I felt inspired to write to you because I can feel my own reactions to you at times as well as the collective on their healing journeys. There can be a lot of frustration with you about how difficult, slow, and dense you can be.
I know that there is a lot that is projected onto you. We can make you a scapegoat for all the things that we feel inside about ourselves. So much desire and passion that want to be expressed and created without limitations in the way. I feel this most poignantly when it comes to money and law. I feel it in entertainment and consumerism.
I feel that when I curse you, I am cursing myself. Choosing to become powerless for the sake of my own fear and unworthiness. I am no longer responsible for my own God-given creative energy. I make you an oppressive parent and me a defiant teenager. Where does that get either one of us?
I am realizing through my own healing that I, with the rest of humanity, created you…willfully. You are the ‘prison’ of our own making. I am realizing that your gift was to be a playground of my growth and empowerment. I get to see and feel myself not in spite of you but BECAUSE of you.
So in this moment I want to say thank you. Thank you for the difficulties. Thank you for the shitty jobs and the small talk. Thank you for the relationships I needed to draw boundaries with. Thank you for the jail time and the education. Thank you for the chocolate and the ability to pay back my debts. Thank you for the bankruptcy. Thank you for all the challenges that I set up for myself so that I could overcome and heal through them.
I can now “see” you for what you are. You are what I get to cooperate, coordinate, and create with. You are my teacher and my biggest fan. I feel that now. This is how I would rather be in relation to you. I want to work with you and not against you. From here on out…amen.
Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
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