by Gabriel Heartman
You have been made Aware. You SEE and FEEL how life is so much more than what you have been conditioned to see and protected to feel. You cannot be made unaware. You can choose to ignore, but it is always there. You may not have anyone to talk to about it, or, as much as they want to, they just can’t understand. You continue to learn more, to understand more, to feel more. The Light presses upon what is no longer serving this new, yet stillborn, YOU. It can be okay at times. Just letting it unfold in its due course. Other times it can be painful as hell. For some it can be existential and down right scary. What is it that can help this uncertainty?
Going into the geography of your heart may find you are at the end of a line….a timeline. An old way of being able to pull it all together to get through each day. There may be a moment when you finally realize the two worlds…just…don’t…jive. These could be relationships to people, things, behaviors, and thought patterns. Whatever it is that is not aligning with your Highest Desire and Inner Knowing. There is a rub between what you feel needs to be done to continue growing and how a part of you feels about that.
This can be a difficult process and the heart of what it means to live in 4D consciousness. There is a bitter-sweet feeling about it. There are bridges to burn, ropes to let go of, and chords to cut. In SoulFullHeart this is held as a sacred and negotiated process in compassionate concert with a part of you being held in heart space by this arising New You and the open heart of another who has been down that road. There are ebbs and flows. Baby steps and great leaps. All in the timing set by you, your Higher Self, and the parts of you so invested. The more emotional energy invested the more negotiation needed.
When the time eventually arises that a choice needs to be made for your greatest good, the space both before and after is big. It is a time to take stock of all that the relationship has meant to you, whether it be a romantic partner, a family member, a friend, a suffering loop, a drug, a food, or anything else under the sun that holds this energy. It is a time to feel what was learned, and what will be lost. This is the Mourning Time. This time has been held with much grace and honor across cultures. It is a phase in which you fully enter the pain, remorse, or any other feeling that comes up in order to fully exit. It is not a one day deal in many cases. The mourning is a process just like the one getting to it. But the more the mourning is inhabited, not with suffering, the more the relationship can be honored and made sacred.
This is a time of reflection, feeling, music, writing, sleeping, crying, laughing, remembering, and a plethora of other actions that arise to honor the space. All of it is important and beautiful. The amount of reverence given to this period the more reverence is given to what is to come. The rain washes away the smoke and soot of the fire to reveal the dawn of a new day. The air is fresher and the possibilities are endless. That is the gift on the other side. But it is one of great price to these parts of us who have held on for so long and for good reason. These continue to happen throughout the journey in our ascension, and the more we go into them the less they will occur as we keep the spiral going IN and UP.
I honor and admire all of us that have been through this, are going through it, and are approaching it. This time can be the most memorable of all as markers into your New You. It is so incredible to be able to go through it with others that have been there and feel the true courage it took to make these challenging choices. I hope to be a witness to them in any way possible. It is the magic of death and rebirth that fuels the propellers of Life.
Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com