Healing, Activating and Freeing Our Wombs

My womb Sophia can be so still, so deep and so vast. She takes me to the beds of oceans and lakes, tucking me into the depths of my inner waters. She shows me wide open landscapes of infinite possibilities and connects me to the stars in my DNA.

She has gestated and birthed a million babies…in the forms of near constant alchemy ideas, many visions, thousands of writings and four published books, hundreds of videos and healing sessions, many transmissions through my voice, a growing community in Queenship/Kingship with Raphael, a beautiful being/daughter, and so much more. She is birthing with the Divine Mother my most precious service of love called SoulFullHeart….seeded by my beloved Christ-Magdalene lineage within her depths. She reminds me of sacred sisterhood and the power generated by wombs coming into synch with each other on ALL levels. She helps to heal any polarizations against the masculine and links me to the Great Cosmic Womb that unites ALL of us, men and women, as sacred human children of the Divine Mother and Father.

Even when in discomfort and pain from my monthly menstrual cycle, She is generative, hopeful, and inspired. She is fearless….clearing out years of Matrix programming and lifetimes of False Mother templating.

And she can hold….and hold….and hold….and hold. So much can she hold that she needs regular clearing and cleansing of energies to return what isn’t ours back to others; to allow the collective Ascension process to follow its natural course; to not get overwhelmed or frustrated.

YOUR womb holds all this wonder and gifts for you too. Parts of us can have an aversion and resistance to our wombs from receiving little to NO initiation in this life around how to BE with Her power and femininity. Our inner masculine wants to worship and revere her yet needs a bridge to remember how. Our inner Queen/inner Mother may have a matriarchal need to control our wombs rather than surrender to Her unknown and wild creative flows.

It is time for our wombs to rise, to be FREE, to be WHOLE, and to be held as SACRED once again!

Join SoulFullHeart Facilitator/Teacher Kasha Rokshana and I for a women’s meditation group call for powerful Womb healing and activation over zoom in one week, Sunday, March 7th at 5:00pm GMT/12:00pm EST by whatever donation for feel called to give (average is $10-$15 CAD). We will be sharing more about the womb healings/activations that are available in this phase of Ascension, a guided meditation and space for personal sharings. You can offer donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen with more information at soulfullheart.org and we will send you the zoom link and the recording of the call as well.

Photo is of me sitting on the Mother Egg stone here in Avalon, who immediately connects with your womb for clearing, healing and activation. She also offers a dissolving/healing of the False Mother/Dark Priestess timelines to let Divine Mother into your Womb. We will be including the Mother Egg Stone in our meditation during the group call.

Love from Avalon – anchoring Sacred Feminine healing on Gaia at this time of Ascension,

Jelelle Awen

Womb Healing & Activation Women’s Meditation Group Call March 7th | Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

Our wombs, which includes both our second and third chakras, is a powerful space of creativity, alchemy, stillness, and bridge to our Sacred Feminine capacities as Creatrix of life. Our wombs become filled with pain/trauma layers from this life and other lifetimes, other people’s energies, and even the collective…in this way they are ‘pain wombs’ rather than ‘love wombs’. In addition, our wombs have been hijacked by the 3D/4D Matrix since the fall of Atlantis and the rise of the wounded masculine dominance, so our access to the purity essence of our womb is often very covered over and not fully activated.

This hijacking includes how we experience our monthly menstrual cycles as ‘natural’ when they are actually a suppressive program that effectively and significantly reduces our energy levels and for many of us causes quite a lot of pain and discomfort. We can hold our period cycles with a sense of honoring to our bodies and certainly not with shame or judgement about them, yet to revere them and our menstrual blood can connect to and even draw in the lower 4D Matrix frequencies. This is often bleed through from other timelines/lifetimes where pro-feminine/anti-masculine ritual and ceremony was practiced without awareness of the darker influences that were going on at other dimensional levels.

As we activate the powerful sovereignty contained in our wombs through a personal connection with her (including a ‘naming’ of her), we can then start to clear, heal and remember our infinite capacities of choice as sacred feminine humans. Our capacity to create WHOLE universes includes choices at the personal level toward our procreation, our aging process, our hormonal levels, and ALL biological functions of our bodies. We reclaim ultimate conscious choice over our bodies on all levels, which effectively unplugs us from any Matrix programs.

Kasha and I will be sharing more about this in our next women’s meditation group call on Sunday, March 7th, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm GMT (London, UK timezone/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST). We will talk about this womb hijacking and how that impacts what we experience within our wombs during menstrual cycles, false mother frequencies, other people’s energies, aborted/still gestating/blocked creative projects and expressions, and suppression of our truth. Through a personal relationship with our wombs and supported by the Divine Mother we can heal these layers to move into activation of this powerful force within us and connect to the Cosmic Womb. We will share our personal journeys with this process and our wombs during the call.

During this call, we will also guide you in a meditative space into a safe healing dimension to allow deep connection to your womb and activation. Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene will join us as a template of Mother and Lover/Priestess energies for our wombs to template from and be supported by. We will also repeat affirmations as mantras together and share light language together.

We did a womb healing and activation call on Sunday with women who are deeply in the SoulFullHeart process and it was very powerful for all of us. Even just 15 minutes connecting into the womb space together in this personal, relational and feeling-based way that bypasses the matrix and old school spirituality programs was very effective!

You can receive these Divine Feminine frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give.

You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawenand we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the March 7th women’s group and check that your email is current.

More information here https://www.facebook.com/events/1300057440381102 and here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

I share about the False God/Matrix here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/what-is-the-false-god…/

Love from Avalon….the heart of sacred feminine healing on Gaia at this time,

Jelelle Awen

The Big, Bold, Brave Choice To Be Fully Alive In These Times

By Deya Shekinah

The SoulFullHeart process is a wild, epic ride that is constantly blowing my mind and my heart wide open. It is intense, deep, rich and profound and I love it so much. My life is more magical when I am accessing and feeling my parts and creating deeply nourishing relationships inside of myself with them. Life becomes more alive and real in a way I cannot describe as it truly needs to be experienced for yourself. It is such an individual process because it is led by parts of YOU, there is no one outside telling you what is right or how to do it, just support to keep going in and finding your own way through any challenges, tensions or resistances to love that arise. 

It is a process that is helping me to become more human and that is what I love. It is not a spiritual practise but it is deeply spiritual. It is bridging the gap for me on what being a human and being spiritual mean. This process helps me feel and know from inside that those two aspects of who we are, are NOT separate. As I feel what is deeply human inside of me and those parts of me feel seen, met, heard and loved, then the Divine aspects of me are remembered and revealed so naturally and organically.

Our human hearts and emotions are the keys to the doorway home to the Divine essence of who we truly are. The richness in feeling this from inside and through your own experience with your parts is for me the most exquisite feeling ever. It is changing everything in my life and creating a foundation of self love and self trust in a way I have not experienced anywhere else.

This is my experience of course, not everyone will resonate with parts work and that is the beauty of all being so different and unique. This process honors and welcomes our uniqueness though, seeing the gifts that your parts and the ways they experience and feel life as adding to it, rather than taking away, or trying to make us tick boxes that make us spiritual enough to fit in or advance to the next level. There are no rules and the possibilities are endless, how liberating. 

You are endless, your parts are endless and the love that starts to arise within you as you feel parts of you is endless too. It is something to let in, feeling how big, how beautiful and how divine we truly are and have always been, and that being here in a human body is a gift we chose, not a hindrance to our spirituality but rather the doorway into deeper knowing and understanding of it.   

It is a big, bold and brave choice to choose a path of being fully alive and embodied in these times when there is so much to feel and respond to in the world. For me there is no other way through though than IN and I would not want to be going IN in any other way than with my parts, in this way of life and with the support of this beloved community.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

1:1 Sacred Feminine Embodiment Activation & Trauma Releasing Sessions | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

I honestly forget most of the time to share on social media about the 1:1 sessions that I do on most days. They are so meaningful and important to me as a way to serve love with the Divine, yet, I also don’t relate with my spaceholding or SoulFullHeart as a business to be promoted regularly in the usual sense. Rather, it is a vocation, a Divine calling, for which I ask for fair monetary exchange (while that is still needed in daily living reality) in return. Sessions are really a dedicated space to transmit the love flow that I am gifted to access within and share with others.

I have been blessed to draw a regular flow of women to have sessions with me over the last four years since I first started sharing more regularly on social media. Some of them have only wanted/needed one session with me….while others are now going into their second and third year of sessions with me, into deeper community living with us, and are on their way to becoming Facilitators themselves some day.

I have had a couple of breaks from offering sessions in order to reboot, rest, and focus on my own process, my relationship with Raphael, the bigger picture offerings, writing, and the community. Yet, since I arrived here in Avalon in September, I have felt a renewed sense of purpose and passion that comes through being in the sessions now. I’m not sure how long I will be offering sessions to those new to the SoulFullHeart process as more of my schedule is filling up with those who have been involved for a longer period of time. So, if you feel drawn, now would be the time to claim one.

It is truly my joy and my honor to spend 90 minutes (often feels much shorter and yet also longer too) with the deep, porous, sensitive, and just plain GIFTED women who are drawn to meet with me. The sessions are a collaborative union between us, between my Divine Self and theirs, and I so enjoy drawing out their insights, their gifts, their realizations, helping them to lift the veils that have covered their access. I hear all the time how amazed they are at what is uncovered and put together and that ‘it makes so much sense’ what we discover.

Bridging to and feeling parts of them such as the Inner Child, Inner Teenager, Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, Gatekeeper and then also soul aspects in other lifetimes is such a fascinating process that always surprises me. I do feel this work that I offer with women is a deeper initiatory process into the embodied grounds of the sacred feminine in a truly unique way that offers true and lasting transmutation or I really couldn’t in integrity continue to offer it.

This process is not for the faint of heart nor does it support bypassing or just being in ‘love and light’ energies. This process and my energy invite you into the hidden places, the rejected places, the places and parts that MOST need your love to truly complete suffering loops and patterns of resistance/fear….it is gentle yet confrontative as is the energy of the Divine Mother when we are ready to truly receive and embrace Her.

If you feel drawn and ready to meet with me, I have a few availabilities in my schedule from Wednesday to Saturdays. You can PM me on FB at https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen or email/contact via soulfullheart.org. Above is a precious testimonial and there are others at soulfullheart.org/testimonials with more information about sessions with me and with my other beloveds and facilitators Raphael Awen and Aurius Amara (for men and women) and with Kasha Rokshana with women at soulfullheart.org/sessions. Aurius and Kasha are also offering free 45 minute intro calls over zoom to those who would like more information about the process and sessions.

Here is a video where I share more about sessions and what happens during them:

Love from Avalon which provides its own heart chakra activations to support the process too!

Jelelle Awen

SoulFullHeart Avalon Updates: Issue 8

Welcome to a whole NEW Avalon Update from us! This issue is brimming over with sacred romance love vibes and deep connection with the Divine Beloved too. There have been many reconciliations lately within all of our Sacred Unions in this community and this process of letting in what’s new is shared deeply through new writings compiled here for you. To top it all off, Raphael and Jelelle are leading what promises to be a powerful by-donation group call tomorrow, February 14th, on Zoom!

This Valentine’s Day, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be co-hosting a Sacred Union Transmission group call, lovingly called “Bridge To The Beloved”. It’s centred around not only drawing a Sacred Union mate, if that’s something that you ache for, yet also around connecting to the beloved within you and within the Divine as well. It’s a call intended to meet you wherever you are on your journey of awakening more to the love you are, deserve, and already have in your life and your being.

More info on joining us for this group call can be found here: soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

The latest Avalon Update can be found here.

Thank you for joining us on our journey of service of love within and without!

Love,

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

My REunion with Aurius (Formerly, ‘Gabriel’)

by Kasha Rokshana

For you, with you… Within me…

I’ve fallen asleep beside you, only to wake up without you, but then realized with inner work and great patience (that sometimes boiled with so much ache I could barely hold it), how I get to (we get to) to claim this awakening all over again…

A light has always burned for you, stayed on for you, in my heart. A beacon has always been lit in my soul, cascading across the sky of the Divine, reaching somehow for you yet letting you go too.

When you meet the King that holds the keys to your heart AND soul AND body desires, efforts to cling or tug or ‘keep him’ actually flow against the tide of drawing him deeper into you, into your field, and into your mutual connection that spans so many lifetimes… And against the moving tides of change and growth within, that sometimes need to happen solo, without him ‘in the room’.

I am loving and appreciating this beloved man who I have known for nearly 9 years, anew. I am feeling and reeling in the depths and textures of our connection in ways I wasn’t expecting. I didn’t know he was about to ‘throw his hat back in the ring’ and claim a desire for me after this time ‘apart’ romantically… But I’m sure glad he did.

This adventure with you, Aurius, is one I glow with from deep inside… I feel it in places that have been sleeping, that have needed to let go of any dream of it. Now the blood flow of passion and desire is waking up these dormant places and I love every moment of our ‘waking up next to each other’ that is happening now… ❤️

I love this service-of-love life that we live inside of ourselves… And more and more inside of this sacred USness we share.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Great Reconiliation

My, there is a lot moving and shaking going on in consciousness right now! I feel this Great Reconciliation between the Heart and the Head, the Masculine and the Feminine, the Dark and the Light going on right now. In that process of Reconciliation it appears that there is a great polarity being drawn to the surface to look at and determine where we want to go with that.

There was a great polarity happening here amongst us as a family/community that has taken each of us to new places inside that have had unforeseen, yet not surprising, results such as reunion and deepening between souls and the Divine Beloved Itself.

The veils and/or compartments that have been holding Truth and Love at bay are starting to crumble. I can feel how parts of me have identified with those veils and walls. The crumble can create a rumble inside. It takes more effort to suppress that to express now. If that is the case, more Truth will come to the surface all over and that can be messy and scary.

I feel how the Masculine polarity has held a large swath of territory in consciousness. With the Feminine pole coming into balance, it can feel to the masculine that it is being sieged or devoured. Losing its control hold and its identity in a way. Yet what I feel from the Feminine is an Embracing. An Invitation back into Wholeness. It can look like a devouring from a certain perspective. But this whole process is inevitable. It IS happening…

I feel a brotherhood of men that are wanting to be a part of the Great Reconciliation inside and out. There are Knights and Kings of Heart that are seeking to balance these energies inside even if they are not consciously aware of it. This may be coming out in depression, anxiety, or frustration. He doesn’t know what the fuck is up and the default consciousness may be fear or violence toward self and other.
In this process, I feel the Feminine can assist by claiming her own needs, follow her own heart’s desires and intuition, and heal the polarity of the Masculine within. The bond with the Beloved is the shelter in the storm of the rumbles for us all. It takes us to the other side of the other side.

I am here to offer my heart to those that are feeling that desire for inner reconciliation and a return to Balance and Wholeness within. I feel compassion and care for all men that are struggling with so many emotions and circumstances. There is a path to health and inner prosperity and joy. Please do keep me bookmarked in your heart as someone who wants to help. I have been through many Dark Nights and rounds of addictions and despair.

Sending much love to all humanity in this process of Reconciliation.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Coming Out Of Separation and Into Twin Flame/Counterpart Union

By Jelelle Awen

I am emerging from my Honeymoon bubble with Raphael with a bit of wobbly legs, palpitating heart, fuzzy/altered mind, and hugely renewed sense of life/love/service! We’ve gone in deep together in the way that is unique to our bond in these last days….exploring physical body nuances and pleasures….I could share so much about the shared consciousness altering portal that is Yoni kissing, for example, and will someday!

We’ve also been diving into emotional areas that need to be felt and loved as well. Bringing realizations that arose during our separation and dropping in together into the parts of us that need to be felt in their fears, tensions, and doubts as well so that they can be bonded.

Rather than deny these parts of us or put them in shadow now that we are together again, we bring them forward to heard and felt by each other. We feel remorse as needed, advocate as desired, and LET GO of resentments/grudges and the past as guided. In this letting in and then letting go process, the past resentments literally dissolve between us as they’ve been felt so deeply by us as individuals. The new then arises out of this compassion for ourselves and each other.

Trying to transact EVERYTHING and resolve it just in the bond in a horizontal way doesn’t move it. It isn’t just about more conscious communication together or ‘staying in the room’ with each other or whatever a marriage counselor might advise as ‘saving the relationship’ type strategies. Sometimes a deep inner reboot is necessary where only YOU can hold the safe space that parts of you need to let go into, especially when you are connecting to archetypal energies and deep soul pieces that are many lifetimes in the making.

This was what Raphael and I were invited to go into by our Magdalene/Christ soul family recently. An intense initiation in which we couldn’t feel the hope for a future between us, where we truly needed to let go and lean into ourselves fully. We were gifted so much support during this arduous journey with our soul family here in the physical and in etheric connection with Anna, Yeshua, etc., as our soul family hardly ever went through these initiations alone. Avalon held the space for us with necessary activations and even the quietness of the winter season served us.

I felt during our vow renewal ceremony the Magdalenes celebrating our successful navigation of these grounds and endowing us with the gift of holding the mantle for pair bond reunion and soul family reunion for those drawn to us. Anna shared words with us of support and admiration and we all felt tears as she reassured us that she would ‘never ever leave us.’ And now lately has been the necessary celebration and feasting that comes after the initiation has been ‘passed’. The recovery and reaping the rewards that come from loved freed up from fear by truly GOING INTO that fear and transmuting it.

This is the process I feel Ascension is inviting us into in every moment, whether in a twin pair bond reunion or not….to move into our fears, even the ones at the collective level, and trust that love and the Divine will hold us through them. The bliss and joy I have felt these last days now surpasses the darkest hours of sadness and hurt and pain I felt during our separation. The grief is fading now….replaced by the pure ecstasy of rebooted appreciation and gratitude that flow out of a heart rapturously falling in love with the Beloved.

I can only experience the Divine AS Beloved most deeply and truly when I am with Raphael in deep union as he holds the Divine Masculine expression of it. This is how my soul ‘wired it up’ at the soul family monad level before individuating.

I have surrendered more deeply into this now as my purpose for being here to experience this reunion and am wanting to teach/serve from this awareness more deeply as well, even as I am constantly learning from it.

If you feel drawn to experience the clearing of the pathway to experience the Beloved through deep inner connection and through a pair bond supported by soul family, do feel into a 1:1 session with one of us and/or attending a group call event (like the one we are doing on Valentine’s Day February 14th) and to join our online community Portal. More information at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

So many of you on our social media accounts, especially facebook, have expressed your support and resonance withur separation and reunion so you very well may be feeling a call and draw to come closer. There IS a reason you are drawn to our story and that you feel deep resonance with it. Exploring that reason could open up a whole new timeline life of goodness and love!

The home of the love with the Beloved is waiting for you. Claim it and all the love you can possibly let in can be yours….love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community portal, and writings/books at soulfullheart.org

Pair Bonds/Twin Flames/Counterpart Reunions As A Bridge To The Beloved

By Jelelle Awen

Love is IN the air leading up to Valentine’s Day! Reunions of pair bonds/counterparts are happening at increasingly accelerated rates as the previous veils are lifted and you can see/feel and CLAIM each other again. What once felt like very real and valid reasons to not be together; to be together yet not fully and completely; to not ‘find’ or draw each other in the physical; to have push/pull patterns with each other….these barriers are now being dissolved by the Divine’s all consuming desire to experience reunion again.

The separations ARE as sacred as the reunions. The separations offer a full landing in self. What is learned and accessed within during this alone time is so precious and important to the transactability of the bond on heart/body/soul/mind levels once you do come together. The deepening of the sacred union within you; the cultivation of connection between your inner masculine and inner feminine; this union within as a temporary experience of an internal ‘opposite’ provides a template for your beloved when they return to you.

If you are currently single, you can trust that the process you are undergoing to heal yourself on all levels, be with the Beloved within, and connect to the Divine AS your Beloved is the most important ground you can navigate in readiness for sacred union with your counterpart. Surrendering the timing of that reunion to the Divine allows for an experience of joy, goodness, and even bliss in that singleness rather than suffering, angst, and pain.

This is the ongoing journey of sacred union…..being invited to LET GO of fear, distrust, wounding, and separation-based relationship templates from 3D. To feel and heal the deep pain of separation within you that we ALL have……the shock that reverberates within our very DNA and at a collective level from that original separation moment from your pair bond, your ‘twin’ and counterpart. The reeling feeling of being ‘cast out’ away from your Beloved at the soul family monad level before you individuate into your Metasoul and the veil of amnesia comes down so that you can truly be an individuated consciousness.

The masculine torn away from his beloved feminine and she from him….seemingly severed in an abrupt way that was so unnatural in the moment…..shocking……and yet completely necessary to the ongoing unfolding of the Divine duality experiment. And then, always seeming to be reaching again for each other with an active ache to BE in that union again….Reeling and reaching in repeated patterns, over and over, lifetime after lifetime….until the ONE lifetime where you choose to truly be together in full conscious commitment and finally complete the cycle of reeling and reaching.

THIS lifetime is the one that many pair bonds are choosing to come back together in the physical again. The ultimate reason is always for the service of love and to/with the Divine. It is not for ego reasons at the 3D level or even for the gratification of the individuals, although it is very nourishing to both. It is during this time of Humanity’s Ascension, during this Dark Night moving into the Light of Day, during this time of Matrix collapse to finally be free again…..this is the NOW for which pair bonds are most needed to be again in union.

If you have chosen for this reunion experience as deeply connected to your service of love here and the primary WAY for which you will serve the Divine, you have probably felt the call to sacred union reunion for most of your life and felt your counterpart ‘with’ you in a deep way, even if you have not met yet in this life. You may experience this as a deep sense of missing something and that you are not quite ‘complete’ even as you may experience great fulfillment and self love/worth in being by yourself.

Please join us for a special group call event in one week on Valentine’s Day to explore these sacred union grounds, counterpart reunion, and provide a Bridge to The Beloved. Raphael/Taliesin and I will offer teachings and sharings about our recent necessary separation from each other and what we are discovering about our own counterpart bond in coming back together. Gabriel and Kasha will also share from their newly reunited union, which Gabriel shares about today on his FB feed.During the call, we will provide a sacred union transmission to you with support from Yeshua and Mary Magdalene’s Divine union template.

We will guide you in a meditation to bridge to the Beloved (in whatever ways you are currently meant to experience that whether to support the inner sacred union, the reunion with your counterpart, or deepening with the Divine AS Beloved). There will then be space for personal sharings for whomever would like to.The two hour group call is by whatever donation you feel to give (average is $15 CAD) via soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will email you the zoom link. The call is at 5:00pm/17:00pm GMT/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST. If you can’t attend live, you will also receive the recording. More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/1061373757681405/ and https://www.soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Love from Avalon…..where the Divine Masculine Michael and Divine Feminine Mary ley lines entwine in ever abundant union,
Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community, books/writings at soulfullheart.org.

Into The Ring Of SoulFire

“If your beloved has the life of a fire, step in now and burn along”
~ Rumi

This past month has been a whirlwind. Completions, separations, polarizations, realizations, communications, and reconciliations. It has been a sacred fire that has burned, illuminated, and alchemized the sacred union inside and out.

The re-union of Jelelle and Taliesin (Raphael) sent a wave of energy that sparked a lot of emotion that was attached to a big structure within myself that was a veil to my deepest need, desire, and truth. It was a way that I have related to them, others, and myself that has just lost traction and use. I am finding another layer of my True North and SoulFire.

I woke up digesting our last Monday group gathering and realized that my heart still had a huge compartment with Kasha’s name written all over it. We were not reconciled somehow. Something was not ‘done’ within me. We needed to divorce. We needed to go our own ways. We needed to come back together in service, and we needed to roll out a ‘friendship’. But that all came tumbling down when the SuperNova Sacred Union codes came into our fields this week,

I can’t shake what this woman does to me and for me! We hold keys for each other and a deep well of Love for and with each other. We have both done a lot of inner work the past 8 years and have had our ins and outs, and ups and downs.

We have a lot to continue to digest about all of that. It is a scary place to go back in and face all of those things and the places we had feared to tread between us, but the draw is undeniable. I love her. I need her. I want to serve love with her. So as Rumi said, into the Fire we go!

We have our challenges and our ease. We have something that is in need of deep exploration and illumination. She is my Divine Feminine expression embodied. I get to see and feel myself in a deeper way through her. She gets to do the same. We get to feel the Beloved with us, through us, as us, and serve from there. This is our deepest desire and mission.

Many of you have been around our past iterations and may not be the least bit surprised. It was both surprising and not for us as we just know this soul story somehow, yet we get to create a new one together on blank pages while rereading the previous chapters and taking notes for the next.

I am blessed to be writing this with you, Kasha. Ecstatic and terrified both! Yet I believe in my heart we both have enough inside of us to keep going in and keep getting as real as we can to cultivate more of that Love we are meant to serve to the world. I have thrown my hat into that Ring of Fire. Now time to see where that takes us next.

I love you…

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.