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The Great Reconiliation

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My, there is a lot moving and shaking going on in consciousness right now! I feel this Great Reconciliation between the Heart and the Head, the Masculine and the Feminine, the Dark and the Light going on right now. In that process of Reconciliation it appears that there is a great polarity being drawn to the surface to look at and determine where we want to go with that.

There was a great polarity happening here amongst us as a family/community that has taken each of us to new places inside that have had unforeseen, yet not surprising, results such as reunion and deepening between souls and the Divine Beloved Itself.

The veils and/or compartments that have been holding Truth and Love at bay are starting to crumble. I can feel how parts of me have identified with those veils and walls. The crumble can create a rumble inside. It takes more effort to suppress that to express now. If that is the case, more Truth will come to the surface all over and that can be messy and scary.

I feel how the Masculine polarity has held a large swath of territory in consciousness. With the Feminine pole coming into balance, it can feel to the masculine that it is being sieged or devoured. Losing its control hold and its identity in a way. Yet what I feel from the Feminine is an Embracing. An Invitation back into Wholeness. It can look like a devouring from a certain perspective. But this whole process is inevitable. It IS happening…

I feel a brotherhood of men that are wanting to be a part of the Great Reconciliation inside and out. There are Knights and Kings of Heart that are seeking to balance these energies inside even if they are not consciously aware of it. This may be coming out in depression, anxiety, or frustration. He doesn’t know what the fuck is up and the default consciousness may be fear or violence toward self and other.
In this process, I feel the Feminine can assist by claiming her own needs, follow her own heart’s desires and intuition, and heal the polarity of the Masculine within. The bond with the Beloved is the shelter in the storm of the rumbles for us all. It takes us to the other side of the other side.

I am here to offer my heart to those that are feeling that desire for inner reconciliation and a return to Balance and Wholeness within. I feel compassion and care for all men that are struggling with so many emotions and circumstances. There is a path to health and inner prosperity and joy. Please do keep me bookmarked in your heart as someone who wants to help. I have been through many Dark Nights and rounds of addictions and despair.

Sending much love to all humanity in this process of Reconciliation.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Into The Ring Of SoulFire

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“If your beloved has the life of a fire, step in now and burn along”
~ Rumi

This past month has been a whirlwind. Completions, separations, polarizations, realizations, communications, and reconciliations. It has been a sacred fire that has burned, illuminated, and alchemized the sacred union inside and out.

The re-union of Jelelle and Taliesin (Raphael) sent a wave of energy that sparked a lot of emotion that was attached to a big structure within myself that was a veil to my deepest need, desire, and truth. It was a way that I have related to them, others, and myself that has just lost traction and use. I am finding another layer of my True North and SoulFire.

I woke up digesting our last Monday group gathering and realized that my heart still had a huge compartment with Kasha’s name written all over it. We were not reconciled somehow. Something was not ‘done’ within me. We needed to divorce. We needed to go our own ways. We needed to come back together in service, and we needed to roll out a ‘friendship’. But that all came tumbling down when the SuperNova Sacred Union codes came into our fields this week,

I can’t shake what this woman does to me and for me! We hold keys for each other and a deep well of Love for and with each other. We have both done a lot of inner work the past 8 years and have had our ins and outs, and ups and downs.

We have a lot to continue to digest about all of that. It is a scary place to go back in and face all of those things and the places we had feared to tread between us, but the draw is undeniable. I love her. I need her. I want to serve love with her. So as Rumi said, into the Fire we go!

We have our challenges and our ease. We have something that is in need of deep exploration and illumination. She is my Divine Feminine expression embodied. I get to see and feel myself in a deeper way through her. She gets to do the same. We get to feel the Beloved with us, through us, as us, and serve from there. This is our deepest desire and mission.

Many of you have been around our past iterations and may not be the least bit surprised. It was both surprising and not for us as we just know this soul story somehow, yet we get to create a new one together on blank pages while rereading the previous chapters and taking notes for the next.

I am blessed to be writing this with you, Kasha. Ecstatic and terrified both! Yet I believe in my heart we both have enough inside of us to keep going in and keep getting as real as we can to cultivate more of that Love we are meant to serve to the world. I have thrown my hat into that Ring of Fire. Now time to see where that takes us next.

I love you…

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Depth Of Our Soul Cry

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Soul cry….

Tender tears. Feeling loss. Feeling change. Feeling what could have been… if only. Feeling the suffering and pain of so many timelines and other souls in the Now.

It is personal. It is global. It is collective. It is the longing and the ache of harmony. The longing for communication between hearts and souls that may be unresolved for fear of seeing and feeling our hidden pain and shadow.

Soul Cry runs deep. This time last year I was alone for my upcoming birthday. It was a grueling experience to feel that complete alone-ness from a part of me. Yet all I could do is create space for it. Call out to the Divine for holding and Grace. It was a loss of family to my parts that led me to my Inner Orphan. The separated God-baby within. The connection through the flood of pain was a life-line over the days and weeks that followed. I tapped into the separation wound that helped me begin my way back Home by bringing my Orphan back into my Heart.

This year I will not be alone, but it will be different. Family/community is sorting and shifting. There is sadness, yet there is a trust and a grace that will never go away from that experience last year. There is Grand Sorting out underway for us all. Between the masculine and the feminine, good and evil, us and them. It is duality seeking harmony, but that is a messy business.

I feel SoulCry leads us to our most profound experience of Life. It is the rain that clears the sky so that we can see the depth of our true nature as Love Itself. We are not Alone because we are All-one. So the experience I had last year was a personal yet collective aching and calling out to Love. To feel loved. To be loved. To become Love.

When we hear about men, women, and children being abused and treated like commodities in a most Unholy way, underneath the Rage is SoulCry. It is the realization that there is a deep rift in Love’s ocean floor. A place where we dare not tread for it encapsulates our deepest ache and fear of separation from the Holy. To go into the cry is to not get lost in it or to suffer in it, but to feel the textures of it when it does come. It can be lost or tortured soul aspects that are seeking the light of your Essence and the warmth of your heart.

It is usually after the resting of the SoulTire that SoulCry may come into the space. Your soul may have been busy in fighting and searching for so long that it has glossed over the deeper pain. That is understandable and even self-loving. Yet there are times we are brought to SoulCry when it just runs out of steam for anything else. It is like letting a tap open on a reservoir, it doesn’t have to be knocked down completely. Though sometimes it just happens that way. Your life preserver is the feeling and the crying.

On the other side of the SoulCry is a new land. There is clarity. There is a new relationship to Life. There is a new awareness of the Power of Love and how we can be an ambassador of it to the Dark, for the Darkness is what gives Love its purpose. Your SoulCry is a part of your SoulFire. How we relate to it, permit it, and hold it changes us and the world profoundly.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Tired Soul

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Soul tired…

When the fire of my soul was lit up a couple of days ago what happened was an illumination of shadow and darkness. How could it not? Think of what happens when you are walking in a cave and you light your torch. You see all the nooks and crannies of the cave walls, the ground you have been walking on, and the unseeable places ahead. You find yourself in the catacombs of your soul, of the Self.

Like the proverbial ‘moths to a flame’ come the very things that are in need of healing and that Light of Love you just sparked up. The wounds, the memories, the buried ‘treasures’ of your soul’s story. You have become the explorer as well as the ambassador to that very LoveLight you are carrying in your heart.

When the wave of wounding came up I could feel the Soul Tire. The weariness of the suffering and pain that aspects of me have been in. This suffering can be held by parts of us until it becomes too much for them to bear. We need to go into the Soul to get a broader and deeper vision of what is holding this Soul tiredness.

This has been an ongoing part of my journey as it has felt like a spiral staircase many times. “Haven’t I been here before?” Yes, I have. But each time the density of the ‘air’ I am walking through is thinner and thinner. Less time is being spent there. I would come upon a judgement of myself that I am here again. That as a healer, space-holder, and a desired mate I need to be ‘over’ this already.

Yet, I just keep hearing from my guides that this is all part of being a human ascending. It is a process and it takes the route it takes. The judgement just makes it take longer. Maybe that is needed until it isn’t anymore. It is how we respond to the spiral that moves it further along.

The Soul Tire needs our attention and a safe place to land. It is a place within where the Soul Fire is less of a raging inferno but rather a crackling warmth from the hearth of the Divine. It is an etheric ICU or less-dramatically an Inn in the middle of a long journey that provides the comforts of Home. A place to recover and to fill up on Love.

The quest of the soul can be seen and felt as a Trail of Tears and Fears, or it can become the beginning of something profoundly beautiful that we have convinced ourselves is a distant or fairy-tale land. That choice is ultimately up to us. As above, so below.

So this day, maybe this week, I rest. I feel. I love all the aspects of me that need to come into my hearth. It has been a long road for them and it is time to shorten the distance by bringing them into Presence. To let the Soul Tire become a thing of the past as it is held by the SoulFire.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Illumination Of SoulFire

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SoulFire…

It is coming into me and causing all sorts of rumblings, intentions, and reactions. It is a flame that is always with us. It cannot be extinguished at its core. It is Eternal and Internal. It is what keeps us going and can also keep parts of us suffering due to its inextinguishable nature.

In its leading edge, SoulFire is passion with purpose and deep meaning. It is unstoppable in its quest for service, in creativity, in expression, in construction, and deconstruction. It burns away what is not alignment and illuminates what is.

HOW this is done comes from the Heart. SoulFire can burn and hurt. It can have consequences that were unintended but necessary for it to flourish. We can own the fallout of those consequences with our compassion and vulnerability. In that process, Love is not lost, it is just reconfigured and transformed.

There can be an inner struggle for many of us to access and maintain this SoulFire. There are many layers of protection and doubt that may come in to dull or put out this fire, for very good reason. Our SoulFire may have a history of collateral damage. Maybe even a graveyard. The Shadow of SoulFire may be a grim one. But it is also a powerful change agent. A servant of Love in many forms.As we live through a most unprecedented time in our modern history, we are facing circumstances and information that can throw a wet blanket on this fire. It can make it REALLY hard to see and feel. You may see others who have it and may compare and judge yourself for the lack or inaccessiblity. This may put parts of you into a despair or suffering loop. This has been my pattern for a big portion of my life. It found its way into my field just last night.

Then I felt the voice of my SoulFire come into the space this morning. WOOOSH! “Fuck no! Time out. This is NOT who you are or are meant to be. You have wounding, yes. You have more to transmute into Love. BUT you are not this loop, this suffering, this voice. You are a man on a mission for Love. For Liberation. For Heaven on Earth. You are bigger than what you can imagine and that scares the shit out of parts of you. So let’s be with that WHILE you set yourself ablaze with SoulFire. That holds the space for the reactions rather than becoming them. It transmutes them back to Love and into Purpose, just in time to get back to work!”

Well. Okay then! That voice has helped me move to my next phases of growth and service. I feel how so many are afflicted with this same dynamic and I really want to serve that going forward. I know it so damn intimately. Almost too intimately in the past, but that is what qualifies me to serve it. SoulFire is what I came here on this planet to embody and to serve.

I look forward to the next leg of this journey into my SoulFire expression and how and what it manifests. This has been born from all that has been going on in the world so there is gratitude for that. The Light many times can only be seen in the Dark. Here’s to you finding your SoulFire in the eye of the storm. And, as always, I am here to support you on that quest should you feel the need for that holding, healing, and witnessing.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart FREE 45min Intro Calls Available With Kasha Or Gabriel

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Join SoulFullHeart Facilitators/Teachers, Kasha Rokshana and Gabriel Heartman, as they talk about the FREE 30-45min intro sessions that they are now offering to anyone who may be interested in feeling deeper into the SoulFullHeart process. They talk about the steps to booking your intro call with one of them (Gabriel works with men and women, Kasha works with women) and how this call works. They share about the purpose of this call and how it is meant to help you feel if this process is a fit for you and which Facilitator would be best to serve you in this current phase of your healing and Ascension process.

Here are the links/videos that Kasha and Gabriel mention:

For information on sessions: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Video by Jelelle on sessions and what happens during them: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D0bkr16aNjE&t=0s

Link to the SoulFullHeart Portal online community: soulfullheartportal.mn.co

Video by Raphael and Jelelle about the Portal: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aEThGr7z-nI&t=2s

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. 

Gabriel Heartman is a Divine Masculine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Men’s and Women’s Facilitator, and writer.

Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Crossroads At The Conjunction Solstice

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I admit that I do not have a lot of ‘this life’ knowledge of astrology and astronomy to get the full breadth of what this upcoming Solstice/Conjunction means from those set of glasses. I FEEL the epicness of it. I feel it in myself and what has been happening around me in community, in others processes, and my own journey of Becoming.

In all of that, I witness great opporTUNEity. An attunement to what we truly are as sacred humans, not just pawns in a sycophantic chess match of fear. In the beginning of this whole drama that is playing itself out, I could feel a sense of a bifurcation. At first, it came as some literal, external process but of course it is really just a projection of what is happening within each of us.

I have been feeling a ‘crossroads’ or ‘forks in the road’ in my meditations. One that is paved with Fear, and the other with Love. The Fear Path is one that is clear and yet subtle at the same time. On that path, I see Guilt as a huge influencer in decisions and choices. Guilt keeps us from really choosing what is in our best and highest interest. Another influencer is Unworth. Do we feel that we are worthy and deserving of Love and all it wants to invite us into in our courage, desire, and inner knowing?

As we move into and through these con-junctions, the support and the intensity both increase. We are supported to make choices, yet parts of us can struggle with them. Choices of letting go of old patterns of relating to others, ourselves, and the world. When we get to the root of our needs and wants, the choices become clearer and the rumbles get louder. We are called into choosing a road, grieving the old, and trusting in the uncertain New.

What I feel the Conjunction brings us is the Courage to go into the Unknown of Mind and the Known of Heart. The clearer we are about what serves our heart and soul, the clearer we are about how to serve from that heart and soul. Fusing to our smallness, our fear, our unworth will amplify the suffering. It is time to go into the birth canal of our choice and feel the fear along the way.

We are leaving it behind by feeling it. Grieving with it. Dying and birthing with it. Love is both a death doula and a birth doula. I have been bridging this within myself from part to part, aspect to aspect through Divine holding, connecting with Yeshua, and leaning and learning from my community. I see and feel the future inside of myself. I can taste this Golden Earth when I turn off the static and tune into Soul. It lives Here Now within each of us.

We are presented with challenges as this ascension train continues on its foretold path. Those challenges are met from the inside out and then put into practice in this training ground we have all co-created. What a spectacle of Love when you can see it from that perspective! We are all seeking love even in what may feel in the darkest of times. There is support in so many ways for you to reach for should you feel the need. Consider myself and SoulFullHeart as one of those. This is what we have come here to do and be in this world.

Sacred humans rising and loving.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The New Earth Story Centered In Ease

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At any moment we can feel an ease or an unease. Choosing to consistently not feel and transmute the unease can lead to dis-ease, a store of this unhealthy energy.

While we are in the midst of global feardemic, the unease continues to rise with each news cycle and governmental decree in order to manage it, albeit in a haphazard way with no real clue as to what they are really doing other than adding fuel to dysfunction and dystopia. The unease barometer climbs.
So where can you find ease in this environment that is laden with traps everywhere you look? You know. It can only really be found in you. Always.

It can be found in breathing.
It can be found in giving.
It can be found in feeling yourself.
It can be found in connecting with animals and nature.
It can be found in meditating and music.

It can be found in tuning out the very things that bring that unease and tuning in to the parts of you that have been used to that uneasy feeling because it has always been there like a best friend, yet you didn’t realize it.

I have come to an awareness recently that unease was the way a part of me interfaced with the world. It was instituted at an early age and in my Metasoul. It became institutionalized inside of me and therefore nearly unconscious. A Pavlovian response to Life and Love.

I have had to see it and feel it. Hold it and love it. I had to ceremonially say goodbye to it as if it were a long-time lover. What would life really be like in ‘ease’ when all there has been is unease?

That is where we all get to co-write the New Script, not just edit the old one. Burn that shit up cuz it has no happy ending no matter what you do to it. Let’s start again…from the inside. Rewrite that code from the core of your being and let that Love Bug be the new virus.

With ease…
With grace…
With courage…
With IN…

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Ascension: Bringing The Unconscious Into Consciousness

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In my continuing process of growth, many times the things I need to ‘work’ on are the things that I cannot see. They are brought to me through mirrors, reflections, or circumstances that make it clear I have had a blind spot. An unconscious tendency toward ego, unworth, or any innumerable things that keep my next conscious leveling up at bay.

As I am brought to these junctions, I am beginning to realize the ground on which our unconsciousness resides is giving way. The veil that has kept it hidden is loosening and thinning. It will be an effort to keep it all in place. As that barrier begins to crumble under the weight of Love’s eminence, there arises moments that you become aware of the parts that are trying to stay in control, keep the narrative going come hell or high water.

Well, if the high water is coming and the resistance stays in place then hell it is. I once had an image of a sandcastle. It represented all that parts of me had and have built up over time that represented what I thought was real and true, only to find the tide rise and sure enough it was gone. Just…like…that. Wooosh. This could be a Dark Night experience or it can be just another round of the wheel of ascension once you get used to it.

The Reality is that we are the sand and the water playing in this epic drama of construct and deconstruct. What was unconscious comes to the surface and will knock down that castle just as the sun rises and falls. So when it does, the deeper question is how do we integrate and navigate that process so that there is less need for these moments and their reactions.

In my ongoing journey with SoulFullHeart, it is all about feeling and exploring the deeper layers inside that are in reaction, suffering, or unconscious states. This is done not just through self-reflection and exploration, but of other-reflection and deep mirroring. That is where things get to be seen that we could not see ourselves. That is not easy for parts of us, but it is catalytic and alchemical. Life can never be the same tomorrow as it was yesterday when you are on a conveyor belt of ascension. There is no attainment, just attainING and learning. An ever growing and expanding ground of consciousness.

If you are feeling the deep desire for ending suffering loops, unconscious patterns, or lone wolf isolation and are wanting to be initiated into deeper realms of your own consciousness, expression, and intimacy I highly recommend a SoulFullHeart session with myself, Jelelle, Raphael, or Kasha. I trust the call will be felt in the hearts it is meant to stir.

If you are curious about learning more and becoming more acquainted with the process and paradigm itself you are welcome to join our group portal at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co for more personal sharings, videos, articles, and online community.

The energies are here to support this new leveling up in Love, Liberation, and Leadership.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Courage To Let Love Win

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Love is your bridge over troubled waters. It is your currency that spends in the New World. What has been recognized as Love is varied and in many ways smaller versions of what it truly is when we actually come across it. 

We can easily relate to it as an outbound expression. Not so much as an inward reflection of how we see and feel about ourselves. Love has many layers to it. It is really undefinable, only to be defined by your personal experience of it. There are ever more heights that Love can take us, yet each time we realize the ‘cost’ of that…the fear of losing it. Of being rejected by it. Of being devoured by it. 

It is the brave soul that chooses to risk that cost for the depths of Love’s grace and gifts. Each ‘payment’ is letting go of that which is NOT Love and you can only really do that by taking a serious look into what truly doesn’t feel like Love. It is to look at your outer choices and inner projections. Your beliefs and conditionings. Your influencing traumas and relationships. It is a deep dive into deep You. 

There is nothing ‘out there’ that can assuage what needs to be felt ‘in here’. The only thing significant on the outside are the mirrors that you are willing to see as mirrors. That is not an easy place to go. It is challenging yet far more rewarding than waiting for the world to somehow miraculously change around you. 

The old saying “wherever you go, there you are” could not be more true. If you have parts that live in fear, you bring fear with you. If you have parts that doubt, you bring doubt with you. We want to bring those parts into Love’s embrace and grace so that it can work its magic inside and out. I am on that journey, with love-hearted others, to continue to feel and heal the barriers between me and It. It is that alchemy within that changes the world because it changes MY world, in relationship with those that are doing the same. 

The resonance of Love is a very powerful change agent. Let it take you where you were always meant to be.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.