroring, yet loving in the space holding as we continue to process what came up.”

SoulFullHeart Facilitators (and newlyweds!) Gabriel and Kalayna Solais hosted a live stream on Wednesday, March 20th for the Equinox Supermoon where they led you in a powerful guided meditation to help call in and ground in the incoming energies from the sun and moon. They also offer a digestion of the incoming energies and what they may be pushing up for you or helping you with on your ongoing journey of transitioning to higher and higher personal timelines. Catch the recording on this week’s Museletter.

Kalayna shares a guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector, a vital and important aspect of your BEing who shifts from guard to guide as you begin to connect together.

There are several new articles and audio recordings from Gabriel, Kalayna, and Jelelle this week to take in about the incoming energies and how they may be illuminating shadow aspects for integration and healing. Along with positive messages of support and love from your Higher Self, Divine guides, and star family.

They are also event updates that will be occurring locally here in Victoria, BC including a free guided meditation circle on March 30 and an in person group session day on April 6th. For more info on these events, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael, Jelelle (for women over 30), Gabriel, and Kalayna (for women 30 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD/$77 CAD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

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