Powerful Yet Gentle 1:1 Healing Sessions Available Now!

By Jelelle Awen

“One session with you is like going through seventeen regular therapy sessions, yet with someone who so gets you quickly on a heart and soul level,”…. a comment from a woman that I met with recently in a bridging session.

In these accelerated times of Ascension and now in 2020, everything is sped up. There is infinite patience even as there is increasing invitation to move into your higher timeline self and love AS love in order to SERVE love.

Sessions with me for women bridge to that sense of your higher self IN your body through connecting with parts of yourself and soul who are in trauma, suffering, and pain. These aspects also have important messages and truths for you; soul gifts to exchange; and pieces of your puzzle to offer. These aspects can help you connect to your soul purpose and reason for being here in this transitional and challenging timeline of Ascension.

Rather than spend years in talk therapy trying to heal on a cognitive level, we dive into the deep waters of your emotional body, subconscious, and other lifetimes/beyond the veil of amnesia FAST and efficiently, yet also in ongoing conscious agreement and negotiation with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper and other guarding/protective aspects. These defensive aspects open the doors, lift the veils, and tell the truths that lead to healing. They set the pace at a rate that moves things forward much quicker.

This is also a GENTLE process. I hear that all the time to describe the SoulFullHeart process and sessions with me too….. “gentle yet powerful”….”tender AND catalytic”….Healing CAN BE both gentle and transformationally powerful. Bringing in the Divine Mother/Feminine energies to hold the space and allowing compassionate feeling of ALL frequencies within you (even the deepest and darkest shadows) creates this gentle yet powerful quantum love oven.

It’s a NEW year and a NEW decade…time to next level UP yourself and your life. I’m feeling this for myself in specific ways too that are both challenging and exciting and am always learning and growing even as I am leading and teaching. And that’s the brave choice of love over safety aligned with soul purpose purity that I can template for you to experience in your own life.

1:1 sessions with me for women are 90 minutes over Zoom and I have openings available soon. This is NOT easy work or a quick fix, yet it can change your life in all the right and best ways if it resonates with you and your soul.

PM me or email soulfullhearts@gmail.com for more information and to schedule. You can purchase a 90 minute session with me for $100 CAD ($77 USD) here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/1bridging-session-w-jelelle-awen

or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Or here for Raphael: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/bridging-session-with-raphael-awen

More information about sessions for women and men with Raphael Awen and a free intro with him, plus testimonials for sessions here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Love,
Jelelle Awen

I recommend taking in my teaching and guided meditation videos in my Deepen Series to calibrate to my energy. They are available for free here: https://www.youtube.com/c/SoulFullHeartExperience

Gratitude For A Decade Of Sacred Union On New Year’s Eve

By Jelelle Awen

Happy New Year’s Eve! As this decade completes and I reflect on the last ten years, what comes up in my heart is my relationship with the beautiful, genuine, enchanting man that I’ve gotten to spend it with. This relationship has provided the experience of being in an ‘usness’ yet it has also been a powerful mirror to see, feel, come to know, and express myself increasingly in my soul bigness and leading with my heart.

Raphael Awen and I married ten years ago in March, following a longing to be together that had already dissolved previous configurations in our lives that were no longer serving us. We let go of a previously beloved spiritual group and all of our social connections tied to that group and settled into a new geography together. This picture was taken on our wedding day in a studio apartment in West Vancouver, where we still didn’t even have any furniture together!

We continue every day to consciously choose this relationship as our main way to grow and learn and serve….yet it isn’t taken for granted or just assumed to be there or related to in an entitled way. It arises as we arise….inviting us into ever deeper waters of transparency together. I feel so blessed to be in this exploration with a soul who so GETS me on every level.

~

Raphael….Thank you my beloved for this ongoing exploration into intimacy, vulnerability, transparency, sacred sexuality, co-leadership in service and community, parts/Metasoul integration and quantum healing, daily living as a sacred practice, embodiment of the Divine as a man and woman….and SO MUCH more. I love you and thank you for spending these last ten years with me…..here’s to many more!!

~

 

From Raphael:

Everything for me in this past decade pales in comparison to the gift, growth, challenge, and magic of being so in life and love with you, Jelelle.

The phases we have gone through, even of ending the relationship this past year in a death and rebirth cycle, have renewed the lease on togetherness yet again.

On one hand, I have felt both stunned at the ongoing magic with no reference or experience point for it outside of myself, and no file for it, other that digesting it together, as well as allowing our ‘usness’ to inspire others. On the other hand, I’ve had to normalize the relationship to enough of a degree to be in it everyday, almost what feels like a taking it for granted. Between those two hands, I’m invited to keep feeling all there is to feel for my own growth, for our deepening service of love together and where that wishes to take me.

Thank you, Jelelle for being so fully here, in this ‘this’ together. I love you. 😍 Thank you for the honeymoon giggly anticipation of another decade together.

The Gifts And Challenges Of Soul Family

Soul family is the ultimate manifestation of our healing.

While we can feel an ache for it, there may also be parts that fear it just as much. Soul family is Love actuated and aligned. It is a fire walk and a beautifully intense journey.

As the conditioned and old ties that have bound us begin to show signs of weariness and completion, new resonance is sought and desired. There may even be a need for a solo phase to heal and realign within. There comes a time when the draw to Soul Family just becomes part of our chosen path.

I have been in this family of heart and soul for 7 years and it has been a long journey for me and my parts. I have found myself staring at the most difficult part of my growth and that is my relationship to intimacy, to transparency and to vulnerability.

This is no small feat for someone who wasn’t totally conscious of what any of that was seven ago. I just knew I needed support and guidance. Oh, and a mirror got thrown in for good measure.

I continue my healing of being in intimacy with others. It has had major challenges. Yet, my parts and I are becoming ever so much clearer that I have needed this and my soul wants me to keep moving through the tough parts.

So many projections become blatantly clear when you are in the swell of love and soul family. It is an unfortunate, yet important ground to keep working through so you can get the good stuff. The stuff you were drawn to Soul Family in the first place.

I am blessed to be a part of this with those that want to see me for who I am, not just what they think I should be, yet with their own self-loving boundaries. This is what keeps it sustainable and real. I am a better man and a better human being because of it.

So I send a deep gratitude to those that have been the biggest part of my life to date and in the future for as long as it is meant to be. Thank you and I love you, Jelelle, Raphael, and Raianna.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Connection To Divine Mother Energies Post-SOULstice: Women’s Group Call on Sunday, December 29

By Jelelle Awen

These SOUlstice energies invite us into stillness….to explore the inner worlds of our heart and souls, to explore our own darkness and the magic that lives in the shadows, to heal the pains that loop and lead to suffering. Our devoted and constant guide, teacher, and companion in this inner journey is the Divine Mother – in Her many shapes and forms.

The energies of Divine Mother are available especially now during these transition times of cycles ending, years completing, and seasons shifting.

I invite you to join me for a women’s group call over Zoom (my last one for this decade!) a week from today, Sunday, December 29th at 10:00am PDT for two hours to connect to these beautiful and support and VERY personal Divine Mother energies through teachings, a guided meditation/channeling, and sharings with me.

It is a rich experience that offers a template for us as women in our ongoing journey to explore what sacred femininity actually IS in a culture that has so long suppressed her.

You can join us live or receive the recording for $15 CAD. You can purchase it here via our shop: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/…/4-sacred-feminine-…

Or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

More information here about the call: https://www.facebook.com/events/1009206646096138/

and here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/womensgroupcalls

Here are some testimonials from the last women’s group call!

“Deepest gratitude for the gifts shared in our Women’s Call today! This call is now part of a growing experience of togetherness and sisterhood – TO BE TAKEN IN MANY TIMES, ANYTIME. If you did not have a chance to participate, I would strongly recommend that you take in the recording – As all that we experience, the energy of this one is alive! Incredibly rich to all my parts! Much gratitude for the beautiful shift that it allowed for me today! Namaste!” Isabela Gasparini, 12/1 group participant

“I feel so much gratitude and Love. These calls are so healing and revealing so much as is this whole process. So glad I am here. I wanted to express deep appreciation for the shares too”. Deva, 12/1 Group participant

“Such a wonderful call and I feel so grateful to have finally been able to attend one of these women’s calls! The meditation and teaching was so moving and epic, each face of mother feeling so important for each aspect of me and my life. The sharings were beautiful and vulnerable as well, so real in what was true for each person’s process. Can’t wait for the next one!” Raianna Shai, 12/1 Group participant

Love,
Jelelle Awen

 

 

A Man’s Greatest Gift…His Heart

A man’s heart is his greatest gift
And his greatest fear
He can stand in the fires of hell
With his courage and conviction
Or seek cover and asylum in his shadow

A man’s heart can be a paradox and a parable
Of the journey back to himself through the womb
There is a Killer and a Lover
A Fighter and an Ambassador
A Scientist and Poet

It is a journey that is lined with mirrors
He may choose not to look at
If he wants to maintain all that he has constructed,
Assumed and convinced of.

But if he chooses to look
To feel all that he has been afraid to see
He actually stares into his own death
His loss of control
That can only be replaced by surrender

Surrender to the burning of feeling
Of bringing himself back to life
Through this death
The death of loneliness
Of suffering
Of protecting
Of hiding

This man now stands naked
An emperor without clothes
To be seen as he is
In his humble vulnerability

This is where he rises anew
In Heart
As Soul
Surrounded…by Love
By Divinity
By Intimacy

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Giving Season In The Real Age

The holiday season is here in full force. We have many religious traditions, the winter solstice, and the turn of a new year and decade approaching. There is much anticipation of what is to come on so many levels. So many predictions and possibilities. We are awash with potential and demand at the same time.

In all of this it is easy to lose track of our selves. The parts of us that can get buried in it all. This can be a very magical time if we can take the time to slow it all down. What is that you really want if you were to be totally honest with yourself?

Now that may seem counter to the Giving Season. You ‘should’ be focused on others. Your loved ones and those that are less fortunate. It is not the others that I take issue with, it is the ‘shoulding’. That shoulding, if it exists, does not dispense or seed genuine Love at its core.

When you feel a genuine and authentic love for yourself, and all the parts of you that have been in shadow and hiding, then you bring something real to the Giving. You bring something that is not laced with guilt, duty, or obligation. It is free and flowing.

My purpose here is to bring an awareness to our giving as well as our intending, not to diminish it. What I want for all of us this coming year is a personal journey of self-love that can authentically overflow to those we come in contact with formally or informally. It is the internal combustion engine of our heart-centered alchemy.

There is a lot of hope that next year will ‘be the year’. We can hold that intention while we continue to do the work today. Right now. In this moment. That daily promise to yourself and all of your parts is what seeds that global transformation. Send love globally while you give love locally.

May this holiday season be a catalyst for your own personal evolution and arising. May the lovelight of consciousness find all of the places where we all need it the most in our shadow. Only then can the bells ring for the dawn of the Real Age.

Love to you this season.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: Upcoming 12/12 Gateway/Full Moon Supporting Revelations & Completions

By Jelelle Awen

As Raphael and I were on a wonderful hike in the woods yesterday, we digested together about how a year ago were going through a brief, yet painful separation from each other. It was the first time in over ten years that we purposely needed to spend time apart to feel into what we wanted in the relationship and in our lives. It was a shock to be going through that crucible as we had just moved into our spacious house here in Victoria and into what we felt strongly was our higher timeline. There was much to be happy about, yet the truth of undigested and trailing edge energies between us from this life and mostly from our soul bonds/binds in other lifetimes needed to be felt. The higher frequencies of New Lemuria here in Victoria supported the flushing up of these energies.

We eventually reconciled until another separation period was necessary in March of this year. This one lasted for a painful and intense six weeks in which we even felt into moving apart from each other permanently. We thankfully came back together from these separations with renewed desire and commitment to be in the union. We fell in love again with each other in an arising way and with parts of ourselves too as the inner sacred union through parts work became a very important lifeline.

Yet, also, we came together with more clarity about what we needed from each other going forward to best serve our personal growth and SoulFullHeart too. As Raphael has been sharing lately in his videos, the growth edge of moving into co-leadership is something that we are in ongoing process with together, especially as we heal and feel into other lifetimes and karmic dynamics in our leadership expressions (which most people never get into or become conscious of at all.)

I am feeling how the energies since the 11/11 portal and through the 12:12 gateway coming up is one of supporting completions to open UP new beginnings, especially as we move into the New Earth Energies of 2020.  Energies of completion CAN be challenging to be with as they can feel so much like everything just isn’t working anymore, falling apart, or crumbling. Which, if it has been anchored to something that is no longer serving you, they ARE collapsing in order to make room for the new. The completions can be big (such as with a relationship completion, career and geography shifts, etc.) yet, also, they can be more subtle as we also let go of habits, limiting beliefs, previous knee-jerk reactions, suffering patterns, and more. 

The codes available for 12:12 (also supported by a full moon) assist with revelations/clarities and then the letting go in order to prepare for NEW beginnings in a NEW year. It can be more difficult to let these codes in if there is a resistance inside from parts of you to surrendering to the death/rebirth process and blocks to trusting the overall outcome of it. Your Inner Protector may want to keep you in a safety and comfort zone, even if you are consciously unhappy or frustrated, rather than take a risk into the unknown. You can begin negotiation with your Inner Protector around this by meeting them through this guided meditation: https://youtu.be/2FzBzK5vgck

I feel that loss can be our greatest teacher. It wakes us up from our routines and our habits. It forces us to go within and reconcile with ourselves. The grief and mourning connect us with a deeper appreciation and gratitude for what we are letting of and completing.

This 12/12 gateway is also connected to Christ/Sacred Masculine and Magdalene/Sacred Feminine consciousness. Yeshua and Magdalene can provide an infusion of Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine energies now to support the going in deeper or the leaving or completing. They provide a template of sacred union that activates our inner feminine and masculine. This inner union helps to heal inner polarities and fear dynamics that can keep us stuck and not able to let go.

The 12/12 gateway offers another opportunity to move into our bigness in ALL forms of unions and especially those from within us….from one part of us to another!

Photo of the sun codes was taken by me yesterday on our hike with a guided meditation filmed with me coming soon!

Join Raphael and I on Saturday, December 14th at 10:00am PDT for our last group transmission together of 2019. This group is to connect to the 12/12 gateway, digest the decade and prepare for 2020! This group transmission is open to the public. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of $15 CAD (about $11 USD). You can purchase the zoom link here to join us live and to receive the recording through your email: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/9-sacred-union-codes-group-transmission-jelelle-and-raphael-a

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/465469127414714/

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Secret Worlds Colliding: The Reunion Of The Inner Masculine and Feminine

Seeing things that were not there
On a wing on a prayer
In this state of disrepair
Down by the railway siding
In our secret world, we were colliding
All the places we were hiding love
What was it we were thinking of?

-Peter Gabriel, Secret World

The past 2 weeks I have been in mourning. Continuing to let go of my relationship to my former wife, healing companion, and soul-growth partner. This has brought me to many tears and awarenesses of who I was and have been in relationship to intimacy and romance. I have felt a closing off of my heart and a difficulty going into the core of my fear. This was a merging and fusion to my wounded inner masculine that has been on guard for most of my life.

He has been a wall builder and a camouflage artist. I do not say that with judgement, but with compassion and gratitude as I understand why. So much coming to light about how much he had to create a Secret World in order to protect my inner feminine, my sensitive heart. Fortunately it never became so hardened that I couldn’t fall in love, but it was the eventual shut-downs and push-aways that extinguished any fire that once burned hot.

I was guided in session to connect with this guarded inner masculine (i.e. Inner Protector) to feel what the walls were hiding and protecting. The walls were initially very formidable, yet were covered with foliage which suggested life. Underneath there was moisture which suggested a porosity. I found a doorway that led to another set of walls, only this time thinner and more shrub-like. It appeared as a maze or labyrinth.

As I continued, I heard a sweet song being sung with a feminine voice. I was lead to a river bank where a beautiful woman stood washing clothes. I was immediately taken to a timeline of a military man returning home from a long tour of duty, ashamed of how long he had been away and a fear that the woman he once loved may never forgive him because he had never forgiven himself.

While this felt specific, it was also symbolic. The inner masculine having been doing its ‘duty’ for so long that he had created a Secret World to protect Her. His beloved counterpart that he had almost forgotten about in the day to day fear of being seen and witnessed as lonely, tired, and unforgivable. He could feel alone, but not his loneliness.

That feels like the crux of the wounded masculine. Feeling his genuine and vulnerable loneliness. His missing of the feminine. His forgotten aspect hidden in the depth of the psyche and heart. A man’s true journey, I am realizing, is this journey back to Her and the transparency of the Secret World he has created. The walls burn down and the Emperor wears no clothes.

It is in this space that new connection arises. She takes her space next to him. She sparks the fire and warms the hearth. Helps him to thaw from the journey of the cold and the hiding. He shakes and quivers, but is held by her. He releases and dies from what was, reimagining what could be. He may still build walls, for it was all he has known to do, but She will be there to help bring them down with love in her heart. To remind him again of the journey he took to find her once again. No longer a secret world, but an open world where only real love and truth reign.

I wanted to share this as an example of what this work can lead us to inside of ourselves. As a facilitator, I am in need of healing too. I am not perfect. Just human. A man that has chosen a path of confronting the very thing parts of him fear the most. Real Love. No matter how hardened or disconnected we become, we are always in reaction this force within us that will not be denied for it is our essence and destiny to let it reign. It is the very power that we seek as humans, only to have misinterpreted what that power really is. It is my desire and calling to serve and share that with the world.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Invisible, Imperishable Good Stuff

“In the external scheme of things, shining moments are as brief as the twinkling of an eye, yet such twinklings are what eternity is made of — moments when we human beings can say “I love you,” “I’m proud of you,” “I forgive you,” “I’m grateful for you.” That’s what eternity is made of: invisible imperishable good stuff.” – Fred Rogers

Mr. Rogers is one of those unforgettable beings in our lifetime who touched a place within us that is The Eternal. No matter what gender, race, or creed, Fred Rogers held the light of wonder, mystery, fantasy, and our heart-open reality. His love of Innocence from the heart of a child is what he will forever be known for.

It was the child in us all that he was speaking to. We could easily get caught up in watching him with our children as intently as they did. It was his genuineness and his integrity that was alien to us. The character in the movie who was tasked to cover Mr. Rogers even said, “This man cannot be real. There is a story here.”

Yet it was his desire to feel and help others to feel that made him so real. He made feeling the most essential part of our existence next to joy and imagination. His advocacy of kindness and compassion should never be forgotten.

We can carry that light he brought to the world week in and week out by being kind and compassionate to ourselves. Give space to the parts of us that feel hurt, scared, angry, anxious, depressed, disempowered, guilty, etc. They make up that Make Believe Land inside of us. That is what the puppets represented…parts of Fred Rogers.

When we begin to honestly care for these parts of us, can we genuinely bring that to the world and offer that love to others through the heart-eyes of our inner child. This is the continued work. Regain that connection to the magic and joy that has never left us but has only been sequestered. The Eternal part of us that can always be accessed by hearing “I love you”, “I am proud of you”, “I forgive you”, and “I’m grateful for you”.

In loving honor of Fred Rogers. A real hero of heart.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Connect With Divine Mother Energies: Women’s Group Call W/Jelelle Awen (Dec. 1st)

By Jelelle Awen
One my deepest joys over the last years in service has been to connect and bridge women and parts of them to experience the heart and love of the Divine Mother. It is my great and humble honor to provide this bridge, as they develop and cultivate their own connection more and more to Her as well by feeling the parts of them that may resist it. This connection to Her offers compassion and forgiveness to heal the feelings of being judged, not being worthy and wrong. Connection to Her offers loving support to heal the feelings of not being seen and the pain of not being initiated into our soul purpose expression. Connection with Her provides heart courage and soul strength to heal the fear of change, the unknown and the death/rebirth process….and SO MUCH more.
 
It is still, to this day, the Divine Mother’s energies that hold me, support me, guide me, and teach me as I continue in my process of embodying Her in whatever deepening ways that I can in the moment. It is the best and most comforting feeling for me to feel myself as Her daughter, Her sister, and Her student…I get to lean into that without being diminished in any way.
 
It is Her template that reminds us of what it is to an authentic feminine. Her template activates the Divine spark within us to express that more and more AS ourselves.
 
I would love to share Her energy transmission with you during my next Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration women’s group a week from today at 10:00am PDT over Zoom. I’ll share more about my journey with Her, which began nearly 15 years ago now (and is being explored in many different lifetimes/timelines too) and also provide a guided meditation for you to connect with different faces/energies of Her to see what resonates for your soul.
 
There is more information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/474843500044699/
 
You can attend live or receive the recording for $15 CAD ($11 USD) by purchasing it here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/3-sacred-feminine-exploration-women-s-group-call-jelelle-awen
 
Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen
and we will send you the zoom link via email.
 
Love,
Jelelle Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com/womensgroupcalls