Tag: change

Choosing The Path Of Love And Growth

Published on by Raianna ShaiLeave a comment


by Raianna Shai

I’ve been in Portugal for over a month now and with so much changing for me in this transition, I felt like it was time to digest it all through writing. We’re currently in a timeline that has caused so many of us to rethink where we are in our lives. Life as we’ve known it is coming to a close and it has come time to reevaluate what is truly and deeply important to each of us as unique souls.

For those who don’t know, I left Canada last month to be with my soul family and community, SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. I spent a year physically away from them exploring my own independent journey of relationship, growth, maturation and self discovery. I had gotten to the point where doing emotional healing work was so hard for me to do alone and remain consistent with. Parts of me wanted the easy way out – to just live life and use various mediums to distract and medicate any sadness or loss of purpose I felt inside of myself.

I’m more than grateful for this phase of my life though as it taught me how to deeply love another, advocate for my needs, re-sparked my desire for independence and also led me to discovering what was really most important for me and my soul.

Healing with the soulfullheart process is not easy, healing trauma and pain never is. It’s so much easier to stay in what’s comfortable and already well known. But what brought me back to it stronger than ever is the idea that any ounce of love that I am able to give to myself is another ounce of love that exists in the world. Every time we heal something deep inside of ourselves it affects the collective in a big way. The way my community can really see and feel me is something that I wish everyone on the planet could experience. And it’s something that everyone deserves.

So as hard as it is for parts of me to feel like I deserve this love or that I’m big enough to show up for this process, I remind myself of the bigger purpose here. We aren’t just healing for ourselves, we’re healing for the world.

Love,

Raianna Shai

We Have Boarded A Boat

Published on by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By  Raphael Awen

We have boarded a boat and we are making a long journey.

Things don’t quite feel right or easy, even as much as we’d like to attempt to relax and take in the changes and newness unfolding before us.

Parts of us are not only asking, but also afraid about the new world we are entering. Will it be good? Will I find pleasure and fulfillment?

Make no mistake, we are in the midst of the biggest changes in our world, certainly during our lifetimes, if not ever.

As much as we feel like a good camper, or a seasoned traveller, we are still admittedly in a culture shock.

Watching people in the new land willingly and even want to cover their nose and mouth and breathe in their own waste gasses instead of unfiltered fresh air for fear of a hearsay thing they don’t understand in order to protect their health, is a shocking, strange and weird mindfuck, and something so beyond any language barrier we may have tried to allow for.

Many of you are in the midst of deep life changes and would concur that we are mid voyage, no longer moored to the old norms. But even the many who might be able to argue that their life as they know it hasn’t changed, as they attempt to live and work and live life pretty much as they always have are also feeling the rumble rumbling underneath their known world. It’s for sure not on auto pilot in the way it once was.

Whether we resist change or attempt to embrace change, we are doing it from a place of wanting to ensure our wellbeing and our outcome, which proves that life isn’t static. It’s always changing.

I know I sure do that when packing for a trip, whether it’s packing a familiar food or drink, or some other creature comfort. We try to predict the outcome and to avoid as much regret as possible.

But prior to embarking, each of us must settle on the amount of luggage we’re taking, according to our means and desires, whether it’s a single backpack or an overseas storage container, it still only fits so much.

How much will be enough? Will you even need, want or like the things you bring with you into the new world when you get there?

You have to admit, we’re all a bit strange and uneasy when it comes to change, even as we are, in the core of our being, change in motion.

When you consider that life is in its essence, infinite, this helps relate to the uneasiness we find within. Infinite is just plain scary. How do you choose one thing amidst an infinite number of others that by choosing, you are saying no to?

Infinity for the most part freaks us out. It explains why we all settle into crafting false finite gods of our own making for as long as we do, whether an overt religion, or choose to go along with any of the ready made lifestyles (deathstyles) we find all around us that promise to take us somewhere good if we just sign up.

I believe and I hope that the voyage we are now on is one of those really deep game changers, that ‘changes everything’. Admittedly, I still have packed away and have a dwindling supply of some of the old familiarities in case of disappointment as part of my preparation, which evidences how unbelievable and almost unimaginable the new world is that we dared to want and chose to sail for.

What choices are you facing in the unfolding change? How much courage do you have to choose? Where and how could you find the courage if part of you admittedly just doesn’t have it, and refuses to budge?

Will you simply let life and circumstance have its way allowing you to play the victim card?

You may well find one or more parts of you that have had enough, that simply don’t want to face any changes. I know I sure have. The changes these parts of us have faced haven’t panned out to anything good in their experience. Why should this be any different? If you can’t show up for these parts of you and their pain, you are choosing to wind things down, which is also known as suicide, whether immediate or in slow motion. 

Is this a wrap then on your soul’s mission this life? Only you can decide that.

It makes sense that these hesitant and resistant parts of you don’t feel ready for the infinite world, and don’t feel like they would like it there. They’re probably right in that they don’t feel fitted to the new world. They’re best not falsely coaxed into any shallow advice of looking on the bright side.

What if instead, you could enter their world, get to know them, thank them for the shit and conditioning they’ve had to hold to manage making the old world survivable? They are the ones who’ve brought you to this moment of rebirth. They deserve to be felt and honoured, not paved over with some positive emotional management techniques. That’s all part of the shit that’s collapsing. These parts of you are wanting and needing to truly collapse.

Let them collapse into your open heart of love, acceptance and curiosity. Allow their despair and needs to inform the set of your sails now as you navigate your inner relationSHIP taking them with you, leaving no one behind.

May we each find our sacred way in these deep and profound and uniquely personal changes we are in the midst of.

Raphael Awen

SoulFullHeart.org/sessions

The pic below is me this week pondering the new world we’ve arrived in, in a little village called Folques, in Portugal. Note the luggage and possessions – a thermal mug, beach chairs for two, and a side table. Where will you go and what will you bring?

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Coming To Terms

Published on by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

There’s no time like the present to come to terms with what you really want and what you don’t want. 

Coming to terms is about deeply feeling what parts of you need, what they are in reaction to, what they want to be done with and what they want to know and feel as an alternative new arising reality. 

Until you choose to inhabit more of your Divine Self embodiment, the one who can differentiate from these parts of you, get to know and feel them, there isn’t any transactional/relational space inside of you for a shift to occur. Shifts occur as things are felt, digested, and moved. Movements occur ‘to and from’ and that takes two. 

All the life dramas occurring in your life and in the collective, when embraced with curiosity and an open heart, all make for portal entry points into this relationship with yourself where deep shifts and changes can occur.

We can’t say yes to something without saying no to something else, and vice versa. We as souls chose this ground of dualistic choice in which to grow. We’re only done with this kind of duality when we actually are. 

No amount of playing smaller than we are and then caretaking one another in codependent relationships can actually snuff out the ache of our soul to truly grow and embody what we came here to embody. 

It’s not about not having a part of you that isn’t in fear of this kind of growth, or transcending your fears, but rather about getting to know the hesitant parts and why they feel hesitant. Now, self discipline isn’t needed in the way parts of us have used it to try to force growth that feels pushed and makes the self bad in some way. 

Growth and change can now happen effortlessly, naturally and with grace as your spring loaded essence does what it’s programmed to do. 

What choices are before you now? What parts of you do they relate to? Would you make space to bridge to these parts of you, hold space for them and actually cultivate a deeply meaningful relationship with them – a kind of pearl of great price, a heaven on earth? 

As you resonate into these new places, community naturally reshapes itself in your life. Your energy is shifting and so will the company you keep. Your spirituality will also naturally shift, along with your livelihood, your surroundings. All of it shifts as you align into your essence. Compartmented rooms of suffering, fear and anxiety merge into the true abundant supply of who and what you really are. 

If going deeper into this with some personal help and connection draws you, I offer a free consultation over Zoom to assist you into checking out if ongoing sessions is a fit. More here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Photo by Kunal Shinde on Unsplash

Change Happens As You Respond To The New, Not From Fighting The Old ~

Published on by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Change is on our hearts and minds right now as we head into the New Year of 2020 and a New Decade as well. This is change for ourselves personally and for the collective too as the Ascension process moves into another year and up a higher gear. The ‘marker’ of a New Year invites us to assess and locate ourselves related to the year that has passed and the one that is coming UP.

INtentions are becoming clearer. INtentions are less coming from a sense of self improvement or fixing (as declaring ‘resolutions’ can be) and more about what you really WANT TO BE and already ARE authentically as connected to your soul purpose expression here. INtentions are the focus of the sense you’ve been receiving of your highest timeline and what it looks and feels like through the upgrading and integration process of ongoing Ascension energies.

INtentions vibe into the energy of YOUR personal Ascension process. They are the claim of more New energies in your life, from inside of you, and in relationship with others. INtentions reflect the understanding that external changes only come from internal shifts. This is a powerful year-end passageway to feel into and explore and set INtentions for 2020, to connect to your higher timeline around that and feel what that is.

Fighting the old is probably running out of ground for you. There is sometimes a necessary phase of it as your 3D Self awakens and your 4D transitional Self is being infused with soul energies. The fight ultimately comes from inside, from one part of you to another, from polarization and mixed feelings that stem from your emotional body. These parts form as often divergent energies as you receive this template from 3D consciousness.

The pushing away, the advocating, the contending, the boundary setting, the claiming of who you REALLY are and what you need with others may have been and still is a very necessary phase for parts of you. The degree of ‘fight’ in these relationships relates to the degree of fear there is still inside.

Fear from inside of you and your soul leads to the fighting energy….often from unhealed unworthiness, rage, shame, distrust, and disconnection. Fighting stems from wounded masculine frequencies too that condition us to fight, which we have all baked in and been bred in during this 3D experiment, such as those that can live in your Inner Protector and Gatekeeper.

Responding to the New invites a Divine Feminine energy to relate with change, from both inside of you and with others. The Divine Mother offers a template of compassion response to change that holds desire and patience in equal measure.

Responding to the New with Divine and self love transforms the unworthiness into sense of goodness; rage into truth telling with compassion; shame into innocence; distrust into trust; and disconnection into connection.

Responding to the New is offering love to the Old so that it can transmute. Infinite Possibilities open UP from responding to the New versus fighting the Old. This starts from within, as you hold space with lots of love and curiosity for all the ‘old’ energies from within and respond to the New in all areas of your life too. Your transmutation this way, in such a personal way, DOES impact the collective….and it invites the old (WITH love) to BEcome the New.

 

Love,

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Join me for my last women’s call of the decade this Sunday, December 29th at 10:00am PDT! We’ll be exploring Divine Mother energies of support as we transition into this new year and decade. You can join us for $15 CAD to attend or receive the recording! More information here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/4-sacred-feminine-exploration-women-s-group-call-jelelle-awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC (next one is March 20-23), writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Navigating Change In Preparation For 2020: Alive Daily Video Series | Raphael Awen

Published on by Raphael Awen1 Comment

By Raphael Awen

Today’s Live – Navigating Change In Preparation For 2020

With so much change upon us personally and collectively, how do you relate to the change that is coming and wants to come?

Are you in touch with the polarity inside of you of the part that wants the change in contrast with the part of you that doesn’t? Relating with both of these parts of you and the gap between them are necessary for you to not be in suffering over the changes underway.

Here is the full Alive Series Playlist: https://tinyurl.com/uaghll3

Info about the free Intro call to sessions with myself: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Become a one-time or monthly donor and patron to support SoulFullHeart and our expression through videos, writings, and more! https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 🙂

Bursting Out Of Your Cocoon During Awakening

Published on by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

Awakening……..you are outgrowing that previously necessary cocoon. That safety place to bake, to ache, to create. That place removed, sometimes isolated, sometimes feeling dark void space. The void, though, is alive with your death and your rebirths.

You have been surrendering to the process of BEing the transforming caterpillar until now. Tucked into the birthing space, sometimes gestating, sometimes thrashing, sometimes searching for a deeper and wider understanding. Sometimes missing your previous forms, shapes, and ways that were in the known.

You are becoming more comfortable in the unknown. In the space where Infinite Possibilities pose no obvious limits.

You are BEing created as you are creating the life and the higher timeline life that you most want and desire. The timeline shimmers like a mirage in the distance, yet it comes ever closer with every choice of love. With every choice to love even fear, even darkness, even densities, even differences.

The timeline of your highest purpose to serve love comes closer with every shift of heart from comparison to inspiration; from judgment to compassion; from taking to sharing; from polarization to unification.

You are BEing created as your Butterfly Self….to eventually emerge, to burst out of any kind of safety or limits, to always be growing.

You are BEing the metamorphosis into your arising Sacred Human in fleshy form. You are ready to be born. You are ready to spread your wings.

Now…..you are ready to FLY!

 

~

Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions for emotional digestion, deepening of inner connections with parts/Metasoul aspects/your butterfly self, empowerment…more info below
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

The Constant Of Change

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

By Gabriel Solais

Change is the one thing that we can count on to be constant. That is the marker of our growth whether that change shifts something inside of us, outside, or both. Invariably they are both occurring simultaneously. The deeper gauge is how we are relating to and digesting that change inside.

My world has felt like it has flipped on its axis over the past couple of weeks. I will be writing more about that in the next couple of days. In this emotional ‘pole shift’ a lot has rumbled and it could feel like a catastrophe to parts of me. Kind of like my own personal Atlantis.

In the course of this upheaval, I have given myself to the surges and purges. The depths of feeling that bring rain and then clearer skies, only to roll with another ‘aftershock’ of reality. I have had the fortunate situation to be able to do so at a rate and pace that felt self-loving and not forced, judged, or ignored.

In the roll, I am finding a rock. A sense of BEing that is not hard, but fluid and flexible. Trusting and forgivable. This rock is a deeper layer of a ‘me’ that I continue to learn about and become more intimate with in Love and Awareness. Some good and some things that need to be loved.

And that is the gift of this journey. To find what is True within the Hidden, even when that seems to get flipped upside down from time to time. The essence and purpose of change. If you are amidst a great shift and change in your life there are those that can help you to navigate that with all the grace and pace needed to get to that ‘other side’ and next chapter. It has been a gift to me beyond these words.

More to come…

Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Arising Opportunities For Connection Through Deep Life Change

Published on by Kasha Rokshana2 Comments

By Kalayna Solais

Earlier this week, Raianna Shai and I ventured out to Salt Spring Island for a couple of days’ journey… Salt Spring is very easy to get to from here in Victoria, yet I hadn’t been yet and this trip ended up having the most perfect timing with some deep personal changes being navigated recently in my life (more details on that in a future post).

It was wonderful to BE with Raianna in this emerging sense of sisterhood goodness… we have had a bond for quite a while now with her having been a Facilitant of mine in SoulFullHeart, yet we’ve also always had a clear connection on a soul and heart level that goes beyond physical age and even current life experience. Each moment together arose in a new way and we were able to arise in a new way for each other too. I have so much MORE love and appreciation for this feminine being that I get to be in relationship with right now and that feels so good! 😀

Together on this trip we felt a connection on a Metasoul level as we felt our First Nations Metasoul sisters and their own sisterly connection. They danced and chanted and sang and hugged trees while exploring the beautiful, super-natural landscapes of this stunning island and reuniting with us and with each other too.

There’s something about letting go into life changes and feeling the parts of you that are having a hard time trusting them deeply (or at all) that allows for this sort of newly arising set of circumstances and opportunities to really be let in… the bittersweetness of letting go of what was DOES make room for what IS and what will be. Opportunities do come as we continue to feel our hearts and the parts of us that live there, that hurt there, that need healing there.

There’s much to look forward to, but there’s also much to be with in this very moment too, being real about the pain surfacing and being with the parts that are feeling the losses, the cost, the retrospect, the sentimentality. There’s much to take stock of and digest about the past through big life changes yet there’s also much to hold out for, to envision as possible, to see as imminent and to let in as much as you can in each moment.

***

Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energies Encourage You To Take A ‘Leap Of Faith’ Into Your New Timeline

Published on by Kasha Rokshana2 Comments

by Kalayna Solais

Plans are moving forward pretty quickly lately… feeling like we are living in several timelines at once feels apt to say, considering that that is the nature of shifting timelines.

Much to let in as we keep letting go… remembering that the grieving process is as sacred as the excitement for the new. All parts have their own reactions to change, to risk-taking, to moving forward and onward… and ultimately UPward as we deepen our heart and soul’s trust in the Divine and the incoming Higher Timeline.

I felt so many tremors and tensions yesterday… like an earthquake was moving through while the logistical choices, research, etc were felt into by Gabriel and me as we co-lead our next movements toward Europe as not just a destination, but somewhere to BE for as long as we can be. Somewhere to continue to upgrade our service of love, somewhere to continue to explore the timelines and lifetimes alive in a geography so rich with ‘history’ that isn’t really ‘past’ at all but billowing and vibrating in the NOW.

This is a time when in some ways we are being asked to jump. To take a leap of faith and trust, even if that feels beyond reach for parts of us in moments as anxieties about money or the ‘how’s’ of everything surface. This is not just a process for us personally along with beloveds of ours who we will be making this shift with, but also for many others who are at the crux of big changes and collapses of their current timelines.

To unplug, to move on from, your current and known reality always requires a leap of faith. This faith is not just in some force or power outside of you, but in YOU and your soul, ultimately. It is an invitation to take some known risks, to be at the edge of discomfort and explore it all. To get curious about what’s rumbling and how deep instead of avoiding the rumble and what it brings up.

There’s so much more on the other side of each process, no matter how big, that we inhabit around action-taking, next steps, ways to approach our impending timeline possibilities. There’s so much MORE that we get to BE and experience ourselves as once we are through the forest of choice points and challenges that come up with every big life change.

To not be alone in this feels big… to recognize that feeling parts of you is actually another way to feel accompanied, along with feeling Star Family and Metasoul Aspects of you in other lifetimes too. There’s a lot of support coming in to help you feel through it all and the support you need in human form could be at your doorstep too…

The corridor of big life change is opening up. Will you take your next step into it, even if for now that step feels small?

No choice is as small as it might seem… it’s all rooted somewhere in your soul, as it navigates its own sacred way back to the love it knows so well. One felt step at a time. ❤️

***

Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Loving Your Self & Parts Through Timeline Collapses

Published on by Kasha Rokshana3 Comments

by Kalayna Solais

When a once beloved timeline shatters in our world, there is much to be with inside. Parts of us sometimes scramble to find the answer, a solution, a way to patch up what is coming apart or breaking. They do this in moments of knowing how much there is to feel about it all and they react in understandable fear and feelings of, ‘what NOW then?’

When life takes a sudden shift, we can’t see the forest for the trees. We can’t see the bigger picture right away, nor are we meant to. We can’t actually understand with deep clarity yet about why this is happening right now or what will happen next as a result of it. In the eye of a storm or the middle of an earthquake, all you can really do is surrender… and that takes the most courage of all. Surrender and feel… and just keep feeling.

More timelines will shatter and scatter… more aspects of our lives as we’ve known them so far will come apart. This is one of those shadowy aspects of our Ascension but it’s not as dark as it seems in moments… the heart has to break to break open sometimes and the goodness that comes from this process is actually quite deep and far-reaching.

This is what I’m leaning into personally right now as more shifts unfold in my life. I’ve been through many, many big timeline shifts already, some that have felt more devastating and been quite a bit harder than others. This latest one is about my ‘community’ as I’ve known and experienced it starting to go through a kind of diaspora. Gabriel and I are making new choices as they all do, feeling in every moment what our next desires are, individually first and then seeing if and how it aligns together.

I’m also witnessing the touching and deep ways in which beloveds of mine are navigating their own big shifts and changes. It’s a lot to process yet the courage it takes to make each new decision while putting self-love first, is something you don’t soon forget as it stays with you always. 💙

With big changes come big realizations and opportunity for awakenings… invitations to feel your alchemy deeper and trust in it more too, while you discover more about who you are, who you’ve been, and who you most want to be.

No part of us can stay in devastated reactions if we can hold them and their pain, take this time as a phase of discovering something new about ourselves and our life’s patterns to date, and make conscious decisions from the heart and soul both that will unfold in the name of and in alignment with, Love.

If you need support, I am available to serve women under 30 through a Bridging Session and we can feel together what’s unfolding for you. More info here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Much, much love… ❤️

***

Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.