Feeling What We Really Want In Our Social Worlds: Indigo, Crystal And Rainbow Souls Blog Series

 

by Kalayna Colibri

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On a Saturday night, I gaze among the busy social streets and walkways, humming with activity and energy and alcohol and friendship… sometimes coupled with drama and pain and backed-up emotional outbursts. During these party times, you can feel the buzz in the air that will soon be in every body, not just from substances taken in, but from the high of socializing, being among peers, perhaps finding love, sex or making new friends. There are grounds here that are healthy to explore and some that aren’t really in a sense, and yet it’s all sacred and it’s all ultimately a path to self-discovery and remembrance, even if this isn’t made conscious in the moments these selves, these individuals, these human BEings are in.

While young, being spiritual can find its place in you if this is what you’ve signed up for… exploring consciousness can sometimes happen with your peers, while at other times it won’t or just can’t. For a phase this journey with them can only go so deep and that’s fine with you for a while, but beyond that phase when that was enough, it’s not quite enough anymore. This is when values shift along with ideas of life and how to live it consciously and more fully. This is where certain areas of focus, ways to find pleasure, and paths to feeling a togetherness with others all rumble beneath your feet and in front of your eyes. This is where your life begins to turn itself upside down in countless ways as you begin to feel the need to push away, sometimes dramatically, sometimes subtly, but always in a way that reminds you, you are your own person and you have your own sense of what energies you need and want to be around as your self love heals and deepens.

There can be a fear arising then, for some… that no one will ever really “get” them or may judge them for walking away from the relationship. Parts of them form and begin to strategize to either stay alone out of fear of having and then losing intimacy at any level, or choose to merge in with whatever group of people they are around or whatever situation they are in, becoming one with all around them and not much of an individual in most ways. There is tension and yet also relief as you find your ways to take care of and love YOU as your number one priority. There is sometimes also flatness, as managing these ups and downs (that are hormonal, sure, but also a genuine awakening to soul and heart pain) can be a challenging crucible to hold and handle and be with. So much depends on who you choose to be around and talk to and lean into for support. This shopping around, seeking, searching experience is one that can be incredibly mind and heart-opening, fascinating, and ever-arising too, as resonance moves in and out in very necessary growth phases. This again changes the social circle you choose to be part of and certainly affects the one you currently have as you continue to awaken to the love you are and the love you want to experience between yourself and others. There are so many different dynamics that are possible here and that play out in different ways, with many possible outcomes… yet the risk is always the same – if I don’t stay the same and they do, I will be friendless again or even for the first time…

The strong soul-pull to discover and remember our purposes is something that is happening more and more with people of all ages and soul groups, especially right now with ascension processes accelerating for everyone, yet when it comes to indigo, crystal and rainbow souls, for example, these social awakenings can come very early in our lives as we came in with a powerful, mission-based focus that is natural for us to feel, yet not so natural to “know” exactly what to do with. It can be very challenging to finds ways to fit in with others in our peer group, not because we are victims to this (though parts of us understandably feel this way sometimes) but because we chose for this to be the case… after all, if we actually DID feel as if we totally, fully, completely “belonged”, where would our sense of mission and awakening to our soul gifts have room to happen, take hold and start manifesting in our lives? To not suffer around this, means going IN and feeling ourselves with reflections from teachers and mentors who have also been there and can help us learn to navigate it, often much better than our birth parents ever could – not necessarily because they didn’t want to try, but because in some ways they weren’t actually meant to be the ones to lead you onward and into this.

Throughout the majority of my life to date, having and keeping a thriving a social world was very challenging. This is partly because I was always very much IN my emotional states and didn’t have templating for how to actually BE with them and hold them… no adult around me could help with this and my peers had a hard time relating to me most of the time, plus it eventually became a tool for parts of me to actually push and keep others away. Then there was spirituality and the deepening of THAT for me… and now I am on a very powerful and ever-expanding path that spans both my emotional AND spiritual inner realities and THAT is rare, though it seems that more and more people, as they awaken, are realizing how connected these two realities are and that they need healing in both in order to fully embrace and live into ascension. In my experience and observation both, I can see and feel how this ground of being naturally very emotional and also spiritual has been and continues to be a tough crucible for many of us… awakening does come at a cost, yet is intended to invite us out of suffering while holding the parts of us who cling to suffering as a way to be in life. One of these ways in which we seem to choose to continue suffering, is by surrounding ourselves with relationships that do not have a deeply resonant ground. Our social worlds collapse and expand as we continue to grow… but not without love leading the way and guiding us to our next places inward that then draw our next circumstances outward.

Not having a full social world to ground you can be hard for some souls, yet for others it won’t be and that poses its own challenges. Choosing the path of the lone wolf is also hard and even though parts of you may be working to bury the loneliness somehow, it is still there. These parts can be held, worked with and healed deeply, allowing us to feel how we really, genuinely feel, what it is we most deeply want and who we actually want to be around and spend time with. Our loneliness is sacred and alchemical… it is creative. It is a space where we can feel our deepest aches and desires for mateship, for companionship, for a community of people that continually arise for us as we arise for them. Being afraid of feeling our loneliness is expected and normal, but holding these parts of us who feel this way teaches us so much about ourselves and offers us much healing when it is held in our hearts FOR us and WITH love and Divine guidance and company too… we are never really alone, though this can be hard to feel and let in. Yet sometimes alone-ness can be a grace, a place to genuinely feel what we need to feel, and an oven to bake our arising desires in.

Perhaps you are part of a social world right now that may be running out of ground for you, as your awakenings are helping you feel pictures and energies of the sort of love you want to feel from you to you and flowing from you to others and vice versa… in the end, the choice is yours as to what steps to take next, and there is no wrong answer or true misstep along the way. Even our biggest messes seem to offer us many gems of learning, growth and self-discovery. Letting go can be painful and hard, yet in the end, true service to a relationship of any kind starts with feeling what you genuinely want and need, while holding all relationships with an open hand and heart. This becomes a grace to you and your parts, and them and theirs too, as everyone is then free to go along their own path, however they see and feel it unfolding for them.

I would love to serve you and help you navigate this terrain that can be so challenging and yet hopeful too. You are meant to become more of your essence, your light, your soul purpose and mission. You are meant to lead and BE a big part of ascension and we all need each other more than perhaps we ever have before!

You can visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information on session space.

Sending you lots of love and support… ❤

Kalayna

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Popping Through Ceilings In Your “Roaring 20s”: Dedicated To ALL Awakening 20-somethings

by Kalayna Colibri

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A feeling of wanting to reach up and touch the sky above you… better still, leap up into it, soaring into the heights you so feel are possible inside your heart. You get it… you get that something inside of you is needing air and is collapsing in on itself in a struggle to fit into a mold passed down by parents and the media and all sides of your culture. You don’t know quite what you or your life are really “supposed” to look and feel like yet, and many choices (though you may not see ALL of them in every moment) lay before you.

Many, many different boxes packed with possibilities are placed in all corners of your room, wanting you to unpack them and see what could be inside. So many questions, all too often answered by pre-conditioning, regarding what you should do with your life and why, where you should live and why, what makes your life worth living and why… what should be your values, your morals, your ways of expressing, your ways of measuring your net and self worth. But it’s all a big ceiling that wasn’t MEANT for you, sweet soul! Oh my god, it was imposed on you and with your permission and you’ve let it stay there for this long, and now you feel the press of your bigness wanting to pop it open… but society tells you that this is “depression”, or worse still, that what you’re feeling and experiencing IS life itself and nothing more or less… this compounds inside of you until you pop like a jack-in-the-box, taking risks, saying NO, finding your way, crawling through glass at times and yet still finding your way – often a “way” that could not be prescribed by those who came before you. No. It’s YOURS and it was always meant to BE yours…

Oh, the things you are feeling… the stuck places where you feel there’s no movement. The identity “crises” (that are really OPPORTUNITIES…) these are ALL trying to move your compass in a different direction. This is trying to wake you up and shake up your way of BEing in life, showing you with neon lights that this is NOT the way you HAVE TO choose. Your 20s are a shadowy time in some ways… there are many shadows lurking around you, reflections of old ways of doing things that somehow was passed on to you, but now is your chance to find your NO and break through your glass ceiling. You do have the power to burst through this… after all, the ceiling is there with YOUR permission anyways, as is ALL of your conditioning from culture, birth family, and those friends you’ve drawn to you.

Maybe you decided to go to college. Going back is an option, but maybe doesn’t feel like the real answer… so much is stirring inside you, like a baby lion reaching deep within for its first roar. You’re meant to claim whatever this roar is and needs to be. Pushing away from what ISN’T you can take this step sometimes. There may be mess, but you are so held in every moment and there is so much support coming at you from all sides, holding healing balms and salves… guiding you to lean into a deeper, bigger, more authentic YOU that works without bells and whistles and cavalcades. It is a YOU that calls subtly at first and then gets louder when you’re ready to hear it and feel it. It is a YOU that wants center stage at the center of your being but cannot take it without YOUR permission.

YOU are here because YOU are an epic, HUGE soul and that ceiling you’ve been surviving under is cracking… it’s your choice now, whether or not you want to take the road that is known, or the one less traveled by. Either way, know that there is no wrong or right, only choice, and that every single breath you take is just as sacred as the first and the last. You have decisions at your fingertips and magic in your palms. The world needs you and you need you, to step into the calling to be a new sort of King and Queen – completely sovereign in your own self, leading others into the heart territory you too long to go in, feeling how what you really, deeply, actually feel is what is meant to guide you and others into new places and aspects of space and “time” yet undiscovered or unremembered. You are being remembered by the universe just as you are remembering yourself. There is so much beyond that cap you’ve gone along with for this long. There is so much more love, respect and absolute wonder waiting for you, wanting you to find and feel it all, coming straight from within. It is a constant choice that requires no more than your renewed commitment to it in every moment – Awaken with the soul pull knocking at your heart-door, or go back to sleep…

Which are you choosing?

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

SoulFullHeart Museletter Week Of March 6: Golden Earth Now! Vlog Series, Sacred Masculine Series, and Indigo Souls Series

By Jelelle Awen

Sharing…we are all four of us (me, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, andLeena Colibri) in a phase of sharing as it overflows naturally and organically from our hearts and souls in an alchemy of Divine creation. There aren’t questions for us of what to share and when, it just comes out and then is offered..can’t really work on ‘assignment’ when it comes to following Divine and higher self flow. This process of creativity allows us to see ourselves, to express our ‘leading edges’ of BEing, and to alchemize and manifest this expression ‘out’ in the world as it grows from within.

That these expressions of heart flow then land and resonate with others, with many of you who are offering hearts and thumbs and comments, is the downstream layer of nourishment for us after the creation. THANK YOU for taking US in as you serve our growth even as, hopefully, you receive the gifts too that support yours. This is the collaboration that we enter into together whenever the energy is exchanged through your receiving and our giving.

Our weekly ‘pool’ of sharings and offerings named our ‘SoulFullHeart Museletter’ is out today (as every ‘Friday’) and offers a dip into writings, videos, group call listings that you may have missed during the week or just want to take in again. Rich waters in which to swim offering much love and goodness to take in! This week launched many new ‘series’ with Raphael’s Golden Earth Now Vlog Series, Gabriel’s Sacred Masculinity Blog Series, and Leena’s Indigo-Rainbow-Crystal Soul Series!

Please msg Leena Colibri if you would like to receive these museletter in your email every week or email us at soulfullhearts@gmail.com. And we would so LOVE and APPRECIATE any love in the form of money donations that you feel moved to offer us as a energy exchange of appreciation for our sharings.

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The Financial Area Of Life: Indigo, Crystal And Rainbow Souls Blog Series

by Kalayna Colibri

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There are some souls who have signed up to become masters in the domain of money and finances, and some even become financial wizards at very young ages. Then there are some who seem to not ever get a foothold on having a financially stable lifestyle; juggling multiple jobs, bills, family members to provide for, and a seemingly endless list of troubles. There are those who dance in between these two as well, and this is sometimes where we will find Indigos, Crystals and other souls like them. When I feel these souls, and also when I reflect on my own ongoing journey and healing with regard to money, I feel the tug ‘o war between old conditioning that we have been raised by, old systems that are collapsing, and the arising desire to keep blowing up these systems so we can live in an economy that is gift-based and involves living in conscious community with shared resources. This writing today is mostly for those who feel as if money is an area they struggle with. It is VERY possible to be of these soul groups and NOT feel as if money is a challenging topic!

There is a reality to ground into when it comes to current financial systems in place, and then there is also a more desirous way of being and transacting in life and in relationships that is more nourishing, and that is not only a dream but is something we are actualizing right now – if we can begin to let that in. This is the place where I feel these unique soul groups seem to have a lot of struggle. There is still a need for money to some degree, and money itself, after all, is only a piece of our overall consciousness about love and exchange… our very personal relationship to it, is what makes it either come into our lives in abundance or keeps us feeling as if we are victims, always needing more of it and never seeming to get ahead. Choosing what it is we want to do with the money we have (i.e. what we want to invest it in) is actually an area where we have a lot of power.

 

We often have a rebellious streak that wants to avoid the whole thing of having to find financial stability to some degree in our lives, and also we may feel entitled to free help or services. I’ve definitely had a lot to feel around entitlement, wanting things to happen YESTERDAY and sometimes also wanting financial exchanges (like food and rent) to be WAY lower, if not free. I also leaned into birth family for a chunk of my early adulthood for financial help, which they felt obliged to give me at the time. During my healing process though, I was guided to end this cycle and start taking care of myself… that’s where my real growth started to take root, in more arenas than just this one. At some point, I had to choose to invest in myself in a deeper way. This is also where SoulFullHeart came in, and because I was choosing to invest deeply in ME and the timing was right to do so, the money for sessions just sort of worked itself out somehow and, because it was the right path for me, the growth was (and is) exponential and paying off in many, many ways.

 

Though part of me didn’t want to work anymore unless it had to do directly with my soul purpose work, it turned out that life was actually trying to show me that for a phase, I needed to have a regular job to offer me the healing I needed in order TO be able to fully inhabit my soul purpose work much later. The main gift of this, I am now realizing, was being able to land more in my much needed personal healing. I needed the grist of having a job (or several) in order to feel myself and parts of me more strongly, to have them pushed up to the surface by their different reactions so that I could feel and heal what I was being asked to during this phase.This also taught be how to navigate and flow with life while engaging in deep inner work. This created a profound lifestyle change that is still evolving today, right along with me. There is a bigger trust in life that I didn’t have back when this all first began, but in hindsight I can now understand it… I needed to trust deeper that if this is what life was showing me I needed to do, there would inevitably be something big in it for me. Perhaps one of the biggest gifts I can cultivate from having gone into the gift of every single job I’ve had as an adult, is that I can now digest it in writings like this one, with a desire to help you find your own way to more trust in the choices life is offering you (regardless of what soul group you belong to!). Finding stability is an act of self love and care. We may need to make choices that de-stabilize us for a phase too, but we ready ourselves for that by allowing ourselves to actually HAVE stability for a while, laying a healthy groundwork inside of ourselves to be able to find our way with sanity.

 

It’s easy as young people fresh out of university or college, to feel imprisoned by debt. There can be a lot of guilt around wanting to bail on it or maybe some self-image pieces around declaring bankruptcy because of it. I feel strongly like debt actually IS a prison sentence that we are ALLOWING to be real for us. It is another way to be distracted from our true healing and soul purpose work by feeling predominantly like victims to the systems we are trying to shift and change. Well, what I feel to be more and more true these days, is that these systems are already collapsing in on themselves, because they were always meant to. Love has already won. There is no real battle to fight here, we just have to find ways to climb out from under the rubble. Feeling angry or upset is so normal and expected and indeed, for phases we do need our outrage (I’m especially talking to Indigos here, feels like) in order to help move things along, yet, if you think about it, who is that outrage meant to ultimately serve, but YOU? Whatever, wherever it leads you to, it is the path you are choosing and the path you most need at this moment. Feeling knocked sideways by the realm of money, is a symptom of something inside of US that needs to be felt and healed. As we choose to go inward, the systems will be and ARE collapsing outward. Your outrage is a roadmap to your inner world of pain and desire, both, and you DO have an effect on the collective on different levels whether you decide to go in and heal or not…

 

This philosophy is so applicable to any area of our life where we feel we would like to experience more abundance or an easier flow. Going inward about it is where we can feel and experience our true power and alchemy. We are infinitely creative beings, all of us. Though it’s difficult to understand at times why we seem to be struggling to get ahead, especially if we are conscious at all about the HUGE souls we are and the importance of what we came here to do and lead, we must stop looking outside of us for answers, for we are literal packages of goodies and shadow, both, that need love and care to unpack. We are hardwired for being a part of the deconstruction and reconstruction of the changes going on in this world, and as such, we must be grounded by doing this from the inside, first and most importantly. ❤

 

So, sweet “love sponge” souls, try to soak up some self love this weekend… if this area of life really is a struggle for you, you can try journaling with a part of you who holds on to this struggle and needs YOU very much right now. If you wish to, you can try the following questions in your journaling…

 

What does “money” mean to you?
What would being “financially stable” mean to you?
If you have some reactions to Leena’s writing about money and finances, what are they?

 

Let me know if you ever have the desire for a session to help you digest this and other areas of your very sacred life!

 

Lots of love to you, loved ones…

 

Kalayna

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Bridging The Soul Identifiers Of “Indigo”, “Crystal”,”Rainbow”, And “Star”

by Kalayna Colibri

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If you have been hanging around in spiritual corners and riding some higher frequencies, it’s likely you’ve heard of these souls by now and you may even identify as one yourself. Since I am starting to write mostly for these particular soul groups, I wanted to invite you more into an awareness of WHO it is I’m writing to!

These, like any identity we claim, are just one piece of the great mosaic of us. I feel as if they do help illuminate our missions, yet, I also feel like over-identifying with any one of these, can ease out the possibilities of letting ourselves also be an unfolding mystery. It feels sort of like going by your sun sign for the rest of your life as your main way of getting to know yourself. There is nothing wrong with doing this, and some souls definitely NEED to do this for a phase (or several), so that they can awaken and begin a process of healing and getting to know themselves. I definitely needed the identity of being an Indigo for a phase of time, to have something defined that I could lean into for an explanation as to why I seemed to be who/how I was in the world and to help me differentiate from the collective.

Here is a short summary of these three different soul groups, known as Indigo, Crystal and Rainbow…

In my understanding and experience of the Indigo soul, they can be both adults and young people. In terms of linear time, they have apparently been incarnating since the 1970’s, with the majority of them being born between the 70’s and the mid-late 80’s. From the mid-80’s until (I think…) around 2000 or so, the Crystal children started coming in. These days we are now receiving incarnated Rainbow and Star children/souls. Indigo traits often include a deep passion for justice and global change, psychic and other healing gifts, entitlement around being able to express their gifts (definitely a piece I’ve had to work myself!), and an intolerance for dis-integrity, plus many gifts of discernment around whether or not someone or something is trustworthy. The Indigo’s main soul mission is to deconstruct old systems that need to collapse. If you’re someone who has the gift of seeing (or feeling) auras, you may notice that they have a more Indigo-coloured aura. Indigo is also the colour most commonly associated with the 6th chakra or 3rd eye, so this is a big indication of their psychic gifts. Most Indigos seem to be quite entrepreneurial and will be drawn to starting their own healing practices however possible.

Crystal souls have come in in huge waves since the mid-1980’s. Their most commonly attributed soul mission is to follow-up the deconstruction work of the Indigos, helping to rebuild the world and create new, more compassionate systems to replace the old ones. They are more even-tempered than your average child/adult and generally are known to have large, penetrating eyes that seem to really see you.They tend to forgive rather easily. and are quite sensitive and psychic. They also seem to be a group that most often chooses to become vegan or vegetarian our of compassion AND health reasons, and though they may not choose to be activists like many Indigos might, they still feel strongly about living in specific ways that are less harmful to others and the planet. Crystals seem to be more  drawn to the idea of living as part of a community from an early age and will know and recognize soul family pretty fast.

Rainbow souls are most likely, I’ve read, to be born to Crystal soul-ed parents. So this makes them a natural evolution of the Crystal energy of compassion and healing. These souls, it feels like to me, come in with very little karma from other lives, mostly because they haven’t incarnated HERE all that often, or perhaps EVER. It’s possible that some of them are pretty “new” souls, meaning that they haven’t left their home frequency to incarnate anywhere before coming here to be with Gaia. They are said to forgive very easily and anyone who is around them feels a sense of harmony and peace. Because they have no karma, they have incredible healing and psychic abilities that are free and unblocked and no emotional baggage. They have an ability to trust the ethereal with little effort, whereas there is more of a journey for the Crystal and Indigo souls around this piece.

Now we have what some call “Star” souls coming in, who may have NO karma at all, not having lived out any lives with Gaia. These are souls who are star beings in human form, and I’ve also read somewhere that they actually KNOW this consciously and can offer many gifts very early in their lives. They are introverted and very comfortable with complex electronics from an early age. As children, they will sometimes strike you as being “mini-adults” in child form and are very intelligent. They come into this life so directly from Source energy that they just trust it with little effort and are very connected to it at all times.

I wanted to summarize these groups to help bridge something for you, in case you aren’t already familiar with them. Yet, I feel there is so much more to the story than these definitions, and I feel that as we go into our own healing processes, we can move out of one soul frequency and into another. For example, I do feel that as we awaken, we can move into a more Indigo frequency, and then possibly a Crystal frequency after that. This feels especially true in terms of ascension, where having a 4D awakening can give you a thirst for justice and profound change in your life, but also globally, similarly to how an Indigo soul often feels from birth. Then, as we move through these frequencies, we can begin to feel the more unified piece where we can trust that life is unfolding as it’s meant to and that rising above the battleground instead of fighting on it, is actually where our real power is. This feels more like how a Crystal or Rainbow or even Star soul may naturally feel about life. Also, being an Indigo may mean needing to have a deep “Lone Wolf” phase for a while until a desire and need for community arises, which feels like something a Crystal, Rainbow or Star soul may be more naturally drawn to early on in life.

I feel we could have and be so many of these frequencies at once and that as we heal, more and more soul qualities become freed up, allowing us to vibrate at much higher frequencies. When we look at the Metasoul, which we talk about in SoulFullHeart, it is so possible that we could have souls living out lives as Indigos or Crystals simultaneously as the life we are living out here and now. As we heal these soul frequencies in this life and in other Metasoul lives, this makes way for a deep transformation of the self we have known ourselves to be, becoming unrecognizable on MANY levels, to ourselves and to others too. In the end, we are all sacred humans learning to find our way back to the sacred in whatever way calls to us in the moment. How we grow and evolve is a deeply personal choice and experience and there are many different definitions we can feel into and take on for however many moments we need to do so! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reuniting With Mother Gaia: A Guided Meditation For Indigo, Crystal And Rainbow Souls

by Leena Colibri

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You can listen to the meditation here

This meditation is an offering from my heart and imagination to yours, to help it awaken further and in ways it may not have just yet. By the same token, it is intended to help you connect your heart and soul with Mother Gaia, the embodiment of the consciousness of our planet Earth and a sacred feminine guide for all of us who wish to connect more deeply with Her. You may feel a range of emotions throughout this offering, and I encourage you to make space for all of them as they bubble up inside you. In my experience of Mother Gaia, she is a loving space holder for any and all of what we are feeling, and she welcomes it all to surface within us as needed for our healing and thus, Hers too.

If you have access to some white sage or copal that you can light to clear your space before going in, I highly recommend that you do so, as this helps to clear out energies that may be less supportive of this inner journey you are about to embark on. I also recommend that you light some insence and/or a candle. Anything with an earthy scent may help you connect with Her more deeply. Surrounding yourself with and/or holding sacred stones or crystals that you feel resonant with at this moment, will help you ground into Her energy and also help you connect with your chakras as you move through this meditation.

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Make sure you are seated in a comfortable position with back support, or, that you are lying down in shavasana or flat on your back.

Close your sweet eyes…those eyes that have observed the world around you since the moment you were born, taking in the faces, energies, colours, and textures of all those around you. These observations are what have helped you learn all you have to this very day, and they, and your eyes, are to be honoured now. As your gaze turns inward toward the movie playing in your imagination, you may begin to remember that this inner reality is the one where it all began. In order to start walking, you had to first see yourself start walking, from this very place… to utter your first words, you had to see yourself saying them and imagine their impact…. imagine the joy on your mother or father or other caregiver’s face as your tongue and teeth and mouth shape move in tandem to create even one little sound. You may have been late to start speaking. Do you remember why that was? So much of communication is in thought form and energy, not in words as they have all taught you from an early age. No one is at fault here… it is only a conditioning and you are a unique and brave soul to have chosen to experience and adapt to it as best as you could have.

As you enter this imagination place, you begin to see an open meadow before you, surrounded by giant trees, covered in green and perhaps some flowers, grass, butterflies, anything at all… this is your landscape. This is your world you are visiting and remembering… you see off in the distance somewhere, a shadowy figure in the shape of an animal coming towards you. It could be big or small, domestic or wild. It could even be a tiny insect or a large arachnid, there are no limits here in this place of YOU! There may even be more than one…

As your animal slowly approaches you, and you calmly wait for it to arrive, you feel and might even see the big, pink heart chord that joins you two through your heart chakras. There may be a connection to other chakras as well, some upper or lower, cosmic or in the body. Your heart fills with reverence and wonder at this reunion and you may even feel tears when reuniting with this long-standing companion, as the memory washes over you that this animal guide or totem, has been with you for a very, very long time. If you don’t feel this at first, it’s okay. Just observe how you do feel, and let it be what’s real. This totem has been with you for so long and holds so much compassion and love for you, that it understands completely where you are at and regardless it is here to help you, as you have opened your heart to it today.

Your guide gestures and tells you telepathically that it is here to help you on your journey to meet Mother Gaia. It invites you to follow or, if possible, climb on its back and ride it! Immediately you begin to feel the swirl of momentum and a rumble around you as your animal guide takes off on this journey with you. Whether flying through the air on the back of a pegasus or running through the tall grass on the back of a cheetah, you feel the wind whispering to you of love and adventures to come, supporting your journey onward and inward, maybe even offering a boost of momentum and a reminder that all natural elements are here to offer you many gifts on your journey through life on this beautiful planet! You feel the sun beaming down on you like a proud father, illuminating all of the sparkling beauty of YOU, infusing you with its light rays and warming you from the outside-in. Observe what you feel when you are in this atmosphere as much as you can, for it could be moving rather quickly! Perhaps there are many things going on around you at the same time and many different creatures or pictures or objects you can see in the air or the grass or the clouds around you. They are all a part of YOU and are symbols for you to pick back up again later if you need and desire to do so.

As you arrive at your destination, you see Mother Gaia’s grove. Her ponds and clear water springs glisten and sparkle in the sunlight, with shining tiny rainbows arching over them. Lily pads laugh as tiny frogs leap from one to another. All creatures that you may see here are in bliss and happiness. You may even notice some rather tall and wide trees that feel like royalty to you in their regalness and aged wisdom. You may also see some animal species that you were told had gone extinct… for nothing can ever really die. Whatever you see here, let it in, as it is all a part of Her and also a part of YOU, undyingly, unceasingly, unendingly…

In a small clearing with giant trees covered in moss surrounding it, you see a comfortable place for sitting. The grass here seems to have formed into a meadowy couch made of soft peat moss and smiling yellow dandelions. Fireflies dance around this area, lighting it up like tiny, soft candles with the sweet glow of their flitting bodies. All seems to welcome you and your animal friend here with great warmth and love. You feel the trees inviting you to come in and sit on the mossy natural sofa. As you do so, you feel the exquisite love of the earth itself holding and warming you, reminding you that it loves you as much as you love it.

After you sit for a minute or so, you glance another pathway, separate from the one you took to get to this seat. It is a pathway of golden sand and soil that feels rich in life and lined with dancing wildflowers, the brightest and most lovely you’ve ever seen in this life! You notice the figure of a tall woman with what looks like a tall and wide headress of flowers, moss and twigs walking towards you, her heart chakra beaming so brightly at you, that you feel instantly held by a feminine power and love you are remembering you were once held by before you were born into this life you now lead. As she walks towards you, her strides are elegant and broad, yet she is in no hurry, and in some moments, she seems to almost be standing still as the ground beneath her carries her towards you, effortlessly, as if she weighs the same as a feather, though she is actually quite tall and wears robes that seem as if they would be quite heavy to bear!

She arrives at your grassy sofa, and in this canopy of trees, she feels like she is one of them as she wraps you in a slow, deep embrace. This may feel like hugging and being hugged by a tree.

She whsipers to you in a soft, yet powerful voice that seems to penetrate and soothe you on many levels of your being, “I’m glad to see you and feel you here with me, in my domain that is also YOUR domain, sweet creation… I am Mother Gaia, as some call me. I am both renewed and ancient in every moment, and I and you have a special task or two to do together, if you wish to receive a reminder of it…”

She sits down with you on the sofa and clasps your hands in hers. She beams with so much love that it is hard to even imagine looking away or wanting to fall out of her warm gaze. It is the love you feel when taking in the warm spring sun after a cold, cold winter. It is the love you feel when you lay in the grass after the snow has long melted away. It is the love you feel from your beloved pet or when you are observing any animal in its natural habitat. You realize that this love has always been connected to you for you, but also for it and for HER… and that this is the love that you too are made of… and made to express.

You may wish to leave yourself some room here to let in this reunion in all of its textures and what it may push up for you. You may feel tears of joy and reunion. You may feel fear, hurt or anger. All of it is valid and She wants you to make space for it, as this is your roadmap into more of YOU, and without YOU, your deepest collaboration with Her may not be realized… there is nothing “wrong” or “bad” here or ever… and anything you may wish to feel with Mother Gaia is all valid and she offers you much space to feel it through in Her presence, as a loving mother of All.

“Sweet creation,” She says softly, “I am pleased at this reunion. I am pleased to feel your most open heart at his very moment and in more moments to come. I am here within you, within me, within All. Whenever you desire to come back to this place, or any place you desire to meet with me directly again, I will be with you, to walk with you, to help you see the true wonder and beauty of this planet and of YOU… and to help you remember all you are ready to remember.”

You may begin the remembering process now, if these infusion from Mother Gaia begins to invoke them in you, yet, there is no rush or hurry. To even be in this place of reunion and sharing love with Her, you are taking a step inward that will carry you onward and upward as you continue your process of ascension with Mother Gaia. You may wish to stay and explore this place with her a bit longer, or, you may feel as if this meeting has you filled up for now and perhaps you will choose to return another day. Either way, you have now been imprinted by her magical heart and embrace, and are connected with Her in a way that you may only now be remembering was ever possible for you.

As you say goodbye to Mother Gaia, she extends her hand outward, and a small, porcelain-white dove lands on it. It is carrying a small piece of rolled-up parchment in its beak. She nods in your direction, and you understand that you are to extend your own hand outward for the dove to step onto. As you do this, you feel the tiny, lit-up heart chakra of this dove beaming at you with a sweet knowingness of who you are in your essence. It too remembers you! Looking up at you and blinking its sweet little eyes, you take the small piece of parchment from its beak. The bird jumps up to your shoulder and snuggles in against your cheek, to read the message along with you. You may only see one word or you may see several. But whatever message is there, you make a note to remember it, feeling that is from Mother Gaia and also from your Higher Self, who is also on this path of remembering and awakening along with you, always sending you notes, signs and messages to help you feel him/her more closely once again.

Your animal guide, still at your side, begins to lead you out of Mother Gaia’s grove and garden. He/She takes you back to your meadow, where you say goodbye, and yet, feel like goodbyes don’t really exist anymore and that you may start feeling this animal guide, and possibly other animal guides as well, with you from time to time from now on. With a great big heart beam of “Thank you!” you begin to come back into your body, landing back into yourself at whatever pace you choose. More adventures await you in the future if you choose them and all the love in the world will be there to support you in any way you choose and allow it to…

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

An Intro To The SoulFullHeart 7 Key Areas Of Life For Indigo, Crystal and Rainbow Souls Blog Series

by Kalayna Colibri

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In this writing today, I want to take you with me somewhere. Actually, I’d like to set my internal compass for that, with everything I write to you from now on. So this is the invitation: come on this journey with me. See what there is for you to feel into for yourself. Everything I say to you is grounded in my own experience and guidance. This is a personal thing for me and I want to share from this place in my heart that digests and feels everything happening in my own world and then, in turn and yet simultaneously, the world around me. Nothing that I say is “Bible” and everything is “near as I can tell”. That being said, do come with me and collaborate with me! Let’s grow these ideas and experience our own growth and consciousness expansion TOGETHER!

In SoulFullHeart, there are 7 areas of life that we hold to be key for our healing and understanding of ourselves. They are ways in which we can check up on what’s going on for us and how we are relating to life and even ascension. With each of the entries in this series, you may immediately feel a niggle or knowingness of some kind and some doorway into your most inner reality that maybe you haven’t quite gone to yet. Maybe you have actually explored these places before, as I did before meeting Jelelle and Raphael and starting my own SoulFullHeart process. If you can let me, my words, and my energy in, you will be letting in a huge gust of SoulFullHeart love and support for you to continue this exploration into the depths of yourself.

As we talk about ascension, this is where the work must always begin to be on this journey in the most grounded, thorough way possible – inside ourselves. If you follow my favourite show on gaia.com called Cosmic Disclosure, you will have heard Corey and David talk about this need to go inside and heal our hearts or our service to others won’t be as centered in the heart as is necessary right now. I can already feel that this is something so important to each of you taking this in… it was, is, and always has been for me too. This is why I engage so deeply in this work on myself, so that I, in turn, can serve you with love and serve love WITH you, too. What you are receiving now, is an infusion of the overflow of love coming straight from my heart, finding its way into yours. I know that it has often been hard to trust when someone says that they “love you”, especially being the sensitive, huge, inter-dimensional souls that you are, knowing full-well that sometimes we can say that to each other and not really mean it. It’s okay if that’s how you feel. Love is coming at you anyways, from me, from angels, from star beings, from Mother Gaia, and even from you and the love you are made of already.

The 7 key areas of life that I mentioned before, and that I will talk about in depth throughout this series, are: financial, environmental, social, mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical. I will offer you some words around each of them so that you can let in how we see and feel each area through the SoulFullHeart lens, and how I feel each area applies to you as an Indigo, Crystal, Rainbow, and/or Starseed soul. You might feel some overlap with other healing paths you’ve looked at or been on before, but you’ll also get something brand new out of the experience if you’re open to it. Actually, I suspect I will too, as this is something I’m digesting for my own healing as well. Each area can carry with it some intense challenges for us, as some of us have reincarnated many times, yet some may have not and could be brand new to life here with Mother Gaia. Some areas may also been easier for some of us than others, and we’ll have a look at that together too. As much and as often as possible, I will tie everything back into ascension, since that’s actually the main reason why all or most of us have chosen to incarnate here at this time. You’ll notice that as we ascend, there are different ways in which each area will express in our lives, and I will touch on that as well.

I am a teacher and guide yet I am also a student, and we are all big souls here, learning how to really step into our bigness and express our soul gifts from our ever-healing and expanding hearts. There are many, many places we can go together on this path, and I’m hoping to start some conversations with you who want to learn more but also with you who want to offer how it’s all been for you from your own perspective.

So, if you feel the desire, please keep an eye out for my next blogs in this series, and let’s travel inward, onward and upward together. ❤

If you’re curious to read more about me, you can visit my bio here.

You can also read more of my writing here.

Love,

Kalayna

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

The Love “Misfits”: Ascension And Healing For Indigo And Crystal Souls

By Kalayna Colibri

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I come from a thing called “Gen Y”. I feel this name is apt, because myself and those in my age group ask the question “why” an awful lot! I’m not sure when exactly I started asking this question, but I’m sure I was pretty young at the time, maybe even just learning to talk… 

My sense is that we’re supposed to be the generation who does this asking questions thing, or at least get the ball rolling on it. Millennials have the chance to deepen this questioning even further, and so many of them are doing just that. When I see what’s going on with them and how they’re often marginalized by older/other generations, I get why they would be. They, and those of my generation too, are meant to be game-changers. Many of them feel drawn to activism, veganism, community, and/or just generally making different choices than anyone who came before them, with a deep knowing inside them that the systems in place now NEED to shift and change.

Early in my “seeking”years, which really began around age 14, I was labelled as an “Indigo” because of my age, my determination, my desire to share my soul gifts, and the things I was passionate about. I did really identify with this label for a long time, as it explained a lot about me and actually helped me understand myself a bit better. These days though, as I go inside and heal more and more, I feel a more crystalline essence coming through that is transmuting my passion into compassion, my anger into understanding, and my entitlement around sharing my soul gifts or having what I want, into patient gratitude and trust. Through working with inner-punishers and learning to love them, I’m finding that my judgments toward self and others is shifting into healthy discernment with love, helping to keep me from going back into the same frustration loops, that were only ever about making myself suffer anyways. There is much shadow to be worked in the archetype of the Indigo, it feels like to me, at least in the way that most of us have related to it up to now, and ascension is the perfect way to bring that all to light for each of us.

 I stand aligned with Mother Gaia in heart, soul and body and have felt that I am more deeply impassioned and aware of issues regarding her stewardship than some others, which is another trait we as Indigos and Crystals seem to commonly share. In meditation the other day, I connected with Mother Gaia and felt deep tears as she held me with her love, reminding aspects of my soul that worry about her, that she is okay and can take care of herself, ultimately. I feel her inviting us all into a space of feeling love with her in mutual care and reverence, and that all of the anger we have put out towards those who exploit her resources has actually been a negative output of energy that has been more warrior-like than necessary, even while standing in peaceful protest. She does not need an army, but she does need and desire for us to remember the love that we are and are here to offer as we ascend with her and help others do the same. Many of us have forgotten our true power and where it comes from, and have needed to do this for a reason. However, we all have much power to reclaim now and we have SO much support being offered to us to do so, even from Gaia herself!

 Coming into this life as Indigos, Crystals, Rainbows, Starseeds (or a little bit of everything, as it feels like we could be many of these at once), means we have come in to remember who we are and find our way back to the power and powerS we have always had access to in our home frequencies. So much in 3D reality has densified life with our permission, but we do have the choice to start lovingly recognizing this and pushing against it like a springboard. It’s my sense of it, that if this tweaks you, there is some seed inside of you that needs some love-watering and some wounding that needs to be felt and healed so that you can remember more of who you ARE. I don’t think that any of us were ever meant to remain in a long healing process, as we have the innate capacity to heal deeply in short periods of time whenever necessary. There is definitely pain to move through together though, and we aren’t meant to do it alone.

 If this lands in you, it may be that I am meant to serve you. If I am, there is so much heart ground I look forward to navigating with you as we work together to help you remember what you are here to remember! Regardless of the path you choose for your healing and growth, know that your soul and heart capacities are being seen and felt, and that your soul purpose will not go on without you, even and especially while you take time for YOU, to go inside, heal your heart, and express fully from that beautiful place you’re now re-discovering and uncovering!

In love,

Kalayna

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com