Starseed Activation & Golden Earth Support Through The Portal Of Discomfort and Grief

By Deva Yasmin

As we all journey through these death/rebirth cycles it can feel like we are being squeezed through the birth canal. It feels like we are going through multiple death/rebirth cycles in many lives and dimensions. This is the invitation of possibilities to feel right now, as in times of being squeezed it can feel dark, scary and that we are at the complete mercy of the Unknown. It is an invitation again to surrender to rather than continue to fight the Unknown.

Surrender is not a doing; it is a way of BEing. A BEing IN, guided by ALL of the feelings that are arising in response to our current situations, as experiences, life choices, and traumas from this lifetime and others are being pushed up for healing. BEing in and feeling every moment of discomfort as our Soul feels through the lessons that we are learning now, calling on all the wisdom of our Soul and Soul origins that are supporting us in the higher dimensions. This wisdom has been waiting for this time to activate.

Parts of us can feel like they are going crazy, in a kind of in-between worlds feeling, that can make it hard to relate to a world where they have found so much comfort until now. They can also feel rumbles in relationships, as what we need and desire is becoming clearer. It can feel excruciating as those leading the new way touch the longings in our heart, the knowings that parts may still be struggling to access, integrate or move into, as they are still needing to BE in and feel the fear of leaving the comfort behind, still unsure of how the arising new feels, or what it holds for them.

I have been feeling with part of me named Yasmin so much discomfort, acknowledging the depth of unhappiness she has experienced. Feeling sadness as she has felt so alone, a Soul theme of mine, of not remembering or being connected to why she is here or why she chose these uncomfortable lessons to grow through. I feel how this unhappiness has been projected into all areas of my life especially work and relationships, which has created much tension, chaos, and pain for her and to others at times too. In my recent session with Jelelle Awen, giving Yasmin space to feel her unhappiness began to open out her connection to her 5D/Golden Earth reality. This access is allowing me to have more air around what she feels and to explore the whys.

Tears came as we felt the frequency of Golden Earth, as she felt where she has longed to be her whole life and has actually always been here inside, a place she forgot in a world that projects what is real-ity only to be this 3D one. We felt our Star Family reaching out, my Pleiades Aspect, Enu offering so much Love. This is what I am choosing to call her as her vibration and language is hard to translate into ours. I feel her Language of Light being remembered too, although in the moment we speak telepathically.

I felt how in Golden Earth, we are connected to everything, telepathically we can communicate with the animals, the planets, the Earth and the water. The water feels SO important in the moment, to allow Her to hold us in this gestation period as She held us in our Mother’s womb. It feels like many of us right now maybe feeling the need to eat lighter, desiring to drink more water, this feels connected to us being able to let in Golden Earth and Star Being frequencies to support us through this transition.

I feel how stomach problems and issues with digestion right now can be linked to our struggle to feel and digest our past experiences which stop us from letting Love in. That this is possibly a good time to check in with how we relate to food and begin to feel into what nourishment our bodies are calling for. Food has always been a way for Yasmin to soothe, comfort and cover what she feels. As she moves more into Golden Earth, I feel me being able to offer comfort and nourishment in New ways.

When parts of us have been deeply unhappy, even depressed, in this life…when they have always struggled to find belonging or purpose, I feel how connected this is to our disconnection from our higher timeline realities. As Yasmin lets this in, I feel the fog of unhappiness being lifted, as the MORE she has always felt existed becomes more REAL. Real because she feels it, as she feels it there no longer is a need for the validation of whether it is real or even a need to know what is real. All that matters to her is she remembers NOW, an inner sanctuary where all the pain and struggle can be soothed and transmuted back home to LOVE. A place to surrender to ALL of the LOVE in this Universe that is waiting to come into us, so we can return to our natural flow state in Life.

Enu is offering to me that for those of us who resonate with being a Starseed, there is much support available to you NOW, a portal is open to remember your origins, with the recent conjunction of the Pleiades star system and Venus helping us feel this too.

Enu offers: ‘In these times it can feel hard for Starseeds to understand what their part in all of this is. With such a deep care and reverence for ALL life on Earth, we feel how frustrated you can feel, when you are not out there taking action to protect this Life on Earth. For those of the highly sensitive Starseeds beginning to Awaken to our frequency, this is a time of nourishing and opening to more of your Soul, Starseed self. Filling yourself with your highest frequency of Love so you can inspire others through your radiance, beauty and inner peace, in these times of outer chaos.

You need this time of rest, of BEing alone, Being quiet and in nature too, especially taking in any Sun Codes that are available to you. Meet with the water in your inner realms, drop deep into the ocean. You can BE there, breathe there even, it is so quiet. Many of our allies are there too, the Dolphins and Whales offering a bridge to you to attune to our frequencies on Pleiades and in Golden Earth.

There is nothing you need to do, only listen and feel the cues of your physical and emotional body as they offer you much guidance in this time through the pain and discomfort. This can feel overwhelming, but you have much support and Love all around you, if you so wish to enter and receive. This will take time, as you learn to trust your inner realms and the parts, and aspects of you who have known and never forgotten these higher timelines and wisdom.

You are being informed by You, empowered and taught through your own inner realities. There are BEings who can support you on the outside but ultimately this is YOUR journey and YOUR choice to go into the parts and places of yourself that know what you need and where you need to go. We are here always whatever your choices are and whatever you are ready for in this moment, We love you, tender Souls.’

As Yasmin rests and explores Golden Earth, I feel ME, arising, growing into my leadership, the one who can listen and trusts my inner world and parts, to inform and guide my outer experience. I feel the collective being offered this choice too, as we transition from 3D to 5D Golden Earth. This will take time, healing and feeling for us ALL but as we let in MORE of our Soul and Star Family support, we feel more and more that we are always being supported and these transitions are being informed by and moved by intelligence that some may parts not be ready to feel yet, though some may be SO ready to let it all in.

We can never know anything as truth it feels like, in this ever-evolving, expanding and contracting universe. We can only FEEL what is REAL within ourselves and offer that to those who may resonate. Those who can feel the frequency of LOVE that is being offered through words even if the words make no sense or trigger reactions for parts, that this Love is here to offer support in a time of great fear and pain, personally and collectively.

In this 3D reality, everything can feel so dense and separate. In Golden Earth, we are One, we are Light and we are never alone.

Here is a guided meditation by Jelelle Awen to support you to feel and connect with Star Being Family, https://youtu.be/ubrPcH09X6s

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Awakening To Purpose With Lilith

By Deva Yasmin

Lilith is coming very close to me right now, I feel her presence wanting to be known in these times. She is the form of Divine Mother who serves us to find stability in the shadows of the unknown, to feel safety in the darkness between worlds, anchoring us in the moment between death and rebirth, the place of all Life. 

Lilith is the activating force of the feminine, helping us create, when we do not know what for, or why, or even if we have anything to share that will be of service to others. She helps us trust the feminine and surrender to the outcome of our service. She knows we all hold in our hearts different parts of the Awakening puzzle that will reach where they need to go IN.

She also serves, as a soothing balm to our masculine. In times when his abilities to pursue, to take action and to know the way forth are less called for, Lilith helps him rest. Reminding him to conserve his energy for the moments when his driving force to move ahead is really needed. 

These complimentary forces are being offered healing NOW, especially through relationships, as we may be feeling rumbles in our time of separation from each other or being together more than usual. I feel this as an opportunity to feel how these forces have been in opposition or suppression of each other, how they have longed for but can be scared of each other at the same time. An opportunity to heal what is needed on the inside, to move more into collaboration between the Feminine and Masculine.

In relationships with others, especially intimate ones, I feel this to be the inner work needed to support the outer union and its empowered collaboration. It feels like the work to feel what is real between us, if there is still ground to transact together so we can move forward united, honoring, respecting and prepared to listen to one another, and if not, it may perhaps be time to move on, to honor the inner union more. This is something myself and James have been navigating since being together more at home. This time is gifting us so much healing, as we have felt what has gone unnoticed or pushed aside in the general busyness of day to day life and the ways parts of us have not been working together.

Lilith’s honesty is supporting me to navigate what is needing to change in my life, I feel her offering to hold my hand as parts of me still have fear of hurting others or being judged by others when being true to myself. This has held me back for a long time and she has come now to support me to move into true alignment with my Soul’s purpose. She is here to guide and activate in us ALL, the knowing that when we are called towards service of Divine Love, at times we will be asked to make hard choices that may impact others. Some will not understand but that does NOT mean you are doing anything wrong or a bad person.

As children it feels like our choices, if not in alignment with the beliefs of our care givers, can be seen as ‘wrong’ when we know what we want but that creates tension in our care givers or hinders their own schedules, and we can be called ‘bad’ or ‘naughty’. This was not the truth. We knew as children we did not come here to fit in, we came here with a purpose.  But we had to take part in the suppression because that was part of our assignment on Earth, to be conditioned and forget so we could learn, awakening through the pains of being human. This has been our school so we could grow into the embodiment of Love and compassion, allowing Life to serve through us when the time came and NOW is that time.

Lilith wants to help us release the limitations of the conditioning that has been placed on us, revealing to us what has been keeping us stuck in the shadows. She comes to ALL of those who are ready NOW to move into service, even if that is deeply serving ourselves in a NEW way. Both serving ourselves and serving others is serving the Whole, but serving others without truly serving ourselves first, is a part of our conditioning. The belief that self-care or considering the needs of yourself is selfish, is not true. If we had learned to deeply care for ourselves, I wonder how the world would have looked? 

Service led by Love, this is the possibility that is becoming available to us more and more. As the invitation in New Earth is to serve Love to Love from Love, rather than fear serving more fear. 

Thank you for being here and for all that you are, which is already a huge service to Love. This Life would not be possible without you in it, your unique individuality is a gift and there is no one who can play the part you do. 

Much Love,

Deva and Lilith.

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

What We Are Experiencing Now Is Not New To The Soul

By Deva Yasmin

It has been impossible, it feels this week, to not have been touched or affected by all the talk of the virus. Being sensitive I am aware of and feeling the rumbles of fear and panic in the collective. I have felt confused at times as people begin to go into lockdown. Going to the local supermarket and walking the streets in my local town a few days ago felt eerie and very strange with less people around and so many bare shelves.

Having the anchor of feeling my parts really is supporting me to navigate what is going on within me in response to the events that are happening. Feeling the reactions in my parts also bridges me to feeling what my soul knows, has experienced and may still be experiencing of health epidemics/pandemics and civilization collapse in other timelines.

In times like this in the collective, I have felt many times an aspect of myself that feels anxiety and helplessness. Connecting in and feeling this today, I met a new part called Cayalisia, who is currently in an Atlantis timeline. I could feel with her, how her experience of Atlantis is bleeding through into what I am experiencing in my timeline. Both of us watching and feeling people scared and in panic, as life as we have known it, rumbles, crumbles and shifts throwing us ALL into the unknown.

I could feel how her inner work had given her a greater capacity to be in the unknown, although she needed support to deeply feel her own reactions to it all. She felt sad for people and how they were being affected, helplessness too as she inquired into how she could serve people opening and hearing the message to support the possibility of moving into the New. This is something I too feel often, but especially in times like these. This is the gift of feeling these aspects of our soul, they help us feel into our deeper responses, reactions, emotions and knowings, as our timelines all happen in the NOW, serving, merging and impacting one another.

It feels like timelines such as Atlantis, Ancient Egypt, etc. can be reminisced about, painted in a kind of Utopian way. As I kept feeling I could feel how any world especially on Earth has shadow. How aspects of our Metasoul have experienced in many timelines, many times, transitions through collapse, disaster, disease and destruction, and what we are experiencing now is not new to the Soul.

I feel in my Soul and in many other Souls, a longing to return to more simple ways of life, feeling this as an answer for how we can change the world, or for some parts, hide from it. The more simple life feels true and very much a part of my higher timeline vision and yet, as I checked in with Anna (grandmother of Jesus) she was open and honest about how the shadow aspects cannot be run away from anywhere, that the shadows of being human in a body on Earth, were very much alive in the Magdalenes and in their timelines of communal, nature-based living. They lived very simply and this DID support a more balanced, healthier way of life in alignment with our Earth Mother but that they struggled to bridge that to a larger portion of Humanity, which is what has always been needed if we are to truly transition into NEW Earth reality.

She offered that we are in a unique moment in time on Earth, a time that other civilizations have evolved to but have not succeeded in transitioning to yet. A time where it feels very possible for us to bridge and connect the sacred and the mundane, the heart and the mind, the conscious and unconscious, the scientific and spiritual. To create harmony and restore balance between our inner and outer worlds. We have the tools, the technologies, the opportunities to share our wisdom with one another. Through the internet, more people can bridge the new to MORE souls than ever before. This did not feel possible in Atlantis, a timeline that feels to me like it was more about individual Awakening, as I am sure there are many more timelines in our Souls of this theme.

This is a time of Awakening, Serving, Co-Creating the NEW, Together. We have only ever gotten so far trying to change alone. I could feel this anxiety, helplessness, and sadness connected to so many beings who are desiring to know and live into their purpose. Not yet realizing we are stepping into a time of joint purpose, of remembering our Interconnectedness and showing up for the healing inside that it takes in order to truly let others in.

That NOW is a time of letting go of considering only what is good for me, what I can get for me and how I can keep me safe. This is a hard place to feel and navigate, as I feel how many times what I have thought of as working and being with others has actually been about what I can get from others and what best serves my interests, coming from a Fear of being alone. Through parts work, I feel the new way of being with others being bridged, as it is inevitable that my inner experience of Union flows into the outer layers of my life. An experience our Soul knows and feels deeply, that can be remembered through the excavation of our healing hearts.

It does not matter who you are, where you are or what your beliefs are, all that matters is if there is a burning desire in your heart and Soul for change, and a distant knowing of something More. If you feel reactions and fear arising in response to current events, You are NOT alone, all your parts are waiting and willing to connect with you, feel with you, heal with you and serve with you.

And, there are so many others here with you too, ready to walk hand in hand. A huge gift of our time is the internet, which can bridge time and space for those of us who have felt responsible for holding the torch into the NEW alone, in this life and for so many lifetimes.

Jelelle and Raphael Awen offer one-to-one sessions in the SoulFullHeart process. These sessions bridge to feeling how your parts are experiencing life, how they are navigating relationships and letting in what you deeply desire for your life and humanity.

SoulFullHeart is also a bridge to navigating and co-creating a NEW Earth Together. I feel so many of our Souls waiting for and wanting to BE with each other. I feel aspects of our Metasouls needing to know they no longer have to walk these death/rebirth cycles out alone, as they may be experiencing. Offering them the healing heart space to feel what they feel, opens an exchanging of gifts that can support both of us as we transition in and through the Unknown.

Much Love to you and your parts as we continue to navigate all there is to feel in response to Coronavirus.

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Inner Community Healing, Paving The Way For 5D CommUNITY With Others

By Deva Yasmin

To be in community is a deep desire and calling in my heart, the desire started to burn for this more as I opened to spirituality. I can feel how this desire for community has run deep my whole life, it feels like it was the reason I spent many years working in the Hospitality industry, as there is a sense of togetherness that comes when working so closely and intensely with a group of people in a restaurant. It feels like the longing for community has also been my greatest pain, especially growing up in an environment and society where I felt I never fitted in. Right now, I am feeling with my parts the extent of this pain as I continue to unravel myself from it.

One of the draws for me to re-enter sessions with SoulFullHeart was the community. I had sessions for 6 months in 2017. It feels like I had to take a step back and explore other things to really let in what SoulFullHeart is offering. Even though I wasn’t engaged in sessions, I was witnessing through social media and within the group something very unique. I feel that what I have longed for within community, SoulFullHeart are on the leading edge of. Beings who are committed to showing up for their own inner healing and Ascension whilst at the same time learning to bridge that into relationships, through parts work.

As I expressed this desire for community in my session with Jelelle Awen, she invited me into a NEW way of feeling and letting in community, beginning first on the inside. This has been massively liberating for parts of me because within this deep desire for community with others has been a deeper longing and pain of not belonging and of feeling unsafe. Something parts of me could actually not find anywhere else, because all along they had needed to find that within ME. With these parts leading the way I feel how they drew souls who kept reflecting and confirming to me that I could not find what they were seeking outside. This caused much pain.

I see now how this also led these parts to continue and stay in unhealthy relationships for too long, to feel some sense of security and safety. This is a deeply vulnerable and at times painful process I am navigating right now, which I will reveal more about in time as my parts stabilize and ground in the safety of Infinite Love. That IS coming through even more as I turn my desire towards nurturing and tending my inner community, rather than overly focusing on, tending to or care taking others in exchange for a sense of belonging, Love and purpose.

I feel I am getting right to the core of what has been holding my parts in pain and with us all now feeling each other, there is a new level of honesty that is transmuting and transforming places I have felt stuck in for so long. This feels possible because I am learning through the SoulFullHeart process how to feel the inner dynamics and relationships of parts and aspects of myself.

As my parts are digesting and healing their experiences with me, they are beginning to receive the Love and acceptance they have always longed for. This is helping ME find the courage to BE and express more of who I AM, as a Soul. I find my way of being in life shifting as I calibrate to the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. The process is becoming more about receiving Love and support from within. Then responding to the parts AS they show up, that still do not know how to receive, feel unworthy of receiving or are still distrustful of Love because of the trauma they have experienced in the past, in this life and others.

This is rumbling throughout my life, as I am now feeling what it feels like to BE loved, to BE validated and to BE heard. My desire for this on the outside is growing, meaning it is becoming harder to continue what parts of me have until now accepted as love and connection with other. It’s a really challenging time, as I collapse the compartments of my life, to restore balance and wholeness to my inner and outer realities. It is surprising me at times how quickly this process is shifting things just from feeling how parts have lived and why.

There is an empowerment happening it feels of my Soul Bigness, my 4D/5D selves and all the aspects of me who KNOW what Love and commUNITY are truly meant to be already. As I feel and heal my 3D parts and experiences, more space is opening out for these higher aspects to come in to my awareness, my body and my life, supporting me to move into alignment with my Soul Expression and Service in this life.

Working with parts is guiding me towards and opening me to higher timeline possibilities that have felt impossible until now and hard to manifest. I have known since before I can remember that this 3D way of life is too limited, it has never felt like the path I came here to settle in. Now I know it is because I came here to create rumbles in it and be part of Ascension on Earth Now. Though I have tried many times to step into something NEW, without all my parts consciously co creating and on board, I have had to circle back in, to feel them and integrate, so I can walk with them across the bridge into the NEW with Love, rather than jumping off the cliff where the unknown can feel like an abyss. This making the death/rebirth cycles we all go through more chaotic than catalytic.

This feels like a continuous, multi layered, multi dimensional experience of Ascending within 3D, not getting out of it. Bridging and weaving Fifth Dimensional Consciousness into the fabric of it, shifting our individual and collective consciousness from the INside, out.

We explored walking gracefully across the bridge into the NEW rather than jumping off the cliff in yesterday’s monthly group call . These calls are a huge highlight of my month, along with my sessions and the monthly Women’s call. I feel the co-creation that is happening between our souls, how the joint desire for Golden Earth is creating the reality I feel so many of us Knowing and Longing for.

If you’d like to purchase the recording of this call, you can through https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/12-yeshua-magdalene-consciousness-activation-raphael-jelelle-awen or offer $15 CAD via paypal.me/jelelleawen

Much Love

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Feeling New Possibilities to Soothe Anger and Fear, as the Matrix Systems Collapse

By Deva Yasmin

After a few nights unsettled dreams, of interrupted sleep and feeling anger, agitation and frustration throughout the day yesterday, I felt myself this morning and felt guided to Jelelle Awen’s invitation to feel INto what is going on in the lower 4D/Reptilian timeline. As I let in, instantly I felt relief as more light and air expanded in my heart space.

As I tracked the anger last night, I could only really honor it being there in the moment, as I no longer wish to try and fix or alter my parts’ experiences. Being in the feeling, I could see lots of trivial things in my immediate reality that could be triggering it. I could also feel parts of me that would happily cause drama, especially in relationships, to create a reason for what I was feeling, but none of this softened the edges of it. Opening to feel and let in on the lower 4D level and the collective offered much MORE soothing and liberation of the feelings.

As I checked in with my Reptilian aspect, Solan, I could feel and see with her how there is a lot of anger coming up at the Matrix systems that have been in place, keeping us quiet, asleep and controlled, happening NOW. I could feel how so MANY more are awaken from this NOW, through the feelings of anger, frustration and aggression at times. And how these systems are in ways blowing up, creating rumbles through all realities.

The lower 4D world feels like an overlay, interconnected, rippling through and impacting our current 3D lives. I could feel that what is happening in 4D is also happening in our 3D reality too.

I can feel this in my personal life and in the collective, with so many of us waking up and starting to say, ‘No’ to what no longer works for us. I see and feel this collectively in politics, climate action, all outdated institutions. I see and feel it in our personal relationships, work expressions, etc. too.

It feels like the Reptilians are awakening along with us. In their world as they have been wired to control us, I feel so many of them saying NO, now wanting to move out of their role in the 3D matrix and work with us in these transition times to higher timelines, realities, Unity consciousness, and more Love.

Anger and Fear play really key roles in our liberation, Awakening and Ascension. They are sacred doorways that we all must enter into and through. Offering bridges to different aspects of ourselves and what they may be feeling and experiencing in the NOW, that impacts our lives in very real ways.

Feeling fear, even as you read this perhaps, feels necessary, normal and VERY welcome. Fear is our discernment and held by very important aspects of ourselves like the inner protector.

In THIS moment. I invite you into a new way, of being curious to fear, rather than fused to it, as is what the SoulFullHeart process is offering through parts work.

I feel many of us on the awakening journey moving into a NEW phase of feeling the possibility of more and healing more at the soul level. I feel in my own process that at times, the shifts do not occur if I am only feeling what I have experienced this life, yet more expansion and space to breathe opens, through feeling the possibilities of what is moving in my soul and this Universe.

I do trust and strongly advocate for the organic-ness of it all though. I do not feel it to be true to leave our bodies to access other realities rather it feels true and of utmost importance that this journey is led from and through our hearts.

That our human experience and emotions lead us to where we next need to go. Our heart’s knowing the timing and when we are a big enough container to hold these new pieces of the puzzle, with loving, compassionate, curious inclusivity of all parts and all perspectives.

To consider and respect our parts’ limitations and the pace we need to go, so this exploration is moved from a place of embodied, whole, loving presence rather than pushing, striving, and from unconscious beliefs held around not being enough.

To do this, if you so choose and feel ready and curious, the Inner Protectors are vital to feeling fear and possible anger, as our lives, worlds, realities shift. They stand guard of our hearts for which we need to access, to enter through, to feel MORE possibilities, Letting in this multi dimensional reality and way of BEing if that feels true for you. 


Here is a guided meditation with Jelelle Awen to meet your Inner Protector, a good place to start: https://youtu.be/2FzBzK5vgck

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

The Seven Areas Of Life: Past, Present and Future

By Raianna Shai

I decided recently to do my own version of this popular “Decade In Review” style post. One of the tools we use in SoulFullHeart to process where we are in our life, and where we want to be is using the “7 Areas of Life”. These areas include Emotional, Spiritual, Social, Physical, Mental, Environmental and Financial. I thought it would be a really cool practice to use this to review where I was 10 years ago, where I am now, and where I’d like to be in the future. I felt into each area of life and processed my own personal past, present and future. I’ll write a little bit about what I discovered, I’ll include the article that I used as reference and I’ll attach an outline for you to fill out yourself!

First, here is the article about the 7 Areas of Life: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

This article is divided into the 3D/4D/5D versions of each of these areas of life. 3D being a denser frequency focused on a way of seeing the world through the 5 senses. Lower 4D has more of a rumbly feeling with the way you’ve always seen the world starting to change, often with feelings of anger, injustice and frustration. Upper 4D frequencies are when you start to heal a lot of your trauma and fear and in turn, return to love and peace inside of yourself. 5D is the higher self version of you that has little reaction and can move through life in flow, trust and love for everything and everyone while still being able to hold boundaries.

One thing I noticed about myself in this, is that 10 years ago I primarily resonated with the 3D version of these areas, currently I find myself closest to upper 4D and for my future I would love to reach a level of 5D conscious in all areas.

10 years ago: I find that I have no judgement of the 14 year old version of myself being more in 3D. She was young, kind and intelligent but had so much insecurity and fear that much of her reality was clouded over compared to its potential. She was also very shy and would rarely speak up in class, say her truth or admit any feelings that weren’t positive. Drama would happen all around her and she would do whatever she could to not be involved. She wanted to please everyone and be the perfect student/daughter/friend and later girlfriend.

She was very emotional, though not very aware of where her emotions came from or how they could actually affect others if left unhealed. Socially, she had the same friends since kindergarten but was about to move to Canada and embark on a completely new journey. This change in environment proved to massively change my self confidence and ability to take on new and scary situations. She was awakened to some spirituality a couple of years prior but wasn’t able to sustain much of this connection. At this point, she had no real desire to connect to spirituality and focused more on the mental aspect of her life. She is a vastly different person from who I am today but the essence of who I am was still there inside of her. Compassion, emotion, and joy.

Today: Feeling into who I am now helped me have so much gratitude for all of the hard emotional and spiritual work that I have done so far. So much unworthiness, insecurity and fear has been shed in the last 10 years and it’s because of every single experience that I have had. Whether they felt good or bad in the moment, I can see now the purpose for all of it.

In the last three years or so I have become SO much more in tune with parts of me and my emotions. Discovering the root causes of my fears and feeling them into healing. My connection to spirituality has substantially increased with experiences of kundalini, openings with the Divine and more relationships with my metasoul and galactic families. My social world has been a rollercoaster ride these last 10 years with much letting go of that which no longer served where I wanted to go and who I wanted to be. Now I have opened the doors for beings who inspire my spiritual journey and resonate on every level possible. I have changed environments in big ways including a move to Mexico and back to Canada which allowed me to appreciate the energy of where I live and cultivate a center inside of me that will stay with me anywhere in the world! Financially, I have an online job that allows me to spend my days working on my soul purpose, even if the job itself is not directly a part of that. I am so proud of where and who I am today. I am excited for even more growth but if I died today, I would be so happy with exactly where I’m at now, and I never thought I would be able to say that.

Future: I have such a clear and yet flexible picture for how I see my future. I imagine even less fear and reaction, more love flow in every moment, and deeper connections with resonant souls in my life. Travel is a huge desire of mine and connecting that to service is even more enticing. Having a property that is filled with our SoulFullHeart community while having phases of travel within that is probably number one on my list. I see myself serving others as a facilitator as well helping behind the scenes to organize, plan and design. My creativity has been flowing much more lately and I hope to connect these skills to my finances and service. I feel my relationship flourishing and deepening every day, helping each other grow and become loving mirrors for each other. Socially, I would love more women to connect with and have comfortable yet growthful experiences with. I would love to have less anxiety and less thoughts spinning around in my head. In this, I see more trust and flow with my mentality and existing more through emotion and intuition.

This practice was huge in helping me feel love for the 14 year old version of myself, gratitude for where I am now, and excitement for what the next 10 years hold! I highly recommend doing even a couple of these areas of life, especially the ones you are struggling with or would like to see movement in. It can be hard for parts of us to not judge where we are but it helps to see how far we’ve come! We are a beautiful and messy work in progress and we will never be the same soul that we were yesterday.

 


 

Here is an outline I created to make it easier for you to organize it all if you like!

Emotional: The Emotional area of life includes the relationship you and parts of you have to your emotions, your subconscious, your pain body, emotional healing, and emotional expression.

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Spiritual: The Spiritual area of life includes the relationship you and parts of you have to your Spirituality, soul gift expression, soul purpose, Ethereal Guides, the Divine, and your energy body/chakras.

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Mental: The Mental area of life includes the relationship you and parts of you have toward your intelligence, knowledge, non-duality, wisdom, and mental-based intuition.

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Social: The Social area of life includes the relationship you and parts of you have to birth and soul family, friendships, romantic mateships, Ethereal Guides, and Star BEings.

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Physical: The Physical area of life includes the relationship you and parts of you have to your physical body, your health, your nutrition, your sexual desirability and expression.

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Financial: The Financial area of life includes the relationship you and parts of you have to money, material wealth, abundance, livelihood, soul purpose expression and purpose.

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Environmental: The environmental area of life includes the relationship you have to your physical surroundings, geography, global and galactic environment, the natural world, and animals.

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free intro calls and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Current Activations Help Us See, Feel, Heal Our Deep 3D/4D Matrix Conditioning

by Kalayna Solais

We have grown up in a 3D society that encourages us to stay feeling full, ‘fat’ and flat.

Over-stimulated and underfelt are the many parts of us who continue to show up in life and relationships to ingest and then digest experiences, trauma, and what we’ve been told is ‘food’ too.

We’ve been taught that compassion is only a sidedish to being empathic rather than the main course if we’re encouraged to be empathic at all growing up or to ask for others to feel us… which happens in 4D consciousness too, where being an ’empath’ is often worn as a millstone around our necks instead of deeply inhabited and responded to.

Feeling ourselves in a heart-open way, let alone feeling others, is not encouraged and is instead told to be buried and covered over by the heavy cement of our education systems, our food industries, mainstream ‘medicine’, our consumption of ‘entertainment’ and even ‘spirituality’ itself.

Parts of us have taken on the role of shaming and shunning what is new and different, what isn’t mainstream, as it blooms inside of us and around us. This is typically an Inner Punisher part, yet other parts of you can be wrapped in this too and Metasoul aspects who are afraid to feel themselves, to digest the trauma of their timelines. In this way, this very much applies to 4D consciousness as well as 3D, as there are still matrices in place, rules to follow, ideas that are more acceptable than others, and ultimately still some expectations of how it all should be and look like.

Trauma should be ‘gotten rid of as quickly as possible’ instead of steadily and heartfully investigated and loved…. this is a popular one in 4D and a meme that relates to all of this deeply seated conditioning inside. This has been detrimental to our growth and our possibilities for deepening self-love and respect as well, as parts of us then go back into hiding where they continue to feel unfelt, unheard, and ultimately unloved…

To unseat these pieces, we have to take the space to feel ourselves with deep honesty… this is the hard part, as we haven’t been shown how to do this. You may struggle with taking time for yourself due to a busy lifestyle that you’ve needed for a phase or a relationship that feels rumbly enough already. I myself have been in a phase of more busyness than normal with exploring different ‘jobs’ and a new social world too. This is what’s reflecting all of these pieces to me and is something I’m going into in my soul… what have been the over-attachments in ME that have kept parts of me reeling and spinning in conditioning that simply doesn’t fit them anymore? What timelines are my Metasoul aspects still living in that are being reflected now, where they have perpetuated this conditioning in their own ways or been victims to it?

There’s so much to glean from all of this inner exploration with parts of you and in your soul too, should the timing feel right to really go into it and INvestigate it all… you can find out more about ‘parts’ and ‘Metasoul aspects’ here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

I really feel we are ALL being encouraged to SEE all of this as well as to feel it. To let the light activations coming in help it all become illuminated for us and with us, to collaborate with us individually on new ways to approach life and love… especially our sense of self-love, from which all capacity to love others stems. We CAN learn to love and appreciate the conditioning we’ve signed up for while also moving through it into something new.

Much love to you, wherever you are on your own journey with this and so much more… 

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Join Raphael and Jelelle Awen on September 14th for a 4D Matrix Healing Group Transmission! More details here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1340021326164133/

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Healing The ‘Black Sheep’ Archetype

by Kalayna Solais

When you’re a child, you start to learn right away what is expected of you. You’re meeting expectations of when to start talking, walking, even behaving more maturely, whatever definition of ‘mature’ you’ve been taught. You learn, then, about what makes you feel like you’re on track with this and what doesn’t and you take in the impact of that.

As you get older and start to awaken more to your soul but also what your heart really feels and wants, the pain starts to set in… the pain of feeling like you don’t belong and maybe never have. A feeling like you simply cannot ‘win’ no matter what you do or don’t do. Parts of you form to deal with this and find a way to be in the world but you still can’t reconcile your differences; those aspects of who you are that seem to set you apart from everyone else.

In some cases, you may start becoming ‘therapized’ as the only way that your 3D-conditioned parents or authority figures feel they can ‘help’ you. You may be put on medication that numbs and dulls your natural ability to FEEL. Even the anxiety and depression you’ve experienced, which is held by parts of you that are hurting and also feeling on their radar a sense that they really aren’t safe in this conditioning and aren’t being loved the way they need and deserve to be.

You now see yourself as the ‘black sheep’ of the family but also of the culture you’ve been raised in. You may even feel this with your friends or co-workers. I know I have.

In my recent process, I was working with a part of me that always felt she was the ‘black sheep’. We had to go into a scene together where she could line-up her birth family members and feel the lingering judgements and criticisms, the messages of ‘you’ll never make it on your own’ which may not have been directly said but were energized.

Together, we could start to feel their Higher Selves in the room too, and their Higher Selves offered that this wasn’t actually about what it seemed to be about… it wasn’t about me or this part of me being a ‘failure’ (though in a 3D sense it’d be pretty easy to see it that way). It was actually about a wonder they have at the conditioning I’ve been able to say ‘no’ to, the risks I’ve said ‘yes’ to and the trust I now have more and more in my life, even the challenges that sometimes feel like mountains to climb.

In this, I found compassion for them even though I still hold a boundary.

In this, I found a way to truly see and honour myself and my own journey as well as seeing the sacredness of their own.

In this, I could feel how this theme of ‘not belonging’ and being looked down on somehow has played out in all of my relationships in one way or another, even with my soul family and my recent marriage too.

And, in this, I could feel how just about every single one of us who has been on an awakening and healing journey has felt like some form of the ‘black sheep’ and played out this theme countless times, often with angst and restlessness and even suicidal feelings.

On the other side of this process, I could bring this part of me into a new form other than the ‘black sheep’. She was able to shake off the black and the sheep suit came off too. She turned into a young lioness, full of power and presence, yet with heart and vulnerability. She is finding a new home inside of me where she can truly belong and be seen and loved for who she is, even in those times where she is being shown something not-so-easy to see or feel about herself.

You’ve been taught to look outside of you for validation and even for connection to Divine love.

You’ve been conditioned to believe that you’re always supposed to ‘achieve’ and ‘succeed’ even though the goalposts keep moving. This happens in 3D and also 4D in different spiritual groups too where your ‘black sheep’ feelings can become amplified instead of felt deeply, often in the form of ‘tough love’ which is really just outright abuse.

The feelings of not-belonging can be healed as the parts of you begin to unify, one by one, with each other and with you.

Love is the glue that brings your heart and soul back together again to wholeness within that can no longer be severed. Love is the juice that catalyzes the transformation from within. Yours is the love your lost and world-weary parts most need to feel, to remove their own sheep suits… for they were never meant to be ‘sheep’.

They were meant to be ‘lions’.

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Energy Update: We Are Integrating Awakenings/Realizations From Lion’s Gate Portal

by Kalayna Solais

There’s a powerful integration phase happening now as we continue to move out of Lion’s Gate and into a NEW rhythm in our lives. Whatever has been stirred up by the high, catalytic energies is now settling more into our hearts and living there, even the uncomfortable pieces that we are still digesting and moving through. There will likely be uncomfortable things to keep digesting, especially as Disclosure continues to unfold and so much is being illuminated by that alone for everyone… even those who until now haven’t bought into it or resonated much with it.
On a 3D level, this has been a phase of many new awakenings. It’s like a whole new class has entered the undergraduate degree program at ‘Ascension University’. The 3D Self and the parts that make it up are having their own reactions to this ongoing process of awakening. You may be one of these souls or you may be currently supporting others in this as they try to understand what is being activated and how to relate with it. We’re being asked to have patience and compassion for these souls, as there’s no need for elitism around any of this, even though bridging to them can be challenging. There’s much we can offer, even in small doses, to see what helps them open their hearts to their own souls.
On a 4D level, much has been brought out into the open from the Metasoul and the veil has been quite thin. Parts of the 3D Self are upgrading too, realizing how NOT 3D they actually are. This is very necessary right now, as the more we are still personally anchored into 3D, the more suffering there is without context for it and parts of us do truly need this context to help move them into deeper awakening and healing experiences along with us.
My own 3D Self named ‘Katie’, which is the name I went by until my mid-twenties, is starting to see her gifts even though this has been a huge struggle for her with the bombarding messages from 3D consciousness that validate insecurities and encourage smallness. She’s starting to see how she was always meant to be a 3D ‘Bridge’, not an entire ‘Self’ that is supposed to lead life and in this way she can help orient to 3D as needed without being fully anchored there. She really has more of a 4D consciousness and awareness than she even thought until now and this is starting to activate in many other 3D Selves too.
This process with ‘Katie’ has been hugely supported by my Sirian aspect, ‘Ineerah’ throughout Lion’s Gate. She has helped me tremendously with catching this part of me up to my reality and the goodness there truly is within me and in my life too. She has been helping me move into an even deeper healing of the baseline emotional reality of this part of me, who expects the worst most of the time and can easily find reasons to feel sad or be in despair. There is a tender new unification happening within as other parts of me come together to offer her the attention and love she needs.
This is what’s possible as we integrate the illuminations of our 3D consciousness habits and our 4D ones too as we move into letting IN more 5D consciousness and re-anchoring there. We can’t skip this process of really looking at it all and feeling it all through, asking ‘why?’ relentlessly and with so much desire to love ourselves more. We can only LOVE ourselves into 5D reality being our new ‘baseline’… any other approach cannot last for long nor is it meant to.
This so applies to everything we hear in the news, everything we take in from the Disclosure world. We are being asked to feel how this impacts us and reflects us back to us again. We are being invited, constantly, to bring our hearts to it and to feel what we want to experience, starting inside of us, on the other side of the necessary mess.
MUCH love to you in this humbling and REAL integration phase, whatever this looks like for you… ❤

 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Of Love And Limitations: Freedom Is In The Healing

There were many times in my life I just wanted to feel Free. Free to say what I wanted. Free to do what I wanted. Free to have what I wanted.

Yet I couldn’t feel this so-called “freedom”. I only felt ‘limited’. Which eventually turned into ‘imprisoned’. I turned that outward as the fault of my situational circumstances, of capitalism, the Powers That Be, and then eventually the totality of the 3rd Dimension.

Then as I turned my gaze inward I saw the warden WAS me. I was the one that created this reality that validated this imprisonment. This containment. I was choosing stasis, not death and rebirth. It’s not that I was dying, it was that parts of me were just too damn afraid to live!

There are still times I feel this lack of freedom. I know in my essence it is an illusion. A construct. A protection. A veil. It is there for a reason. A message. A place to go to heal and expand the gates a bit more.

You see, I have learned that we all have this limitation. We were gifted with it so that we could learn about ourselves. Learn about what Love can truly do. What it is capable of in the most horrendous of circumstances. That feels a bit insane to a part of me but when you experience that moment when Love finds its way into the Dark, it somehow all makes the most unimaginable sense.

It just IS. Right there waiting for us to let go of the trauma and the fear of what it means to be the Greatness Of Being Divine that we ARE. The power of love is so intense that we need this limitation so that we take it in like the most beautiful sunset ever-imagined after a very long night.

This is the process of our healing and our opening. One part, one soul aspect, one galactic being at a time.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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