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Personal Anniversary & Invite To Our Sacred Union Activation Group Call

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By Jelelle and Raphael Awen

Fourteen years ago, I received an email from a man asking me to explore a relationship and he used the sweet words of ‘like two mice nibbling on cheese’ to describe how we might approach it. As soon as I read his words and felt his energy, I felt my entire body flush with a warm, loving energy and an inner knowing.

I already knew that this man’s heart and soul were SO big, generous, and powerfully good, that his intentions toward me were pure, and that his dedication to his own healing/awakening process through parts work esp matched my own. Before that time, parts of me couldn’t handle the mirror that he offered me of my bigness, desirability and capacity for union….. and there just wasn’t enough self worth to claim our connection.

Finally, after three years of knowing each other as part of the same emotional/spiritual healing group and both doing deep inner work individually plus exploring relationships with others, I felt a ‘yes’ to letting him in. I felt a ‘yes’ to seeing where the reflection of ME and the Divine that he offered would take me.

THAT exploration and THAT man have brought me more joy, goodness, reflection, growth, bliss, and stepping into my own bigness than I ever could have imagined! Our union expands and deepens each day, with new grounds of co-leadership and collaboration continuing to open out and offer surprisingly meaningful gifts to ourselves and others!

Thank you to my BEloved, Raphael Awen, for every moment since then and all the future ones to come! I’m so glad I said ‘yes’ and I’m so grateful that you pursued what you wanted with me and that you held the recognition of our pair bond within you!

Below are Raphael’s words about our journey beginning together as a couple fourteen years ago and a wonderful reminder of claiming what your heart/soul most wants!

~

Today is Jelelle and I’s ‘nibble on cheese’ anniversary. I sent Jelelle an email that said ‘Would you like to connect soon? We could be like two mice nibbling on cheese.’ I knew it sounded a bit cheesy, but I was determined to be unedited and to be okay with whatever the outcome. In the three years prior, I’d brought her an attraction two other times, and though I accepted and respected the ‘no’ that came back, that didn’t stop me from trying again when another attraction arose. This time, I got a different response.

Today, I live in an ongoing honeymoon phase; a ‘pinch me’ reality. Is this really true? How can this be? What button did I push to make this happen? (part of me is still asking)

This woman who lived ten hours and a country away from was in my orbit to see occasionally over a three year period, but now, for the last fourteen years she’s hardly more than 25 feet away 24/7/365. We’ve left four countries behind, have plans for more and can’t wait to walk into the next moments together to feel and experience what wants to be felt and experienced through us.

I so believe that one of the deepest things we came here to earth for, and that we chose human being experience for, was to be willing to enter the place of strong desire; to surrender and be vulnerable to having intense wants.

Wanting a sacred romance is probably one of the biggest desires we can surrender to. I feel this to be true, because once you enter the sacred romance, it will call you to deeper and deeper desire and vulnerability and it won’t stop.

Your desire to admit what you want, to never deny it, even if you get told ‘no’, will be the stuff you’ll need to actually walk out the having of what you desire. Your willingness to long and pine for what you don’t have and find really hard to see anywhere in sight, will be what enables you to draw that.

You too, can have it all, for nothing more than the willingness to want it, and want it and want it some more!

~

We would love for you to join us for our upcoming sacred union activation group call on Sunday, July 24th at 5:00pm GMT/12:00noon EST. We will be sharing more about our journey into deep sacred union together, how we are navigating going into ever deepening grounds of body/heart/soul union together, and offering a bridge for you to feel your sacred union codes with your mate (whether known or not.) You can join us by offering a donation (usual is $15 CAD/$11 USD) at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen (please include your email and note for which call you are purchasing.)

You can take in more of our energy as a couple as we shared on Todd Medina’s SoulSpeaks 5D show recently about navigating sacred union, transparency and parts work connection: https://youtu.be/8H-aqFVb3c4

Kasha Rokshana and I are also offering a sacred union activation for women group call on Sunday, July 17th at 5:00pm GMT/12:00pm EST. You can offer a donation for that one at the same links above and there is more info on both at soulfullheart.org/events

Love to you and the sacred union capacity within you that reflects the merging of Divine Masculine/Feminine,

Raphael and Jelelle Awen

More info about free intros/1:1 sessions, group call events, writings/books, and online private community at soulfullheart.org.

Sacred Union Activation Group Call July 24th With Raphael and Jelelle Awen

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I’m so looking forward to this next group call with my beloved Raphael…transmitting and sharing from the grounds of our sacred union to you…for whatever needs to be activated, felt, illuminated and coded around Divine partnership in your NOW. Hope you can join us! Details below:

~

Sacred Union with a partner in monogamous commitment to each other offers a potential frequency of Divine Self experience in the physical unlike any other.

Your partner mirrors both your leading edge of gifts/Divine essence and your trailing edge of wounds/pains/suffering/shadow. This unique combination offers a ground of healing and transformation that allows for multiple lifetime clearings in one lifetime. Both the goodness bliss of union and the karmic mess of separation are pushed up and illuminated, and offered.

More Sacred Union counterparts/twins/pair bonds are coming together now in this Ascension timeline than ever before, as many of us signed up to be together in this life in the physical for service of the Divine and the Ascension process. The reunion of counterparts is a template for all souls of what is possible from within them and with the Divine.

Actually navigating Sacred Union in a transactable and intimate way over a longer phase of time is where the true challenge comes in for those who choose this path. So much is activated and triggered by the bond, including deep karmic binds from many lifetimes in the Matrix together, that these energies often flood the relationship space and overwhelm both partners. One partner usually runs from how triggering this connection is, while the other one holds the pain and wounding of yet another lifetime of ‘not getting to be together.’

Or the couple may be together more in spirit, yet not in the physical as humans even living long distance, as combining the intense soul activations with physical reality is not quite possible yet. Launching the Sacred Union beyond this blissful honeymoon phase takes you into this ground of embodied heart and soul growth, instead of suffering over the blissful introduction to something that now feels ‘lost forever’.

In a two-hour group call for men and women on Sunday, July 24th at 5:00/17:00pm GMT/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and sacred union mates Raphael and Jelelle Awen will offer a Sacred Union activation for those currently in relationship, those in separation from their mate, and those who are single. We will share our own personal journeys and process of being in Sacred Union, both the bliss and mess of that experience and how we have navigated through it. We will also offer how the SoulFullHeart healing process of conscious access to this-life parts and other lifetime aspects/soul dynamics allows for a deeper transaction ground of intimacy starting from within you so that you can continue to show up for the bond in a relational way and digest all that is triggered by it.

In the guided meditation/transmission portion of the call, we will create a bridge to your Sacred Union relationship to feel it as it is currently transacting, either in current translation with your mate, in separation, or from within you. You’ll be able to sense energies of resistance, fear, and pain that may be in the space and any parts of you that hold them. We will also open up a bridge for you to connect your twin/pairbond at the original higher dimensional source with your mate (known or not) which offers an inspiring flood of love. Divine guides will join us to hold a safe, higher vibe space for this exploration and offer inspiring transmissions of Infinite love and light. We will also repeat affirmations as a group that provide a new coding of sacred union experience within you and with your mate.

If you are currently in a Sacred Union relationship, this transmission will support you to deepen into intimacy within you and with your partner. It will also bridge you to a new way to process your experience and get more space from any reactive patterns that are occurring.

If you are currently single or a pairbond in conscious separation (meaning you have met your mate yet aren’t in relationship together right now), this group call will give you a bigger context for which to digest Sacred Union. You will also bring in new codes to help any suffering grounds that have been occurring around it.

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us (this is totally optional). Plus, you’ll be able to take in and receive sharings from other souls (both women and men) in the call, which is a powerful activation of its own!

This group is open to the public and to anyone over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy/money exchange of whatever donation you feel to give ($11 USD/$15 CAD is the usual amount people offer us).

You can offer your donation via our shop at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal at paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the zoom link to attend and the recording afterwards. If you purchase via paypal, please include your email in the note section so that we can send you the zoom link and the recording afterwards.

To get a sense of our energy as a couple, tune into a recent interview we did on Todd Medina’s SoulSpeaks5D Show: https://youtu.be/8H-aqFVb3c4

More info at soulfullheart.org/events and https://www.facebook.com/events/512740140602713

Hope you can join us for this powerful exploration into sacred union grounds from our lived in ground of it!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Note if you are drawn to this call and a woman, you might like to come to our Sacred Union Activation Women’s Group call on Sunday, July 17th with Kasha and I. More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/1017406959143968 and soulfullheart.org/events

Sacred Union Wedding Celebration

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by Kalayna Solais

These are the posts I made for the day before, the morning of, and the day after Gabriel and I wed on March 9, 2019. A day with MUCH ‘3’ energy! It was a powerful and poignant day, celebrating cycles of life and the ongoing death and rebirth of all relationship grounds, romantic and otherwise.

Here are the posts with their dates! ❤

~ March 8, 2019 ~

Tomorrow we marry…
Declaring love and desire for depths
Yet untraveled 
Between us.

Beloved Gabriel! 
Joining my soul
Heart and body
With yours 
in this deepening way
Inspires
And drives it all home deeper
That this is what I’ve truly wanted
Earned
And worked for!

I love you! 
And the journey here has been worth every tear… ❤️

~~~

Face-squish snuggles,

melting touches,

roll between bedsheets

of softness,

bellowing and beckoning

heartbeams of sunshine and goodness

among the sticky-hot sweetness.

My head catches up

to my heart’s warmth and wonder

at how we two

so different,

so alike,

came together

to move together as one

yet two

all over again…

Lover of my heart, soul and body,

cherisher of that which I cherish,

my everything claims this,

our space of phases

and movements together,

no matter the length and breadth

of roads we travel side by side.

The light I love in you

holds a lighthouse lamp shining

for the leadership of yours

next to the shining brightness

of my own.

From here we gaze inward,

toward ourselves and each other,

belly-laughing,

dog-sandwich, morning-bed cuddling,

sweet sunset kissing,

and daylight collaborating…

This bridge between us

made of much,

holds the truths of which

we will uncover

as we each agree to the next MORE…

and our flow of love

cascades onward

as we walk hand-in-hand,

together. ❤

~ March 9, 2019 ~

Preparing for this wedding today in ways that honour my heart and parts but also honour the heart and parts of everyone coming, witnessing, feeling us in our next chapter together. This is another cycle of death and rebirth today as much as it is also a celebration of a new beginning unfolding.

I feel a poignancy in my heart today… and amazing to add, as I sit in this nearby coffee shop sipping a morning Matcha latte with my parts in my heart, the song ‘Landslide’ just came on… 💕

I feel a peace and love in my heart yet also the soft rumble of what’s to come… which is largely unknown yet the crucible of growth is real in relationships, no matter how spiritually conscious they are.

The hum of life and love continues to drone on. The invitation into deeper surrender to every twist, turn, arising and unfolding of the path before me and us is very real and sitting across from me in this coffee shop. Every face of the Great Mother and Father too is here in celebration and deep reminder of the next and next moments of deepening growth and healing to come. For myself, for Gabriel, and for all who witness our Union today.

We will share digestions and photographs with all of you later. ❤️

Thank you SO much for ALL of the love, blessings, and well wishes yesterday and always. You are all in our hearts…

Much, much love!

~ March 10, 2019 ~

I am nothing but blown away.

This man has no wallet worth a million dollars
But a heart worth a million kisses
And a soul worth a million explorations
… and then some!

Our day yesterday was magical, wonderful, poignant. It held the reality of beginnings and endings, that one ground has to give way to another eventually in the name of growth, healing, and service. That ‘forever’ on a soul level is one layer infinitely present, yet ‘forever’ on a personal level in this lifetime and others, cannot be promised or granted.

Every single moment of ‘together’ is a treasure. Every single wave of NEW is a gift. Every single ground of exploration is sacred… together and individually.

I love this man, my community here, our greater community of all of you taking this and us and our service of love in, and I look forward to the many expressions of our mutual growth, reflections, and above all, the deepening LOVE shared among us! ❤️

With big big love for all of you! Thank you for the well wishes!

***

Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Following Your Sacred Union Desires: Our Story

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By Jelelle Awen ~

Ten years ago, I received an email from a man asking me to explore a relationship. As soon as I read his words, I felt my entire body flush with a warm, loving energy and an inner knowing. I already knew that this man’s heart and soul were SO big, generous, and powerfully good, that his intentions toward me were pure, and that his dedication to his own healing/awakening process through parts work matched my own. Before that time, parts of me couldn’t handle the mirror that he offered me of me and there just wasn’t enough self worth to claim our connection.

Finally, after three years of knowing each other, I felt a ‘yes’ to letting him in. I felt a ‘yes’ to seeing where the reflection of ME that he offered would take me.

THAT exploration and THAT man have brought me more joy, goodness, reflection, growth, and stepping into my own bigness than I ever could have imagined! Our union expands and deepens each day, with new grounds of co-leadership and collaboration continuing to open out and offer surprisingly meaningful gifts to ourselves and others!

Thank you to my BEloved, Raphael Awen, for every moment since then and all the future ones to come! I’m so glad I said ‘yes’ and I’m so grateful that you pursued what you wanted!

~

By Raphael Awen

Ten years ago, my life took another big turn.

Today is Jelelle and I’s ‘nibble on cheese’ anniversary. I sent Jelelle an email that said ‘Would you like to connect soon? We could be like two mice nibbling on cheese.’ I knew it sounded a bit cheesy, but I was determined to be unedited and to be okay with whatever the outcome. In the three years prior, I’d brought her an attraction two other times, and though I accepted and respected the ‘no’ that came back, that didn’t stop me from trying again when another attraction arose. This time, I got a different response.

Today, I live in an ongoing honeymoon phase; a ‘pinch me’ reality. Is this really true? How can this be? What button did I push to make this happen? (part of me is still asking)

This woman who lived ten hours and a country away from was in my orbit to see occasionally over a three year period, but now, for the last ten years she’s hardly more than 25 feet away 24/7/365. We’ve left two countries behind, have plans for many more and can’t wait to walk into the next moments together to feel and experience what wants to be felt and experienced through us.

I so believe that one of the deepest things we came here to earth for, and that we chose human being experience for, was to be willing to enter the place of strong desire; to surrender and be vulnerable to having intense wants. Wanting a sacred romance is probably one of the biggest desires we can surrender to. I feel this to be true, because once you enter the sacred romance, it will call you to deeper and deeper desire and vulnerability and it won’t stop.

Your desire to admit what you want, to never deny it, even if you get told ‘no’, will be the stuff you’ll need to actually walk out the having of what you desire. Your willingness to long and pine for what you don’t have and find really hard to see anywhere in sight, will be what enables you to draw that.

You too, can have it all, for nothing more than the willingness to want it, and want it and want it some more.

~

Raphael and Jelelle Awen are Ascension Guides, Sacred Union Mates and Teachers, SoulFullHeart Facilitators/Co-Creators/Teachers. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, writings, and videos with them.

Our Love-Style: A Sacred Union Poem

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By Kalayna Colibri

Love… this love we’ve found together, we already are.

These movements we inhabit together,
inside our USness
and inside our ISness,
are ones that bring along
new surprises and prizes.

Beloveds we are,
remembering we have been,
and in this next Now moment,
we find the bond over again
in a deeper sea than before…

The quake and shake
of our Sacred Union dance together
is a treasure to hold and behold
and an opening-out
of our brightest timeline possibilities…
starting, always, within…
flowing together
in a style all our own.

***

Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Hum Moving Through: Poem Celebrating Sacred Union

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By Jelelle Awen

us

This hum moving through…it’s yours, yes, AND it’s mine now too. You gifted it to me with your kingness coming into my bodily castle and easing into the throne next to and within mine.

It’s the vibration of US, tenderly toned together with life, with love, with fears, with tears. Was that yesterday that I felt such sorrow and you were there then too….just as present in the pleasure as the struggle.

This signature of our voices rising…….coming together in languages from other lifetimes, dialects of heart, spoken by our tongues, yet felt most deeply by our souls, and beyond words too.

The paradises and struggles, both, of other lifetimes move into this now with us. They snuggle into this bed and offer us both loss and gain, bliss and pain.

These other lifetime aspects play us the scenes of those previously forgotten experiences so we can now remember what we have been and ARE together and all that we might yet become.

How deep we go! How much we share and have shared together! How much more we have to experience! The Infinite Possibilities of this Infinite Love speak of ALL these truths in our common moments.

This is NOT just ours, it is not something that can be owned. It desires to be shared, so that others too can awaken to the siren song of sacred union within that draws to them THEIR frequency of heart, soul, body, and mind mate….adding their unique tones together to the Hum of Universal Oneness.

~

For my BEloved counterpart soul mate Raphael Awen…..it makes part of him a bit shy when I write and share in afterglow but, also, I believe he LOVES it too and what better inspiration is there?!  This photo of Raphael and I reminds me of our Lemurian Metasoul aspects and their life together, which is coming through in the now…Rae-Na and Rae-Nor, beautiful energy, beautiful union, much to teach us….more about connecting with Metasoul aspects with your counterpart soul mate here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/06/07/bridging-to-our-metasoul-aspects-through-sacred-union-within-and-with-our-counterpart-mate/

Healing From The Fall Of Atlantis And Connecting With Our Metasoul

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By Jelelle Awen
sunken-city-of-Atlantis-artistic

My heart is holding some sadness today. A sadness of not being able to alter a soul play out in my Metasoul (the higher dimensional Soul source from which we are a fractal projected out from it.) I have heard for so long of the ‘fall of Atlantis’, yet it has often felt vague, something murky or more like fantasy. As my personal veil is lifting and the inner disclosure process invites me in (which I wrote about recently), I am receiving downloads from other lifetimes to feel and digest that feel grounded in my emotional body and even in my physical body. In this phase, after much emotional body healing and other soul theme healing, I am being invited to feel the fall of Atlantis and the role of my Metasoul within that.

I have been connecting with Mareeka, my Metasoul sister from the last era of Atlantis. I call them ‘Metasoul sisters’, or fractal projections from the same Metasoul or soul source, rather than ‘past lives’ because, in fifth dimensional experience, time is not linear and there is no ‘past’. Our Metasoul sisters (or brothers if you are a man) are living out their lives in other time periods or timelines, other dimensions, other galaxies. They are living out as Star BEings (Arcturian, Pleiadians, Reptilian and many others). They are living out as Angels, Fairies, Elementals, etc.

Each projection of our Metasoul contains energy, has experiences that are both intense and wonderful, holds expression of our soul gifts in some form or another. It seems that connecting with them consciously through journaling and meditation visits, which I have been doing for a few years now, brings in the possibilities of a deep healing of karmic binds and patterns that are looping through our ‘Metasoul line’. Conscious connection allows for emotional healing of what has been previously not digested. Mutual exchange of gifts and consciousness expansion is another aspect of it. This depends on the consciousness level of the Metasoul sister or brother and what they have ‘signed up’ to experience in their life.

I also like holding these soul projections this way rather than as ‘my past lives’ because it allows for more objectivity. This can especially be important if the lifetime is one where the Metasoul has chosen to experience being famous or is connecting to a Universal ray or Archetypal expression (such as Yeshua, Mother Mary, Joan Of Arc, etc.) Rather than feeling that you ‘were’ this person or famous figure, you can feel how they share a Metasoul with you, so you are VERY connected and yet separate too. This helps the ego from attaching to the other lifetime in a self image-based way and for YOU to hold space for the healing exploration.

I shared tears with Mareeka in the early morning dawn today, quietly talking out loud to her. She is mourning the ‘fall of Atlantis’, which she can ‘see’ very clearly is going to happen (even though it hasn’t happened yet in her timeline.) She is mourning a split between her and her once beloved soul mate Maliki, who has become ‘under the influence’ of shadow-based Reptilians (they are NOT all shadow-based, but these ones were called to serve a specific purpose of collapsing Atlantis.) She offers me a picture of an Atlantis that has fallen already from its Golden Age. There are power struggles, dark magics being used and abused, and much deception going on. It feels very much like our current 3D world actually, which it feels like is going through its own ‘fall’ to arise out of the ashes into more of the higher vibrational frequencies of the Golden Atlantis.

I feel how I cannot ‘prevent’ the fall of Atlantis and I cannot alter Mareeka’s experience of her own timeline playing out as it is meant to. But, I feel her with my heart, I offer her compassion, and I connect some textures to my relationship with Raphael in the ‘trailing edge’ of our bond to what Mareeka is experiencing. Maliki seems to be the Metasoul brother to Raphael. Being Counterpart Souls to each other, Raphael and I share many Metasoul chapters together, with his Metasoul brother being the masculine expression of my feminine Metasoul sister. I haven’t received support yet or guidance of confirmation for the Twin Flame picture as it is presented with a masculine and feminine projection coming from the same soul and then choosing to incarnate during the same timeline. That is for another writing to explore though!

I feel there is a gift in feeling these textures with Mareeka and that it connects to my everyday experience in this life and in my relationship with Raphael. Intense energies moved through us yesterday and even conflict and I believe an aspect of this was Mareeka and Maliki’s tensions coming ‘through’ us. This is why I ‘went in’ today to feel my side of this and to create some space between me and Mareeka so that she did not project her wounding and pain onto my relationship with Raphael. I feel this happens often in relationships where the partners are not consciously healing their soul and heart. I believe this deeper feeling and healing access to our other Metasoul connections in other lifetimes is a big reason why Raphael and I experience the nourishing bond that we do in most moments, along with healing our emotional bodies through parts work.

Energies of PURE love and light from the Divine are making it safe for all of us to go into our other lifetimes WHILE healing our emotional body in this life. We can trust that wherever we need to go into the shadows of our soul and heart will be held with love. We can weave between the heart and soul this way; we can create a self loving bridge to hold these inner explorations. We can open out into consciousness experiences from BEing at greater depths then have EVER been possible before in our human experiment. The Divine is holding space for these dive downs into ourselves and the emerging sacred human that arises as an expression of Infinite Love for which we ARE.

The ground of Metasoul exploration, connection with Metasoul aspects from other lifetimes, and healing of karmic patterns is what we hold space for in SoulFullHeart sessions, plus healing of your emotional body through parts work. Please go here to read more: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions and here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/soulfullheartawakeningprocess.

~

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

This Beltane Call, For The Love of US

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

beltane

Beloved that you are,
When the smoke clears
on life’s regulating ways
and gives way to the undulating meadows
of new love’s first spring,
there I’ll be
standing in the light
of the sun shining above me,
firm in the ground I walk on
yet lightly walking toward your ready stance,
singing a song
we will both remember.

In Beltane’s past, my love
we dined and danced
and brought together our intertwining
everythings
to mingle in the love light
of the divine masculine and feminine dawnings.

In Beltane’s new arrivals, love
we’ll linger long
in embraces for only us to feel
in the eye of the mind’s connection
until the refreshing breath
of a crisp and ripe chapter
brings us closer
in all elements of this life’s wanderings.

In myself I stay here for you, love
finding more treasure long buried
to show you
in vulnerable ownership
echoing the also deep claim
you have inside of you for you.

The winds of change
and graspings of renewing tides
grip at our thrown-about clothing
to move us closer
to the edges
that keep US alive…

Together we will meet, my beloved
and there we will find
what we have been searching for…
a counterpart
not to bind, but to bond
not to cling, but to sing
not stifle with duty
but to bring out with bounding life’s alterations and celebrations…
of each new movement
here…

Bring your mountains out to greet the new day, love
and see the power of our sunshines mingling
on the new, insatiable appetite
of a love reunited
in a way that was agreed to
long ago and yet NOW too.

Even NOW I make a vow to you,
to be all the more loyal to myself
and dedicate overflow to you
to what we will create together
in our messy masses of alchemical baths
and swooning passes.

Love, when we do meet again
here
I will dress the moon in your honor
and harness the sun’s rays for your Kingdom to come
and our world that is being reborn…

On this Beltane celebration day,
As I ache for you
I prepare that place in my heart
that is you-shaped
where you already live…
and that place in my body’s life
where your essence will connect
so much
oh, so much…
with mine.

 

***

Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Tug of Love

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You desire, wish, and sometimes physically ache for Love with another

It is encoded in our human heart and every cell in our body

But to call on Love is to call on You

To be ready, but not prepared, to show up for all that arises in each moment

For there is no planning true love

The fire of this passion and want can be met with meeting that INside

The swirling cauldron of your own Self Lover´s Love

Along with the fear that it is actually on its way

And the fear that it may never show up

It is all part of the terrifyingly majestic dance

That enters your world without warning and sets you ablaze

To find yourself opening up the hiding places

The ones only you visited or never knew existed.  

It can be a tug of war this tug of Love

This precarious tightrope of exalted dizzying heights

At the edge of what lies under the chasm of complete unknowing

The difference between falling and flying

Is how much you trust in your own ability to let it in

And give it out

The courage to see yourself in your Glory as well as your Fury

To trust that Love kNOWs better and everything that you thought yourself to be

Will no longer BE the same.  

As you have the chance to experience something Rarified

Undefined

…and Intensified by your own willingness to surrender to its calling.  

 

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Celebrating Eight Years Of Sacred Union Experience

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By Jelelle Awen

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Eight years ago, I joined my intention to his….in the moment and for all moments that followed that would be in mutual desire and resonance. On some level, it all felt like a whirlwind….started dating in July and married by March (after knowing each other for a couple of years) having already moved through two major geography changes finally JUST settling in Canada when we married. And, the collapse of our whole social and spiritual world by leaving (being asked to leave, told to leave or not be together because we were deemed to ‘codependent’ although only together three weeks!) the spiritual group we had both been part of for three and four years.

Our courtship was the highest highs of desire moving through, my body calibrating to what it feels like to REALLY be wanted by a man and my heart letting in what it feels like to REALLY be cherised by a man. AS I was also going through a dark night of letting go of ALL the souls I had been close to for more than five years in the group. Ups and downs, bittersweet, and yet, always was he there for me, over and over, in complete devotion and utter eagerness to be together.

Those ups and downs have settled over the years as we found our way together through many changes and transitions yet, always, arising our way through it in union. We took our wedding rings off last year, feeling like it had been other parts of us (going by our birth names Wayne and Jillian) who had exchanged those rings even as the core of us was there. We felt so different after years of parts work, being in the crucible of sacred union together that had burnt away so many layers, letting go of incomes and geographies and just about everything there was to let go of other than each other.

We even felt that the significance of this day was a memory from the past and we were arising in the NOW together. Yet, I do feel in my heart a tenderness for this day, this anniversary, and where we were at that time and who we have been through the years and who we are arising into now as Raphael and Jelelle.

Our usness keeps expanding as we do and keeps vibrating at a higher frequency at all levels and in all areas – sexually, emotionally, spiritually. We are more and more connecting other lifetimes together (energizing NOW) such as in Atlantis (a couple of those) and also our star BEing aspects. Very little conflict between us, fewer words needed, more soul connection…

I feel we are counterpart souls to each other, which I prefer to the twin flame paradigm. I will be writing more about this in the future as it digests and arises for me and as I experience it deepen with Raphael. I can feel how our relationship could feel like a fantasy or idealized, yet it is not, it IS very real, and we have had to go through the dark together to illuminate the light and the love yet that was always there. We have had to commit to awakening and to our own personal process OVER everything else, including the relationship. The goodness overflow in a relationship can only deepen and grow if the partners are committed to their OWN growth first.

Being my counterpart, Raphael is like me yet NOT me and it is the beautiful blend of masculine and feminine that offers SUCH growth and mirror for our own inner union.

So I celebrate a love today that I am SO BLESSED to experience and have been so blessed to experience for these 8.5 years…..thank you to Raphael Awen my king, my BEloved, my cocreator, my love for sharing this life of serving love together.

Photo was taken on our wedding day eight years ago in a small studio apartment in West Vancouver….Ah newlyweds, although we are STILL like this!

By Raphael Awen

3 countries, 5 cities, a couple towns and and year and a half on an off grid ranch. Those are are bit of the outward journey of my 8 year marriage with Jelelle Awen. And it hasn’t stopped by any means…

Today is our 8 year anniversary! Happy Anniversary Beloved.

We didn’t set out to choose change for change sake, but rather to choose love and showing up for the rigours of relationship. At the outset, we knew the idea of hiding in any kind of ‘long distance relationship’ was not a question for us and that meant choosing between 2 countries, 2 career paths, etc. from the beginning. The epic choices to continually choose deepening love and to let go of the barriers to love continued, and continue to unfold right in this moment.

The place for settling and the need for some predictability have been met internally, rather than externally. Through finding, feeling and healing parts of ourselves who hold our resistance to love, we both have found a way, individually to live inside of a settled heart of love for ourselves, that only then are able to transact freely and deeply with each other. Quite surprisingly, this has made the external changes and choices arise quite naturally and navigably (if that’s a word). Even with me getting banned from the US at the border in 2009 and having to change our plans on a dime was met with a grace and a way through. We didn’t ‘have to’ leave country and career behind again in 2014, but the awareness was that another epic choice was right for us individually and as a couple. Our soul purpose deepening individually and our greatest adventure as a couple we knew lay in that choice. It was up to us. We could take it or leave it. We took it, and there hasn’t’ been a single regret.

We also knew from the outset and still know that we couldn’t make any kind of commitment to one another to ‘be there for each other no matter what.’ We couldn’t guarantee that then for each other and we don’t attempt that now. Our commitment to each other is predicated on our commitment to ourselves first.

I honour and celebrate this magical unfolding this day and every day as much as I am able. And, truth be told, and truth be tolled, it’s a tall order, and one I’m very glad to be tasked with…🙂

Happy Anniversary Beloved…

 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.