Energy Update: Dark Mother/Kali Energies Guiding Us Through Death/Rebirth Cycles

by Kalayna Solais

There are two (maybe more) new worlds/realities dawning now and they are both powerful. One is a dystopia and the other a utopia (or with great potential to become this!). One moves farther away from love and into denser and denser consciousness grounds and suffering loops, while the other moves consciously and passionately towards love and everything that means… all that needs to be looked and felt within, especially, to be able to let love in.

It’s a time of great PURGatory before the healing and reconciliation of these two realities can really land. This healing has already begun and is actually helping to fuel this phase we’re still in of tensions and emotional breaking points.


Energies of war, battling, needing to be right, needing to prove, needing to scorn, needing to oppose, needing to hate, are coming UP and OUT like ooze. Like the worst hangover imaginable after so many years of medicating and denying the rage (which is really uninitiated passion) that needs to move through and also the medicating that has put away the need for self-love and self-loving decisions that are practical yet also spiritual and consciously felt through. This is sacred ground and there is MUCH to realize but even more to feel.

There’s been a sense of ‘hold on to the handrails!’ lately while SO many storms move through. We’re invited, always, into our own pacing that feels right to us about how many personal choices for the sake of our growth, ascension, and deepening self-love we are ready to make and when…. yet too, this is a powerful time with many Kali/Dark Mother energies inviting us into Her loving yet unsentimental LOVE furnace of death and rebirth. She invites us all into our soul bigness, our holding of ourselves and our inner realities, while we navigate the currently choppy waters swirling around and through us.

As always in times of great purgation and change, these storm-dances are necessary to help us all awaken and grow. We are NOT meant to suffer in these grounds, but to keep choosing love over fear, compassion over comparison, vulnerability over fighting, honesty over strategizing.

The new and most desired world possible HAS to come up from within each of us individually. It won’t be handed to us by anyone but our sovereign and growing Divine selves and our sacred learning process of what it means to embody that.

Every moment there are new choices to make. And there’s no perfect way to make them, but to be so sacredly in the process we are all in individually and collectively. Love is guiding the way through the tensions, heartbreaks, and openings too and it knows that we are all finding our way through the darkness of what has been as we stumble into our most natural and sincere Greatness as Sacred Humans remembering. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Mid-Year Energy Update: CATalytic Sirian Gateway Creates UPsurge And Clarity

Half of 2020 is ‘in the books’. This roller coaster of a ride feels like it is honestly just beginning. From what I understand from an astrological perspective is that this is something that may be a ‘new normal’ for some time to come, through next year possibly.

When I tap into that from my guidance as well, it feels very true. The amps have been turned up and the field we find ourselves in is quite catalytic and rumbling. What I saw in meditation was a lighthouse among an onslaught of waves that was being influenced by an intense energy field. I made an image to represent the feeling tone of it.

I feel we are entering a 4D upsurge. The Subconscious, concurrent timelines, and archetypal dynamics are all making their way to the surface of our waking and/or physical reality. It is causing waves, both inner and outer.

This Sirian Gateway is adding to that overall mix. It is quite a potent time to be here now. If there is any guidance, it IS to Be Here Now. To find the lighthouse within. To connect to the Sirian energies of clarity, boundary, purpose, and play. They give us the ability to stay focused, be real, and be fluid.

The Lighthouse represents how I want and need to be during this times. I feel more solid than ever in my soul’s purpose and heart’s desire to serve, however that manifests itself. If there are others that feel to be tossed and torn during this time, I feel to offer my heart space or at least my own clarity of what is happening collectively.

This can be hard to navigate these waters alone, especially if you find yourself further from the shores you once called ‘home’. A lot is changing and will no longer be the same. We are all in a birth canal in one form or another. Finding a life preserver along the way is not a sign a weakness, but a sign of willingness not to suffer in the storm.

Beginning July 15th, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be offering the next Free To Be 5D Group Call series. This will be focused on Jelelle’s book of the same title. The series will be a great opportunity to connect to all of the parts and aspects of you that are in trauma and/or confusion. It aims to be the Lighthouse in the storm. Opportunities to digest the calls and to connect with others will offered by myself and Kalayna Solais on Saturdays beginning July 18th.

For more info visit: soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

For info on Jelelle’s book: soulfullheart.org/books

I also offer a free 45-minute Consulation Call to feel if and how SoulFullHeart can serve you during these catalytic times.

Sending much love to you and all that you are navigating at this time.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Shifting From ‘Fighting’ For Your Desires/Needs Into Advocating With Self-Love

by Kalayna Solais

You’re hard-wired to seek out a life that has more ease to it, more deep fulfillment. You’re conditioned, however, to ‘fight’ for it outside of you, to ‘make’ it happen, instead of feeling and healing the fight within you, respond to life on the outside as needed, and to allow this desired life to reveal itself to you from the inside out.

Amazing things happen as the ‘warriors’ that 3D and Lower 4D consciousness have co-created within you start to heal. You start to see and experience a life with less turmoil and tension. And, you recognize that when you do feel these things in your field, you have all the power you need to choose appropriate boundaries and other shifts in your circumstances or relationships that are led by self-love.

The ‘warriors’ inside of you are the parts of you that have HAD to push away at the toxicity they were born into, in one way or another. They’ve HAD to be in their own sacred processes of awakening to the rumbles of the collective, to the systems in place that yes, need to and are collapsing, even without parts of you holding the blowtorch (though I get that in some cases, boy do they want to!). Healing the warrior energy inside of you is not about moving into passivity or transcending any difficulties you witness or experience until they go away on their own.

Actually, it’s quite an active process of feeling the inner battlegrounds and going THERE. Going into your Metasoul to feel the personal connection you hold to ‘race wars’ within other lifetimes, let alone this one. Going inward to feel what the people in power represent, how your own soul has participated willingly in the creation of the collapsing ‘Cabal’. Your sacred soul journey is playing out now and always and within is the place where you have any real jurisdiction to ‘do your part’ to change the world at large.

Any actions you need to take on the outside of you, then spring naturally from these places and parts within you that are healing. You’ll naturally feel the need for more space from others who don’t resonate with the inner work you’ve undertaken. You won’t necessarily find even a ‘battle’ in that advocation, even if there are moments of needing to push back against an energy to set a much-needed boundary. This experience is temporary though and you’ll find it comes from a new place within you and with new energy too, that isn’t looking for a battle but responding instead to dissonant energies and moving them out of your heart space and personal space with LOVE.

This process is a sacred re-wiring of your life from the inside-out. It holds the fulfillment you’re ultimately seeking and wanting and deeply desiring. It unlocks the door to you, your parts, your ever-deepening soul journey and shifts you into the space of being a Love Ambassador, a unique energy that this world, and your inner world, need now more than ever before.

Gabriel, Raphael, and I offer FREE 30-45min consultation calls if you’re interested in the SoulFullHeart Experience healing process and what I’m offering here: soulfullheart.org/sessions

MUCH love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Gatekeeper As An Essential Part Of Our Awakening And Ascension

The timeline gates have widened. Gaia is continuing Her ascent. Love is doing its Work. It is not pretty or neat. It is real. What has been in Shadow is coming to the Surface. It will continue to do so. There is no more ‘normal’. There only navigation, surrender, and self-love. As chaotic as it appears, it is necessary so we can find ourselves again.

The ‘past’ is finding its way to the present. That ‘past’, or other timelines, are weaving in and out of each of our fields. A great final act is underway. So how can you navigate all of this intensity and increased Love Bath at the same time?

The Gatekeeper is an aspect that holds many keys to our emotional and spiritual healing and ascension. It is the Purveyor and Guardian of your deepest traumas and gifts, both. Through access and relationship with the aspect of you, you get a wider view of what is going on inside and outside of you. How does your soul story relate to what is happening now? Where does all the pain, fear, anxiety, depression come from?

This is where your Gatekeeper can be a guide alongside your humanity. Many times we can fuse to this energy and it is INTENSE! More than our human bodies and hearts can handle at times. A deeper connection and separation from them can help to feel your sovereign self among the chaos.

I made the top image below to represent what a Gatekeeper may feel like to some. This is how he came to me in the beginning stages of my process. With much work and inner process he has changed quite a bit to a more angelic presence. They do, and can, hold many varied frequencies. For more info on this aspect you can read this great article here:https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Metasoul/Karmic Healing Brings Clarity To Your NOW

There are so many timelines that are in play right now. Taking a Star Being’s-eye view, it almost looks like the multitude of tree branches coming out from a central trunk.
That trunk feels like our essential unity. The core of who and what we are in our nature. Our Divine/Galactic connection. Yet there are multiple offshoots all leading to an eventual termination point.

These can be seen and felt as Metasoul timelines that have a varied impact on the Now. These timelines have an effect on what is happening both inside of you and outside. All these personal soul narratives coalescing and merging into one powerful human lower 4D soup.

To feel these timelines, or Metasoul aspects, it gives you a personalized relationship to what is happening on the world’s stage, and the turmoil that it may be causing within. When ‘this life’ trauma and reaction are coupled with ‘other life’ trauma and reaction, there is a large personal power suck that happens.

It is like the energy from the trunk gets moved to the branches rather than the supportive core itself. The trunk loses itself and its holding power, and then can collapse by the energetic weight of the branches.When your branches (parts and Metasoul aspects) are brought inward, toward your trunk (our higher heart and soul expression), the energy can then be transmuted and integrated into your core. This more solid You can then begin to see and feel what is authentically yours and how you want to authentically respond and act.

In our next Free To Be 2 group call, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be talking about the Metasoul, Karmic healing, and the Gatekeeper. They will provide a guided meditation to help you meet your Gatekeeper, who is akin to your personal guardian and guide of your Metasoul. The Gatekeeper is an important aspect to become acquainted with when desiring to do a deep dive into soul karma, trauma, and pattering.

By feeling your personal soul relationship to any external circumstance whether it be global, social, or intimate, it can bring a whole new consciousness around the pain, fears, and reactions to so many things. It has been a huge gift to me on my journey and has really helped to get that Star Being’s-eye view as well as a grounded relationship (roots) to what my needs, desires, and clarities are.
For more information please visit: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

If you are interested in a free consult with myself, Raphael, or Kalayna you can go to soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info as well.

Much love to you during these trying times.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Sovereign Process Of Freeing Yourself From The Matrix

by Kalayna Solais

Our unplugging from the already collapsing 3D Matrix and even the 4D Matrix and all of its shadowy soul themes too, is always a sovereign choice. There are many different phases and stages and they come around when we’re ready, as we’re ready. We’ve spent more ‘time’, more lifetimes and timelines attached to it and its workings than parts of us often realize or appreciate, so there’s a lot to have patience around and a lot to process and feel through as well.

When I ‘look’ at the 3D Matrix, I see a gilded cage with an open door, showing me that we are all free to leave it but then again, some parts of us have been so used to the ‘cage’ that it’s hard to do so.

Behind that gilded cage is a giant, sticky spiderweb, which is what the 4D Matrix looks and feels like to me. It’s so challenging to free ourselves, our Metasoul aspects working/living out some very charged and painful soul themes, from its grip and the more they ‘fight’ to free themselves, the more ‘stuck’ to it they become.

What we’re moving through now has a lot to do with this stickiness and this open cage door. We are fumbling, as a collective, toward the light being cast through the openings. Individual souls are awakening to their deeper trust in the invitation and initiation being offered. It’s so easy to lose heart when things get hard and all we see on the news is more pain, as if the pain is all there is to validate. Of course this is, in a way, a game of mirrors from the Matrix itself and those who are invested in it staying intact somehow creating optical illusions meant to try and keep us in the ‘cage’. They also flex their influence by showing that the solution to the ‘problem’ at hand is one thing, usually whatever popular/mainstream opinion says it is, when it’s really another.

There are necessary phases of anger. But we aren’t truly evolving and ascending beyond the Matrix if we don’t also make our way to compassion. It’s this process though that is THE most humbling. Anger is not vulnerable or humble in its energy, but the hurt and the unexpressed soul and heart passion beneath the rage are. These are the energies that, when accessed by feeling and relating with parts of you like your Inner Teenager and Inner Punisher, for example, really DO create a deeper sense of emancipation from everything that isn’t you and never has been you and moving into the embracement of what IS.

There is also a lot to feel in the Metasoul, with all of these themes being activated because other timelines are bleeding through onto your current one. Everything you feel in reaction and response to any current event runs through you because of the experiences your parts have had in this life and the experiences your soul has had in other lifetimes.

The good news is, it’s all moveable. You’re feeling it because you have the growing capacity to BE with it, feel it deeply, make a home for these parts and Metasoul aspects inside of your heart, and move with genuine gusto into a NEW space within and in response to the world. Compassion for others, which is so needed right now and always, can only really be birthed from growing compassion within.

The Matrix, which is crumbling with even greater pacing now it seems, doesn’t stand a chance and never DID stand a chance against our awakening souls and healing, opening hearts. It was never meant to. Our approach to this healing is individually and sovereignly chosen, but it IS being chosen even when we don’t consciously realize it.

We are already free. Free to choose our path to even greater freedom from deep within ourselves. The layers to this are colourful, fascinating, and never-ending.

The cage door is open. The spiderweb is only there to hold you until you feel able to stop struggling and just keep feeling. The invitation is always there and the choice is always yours if you feel ready to see what’s possible and move consciously and curiously toward that, with even more embracement of each step, of each and every feeling there is to feel along the way.

Within this process lies the rebirth of your Divine trust, through which you can experience your deepest healing yet. And eventually… you find yourself flying. You find the ‘cage’ laying dismantled on the floor and the spiderweb swept away or at least much less intimidating as it can now become a curious place to visit as needed or desired.

This is what it means to become free of the Matrix in all its forms and energies. This is what it means to truly be free, to lean into love, to remember who you really ARE. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Arising Anew From The Collapse Of The 3D Matrix

In the midst before me, I see a dying story. A matrix of beliefs and conditionings that we have all, to one degree or another, found ourselves playing a part of. We have written and acted in the play together, to sheer perfection.

But we have crossed certain markers in our path too many times now to begin to recognize that the house we contracted to build together is burning. It is running on the fumes of a fear of fusing to the building itself. We are not burning. The house is.

This can be a very existential experience to our 3D self as well as a very triggering remembrance to our Metasoul brothers and sisters that have experienced a collapse before. They have not been pretty, nor self-loving. But that doesn’t mean they can’t be.

Deaths are never easy and have their own energies to be with, yet if we can find that essence within us to hold the space of this transmutation then we may find ourselves like the rose among the ashes.

Connecting with your 3D & 4D selves with the aid of your 5D/Higher Self, a managed collapse is possible and also very self-loving. That is not the same as easy, just setting the suffering gauge to as minimal as possible. It is really up to you in the end.

How we leave is who we enter as.

Our fear can come with us as long as we are willing to go into it and feel it. This is the process that is supported in SoulFullHeart. It is holding the Light so that we can transform the Dark. We are both.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Choosing A Sovereign New Earth Domain

In my last session with my facilitator and mentor, Raphael Awen, I found myself at the gates of what parts of me refer to as ‘The System’. In its basic form it is the Institution of Authority (administered by the captive reptilian race that is inextricably entwined with us). The rules, norms, and programs set in place by alleged ‘experts’ and ‘elected’ officials to manage, manipulate, control, and confine our innate, co-creative God self. 

I realized in the juxtaposition of my God self, my reptilian, and this System, that we have been, and still are, willing participants in this arrangement. If I truly feel myself as a spark of Universal Creation, then I have to be willing to accept that I have been in cahoots with this dynamic. Otherwise, I am just a disempowered victim and my only freedom exists from either joining the System or battling It (and thus, my reptilian self), or choosing to suffer in it. Neither of which feels appealing or at all a reflection of my desire to be truly free, sovereign, and in Love. 

In the process, I realized how much I, and parts of me, have accepted the ‘rules’ as such. What if I choose not to lend my energy to the Institutionalized Consciousness, but to give it thanks for what it did offer me, like a parent who raised me for a certain portion of my life, and now choosing emancipation and sovereignty? Can I do that? 

Well, energetically, why the hell not? I can transport myself and my conditioned parts into a new world where there is no virus, no fiat currency, no taxes, lawyers, licensure, registrations, or documents to be signed, sealed, and delivered. I can freely travel there without a ‘valid form of identification’. I can seed that into my consciousness and let it find its way into this ‘physical’ reality the more I feel the parts of me that are skeptical and in doubt. 

The biggest thing to feel is what the hell would I do without those constraints? Is that the biggest fear? Of actually being so damn free that I could actually live and love in abundance and not just ‘dream’ about it? Fuck yeah, man! I choose to believe in that. Matter of fact, science is proving that to be the very case! So while that world is not staring at me square in the face, it does in my heart and my soul. That energy of feeling free is the seed of BEing free. I am under no illusion it will take time to manifest. But the more I continue to say “thanks, but no thanks” to the outer authority, institution, and systems, then I continue to break those chains that keep me and It locked in this dance. 

So, I face the System within. I look square at it. I give it gratitude and appreciation for all that it offered and taught me about myself. Now it is time to do this thing MY way. One felt, conscious step at a time.

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Gabriel Heartman is a Facilitant and Collaborator with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

3D/4D Freedom Starts From Within

For the first time in my life I can honestly say that I feel free. Free from my FUSIONS to fear, doubt, and lack. But I am not free FROM feeling fear, doubt, and lack. Those to me are part of my human journey and integration. In states of fusion, I have become the energy of those things wholesale. No way to see through or around the density of the frequency. However, the process of feeling these emotions and energies as PARTS of me created space and distance. 

This distance has been short lived at times. Well, to be honest, many times. Yet, with each separation something continued to seed inside. Each one opened doorways to deeper and deeper programs, addictions, conditions, and traumas. It has felt like a video game at times where you go to more and more challenging levels to get to the doorway to the next one! 

Recently, I entered a Reptilian level. This one has proved, for me, to be a game-changer. This visceral and emotive awareness of my 4D Reptilian Self, has helped to feel a dismantling of something very core in me. This constant foreboding feeling that life is not going to go my ‘way’. A feeling that, no matter what good was in my life, it was not going to last or I was not worthy of it. This, I am realizing, has all been a part of the transmission. 

I have known this in my mind, yet in my heart and soul it continued to linger. Like a phantom mechanism. When held in ‘captivity’ for so long, it is hard to reintegrate and immerse back into the fold of the way it used to be. The captive may even find comfort in the way things were as it was known and predictable. This is what I am realizing about my past processes. 

But now, I am seeing and feeling something different. I am sitting with my Reptilian self outside the prison walls just witnessing. Not rushing into any definitive conclusions other than just what it FEELS like. Breathing in the air of freedom for what feels like an eternity for both of us. While we are not free to just do what we want on the outside, to feel this freedom within feels like the precursor to what is ready to manifest on the outside. 

The lesson for me…free yourself from within. The key is there. You just have to feel your way through the dark sometimes. 

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Gabriel Heartman is a Facilitant and Collaborator with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Unplugging From The 4D Matrix Group Call Today!

by Jelelle Awen

The 3D/4D Matrix is collapsing. The prison doors have been unlocked and are now OPEN. We truly are now FREE!! Still time to join us today live at 10:00am PDT during our weekly group call over Zoom for an important piece of teaching and next level/cutting edge working on the Ascension journey.
I don’t know of anyone else teaching this process in this way or with this ambassador of love energy around it. We will be sharing about the collapsing of the 3D/4D Matrix that is going on with this Coronavirus event, the Reptilian self entwinement at the 4D level and need for mutual liberation, and the ‘Programmers’/Archonic Group that is now letting both species ‘go to be free.’

We will offer a guided meditation for you to connect to your Reptilian Self and help them to unplug from the programming, which allows YOU to unplug and deprogram at a deeper level too! Yeshua and Magdalenes will serve as Divine bridges to bring them into a higher frequency space of liberation and recovery.

You can join us by offering any amount of donation as an energy exchange here: soulfullheart.org/shop or here: paypal.me/jelelleawen

More info here about the series: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

We will send you the recordings to the previous four group calls in this series so you don’t need have attended them to come to this one. You will also receive the recording of this call today too if you can’t join us live!

love,
Jelelle Awen and Raphael Awen

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.