Letting Go Of Illusions To See And Feel What’s REAL Inside And Out

by Kasha Rokshana

Illusion must dissolve so reality can resolve.

These are the words that come to me as I feel my own ongoing process of healing, Ascension, and service, yet also as I feel the global process happening now for the same.

The illusions dissolving for parts of me are so multi-layered and multi-dimensional too. I feel facades melting down from how my feminine parts have related to the masculine and to romance and even to their own spirituality. For them and for me, this is a whole other level of growth, of fading childhood and moving into true womanhood from the inside out. I feel my masculine parts seeing and feeling how they’ve related to my feminine ones, either with some sort of suppression and punishment-type frequencies, or, even with caretaking/enabling instead of genuinely caring for and feeling them.

These inner dynamics are reflected in my outer reality, in my relationship with men AND women, and what moves between myself and those I’m closest to or even those I’m meeting for the first time. Sometimes the reflections are subtle and sometimes they are so big that it takes a while to really look at all of the machinations involved!

I feel all of my parts having deep and precious realizations of how they’ve related to life itself too, the different levels of emotional and spiritual immaturity that is moving away from being bubbled-off about actual reality now. I don’t feel any self-judgement as I name and own this ‘immaturity’, as it feels like we all have that and are working it, just at different levels and in unique phases of growth too.

Without a doubt, we’re ALL being faced with our own immaturity now. We’re experiencing outcomes and consequences that come directly from what we haven’t been ready or able to SEE let alone FEEL inside of ourselves, let alone in the systems and ways of life that we have allowed to continue and live through us. It’s quite a shift we’re experiencing into an underbelly of humanity’s shadow that has always been there, yet while enamoured and involved with the illusion overlaying this underbelly, we haven’t been able to truly see and bring love to what has been true all along.

There is a whole upgrade needed in human consciousness that is still being worked and isn’t actually a given, at least not en masse, yet it’s the reason why we’re here and why we’re being invited to soberly see what’s real. A big part of this is definitely the need to feel the value of deep inner work and allowing love to support us in that. This is a bit of a thing for the parts of us who have worked so hard to stay above board and somewhat bubbled-off from what the reality around us is constantly offering us all. They, especially the Inner Protector, have often had to do this in order to protect the preciousness, purity of essence, and innocence within that can be so greatly impacted by seeing and feeling the world in the state it’s in currently… and our roles within that.

This is what changes our inner worlds as much as our outer one, through the deepening of our inner intimacy and self-love and overflowing that to our relationships and encounters on the outside. This is what shifts and heals the inner Matrix so that any attachment to the one(s) on the outside can move into something new and our experience of it can change for the better as well. It’s not a process that can really be taken on with much lightness at times yet it IS held with so much love, always, and the support we need is right here with us to move us fully into the NEW.

The good news is that unless we were ready to start seeing reality for what it is and has been, we wouldn’t be in the place we are now. Where we are now, even in the thick of the pain of it all, is a necessary step to our evolution, our true Ascension, and our reunion with the Divine within and without. We’re living through a time of tidal waves that are bringing so much to the surface, as they are meant to do. It’s up to each of us how we choose to relate to the process of being with the Disclosure that has been unfolding and will continue to unfold well into the future, feels like.

We are all in this together, though at times we feel so very separate. For that separation too is a powerful illusion that is up to us to move through, back into the reality of love and unity, from deep within.

Illusion must dissolve so reality can resolve… by letting what’s real open up the heart to feel.

Love,

Kasha ❤

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I am once again offering free 45min intro calls for women who are interested in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life/community and how it may serve you at this sacred time. I also offer paid 90min sessions for women who feel ready to dive deep into their inner worlds: soulfullheart.org/sessions

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

My Romance Completion With Jelelle Awen

By Raphael Awen

I’d like to share a deep personal update regarding myself and my relationship with Jelelle.

A few weeks ago, Jelelle and I agreed to give some space, and to sleep apart for a night or two, and that quickly arose to more clarity and relief and draw towards giving ourselves back to ourselves. A peaceful, palpable and supported guidance arose each day, amidst the shock and grief of that at the same time, to let go of our romantic and sexual bond of 12 plus years, and to see what wants to come next beyond that. 

Something undeniable was completing, had become more recognizable in recent months, and had now gone full circle and all we could do was be with it each day for the past several weeks. We checked in with one another most days since sharing deeper digestions, discoveries, apologies, many tears and love. Our immediate Soulfullheart community around us was our first line of support and we then in turn shared this on our members only Soulfullheart Portal. The support and love was overwhelming, making this unimaginable feared thing, somehow doable, albeit a rollercoaster at the same time. 

Jelelle and I agreed that we would like to share this publicly now in concert with one another as it feels weird at some point to not be transparent, after a needed more private space was taken. I feel accountable to love itself, to be transparent about my story, my gains, my losses, and then to let love return me to me, and me back to love. 

This is definitely a strange time, and timed with Gaia’s own solstice movements into death and rebirth. I feel weak in my body and mind to be sharing this all now, but I trust it at the same time. A cold arose in my body and has been moving through, something I can’t remember having a full on cold like this in so many years, understandable now as the body, heart and soul goes into a deep reset. 

I shared on our recent group call that Jelelle and I led that I felt maybe the one greatest treasure of discoveries this life is a discovery that has since led to all the discoveries and treasures that followed, including the treasure of these years with Jelelle, and that single most outstanding discovery is the ability to grieve. Without the ability to grieve, we limit ourselves from life’s death and rebirth cycles. Being incarnate into human form is to sign up for gain and loss, for joy and sorrow, and to the degree I can let in and feel the loss, is the degree the deeper joy that wants to come is then allowed to come. 

At 19, when a girlfriend broke up with me, it took me a full additional 19 years for life to feel safe enough for me to come to a place to let in the grief of that loss. The loss, though 19 years prior, was now through an awakening process like it was the week before as I suspended life as I knew it sufficiently to allow the waves of grief and tears to roll through. Looking back at that delayed grief experience now, some 20 years later, I can feel how epic of a turning point that was for me and how subsequent life changes that arose could be referenced back to that time. It was the kindergarten of my relationship to grief. I felt so human to feel my grace to lose deeply and in that to prepare for the magic of what was lost to return in whatever ways it wanted to. Being able to draw the relationship with Jelelle and then have the ability to show up for the many rigors that relationship would call me too was definitely rooted in that earlier grief process. 

Fast forward to today and I can so see how the arising treasure now in all this journey is the deepening into the love that wants to exist, me to me, my feminine to my masculine and vice versa, a love that can never be lost, or ‘taken away’. 

That all may sound a bit like a contextual big picture kind of perspective, and it is to be sure, but it doesn’t take away from the waves of feelings of allowing myself to completely melt down, repeatedly these past weeks into inconsolable tears at times of letting go. A deep and profound consolation does arise when I can just allow each part of me to have their unedited and necessary reactions. 

Jelelle and I have always acknowledged that our romantic bond would sustain while it was mutually growthful for us to deepen in this inward journey, and oh, how it has done that! This arising into deeper vulnerability where the only guarantee is an inward one, raises the stakes too, I’ve found, inviting more risk, more investment, more trust, and mostly more growth into The All that I Am. 

Maybe some of you who have followed us feel surprised or even shocked on some level to feel us not sustaining as a couple. I can only tell you that that is a human tendency, and a familiar one of my own, to project some kind of perfection onto an other, to pedestalize, a projection of your own perfection that you are just not ready to quite hold just yet and so you need a place to put it for safekeeping. If I was a part of that projection for you, I am honoured to have served you in that, and I’m sorry for your loss, while at the same time feeling the needs for each of our pedestals to topple when the time is ripe. The beloveds closest to us know all too well the grist in our edges that showed up in our relationship, and how sacred and necessary those edges were. I particularly am discovering a torch of illumination onto my configurations and relationship patterns these past days again, feeling what was parked in shadow and what was energized in light, and how all of that wants and needs to be loved now in the relief of a sacred completion inside of me – a homecoming, a returning home to myself after an amazing mission into beauty and bounty, a time to debrief, to let go and let in. 

To each of you who have loved and lost, and were subsequently willing to feel that loss, I feel like your kin, your kind, to have shared in that experience. To enter love is to enter love’s illusion and disillusion. Romance is particularly idyllic and fairy tale, where we are invited to make that fairy tale as true a fairy tale as can be, to ingest all of its experiences, and then to allow all of that to return to love itself. It’s got to be the biggest bravery and deepest vulnerability there is, to do this from the heart. 

Inevitably, there is the temptation to assign blame in the aftermath, as a resistance, a distraction to feeling the depth of the loss. Thank God, Jelelle and I both seemed to have truly made it past that mile post some time back together. There’s like this banquet of love to be felt on the other side of the blame game. If no one is to blame, then I can see where I limited love and admit it and ask forgiveness, not to be absolved of guilt, but to let love have its new and ongoing way with me, and hopefully between Jelelle and I into new grounds of love together. 

Beginning this month, as the place we’d been staying with the 5 of us as a community, was no longer available, and as our New Year travel plans for Malta were cancelled due to Covid, we all decided it was best and desirable to hunker down here in Glastonbury. Gabriel and I found a place to live in town to allow for the needed space to ground into this new reality, while remaining in connection as a fivesome here. 

Thank you to each of you reading this, feeling me, yourself, as I pause to feel what else I’d like to say in this post. Making this public feels like another layer of digestion, of accepting this new reality. Sharing this is an opportunity to receive love from love itself in the form of your responses and I open myself to that love. 

I’m so freaking grateful to have found my tears of reunion and to be a part of others finding their tears of reunion with themselves and with love. I’m grateful to serve others in their discoveries with love. I’m called to be this trans-parent, because god (our parent) knows, all that’s really needed is transparency – it heals everything and allows love to flow. 

Jelelle, I want to say publicly how profoundly grateful I am to you to have been your partner in romance, in sensuality, in sexuality, in vulnerability, in angst, in tears, in longings, in service to others, in evolution, in bounty and beauty, and in loss too. If I can lose this much, what does that have to say about how much more there is to gain, in new forms of love, with myself, with you, with life and with others? You are truly beautiful beyond compare. I hope I can stay in the room to endure the new forms of that love that want to radiate between us and through us, to allow the gift of these past 12 years to continue to unfold, into more joint service, into deeper community and service with others.  I love you.

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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Relating And Responding To Global Death And Rebirth

My heart is still swirling from the event in Beirut a few days ago. Add to that a larger Event at hand with a pandemic of fear, hate, and rage making its way around the globe currently, it can be easy to feel an apocalypse underway. The narratives of Good vs Evil, Us vs. Them, Just vs. Unjust are all coming to a head on the world’s stage and the collective psyche.

There is no doubt in my mind and heart that a collapse and a revealing is underway. The bigger question is how are we relating to it? When events like what happened in Beirut occurred in my past, I would find myself in a sudden shock and heart pain, but then not too soon after rushing to analysis and conspiracy. There are also many who go down the despair road where the totality of the world’s ills cover them like a dark cloud. I have had those times too.

I choose to honor the deep emotional reactions to these events so that I can be with the feeling first. Let them be held by a ‘bigger’ me that is rooted in a greater context, yet doesn’t go there to bypass the feeling. There is something that gets lost in the analysis/finger-pointing and the despair. There is a personal relationship to what is happening externally as a portal to what is occurring internally.

That may seem like bypassing for many. Sticking our head in our heart is not the same as sticking it in the sand. It is about seeing where our wounding and fears lie in the soularium of our being. What timelines and aspects are triggered with all of these events and information coming at us at warp speed? When we react without first feeling the root of the reaction, we fuse to these timelines and aspects and wind up recapitulating the same scenario all over again.

For me personally, it is this feeling that we, as a collective family, may never heal into our most divinely-appointed timeline. That the fear and hate will envelope us all into a dystopian pit. Then I take that even more personally and can feel the timelines in which I have had aspects in apocalyptic/dystopic timelines. Lots of fear and trauma.

As I connect with them and get to feel what is theirs, then I can feel more of me, and what is mine. This sorting out brings a different perspective and energy from which to act. More love can enter the space and that helps to create the timeline we ultimately want, even the ‘evil-doers’, believe it or not!

We are responsible for our own apocalypse (revealing). We are responsible for which timeline comes into our reality. We get to choose how to relate and how to respond. If we don’t believe that (and I can understand why) we have given away our Divine-given power to truly create a heaven on Earth in the name of righteousness and fear.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc. 

Healing From Fear/Reactivity Into Love & Genuine Compassion

“Raised by fear, you’ve forgotten about love… until your soul is ready to remember in its own sacred timing.” – the Divine

I felt this move through my heart just now with a mix of hope and heaviness. There’s a sobriety I feel about the world and everything that’s shaking out and coming to light. I feel the tensions and the ecstasy of rebirth. I feel the sadness of mourning and the love that wants to offer a balm for it all. I feel the bittersweetness of much-needed awakening experiences happening alongside deep and painful realizations of what’s been kept hidden from mainstream consciousness.

Fear is more familiar and reactivity more known. Acting outward in outrage is impulsively considered the ‘best course of action’ whereas bringing your reactions back inward, feeling them with the parts of you and Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes who are experiencing them, is somehow not considered at all as something even more necessary.

When I feel my compassionate heart towards this, I feel my own journey that’s unfolded around it… the impact of self-righteousness on myself and others and the parts of me that really needed ME that whole time but were sending so much energy and defensiveness outward, actually creating a push-away and resistance to love in the process.

You may have empathy and sensitivity, yet the journey into deep compassion for others is very real and always starts within. And, these times we’re living in that are challenging this deeply right now, are meant to birth us all as Sacred Humans with great humility and yet self-worth too while we feel our sensitivity AND the blocks to genuine, full-hearted compassion. Chaos doesn’t have to be the only reality that we live in, inside or outside of us. The process of “out of chaos comes order” no longer needs to be true, for you can choose something different, especially within.

Taking the sacred space YOU need to feel YOUR parts that are in reaction and fear is the invitation and the one thing that really can change the world as we know it and bring in new perspectives that hold compassion for yourself and others. It is a process in which you’ll find your heart opening without (much) hesitation anymore, layer by layer, with parts of you now feeling held by you in their overwhelm and reactions. This then leaves so much more room for discernment of what’s real beyond the mainstream digestion and so much more room as well for the healing of fear layers inside of you that so want to return to Divine trust and surrender.

I offer free 45min consultation calls for women who are curious about going deeper into a process with SoulFullHeart and have many openings this coming week! More info here: soulfullheart.org/sessions ❤

Much love!

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Mother Earth, Mama Gaia: An Earth Day Poem

by Kalayna Solais

Mother Earth, Mama Gaia
I sit by Your trees, Your streams, and I feel the strength in Your beauty
How You hold space for ALL, for everyone, for everything
As it moves and lives and ascends with YOU…
As you patiently wait for us to notice more
So we can take ourselves in more.
Mother Earth, Mama Gaia
I gaze at Your creatures in wonder, in communication, in awe of each move they make
And the peace they hold in their uniqueness, never faltering in self-consciousness.
I feel the density You are lifting with each breath of Your sacred lungs
Ready to help us respirate, let in, the NEW air.
I feel how much You hold so effortlessly yet with so much care and space
How even if some beings truly tried, there is no destroying You
Only destroying themselves
And even then
It’s a death and rebirth
Another sobering aspect of Your many sacred cycles
That often cannot be avoided.
Yet, even in these darkest hours
Your beauty offers grace and solace
Places to meditate
Invitations to feel and feel held in feeling
And ways to remember
That it’s all moving, circling from death back to life
As the dead and dying water and fertilize the seeds of the NEW.

For everything You hold space for
For all of Your grace and space
Thank YOU… today and every day.

Love,
Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Message Of Compassionate Forgiveness From Yeshua

Happy Easter! This week we have a few digestions to share with some beautiful frequencies and offerings from Yeshua and some other energy updates as well. Read the full Museletter here.

Featured this week is a piece from Jelelle Awen which she wrote on Good Friday. In it, she channels a much needed and desired message from Yeshua about compassionate forgiveness:

“When upcoming disclosure brings you to hear about and feel sometimes very dark actions from what seems like ‘evil’ and ‘enemies’ and energies that are difficult to love, I am inviting you to remember that while one seeks vengeance against another without first seeking to understand and forgive themselves AND the other, the cycle of suffering continues. You will be moved to hate and fight, and I am inviting you to love instead.”

The ‘Free To Be’ group call series continues this Wednesday. It’s already week three! If you’ve missed the previous calls, you can offer a donation at any time and receive the recording and also the link to attend any of the future calls live if you can or want to.

During this week’s call we will be talking about how this life and other lifetime experiences of collapse can bleed through at this time, along with primal fears and the original separation wound from the Divine. You will connect with your Inner Child and/or Inner Orphan to provide support and love to them, in addition to aspects from lifetimes that have experienced collapses/plagues/starvation, etc. to offer love to them during the guided meditation.

For more information about this series, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe

There is a brand new video and guided meditation this week, led by Raphael and Jelelle Awen, and held as a sacred service for Easter Sunday. During this live stream recording, you connect with death and rebirth codes and they respond to your questions and also offer a reading of a Yeshua compassionate forgiveness message. They offered a guided meditation to connect to the available death and resurrection codes that offer a bridge into 5D New Earth/Indwelling Christ activation of “I AM the Light of the World”.

There are many new articles and audio blogs this week from SoulFullHeart Facilitators/teachers, Raphael and Jelelle Awen, as well SoulFullHeart Facilitants, Kalayna Solais, Gabriel Heartman, and Deva Yasmin. They are energy updates, personal process digestions, and ways to look at and feel what is happening on the 3D, 4D, and 5D consciousness levels.

Check out our ‘Quotes of The Week’ section for some quote cards you can save and share! If you can, please do tag us whenever possible.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen are available for 1:1 sessions to support you and your ongoing process. Raphael works with men and women and Jelelle works with women only. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Healing!

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Check out the latest Museletter here.

Feeling Our Collective & Personal ‘Resurrection’ On Good Friday

by Kalayna Solais

Now is the hour of our death and rebirth…

The crucibles/’crosses to bear’, have been many for each of us. They’ve varied in intensity at times with some difficult phases being easier to move through than others. Every single one of us by now has had some sense of a ‘dark night of the soul’ phase, which is always an initiation even though the deconstruction and ‘burning away’ can feel deep and vast. So many are walking out their deepest phase of this yet and collectively we are ALL experiencing this, one way or another.

We are willingly being constricted, ‘nailed to a cross’, so that we can go inward and resurrect the soul, reestablishing the reasons WHY we CHOSE to come here.

Yeshua came to be a template for us in this. He worked, alongside his deepest beloveds, to master his own Ascension process and become a beacon of light, of ‘Christed’ potential inside of each of us. He knew the prophecies and saw the visions of what was to come. He knew the trials that awaited him and each one he met with more vigor and determination and even found his compassion for those who persecuted him, for it was their role in the ‘Great Drama’ that needed to unfold.

He remembered, always, his alignment with the Divine and that he came here with a profound purpose and a strong need to lead humanity in its next steps. So it is that we all came here too, though with more amnesia to work through to truly and deeply remember this.

We won’t have to move through what he did or face down the same challenges exactly, yet, when each of us look back on what we’ve been through, even recently or perhaps ongoingly, we can easily recognize our own versions of this story. Collectively, the ‘Great Drama’ that Yeshua and his beloveds lived through and found their own paths to Ascension through experiencing has continued on and we have all been impacted by it for many lifetimes on Gaia and we are continuing to walk it out together. It has raged and roared inside of each of us, between parts of us and within our Metasoul lifetimes too as well as on the outside in our daily lives. We have embodied both sides of this drama, this playout. We are all One, and we are coming to realize just what that means… and that we need each other, both persecutors and persecuted, to come together in order to heal it and move truly beyond it.

In my heart, I feel how possible this is, maybe even imminent… I feel my desire for it personally and my own ‘hiccups’ when it comes to deeply trusting this overall process at times. I mostly feel like I live in trust though, after years of feeling the mistrust. I find that I can surrender quite easily now to my own death and rebirth experiences, even when I feel parts of me digging their nails into the carpet of the old ground they cling to, as life takes us in another direction. I can quickly recognize now, after many difficult processes, when and how I’ve co-created my circumstances and the deeper reasons as to ‘why’ I did this emerge from there. There are always many layers to this and sometimes it’s quite painful to feel it all through, yet Divine love is always there from within and outside of me too to scoop up the reactions and put them in a safe container where they can be felt and processed and transmuted with gentleness and LOVE.

This ‘Easter’ weekend is the quintessential energy and symbol of ALL of our death and rebirth experiences. We are ALL ‘Yeshua’ and ‘Yeshua’ is us. We are ALL transmuting deeply what we’ve been through and choosing our next phases, co-creating them in this dance of life and Ascension.

I’ve felt deeply, even in the last day or so, how these processes are always about our great re-emergence back into ‘love consciousness’, which never left us and we never truly left either. Our parts may feel restless at times in this process, wondering what’s next or how to navigate it all in this intensely shifting, shaking world, but our souls know beyond any doubt what all this has been for and that even though the road tests our soul’s resolve to align with the Divine within and without through this intense and dense dimension, it’s all worth it and there IS a light at the end of the inner AND outer ‘tunnel’ of awakening and rebirth.

Now is the hour of our ‘Resurrection’… our next phase of Ascension, individually and collectively.

Much love to you on this GOOD Friday! We are in all of this together, whatever is revealed or not revealed in the collective consciousness this weekend and beyond…

Kalayna ❤

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A gift during this ongoing transition into New Earth reality and consciousness, is this by-donation, weekly Group Call series being offered by Raphael and Jelelle Awen: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe — Enrollment is ongoing, so whenever you offer a donation, you’ll receive the recordings of the calls already completed and the link to join in live on future calls if you desire! Much love ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant & collaborative assistant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Museletter: We Are The Creative Force Of Death & Rebirth

Welcome to another weekly edition of our Museletter! We’ve had so much content we’ve been creating lately in response to current events, that we’re releasing our Museletter weekly again instead of bi-weekly! We truly want this weekly collection of articles, videos, and event announcements to be relevant to you and to what the collective is moving through right now.

And so, here’s another week of digestions regarding COVID-19/Coronavirus reactions and events, as well as the 3D Matrix switch-over that’s going on behind-the-scenes.

You can read this week’s Museletter here.

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Our featured article this week is from Raphael Awen, who invites us to feel the reactions of our different parts during this time, whatever they may be feeling and moving through around it all. He also invites us to feel how all of us have co-created the events we’re facing now, fully in our power, and that it’s up to us how we respond to it, especially from within:

 “The Coronavirus, whether the virus itself or the scenarios created by our layers of reaction to it answered a call we didn’t even know we were making. Playing victim to the virus and the circumstances may be the phase many are necessarily in, as they need a bringer of death to life as they’ve known it, but can’t admit it. Others with awakening consciousness see and feel that the changes and deaths are what they and life itself called out for. We are in a funeral and a birth canal at the same time. Life as we’ve known it will not be the same in so many ways.

This is the creative force of death and rebirth that we actually are. This is our next phase of consciousness evolution lapping at our shores. Holding and feeling yourself in this transition is your service to others and is your highest calling.”

We have an exciting NEW event to announce this week!

Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be holding a weekly group call series, every Wednesday for 6 weeks starting April 1st!

We are excited to offer Free To Be: Navigating the 3D Matrix Switch Over To New Earth Transition, a six-week group call experience over Zoom every Wednesday at 10:00am PDT starting on April 1st. Attend live and/or receive the recording by offering a donation at paypal.me/jelelleawen.

We will be diving into some deeper waters to provide both a context and a grounding to navigate this VERY transitional and momentous time in our human history! We also wanted to provide a much needed resonant community connection through the group calls and our private FB group as well. It is by donation (whatever you feel to give) so we hope you can join us!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe for more info.

SoulFullHeart Divine Feminine Teacher/Facilitator and Ascension Guide Jelelle Awen hosted a live Q&A, energy update, and guided meditation that originally aired March 17th, 2020. She answers questions, responds to comments and digests the coronavirus/COVID-19 outbreak and the 3D Matrix dismantling that she feels is going on behind-the-scenes of it for which the virus is being used as a smokescreen.

You can watch this video on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel.

You can watch all of our podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel or listen to the audio on the SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channel or iTunes channel.

We have many new articles and audio blogs this week from Raphael and Jelelle Awen, Kalayna Solais, and Deva Yasmin. These writings include energy updates, ways to look and digest current events, and some bridging into how to feel different parts/aspects of you during this time.

Check out our ‘Quotes of The Week’ section for some quote cards you can save and share! If you can, please do tag us whenever possible.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen are available for 1:1 sessions to support you and your ongoing process. Raphael works with men and women and Jelelle works with women only. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Healing!

You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via our patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here.

 

 

The Creative Force Of Death & Rebirth That We Actually Are

by Raphael Awen

When the old game gets boring and no one really wants to play it anymore, the game itself wants to die, but struggles to do so because people keep showing up trying ever harder to keep it alive.

The game itself is a living thing that takes on a consciousness of its own because of all of the consciousness that is invested into it. Money is maybe one of the starkest examples of this – a game created by us, as we mutually agree to a set of rules, and as we then try to abide by those rules, that game then takes on a life of its own and becomes a mediator of life. We speak in homage to money when we say things like ‘you can’t live without money’, when in fact money and physical life have no correlation other than the one we created for it in our perceptions of the importance of money, thus giving it god-like status.

The money game we currently play is built on mountains of debt that are so far beyond repayable, no one wants to talk about it, because to talk about it is to acknowledge and look at the ending of the game, the end of us. Games are toppling all around us. The social games we play of showing up for people we don’t actually like or no longer relate to life in any kind of shared values is another game that aches for its end, but struggles to find. The spiritual games of giving our power away to an outside of us authority in some form of a guru-devotee dance is another. The emotional games of trying ever harder to stay away from what we really feel is another. One crumbling game is intertwined with another.

Something wants to die and it’s call keeps getting louder and louder. Something within also wants deeply to live and thrive at the same time.

How do we relate with both?

When we accept that the time for denial is complete, we move through the stages of grief, to feeling our anger, our fear, our need, and eventually to acceptance and even thriving in a new reality.

Nature demonstrates this process of death and rebirth over and over again. When we feel how life can’t actually ‘die’, but can only change, we accept at a deep core level our own relationship to being life itself – in movement with death and rebirth.

The ‘infestation’ of the tiny Pine Beetle in North America’s forests in recent decades is a powerful example of this. It was and still is seen through a 3D lens as a blight, a scourge, a VIRUS that is killing our precious forests and economy. Many attempts to stop its advance were made and failed. Then came along some people who were willing to look at and feel the problem from a higher place of awareness. They learned that the Pine trees in North America were and are in a state of stress brought on by the warming climate. Then they learned and proved that the trees under stress actually emit a physical sound and they recorded it. Then they realized to their utter amazement that what the Pine Beetle actually was, was likened to an agent of an assisted suicide. The Pine trees pined for their own death. The Pine Beetle heeded their call in such astonishing numbers that seemingly came out of nowhere.

I believe this so speaks for what is going on for us collectively and individually. What once felt very sustainable and comforting no longer is. Parts of us want to die and exit. Other parts of us fear death. Other parts of us so want to thrive. Only as you are willing to feel each of these parts of you are you able to navigate a truly responsible life, by your response to what now undeniably is.

The Coronavirus, whether the virus itself or the scenarios created by our layers of reaction to it answered a call we didn’t even know we were making. Playing victim to the virus and the circumstances may be the phase many are necessarily in, as they need a bringer of death to life as they’ve known it, but can’t admit it. Others with awakening consciousness see and feel that the changes and deaths are what they and life itself called out for. We are in a funeral and a birth canal at the same time. Life as we’ve known it will not be the same in so many ways.

This is the creative force of death and rebirth that we actually are. This is our next phase of consciousness evolution lapping at our shores. Holding and feeling yourself in this transition is your service to others and is your highest calling.

You get to be in your highest calling now, even sustain your life through sharing your deepest gifts of life. Just when you couldn’t find the courage to quit your day job, life came along and killed it for you. Now you get to explore what you really want now! You get to have fun and you get to play! Your day job might return, it might not, but you will be in a new flow that you longed for more than you realized.

How did we ever think it was sustainable to exchange something less than our most passionate living and loving in exchange for money? We thought that because it seemed true enough for a long time, but that’s changing now – ‘dying’ now, as you and the parts of you that makeup ‘you’ are called to an emergency meeting to feel and explore a stark new emerging reality.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Snow and Sun Codes Bring In Sense Of Newness and Rebirth

By Jelelle Awen

Taking in the first snow of the year here in Victoria, I’m reminded of how purifying and cleansing it is. How still snow is, even when it is ‘falling’, and how it blankets everything in this energy of newness. Snow codes are refreshing, especially if they come rarely and stay for a short time.

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The sun came out to greet us as we headed out on a walk to our local seaside park with Kalayna Solais. There is the joy of reunion in our hearts in the moment after a few months of choosing to be apart. This a celebration of new places to transact together…space made inside from necessarily being apart.

These are the rebirth moments that come out of the death and letting go phases that can be so challenging to navigate. These are the new moments that arise only out of letting go of the old. These are the confetti in the air moments where ash may still even be lingering.

It can seem in the darker moments of separation, that we won’t come into union again. It can push up the separation from the Divine and the wound that is often buried deep of what it felt like to be cast off from such bliss and Oneness. Parts of us can feel the pain of rejection, the hurt of disappointment, and land in the reality of our truth too that didn’t get brought before.

Yet, forgiveness inside and of others clears the ground. And, we are finding our way back to each other, back to the Divine, back to our souls. And life greets us and serves us with whatever necessary death and loss process will bring us most back to ourselves again.

Love,
Jelelle Awen
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I shared today a teaching and guided meditation as part of my Deepen 2020 series about death and rebirth, offering a bridge to the part of that needs to ‘die’ and let go in order to be reborn:

 

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.