Healing The Patriarchy From Within

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Years ago, early in my healing process, I needed to take time away from family. I needed to feel myself outside the familial conditioning to really get a good feel for who I, Gabriel, really was. I needed to feel the ways in which I had been influenced to perceive myself and the world around me. This was especially true for my relationship to my father as he played a big part in my masculine conditioning and relationship to others, both male and female. He had many different effects on me that formed wounded aspects inside myself. I needed to hold and feel those parts of me as a new father template in order to relate differently to the world and others around me.

I remember as a boy my mother would tell me at times how much my father would remind her of his father, my grandfather. I remember feeling that in my own self as I became older, taking on so many physical and personal mannerisms. Taking on the family male legacy of anger and alcohol, the perception of women, and the internalizing of the patriarchal need for control and reason. As my parents divorced and my mother remarried, I took in another father figure that had just as much influence but in different ways. The Inner Father imprint was becoming embedded and it had its effect on my own sense of authenticity.  Who was I really when I was trying to listen to my own internalized father figure?

This part of us takes on a 3D patriarchal energy that comes from the more collective psychic wounding. It is one that has influenced my relationships with women and men. It has filtered my receptivity and openness to possibilities. My own inner feminine was a kept maiden, not feeling safe enough to express and emote. My inner child was suppressed to keep things in a serious and logical framework. Not much play in the world of the patriarch.

But in the unearthing and untangling of the inner father, you find the reasons for it all. There is no bad guy in the process of healing and integrating. Going into my own inner father wounds, I could feel the grander heart of the Masculine at large. The power of sovereignty and compassionate truth-telling. The desire to end the war within and be in collaborative balance with the feminine.  I could feel the the edges of my unworthiness and the real fear of surrendering to what needs to be reflected back at me as part of my growth and opening heart.

Through the process, my inner father takes a step to the side of me and becomes more of a brother, and then as the defenses soften, a younger, more boyish quality comes in and he begins to feel like a son.  I could feel my own biological father in more of his essence, encouraging me to continue on my healing journey and becoming like a guide to me along the way. It is a remaking of the past within the present moment where all things truly exist. A healing that has quantum effects between our hearts and souls and those of the collective father and son relationship.

The harder, less flexible side of me began to soften, be less defensive and more reflective. It has become less linear and more open to surrendering to the moment and letting the flow of life have its way while still holding personal will and desire in the mix.  When I do feel this energy arise I can feel what is underneath the frustration and need for control. Usually a deep wound of feeling powerless and overwhelmed in a world that feels like survival is the only reason to be alive. As I connect more with the Divine Father inside me. the more my own inner father can rest and let go of his Reign, which can feel very existential to them as the control is all they have ever known.

In the letting go, the suppressed feminine energies within can arise and begin to dance with the healing masculine and create a balanced energy that can penetrate while letting go of the outcome and the need for a particular result. It opens the heart to a more dynamic and authentic relationship with women in general and more specifically in a co-creative sacred union partnership. It shifts the collective patriarchal energetic structure and helps lead a new paradigm of leadership and stewardship of a New Earth and New Sacred Humanity.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The INpression Of Our Care-Givers: Feeling And Healing Our Inner Mother and Father

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by Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri

In the process of getting to “Know Thyself”, one actually finds the mirror you stare into splits into multiple lenses from which to truly see what makes you tick. You are many selves within the container of a more holistic integrated being. We live in the dimension of the “separate yet whole”. The minute you left Divine Source and popped out of the womb you landed in the field of “this and that” without totally being aware of it until you had enough time to be taught and to experience the depth of this perception of reality.

You landed in the arms of caregivers that you chose as a soul, to be reflectors of the world you landed in. They were the ones, or the one, that you were meant to learn from about yourself and life, for a particular phase of time until it was time to learn on your own. They are the single greatest imprint into our psyche and heart, next to community and society at large. The way they reacted or didn’t react to you, to themselves, and to the world established an emotive and mental ground inside of you that helped to form your own version of yourself.  Whether in rebellion against or in conforming to.  The relationship with and between each parent or caregiver created a pattern inside of you in subtle and not-so-subtle ways.

Over time, this energetic relationship created a space inside of yourself that has informed many decisions in regards to so many aspects of your life.  It is an Inner Mother and Father that forms in your emotional body that carries so much data about your 3D Self and how it has found itself surviving and expressing in the world and in relationship. For women, it can express as a wounded and masculinized matriarch that is protecting the more still and sensitive Yin nature of her essence in order to survive in a still rather patriarchal world. For men, it is the expression of the controlling and aggressive patriarch or the suppression of the more vulnerable and tender parts of them.

Either way, it is a way to feel your own participation in playing out the wounded masculine picture of the world as it still largely is and has been. There is an entire lineage and legacy you carry within you, that doesn’t only begin with your birth family, as of course culture and country have influence too. Your parents learned from their parents and found their way however parts of them felt it was best for them and their own consciousness level. Choosing to feel yourself and how this lives within you by your own choice of whether or not to go into it and heal it, puts you in the seat of immense inner power to move beyond it and influence future generations to do the same.

This Inner Mother and Father can hold influence over many other aspects of your 3D Self, such as your Inner Teenager and Inner Child. They are our own versions of how we took in our caregivers. Beginning a relationship with them internally can lead to a vast new experience of ourselves that we never really knew we had, as we have been unconscious of it to the degree we needed to be in order to keep that relationship intact. If there is no external relationship to your parents, the internal still exists until it is felt as a separate part of you that can foster healing, integrating, and an unanchoring of the 3D Self into higher frequencies.  If there is still a external relationship, there may be a necessary phase of separation from them so that you can fully feel what it is that lies inside that is authentically you and what is the internal manifestation of them. Some parts of you may feel as if you are ‘abandoning’ your family/parents and that this is wrong and contemptible. Yet there is no absolute here or even a vow of ‘forever’ being out of contact with them. The space you take simply allows the truths of the relationship to arise and gives you what you need in order to feel yourself and your parts in who you have been and who you want to become.

Getting to know and feel your Inner Mother and Father will lead you to your own connection to your sovereignty of being that is no longer connected to those who ushered you into this 3D life. It will help to let go of the binds and grinds that have kept your 3D Self in the swirl of this deeply impressionable and sacred relationship. As you become a parent to your inner parents you gain a whole new perspective that integrates all the power and gifts they gave you and leave the rest behind on your growing journey into the lands of your healing heart and ascending soul. Plus, in the name of the exponential service of love, you get to become the new template, piece by piece and part by part, for how the new dance of the masculine and feminine gets to arise in this purging, healing, and shifting world.

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Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman will each write more specifically about the Inner Mother and Father as it relates to the specific genders and how it has informed and affected their personal healing process and relationships. 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  

Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  

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You Are A Universe Of Feeling

By Raphael Awen

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You’re feeling a lot right now.

You may not think you are, but thinking is different from feeling. It comes from a different apparatus, one being the head and the other being the heart.

If you pause in any moment (like this one), for a moment….. to feel …..you can immediately get a sense of what you, or what a part of you is feeling, or maybe rather, resisting feeling. Being on Facebook is a big world of feeling, that you, as another big world of feeling are interfacing with.

But what specifically are you feeling right now?

What are you hoping to feel by continuing to take in my words? What drew you a moment ago to ‘go online’?

If you’ve been numbing down what you are feeling then asking that question will begin to open out your awareness to the world of feeling that you haven’t been feeling. It would begin with sensing the rumble of unfelt feelings from within, admitting desire, admitting boredom, or need, and admitting the feeling of not wanting to feel.

Every last one of us are a universe of feeling. We are energy, and we are in motion, and when you put those two together, we are e-motion, and then we get to our e-motives, the deeper stuff beneath all of the who’s, why’s, where’s and what’s content of our lives, to what is really going on at a deeper contextual core level of being.

What you are feeling is running your life, and while a part of you may feel that what you feel is ruining your life, those so called negative feelings are the first portal you are being given to enter your e-motional body, the primordial awareness ground of your being.

So there you have it, no special moment per se, but yet totally pregnant and interconnected with all that is, even as, and even especially as, it doesn’t feel that way to a part of you.

You are sooo much more than you’ve consciously known, but parts of you are in touch with this, and this explains a whole lot about the suppression and management of e-motion that’s happening in the background just off the radar.

Time now, to love it all with a generous curious heart that really wants to learn, love, and feel all there is to feel.

Nothing to fix or even to heal really, just a lot backed up waiting to be noticed and felt, and then whatever shifts occur as a result just lead to new feeling and new noticing…. In a world of infinite love, you’re not broken, and you’ll never actually be fixed or even finally declared healed, as you will always hunger for more of the infinity that you are and long for.

I felt a wanting to share today after and during an unusually intense few days of ‘working’ doing an online money gig doing some data entry. I was feeling all the feelings held by a part of me fueling this energy to work, wanting to be felt more than anything, and now I feel opened out and expanded to hold this part of me as I re-engage in the work, feeling the more that there always is to feel.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Creating Our Own Galaxy Of Usness: A Poem Celebrating Sacred Union

By Jelelle Awen

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Painting is by Julia Watkins  http://energyartistjulia.bigcartel.com/product/leaning-lovers-soulmate-energy

For my beloved mate Raphael, and for YOU too:

You and me, in our altered consciousness….we create our own galaxy of USness just by walking around in each other’s orbits.

We sit in conversation in public places, changing the energy around us, inviting ALL to feel the possibilities of union like this that already lives inside them. A seed just waiting for the water of their desire and intention.

We create these fields, these joined together merkabahs and vehicles of light and love, that transport us to other timelines, dimensions, all our soul’s counterpart pairings….Golden Earth experiences while bridged to and in 3D.

You evoke my feminine, I provoke your masculine…and they dance, as they should, to music first heard from within and then expressed together.

Creating safe heart space….we are free to bring the vulnerabilities, sensitivities, and triggers of our deepest densities to each other.

Allowing each other to remain wild, bonded but not bound…we are able to surprise each other, remain ultimately unknowable, and unfold the mysteries of our deepest essence as we go.

We serve as a lived in, loved in, reminder that the experience of sacred union CAN arise without conditions, situations, and or even a partner as it grows from within firstly and mostly…..preparing the heart, soul, and body grounds to receive and respond when it is time for an other to come along….

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

Our Inner Teenager: The Heart And Soul Of Our 3D Self

 

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The Land of Confusion.  The volatile teenage heart. These are the years of many of our intense experiences with our fading childhood and impending entry into adulthood. These are the times that many of us can go back to and see a scene that our inner teenager lives in.  Those poignant moments that this part of us still lives in that shifted the direction of their life and has yet to fully process it all.  So many different social and familial pressures that left us in a state of tug of war…or just plain war. Those on the healing journey are on it to recover from these very times. Those very moments still burned into the lining of our heart. They are the heart and soul of our 3D Self.

Our inner teenager houses so much of our passion, desire, and dreamer.  Many chose to roll down the rebel road and set fire to whatever could be set fire to, looking for anything that was real in a very unreal world. Others found themselves playing by the rules, suppressing anything that would go against the direction of the greater wave of what was expected of them.  Then there were the in-betweens, never quite comfortable with either. This part of us is so prevalent in our lives.  Without a mature template to walk us through the valley of this very trying time we were left with an imprint that carries on to this day in the way we hold our own 3D health and maturity.

The inner teenager can be seen in our rebellion and our conformity.  It can be found in our relationships and our sexuality.  In the way we need to be by ourselves or the need to be with others.  They are in the closed door bedroom with headphones on, or in the late night party trying to see if they will be noticed by anyone “important” or “hot”. They may even be the default parent and is nowhere close to being like the “others”.  All of this is a part of their heart story that is so needing and wanting to be felt in the depths by someone who is able to deal with the gravity and levity of a teenager.

Going into the world of our inner teenager brings us closer the passion, imagination, and creativity we had to set aside for various reasons.  It is about feeling the loss of innocence that led us to so much serious. They are the bridge from our youth to our maturity.  They are truly seers of new worlds. Healing our inner teenager brings a new vision of life that has technicolor rad-ness and infinite vision.  It brings a joy and lightness that seeks to learn and have fun at the same time. So not like school!

My inner teenager wants to say, “It was never about what I wanted to be when I ‘grew up’, it was about what I was feeling about myself in the moment that mattered most. Having someone I respected feel it with me, not to fix me, just to feel me. I just wanted to live and experience life from place that I felt comfortable in my own skin and didn’t have to impress upon anyone to be accepted, for I hadn’t accepted myself. I wanted know what real masculinity was that wasn’t false bravado. I wanted to know what true love really was that wasn’t based in what I had or didn’t have. I just wanted to feel the courage to be me and not an image to hide behind.”

The gifts abound form this relationship within and we can find ourselves being the parent our inner teenager always wanted us to be, even as we are being challenging with a compassionate heart. The healed teenager integrates into our maturing heart and leads us to new vistas of brave new worlds they always wanted to visit.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Dearest Sacred Human: You Are Arising – With Magdalena And Christiel

Dearest Human,
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You are arising….from the seeds of your sacred humanity, in feminine or masculine form, does your little bud grow into full blossom. Watered by self love, self worth, self connection…….your flower petals of soul and heart open wide, open UP, releasing the mysterious scents and displaying the vibrant colors of your human-ness. This organic growth process happening often without your witnessing or tracking, spring-loaded as it is to occur.

You are arising….from the deep sleep of not being seen or heard or recognized in your authentic feminine or masculine VULNERABLE powerful leadership……now BEing woken up to your soul purpose here. Transitioning from your slumbering sleeping beauty state to your co-leading reign with your BEloved mate OR alone as solo Queen or King for a phase. Your slumber has been necessary, yet so painful at times, I know, and I have been compassionate witness to it ALL.

You are arising….from the letting go of mirrors within relationships that no longer reflect your awakening self. BEing real about how you FEEL in these unions, especially those formed from previous genetic bonds, soul agreements that may be complete, and karmic binds that you no longer need. Moving on with love and grace from these bonds while keeping your heart open…..yet your soul, heart, body, and mind desires for nourishing transaction becoming more clear.

You are arising….from the tears of your inner child BEing felt finally and the little daughter or son within you receiving parenting care from you and from the Divine Feminine Mother. You are healing and integrating your 3D self aspects that had to form in order to survive the world. Your awakening WOMAN or MAN maturing through connection with the undigested trauma of those past thens….moments that still exist in the now of your emotional body that are assimilating into you. You are ripening into your emotional maturity AS you integrate the ageless wisdoms and gifts of your soul.

You are arising….from the remembering of your galactic origins and tastes of your Star BEing roots. You are being invited to speak the languages of these heritages, every syllable creating a wave form connection beaming out from your chrystalline throat and your cosmic heart. There is something ancient here and beyond time too, in the NOW you are merging with your Star BEing aspects to infuse higher dimensional frequencies into your human one to arise into a sacred form in human.

You are arising….from the essence of your purpose to serve love as you align your life to this calling. You are transitioning from DOing things as your means of drawing livelihood to BEing service of love in ALL moments. Receiving and responding to the gifts from the Universe and Divine Source that come as you serve love and let go of ‘hows’. The mind cannot be certified to serve love nor the remembrance of your soul gifts come from traditional learning or the previous self-image-based ways, yet you gain access to it as you BEcome and open up to it with your genuine and humble desire to serve love.

You are arising….We SO support this process and we are HERE to be with you in it ALL…the blooming, the growing, the speaking, the receiving, the responding, the giving, the serving, the BEING. We are HERE with so much love for you, AS aspects of you, to offer a template of NEW sacred human for you to lean into as our Divine frequencies blend with your human ones. You draw the form of us AS you that you most need and can resonate with.

Dearest sacred human…you are arising!! Claiming the love that you ARE and so BEcoming it too during this time of Re-Union and Re-membering. So much love to you from us to us and WITH you!

In love,

Magdalena, Christiel…. with Jelelle

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

The Multi-Dimensional Man

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As I have been going through an exercise of connecting with my 3D, 4D, and 5D selves I began to realize that I have noticed women tending to call themselves “multidimensional” more then men.  I don’t know if this is because women tend to be more multidimensional or is it that men just haven’t considered their multidimensionality as being on par with women. I know that in my past I have had a part of me doubt that I have access to this “ability”.  That it seemed exclusive to women or some chosen men.

Yet when we view ourselves through these 3 lenses of 3D, 4D, and 5D we get a clear picture that we are all very much multidimensional (MD) and it is in our permission and desire to feel this in a very conscious and daily way that we can really let that in.  Men have generally seemed apt at staying very focused on one task. I guess we can really call that a masculine trait as women have it too.  So to hold this MD reality, it takes the ability to see and feel it all at once, or at least to some degree. This has always seemed like an attribute of the feminine.  So maybe it is in our connection to our more feminine side that men can access more of the permission and potential of claiming our MD gifts.

Who is the multidimensional man? What are his needs, motivations, and gifts? This feels like an unknown yet I think there are some very common themes that may run across many experiences.  I can tap into my own MD selves and see if they resonate within the collective.

My 3D Self says, “I want to be seen as sexy to women.  I want to be perceived as a good man, a fair man.  I need to be valued and accepted by others.  Following the “rules” of society will reward me with all the gifts that it has promised to offer. I want to feel secure and comfortable and have all the pleasures of the physical reality. I have a hard time speaking my truth as it can upend everything I have put in place and worked so hard to protect.  I want to be right most of the time.  It is hard for me to be “wrong”.  If I am wrong I am bad. I want to know all the facts of a topic to make informed and wise choices as to what is true and what is not.”

My 4D Self says, “I do not want to be a part of the system anymore! I do not believe that it is in my best interest OR the interest of others. I see how I constructed so much around me that was not based in my ultimate truth.  I compromised something inside myself to fit into a mold that I felt like I needed to out of duty and obligation.  I feel a greater purpose and passion that is not being expressed because of feeling stuck in a world that I don’t feel resonate with! I have a lot to say and it wants to blow shit up! Yet I also want to just go away into the woods and live in peace.  I sense a greater consciousness that exists that I am a part of yet still feel very separate from at times.  I feel in between worlds and I can’t seem to find the bridge.  I am beginning to see that I have the power to change it all but it is so hard to focus with all that is going on around me.  I keep trying to find love outside me and it is just not working.”

My 5D Self says, “I AM the power.  I AM the change. I AM the love that comes in from the heavens and infuses the heart with desire to go IN. To heal all the parts within that feel scared, angry, and alone. I create the safe container to be vulnerable and withstand the fire of transformation and healing.  I  AM the bridge and the other side.  The place where self-love comes first. To be empowered with worth and courage to continue to heal and share the open heart with another in sacred union romance.  I AM the dreamer and visionary of greatness and beauty.  I AM the King of my Kingdom and the seeder of this Divinity into the hearts and souls of others on the way UP.  I am the receiver of Higher Dimensional consciousness and embody and integrate it into the human vessel.  I AM the constructor and builder of worlds in co-mingled dance with the divine feminine inside and out.  I AM hot star stuff!”

With this felt reality, I can begin to feel myself in a whole new way. I can feel where I need to go in and feel what needs to be felt in order to let in more love through my healing heart.  I find the courage to make the next steps, to say the words that need to be said, and feel what it is that I truly AM and desire to be.  I am not a victim to my circumstances and I invite the mirrors I need to keep going and growing. I take my experience and offer back to others that are feeling the same.  I am a beacon, a leader, a lover, and a King to a Queen. I am a fisher of men…..multi-dimensional men.

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Claiming The Sacred Union Within And With Other That Is Waiting For You

By Jelelle Awen
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“Heaven is this…moments with you in the now. In our now, just as it is and yet, too, what we can imagine will BE and is coming. As we align our hearts together, our visions, our bodies, and our minds…the now comes alive and gives us tastes of what we already taste AS heaven and will someday just have MORE.”
 
This I feel toward and with my BEloved Raphael in this moment, yet, also I want to share HOW this relationship arises the way that it does, in the textures of authenticity, companionship, and realness that it does. I want to share this HOW with you as you CAN have and be this kind of mateship too AND I do feel that you are meant to be in this kind of sacred union. Not just some very special souls who incarnated here and signed up rejoin with their ‘twin flame’. Not just those who ‘fit a certain picture’ from a soul perspective. Yet, ALL souls, I feel, can BE in this kind of sacred union with another……if and as they are IN this kind of sacred union within, which is the ground we offer through our SoulFullHeart process.
 
The sacred union within is the knowing, connecting, and BEing with the feminine inside and all her expressions and tones from the wounded matriarch who rages and controls to the inner princess with her innocent dreams of her grand romance. It is searching out the masculine inside and letting him roar, letting him edge, letting him drop his weapons eventually and break down into sobs that crack open his heart and FINALLY expose his vulnerability. It is being with these aspects within at their consciousness level of 3D and transitional 4D….feeling what they are anchored to in 3D life, what their conditioning has been….really, what YOU took in as 3D reality that fractures, fragments, and creates different energies and masks.
 
The sacred union within brings you more and more into wholeness as you integrate these fragmented aspects with SO MUCH love…you court and date and woo these aspects of yourself with true curiosity and genuine charm. What you would have given a mate, you give instead to yourself and all the parts of you that SO need that loving. As you come into more wholeness from within and so much more sense of self, then can the mate come that is also in their own personal exploration of self. Parts of you will not be looking to other to complete or fill you up as YOU will fill yourself up and in THAT self love overflow then desire to share with another.
 
These two emerging authentic selves come together in a healthy dance of exploration in all areas of body, mind, soul, and heart and that is what we feel in SoulFullHeart is sacred union. This dance is galactic, cosmic, earthbound, and yet grounded in the physical body. It is of the stars and of Gaia too. It brings in Metasoul frequencies from other lifetimes, civilizations, timelines, species, galaxies…this sacred union draws these energies to infuse the two mating souls with MORE of themselves so that this infused union can then serve love….exponentially and on a galactic level.
 
I am not offering this as theory, fantasy, or something I have downloaded from etheric guides. THIS reality I live everyday and have for nine years. THIS reality I have fought hard for…not with weapons and not for the goal of winning, yet with love I have faced that which comes from fear over and over within myself and within my relationship with Raphael. I have stayed in the room with him even when it was uncomfortable and showed me aspects of myself that were hard to see and be with. This is NOT easy to decondition from ALL that we receive about 3D romance and it’s toxic, codependent and just plain LACKING pictures of what is possible between two souls and within ourselves. Yet, I do believe it is ingrained in our higher frequency aspects and counterpart pairings and we can start to download that as we open up to them.
 
If you ache for this kind of sacred union inside yourself…..starting there, you SO can experience it and we offer in SoulFullHeart a process for navigating that ground which DOES bring this magic into your life if you are ready for it. And, going on this path FOR yourself, so then, do you draw the mate that is walking on it themselves. You join heart and soul hands together and love lights your every way inward and forward.
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Jelelle Awen
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc. 

3D/4D/5D Selves In Sacred Union Within And With Other – Video And Guided Meditation

 

Sacred union from within and with other invites you into deepening frequencies of transaction in all grounds of heart, body, soul, and mind. In this video and audio, SoulFullHeart co-creators, teachers, facilitators, and sacred union mates Raphael and Jelelle Awen lead a group call teaching about how the 3D/4D/5D self expresses within sacred union and also in the seven areas of life: emotional, spiritual, mental, physical, social, financial, and environmental.

The 3D self is the fragmented self that becomes this way from needing to adjust to 3D density of separation, duality, etc. 4D self is the transitional, awakening self whose soul consciousness is beginning to come into BEing and often clashing with the 3D self and the congested emotional body AND metasoul. 5D self is beyond personality, essence to serve love, higher self IN the body with healthy emotional body and healthy heart.

3D relationship is based on codependence, shrinking, fitting, ‘hookups’ between aspects of the 3D selves of each partner. Many relationships fit into this. 4D relationships are between growing and awakening 4D selves who are changing, growing, awakening. Sometimes one partner is more 4D and other is still 3D, which will eventually lead to completion as the frequencies don’t match and the ground runs out. 5D relationships are bringing in more soul frequencies, metasoul and counterpart soul, multiple timelines and expressions, fluid, committed yet not grabbing, united in service of love purpose together.

Raphael and Jelelle also guide you on a meditation journey to connect with Christiel (who offers you frequencies of healthy king, sacred masculine) and Magdalena (who offers frequencies of queen, sacred femininity). They infuse you with sacred union codes for the joining of sacred and masculine frequencies inside and with a mate, plus you connect with your 3D, 4D, and 5D self. SoulFullHeart Facilitators Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri also share their experience with their 3D/4D/5D selves connected to sacred union.

This call was originally recorded on August 27, 2017 via zoom. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls for more information about future group calls that you can join live, sessions with SoulFullHeart facilitators, writings, community, retreats, more videos, and more! The personal sharings that happened during the call have been edited out for privacy reasons.

To listen to previously recorded SoulFullHeart Group Calls:
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcallrecordings

I Want To Shake Men

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By Raphael Awen

I want to shake men.

I want to yell in their face ‘Why are you here!?’ and ‘What in the hell is it that you want!?’… even if I piss a few men off in the process.

I want to yet again shake and awaken myself.

I don’t want your or my settled niceness. I don’t want your or my spiritual adeptness at the cost of our passion. I don’t want your adaptation. I want to see and feel your rawness….because I so want to see and feel more of my own.

As a man, there is a way that you represent all men, and even ARE all men. When you settle, we all settle. When you choose not to feel, you set a far reaching agenda for all men.

There is a also a way that you are surrounded with every ounce of love and resource that exists…. And to significant degree, you are immune to all of it, because you are afraid.

You are afraid of your own truth. You are afraid of what you really want. You are afraid of your own passion. You are afraid of none other than yourself and the journey called your life.

It’s not necessarily true for all of you, but it is true for a part of you. And until you get in touch with this afraid part of you, you have not even entered your own kingdom, let alone made any claim over it. Until you enter your own sovereign kingdom in this way, you are on the edge of amounting to little more than a bad example, which in the universe’s economy is still considered a lot, but is it enough for you?

Everything in your power, but yet nothing in your realization…that is, to write home about, the home that you came from.

I’m surprised a bit at the edge in my words today. They are directed at myself as much as they are shared with others. I want to advocate for my truth, in my own kingdom, the land of my own sovereignty, and be matched by other kings of heart. This is finding a new agenda for manhood. This is finding out why and what our gender polarity is all about and our relationship to the opposite gender.

It begins with owning all that’s going on inside for you, as best you can feel it and describe it, and then to find the boy inside and relieve this boy who yet only knows hiding all he feels. There is very serious work to do. There is getting real with why you are here and what you really want. To not see the cost side of this ledger only means you are not here yet. If life as you currently know it is structured around disconnect and hiding, then any forward movement inward will have a one to one correlation with a necessary deconstructive movement outward, that you are going to have to begin self-lovingly negotiating, as soon as you are ready.

This is the heart passion that lives in painted moving swirls on the walls inside of my truth, and the fire colours that colour the underside of the clouds that float through my skies. This is my own parallel dimension where I must be while we as men sort out our next going on place together. BUT, if you don’t want your shit, I don’t want you. I can’t really want you until you want you. Not anymore.

I used to need men to validate my own subconscious need to hide. Then I got really curious to the point of being possessed about my own need to hide. I entered the domain of my own hiding and to this day, I still am. I’m reporting from my own cave, now transmuting into an infinite portal to so much more than I can’t even describe. Truth be told, if I hadn’t felt into my own fears heretofore, I simply wouldn’t have the balls to go any further in what is on the docket now.

But I really don’t want to do this and be this alone, because I don’t have to. I am called to lead and I feel more and more resolved around leading. The payoff for me in serving other men to awaken to their own true power is getting to be around other infinitely powerful men. Truth is, as I said, I’m going to need it and I’m going to need them if what I’m seeing in front of me concerning my own yet still to be inhabited power is real.

So my love of you is unconditional, but my want of you is very conditional. I’m asking for more of you because I’m looking for more of me. I can love you from a distance, and even weep a broken heart for you from a distance, but to enter sacred domain together, I need you and I to come together on mutually awakening terms, awakening and attuning to what it is that you really want.

Now, if you are ready for it, there is a bus leaving for the destination of more of what you really want. You may not like this bus, but you need to find one you do like, or drive your own, because all men, and even all species are waiting for you to choose the destination of your more.

No pressure, and all that! 🙂

I love you and I need you and I want you!

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com

We are currently offering a free intro session (to men and women) for those considering entering regular session space with us. If you are interested, let us know and we’ll send you some things we’ll ask you to read and a few questions to respond to, to further help you see if this is or isn’t what is calling you. More details on that are here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

We also have another group call around Sacred Union that Jelelle Awen and I will be leading this coming Saturday and these always are amazing to be a part of. We ask for a minimum donation of 11 USD over paypal, and then we send you the link to join in over Zoom Web Meetings. The details are here:https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276/ and we would so love to have you join us.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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