This is what is means to be in SoulFullHeart community. I am inspired, awed, and amazed at what I get to be a part of. What I have chosen to surround myself with in order to heal, grow, and create. I see the world through a lens that is so unlike anything out there and is constantly shifting and evolving. I get to see myself in a way that is unlike what I have seen or felt myself to be in the old dimension of consciousness. There is not a day that goes by that some thing alive is happening to others that sparks a corroborating energy in me. It is community on HIGH and is just keeps its dedication to more, to real, and to love. To More Real Love.
But this Love is not just bliss and sparklers. It is about feeling the edges and depths of what is next up on the healing docket. This is not shadow hunting but a real time bubbling up of emotion that is not supported to be repressed, but lovingly guided to arise in its own time. As one person is feeling something there is an effect among the group as we are all connected. As my good friend Raphael is moving through arising layers of suppressed truth-telling, it begins to activate mine. This one entry way then opens itself up to a greater QUESTion of what it means to be masculine in a very feminine offering. It brings up some angst and curiosity along the way. It rumbles and shakes something in to uncertainty, of which the unhealed masculine is not native to. It has chosen certainty in the name of control.
But underneath that maintenance lies a caged animal. A fire that is wanting to make shit happen and blow things up in an attempt to get to a bedrock of something real. There is a violence in that when not tempered by the feminine within and without. Hence being in community with the sacred feminine is what brings a clarity to it as well as the hashing out. I had personally sent my animal into a quarantine when my daughter was a young age so as to not have that energy in my field as a father. Before that I had a very huge temper and was pissed off a lot. As a child it was an embarrassment to my family when it came up in very immature ways. It was a soul angst and a learned behavior from my father, who had the legacy of it from his father.
The essence of this energy is passion and truth-telling. It is about alchemizing and manifesting. It is about being in union with the feminine to light up the Love Shack we call Gaia. But the suppression is wounded and angry. I chose to find a more Zen part of me to assuage the energy so that I could be more acceptable to another part of me seeking something nice and normal. Well, as this part of Raphael has been done with this dynamic, I feel it rumbling this part of me too. It exists in many men I believe as well. I know there are many that are more outed than others, but I feel this reverberates through all masculine hearts, both in men and women. What we experience in community is also happening in the collective heart of humanity.
So this is a post about the arising sacred masculine, that is in a continuing birthing state in us all. It is a journey from an old way of doing life to a new way of being in life. It does scare some parts of me as the unleashing of the animal within does bring an concern of what will come out, but this is all held in a heart that has been working the shadow for the sake of love, so what does come out will be felt in its entirety and hold itself accountable. It will not harm but it may just hurt. Hurt is mendable with an sincere and open heart. This is the reminder I give to this part of me.
This is also about community and relationship where all of this gets to be played out and realized in its fullest breadth. I get to engage in romance that brings out different tones that go deeper that just soul friendship, as powerful as that is. I feel like I am showcasing what it means to be in this SoulFullHeart community. It is what is possible for all humanity. There is a huge desire among us all for more hearts and souls to add to this incredible wealth of healing and loving. It is why we continue to write and offer to others. We want more tribe members that just feel what it is that is possible even if there is uncertainty on what it all means. Others are doing the same taking their questions and fears with them. We want the passion of others who want to serve it to the world first from within and then out.
In this new era of letting in more of what I want, I want to serve this love to you. I want to invite you experience what I experience everyday because it is out of this world…literally! I want others to reflect to me and inspire me to be more than a part of me thought I could ever be. New hearts bring new vision that we didn’t otherwise see or feel before. We get to play in a safe container that allows for real growth and real love, even if it may not feel that way to parts of us. The vulnerability of that is the safety.
Okay, so that is what was in my heart today. It is what comes through being in this incredible union of heart and souls. It is the energy of the eclipse making its way through my veins and into my heart. I claim me as I claim you to be a part of this epic ride called SoulFullHeart.
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
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