Nature’s Constant Support Of Us & Our Healing, Especially During These Escalated Times

by Kasha Rokshana

Nothing transforms you so effortlessly as nature/mama Gaia does… We’ve returned to Porto for about a week before heading back to camp full time and I feel like something core within me is shifting that I’ve been working to shift for years now, especially as I humbly walk out this transition.

I think what I was always craving was a return to nature in a deeper way, which is a return to my own nature. A way to feel what is natural for me and what has had to be ‘put on’. I’ve looked at so many layers of self-image and wanting to be ‘this’ or ‘that’ and especially seen/received as ‘this’ or ‘that’ over the last few years.

True confession… Aspects/parts of me have never really fully gotten over that and there’s still more work to do around it, yet I feel even more trust that the work continues even without me consciously realizing it. This is especially true as I continue to immerse in nature and respond to/template from her…

Nature lays naked before you and upgrades as she upturns. She turns herself inside out, moving her healing along in ways both attractive and unsightly, yet always with some underlying grace, pace, and love flow.
Nature moves onward, always. She is always changing. She is always moving with the times and not against them, though she will push back too if she has to. It’s up to you if you choose to roll along with her or continue to try and master or dominate her, just as parts of you have tried to do with themselves.

These last 9 days of being deeply immersed in nature with my beloved and my nearest and dearest companions, has awakened a ‘wild child’ within and also a deep, core sense of well-being in this intense world. Something is emerging that is much more aligned with nature and the natural self.

This is the place I want to serve from, from the true heart of my raw and earthy Priestess, emotional human woman, and sacred feminine embodiment in everything that means.

Because now more than ever, we need leaders who are willing to look into mirrors, find their hearts, be willing to be wrong, stand for the love and deep evolution/Ascension of humanity, and hang onto context so that we all have something to lean on.

I cannot stress enough the power of having your feet in a flowing river and putting your head under a (small) waterfall; the power of having dirt under your fingernails from raking and clearing your campsite, the insects that visit and others that seem to ‘invade’; the rawness that gets to emerge from you as you come to embrace and explore it all.

The bigness of the ‘you’ that emerges from these experiences that is indeed big enough to hold and respond to it all, to yourself, to those who are ready to hear and learn from you, and to those who are there to share life and love with you in an intimate and healing way… Is worth every moment of discovery and uncovering.
Nature is calling out your true nature and instinctual self too. Gaia is with us all in all of our processing, pain, and movements. She is holding our hearts and our hands yet can only meet us where we are ready to meet Her… Where we are ready to truly meet ourselves.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Process Of Shifting Dimensions And Transitioning Into The New

Moving into The New can feel like trying to breathe underwater to a part of us. The Old is conditioned and even comfortable to these parts. To truly move into a new dimension of Being takes courage, trust, and faith.
Conscious shifts are empowering as well as frightening to the part of us so identified with what has always been ‘true’. We have to work to allow the New True to take root and bloom.

I feel my consciousness on the verge of more expansion and my heart on the precipice of more vulnerability. These go hand in hand. There is a continuing journey of unplugging from the False Matrix and leaning into the womb and bosom of the Mother and the inspiration and guidance of the true Father.

As I connect more to Inner Earth Lemurian consciousness and support, I feel the difficulty it is for our more 3D/4D aspects to let go of all they have known in their worlds. It is like telling them to just breathe underwater without learning how to do so.

Yet, this ‘learning’ is not so much mental as it is emotional for them. There is fear and doubt there that needs tending to. It needs our ongoing attention and holding, not unlike being a death and birth doula. The ultimate doula is the Divine Itself and our Divine Self offshoot. It also includes those aspects of our ‘future’ or Now selves such as Inner Earth and Galactic aspects that we are intimately connected to.

The ‘pandemic’ has highlighted so much for so many of us around the need to keep rising and keep expanding beyond the dystopian novel being written. It has really made the nest prickly for us to find our wings…and our ability to breathe underwater.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Blood Supermoon, Lunar Eclipse Energy Waves Impacting Womb Healing & Clearing

This week’s Blood Supermoon is also a lunar eclipse and is already bringing with it waves of energies to digest and move through even though it’s still a few days away…

It’s been a few days for me now of womb discomfort and other physical symptoms I associate with PMS, yet the intensity of these physical symptoms has had an uptick… focus is challenging, fatigue sets in quickly and then can move just as quickly, digestive difficulties that are growing in intensity along with intense bloating, and physical pain in many parts of the body yet especially the head/third eye and crown chakras. This is aside from the emotional pieces too, which have also been amplified and difficult to track in moments, though I’ve found that being with parts of me and soul aspects as well has been so helpful!

I get the sense that this is not only about how my own womb is being impacted by collective energies and the dark night we’re all wading through together… It’s also about how we are all connected in it through our wombs/haras and how we can’t help but be impacted by what’s moving (or not) in each of our womb spaces.

We’re trying to birth a new world through all of our wombs and yet we also have to detox and move the energies that live in her first. There are energies that we’ve consciously and unconsciously allowed to be stored in her; like fear, disempowerment, and over-holding/transmuting of others’ traumas and pains which we were never meant to do.

There are also parts of us that cling to her with shame and guilt and other parts that have been protective of her for good reason. There are Matrix plug-ins to her that also need to be looked and felt, that connect us all to the unfelt/unhealed pain passed down through many generations of women.

Jelelle and I have led several women’s calls with guided meditations to help you access and feel your womb in a deeper way. You can donate whatever you feel to or go to our shop to purchase: soulfullheart.org/shop

Our wombs carry many codes for us of our personal awakening journeys and alchemy in service of love and co-creativity with the Divine, and its suppression has felt like being ‘womb-punched’ at times. The plight of the collective womb for women is real and always has been in this dimension.

This suffering ground is being backlit now especially by the ‘shots’ of poison and nanotechnology that are being chosen out of fear of a loss of freedom… something that pings in our wombs because of the Matrix plugins there that have already bound our wombs’ energies and sense of true freedom. These ‘shots’ include a direct attack on the womb itself and in turn, all those around it.

Here’s a video you can watch where several doctors talk about this very thing:

https://vaccineimpact.com/2021/urgent-5-doctors-agree-that-covid-19-injections-are-bioweapons-and-discuss-what-to-do-about-it/

The reality of this is tragic and sad… and is being amplified by this Supermoon lunar eclipse that happens to be the ‘Blood Moon’, especially as the fears don’t seem to be ebbing and are instead being stirred up more. There is no doubt that these energies are powerful, yet there’s a reality to this ‘moon’ that feels dark, especially in what it is showing us all. Whether you feel that the moon is purely divine or hijacked by the Matrix (or both, for nothing can be separate from the Divine itself) the energetic impact of it has many sides to it.

At this time of a profound Dark Night of the Soul collectively, we’re being invited to truly see what’s being offered through the lens of our very sensitive bodies that are both physical and ethereal.

It feels important to cleanse the womb/hara on a physical and energetic level, to move light through yet also to offer a space for her to feel with you what she is feeling and moving within her. If you are especially feeling a lot of physical/emotional pieces and symptoms at this time, I recommend this meditation from Jelelle Awen to help ease what you’re feeling and also to help you go deeper into what’s moving for you/parts of you:

As the collective ‘womb’ we all share continues to move the energies of what’s burning UP through her, we’re not only being offered a dystopia but also hope… it was our co-creative power that brought in the reality we’re living out and allowed it to seed the way it has. That means we also have the power, which starts individually always, to move into another phase of co-creation now that we’ve learned so much from this one.

The reality of many wombs being in pain now is real, yet her power is also just as real and there’s so much we are invited to put together around this, to truly take care of ourselves and thus everyone around us in an authentic, non-self-sacrificing way.

I feel how important awareness of these pieces is right now, to be able to digest and feel them. Fear and the parts of you that may feel it is never ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’. Yet, it’s the relationship to fear that is also important to feel and get real about… feeling and holding parts of you and Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes who vibrate in it moves all fears into trust eventually, with dedication to them and to your womb, who helps to hold them all.

For more information on 1:1 sessions with me or one of my beloveds, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing The Father False Wound To Let In Divine Father Women’s Group Call May 30 | Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

By Jelelle Awen

Hope you can join Kasha Rokshana and I for our last women’s group call here in Avalon before we leave for Portugal! The focus of this group in one week on Sunday, May 30, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm BST (London, UK time zone/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT) will be healing the False Father wound to open up connection more to the Divine Father.

Healing the father wound to let in Divine Father is a new ground for us to cover in a group call and was requested by recent participants. This call will complement the powerfully tender women’s call we did recently on healing the mother wound to let in Divine Mother. This feels like a timely place to go as the sacred masculine becomes more available within and with the Divine as the False Masculine/wounded patriarchal Matrix continues to be exposed and collapse.

For most women, our fatherly experience has been either one of domineering, judgement, outright abuse, possessiveness, etc.…..or disconnected, absent, and vacant. Our daughter inside (especially our Inner Teenager) is often left uninitiated and invalidated by an outer masculine father figure, which impacts our sense of our own worthiness, sexuality, desirability as women and our romantic relationships as parts of us may be seeking a replacement father figure or pushing away from the masculine due to our father wounding. This can leave traumas and wounds within parts of us that block our receiving and letting in of the Divine Father energies that keep us plugged into the Matrix as well.

We will also talk about how the punitive False Father God of mainstream religions and the False Teacher/Guru (with hidden abusive patterns) of many spiritualities has also been traumatizing on a soul level and left a deep void and unknown around the experience of pure frequencies of a Divine Father. We will share our personal journeys around healing the false father experiences from this life and other lifetimes in order to let in Divine Father and also be in deepening sacred union grounds with our beloved masculine partners.

During this call, we will guide you in a meditative space into a healing sisterhood circle with all the souls on the call.You will connect with the part of you that has most experienced the fatherhood wound (your inner daughter or whatever soul aspect that wants to come through) and invite them to move into the higher-dimensional God chamber to experience unconditional love with Divine Father. We will be joined by various Divine Father faces/forms such as Yeshua, Joseph of Arimathea, Father Sky, etc. We will also repeat “I Am” mantras that recode the Father experience.

You can receive the link/recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop.

Or you can purchase it here through paypal and we will send you the zoom link via email. paypal.me/jelelleawen

Please make a note that you are purchasing the May 30th women’s group and check that your email is current.​

Love,

Jelelle and Kasha

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To The Great Mother On Mother’s Day

To the Great Mother of All,

As your Divine son, I feel how much I have needed to push away
As well as needed your reassurance.
I have longed for your embrace and your grace
I have denied your Love yet ached for it too.

It can be confusing for parts of me to let you in
To let you ‘win’.
To surrender into your open arms
And to be challenged by your open heart

You have been there always in my darkest days
And my brightest nights
You have sent me messengers and teachers
Ambassadors and beloveds

You have never grasped for me or tugged on me
You have been a silent cheerleader
And a fierce catalyzer
With the knowing that it was always for my highest Good

Thank you for never giving up on me when I was ready to give up
For never doubting me when I felt doubtful
For always seeing me when I couldn’t see myself
For always holding me when I felt I was falling apart.

I will forever be in gratitude to you
You will never let me rest when it is time to run
You will never let me run when it is time to rest
I wish to gather your sons and kings of heart
Back to the power and grace of your womb, dear Mother.

I am blessed to be in your service and in your sacred heart.
You told me once, “Your steps will never be longer than your stride.”
I trust that more than ever and thanks to you my strides are getting longer and stronger.

Love to you Dear Mother of All on this Mother’s Day. 🌹❤

Your Divine Son,
Gabriel

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Quest Of Sacred Knighthood

There is a sacred Knighthood that lives among the hearts of men. A Kighthood that needs to be revisited in our souls to heal the division amongst us so that we may once again find a unity within us.

We were once called to a Higher code of vision and purpose before being hijacked in our hearts. We all agreed to this. We chose it to work out something inside and out. I am being called to be one of many that wish to see this Order to be reestablished and embodied once again.

An Order that is committed to self-healing and Divine expression. One that looks beyond the machinations of the System and derives its sovereign authority from Love Itself.

It is an Order devoted to committing itself to vulnerable leadership, community-building, and sacred union/intimacy within mateship. Co-creating and co-leading with the feminine inside and out.

This is dismantling the old orders of warriors and nice guys. They are integrated into a more wholistic and sacred service of creation not bound by fear, hate, domination, and guilt. This a call that starts not by fixing or transcending, but by feeling and courageous embodiment of what is clear and aligned with Love.

That is the new Quest I have been called to participate in alongside Raphael Awen. The new Call to Arms which means going into the heart. Into the soul to find where we left Love’s Grace and to reinstall it back into our Being and back into Consciousness. A new order of Knighthood that leads us back to our one true Kingdom of Heaven on Earth.

For more information on being a part of this quest, I offer a free 45 min. introductory call. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Intimacy As A Spiritual Path

Intimacy is our next frontier. At least it has been mine for the last 10 years. Intimacy with Self, the Divine, and Other. As I continue up this ascension path, I have realized how non-intimate I have been most of my life. When you start to really get to the nuts and bolts, it is quite stark how this is true for all of us.

It is vulnerable to be intimate. To see and be seen in all our textures both ‘good’ and not-so-good. When I lived on my own and in a community of One, I could avoid at lot of things and I was blind to a lot of things as well. It was up to me to challenge myself. That is a good thing too, but when it comes organically you really see yourself (or selves) in more authentic ways.

Kasha and I have found ourselves in a very tiny place before we move on to Portugal in July with our soul fam. It has brought up a lot to be with in our union. Edges and irritations that are possible to avoid when in a larger area. This is a birth canal for us. It can be a deepening or completing when you get real at each moment.

The lack of space brings us in closer contact with our inner truths and needs. Do these align, or do they separate? This is true in all moments in conscious, sacred union. Through this I get to see myself more authentically as well as my own relationship to the Divine. Without that we would be navigating this thing like a boat at sea without a rudder or sails.

Intimacy with all three brings us to new dimensions of our humanity and our spirituality. Our Humanality. In years past I would have sought more solitude, but now I feel different. I need Others. I need my beloved community. I need Kasha. I need the Beloved. I need intimacy. They are the portals into New Earth. Into a new me.

This is not an easy path. I have lot more to learn, discover, and embody. I am grateful for that, for her, for community, for Love. I realize that intimacy IS a spiritual path. It is an initiation to our Humanality. I am here to walk that path as well as serve that path. I am a student and teacher of the path of sacred intimacy. I am both surprised and honored by that. This is my journey and curriculum.

For those that are seeking more intimacy in your life’s journey please reach out. We are all here to support you along the way. I do offer a free 45-minute intro call to see how we may do that.

Here’s to your sacred intimate ascension journey.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Post Supermoon: Invitation From Divine Mother Into Deeper Connection With Her

By Kasha Rokshana

Feeling Divine Mother strongly this morning, especially as we exit the full/super moon (and its mixed energies). Feeling Her vast and deep heart that is always active and present, Her embrace, Her stillness even when She must stir up storms within and without.

Feeling how She invites all of us into deeper trust in Her… in Her shadows and light, in all purposes She holds beyond what we can comprehend in every moment. She is always gently yet also firmly encouraging us to go inward and move forward, with a profound love that many of us have no reference point for from this lifetime or many others.

It’s Her realness I’m leaning into this morning, as I feel my own vulnerable fears and tears that live in parts of me and Metasoul aspects at times… the feelings of going forward with a momentum fueled by so much Divine trust, while also letting in the heartbreak of letting go of a world we all once knew, that I have had my own attachments to, that is all now burning up and crumbling into Divine ashes. It’s not enough to trust the Divine without also feeling the pain that comes up in our hearts… the pain of our inner world letting go to let in, but also the pain of the much larger world that is also crying out for Her love and, as we are all Divine ourselves, for our love too.

I’ve felt over and over again the leaps of faith that the Divine invites me into and the arms them outstretched to catch me as I also catch myself. I feel how this is the invitation to the whole world… to let burn what needs to burn, to let play out what needs to play out, even as we also need to speak out when we feel to… to cry the tears that need to be shed… to let go, even of what or who was once considered beloved if the resonance is not deepening.

I feel Her encouragement, now more than ever, to let go of any ‘false gods’ which include ‘false mothers’ and ‘mother-figures’… authorities that once felt trustworthy, birth parents that you have now outgrown in consciousness, friendships that serve your smallness and not your bigness.

All of this, as She is well aware, needs time and space to process and yet, there is a cost that can accumulate as you waver in your resolve while parts of you who are afraid to let go of what is known, continue to lead your life’s decisions and indecisions.

Mother has so much patience for it all, yet will also offer us a prickly nest as needed… to help us fly, at last. To help us truly see and take ownership of our own journeys, no matter what the hills and valleys are that we may face on the way.

Join Jelelle Awen and I this Sunday, May 2nd @5pm BST for a women’s group call focused on healing the false mother wound to let in Divine Mother. We have both had such deep journeys in our own processes around this and look forward to helping you activate, deepen, or reboot your own connection to Divine Mother in whatever face, form, or energy you need Her to show up with the most right now.

You can donate via our shop: soulfullheart.org/shop

or PayPal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Surrendering To Our Sovereign Relationship To Love

The words ‘sovereignty‘ and ‘surrender‘ can be quite the portals for the masculine in us all. They are especially highlighted in relationships of all kinds. In the ongoing journey of healing my intimacy wounds, I have come to these gateways many times. Who is this ‘me’ in the we of intimate relationship? How do I maintain my own truth, needs, and desires without feeling like I am acquiescing or submitting to someone else’s truth, needs, and desires?

Before I left California 8 years ago, I lived a life that would be defined as ‘sovereign’. I was not in many relationships after my divorce, and when I was, sovereignty was a big trigger as well as commitment. Inside there was a part of me that wanted his cake and eat it too. That old wounded masculine conditioned standard. Intimacy was more about sex and having a good time rather than getting to the bare bones of my heart-truth and my deeper needs as human man.

Then I found myself in a sacred, conscious romance as well as sacred, conscious community. Those flared up that ‘sovereignty gene’ I want to call it. That switch that says, “Oh, woah! Wait! Time-out. What is going on here? I am I giving away something that I cherish for the sake of something that I am not familiar with?”. The question was, what was it that a part of me cherished and what was it not familiar with?

At the core, I found that a part of me cherished non-vulnerability and wasn’t familiar with vulnerability. Even deeper, I realized it was an existential fear of Love that was at the root of it all. When I felt the ‘me’ that was independent, sovereign, and non-vulnerable, I found a man that was lost, unhappy, and alone. Only he wasn’t able to admit that at the time. With anyone.

As men (or the masculine in women), we can so very much defend our sovereignty at the cost of real Love. That somehow Love and Sovereignty are separate and adversarial. I feel our relationship to our mothers as a pivotal piece to this equation. They represent that from which we were born from. We received love in one form or another and then we needed to break away from that to find our individuation. Our authentic manhood that needed to push away, but more healthfully could have been initiated into it by a more conscious mother and father energy.

If we did not have that, and I would say most if not all of us did, then we are continually in this push-pull relationship to Other. To Love. To Intimacy. Surrender becomes more ‘submission’ than an opening into vulnerability which is all done with our sovereignty intact. We actually can never lose our sovereignty. We are born free, yet have been convinced we are in chains. When you see those chains are really about our fear of Love and our deep separation wound, you start to unhook those chains one by one.

This is a deep soul choice to heal this wound. It is not an easy one. It brings up a lot to witness and feel. A lot to be sober about in our shadow. Yet, it also brings in a new sense of freedom. A freedom to Be. To express. To surrender into without losing ourselves, but rather re-membering ourselves. It offers Love beyond what we had been conditioned and wounded into believing is love. This is the sovereign journey back into true surrender and true power. The power of conscious Love.



Raphael Awen and I will be hosting a men’s group call this Saturday at 5pm BST via Zoom. We will be talking about these topics as well as offering a guided meditation and sharing space. You can go to soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls for more information.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Unplugging And Healing The Black Widow Program And Aspect Within

A week from Sunday, Raphael Awen and I will be hosting a men’s group call about the subject of Sovereignty and Surrender, joined by our brother in heart, James Elphick. We will be diving into a topic that feels to have a lot of vibration for us men (as well as the masculine in women).

I have been in process of feeling a deeper layer of my mother wounding that is connected to a shadow feminine matrix programming called Black Widow. This is the name I received from this part/aspect of me I have been connecting with around this energy. She first showed up as a black widow spider to illuminate the nature of this woundedness and the programming itself. Then she morphed into a dominatrix with whip, heels, and all.

After some time of connecting with her and feeling who she really is underneath that all, I could feel something lighten and begin to get more clarity about this energy that may live in a lot of us men. This energy that uses guilt, shame, judgment, sexuality, comfort, and fear to keep us locked in a lower frequency, a state of suffering, a lulled state of disempowerment, or inner and outer judgment/punishment.

It is an inner battle of wanting to free ourselves from this web she weaves that I feel we as men are really trying to feel sovereign from. When we are engaged with other women in intimacy, this can really flare up. It triggers this need to be independent yet also the need to be connected in one form or another. There is a part of us that is in a push and a pull toward this energy and it is hard to feel fully empowered and vulnerable at the same time.

When she has this wounded Inner Mother energy, our Inner Teenager can feel the need to push back and seek independence. If she comes as Punishing energy, we may feel defensiveness and another need to push back. When it comes in as Fear, we may go to fight or flight. When she comes with sexuality we lose ourselves in our need for validation.

This Black Widow program/wounding has lost her connection to Innocence and to her own worth. She guards as well as feeds off this energy. Possessing it for herself out of need, not really out of some negative agenda, though it certainly feels that way at first. When I connect more with her with Love, the more she goes into her pain and her fear. Here is where healing and true sovereignty begin.

I can start to feel when this energy frequency of doubt, judgement, anxiety, or fear come in and I go to her. I feel her afraid to lose touch with me. I recognized those feelings were a tactic to keep my younger parts close to her. I am now going to her and bring her with me into the New. Into the Light from the dark crevice I first met her in.

In her more healed essence, she is our creativity and our sensuality. She is a face of our sacred feminine and our intuition. She is our truth and our discernment. She is our surrendered sovereignty into Divine Trust. She is our entrance into the exit of the Matrix itself. She knows the way. She knows how it works and operates. With that we can start to unplug (a sovereign choice) and surrender into the the New Earth world that is awaiting our creative power to encode New Earth inside and then on the outside.

If you are feeling a resonance or a curiosity about this programming/wounded inner mother energy and how it has influenced your feeling of your personal empowerment, sovereignty, and maybe a fear of surrendering into vulnerability, please join Raphael, James, and myself on this upcoming men’s group call. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls for more information. We would love to have you and feel what is moving for you in this area.

I also offer a free 45-minute consult/information call for both men and women that are wanting to feel more about how the SoulFullHeart process and space-holding may support this deeper dive into your wounding and unplugging. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info as well.

I will be writing more about this topic in relation to romance, intimacy, and community in the following week so please stay tuned. Sending much love to all during these very intense, yet activating times.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/