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Integrating And Discovering Your Personal Spirituality

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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There’s a strong picture right now, of many souls choosing to ‘shop around’. I feel and see this picture of ‘window shopping’ when it comes to dating and relationships, yet also spirituality and a healing process. To commit to a ‘process’ right now, does not seem to be on the agenda of many, as it’s hard to see many choosing to walk through the door of any one ‘store’ at the moment. In some ways, this is very understandable, considering that many of you may have only JUST realized that you COULD choose, either because you are moving into another vista of awakening now, and/or because something in your soul hasn’t been able to let in choice in this dimension of existence.

This choosing process feels to come out of a questioning of what YOUR personal spirituality looks and feels like, and if you honestly even feel one at all right now. How does YOUR spirituality express through you, that isn’t solely influenced by culture or your friends or birth family members? In a recent session I held with a facilitant, I felt the strong influence on her spirituality in her field from her birth family especially, and realized that in order to truly experience your own spirituality and what it’s made of, you need to go inside and feel it through your heart first. In other words, it can only really be accessed by way of your deepest humanity – your pain and your joys, both. This is what helps parts and soul aspects of you collapse into your arms and the loving arms of the Divine too.

Spiritual consciousness has a collective imprint. It has fads and trends, classes and courses you can attend. It has lineages and religious beliefs too. It has impact in so many ways, many of which are positive and yet many of which that feel negative too… not ‘wrong’, just more fear-based than love-based. But what of the matters of your own heart and what it has been through and experienced in this life and with this consciousness you have now? What of the matters of your ancient, likely star-being based soul, that reaches timelines yet untouched by any part or piece of you? This is all personal with the collective woven in. And your personal experience must be experienced through your person-ness, first, by your healing and growth and integration of shadow AND light.

Greater self-permission is dawning now, with more souls and hearts longing for a personal experience as well as nondual experiences and actually allowing them in at exponential rates too. This can pop for anyone at any moment, yet it is sweetest, in my experience, if tasted through the heart while in conscious relationship with your parts and metasoul aspects too. An amazing journey of realizing THROUGH experience, not just concepts and constructs that may or may not have been lived out by those teaching you or others, is what awaits now and is a timeline already here if one decides to reach out and touch it, asking for it, wanting it more and more.

The SoulFullHeart Way of Life is a committed process, being felt and lived out at deeper and deeper levels at all times by all who are on this path. It isn’t for everyone, but it is an answer to the question of how to explore and discover your own spirituality, where it comes from and where it could be leading you. It may mean the end of the ‘shopping around’ or ‘seeking’ timeline for you, as you embrace being a student of this path and also of yourself, or it may not. It is a challenging yet beloved journey of healing and growth that goes much deeper than you may imagine just yet! To feel into this some more for yourself and see if it resonates for you, you can visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess for more information. ❤

No matter where you are or who are you now, choosing to fully inhabit what feels right to you in the moment, even if it’s mostly 3D life, is a choice that can only lead to the next level of learning and growth. Going into what’s in front of you, with all your heart, or choosing something different, is within your realm of power and will pop you out into your next choice points and your next invitations for deeper inhabitation of you and everything you are and are meant to be. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

 

Are You A Spiritual Student Or A Seeker?

Published on by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

 

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The problem with modern spirituality is there are too few people open to truly being students and too few teachers self qualified to authentically serve them.

I spent many years as a student, dedicated and fully committed to one teacher and teaching. I didn’t realize at the time how unusual this was. They were aspects of my teacher and that relationship that ended up being off and based in shadow, just like any committed relationship has healthy and unhealthy aspects. But if I hadn’t committed myself to that teacher, I simply would not be who I am now, in the nourishing relationship that I am, and serving others through SoulFullHeart.

I’ve been offering my way of life and myself as a teacher and healer for the last few years and I’ve met many people who claimed to be ‘seekers’ along the way, initially drawn to what I was offering. Whenever someone would claim to be a ‘seeker’, I wanted to ask them, “You are a seeker? So, when will you let yourself be found?” It seemed that these seekers were deeply afraid of committing to just one thing, just one teacher and teaching. They wanted to float around and sample off the buffet bar of spiritual offerings. They wanted to read books (especially ‘best selling’ ones) or attend yearly seminars and retreats. And they expected that this minimal activity would actually bring them the rewards of bliss, joy, serenity and deep love that they felt entitled to receive. Instead of trusting their intuition that brought me to them as a teacher, they wanted someone else to legitimatize a teacher for them (a publishing company, Oprah Winfrey, Louise Hay, etc.) Popularity does not qualify a teacher and might actually disqualify a teacher, but that’s for another blog entry.

Many modern seekers seem to have a short attention span and are looking for the next shiny object to latch onto. They are a product of a modern world where facebook “likes” mean more than meaningful relationships; where spiritual experiences are expected not revered; and where negative emotions have been villianized and positive emotions over idealized. They don’t want to actually work at transformation or to feel anything negative as a crucial aspect of their growth process, so part of them projects them into an idealized place where they can claim to feel bliss and love for everyone all of the time without actually doing the work that would awaken them to a state where this might be possible.

My truth is that this is not what we are meant to experience as sacred human children of the Divine. The Divine wants to experience Itself through us, both in male and female form, and why would it only want to experience the light and loving expressions of Itself? Pretty boring, wouldn’t you say? It is both the light and dark, the shadow and the love that interest the Divine. The textures, the depths, the struggles and the triumphs, the ebbs and flows, the ups and downs. A student of the Divine is a student of life in all its areas of expression and all its highs and lows. And as you become a true student of the Divine and of an authentic teacher of the Divine, then you arise into your sacred human nature which is an arising and unknown wonder that can respond to the ups and downs with an open heart. You experience deep connection with the Divine that is both challenging and comforting; catalytic and solid; full of contrasts and paradoxes and fundamentally conditional on you continuing to heal yourself.

I am a teacher because I have been a student and I continue to be a student of the Divine and will for the rest of my lifetimes. I am a teacher who deeply wants to draw true students, students who will wrap around what I have to teach and still retain their centers. Students who will surrender to learning and not knowing and, at the same time, hold that they are also meant to be teachers someday. Students who will accept the challenge, do the work, and commit to me, the Divine, and themselves. Students who will own if they feel resistance to being students and why.

Here are some more distinctions about a student versus a seeker for you to feel into:

A seeker thinks that a paradigm shift is all that is needed; a student recognizes that it is just the beginning.

A seeker is afraid of commitment; a student lets themselves be claimed.

A student wraps around a teacher while remaining in their own center; a seeker gives complete devotion to a teacher while remaining without a center.

A student allows ALL areas of their life to offer sacred experience; a seeker makes certain areas of their life more sacred than others.

A student wants to filter experience through what they don’t know; A seeker wants to filter experience through what they know.

A student admits they do not know and do know at the same time; a seeker attaches to what they know and what they think others know.

A student draws a teacher who reflects to them their own bigness, not just the teacher’s bigness.

A student accepts the light and the dark; a seeker seeks for the light while suppressing the dark.

A student feels the inner teacher inside of themselves; the seeker denies the inner teacher inside of themselves.

A student accepts that whatever they experience in the moment is the reward; the seeker justifies what they experience in the moment to receive a reward in the future.

A student is destined to become a teacher; a seeker is destined to become unfulfilled.

A student gets that being a student is the hardest but most natural thing. A seeker believes that being a seeker is easy and is supposed to be.

A student is open to their feelings as being an aspect of Divine expression; a seeker is open only to feelings that they feel as ‘positive’ or ‘serene’ as Divine expression.

A student is asking ‘who am I?’ and answering ‘I am that’ at the same time.

A student humbly understands that they are entitled to nothing but are worth having what most deeply serves them; A seeker feels entitled to manifest everything that they want yet don’t really believe they deserve it.

A student surrenders; a seeker submits.

A student is both investing and divesting; a seeker is investing looking for a return.

A student is patient, understanding it takes many lifetimes to arise and unfold and all experiences bring growth. A seeker is eager and impatient, feeling that everything they want should be given to them now and that only positive experiences are valuable.

When will you stop seeking and let yourself be found?

When the student is ready, the teacher will appear. Who is appearing as a teacher in your life that you are resisting leaning into? If you are reading these words right now, perhaps it’s SoulFullHeart.

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