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Lion’s Gate Energy Update: ‘Receive’ Rather Than ‘Reach’ During This Ten-Year Cycle Completion Time

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by Kasha Rokshana

Energy Update: As this Lion’s Gate passage brings us into the completion of a 10-year cycle, you may find yourself breaking down to break open in ways that may surprise you. And, you may find that while you feel activated and accelerated in certain things at the moment, there’s also a pacing needed to let it all in, and a sense that some other areas of your life and personal journey may need more time to birth… especially if there is pain to feel along the way.

It can all feel crazy or even mournful at times, especially if you find you’re needing to let go of something or someone precious in order to let yourself in in a new way, yet there’s a poignancy, sacredness, and aliveness to it all too as the Divine holds and guides us all through anything and everything we’re feeling and walking out…

The ongoing message from the lions of Sirius, who I tend to feel so strongly as my galactic soul connection to them runs so deep for me personally, is to be with the process and allows it to actually BE a process without an agenda… to choose to remain heading towards wherever the road is leading you inward and outward, to feel it all, to find and lean into your inner foundation of trust in the Divine, to not rush or hurry anything along and to feel any parts of you that may want to rush so that their fears, anxieties, uncertainties can be felt and held in your heart rather than acted from or assuaged somehow.

Our Ascension as Sacred Humans is an ongoing process and it needs to be that way in my sense of it. If it suddenly were over, the deeper transformational power of it and each poignant moment too would be lost somehow. A magic would be lost as well. Our arising wouldn’t feel as sacred.

I feel this for myself while in my own ongoing death and rebirth cycle in my Divine connection and in that, my entire connection to life itself. I feel a strong personal invitation to receive rather than reach for what I want and what my soul feels it truly desires to have, to become, to draw to me, and to live into in this lifetime as I also reconcile other lifetimes and the pain and shadows that linger there.

This process of receiving seems to be one for us women specifically of really cultivating our centre, our inner garden where our parts and soul aspects can BE, and our ‘Lilith phase’ of independence and alchemy. This can happen in so many ways and circumstances, yet the most vital thing I feel around this at the moment, is the feeling of receiving love and what we most need in all areas of our life, rather than over-reaching or exerting energy to grab at what we once thought we wanted or were being guided towards.

Perhaps there’s a ‘soul turn’ waiting to ground in for you as you find your way at this time during this gateway where we are SO supported to be in our bigness yet also our stillness, creating from there with self-love and beholding of life’s mysteries.

Surrendering to the Divine seems to also keep coming up for me personally, as I’m truly getting these days how nothing, really nothing at all, is actually up to me. And what makes this even more powerful is the sense that I’m not surrendering to an outside force so much as to the Divine will within me, that is inherent in my embodiment of my Divine Self that continues to deepen and be explored. I feel surrendered yet empowered, if that makes sense. And it feels pretty amazing when my parts/aspects can truly begin to rest into that!

Lots of love to you wherever you’re at, whatever you’re feeling, as your own letting in of this Lion’s Gate time deepens for you and guides you too into the new with so much love and support flowing beneath those courageous wings of yours.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Imbolc 2022 ‘Brigid’ Message: “May you continue to awaken as individual flames of humanity’s sacred truth…”

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by Kasha Rokshana

Tomorrow is Imbolc, a festival that takes place at the midpoint between winter and spring and an energy that begins to illuminate the path behind and the way ahead.

Last year at this time I was living in Glastonbury and I found myself deeply connecting to the energies of this time of year. I also connected to the Brigid, the face of Divine Mother who is particularly present at this time. She had a lot to offer about how now is a time when what has only felt possible may become imminent as the winter of waiting overturns and the spring of new arisings and arrivals comes in.

At the time, I could only begin to feel what she meant… yet a day or so later, Gabriel crossed the space to me and we began to reunite and repair our Sacred Union which until then had felt ‘complete’. Raphael and Jelelle had already been exploring their own reunion after a brief period of separation and completion of old ground as well. My mate ache had really been peaking at the time too and it was becoming so challenging to hold it and not feel frustration around it. It was as if I knew somehow that my mate was in my field and close by too, though I hadn’t quite put together yet just HOW close!

This time last year there were also several souls who were deepening in community with us, or would be soon. After their resonance with us dissipated, it brought us all into a place of reevaluating where SoulFullHeart was going and what we were trying to seed in the world. It was an opportunity to look back at what we had held within and with others and what we needed to look at ourselves but also what resolve within us needed to strengthen.

Imbolc and Brigid’s fire of rebirth and illumination started a process of next-level resonance explorations in our intimate relationships, our relationship to this process and way of life we embody and offer, and also our relationship to our geography. The guidance to leave the UK and head to Portugal became clearer and clearer by the onset of spring, and by mid-summer, we were on our way.

This Imbolc, I feel the same message from Brigid with a few additions:

“May the possible become imminent, for the sake of your explorations of all that is truly current in your inner and outer worlds. May the promise of a new, Divine dawn, become sparked within and spread as an awakened sunrise on the horizon with all its colours on display.

May you continue to awaken as individual flames of humanity’s sacred truth… that you were never rendered completely powerless, that you were brought here for a reason, and though the way forward may need more illumination, the candle is in your Divine Self’s hands.

You have a ways to travel yet, but hope is on your side… and though the new world has only begun to seed itself, the sprouts of what is to come arrive like snow drop flowers through the cold and frozen ground.

Whenever you need the light of my fire, just ask. Whenever you need the nourishment of my fields of plenty, growing upward from the soil of the old, simply arrive for the arising.

I love you. I am here for the burning up of what was and celebrating with you all of your steps into the new.

Love,
Brigid 🔥”

I feel tears for the cries of the world as I take in what Brigid is offering us all in this message and I feel her encouraging me personally to continue to embody what I am here to explore and embody… it’s a sad time to be alive, with the Great Passing we are moving through (I wrote about it here) and yet with the Divine connections and support available to us all, I feel a peace and aliveness within at the same time.

We are living through one of the most trying times in our human history since Atlantis perhaps, yet here we ARE, placed here for a reason, choosing to stay or not, and empowered in all of it. It’s a deadly time in one way and so deeply alive in another!

I am sending all my love outward and inward today and as Imbolc’s energies land in your own heart, soul, and sacred life… may this current phase you are completing bring the portal to the next one in with as much grace as possible.

Love,
Kasha

Imbolc/Brigid artwork by Wendy Andrews

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The ‘Great Passing’ Taking Place During This Time Of The ‘Great Awakening’

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by Kasha Rokshana

While the Great Awakening – this opportunity for humanity to truly reunite with its core divinity – continues to move through, we are also experiencing what I’ve been guided to call the ‘Great Passing’ – a necessary and heavy passage where we are grieving the body death of many people and animals, as well as relationships and ways of living too.

The ‘Great Passing’, as Divine Mother has offered it to me, is a time of mourning and sacred letting goes. It’s a rather rough time that asks us to be real with everything we’re feeling… and while it truly is challenging to be with and face all of the dying in our midst, it’s also inviting us to feel the thinning veil around the core truth of what we’ve been invited here to rebuild and make new.

There’s actually so much that death invites us to get real about and to reconcile with. It’s always another portal to our deeper awakening as souls and sacred humans and these portals appear no matter what sort of ‘death’ we’re facing… the letting go of jobs, relationships, life as we knew it before the C-vid-Peak-Fear narrative took hold, are all portals and ways back into our divine consciousness, which embraces everything that needs to be felt and asks us to bypass absolutely nothing.

When I tuned into the Great Passing in meditation, I saw myself as one of many souls who are convicted to remain here on Gaia as long as possible, lined up and facing a great staircase similar to one leading up to a temple in Greece or Rome. So much emotion came up as I watched many souls walk up the staircase… adults, children, and animals by the thousands. My heart wept for the pain they were in before passing and the pain of those who will be facing the physical loss of them. My soul wept too, feeling how much the Divine loves every part of us all through it all and has never ever stopped though the veils to feeling this have been around us for many reasons.

The only place I know I can always find comfort at this time of necessary and sometimes consciously chosen death is in the arms of the Divine. Here is where I feel how death is an invitation for these souls who simply cannot withstand the pressures and pain they’re in that’s only being stirred up more by the escalating energies as Gaia ascends and the ‘old’ collapses, pillar by pillar. I also feel the hope that these deaths offer… that even from another dimension, they will be a part of supporting the process we’re ALL in right now in different ways and forms and at different levels of consciousness.

I’ve been shown as well a ‘suicide dimension’… a place in between this dimension and the one of reunion with the Divine, where many souls are lingering and making choices about either continuing to live or not. I feel Divine Mother especially holding these souls in Her arms, weeping with them, and supporting their choices too. I feel how this is an honouring of free will and of the soul’s individual choice… if they know somehow that they aren’t strong enough to withstand what’s intensifying in life as they’ve known it, they are choosing to move on either through direct action or energetically calling in other ways to pass.

This Great Passing is intended to move us all into the new… and those of us who humbly choose to remain here are the ones ultimately meant to do so. My deepest desire is for us all to continue arising and showing up as the Death Doulas we are meant to be now so that we can become the Rebirth Doulas that usher in the NEW in honour of all of those who are currently or soon moving on.

There’s nothing to fight in any of this, yet there is a whole lot to give love to, starting within each of us.

It’s this love flow within that unites what has become fractured within, keeps us feeling even minimally ok with being here, and makes it doable. It’s this love flow that connects us with resonant souls and calls in our Soul Family/Tribe/Soulmates, no matter the differences we are invited to reconcile and the challenges of life conditioning and parts’ reactions within us all.

It’s this love flow that keeps us moving deeper into the healing of our soul legacies and imprints from other lifetimes as we become more intimate with that as well. And, it’s this love flow that reconnects us to the Divine through the ever-thinning veil of our personal awakenings, rooted in the heart and expanding into the soul… making all of the ‘death and rebirth’ cycles worth living through.

You are held, I am held, we are held…

With so much love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Death & Rebirth Of Your 3D Self Guided Meditation: Video 9 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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In this ninth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about the Third Dimensional (3D) Self, how you may experience yours, why they formed, and the death/rebirth process they are invited into at this phase of Ascension. The 3D Self usually operates on fear-based energies that seek to secure, conform, judge, be in scarcity, etc.

We share in this video about how the awakening process allows your 3D Self to unplug from the Control Matrix/programming/conditioning and essentially ‘die’ to its previous form based on self-image and 3D ego structure. Digesting this death and bridging to the rebirth allows for much more surrender and connection to Divine support.

In this video, Divine Mother and Divine Father once again join you and your Gatekeeper on a journey into the ‘funeral parlour’ of your castle to meet/connect with your 3D Self version that has died. You honor your 3D Self and also connect to any parts of your 3D Self that still need bridging. Then, you move into the ‘nursery’ of rebirth to connect with your 4D or Awakening Self.

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeB…

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about two Deepen 2022 group calls on January 16th 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Amara, and Kasha Rokshana, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

The Sacred ‘Pregnancy’ Of Humanity During This 10/10 Passage

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by Kasha Rokshana

I feel the ‘pregnancy’ of this time we’re living in. So much urgency to respond to as things shift and change from one moment to the next and there’s an apt restlessness in that experience too. You might also feel a push-pull within as parts of you sway and toggle between feeling like they are truly ready to move on from the ‘old, known normal’ and also like they want to cling to every last bit of it that they can. Every aspect of life as we’ve known it has been shaken up in the last couple of years and like expectant mothers and fathers, we know intuitively and logically that life can never go back to the way it was in humanity’s ‘youth’, before the added sense of responsibility for our own collective and individual shadows entered the birth canal.

I feel this year’s 10/10 passage as a Divine opportunity to respond to what’s real and to lean into guidance and Divine love too. It’s a gift… as even the hardest times are. We aren’t being caretaken or coddled by the Divine on our growth journey right now, though at the same time, we’re also being gently cradled as we experience the grief, tears, mourning, purging, in our letting go of a reality that was once precious to some parts of us… and resented too, by others. In humanity’s young-ness on a consciousness and galactic level, we were afforded certain ‘passes’ for a time. We were given the grace to ‘grow-up’ on our own accord and make choices that have now led to our Great Learning/Awakening. But now… now we’re in the pressure cooker of our own evolutionary story and being asked to truly take it seriously.

The truth always remains that Divine Love is holding us through it all. Even during these times where we may feel energies/lifetimes in our souls crying out and feeling anything BUT connected to this reality. The Divine is as ‘pregnant’ as we are, holding our hands and hearts in Its own. We are the parents, the stewards of what’s next and what’s new and as-yet unknown, just as we are also being parented and stewarded. This collaboration with the Divine is as sacred as sacred can be, and an invitation to feel our rebirth is being invested in at all times.

Though the dark and darker agendas keep coming to light, we are being empowered to look at them with the divinely discerning eyes, to let in all the textures of reactions and response to the truth of what’s emerging. We, as sacred humans, are not all ‘one-note’ after all, and this emotional range, our capacity to empathize and to care deeply about ourselves and others, is being called upon to help leverage and launch ourselves into the newly arising chapter that can only come out of the ashes, the incredibly humbling learning and re-learning experience that ‘life’ has been and continues to be for us ALL here on Gaia.

Divine love supports us all, surrounds us all, holds us all now and always. Letting in your own Divine connection however you feel to and can, is, as always, so vital to what’s real now and what is becoming real for all of us as walk out this 10/10 passage.

Join Raphael and Jelelle for a by-donation Zoom group meditation call this coming Sunday on 10/10, focused on Divine Love and deepening your own Divine connection. More info here: soulfullheart.org/events

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Death Of Our Formal Normal

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The Rome and Titanic of our former collective institutions, the ones we collectively agree upon to keep them afloat, are all under fire and sinking. Government, health care, education, finance, real estate, defense, economics, supply-chain…the list goes on.

There is an ongoing hospice going on and there are different reactions to it. It is like the stages of grief- denial, anger, negotiation, depression, and acceptance. Where each of us is at means different ways in which we are relating to the current situation. The soul knows what’s up. Our emotional consciousness is just trying to catch up to it all!

This can bring a lot of suffering as well as some feelings of empowerment. Different parts of us come forward to manage the situation the best they know how. The deeper question is what does your soul feel is its truth? Not THE truth, but IT’S truth. It’s genuine sense of what lies underneath all this rumble and rubble.

This may not even apply to the global situation, but rather your own personal and local circumstance. Whatever it is that most impacts your ability to feel the Divine and your own soul. To feel the Eternal Love that holds the space for the drama AND the joy. I am more and more feeling like an outside observer while also feeling the impacts in my Higher Heart on the collective soul.

I am reminded that we are awakening. This process is not a painless one. It is wrought with turbulence and challenges. These are the fodder for our own liberation. They are the initiations that we all signed up for to help steward Gaia back into Her glory state. To re-member ourselves back to our original sacred humanity.

It takes a lot of patience, courage, compassion, and self-focus. It takes support and letting go of all that does not serve that vision. While the external may be in its death throes, your internal is its birth pangs, as long as you give yourself the environment it needs to flourish.
You are held. You are supported. You are the light of what comes next.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Process Of Shifting Dimensions And Transitioning Into The New

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Moving into The New can feel like trying to breathe underwater to a part of us. The Old is conditioned and even comfortable to these parts. To truly move into a new dimension of Being takes courage, trust, and faith.
Conscious shifts are empowering as well as frightening to the part of us so identified with what has always been ‘true’. We have to work to allow the New True to take root and bloom.

I feel my consciousness on the verge of more expansion and my heart on the precipice of more vulnerability. These go hand in hand. There is a continuing journey of unplugging from the False Matrix and leaning into the womb and bosom of the Mother and the inspiration and guidance of the true Father.

As I connect more to Inner Earth Lemurian consciousness and support, I feel the difficulty it is for our more 3D/4D aspects to let go of all they have known in their worlds. It is like telling them to just breathe underwater without learning how to do so.

Yet, this ‘learning’ is not so much mental as it is emotional for them. There is fear and doubt there that needs tending to. It needs our ongoing attention and holding, not unlike being a death and birth doula. The ultimate doula is the Divine Itself and our Divine Self offshoot. It also includes those aspects of our ‘future’ or Now selves such as Inner Earth and Galactic aspects that we are intimately connected to.

The ‘pandemic’ has highlighted so much for so many of us around the need to keep rising and keep expanding beyond the dystopian novel being written. It has really made the nest prickly for us to find our wings…and our ability to breathe underwater.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Words No Longer Enough As Our Throat Chakras Upgrade

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By Kasha Rokshana

In this 5 month… I feel so much stirring in communication, in the 5th/Throat Chakra.

Communication through words is becoming more challenging and this feels necessary as the mind lets in that there’s far more going on than maybe you’ve realized or than is actually being talked about openly. It’s also becoming challenging as the world awakens, to cover up the true intention and energy behind the words being offered. “Finding the right words” was never really that easy to begin with, as words are really so limiting, and yet it’s become even more challenging as there is so much emotion and reaction moving through the planet, that our words alone are no longer enough to quell or heal or answer any of it.

I feel the stirring of this question as I feel all of this today;

What would happen if we all were silent for a day?

If the world could only hum its presence and the media could use no words?

What would happen if, instead of conversing and convincing, we chose instead to pause, to remain silent together?

To take the space to FEEL together?

To actually feel fears and the parts of us that hold them, and not act or react on behalf of them… to feel the heartbreak of a thousand lifetimes on this planet and others, witnessing the same growth edges, choice points, and soul turns that haven’t been truly made… yet.

All of the din of influencing and being influenced, of facts and figures, of debates and arguments, of words of love that don’t match the energy and true intention of the ones speaking them… mutes the heart, dulls intuition, dims the soul, and leads instead with a wordy brilliance learned through survival and often a need for manipulation too.

If you chose to be silent for one full day, your heart may begin to open more and your world may start to change from the inside out. If the whole world went silent for one full day, it just might begin to see itself differently, it just might begin to open up to the bigger picture of what its going through, and it just might start to heal, with ownership, all that it’s been a part of co-creating which we are individually responsible for as well.

The Divine hand, even as it stirs all it does on our journey of Ascension, offers us that we will always be felt, whether we are feeling or not. We will always be held, whether parts of us feel they can lean in or not.

And we will always be heard… whether we are silent or not.

Our communication/5th Chakra upgrades this month and beyond may feel like a downgrade in moments… yet being rendered silent for the sake of pure feeling to live in us again, is actually a way to heal even deeper than we’ve ever imagined before. All times in which I’ve experienced this and held space for others in this, magic happens and a door opens within when feeling is not explained but felt instead, and the Divine is let in through your broken-open heart.

Love, Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Leaving The Titanic To New Earth Arks

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We have been living on a Titanic of sorts. The institutions of inhuman industry and sycophantic politics are eating away at itself. The holes in the ship are getting bigger and it is clear the emperors and empresses are punch drunk on their own promotions to global malpractice managers.

So while these unfortunate examples of human leadership continue to rearrange the furniture on the decks of a sinking ship, we all have the choice to get the hell off this damn thing and rebuild with what has been good about it.

We have the opportunity to harness the power of the internet to connect with those that resonate. We can use our dying fiat currency to build and invest in New Earth communities that are detached from the old system of economy of scale and into an abundance of heart and soul.
There are technologies that can be harnessed that lead us out of our dependency on death and soot.

Yet, we have an inner journey to take to get there. The Titanic that we have subscribed to is still embedded in us. The shame, the guilt, the fear, the battling, the looking-away from what is really happening. The reality that we are not all going to choose to leave this sinking ship.

The global situation is an initiator in this way. We are all being invited to get to the thick of what and who we really are and what we want the Now and the future to look and feel like. Who and what do we really connect with? Who is our true community of New Earth comprised of?

This is what I find myself focusing on now. Being a part of an ark. A community of others that go into the depth of experience, of heart presence, and of soul embodiment to seed this New Earth vision into reality. This is not easy in the pull of the sinking ship, but it is possible with intention, initiation, courage, passion, and surrender.

I will be focusing my writing on this unplugging, self-loving, replugging, and vulnerable and courageous shedding of the old to find ourselves in a new world of profound and sacred resonance with Love and our true humanity, as well as the path I have chosen to get myself there via this SoulFullHeart way of life.

Stay tuned and stay focused on this inner and outer stewardship.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Feeling Easter As Your Own Death & Rebirth Process

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This has been a very rumbly week leading up to Easter. There has been a churning of death and rebirth going on inside and out. My sacred union with my beloved Kasha has been put to the ‘test’, so to speak, with so much new ground needing an old ground to burn away in order to come into our next level of conscious romance and leadership.

I have needed to be ‘off’ social media to let all of this digest and find its way inside of me. It has been about continuing to find my voice, speak my truth and needs, as well as feeling the fear of doing so. It is this truth that can change so much. It creates and it destroys, but not necessarily in the way that a part of us may feel like it will. It is this fire that is meant to be alchemical and not necessarily harmful.

I was starting to feel the ways in which this fear is more about embodying our true power in the world and what that can actually create. If power and truth in our soul history has been experienced or judged as a ‘negative’, then we will inevitably find a way to suppress said power. We will remain in a push-pull around it. Deeply wanting and needing it, while hiding it at the same time. This creates suffering rather than movement.

This power has been held as a control mechanism inside of me. A way to manage and maintain a particular consciousness while my soul and the Divine are strongly, yet lovely, inviting me into something more essential, more real. Something long forgotten or buried. This is where a tight grip has formed or an anxious fear of surrender. I realized how much a part of me has still clung to this control structure.

In meditation I saw a sand castle on top of a stream. The foundation of this sand castle was collapsing into the stream. The castle was starting to crumble and I could feel parts of me trying to build it back up with more sand in order to keep it up. There was a tiredness in that. A readiness to let go while fearing the unknown of it all. I felt the stream as the Divine Itself, as Love, as the Tao. It just wants me to be the stream. Be in active surrender to where it is meant to take me even if I can’t see around the bend or it winds up in rapids.

It is my vulnerability and truth that keeps me afloat. It is what allows me to flow with my currency and is my true power. That stored up power in the castle just changed form and into embodiment. As the castle fully collapsed, I shed tears. I felt myself collapse into the flow of Love. I felt baptized and renewed. I felt a new connection with Kasha and myself.

As a result, I found myself realizing I needed to go back to my previous name of Gabriel. A lot has moved for me since trying on Aurius, but Gabriel is the essence of who I am in my soul. It is my Divine name. I just needed to flush some things out and reboot it. My beloveds also have an affinity for Gabriel and so that was enough for me to choose to go back. I will keep Amara as my last name, however. It has a frequency I love. It represents my inner feminine.

Thank you for being a part of this journey with me, and I hope that it has a service to you in all that you may be going through at this time. I am always here to facilitate and hold-space for this process that has taken me to new worlds and embodied awarenesses inside of myself in deep terrain. It is alchemical and transformative.

Much love to you this Easter weekend and may you meet your next death and rebirth cycle with grace, compassion, and courage.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/