Tag: death and rebirth

Why Must You Be Safe, Hidden, And Afraid?: Soul Cry Of Awakening

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By Jelelle Awen

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Oh, why must you be safe? Your heart is crying for MORE.
Oh, why must you be hidden? Your soul is aching to SHINE.
Oh, why must you be afraid? Your courage is wanting to LEAD.
Oh, why must you be settling or shrunken or LESS? Your BIGness is right there waiting.
Oh, why must you be lonely? Your soul family and your sacred union mate is inviting you to join them, to deepen with them.
Oh, why must you live in these ‘musts’?…these places that FEEL real and yet are not? The places of ‘shoulds’ and ‘have tos’ that just feed the conditioning self, the masks, and the personas.

Letting GO, Letting IN, Letting God, Letting LOVE…..washes away the musts and the shoulds and the fear and the hiding and the loneliness and the conforming and the shrinking too. This is NOT an easy thing….all this ‘Letting’ that replaces the “Musting” and the “Shoulding”.

This is SO painful at times to be almost unbearable, this process, and it can’t be floated over or bypassed or transcended or just made ‘light’. Letting Shadow, Letting Dark be illuminated by the LIGHT of your courage to love ALL of it that which is inside. To crawl into the deepest recesses, your heart beaming with love, and bring love THERE….even there, to the places and aspects that have been disregarded and disowned. To reparent them, to reclaim, to RE-member them back into love and reunion.

There are times in the awakening and remembering that you feel like you are cracking, the skin you have known is peeling away to reveal the REAL you, the essence that wants to BURST through. And loving even THIS cracking and THIS false skin and not feeling them as bad, just necessary for while they were to be in 3D frequencies.

Feeling how there are NO places inside of real evil or darkness, nothing to REALLY be afraid of or that can’t be transmuted by love. No pain inside that can’t be held and moved by love. And this changes too how you feel about the outside world, about others…how you feel and see everything outside of yourself as ultimately being worth love and forgiveness and made OF love.

Letting Go, Letting IN, Letting God, Letting REALness, Letting Feelings, Letting Love……THIS is the ground of awakening and remembering. This is the ground where the pain can be held and has a sacred purpose. The sacred purpose of being YOU into realness, into your bigness, into your emotional body being current, into your deepest ground of sacred union of self and with your mate, into the embodiment of YOU as Infinite Love.

 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author ofΒ  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder.Β Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.Β Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Fourth Dimensional (4D) Consciousness: Alchemical Purgatory, Dark Nights, And Profound Awakenings

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By Jelelle Awen

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Connection to other worlds and dimensions, the lift UP, the sense of I am HERE yet NOT HERE, I am THERE and HERE….this is arising now, coming now, available now. Merging worlds and dimensions…..letting these multiple realities into your NOW moments. Breathing them in as you walk around and breathing them in as you sleep deep, passing out and traveling and visiting. You are drifting often and weaving between the dimensional consciousnesses…..maybe dipping down into 3D, then awakening into 4D, and crawling there at times. And 5D comes in like a sunburst across your consciousness, spreading light rays across your sky.

THIS HERE in 3D life is enough until it is not enough and then you begin the process of remembering, of gliding, of awakening. You feel the 4D transitional dimension of alchemical purgatory, the sorting out dimension, of THIS from THAT. 4D is for dark nights and for kundalini awakenings both. It is the soul’s blood coming back to sleeping limbs. 4D can feel SO dark sometimes, walking in shadows, kneeling in glass type experiences. It can feel like the stomach flu, purging up and out that which does NOT belong to your soul. It can feel like epic journeys into vast terrains, all INSIDE of you.

4D can still be outward focus, outward triggers, looking for outward manifestations. There are edges being worked about the outside while the inside is becoming more consciousness to you. The inside is calling out for you for attention and love and care. Closing down from the outside happens more and more often as you need to reboot and recharge. You may feel like two versions of you in your life. The version of you that is still tied to 3D reality with friends and family who resonate on a certain level with you and even may want you to just remain the same. Then the version of you that is your soul awakening and your higher self coming in. Maybe you are more one version over the other, you may fluctuate between the two of them.

Changes, HUGE changes sometimes, happen in 4D. Old things collapse on themselves. Marriages end, friendships complete, careers change or are abandoned, geographies are shifted and left behind. It can feel at times like you are saying “no” and letting go of EVERYTHING and that you can’t imagine what will remain. You may be walking around in mourning so often that it is more familiar than joy. Yet, the trust is growing. The trust that the process is being held by the Divine and the process is leading somewhere.

You are fighting at times, battling the old conditioning that comes at you from the outside and the inside. Yet, also, the love you are experiencing more and more leaves you weary to battle. The parts of you that have battled and fought for a long time begin to rest and more and more imagine that some day they will be able to permanently put the sword down. You may be an activist and an advocate – this may be important for your soul and awakening journey. You may want others to ‘get it’ VERY badly and get very frustrated when they do not. You may feel like burning down the world that the ‘bad guys’ live in even as your world is often burning with ash in the air.

What makes 4D possible to navigate is your soul drawing support and love to you in many forms during the phase of intense embodiment of it. You find more and more resonant souls and you gather together, you form bonds, and it helps to sooth the pains from letting so much go. You want light, you want to end your suffering, and you consciously begin to feel HOW and WHAT you need in your life in order for that to happen.

Gaia is currently in 4D consciousness it feels like and moving into 5D more and more. The death and rebirth sense of our current times, all of the upheavals, battles, polarizations, power struggles, injustices, wars…the realm of 4D exploration as human consciousness wakes up. The emergence of the sacred human is a messy process, yes at times, but it is held with much love and the dawning experiences of 5D frequencies makes all of it ultimately worth it. ❀

To read more about 3D, 4D, and 5D selves and how these versions of you relate to the seven areas of life (emotional, spiritual, mental, physical, social, financial, and environmental) go here:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

 

Life IsnΒ΄t Possible Without Death

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By Raphael Awen

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Our greatest fear isn’t about our death, but rather our infinitude. Death is simply another birth into the great unknown of our never ending being and the universe it expresses in. To accept that is to be in reverence, awe and wonder, which is to really live. To accept that is to accept your struggle with that. You don’t really β€˜get’ that and neither do I.

Death and life are a great mystery that the universe itself and the divine itself is still busy exploring and it is exploring it through you and me.

Death and life are inseparable from each other, as every moment, every relationship, every being that expresses, expresses as a surrender to this mystery of death and rebirth.

Living our lives in avoidance of death or repulsion to death is to reject life itself, for life isn’t possible without death. Coming to terms with our physical death can help us come to terms with the many deaths of our lives, which in turn is the only thing that can offer us a healthy entry into our next stage and place in life.

You must leave in order to enter. We get to have life because we are willing to let it go. What makes any moment truly alive is to feel that moment’s life and its death in the same space. I enter it with a reverence that I must in turn leave it and its imprint on me as well as what I imprinted it with. Every thing and every relationship I enter, I must ultimately leave. Every Joy contains a sorrow.

If life is anything, it is reverence. To revere something is to fear it. To truly fear something is to be in awe of it, to respect it on a deep heart and soul level, is to fear losing it. What we really fear losing is not our lives, but losing the real connection with life within our life. Regaining that is about accepting all of our reality, even if we fall so short of understanding it. It’s about feeling it, not β€˜knowing’ it in any mental or philosophical sense.

Finding and feeling the part(s) of you who hold your relationship to death and rebirth is the single deepest thing you can do to embrace growth, movement and change in your life. Parts of you are stuck in their relationship to death, and can only move from the fear that grips them if and when they are afforded a digestion of their fears.

SoulFullHeart is a path that specifically focuses on getting to know and feel parts of your self. It takes this reverential exploration of the unknown universe inward into the universe of you. If you feel a resonance that this is the reverence that life is calling you to, I’d like to offer what SoulFullHeart is my heart passion to engage with you. Our sessions page is here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

2013: A Death and Rebirth Into Real Love

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By Christopher Tydeman

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I found myself in many different emotional places, as I had to calibrate to a new way of being and feeling in the world. Β Who was I without this old filter? Β What do I do? Β How do I be? Β All questions that make up the quest of surrender.

I started to write about all the content that happened to me in 2013, but realized there was a context to it all. Β Last year was a year of uncovering my false self and his relationship to a false world, created to keep me small, and him safe. Β This world was set on fire so that a new relationship to my authentic self could be born.

For years I had been feeling unfulfilled. Β Unsatisfied. Β Off center. Β Off course. Β I had been praying to find myself so I could alleviate this pain. Β I had medicated with alcohol, drugs, work, being a father, politics, and relationships. Β My soul was sinking in quicksand and needed a way out. Β When the student is ready, the teacher appears. Β That teacher was SoulFullHeart.

For six months prior to 2013 I needed to go into and feel my pain. Β I accessed parts of myself left in trauma from this life and others. Β I found myself at a critical time in my life. Β Do I continue doing the same things, relating to the same people that can’t offer me the growth I need, or do I keep going on this suffering loop? Β At the beginning of the year, I made the choice to jump.

That was the most difficult crucible I had been through my entire life. Β To depart a career, family, and friends that a part of me had a codependent and unhealthy attachment to. Β If there was something truly real there it would have continued to grow with me. Β But it didn’t and it hasn’t up to this date. Β It was a dance, and a wrestling, with this part of me to get him to feel how little true love we were actually receiving and letting in. Β To this part of me that sounded harsh, but he began to feel it over time.

I found myself in many different emotional places, as I had to calibrate to a new way of being and feeling in the world. Β Who was I without this old filter? Β What do I do? Β How do I be? Β All questions that make up the quest of surrender. Β At one point I had to go back briefly to my old life to reaffirm this one.

I drew a mate that brought out a part of me that needed to be made conscious so that I could feel those vulnerable places we can’t access unless we are in conscious relationship. Β I found the codependency that was linked to my relationship with my mother, and templating from my father. Β I had to find my spine, but it had been buried. Β We had to complete the relationship for our individual reasons, but have found each other again with new eyes, new heart, and new spine.

I uncovered my personal relationship to the Divine through countless hours of journaling with the Mother. Β This connection has been invaluable to me in times of uncertainty and fear. Β I have uncovered my SoulFullHeart self through experiences such as hosting a radio show, writing a vulnerable daily blog with my parts, entering a new ground of friendship with my mentors and facilitators, Jillian and Wayne, and beginning to facilitate another person on this path to self-awareness and emotional consciousness.

I have felt myself differently than I ever have. Β I still don’t have a clear picture, and maybe never will. Β What I do know is that through my experiences over the past year, I feel I am held by the Divine and supported by my SoulFullHeart family and mate. Β 2014 is a year of adventure and total unknowns. Β For the first time in my life, I couldn’t tell you where I will be or who I will be this time next year. Β But as long as love is in my heart, it doesn’t really matter.

Christopher Tydeman has been embracing the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life since March, 2012. He is a SoulFullHeart facilitator-in-training, author onΒ this blog, and he hosted theΒ SoulFullHeart Experience Radio Show. Visit soulfullheart.com for more information on SoulFullHeart.