The SoulFullHeart Current Podcast, Ep. 5: Digesting False Light Matrix Spiritual Leadership

In this episode, it was in our hearts to talk about the False Light and how it shows up in spirituality – especially mainstream spiritual leadership and circles. We talk about the bigger purpose of awakening that it seems to serve as well as the importance of recognizing your participation in it and how you can move on from the pain you may have personally experienced from it.

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With Love and Currency,
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The Cult Of Love & Truth

I have to admit that it has been quite an adjustment to living in a bigger city in a new country. It has not been the culture and people of Portugal though, as there is a kindness and warmth at the heart of this beautiful part of the world.

The deeper adjustment has been to the collective response to C-vid that has been most difficult to adjust to. I would say, without reservation, that 90% of those I see outside are wearing masks. It is quite the contrast to Glastonbury where it may, at worst, get to 40%. This is just outdoors, mind you. And those that do not have them over their face, have them pulled down under their chin, as if to signal that they are part of the program at least. Can’t fault them as long as it is visible, eh? 

We have only been snarked at a couple of times, so there is a ‘bygones be bygones’ sort of thing going on, but not wearing them inside is an absolute no-no. No ‘exempt’ cards here, thank you very much. Some may bite at me for being compliant, but being in a host country while trying to find sanctuary does not lead me toward rebellion at the moment. It is a ‘pick your battles’ scenario. 

I feel I landed here in this situation to teach me a few things. The first is how sensitive I really am and how much nostalgic, travel romance a part of me projected onto coming to this classic European city. Kind of like a pre-pandemic wet-dream for a part of me. I would be pinching myself that I was actually here if I wasn’t caught in a nightmarish overlay around this historical location. 

Now I am pinching myself to see if I am actually on Earth. The land of human beings getting on with life and some perception of liberty. And maybe that is the next lesson. Maybe this has all just revealed how unfree we have actually been. The unabated mask-wearing, along with unquestioned injection inflection, are visual signs of what was lying underground all along…the programming of our own demise. 

Humanity has become Insanity in this New World Disorder, while being convinced it is the most humane thing to do to cut oneself off from the life-blood of existence called Air. I get that this is not a revelation as it has been part of our awareness for over a year now, but to see it so starkly right in front of me with so many has been quite the thud in my soul. We are literally in a dystopian novel and it is up to each of us individually to rewrite this thing from the inside out. 

This Cult of C-vid is ramping up and seeking new members each and every hour of each and every day. It is the largest of its kind that the world has ever seen. It pales in comparison to any Qanon group, and even THEY battle with each other! So who’s really the domestic/global terrorist? 

The Cult of Love and Truth will find its way. It actually encompasses the C-vid cult as it is the container from which we are hewn. This is a mass ‘individuation inoculation’ that may have a drastic illumination point. God, I hope that I am wrong. I will eat the feathers AND the tar just to get back to Reason and Love. (Okay, maybe not that severe as I do love my digestive system, but you get the hyperbole.)

The Cult of Love and Truth must start from within and then from our choices. The choices of where to live, who to be connected to, how to treat ourselves and others while we are sorting this out. Humanity is bifurcating. Splitting up into sects. I feel we are going through this for a much bigger reason than just some control agenda that can’t actually be bigger than Love Itself. 

It is up to each of us to feel what that is and keep feeling and healing our way there. Put on your own oxygen mask first as a beacon to what is authentic and real to you. Let them follow suit rather than trying to shame or debate. Just Be Love. The rest will fall into place however it is meant to. 

Love to you on your continued journey.


Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

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FREE PDF of Jelelle Awen’s book, Under The Bloated Banyan, available today!

Jelelle is sharing today as a FREE GIFT PDF her spiritual memoir called Under The Bloated Banyan: My Journey From Awakening To Disillusionment Within a High-Demand Spiritual Group.

“Banyan covers a six year span of time starting in December 2003 where I began my awakening journey through parts work process in earnest. It also shares my courtship and dating and eventual marriage with Raphael after we both left the group together in 2008. None of my soul family friends and teacher would talk with me after this time and I also gave up my livelihood as a facilitator of the work. This was such a bittersweet time. Falling in love while it felt like so much of my life and who I felt that I was connected to the group falling apart. I learned so much during and after this time about myself, parts of me, my Metasoul legacy, and what kind of leader/teacher/healer I wanted to be and NOT be.

The content in Banyan (I first published it for a couple of years in 2013) was once controversial and very vulnerable for parts of me to share this story as many people still in the group (and once my beloved soul family) judged and criticized me for sharing it. Now, the group has been dissolved for a few years, so there is less charged sense about sharing it again. This phase of my journey now feels like a movie, something that happened to someone else in some ways, an alternative timeline. I can feel the parts of me that have since healed from being so self conscious, anxious, drawn to dysfunctional and even abusive relationships. Yet, still, it lives in my heart as very real and, of course, my sacred union connection ground with Raphael began in these soils.

It feels timely to share this story too as the collective moves from spiritual/religious codependency models such as the guru-devotee to the sovereign “I” experiencing Unity Consciousness within a community with healthy leadership. I think you will find this story interesting if you have been curious about what it is like to be in an intense high-demand group and esp. If you have drawn this experience yourself this life or just are curious to feel and know more about my personal journey. Plus, ultimately, this is an inspiring story about love and how it prevails and is often revealed during the most dark and difficult circumstances!”

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