The Pleasure and Pain of Sacred Union For The Feminine In Union/Separation/Being Single

By Jelelle Awen

Pleasure and pain…..sometimes the two energies mix together at once in a bitter sweet release of previously pent up frequencies. The bliss allows for the flow out and letting go of the mess. It is the water that makes it safe and self loving to release the oil. I felt this experience in love making with Raphael this morning, which part of me feels a little bit shy to share about yet it is also what is real and in my heart space this morning. I still feel mentally altered from it as well, so we will see if words can flow out from this space.

The pleasure was easy, waves of yummy goodness in my body in response to the loving attention and focus from my beloved, my masculine, and so many years of laying out the familiar pathways of known pleasure with each other. All these years and there is the opposite of flatness and numbness in our sexuality ground. Rather we both have the sense that we are being invited in this next phase into an even deeper ground of sacred union/hieros gamos/vesica pisces exploration.

We are being beckoned back into the bridal chamber to merge ALL of our chakras connecting as our bodies create a bridge in the physical while retaining our individual pillars of light expression. We look forward to exploring this bridal chamber ground even more together during our vacation to the Ocean next week.

The pain came mixed in with the orgasms, a shouting of it from my throat without self consciousness and a flood of tears afterwards. It didn’t feel personal to me. I felt the cry of the feminine move powerfully through me……her womb roar for the masculine to meet and match her, her heart cry over feeling so much yearning for him and him being unable to respond and claim her, her laboring cry wanting to birth the potent possibilities of their reunion that lives inside of her.

My womb has been full with service lately, showing up for more intros and 1:1 sessions with women than I have in a while. And, the main energies that want to be seen and the parts that want to be felt are around this aching and yearning feminine for her masculine counterpart and the experience of this push-pull journey. It has been so poignant and humbling and an honor to witness this in the feminine heart/soul/womb lately in sessions and in our sacred union activation group call for women this past Sunday as well. You can purchase the recording at

I feel so blessed to have signed up with my counterpart Raphael to actually ‘get to be together’ this life and to feel such a full claiming from him of our exploration, not just initially yet in every moment that we share between us…even in the necessary separations we have taken. I feel a responsibility from getting to experience this ongoing union with him when so many others are in various stages of separation from their counterpart. ALL of these stages are sacred and part of our growth, yet it is still a painful thing to feel the tender pain and longing of the feminine around this.

As my yoni provided the channel to release these pleasure pain energies, I felt my throat chakra intone a feminine roar and then a flood of light language. It felt like for all of the feminine collective. Raphael answered me in the same language of our souls and we flowed out tones beyond the mind….. activating, recoding our union and others in our field with the possibilities and opportunity for reunion.

I can feel how much is moving through both my womb space and Raphael’s hara (he wrote a call to men’s greatness through exploration of their heart today) as a transmission for those souls ready to receive it. We have a sacred space set up for it this Sunday, July 24th at 5:00pm GMT/noon EDT if you feel called to join us live or take in the recording by donation.

We truly feel, live, and love in sacred union. Even my service with women is not me on my own holding space, yet lands in and is held by Raphael’s masculine heart as well. I can feel the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine guides that want to come through in the call as well, especially Yeshua and his beloved Mary Magdalene (whose feast celebration day is tomorrow.)

Now is a time to receive these sacred union codes during this powerful Sirian gateway portal time. This union is ultimately beyond the masculine/feminine yet connects to our deep desire and need for union with the Divine in order to heal our experience of separation.

Hope you can join us for the bliss mess of it ALL that sacred union offers!


Jelelle Awen

If you’d like to join us for the sacred union activation group call, you can offer a donation of any amount (usual is $15 CAD/$11 USD) to or purchase at our shop at Please include your email and what you are purchasing.

And, if you feel guided to have a free intro with me or Kasha (for women), or to have a tender masculine activation space holder experience for men or women with Raphael or Gabriel, there is more info about our 1:1 sessions for 90 minutes over zoom for $77 USD at

Sacred Union Activation Group Call July 24th With Raphael and Jelelle Awen

I’m so looking forward to this next group call with my beloved Raphael…transmitting and sharing from the grounds of our sacred union to you…for whatever needs to be activated, felt, illuminated and coded around Divine partnership in your NOW. Hope you can join us! Details below:


Sacred Union with a partner in monogamous commitment to each other offers a potential frequency of Divine Self experience in the physical unlike any other.

Your partner mirrors both your leading edge of gifts/Divine essence and your trailing edge of wounds/pains/suffering/shadow. This unique combination offers a ground of healing and transformation that allows for multiple lifetime clearings in one lifetime. Both the goodness bliss of union and the karmic mess of separation are pushed up and illuminated, and offered.

More Sacred Union counterparts/twins/pair bonds are coming together now in this Ascension timeline than ever before, as many of us signed up to be together in this life in the physical for service of the Divine and the Ascension process. The reunion of counterparts is a template for all souls of what is possible from within them and with the Divine.

Actually navigating Sacred Union in a transactable and intimate way over a longer phase of time is where the true challenge comes in for those who choose this path. So much is activated and triggered by the bond, including deep karmic binds from many lifetimes in the Matrix together, that these energies often flood the relationship space and overwhelm both partners. One partner usually runs from how triggering this connection is, while the other one holds the pain and wounding of yet another lifetime of ‘not getting to be together.’

Or the couple may be together more in spirit, yet not in the physical as humans even living long distance, as combining the intense soul activations with physical reality is not quite possible yet. Launching the Sacred Union beyond this blissful honeymoon phase takes you into this ground of embodied heart and soul growth, instead of suffering over the blissful introduction to something that now feels ‘lost forever’.

In a two-hour group call for men and women on Sunday, July 24th at 5:00/17:00pm GMT/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and sacred union mates Raphael and Jelelle Awen will offer a Sacred Union activation for those currently in relationship, those in separation from their mate, and those who are single. We will share our own personal journeys and process of being in Sacred Union, both the bliss and mess of that experience and how we have navigated through it. We will also offer how the SoulFullHeart healing process of conscious access to this-life parts and other lifetime aspects/soul dynamics allows for a deeper transaction ground of intimacy starting from within you so that you can continue to show up for the bond in a relational way and digest all that is triggered by it.

In the guided meditation/transmission portion of the call, we will create a bridge to your Sacred Union relationship to feel it as it is currently transacting, either in current translation with your mate, in separation, or from within you. You’ll be able to sense energies of resistance, fear, and pain that may be in the space and any parts of you that hold them. We will also open up a bridge for you to connect your twin/pairbond at the original higher dimensional source with your mate (known or not) which offers an inspiring flood of love. Divine guides will join us to hold a safe, higher vibe space for this exploration and offer inspiring transmissions of Infinite love and light. We will also repeat affirmations as a group that provide a new coding of sacred union experience within you and with your mate.

If you are currently in a Sacred Union relationship, this transmission will support you to deepen into intimacy within you and with your partner. It will also bridge you to a new way to process your experience and get more space from any reactive patterns that are occurring.

If you are currently single or a pairbond in conscious separation (meaning you have met your mate yet aren’t in relationship together right now), this group call will give you a bigger context for which to digest Sacred Union. You will also bring in new codes to help any suffering grounds that have been occurring around it.

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us (this is totally optional). Plus, you’ll be able to take in and receive sharings from other souls (both women and men) in the call, which is a powerful activation of its own!

This group is open to the public and to anyone over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy/money exchange of whatever donation you feel to give ($11 USD/$15 CAD is the usual amount people offer us).

You can offer your donation via our shop at or paypal at and we will send you the zoom link to attend and the recording afterwards. If you purchase via paypal, please include your email in the note section so that we can send you the zoom link and the recording afterwards.

To get a sense of our energy as a couple, tune into a recent interview we did on Todd Medina’s SoulSpeaks5D Show:

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Hope you can join us for this powerful exploration into sacred union grounds from our lived in ground of it!


Jelelle Awen

Note if you are drawn to this call and a woman, you might like to come to our Sacred Union Activation Women’s Group call on Sunday, July 17th with Kasha and I. More info at and

Bridge To The Beloved: Sacred Union Transmission Group Call On Valentine’s Day February 14th | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

The Beloved is the energy of the Divine in a specific frequency as lover and mate that brings you into personal states of gratitude, rapture, and forgiveness as you receive this grace. The Beloved activates your longing for reunion with your counterpart soulmate, which also happens within you between your inner masculine and feminine if you are currently single. And it is all yours freely by birthright, something you never actually lost, only reawaken to as your soul is ready!

Raphael and I are excited to share from the overflow of a deeper embodiment experience of the Beloved within, with each other and with the Divine during this group call over Zoom on Valentine’s Day Sunday, February 14th at 5:00pm/17:00pm GMT (London, UK timezone….9:00am PST/10:00am MST/11:00am CST/12:00pm EST)!

During the call, we will share about our recent personal experience of death and rebirth within our long-term union that brought us to a place of renewed awareness of the Beloved as the third energy in a coupleship into which we can lean, from which we can draw all the support we need, and unto which the relationship is in service to. We will share about healing the False God projections that block experience of the Divine in this very personal and embodied Beloved frequency, along with feeling and healing the trauma from this life and karma from other lifetimes related to your capacity to let in and embody this frequency.

During this call, we will co-lead a meditation with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene/Magda to bridge to and energize the Beloved through devotional frequencies that come from the heart and soul of our renewed bond and twin pair soul connection (we’ll share more about that too.) and our soul family.Whether you are connecting primarily to your inner sacred union, have a partnership or ache for one, and/or just want to deepen your experience of the Divine AS your beloved, this transmission offers a needed bridge in the moment to support that exploration and invites you into visceral experience of the Beloved!
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This group is open to the public and to all women and men over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. The average amount is $15 CAD. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the February 14th group call and check that your email is current.

This group call is also available free to those who are members of our SoulFullHeart Portal, an online community for personal sharings, community connection, and receiving guidance/asking questions with us….I feel it may be the warmest place on the Internet!

You can join the Portal for $14.99 USD exchange per month:

Raphael and Jelelle Awen