Twin Flame/Counterpart Reunions: Love Is In The Air!

By Jelelle Awen

Interesting experience this morning of having a person copy one of my writings on FB and share it as his own without giving me credit. Kasha commented on his feed about it publicly in order to inform his readers and I PMed him personally asking him to either delete it or give me credit. His name is Mike Harrigan and it seems that he has a pattern of stealing other people’s writings, esp those who write about twin flame relationships, and passing them as his own.

I wanted to let you know in case you follow him on FB about this lack of integrity that is going on within him and therefore in anything that he shares, even his own writings. This feels to me like a classic Matrix hijack, where something original cannot be created and so is ‘stolen’ and passed off as original.

I feel passionate about what I create and especially this writing which tenderly was catalyzed by a brief separation and reunion with my beloved Raphael. It was poignantly and Divinely inspired which you can’t duplicate the energy of actually, even if you share the words as your own. I can also feel a detachment from it as well. Ultimately my words are the words of the Divine and the Oneness field consciousness that we ALL share.

I felt to honor this writing that many people are seeming to like when he ‘shares’ it by sharing it again here in MY field, where it was first born and bloomed. ❤

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Love is IN the air! Reunions of pair bonds/counterparts are happening at increasingly accelerated rates as the previous veils are lifted and you can see/feel and CLAIM each other again. What once felt like very real and valid reasons to not be together; to be together yet not fully and completely; to not ‘find’ or draw each other in the physical; to have push/pull patterns with each other….these barriers are now being dissolved by the Divine’s all consuming desire to experience reunion again.

The separations ARE as sacred as the reunions. The separations offer a full landing in self. What is learned and accessed within during this alone time is so precious and important to the transactability of the bond on heart/body/soul/mind levels once you do come together.

The deepening of the sacred union within you; the cultivation of connection between your inner masculine and inner feminine; this union within as a temporary experience of an internal ‘opposite’ provides a template for your beloved when they return to you.

If you are currently single, you can trust that the process you are undergoing to heal yourself on all levels, be with the Beloved within, and connect to the Divine AS your Beloved is the most important ground you can navigate in readiness for sacred union with your counterpart. Surrendering the timing of that reunion to the Divine allows for an experience of joy, goodness, and even bliss in that singleness rather than suffering, angst, and pain.

This is the ongoing journey of sacred union…..being invited to LET GO of fear, distrust, wounding, and separation-based relationship templates from 3D. To feel and heal the deep pain of separation within you that we ALL have……the shock that reverberates within our very DNA and at a collective level from that original separation moment from your pair bond, your ‘twin’ and counterpart.

The reeling feeling of being ‘cast out’ away from your Beloved at the soul family monad level before you individuate into your Metasoul and the veil of amnesia comes down so that you can truly be an individuated consciousness.

The masculine torn away from his beloved feminine and she from him….seemingly severed in an abrupt way that was so unnatural in the moment…..shocking……and yet completely necessary to the ongoing unfolding of the Divine duality experiment.

And then, always seeming to be reaching again for each other with an active ache to BE in that union again….Reeling and reaching in repeated patterns, over and over, lifetime after lifetime….until the ONE lifetime where you choose to truly be together in full conscious commitment and finally complete the cycle of reeling and reaching.

THIS lifetime is the one that many pair bonds are choosing to come back together in the physical again. The ultimate reason is always for the service of love and to/with the Divine. It is not for ego reasons at the 3D level or even for the gratification of the individuals, although it is very nourishing to both.

It is during this time of Humanity’s Ascension, during this Dark Night moving into the Light of Day, during this time of Matrix collapse to finally be free again…..this is the NOW for which pair bonds are most needed to be again in union.

If you have chosen for this reunion experience as deeply connected to your service of love here and the primary WAY for which you will serve the Divine, you have probably felt the call to sacred union reunion for most of your life and felt your counterpart ‘with’ you in a deep way, even if you have not met yet in this life.

You may experience this as a deep sense of missing something and that you are not quite ‘complete’ even as you may experience great fulfillment and self love/worth in being by yourself.

Love and created BY,

Jelelle Awen

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Let’s Try Being A Hu-Man First

When will we men stop trying to be ‘men’ and just start being more human? This does not mean to me to be more feminine (although a deep connection to the feminine is needed), but to just be a human being with aches and pains, passions and visions. Yes, we have different ways of being in the world that are in contrast to women. We have different expectations placed upon us by society in general. We have different modes of operation. We do have different experiences, clearly.

Yet, at the core we all have something that we crave and need, but somehow men have been convinced or conditioned we don’t or shouldn’t need them. Deep down I believe all men, as human beings, want and need to be seen. We want to be felt and heard if we are brave and vulnerable enough to get to the core of what we really feel.

Most of my life was spent in a tumble-dry around what it means to be a man. Then it was about being divinely or sacredly masculine. All of which led to comparison, judgment, and feelings of inadequacy. NONE of that felt good. It’s crap! Sacred crap, but still crap. I feel for men who, like me, just want to embody our own authentic sense of self in the world. We may want ‘more’ of what we categorize as masculine, but in reality we are just wanting what feels like our truest nature shorn of all the comparative bullshit.

So, we are really not lacking anything we don’t already possess in our Essence. We are all the masculine we can possibly be. We have just been wounded. Been through trauma. Been told how to be in the world. We have hidden the gold in the shit pile of cultural conditioning and shaming. It has been hammered into us to not be vulnerable. To not feel our feelings. To not express anything other than a warrior’s call to arms, or exude the goo of a spiritualized porn star.

Who is it that lies under all of that stuff? Who IS our human man? What pain does he still hold? What grief has gone untouched? What truth and passion has been cordoned off and set to the side in the name of trying to be something we’re not? Trying to just ‘get by’ and survive?

I continue to unearth that man every single day. Not usually in epic movements or illuminations, but in day-to-day feeling and expressing as well as reflections from my beloved mate, Kasha, and soul community. This is where my sacred huMANity comes to play, learn, and witness itself. I have been going back to some very painful times of my life that are serving as a springboard and a catalyst for a different me in the world rather than the ‘me’ that I feel I had been trying to be with mixed results.

These times are rooted in the teenage years and I feel they offer many of us a gateway to not just our inner health, but also our deeper relationship to magic, real spirituality, and the sacredness of our expression in the world. I will go into that deeper in future writings and videos.

For now, I just felt like connecting my man’s heart to yours, whoever you are, wherever you are. I sense there is an army of men out there who feel the same and who just want to feel and be the man that is uniquely them in all the flavors from the Shadow to the Light. I would love to connect with and serve any man who feels the call to fall into his own grace and heart-centered power.

I love you, Man.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

What Do You Long For?

What do you long for?

What is seeking redemption, truth, forgiveness, and love?

What is it that you truly want to feel coursing through your veins when you wake up in the morning?

Who are you really and what the hell are you doing here?

These are the penetrative questions that rumble the status quo of our current emotional and spiritual consciousness. I am being asked those questions of myself as I feel and heal old patterns within me that have taken me to the next leg of my inner quest and leadership.

When you feel like you begin to cycle on something, you have hit a ceiling. Actually, it is more like a membrane. It is not solid in reality. It only appears that way to a part of you that holds resistance to what lies on the other side. This ‘ceiling’ is actually the floor to the next level, the next chapter, of your ever-evolving growth and remembrance.

What you come to at that moment is a precipice. In front of you is a void that has no apparent stone to step on because a part of you afraid of what happens if there is nothing there to catch you. This has been a repeated part of my journey that is seeking an end. One where vulnerability, risk, and the fear of what occurs on the other side get to create the very steps that have appeared lacking yet there all along.

This suffering ceiling is what brought me to SoulFullHeart. It is what inspired me to say no more to what clearly was not working in my life at that time. It is what is inviting me to go to my next places, next steps that send me to higher heights, along with the fears of falling. There is a moment when you have to decide when the cycles end and the real loving begins. I ask again:

What do you long for?

What is seeking redemption, truth, forgiveness, and love?

What is it that you truly want to feel coursing in your veins when you wake up in the morning?

Who are you really and what the hell are you doing here?

The answers to those questions only come from going into your heart with curiosity, a mirror, and a guide. Wherever you find it, chose it and claim it one choice at a time. Your soul is ready as your heart may waver. That wavering is a universe of parts that have a lot to say and be held in. Feel them and you create a whole new world from the inside out. I offer my heart in service to that exploration of all that you are meant to be.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Arising Of The May King

The Horned God comes into union with The May Queen. He sets his sights, opens his heart, and commits to the bond through his own need for growth and creation. A powerful and sacred coming together that begins on the inside and extends on the outside.

I did not have much connection to this day in my past, but it as become an increasing profound and beautiful day of honoring the masculine and feminine sacred union as well as our relationship to Mother Gaia and Her gifts of Spring and Summer. It has triggered feelings of inadequacy in my past with Kasha as she has had such a deep experience and relationship to it. Yet, as with all triggers, they are gateways to our deepest fears and rewards.

I can meet the wounded masculine within and hold space for his healing and arising into his own May King. The masculine that can show up to all of the ebbs and flows of the stillness and fire of the Divine Feminine May Queen. The King that can be in his own truth as well as meet his own shadow and vulnerable parts that are still in hiding and integration. This is no small task. It is a life-long journey that is both challenging and rewarding.

I have been fortunate to have been in intimate relationship as well as community to help reflect and mirror both my arising King and wounded man. They are always in orbit of each other and offer both solace and gifts. On this day, honor them both, as well as the feminine within me that has guided me to let in the union I share with my beloved, Kasha. This had to start from the inside from me to me first. I had to feel ready and worthy enough to go into the depths of vulnerable intimacy, as challenging and scary it can be.

I felt to share a poem I wrote years ago as a call to my Queen before I knew that it was Kasha all along. Many Beltane blessings to all both in and out of union:

Come with me, my love
Down the spiral staircase of my heart
Into the garden of my humanity

Bear witness to it succulence
It’s uniqueness
It’s burned and broken places

Come with me, my queen
Along the paths of weathered words
And the trails of new beginnings
Water the wilted with your loving care
Ignite the growth with your fiery passion

Will you follow me into the unknown?
Into the cauldron of our being?
Will you dance with me among the golden lilies
As well as the prickly cactus and forest ablaze?
Will you join with me in the exploration of our sacred sexuality?

The slow caress of my hands
Upon your beautifully sculpted, divinely feminine curves
The electric sparks that leap off our tongues
Setting fire to our chakras one by one
When we reach the gateway of our heavenly union

Will you come with me?
May I come into you?
Into your atmosphere where you shine and fly?
Into your hidden and protected caverns?
The places where few have been allowed to tread
Into your luscious and sacred garden?

I will not pluck your flowers
Or step on your sprawling vines
I will sit patiently for you to join me.
To share with me you tales
Your stories of adventure
….of agony
….of strength
….and weakness

I will etch them into my heart
Weave them into the tapestry of us
Though they belong to you and you alone
They share a sacred place in between you and me

Come with me, by beloved
As far as we both were meant to go
To unravel the mystery of who we were meant to be.

May this May Day open you out to the gifts of this season and these celestial constellations,

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Emotional And Relational Maturation Over Mastery

All intimate relationships are sacred. They are meant to offer us something about ourselves that we would not see or feel otherwise. For me it has been the ongoing challenge of being real, transparent, and staying in the room when a part of me may want to defend, hide, or in the past, just give up. Intimacy is not an easy spiritual path, yet it is the most illuminating, growthful, and rewarding in my experience.

As a man, I find this generally true for many other men as well. The last frontier of our spiritual maturation is our emotional maturation. Notice I did not say, mastery. I feel any attempt to ‘master’ our emotions comes from a part of us that is looking to control or avoid something real and messy. I can admit this has been true for me. But messy does not mean chaotic, like a part of me may feel at times when things get real and on the edge or precipice of the unknown. It just means we are sorting out a ton of wounding that has been held in so many hidden pockets of our heart and soul.

As a teenager, I grew up with two different models for a man’s relationship to his emotional body. It was either dismissive stoicism or defensive rage. Nothing fully vulnerable in between. So I learned both of those as strategies and yet I could also feel how I needed and wanted to be something different. Yet, to be this ‘different’ I would need to have the ‘same’ confronted and challenged. Enter relationships to very dynamic and emotionally aware women.

If I really wanted to shift this masculine lineage of emotional immaturity, I drew the very thing that would put the defensive, angery, hurt, and shadowy parts of me into the Light of emotional reality. That is not an easy path! There is this-life wounding and conditioning, other-life karmic binds, and collective and archetypal patternings that can be like trying to turn the Titanic. In any given rumble there can be multiple layers that are at play at one time and this does make it challenging.

From my trailing, wounded, and defensive part it can be a lot to hold. From my leading edge and higher self it is just an opportunity to become more fluent with what is really happening without analyzing or without getting so spun out that the ground collapses between us. This is the challenge in any intimate and sacred union.

It has been a stand-by to try to manage and preserve or just plain let go. What happens in the space between? What is possible that has felt impossible? What can we learn about ourselves as a man and woman as well as each other in a union?

This has felt like an unknown in my soul history. Maybe we just forgot our ancient past, and are picking up the pieces on our way back to Wholeness and Oneness through our Two-ness. Hiding the pain and fear of feeling separate and alone. The covering up of feeling rejected, abandoned, or harmful. This we cannot avoid when we are choosing to embody our Divinity. Oneness is not just a bliss state of transcendence, it is the grinding, twisty, gristy road back to transparent intimacy. Not a mastery of it, but a real felt experience of it in its truest form we call Love.

It is through this healing process and paradigm called SoulFullHeart, that my beloved Kasha and I can surf these waves and explore these territories with trust and realness. We have inner guidance as well as outer support through community, and that is a blessing. It is why I am being transparent about my journey so that others can get a sense of what the process is like and where we are able to go within ourselves and with each other. May it be a beacon and a service to you wherever you are on your journey of self-love, self-discovery, and relational healing and maturation.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The True Purpose Of The Crucifixion To Plant Seeds Of Humanity’s Ascension: Message From Yeshua

By Jelelle Awen

As so many souls worship during this day of Good Friday with fasting and prayer, I was not surprised to be brought during meditation into the etheric space today that ‘holds’ the crucifixion of Yeshua. It felt like this was in order to see, feel, and offer a channel to the higher consciousness reality going on during it.

It can be important to feel the distortion of what was actually going on this day and the subsequent hijacking of it by the Matrix to feed a control, suffering, and self sacrificial programming/messaging…especially if you have previously had a connection to Christianity.

I felt Yeshua’s beautiful heart today offer this message for those needing to receive it:

“On this day in my physical lifetime, my soul family and I undertook a powerful light working. This light working was to plant the seeds of Ascension that are now blooming in YOUR lifetime. We were guided to do this by the Divine. Indeed, born to do this as our purpose here in physical bodies on the Earth Plane.

This was not a crucifixion. I was not a victim. I was not betrayed. I did not suffer for the sins of all. I did not get ‘caught’ or ‘trapped’. I did not sacrifice my body for all of humanity. And, most importantly, I did not die on that day.

For those with the heart to FEEL the truth in those moments, they would feel that my heart was wide open. They would feel the choice that I made to leave one form of my physical body in order to ascend into my light body, yet still remaining on the Earth Plane for many years after. They would feel the grief and sadness within me was a necessary one to hold space for humanity’s ongoing dark night. Yet, also they would feel the hope in my heart for humanity, along with forgiveness and compassion that our Divine Mother flowed through me to ALL of those in my auric field, even those who did bodily harm to me.

For those with eyes to see the truth, they would see how I was hugely supported by the Divine and my beloved soul family by powerful waves of healing energies and photonic light. They would see that my beloved twin flame Mary Magdalene was heart and chakra cord connected to me the entire time, offering me some of her life force and vitality….as were the other blessed sacred feminine Magdalenes with her. They would see how my Higher Self remained unharmed and embraced my physical body in an energetic buffer the entire time.

My resurrection was inevitable, as I didn’t really die yet rather went into a deep out of body state until I could return in a less dense state to the Earth Plane. My resurrection out of perceived death and suffering and into a much lighter form IS my deeper message to you.

My message is to trust BOTH the deaths and the rebirths within your life and in your experience. To feel BOTH as sacred and the purification process that results as you arise from the ashes of your previous versions into the new.

The invitation today is to feel your experience of crucifixion within your own life and to let forgiveness fill your heart toward those who seemed to do you harm. To recognize the soul agreements that you made together for which they are offering a sacred ground of healing for you.

Surrendering ALL outcomes to the Divine and following guidance can lead to temporary pain, yet also offers a resolution of that pain as you ascend beyond it.

My consciousness is available to you on this day and ALL days in whatever ways you need. And, most importantly, as it dwells within you AS your embodiment of Christ Consciousness.

I love you,

Yeshua with Jelelle Awen

Raphael and I offered teachings and more channelings related to the death/rebirth cycles offered during this Easter Passage through a recording of our livestream yesterday on my FB feed and here on our you tube channel:

This channeling today was inspired by the touching and VERY powerful account of the crucifixion in the book Anna, Grandmother of Jesus by Claire Heartsong….highly recommend it!

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A Love Story: Part Five (A Choicepoint)

By Raianna Shai

This part of my “love story” is more of my own side of things as I was realizing that my spirituality and my 3D life were struggling to coexist. I was in a limbo space around this time trying to be two things at once: human and divine. I could feel how there was still some life left to live and sort out before I could really choose to integrate my connection to the divine.

I had one foot in both worlds and wasn’t able to give my whole heart to either. I felt like I didn’t truly belong in either and that I could never be enough for my relationship or my community. This was the moment when I realized I had to go fully into life in order to live into whatever was left for me there. In that, I chose to take a break from soulfullheart and soon found my way back with more clarity about who I am and what I want than ever.

Today I feel a much deeper union with my both my humanity and divinity and a greater knowing of my soul’s purpose. Everyday is an inch closer to integrating these two parts of my being and feeling more comfortable to express both of them. Sometimes we have to let go into one reality in order to end the suffering of trying to be everything for everyone else. In this choice, we find who we really are.

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A Love Story: Part Five
A Choicepoint

Why does it feel sometimes like my divine self and human self are at odds? As if I can only experience one of these truths at any one time. There’s a part of me that feels like I have to choose one or the other and when I do, I lose one.

What if I choose the Divine path and lose my self in the process, unable to turn back? What if I choose humanity and forget who I really am and what I’m really capable of? What if I end up living for everyone but myself, constantly choosing what they think is best for me.

I don’t have clarity inside of my heart and soul right now. I don’t have the answers or the ability to go with the flow anymore. I’m at a crossroads in this moment and it’s one of the most uncomfortable places I’ve been in a long time. The nest is prickly but I don’t know where it wants me to go next.

Who am I? What do I really want? How do I want to get to where I need to be? Where do I even need to be? I’m scared of making the wrong choices. I’m scared of every little thing I do coming from the wrong place.

It’s hard to evaluate each thing you feel as if it has the potential to be wrong. I’m in this awkward spot of being able to see when I might regret something but wanting to experience it anyway. Like I haven’t caught up with my own awareness so having the awareness is painful.

I feel as if I need to have clarity and a choice that I just can’t provide right now. So how do I reconcile not knowing what I want and feeling like once I make a choice, I can’t go back?

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

A New Relationship To Prayer

Prayer is not something that I have felt connected to often in my life. Usually when a life is on the line or big global events happen.

I was involved in a vehicle incident where I hit someone in a very freakish accident. It happened out of nowhere in my consciousness. The moment dropped me into a deep well of grief and all I could do when I got home was pray. I pray for the injured person, for my family, and for myself. I prayed for hours and hours.

I found out the next day that the women made a remarkable turn around when the prognosis wasn’t good when she arrived. I was elated to say the least but still very affected by the whole incident. It brought up so much around being responsible for another’s person’s life. This goes back deep into my soul. It goes deep into the collective soul as well. How much we have been responsible for and the layer of guilt and shame that can come from that.

I am finding myself years later sitting in deep prayer again. As I have been healing the layers of my own guilt, fear, judgement, and unworth, I am feeling a renewed relationship to authentic and genuine prayer. It is not for things to be made better per se, but to send Love in all directions, to all of humanity, not just to one side. It is meant to be in stillness to receive understanding and guidance. It is to be in communion with the Cosmic Divine inside and to connect it with all that surrounds me.

I have let go of putting my faith and energy in our current institutions. They are in a death cycle. It is time to start praying on and with the New. I feel my prayer holding space for that death and rebirth both globally and, more importantly, personally. For if we cannot die and be reborn individually, how can we expect the same to happen collectively.

There is much we can all do outside of prayer that requires an action. We need both. What that action is and the energy that it is held in comes directly from that prayer state. I am grateful for this reacquainting with Divine prayer. It lives in me differently and more authentically. I trust its service and it purpose, just as I trust the Love that holds us. I do not pray FOR others as much as I pray WITH others.

May this be its own prayer with you in whatever you are moving through during these times.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Cure Is In The Care

Last week I was teaching an online English class with other adults from around the world. A woman from the Ukraine came in first and I asked her how she was doing. She said she was still in a state of disbelief, confusion, and fear. I could see it in her eyes and feel it from her energetically. My heart sank in that moment for all of my human brothers and sisters. It felt odd to continue a lesson that seemed so far removed from what was going on, but she was there to get away from it all, to have an hour where she could be among others holding care for her and sending her love via the Heart and having a ‘normal’ conversation even as if nothing was normal around her. 

After the class I sank into a sacred sadness for all of humanity, not just on one side of a geopolitical/cabalistic conflict. In that moment I could feel the depth to which our planet of humans has been infiltrated by a dark force. A machine and a spell. It is also a veil to what lies deep inside each one of us that can change the course of the world forever…Care. 

In the not so distant past, I would feel this collective pain and want to help solve it or assuage it with information. Something to alleviate the guilt and pain that was swirling around. Be some kind of beacon of Hope for others to lean into as well as my inner world. However, this never dropped me fully into the state of Care, for that requires to fully feel the pain that lies underneath it. This pain is thick and global. If we have our own pain that resonates inside it becomes too much to bear and needs understandable relief. That is actually self-care. 

Yet over the years I have been healing my own inner pain, suffering, and guilt to feel a genuine and authentic Care that takes me to this feeling place without being swallowed up by it. I am Jonah in the Whale emanating Love from within. 

I found myself searching news and taking in others’ posts about it. Many trying to offer historical context, corruption analysis, enemy patterning, as well as a “hell, no!” to fear-mongering and information manipulation. I then dropped it all and let myself just feel. Feel the anger, feel the rage, feel the fear, the sadness, the grief, the helplessness, and the hopelessness of everything that this world is being asked to contend with beyond just the Ukraine. 

This is where my human heart opens and just IS. No strategy, no fixing, no mentalizing. Just feeling Care. In this place I feel closer to humanity. I feel a service beyond action, beyond words. It is etheric, psychic, emotive, and quantum. Does it solve the issue at hand this very moment? No. The bombs still fly, the injections still occur, the lives still lost. There is still work to be done, but not in the way we have been programmed it should. 

We must grow out of our politics and out of our information gathering and go into our hearts and souls. This is where we find true Care to be the Cure. Care for ourselves, care for our intimates, and care for our human brothers and sisters. This is not easy for many to do. What may seem like care may just be a layer of diversion from fully feeling whatever that feeling is, even if it leads you back to yourself. Maybe that is where you are meant to go. 

I am realizing how much Care is a spiritual initiation, not just some four-letter word that makes us feel better about ourselves. It is the tie that binds us all together in Holy Humanity. It is that which brings us to new levels of growth and change inside and out. It is our way back to reclaiming and remembering our greatest gift to each other. 

The gift of Love.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Inner Journey Back To The Sovereign

Since my early 20s, when I began to awaken to the vastness and possibility beyond the five-sense, wounded, and constructed consciousness I used to call ‘home’, I have sought an inner and outer ‘truth’. A truth that a part of me could use as a marker of being truly free, righteous, and ‘at peace’. 

I read and listened to many different views and perspectives. I went down roads that seemed to resonate somewhere inside of me. Now I realize I was trying to see myself, trying to feel the truth of who I was beyond the suffering and the yearning. My masculine was looking for the Holy Grail outside not realizing it was inside all along. 

Claiming and seeing my own bigness and gifts has been an ongoing process. I thought if I was knowledgeable enough or eloquent enough I could be seen as this wise and influential person. It is not that knowledge and communication aren’t important, it is more about where does the transmission come from. What is my motivation and purpose? What is it that I truly want? 

This is where my wounded masculine has had his own sorting out around self-worth and power. This is where my soul’s Gatekeeper has needed to come into the light and out of the shadows of the fear of persecution and judgement. This is where the rubber has needed to meet the road and find traction inside of my being. No longer feeling less-than or needing to feel more-than to satiate this woundedness. That doesn’t serve what I want to serve nor needs service.

I want to serve the voice inside another that says, “enough is enough”. The part of you that can no longer do life the way it is and has been for far too long. I want to serve the expanding soul and the vulnerable heart. The desire for sacred romance and soul kin. I want to serve the latent courage that one has to make profound changes and life-altering choices that lead to the Sea of Unknown Aliveness. I want to support your journey to your own Divine alignment that already exists inside of you and offer you the tools to be in relationship to the energies inside of you that don’t feel that alignment. 

I have been given the gift of that way of seeing and feeling that continues to serve me in ways that I longed for and didn’t realize I had inside of me, at least in my past veiled awareness. It has brought me to ever-unfolding edges of my Being that inform new layers of my wounding that inform new layers of my bigness of heart and soul. It is a never-ending story. The only stories that end are the ones that no longer serve. 

We are endowed with the gift of creation. That gift has been hijacked by a force that distorts our true nature to that of a subject. A subject to the tyranny of our smallness, to our fear, and to our suffering. In the first act of defiance and self-love, you can choose to relate to that subject as a part of you. You can choose to relate to the smallness, the fear, and the suffering. In the act of choosing a relationship rather than a fusion, you have created opportunity, hope, and movement. 

This separation, or differentiation, is not meant to sequester or ignore the ‘negative’ energy. It is meant to shine Light on it for understanding and offer Love for compassion and healing. It is meant to transmute, transform, and integrate back into a bigger, brighter, and more sovereign you. This is the Alchemist’s Gold in my opinion. 

But this process is work to be sure. The process of subjugation did not happen overnight and is not freed from overnight. It is an ongoing melting of all the chains that have kept us in our place as subjects in the heart, mind, body, and soul. We are each the Neo, the Buddha, the Christ, and the Sovereign of this manipulated and constructed reality that we have been a part of most of our whole lives, until the wheels have started falling off the proverbial cart.

It is time to begin a New Earth from the inside out. It is seeing its shining light from within as well as feeling the grief of all that has been and may come into being as we move through this reclamation process called Ascension. It is not for those who just want to get back to ‘normal’ or go back to the way things were. It is for those that see that it was the old normal that created our subjugation.

What that New Earth looks and feels like is part of the mystery. Part of the unfolding as each of us wake up, heal from, and choose differently from a state of Love for ourselves as well as others. The details emerge from this place. A place where the Mind is married to the Heart, the Masculine is in union and in flow with the Feminine. A place where we are free to love, to be loved, and to be in love. 

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.