Message From 2022: Choose To Be Alive, Be Free, And Be Love

This time of year there is a collective ritual of looking back and looking forward. Evaluating what happened this past year and what wants to be made manifest in the year to come. There are things we look at personally and things we look at globally. These past couple of New Year’s have been hard to peel away the two as separate as they have seemed bound to each other somehow. What happens ‘out there’ can directly influence and effect what happens ‘in here’.

This morning I felt like checking in with the New Year and feeling what it has to offer me personally and collectively. I have been connecting more with my Gatekeeper as well to continue to heal his own distortions, wounding, and relationship to Love and the Divine so that I can receive a clearer message rooted in compassion and passion both. I will write more about my Gatekeeper in the New Year as it will be presented in the upcoming Deepen video series with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. More info on that here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022.

When I invited 2022 to presence itself I was drawn to the number two, obviously. The first thing I felt and saw was Choice. We all have a choice in this life, even in the most dire of circumstances. We may not have a choice in an external situation, but we ALWAYS have a choice on how to relate and respond to it. This power of Choice can be challenged in numerous ways and at profound depths. Do we choose suffering or do we choose Love?

I understand that this may seem elementary and basic depending on our circumstances, but I feel a sacred reality and truth in it each time I go in to feel what is gnawing at me or making me feel less than the Divinity I AM. We all have parts and aspects of us that can look outbound and compile a trove of evidence to convince our inner juries that we are fucked, worthless, or forever in some kind of suffering loop.

This is not meant to disregard those feelings, but rather meant to access the You that lives above those clouds and in the realm of Grace. I have been rewatching the past Matrix movies, and there was a scene in the third one where Trinity and Neo flew above the clouds in that dystopian world and saw the real Sun for probably the first time ever only to fall back down into it again to complete their mission.

This is what I feel 2022 is inviting each of us to realize. We have access to that world above the clouds and in the Graceland of the Divine. Not just to transcend and park ourselves there, but to recognize that we are more than the suffering while working through it at the same time. It is a matter of choice to see and feel it that way. Each moment offers us a portal into that choice and to challenge each of us to feel alive and in Love, even if that means feeling the pain of NOT feeling alive and in Love. That pain is actually part of it. Not feeling is the suffering.

This coming year, I’m sure, will provide more of the same when it comes to the insanity of the pandemic. Yet, this increasing insanity will actually allow each of us to poultice out our own sanity in the form of choosing Life, Liberty, and Love. It starts from the inside. It starts from feeling the parts of us that are in a state that doesn’t feel these things, or believe they are not possible. It starts with feeling that Sun above the clouds, even if it is just a faint recollection or desire. That sliver is the proof it does exist, just as a ray of sun peeking through thick clouds is proof there is a Sun even if we can’t see it in totality.

As I let this in, I feel such a deep compassion where all souls are at and what each is choosing. I feel a deep call to help others with this process of healing and leaving the suffering over the suffering. I feel to do this in the name of those that may not have quite the choice such as our children who are stuck in this upside down world we have all co-created on one level or another. We can each help ourselves which in turn inspires others to follow suit, so that we can begin to create and remember a world that upholds innocence as the Divine Child within each of us.

I invite you to check out the upcoming video series mentioned above as well as join our free online platform at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co to partake in our digestion and conversation of the series and the year to come. It would be a blessing to have you a part of it.

Here is to a New Year and an Alive, Free, and Loving You by day and by choice.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc

Sacred Desires And Fears – Both Are Our Portal To Full Remembrance

By  Raphael Awen

The thing we desire the most is also the thing we fear the most.

We want something that represents a feeling or assurance of some kind of more, but not too much more. We set our sights on attainable, reachable and manageable goals.

To shoot higher is to set ourselves up for failure, or even worse, to somehow attain that great and high thing, but then have to live with the fear of falling from such a greater height.

If all of our dreams somehow came true, how would we hold it together?

So we tend to settle for this half life of being in resistance with both our desires and our fears. They are both to blame and to be held accountable. Were it not for them, there wouldn’t be any tension. All that would be left would be bliss.

But to go and find some kind of life configuration that helps you kill both desire and fear, is to choose to not live, suicide in slow motion. Doesn’t most spiritual practices, paradigms, therapies and ways of life have at their core, this root of managing fears and desires?

Trouble is though that a human being is one of both desire and fear, and fears and desires are such great forces, that they can never really be managed. At best, they can be suppressed for a time only to emerge in your life with more strength than when you tried to disown them.

I am especially feeling this as we approach the new year, and feeling how feeling fears and desires opens us out to set an intention for the new year, seeing it for the portal that it offers us.

This is so different from the standard ‘New Years resolution’ energy, whereby you need to mount a self-discipline campaign, essentially suppressing the needs and desires of one part of you to allow another one to have its needs met. That’s about dominance, overcoming and suppression, one part of our being colonizing vast and beautiful territories of other parts of our being. The victor never feels at peace with the winnings because it doesn’t contain any peace. Possession requires constant vigilance to stay on top.

For the year to come, what can I feel within my desire body to receive as a shift in being, a shift in nourishment, a shift in getting deeper and truer needs met?

What fears can I feel inside of my heart space that are wanting to find transformation? What irritations and vibrations come up for me in whatever cycle or situations that they do? Why have I needed them up till now?

Could I truly embrace both of these fear and desire polarities within who at first seem to be holding each other at a standoff, but upon closer feeling and observation, I see that each holds the key to each other’s freedom?

I believe this is the deeper ground of truly setting an intention that has true power in it. It has power because it is able to surrender to both desire and fear, not because it overcame one at the expense of the other.

This feels like not only our great personal internal lesson of reconciliation with our divinity, but also like the great cosmic soul’s lesson before us as we watch the playouts of last year’s bifurcating events and narratives about the fears of death, carrying over into the new year at increasing levels of fear and polarization. Whether you’re afraid of the virus or it’s cure, it is the biggest monster in the room right now for so many, bringing up our personal fears within.

How could these heightened crazy times we find ourselves living in with many seemingly impossible situations be a turning point for you personally where your fears and desires are concerned?

This doula of death that showed up is here with consciousness’ permission and authority to help something transform that has wanted and needs to die and be reborn for a long time. Death isn’t ‘death’ as in an obliteration of energy. It’s always about change.

I’ve been quite taken with keeping up with news headlines a few times a day whether alternative or mainstream, for years now, seemingly scanning the horizon for evidence of this great death and rebirth, as if my personal fulfillment is dependent on the collective shifting, even while knowing the agenda in the news cycle. I’m feeling my being rising to a higher octave where the ‘news’ now needs to come from within, my own reports of what’s new from my own heart and soul domains.

I feel an intention brewing for the year to come of changing this relationship with the news, and it feels sooo inviting. Something deeply nourishing wants to replace what felt before felt nourishing, but no longer does.

What are you desiring for the year to come?

Deepen 22!

Jelelle Awen and I are releasing a daily video series beginning January 1st for the month offering daily short guided meditations and an overview of the SoulFullHeart way of life, and I’d love to have you join us if you feel drawn. It’s free to be a part of, but we’d love to receive your exchange with us in the form of donations for whatever ways it helps and assists you through where you are shifting and moving. You will find it on our YouTube channel: https://youtube.com/c/SoulFullHeartExperience

4 days from now we have our 12:12 Portal Transmission and Guided Meditation Group Call. I hope you can join us live at 5:00pm GMT/12:00 EST/9:00am EST on Sunday, December 12th and/or receive the recording by whatever donation you feel to give (usual is about $15 CAD) via soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen.

More info at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions and https://www.facebook.com/events/328536115365602

Much love to you on your sacred journey,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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From Victim To Ambassador Amidst An Apocalypse

By  Raphael Awen

Seeing stories more and more of what only looks like concentration camps 2.0 in the name of protecting people, it strikes a fear chord inside of me.

How far is this thing going to escalate? How prepared is prepared?

What shall I do? How will I know what to do and when?

I gave these feelings and questions some heart space inside of a Divine Mother and Divine Father womb space this morning and was invited to feel some larger awareness around it all.

When we see the polarity increasing between two sides of any conflict, we are antsy to find the right side, and once we feel we’ve achieved that, we tend to expound the virtues of our side over the enemy’s side. We become virtuous warriors regardless of the side we’ve chosen.

Regardless of the conflict, if you feel into the energy of both sides, a quite surprising common denominator is seen. Both the designated perpetrator and victim are feeling and acting out of a place of fear of losing something precious to them. Though they are at polar opposites as to the solution of the crisis at hand, they are totally cut from the same cloth when it comes to what is motivating them.

If that’s true, then I need only look at myself to get a window on what’s going on deep in the heart of my enemy’s camp.

Deep at core, I don’t want to lose my life. I may feel I’m higher consciousness about this than I was before, even realizing that my true being can’t actually die, but only change forms, but still I’m not outside of this deep core motivation to preserve something precious and avoid something feared in the here and now. And in those somethings, is where I was told this morning, that we find resolution, both personally and collectively.

Now, I can only possess these kinds of fears if there is still ground in me of distrust towards my outcome, without which, I could be rest assured of a good and pleasurable future.

Is this the exact same world that my enemy lives in, regardless of our perceived and chosen oppositeness?

It feels to me to be the case.

This whole polarity world is maybe no better pictured than in our relationship with money. I must have money to survive, or I can’t be of use to anyone, let alone myself, unless I survive, so getting and obtaining money comes first. Period. Me first, you second, in a world of scarcity and separation, that is in the domain of money as we know it.

This perception of the world skews our relationship so deeply with all of life, and really gets backlit when there’s a perceived active threat.

Then this week, as I’m seeing the ugliness getting uglier, I can’t help but ask, ‘who are the real lords above all this conflict’? It takes one into the science fiction realm of off-planet realities and beings who would appear to possess a consciousness level higher than ours, able to pull strings and levers to get their way.

But if these beings are not science fiction, then what might really be motivating them?

Well, what motivated all of us to create factory farms, the concentration or containment camps for the animals? I say ‘we’ because if you’ve ever eaten an animal, you have a share in the whole endeavor. That includes me and you and that’s a ‘we’. We perceived ourselves to be of a higher consciousness than animals, so we felt and found a way to obscure any arising pang of guilt towards the whole operation.

But when the Nazi’s did the same thing with humans, that was ‘wrong’?. Well, not to them it wasn’t. Then there were the people’s countrymen who turned on their neighbors turning in the lessers to the new superiors, amidst all the chaos of the deeply polarized traumas. People were forced to take a side.

But what forced them? It seems to me that what really ‘forced’ them was not any outside authorities, but rather this shared common denominator of unconscious need to preserve oneself.

When you feel that both victim and perpetrator, (regardless of which side you perceive yourself to be on), both share this identical motive ground, you step up to the table of resolution and true ambassadorship.

First owning how deeply it lives in you to survive, and where your own fears of death lay, or fears of a diminished future, live inside of you, you are now able to see your enemy for who they really are.

They are you.

Now, the judgments and polarities are able to be resolved, because the sacred purpose of those judgments and polarities are completing. Their purpose was to bring us back into remembrance with ourselves, which is one and the same with bringing us back into being re-membered with one another, and putting behind us our necessary dismembered phase of consciousness.

The whole point of the polarity that we all signed off on was to leave oneness, so we could return to it, and expand it in the process, to give love a chance to see itself that it didn’t have before. Time was needed. Space was needed. Drama and trauma was needed. But we never lost this essence of being love, and that’s what haunts our fears of loss.

We know way beyond any kind of mental knowing a deep knowledge of being divinity, and when parts of us feel like they’re stuck in anything less than divinity, it strikes this chord of fear and anxiety. Will I ever get to return to really knowing and feeling what I truly am? This is the shared ground and it is called vulnerability. No matter how protected or powerful, no matter our chosen and championed side, we can’t escape this vulnerability.

These vulnerabilities are the portal doors back to full rememberance that we all must journey through in our glorious and awaiting experience of being re-membered with love.

Love really is this big of a deal and it needed dramas this freaking large to come to know itself.

If you remember, we all remember, as we are all inextricably connected, even as we journey through a necessary phase of perceiving ourselves as a separate self.

Love this separate self, get to know it and love it, find out how and why it ticks, toks and talks. It is your personal path of full discovery, full disclosure, complete reconciliation and total revelation.

My guidance circle said to me this morning, ‘Though it contains some needful apocalypse, I assure you that nothing could be more rewarding, fulfilling, fun, than this homecoming. It is the future that is filled with good things and you are well programmed for it, quite beyond any imposed ‘enemy’ programming’ or highjacked matrix reality.

Much love, I hope this helps you in some deeply inner way, but also helps to answer the many practicalities and choice points you are feeling, just like the rest of us.

If you feel I could be a resource to you, I offer 1:1 session space and would love to hear from you. There’s also 3 more of us facilitators here at SoulFullHeart who might also be a better fit for you. More info here: SoulFullHeart.org/sessions.

Also, Jelelle and I are embarking on a daily video series release come January 1 for 31 days, that I invite you to bookmark if you’d like to get acclimated to us a bit more. You’ll find that in the new year at https://youtube.com/c/SoulFullHeartExperience and a lot more is there in the meantime.

Much Love,

Raphael (and Jelelle )

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Meeting Your Divine Self – Our Journey From & Back To Source

By  Raphael Awen

The farther we journey from source, the greater is our return to source where we are enabled to experience it for the first time.

This is the homecoming that you and I are now in, even as parts of us feel like the separation is growing.

It’s no longer the separation that’s growing, but rather your awareness of it that is increasing.

This week has been marked for me with another reunion with my Divine Orphan self that was triggered by some arising life circumstances, inviting the conditioned-to-this-life parts of me to feel and see this divine orphan self. I’m finding the beholding of this part again to be so moving and deeply rewarding, that answers the deeper questions at hand about the feelings of separation.

We were all initiated out of divine source into experience itself, and this experience needed to begin with what was not source. All of the fears, anxieties and depression we carry hearken back to our being birthed out of our divine bliss/oneness/source essence.

In this, we all were implanted with a great core wound, a wound that would underlie everything we would come to label as neurosis, things wrong with us. All of our attachments and quarrels within and without stem from this wound. But this pain and burden we carry is not only a wound that hurts, it is also an opening, a portal back, back to our true essence.

Your true essence is not conditioned by the conditionings of fear and lack that were needful for the experience journey. Your essence hasn’t participated here in the hijacked, 3D, matrixed, realm. Your essence remained untouched and protected from all of that.

The godhood you long for, you actually still possess and never lost. You just took on the experience of forgetting and of losing. In experience, you did lose divine connection and it hurts like the hell that it is. In essence though, you never lost a single thing. You are both experience and essence. More correctly, you are essence that took on experience.

You set out not to discover faraway lands, but to leave the land of your origin, so that you could return to it and discover it for the first time. As essence, you couldn’t know or feel or appreciate that essence and bliss. Bliss was left wanting to be known and felt and experienced. It was a risky endeavor, but your soul and the divine’s decided to fund this great discovery journey into reverence, awe and wonder.

As the increasing awareness of this separation rumbles in your life, you feel a fever pitch of everything coming apart at the seams. Everything you’ve worked so hard for to make experiential life bearable or even good comes now at this stage to be found to be not enough. In reaction, you may work harder as I have on gratitude and whatever other host of self-prescriptions to attempt to right your relation-ship with life, only to find they are not at all effective like they were before.

What the hell is happening?

You are beginning the return part of your journey home. You are sailing in the opposite direction. You are returning from where you came and the way you came. The return voyage has been negotiated through many lifetimes and so many experiences and you are ready now, equipped and prepared for the return.

The conditioning of lack and scarcity that you onboarded in your journey into experience is still here, and at times feels strangely and troublingly magnified. But this is all to be expected as you are called to feel and reconcile all the parts of you that are adjusting to returning to source – such a different experience than journeying away from source.

Now, you begin to get a sense of how sacred this forgotten core wound opening is. It is the one thing that would guarantee your return to divine source experientially. Your messed-up-ness is actually your perfection expressing and calling out to you. Each arising pain and ache is an intrinsic part of  the ongoing guidance as you restore to each part of you the pieces of their birthright that they are ready to feel.

Your preferences for pleasure over pain are a key part of your being human and of restoring your humanity with your divinity. You are invited not to bypass them any longer in the name of some kind of medicative spiritual practice. You chose to experience. You chose to want and to need. Those wants and those needs will need to be courageously owned and embraced if this voyage is to be completed successfully and on time (and in time).

As you witness the great fever pitch of insanity unfolding around you, ask yourself if you can think of any greater contribution to such a distress call than that of saving yourself, deeply choosing and embracing your own return journey home.

As you continue your return journey home as one being, you are reminding the oneness that we all are and share of this remembrance journey. Those around you in the forgetting phase will need your example when the time of their remembering comes, just as you needed it from others.

May we each embrace the perfection that we are amidst all that seems and feels so imperfect. May we set up a heart home with a great hearth of the warmth that will allow the fullest remembering.

Raphael Awen

SoulFullHeart.org/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Arising, Authentic, and Sacred Masculine

In my ongoing journey of accessing and embodying my authentic, sacred masculine, I am finding where I have lived in the space between the Wolf and the Lion. The Wolf represents the more instinctual, primal energy, and the Lion the more kingly, leadership aspect. One with bite, the other with roar.

I have been aware of how both of these aspects have been hidden in shadow. A fear of my power and truth that lay within. The authentic, integrated masculine has struggled to arise for many men. There is a resistance to unleashing these aspects for a variety of reasons. When one hears the call of, “where are the real men nowadays?!”, there is a judgement in that somewhere rather than a heartfelt curiosity, both from those asking and from those of us receiving.

Yes, we are all being called to our power and truth, men and women alike. In that calling, we are met with our own personal initiations into the realm of our bigness and presence. We are sent on a quest through the hinterlands of the Shadow and what we have sequestered there until further notice. There is a veil of protection that lies in between. It is the meeting of this layer where we gain access to our most authentic self, rough edges, defensiveness, weaknesses and all.

We can respond to the trumpet of the call to action, and create an image based on someone else’s version of what it means to be a man in today’s volatile world. That may serve a purpose for some. A part of an initiation and growth edge. There is also going into what is real and authentic for you; your own process of self-awareness and empowerment that is not just about the collective but your own soul’s healing, maturation, and purpose on this planet at this time.

These energies are calling me to reconcile my masculine shadow and power as a sacred union mate, a community leader, a healer, and a teacher. These aspects are not separate from each other but integral to one another. They are also not separate from the feminine principle either. Again, integral. It is being held by this sacred feminine that the sacred masculine can arise with the trust that any shadow can and will be addressed with Love and Compassion.

This is my journey. My evolution into embodying and expressing more of what is true for me and not for anyone else. This is what I feel I am being called to live into and serve. To honor and awaken what has been hidden and forsaken in this masculine heart and soul, for myself and for those that it is meant to resonate with.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Surrounded By Love

By  Raphael Awen

We are so surrounded by love, full of love, made of love, that we needed the ongoing experiences of stepping outside of it, and then returning to it, as a way of perfecting perfection.

Love was willing to create a deficiency of itself, a shadow partition to cordon off some of its overbearing light to afford itself; and you and I actual experiences of this love.

We couldn’t experience love were it not for a deficiency of this love. Love couldn’t flow if love was the all in all, filling all things to the full. Flow and experience required a vacuum, something missing. Love ventured into an experiment with experience, for experience was another thing it couldn’t know, feel or have inside it itself.

Every desire, anxiety, joy and fulfillment that moves and shapes your life is part of this vacuum.

Love ventured into the business of lack and harm and wounding because any step outside of itself would require an opening, a portal, a wound.

We live and carry these wounds. They are our greatest challenges. We carry them personally, in our relationships with ourselves, with every other we’ve ever known or will come to know, and we carry them collectively. These portal wounds are everywhere. They not only remind us of our seeming separation from love, but also invite us to return to love at any moment. The access to this love is beyond instantaneous, for not even an instant is required to make its connection. It just is. You are it. You never lost it.

The duality we find ourselves in is the way home. I am, therefore I want. I am, therefore I am vulnerable to not having my genuine needs met or fulfilled. I am, therefore I am afraid. I am, therefore I need.

To not have need is to not exist in this experiment of experience. You get to be needy. You get to admit your vulnerability. You get to feel how deeply you yearn for fulfillment. You get to admit what you like and what you don’t like.

You get to return fully to the love that you are, where all the costs and outstanding liabilities on this balance sheet of duality will be reconciled.

You and I literally are this reconciliation, as well as the separation, both.

Love to you and through you,

Raphael Awen

SoulFullHeart.org

Pic above: Jelelle and I got to enjoy 3 magical sunny days on the coast here in Portugal last week, while making the trip to pick up Raianna Shai from the aeroporto.

Please consider joining us for our intimate and upcoming group call Saturday, November 7th. Sign up info in the comments below.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Courage To Align In Heart And Soul

When the soul and heart do not feel aligned, it becomes noticeable to us in many ways. There is a struggle to remain in joy and even in physical health. The lights dim and the clouds roll in. There is a feeling of loss and disempowerment. This can even fall into the neighborhood of victimhood if we really let it. Lots of evidence to convince ourselves otherwise.

There is a cloud that is setting over the collective. An ongoing war of the Mind, the Heart, and the Soul of humanity. A truly epic time to be here. Each of us are affected by it differently. For some it is part of a karmic recapitulation, for others it may be a soul awakening and unification. A stark reality that illuminates what are the most important things to us. What is it that we truly need and want, and well as what is our deeper purpose?

We may not fully know how all those things align in time, but going into the Heart is where we find your truth and your deepest need. This will inevitably bring you to a crossroad and a precipice. It is where we have to “screw our courage to the sticking place”, though hopefully not in the same Shakespearean use of the phrase.

It will take a lot of collective courage to turn this ship around. For each of us to find our voice, our purpose, and our power. This is a time where social ties are unraveling and resorting themselves. This comes with a lot of grief yet can be transmuted into gold when it is felt through with each wave, even when we may doubt at times we have made the ‘right’ choice.

That choice can only come from deep inside. From a place that is found in the dark and the unknowable, but infinitely felt and held by Love. If we want to truly arise in that New World, we must go through our own inner ‘hells’ to get there. We must also connect ourselves with those that are doing the same in resonance. With all the energies that are out there we can use all the support we can get.

So this goes out to all of you that are finding your way back to your truest and bravest selves. You are paving the way for others to follow.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

What We Think We Own

By  Raphael Awen

When we fight, push and press to own something, that thing possesses us. What was gained by force must be maintained by force.

Nothing can really be owned in this way without it owning us. The energy of the currency we used to buy it, is then the current that flows into our relationship with the thing. We possess the thing and the thing mirrors that possession back to us.

It breaks down and demands maintenance or it refuses to work. It threatens us with being stolen and calls for more time and energy to protect it. It gets neglected and then shames us for spending all that and not using it like we intended too.

How could something be called ours and not be owned in this way?

It begins with realizing that you already possess all things. You are the thing. You can’t actually be separate from anything. The vendor and buyer are playing a game of forgetting, thinking that one can rightfully own something at another’s expense and that this other must pay a ransom to transfer that ownership. Many others join so deeply into the game that it becomes a reality of its own. Thieves, police, prisons, security systems and so much more support this illusory game.

Then there’s realizing that any material thing is in its essence matter. It came from Gaia, our matter/mother. Our mother provides all things necessary freely without price. All matter is mother. Gaia is the original and only rightful owner.

Grasping to own Mother Gaia doesn’t work. It’s like trying to own love. Love can’t be owned, only let in and received. The one who receives her does just that.

And if something came from Gaia which is conscious, then a thing formed and framed from different bits and pieces of Gaia, retains that consciousness.

And consciousness wants to be experienced, known and felt. There’s no such thing as an inanimate object with this deeper awareness of what life and matter is.

All of this invites us into new feelings of reverence and appreciation, feeling how provided for we actually are, how our grasping is a resistance to that infinite and quite scary provision.

It invites us into feeling how ‘things’ want to be held in our open hands and bring their goodness and abundance to us. Things don’t like being passed on from rightful slave owner to rightful slave owner, they want to be free where they can be and express all they are.

Owners become stewards of living things and nothing more, being gifted with the relationship exchange of care, blessing and goodness (god-li-ness, god-like-ness) that the thing brings.

I’d so like to keep experiencing this more and more, letting go of chasing money, chasing things, chasing more spiritual sounding practices of ‘how to attract abundance’, when abundance is trying its best to find a way into my heart and life.

Raphael Awen 💚

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Living In A Deeply Altered Reality

By  Raphael Awen

We all live in a deeply altered personal reality that we have needed to normalize to a large enough degree to make it bearable and doable.

We added a balm layer of amnesiac forgetfulness to help this altered reality hold together.

The specific location of this altered reality does have a location and coordinates on the larger map of reality, but even that larger map is yet another altered reality.

All realities are sub realities/royalties of love. Love created infinite number expressions of itself in a bid to know and expand itself.

You and I are one infinitesimally small expression of that, while at the same time holding all of the infinite fullness of that grand endeavor, being and expression.

As awareness of our origins arise for us in felt, feeling toned experience, we make more and more conscious reconnection with that origin. That is coming to know and feel our divine love essence. This is the update of love that is experiencable and felt, a ‘to:’ and ‘from:’ kind of love, like in valentines, not just a love ‘isness’ that just is, but can’t be transactionally known outside of itself. Love stepped outside of itself to know itself. You and I are that outed love kind of reality.

Even though we were outed from love, we never lost that connection to love, nor did we lose our essence of being love, for it was impossible to lose. So impossible was it to be lost, that love needed to go to these lengths to create make-believe realities mixed in with so much forgetfulness to allow for these places of experiment, discovery and expansion.

In it all, we all suffered from feelings of being cast out, of falling from grace, of assuming a personal guilt for such a felt tragedy.

These were experiences the divine was unable to have within itself were it not for you and I as modified expressions of the divine capable of this layer of creativity, forgetfulness and even suffering. But what is the point of this suffering, if not as the spiritual texts refer to, ‘a greater glory to be revealed’ in us?

As all of this is coming into our awareness, we are invited to reopen our quest and questions from a new place of childlike reverence, awe and wonder.

We can certainly see when we look at one another, or look at divergent parts of ourselves, how each of our personal realities is a specific sub reality, and all of that within a larger shared reality layer here on Gaia. But what if this Human/Gaian/Earth reality is only yet again, one of innumerable other realities, and other locations?

We can also see and feel how this ability to create sub realities is so embedded in each one of us, and how we do that from moment to moment, or from phase to phase in our lifetimes, and soul history.

If any of this feels true, then it really invites us in our awakening to humble ourselves to this background reality generating dynamic within to become reverent and curious about what it is doing and why.

How could we possibly awaken to its workings and invite it to go into new directions that our heart and soul wants to consciously take instead of living out the realities dropped on us from our environment or past conditionings?

How could we love, feel and bridge to the past conditioned realities in a way that completes them, and moves them from fear to love?

Are there ‘portal moments’ where we are ripe and ready to shift realities? How do we recognize and embrace those kinds of moments?

How do we relate to those who we have so deeply shared and created a reality with when they don’t seem done at all with the reality like we are?

Is the asking and living out of these questions possibly the return trip back to love, the completion of love’s experiment and expansion?

You are love where you are now, where you were, and where you are headed. Try as we may, this is one essence we can’t shake, for it is the only essence from which all other essences arise.

Even your shame, fear and anxiety are all a part of this expansion, experiment, experience, seeming departure and return to love. So is your unbounded joy, desire, delight and love of life, the divine and one another!

Deep, rich, unfathomable love to you,

Raphael Awen

Please join us for our 10:10 Divine Love Transmission Group Call on Sunday, October 10.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Deep Rich Unfathomable Love

By  Raphael Awen

Deep rich unfathomable love surrounds you and I at all times. This love is infinite, profound and isn’t based on anything you can do or not do to make it real. It is because you are.

So great is this love, that we need a resistance to it in order to make it experiencable. Like a submarine is built to withstand the greater atmospheric pressures of the deep ocean to prevent it from collapsing under the pressure, so are you and I built to withstand love, given how deep we are submerged in love. It’s like the love is too real!

We don’t want to withstand it totally; we just want to take it in, in measured ways that bring life instead of harm.

Each moment is a negotiation between the resistance and overwhelm of this love with our need and desire for this love. It seems parts of us are still functioning on old programming to resist the love with a tenacity that isn’t true or needed anymore for where we are now.

We are actually ready and need to let in a lot more love than we could in the past.

As we feel this yearning for more love, we are able to ask love to help us deal with the resistance, to un-engineer it, if you will.

We get to see and feel why love didn’t feel safe before and how we built deeper resistances to it; how we settled to live on less; and create a world with less and less love. That worked for us while it did and actually felt like love, security and safety to parts of us.

But that’s not what’s true now. Our digestive systems are upgrading to live on a lot more and higher frequencies of love. We actually feel worse when we resist love like we used to, like we needed to before.

Each time we negotiate with a resistive part of us to ask for and receive love, we experience love, tears, a good kind of collapse, that assures us deeper of this love surround. We also see that love couldn’t feel like love were it not for the resistance, being without anything to compare it to.

Love in this way is experiencing itself through you. It needs a you with needs and resistances to have an experience of itself. Love didn’t have this when it just existed in its bliss state of oneness, when it was all there was. Here is where we get to reconcile our darkness with our light, personally and collectively.

What resistances are you feeling inside? How and when are they expressing in your life, in what circumstances? How can you recognize these as portals and opportunities to receive love?

Love,

Raphael

Please join us for our 10:10 Divine Love Transmission Group Call on Sunday, October 10.

https://www.facebook.com/events/2992100991003079/

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.