Inner & Outer Feminine/Masculine Union Balance

By Jelelle Awen

Oh, how the inner feminine will want to go soft at times. To cry. To grieve. To REALLY feel what is going on that causes her heart to ache. She will BE with the longings and the missing without trying to fix or manage. Then, she can feel judged as oversensitive or too reactive by others and try to suppress her feelings….usually without success and not for very long. She may lash out in frustration, dissatisfaction and sense of injustice that her feelings have not been given enough space when they haven’t within her own heart.


And the inner masculine, then, doesn’t know what to DO with her or how to help. He feels locked in and also locked out, especially if she becomes protective of her feelings and won’t share. He just has an impulse to solve it, as if he could fix himself if he can fix her. He wants to be seen and appreciated by her always for his efforts, yet also fears disappointing her and being inadequate. He resists her tenderness and his own at times, afraid of being hurt again.


This distorted dance of inner feminine and masculine seems to be so common, so conditioned, and modeled for us in so many ways, starting from our own parents. I felt recently new layers of sorting through of the inner masculine and inner feminine dynamics within myself, triggered by being here on these powerful Michael Divine Mascline, and Mary Divine Feminine lines. I have also seen these masculine/feminine sortings out in those in my small community of beloveds, in my relationship with Raphael (although we are in a current blissy merging phase after some initial conflicts when we got here to Avalon) and in women I have met with for sessions recently.


There’s nothing wrong in the push and the pulls, yet it can be challenging when these energies within are not on the same ‘page’, the desires are diverging, and conflict arises. This is the same mixed experience as what so commonly occurs on the outside in relationships as well. I have so learned that experience of relationships with others can’t be shifted into new grounds until it is from within. New and deeper possibilities of intimacy arise initially from within and can then be transacted with others rather than just a focus on the outside dynamics, which is so common.


I always come back to the inner union to see what its status is when there are mixed feelings going on. As I hold space for my inner feminine (however she is needing to show up) and my inner masculine (who is quite soft at this point), they can find their connection with me, the Divine, and each other. They can move into their dance again, in flow, and ultimately….as is always the desire…into balance.


This reunion within then flows into my sacred union relationship with Raphael with new grounds of connection and exploration now possible. One day I am in tears and holding space for my feminine and bridging to my masculine so he can be felt too. And the next, I am in bliss lovemaking and connection energies with Raphael. From within and then out draws the experience of joy, bliss, and balance with a beloved mate that feels like a deep merging even while you remain two separate consciousnesses.

The ache for sacred union is consciously felt in many people…a ‘mate ache’, I have called it. Yet, the desire for inner union of your masculine and feminine may be less known and cultivated. That inner union ache is powerful to follow and does seem to ultimately draw your precious sacred union partner too.

Here is a guided meditation with Raphael and I to connect to your inner masculine and feminine: https://youtu.be/nvi_m4i1KvQ


love,

Jelelle Awen

Join Kasha and I for an Avalon Activation women’s group call on Sunday, September 20 at 5:00pm BST (9:00am PDT) with teachings, meditation, and personal sharings by donation. We will share these Avalon energies that invite the inner masculine/feminine flow. More information at soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls


More information about 1:1 soul initiation/emotional-Karma Trauma healing sessions with me for women over Zoom and here in-person in Glastonbury and with other Facilitators at soulfullheart.org/sessions

The Reunification & Reconciliation Of The Inner Masculine/Feminine

This geography is bringing up so much around what I feel is a reunification of the masculine and feminine within. I have been working with the inner feminine for some time now and it is ticking up a notch and a half since I have been here.

But this ‘working’ is not just some generalized notion of ‘The Feminine’, but rather a very specific relationship with a part or aspect of me in a more intimate way. It is ‘my feminine’. I don’t mean that possessively, but rather more personally. They have a name and a frequency just like any person I may have a relationship with.

This has taken some time for my masculine parts to let in, yet has brought with it so many gifts for them. There is something to lean into and to learn from that has been a bit out of their grasp of conditioned consciousness. There is a need and desire for reconciliation and reunification on both sides.

I feel this feminine aspect really desiring this attention and cultivation. She wants to help bridge the gap with my inner masculine aspects that have some things to clear around the repression (and fear!) of her and The Feminine in general. I feel this process actually landing me in more of a union and dance of gendered poles rather than a blending of the two in some unisexual way.

I will do this through journaling, meditation, and bringing as much of them into my waking reality as I can. As this communion deepens, I feel I will be present to my own needs for romance and service as they will each bring their own gifts and passions.

I want to thank Raphael Awen for being a model and bridge to this inner love affair that offers so much for my sacred masculine embodiment that is personal to me and not some archetypal masculine that feels inauthentic to my parts. I look forward to sharing more about this ongoing healing between these very powerful energies.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Bridging The Masculine & Feminine In Avalon

In the Heart of Avalon the energy of the sacred feminine runs deep. As a man it can bring up many different feelings and reactions. For me it has been a toggle between feeling at home and feeling amiss, like I don’t quite fit in.

The dance of the masculine and feminine within comes to the surface to be felt and called into union. I feel these aspects inside of me vying for attention and healing. A priestess energy that has been with me for some time yet is ripe for more relationship in this geography.

Then there is the architecture of the wounded masculine exemplified by the church tower on top of the Tor. It activates a priest and Roman aspect that feel the uneasy feeling of walking these lands remembering the ways in which the dominating culture created a veil to the magic of the time.

The beauty of it all is that I get to bridge those two together into my heart rather than be caught in the space between. I can bring them together in sacred ceremony as I sit here wide awake in the middle of the night. I am on a different clock now and that is the timepiece of the soul

I am here to feel. Here to heal myself as well as the collective masculine so that I may serve those knights of heart that feel the same calling within despite all the din and distraction. The sacred masculine is rising and has a journey toward and with the feminine. It is here and cannot be stopped, only resisted.

I am blessed to be here. I want to share my journey and serve the wisdom and love that arises from it. I have a purpose and the Divine has a plan of which I am only partially privy to. My masculine is acclimating to that while my feminine is revelling.

In the middle is the flow of Life.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Masculine & Feminine Interdependence

by Raphael Awen

An impulse to do something, to express something is a masculine kind of outbound energy. This energy needs and requires a feminine inbound energy of being and letting-in to sustain and validate its need to do and express.

The masculine doing and expressing by itself runs out of gas, and must vulnerably return to the feminine to get its needs met.

Likewise, the feminine inbound energy of letting in love and ability to BE in being wants to express and do as a natural extension of itself. The feminine however can’t disconnectedly express and do just for the sake of feeling powerful, or worthy, or right. It wants and needs a higher frequency.

In this way, the masculine and the feminine are interdependent, and in that, we see the basis for Sacred Union, within each of us, for we all possess both masculine and feminine aspects/polarities of being – each of which longs for union, for a higher way.

The incompleteness of one is the portal to the other.

Vulnerability (the ability to admit need) is the grace that permits the masculine and feminine to find Sacred Union dance.

This is true inside and outside.

Maybe the most powerful common denominator between the masculine and feminine is this shared mutual need – this wound state one remains in without the other.

This energy feels so palpable to me since arriving here in Glastonbury in the UK, a place of deep feminine energies and converging soul aspect timelines. One can feel the still unresolved lingering between the feminine and the masculine wanting to find its reunion in actual transactional grounds of real people expressions and relationships.

We are this coming together. We are the cast and crew of this production being put on by consciousness itself.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of SoulFullHeart. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Vulnerability Of The Masculine Relating To The Feminine

by Raphael Awen

The masculine in its ability and desire to provide is a great thing in and of itself, which we all have inside of ourselves regardless of gender.

Where the masculine gets into conflict is when it needs to find, maintain and suppress a dependent feminine in order to keep his gig working. Eventually this comes to a demise and both the masculine and the feminine are afforded an opportunity to restructure – vulnerably admit their fears, needs and desires to find a new way, or at least a completion of the old to eventually allow a new way to arise.
The masculine has a particular challenge in that it was born of a feminine womb and yoni from which it wants and needs to separate, to define itself, to be different enough to create attraction in order to be afforded a partaking of that exquisite feminine while it is trying at the same time to differentiate itself from and pretend to not need.

The more the masculine leads in the world with his power, attainments and capabilities, the more he is trying and still needing/seeking feminine love, as it is only the feminine than can give all that power and attainment meaning, yet he is not quite ready, or sufficiently aware to transparently and open heartedly admit the true nature of that need.

This dynamic takes a quantum leap forward when the masculine is ready to feel, ready to vulnerably admit need and desire to himself, his innerverse, his inner feminine, and then energetically and emotionally to the feminine in his outerverse, his universe – yoniverse.

When you get that sorted a bit, all lovemaking and love getting strategies take care of themselves, effortlessly as you have it aced inside, which is a very cool feeling for the masculine – doing something really stunningly well!

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of SoulFullHeart. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Avalon Activations: Sacred Union Experiences in Avalon

By Jelelle Awen

Oh, these Avalon energies stir up sacred union within and with other as the Michael and Mary energy lines vibrate all around you! These ley lines of masculine and feminine energies are entwining and overlapping…..and then flowing away from each other again….only to return back into each other’s embrace again like lovers do.

These energy serpents spiral around the Tor together in a steady procession and then climax, bursting out on the top of the Holy Hill’s crown chakra…again, like lovers do! Once, powerful standing stones stood in a circle to capture this outward flow and redirect it within, connect it within the circle of souls gathered, and network it to the Stars and beyond.

We can bring these energies from the Tor now into our bodies and receive a template for a balanced flow there again of masculine and feminine. That which was once polarized can find union…and Mother Gaia shows us the way.

In this moment, I am in lovemaking afterglow with my beloved and feeling the energies of our sacred union dance move into new terrains and places of discovery from being here in these Avalon energies over a week now. Raphael and I had some tension and friction move through in the first days here….as many couples experience coming here.

Yet, we came into balance again, as we always eventually do, by going within and feeling our ‘sides’ of it. The parts of us and soul aspects (so triggered up here!) that need our attention and love receive it through the process of openness, curiosity and space from reaction.

And, so we return to Raphael and Jelelle again and to the steady transaction of love that is both brand new and many lifetimes long. I am so grateful for this soul, this man, this BEing who has journeyed with me through so many phases and stages this life. We’ve built up and let go of so many worlds together now. I am grateful to this king who brings out my queen with his devotion, with his kindness, with his directness, with his integrity, and with the HUGENESS of his heart.

Today, we visit the ruins of the Glastonbury Abby and King Arthur’s remains as well. And something else gets revealed in this visit and something previously unknown can then be explored and integrated. That is the reason for coming in the physical to these sacred places with energies that have remained unchanged for so long and remain pure…to know ourselves in new ways, to remember what our soul wants us to recall…to become the Infinite Love that we ARE.

Love from Avalon!
Jelelle Awen

Join Kasha and I for an Avalon Activation women’s group call on Sunday, September 20 at 5:00pm BST (9:00am PDT) with teachings, meditation, and sharings by donation. More information at http://soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

More information about 1:1 soul initiation/emotional healing sessions with me for women over Zoom and here in-person in Glastonbury at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Avalon Activations: Women’s Group Call W/Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana – September 20

By Jelelle Awen

I am excited to offer my first women’s group call since July from the sacred lands of Avalon! Kasha will be joining me in this special two hour event over Zoom where we will bridge from, tap into and transmit from the powerful Mary ley line that runs through the house where we are staying and from the local sacred sites of the Tor, the Abbey, and more.

The magical energies of Avalon (Glastonbury, UK in the physical) stir the heart’s openings and soul longings of women, hugely supported and activated by the Divine Feminine frequencies long cultivated here in these lands. Activations from Avalon open up a bridge to your inner Priestess, Maiden, Essene/Magdalene, Celtic/Druid Healer, nun, and whatever else is within your soul to come forward as a part of you or from another lifetime.

We will talk about how the challenge and opportunity can be to feel these Avalon energies in a way that allows you to relate with them, integrate them with your Divine Self and your everyday life, and heal the karma trauma that may be within these lifetimes. Creating a bridge from the heart of your Divine Self to the parts/soul aspects who have connection to these energies allows for more activation AND more healing too.

During this call on Sunday, September 20 at 5:00pm BST, we will guide you in a meditative space into a healing sisterhood circle with all the souls on the call and with energies of the sisterhood of Avalon, a sisterhood consciousness lineage with Mary Magdalene, Mother Mary, Morra (Jelelle’s Avalon priestess soul aspect), and Flora (Kasha’s Avalon priestess soul aspect) to help bridge the healing energies of Avalon to you in a personal way. You will also connect with the part of you/soul aspect that comes through to receive these loving energies.

You can receive these Divine Feminine frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.

This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

More information at https://www.facebook.com/events/359646118400033/ and at soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

love from Avalon!
Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about 1:1 sessions with her for women and with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kasha Rokshana, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Remembering The Soft Feminine

by Kasha Rokshana

As soon as my feet are bare, my dancer comes out.

And they were bare on this day, in this place, because of stepping into a healing pool of precious waters. The sensations of which returned to me even more soul memories to integrate into my heart. And so the dancer energy coming forward reminded me of a gentle femininity that lives deep inside, that invites instead of tugs. That dances for herself in self-love first of all and can pull others in to join her when it’s time, when they’re ready, when she feels ready to embrace that sort of partnership, mateship, friendship that requires vulnerability in exchange with another.

Avalon’s legacies are sometimes used to bypass… to exit instead of enter. These feminine energies are misread, misused, taken over.

When you choose to enter Her sacred womb, Her healing waters, the embrace of Her sacred trees, you find yourself feeling more than ever before as your own femininity arises into deeper healing possibilities. This can feel scary and unknown in moments. Yet held in Her embrace you are, always…

Incredible journey. 🦋

This sense of the deep feminine is one that all are invited to feel into inside of themselves… all that it powerfully pushes up to feel and be with is important. When the need for ferocity alone is complete, you’ll feel the balm arise from within. To me, this is what makes the shadows worth visiting and getting to know, even when the edges are sharp and the cost seems great.

Much love to you and your own (re)discovery of your inner feminine, whether man or woman… ❤️

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Serving women in 1:1 sessions is a deep passion of mine. This process of healing the feminine within and experiencing her full range of expression is so profound and endless! For more info on what my beloveds and I offer in session space, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions 🕊

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

1:1 Sacred Feminine Activation & Healing Sessions Available W/Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Being here in Glastonbury/Avalon has activated my healer in a deeper way again! I’ve been taking space from holding 1:1 sessions with women for the last few months and felt a deep resting, renewed and productive focus on my own process, birthing of the Free To Be 5D group call series with Raphael, released my new book, and manifested our relocation here to Glastonbury from Canada.

After this resting period that was needed after four years of full service, I am now feeling and being guided to open to individual service again to those women who are drawn to work with me during this time of intense transition and change collectively. I can feel this is a powerful time of supported arisement of the Divine Feminine self, which is a combination of healing of the 3D self parts and the connection/integration of soul aspects. This is a time to go deeper into your heart and soul field to offer love to whatever most needs your attention, allowing the Divine Feminine arise from within.

I support the Divine Feminine self to arise through 75-90 minute sessions over Zoom and now here in-person at this beautiful house in the heart of Glastonbury for $130 CAD (about $100 USD equivalent). We connect in a meditative ‘dropped in’ space together with whatever part of you and/or soul aspect that comes through to be felt. It is a powerfully deep yet gentle feeling space that allows the digestion of whatever needs to be felt along with soul/Divine self activations as well.

The work I offer is a deep soul initiation process, so is best aligned with those who have been awakening for many years and also done deeper emotional healing work as well….for souls who are ready to go the next level in their healing and transformation into their Divine self manifestation in ALL areas of their life.

It’s my honor to put my ‘shingle’ back out there and see who is drawn in a collaborative energy with me to serve love. There is more information about sessions with me and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael, Gabriel and Kasha at soulfullheart.org/sessions for the same rate as mentioned above. You can email me through our website at soulfullheart.org or PM me here on FB if interested in scheduling and I’ll send you four questions to answer prior to the session.

If you are interested in a session with me, I recommend reading my new book Free To Be 5D to get a deeper sense of what we are offering with the SoulFullHeart process: soulfullheart.org/books

This pic was taken last Halloween in my priestess ‘costume’ yet sure seems to fit the energies here in Avalon and what is coming through my soul now!

love,
Jelelle

Energy Update: Full Moon Energies Emitting From Tor Offering Feminine & Masculine Balance

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: Full moon energies are amplifying EVERYTHING it seems right now…both shadow and light. Being now on such an active energy center of Gaia here in Glastonbury, UK for the last few days, it is even easier to feel this amplification as I lay awake for long stretches last night feeling it move through me. Recovering now more from the journey here from Canada and beginning to land here, I am starting to tune into what these energies of Gaia’s heart chakra are offering in this Now of Ascension. More messages of that will be coming as my personal calibration happens.


When I first connected to these energies in the physical sitting on a slope of the Tor, they felt so comforting and familiar yet also very powerful. They offered a call to balance within and seemed to emit from the Tor like a radio signal broadcasting out to the world. Balance. There was an answer to the cries of the world’s heartbreak here. The Michael energy line as the masculine and the Mary energy line as the feminine entwined together. The way that they spiral upwards within the Tor and also flow away from it like rivers at its base seems to mirror the possibilities of our own energy as we move into more alignment with our light bodies and 5D consciousness.

photo of me during the first moments of connecting with the Tor energies

There is also the overlay here in the physical of the wounded masculine’s attempts to both suppress and its longing for connection to the feminine. Each abby and church built over a previously sacred Divine Feminine site (like the remains of the church at the top of the Tor) is like a stiff embrace that both suffocates and honors Her. This seems to represent the masculine suppression of the feminine that has been occurring since the fall of Atlantis, keeping the control matrix running, and leading to so much suffering and polarity expression. As eventually so many of the churches fell into ruin or were destroyed, so is the feminine arising out of the ashes in our world’s consciousness now too in often fiery ways.


This feminine within us comes alive in the full moon and is called to go both wild and still. The masculine within is invited into surrender rather than into feeling threatened by this feminine power. Sacred Unions (as Raphael and I are experiencing already in our bond) are going to the next level of balance within and with each other to heal the previous patterns of suppression, resistance, or fear.

You may feel these energies stirring within you in response to this last full moon of summer, no matter where you are located in the world. For both women and men, there is a liberation movement happening from within…on collective and personal levels. It invites us to free up whatever needs our love and attention from within, both inner masculine and inner feminine….to find our balance again.


Love from Avalon!

Jelelle


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