FREE PDF of Jelelle Awen’s book, Under The Bloated Banyan, available today!

Jelelle is sharing today as a FREE GIFT PDF her spiritual memoir called Under The Bloated Banyan: My Journey From Awakening To Disillusionment Within a High-Demand Spiritual Group.

“Banyan covers a six year span of time starting in December 2003 where I began my awakening journey through parts work process in earnest. It also shares my courtship and dating and eventual marriage with Raphael after we both left the group together in 2008. None of my soul family friends and teacher would talk with me after this time and I also gave up my livelihood as a facilitator of the work. This was such a bittersweet time. Falling in love while it felt like so much of my life and who I felt that I was connected to the group falling apart. I learned so much during and after this time about myself, parts of me, my Metasoul legacy, and what kind of leader/teacher/healer I wanted to be and NOT be.

The content in Banyan (I first published it for a couple of years in 2013) was once controversial and very vulnerable for parts of me to share this story as many people still in the group (and once my beloved soul family) judged and criticized me for sharing it. Now, the group has been dissolved for a few years, so there is less charged sense about sharing it again. This phase of my journey now feels like a movie, something that happened to someone else in some ways, an alternative timeline. I can feel the parts of me that have since healed from being so self conscious, anxious, drawn to dysfunctional and even abusive relationships. Yet, still, it lives in my heart as very real and, of course, my sacred union connection ground with Raphael began in these soils.

It feels timely to share this story too as the collective moves from spiritual/religious codependency models such as the guru-devotee to the sovereign “I” experiencing Unity Consciousness within a community with healthy leadership. I think you will find this story interesting if you have been curious about what it is like to be in an intense high-demand group and esp. If you have drawn this experience yourself this life or just are curious to feel and know more about my personal journey. Plus, ultimately, this is an inspiring story about love and how it prevails and is often revealed during the most dark and difficult circumstances!”

You can purchase this book in e-book and print editions too, as well as her other three books here:

You can read an excerpt here:…



Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Gifts On New Years: Free Book PDF For You and two new video series!

By Jelelle Awen

Bliss Mess New Year

I felt to offer my latest book, Bliss Mess: The Wonders and Challenges Of Ascension, as a FREE PDF GIFT to you for New Year’s Day. If you’d like to receive a free copy of it in PDF, please email to provide us with your email so we can send you the attachment!

This free offer is for January 1st….after that, Bliss Mess will be available as a PDF and e-book and soon print edition for purchase through My other books are available through this link as well. Here is an excerpt from the book and description:


New Years Card

Blessings and LOVE to you all on this New Year, New Earth Now going into 2018! Thank you for joining us in the coming together, manifestation, and intention for NEW consciousness, heart-based, REAL, compassionate…all that GOOD stuff for 2018!

Besides the Bliss Mess gift, I will be releasing myDay One video for her Metamorphosis – 33 Days Video Series today talking about the New Year, claiming INtentions, feeling the ‘hangover’ from perhaps taking in non-resonant energies, and starting to connect with parts of yourself in a conscious way! You can watch the introduction and intention video for this series here:

ALSO, Gabriel and Kalayna released the first video of their ongoing series together offering Practical Ascension – Seven Key Areas Of Life!

Love from our SoulFullHeart family to YOURS and thank you for taking our offerings into your heart and soul!  

Raphael Awen, Jelelle Awen, Gabriel Heartman, Kalayna Colibri, and Raianna Shai

Sacred Human, Arising Wonder – New Book By Jelelle Awen Available Now!

You are a Sacred Human. You are an arising wonder. You are becoming a fifth dimensional (5D) Human through the process of awakening and ascension along with the planetary consciousness known as Gaia (Earth). This is a challenging time to be a Human here as so many people still live in conscious suffering even as their souls are awakening and they are having life altering spiritual experiences. The healing, awakening, and integration of our emotional bodies WITH our souls is the place we are being invited to go at the cutting edge of our consciousness evolution as Humans who chose as souls to come and BE here during this transformative time. The ultimate purpose and reason for the ascension process is remembered as the service of love WITH others as it overflows from self love and a healthy emotional body and freed up soul.
Emoto-Spiritual Teacher and Author Jelelle Awen offers the BIG picture of what is happening during this phase of ascension from a galactic, yet also personal perspective, which you can also apply to your daily life. Through her connection to her Higher Self, Ethereal Guides, and as a facilitator and teacher for others, she provides loving guidance to navigate as our hearts are invited to vibrate at higher Christ Consciousness frequencies of health from a mature emotional body; as our bodies transition from carbon-based to crystalline; as our souls bring awakening, illumination, meaning and purpose into our awareness; and as our minds let go of 3D conditioning/programming and expand into multidimensional thinking.

Sacred Human, Arising Wonder invites you into feeling how it is your emotional body and the congestions and wounding that remain there which can keep intact a third dimensional, conditioned, self-image based version of you who can block love and keep suffering patterns intact in your life. Undigested traumas from this life and from other lifetimes create fixed energies within your emotional body that form into distinct subpersonalities running on subconscious conditioning programs and fear-based defensiveness. Through connection and negotiation with these parts of you, these energies move, transform, and eventually integrate into your 5D self.

The nonlinear, explorational writings in Sacred Human are both practical and transcendent, offering you guidance as you journey through the often painful, yet ultimately magical process of ascension, awakening, and enlightenment. Each section offers Jelelle’s loving, catalytic energy to invite you into expanded consciousness around the seven main areas of life: Emotional, Spiritual, Mental, Social, Physical, Financial, and Environmental. This book also provides writings about love, sacred femininity, and sacred union with self and your sacred union mate, plus guided meditations to raise your vibrational frequency, clean your chakras, connect with your Inner Protector, and much more.

From the book:

You are invited to remember that you ARE Infinite Love and to go on a journey to remember this. It is an inner journey of awakening, feeling, healing, ascending, and loving. It is an inner journey of exploration and discovery. It is an inner journey to embody your Sacred Humanity.

It is a journey of reunion with aspects of yourself that you may have forgotten, buried, or suppressed in your psyche or emotional body. Aspects that live in the stars. Aspects that live in other dimensions and parallel universes. Aspects that live in the higher, Angelic realms.

It is a journey of remembering that which you ARE as a soul and letting go of that which you are not. It is remembering that you are Infinite Love and anything LESS in your expression is something else for which you are NOT.

This is a journey, yes, and, also, you already ARE all of this. There is nothing to be fixed or that is wrong with you as you ARE this already in your essence. This is the truth that your Higher Self knows as it remembers, as it already IS this. And so it IS.


Click here or above for the e-book….

Click here for the print edition….


Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

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Keep Waking Up! Book By Jelelle Awen Offers ‘The Bigger Picture’ And ‘Positive, Healing Energy’

By Jelelle Awen

This is SUCH a touching review left by the beautiful soul Sonya Julie (and gifted soul scribe herself) for my book Keep Waking Up!: Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.…I am touched, yes, so much because this writing is SO personal, pouring out of me nearly every day for four months while I experienced intense awakening (kundalini, non-dual, astral, magic, star seed reality, etc.) journeys into the depths of my heart and soul with guides and soul aspects from other dimensions and even planets…..while Mother Gaia ‘held the space’ at an off-grid, remote ranch. If you are drawn to Avalon, priestess/Goddess worship frequencies, Reptilian Matrix revelations and digestions, healing from other lifetimes, healing and digesting abduction woundings and memories, parts work, curious about the SoulFullHeart process (which is JUST our way of life in another way) and more, you can purchase it for only $5.55 as an ebook or in print edition through this link.

“This book provides a beautiful example of how we can heal ourselves, each other, and our earth. Through holding space and exploring soul remembrances, Jelelle demonstrates how we can negotiate with love, not fear, with parts work to accomplish great healing and transformation. Through her experiences and journeys in other dimensions, I learned so much about this (SoulFullHeart) process that offers a way to investigate what we hold inside of ourselves. I have been familiar with reincarnation, angels, guides, dark night of the soul, dream work, visions, healing, mind/body/spirit work, shamanism and alternative world views for many decades but this beautiful book really brought these elements (and more) into something so much larger – to show me the bigger picture and what I am capable of to align my life to the light of Love. I have started to incorporate this process into my life and already I can feel a positive and healing shift in my energy. The book is well written and I honestly had a hard time putting it down.

I am thankful to Jelelle for opening her heart and soul to share this incredible journey.” Sonya J.


Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at