By Raphael Awen
“We create our own reality.”
We’ve all heard it said. Many of us embraced it deeply. We tried to understand and use this knowledge to change our lives. But sadly, we’ve also despaired of trying to apply this truth to our benefit.
What went wrong? Why did a truth that promised so much end up embarrassing us with its own kind of disappointment? What is this truth itself didn’t lack, but our application of it is what left us wanting for something?
I believe what went wrong in our draw to this knowledge was our point of view from which we looked at it. We looked out from an already created point of view at this truth and then hastily set out to fix something in our life. What we missed in that process was feeling the feeling that was already alive in us that something was in need of fixing.
What if there isn’t actually anything in you that’s in need of fixing? What if that conviction comes from a previous created reality that you picked up along the way?
What if you are actually perfect as you are now, even in the midst of knowing there are things in your life that are painful and that you wish would change?
I believe what life is offering us is to feel this truth from a newly created point of view. In this point of view, you get to feel yourself as perfect as you are, loved as you are, loved as you are becoming, loved as you were.
The self-judgment at root of seeing ourselves as objects needing fixing is a painful reality that we have co-created in our collective and that then lives in us individually as our personal reality. An internalized part of us takes on this fixing and punishing role as its job in our lives as it has never known and felt these feelings of its own perfection. Given the scarcity that this part of us lives from, it is very understandable that it would set out to keep its role in our lives intact. This lack of self-love and self-acceptance can only then be the highest form of love we can offer to any other, capping the love we are.
Feel this part of you. Feel the confining space that it lives in. Feel the burden of the many ‘truths’ it subscribed to and eventually despaired from in its dedication and care of you and for you.
Allow a new relationship to ‘truth’ arise in you that isn’t about fixing anything. Begin a lifelong journey of seeing yourself through the eyes of the infinite love that you are now, just as you are.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.