From Nine to Ten: Completing The Cycle Of Suffering And Moving Into Trust

Moving from 9 to 10. The end of September. The beginning of October. I felt something significant move into my body yesterday. After my past 9 year, 9 month, 9 day cycle had completed with quite a bang through the body illness, it filled with a renewed sense of being. Of purpose. Of clarity and above all…Trust. I was filled with 10. It is like I have been a 9 for so long that I can’t even remember anything else. Always on the edge of completion but never completing. Suffering over the suffering of feeling out of reach of this new world of 10. 

When I look it up, I read the characteristics as 

*Independence

*Infinite potential

*Wholeness

*Self-determination

*Exploration

That all seems to align perfectly with what is moving through me. Now these are not absolute. I still feel parts of me that have doubt, anxiety, and fear but they feel less ‘up front’ then they used to be. My Service to Other has grown over my Service to Self. A tipping point has occurred and I feel the Divine gracefully guiding me and supporting me in my next steps as a healer and a leader. 

I needed this last round of Dark Night to get me here. It may not be my last but it is getting awfully damn close. The Dark Mother has always been a gift to me, even though parts of me just couldn’t see it that way until they could. 

I feel many of us are in this phase of moving from 9 to 10. Getting swept up in the brevity of its chaos and intensity. I have traversed these waters for a reason. Not to just move on but to assist others as well to the other side that want the support and guidance. I feel clear about that as the Sun shines behind me. 

How that service and support manifests is up to the Divine but I am Here. I am continuing to love myself and to offer Love to others in any way that it is meant to land, whether by my word or through space-holding. I am excited to see what unfolds for myself, you, and the world at large as we move into this new phase of our INvolution. 

Love to you all that have been with me on this journey. Thank you for your witness and love. I offer it back to you in spades.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Great Time To Be A Nine! (Oops…Alive!)

I decided to check in with the number 9 this morning as it seems a lot of people will be talking about it today feels like. Hard to not notice on a day like today, it being 9/9/1+8 and all. Here is my chat with this auspicious number:

Good morning, number 9. I was wondering if you would be up for some questions this morning. You are going viral today!

9: Yeah, you can say that. I can feel it in all my chakras! Lots of people talking about me today.

How does that feel to you?

9: It feels good. I don’t get a lot of recognition in everyday circumstances as there is no 9:99 on your clocks. My brethren tend to get the lion’s share of the exposure on that front. It’s all good. I like to be a little mysterious anyway. Kinda show up when you are least expecting me.

Hmmm…interesting. Why is that?

9: Well, I am a number that signifies a lot of change. Endings and completions. I am the death part of the rebirth cycle. That gets a lot of people feeling a little rumbly and nervous. Sometimes when change seems to arrive out of nowhere the only thing one can do is surrender or suffer. The choice becomes adamantly clear. Unless of course suffering is part of the learning and growing. I tend to want to get people to make their way to 10.

Does that feel a little lonely then?

9: No, not really. I have a lot of work to do! So many souls are on my doorstep and in my house Gabriel! This is a magical time to be a nine! Oh, I meant alive…sorry, occupational hazard.

Lol! Yes, I can see that. You feel alive to me even in the rumbles. You live on a tectonic fault line it feels like.

9: Oh my, yes. It has its moments. There is nothing dull about being the number nine. The one thing I love is watching the light of awareness go on when souls see the number 10 on the horizon. That there is a new beginning. They have to move from being one digit to becoming 2! This is a shift in consciousness that takes the time it takes. It means taking the steps to become like a newborn again. A 1 and 0 both. Woah, man. That is blowing my mind again. Sorry, I get this way from time to time when I take that in. What a rush from my perspective.

Wow…yeah. I can feel that strangely enough. I never thought I could connect to a number this way. You are pretty magical yourself there Nine. I actually feel some tears for you watching others move on.

9: Awwww…..that is kind of you, Gabriel. Maybe I need to feel the part of me that feels some sadness around that. I have just done my job for so long I have forgotten what it was like to dream about being 10. Maybe that is my next going-on place too. I guess as long as 8 is ready to take my place we can all find our next places!

Lol! Now you got it! What is the biggest thing you would like to tell others that you have learned in all your days of being Nine?

9: I would say that you were never meant to stay stuck. You were meant to move on. To become a 10. You were meant to say goodbye in order to say hello. Suffering in the fear of falling into Zero is held when you realize there is One right by your side. That One is always in you and never outside of you.

That was pretty profound Nine. Wow, thank you. I want to soak that One in. You just arouse different for me. I honor what you are and what you represent. A lot of goodness that can only arise from feeling the fear and even unworthiness of being a 10. Whew! I think I will stop here and let that be in the space today. I am so grateful we had this time together. Thank you for all you are Nine.

9: I am only that which is reflected onto me so I thank YOU for your recognition and how you have honored your own 9 moments inside of you and your growth. Here is to a new you and a new me as we feel and honor the old, that which is meant to serve something bigger than we can both even imagine.

Amen to that Nine. I love you. 🙂

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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