Walking Through The Valley Of The Shadows Of Death During Awakening

By Jelelle Awen

You are walking through a valley……crawling on your knees at times. Completely lost and feeling like a ghost at times. Totally submerged in pain and mourning at times. Ash in the Air, filling the air at times.

This is the valley of the shadow of death place that awakening brings you to, invites you to…..yet it is not a place on the outside. It is not a place to go to, yet rather, a place that you become inside for a phase in order to move beyond it.

You are being with the shadows that are inside during this phase. The shadows are echoes of fear, of wounding, of trauma. The shadows are energies from other lifetimes wanting to become visible again so you can connect and heal and integrate them into your soul expression AS a human again. The shadows are what is inside of you that has been suppressed and disowned, cast away, and rejected.

You are BEing the death that is happening inside. The death is of the false YOU, the version of you that you agreed to be until you no longer needed or wanting to be anymore. Until you started to remember that you are not that, but really SO MUCH more. The death is of the old world that used to be nourishing and no longer is. The death is the letting go of relationships that require you to shrink and to settle and to conform.

You are crossing from the old way, the conditioned way, the veiled way…and into the NEW, shedding the layers of what is not you along the way. This crossing is dangerous to the old way and pushes up fear and resistance. The crossing asks more from you at times then you imagine that you can possibly give or have….yet, somehow, there is always something there to keep you moving forward.

Even though you walk through the valley of the shadow of death, you fear no evil, because you realize that there is NOTHING evil inside of you. There is nothing truly evil as it all can be returned to love with love. You fear no evil because you are with you. You are there to be with the shadows, to be with the aspect of you that is dying, to be a guide during the crossing and the dying and the letting go.

You are supported during this inner valley walk by a growing sacred human you. This you is infused with and held by Divine love, by love from your guides/aspects that become you more and more. This you can hold and respond and love all that comes up inside of you as sacred, meaningful, and important. This you sees all phases (especially the death and rebirth one) as sacred, meaningful, and important.

You are walking through your valley of your shadow during the death of your false self…..responding to change with trust…..responding to death with possibilities…..responding to growth with desire……responding to fear WITH LOVE.

On the other side of this valley is the land of self love milk and Self worth honey. The riches of self love and self worth that flow like rivers from your expanding mind, your embodying soul, your opening wide heart. This land of riches is of SELF beyond self image, unaware ego, personality and persona. This land is rich with the sunshine of your higher consciousness coming in and BEcoming you. It is rich with intimacies with others that are nourishing, catalytic, and based in mutual love and respect.

It is rich with a sense of being with Divine Source and also from Divine Source and also BEing Divine Source. This is the place you feel and remember as you cross the valley, that keeps you going, that reminds you of who you are meant to be as a sacred human.

Guided meditation to connect to your higher time/land of self love riches: https://youtu.be/T0K7Ti68gNo

Jelelle Awen
This writing is an excerpt from Sacred Human, Arising Wonder, my book available on the awakening/ascension process, available here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

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Introducing ‘Discover’: A New Vlog Series With Kalayna Solais

by Kalayna Solais

I’d been baking on this idea for a while… feeling inspired to try something new, which is to take on offering an ongoing vlog series for as long as I feel to, posting as often as I feel to and as long as it arises in a genuine way. I’m not quite ready to take on the same ’33 Day’ series that Jelelle has now done two years in a row! But maybe someday? 🙂

This first video is a very brief (about 4min) introduction and intention-setting from me as I set the stage for this. I have some topics in my heart that I’d like to talk about, including digesting some things that are often talked about and giving them a ‘SoulFullHeart-spin’. They include anxiety and depression and some new layers to discover as you feel your own; my personal process with parts/Metasoul work and how it could help you; various spirituality and Ascension-related topics, such as the different ways in which you may experience your own Ascension, awakening, and healing paths. Really the list of possibilities is endless and I’m open to requests as well, as nothing is set in stone and I very much want this to benefit and be in response to you, your parts, and your own heart and soul.

As I say in the video, I embrace fully the learning experience ahead of me with dipping my toe into the waters of holding these videos and this expression of service of love! I have clarity and wisdoms to share from my own process and experience and some that are still on the way too that maybe we will discover together.

Much love to you and I am excited to welcome you into this space with me!

Love,

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Bursting Out Of Your Cocoon

By Jelelle Awen

Awakening……..you are outgrowing that previously necessary cocoon. That safety place to bake, to ache, to create. That place removed, sometimes isolated, sometimes feeling dark void space. The void, though, is alive with your death and your rebirths.

You have been surrendering to the process of BEing the transforming caterpillar until now. Tucked into the birthing space, sometimes gestating, sometimes thrashing, sometimes searching for a deeper and wider understanding. Sometimes missing your previous forms, shapes, and ways that were in the known. You are becoming more comfortable in the unknown and in the space where Infinite Possibilities pose no obvious limits.

You are BEing created as you are creating the life and timeline that you most want and desire. The timeline shimmers like a mirage in the distance, yet it comes ever closer with every choice of love. With every choice to love even fear, even darkness, even densities, even differences. The timeline of your highest purpose to serve love comes closer with every shift of heart from comparison to inspiration; from judgment to compassion; from taking to sharing; from polarization to unification.

You are BEing created as your Butterfly Self….to eventually emerge, to burst out of any kind of safety or limits, to always be growing. You are BEing the metamorphosis into your arising Sacred Human in fleshy form. You are ready to be born. You are ready to spread your wings.

Now…..you are ready to FLY!

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Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions for emotional digestion, deepening of inner connections with parts/Metasoul aspects/your butterfly self, empowerment…more info below
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Introduction To The Parts Of Yourself And Soul: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Sept 3, 2018)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

This week’s Museletter features a piece by Jelelle Awen, where she offers the perspective of connecting to different parts of you and invites you into a new reality of feeling them more specifically, even outside of sessions with SoulFullHeart. She describes the benefits of connecting to parts:

“Separation from these parts allows for a collaborative relationship to form. The original traumas and woundings happened in relationship and heal in relationship too. You become a loving, compassionate, and curious higher vibrational frequency of love that can rescue, save, feel, and BE with the parts of yourself and soul that most need you.”

There is a brand NEW guided meditation offering from Jelelle this week as well. A quick one that offers a way to clean and activate your chakras.

Many new articles and several new audio blogs this week from Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna. These include digestions of energy updates, feeling your life and your relationship to life, yourself, your parts, your desires, and ways to be with your emerging emotional reality.

Raphael, Jelelle and Gabriel offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $77 USD min. donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Feeling Your Desires, Letting Go Of ‘Settling’

By Kalayna Colibri

I’ve never felt very personally drawn to the sense that eliminating all of your desires is the path to true happiness. It’s in genuinely feeling our unhappiness because we don’t quite have what we desire that we set ourselves up for our next process of embodying the change we want to experience. Feeling desires does not have to feel like torture, though parts of you may relate to it that way. It’s not about over-stretching yourself into a pretzel to try and “make” something happen, either… though a phase of feeling yourself do this may be necessary for you.

This process doesn’t eliminate the need to feel gratitude. It’s actually a marriage of gratitude for what you’ve had and experienced and even letting in a mourning process of what you’re feeling to let go of, and a sense that you’re ready to move on now, that becomes the process of drawing in your next timeline.

As Raphael Awen has said many times, “the way you leave is the way you enter”. This lands quite deeply for me as I choose my next desires to pursue and let them land deeply in my heart too. There are things that I want, but more importantly, there are experiences of myself and also of others that I want, that are driving me onward into letting in more of what I truly want at this time.

I know so well the rumble that feeling the gap between what you want and want you have now creates in your being and your life. I have experienced over and over again the process of letting go while also holding on to that picture and feeling-experience that lives inside of you that tells you want is truly possible and invites you to feel all there is to feel about that.

This can become a scary process, especially if it is your first time navigating big changes or shifts, or if you’ve been through big changes before but want to move through it all differently now. It takes great courage to move through your timelines and into the unknown. This may feel natural to some parts of you, but completely unnatural and maybe undesirable to other parts of you.

If Ascension is anything though, it’s a letting go of the need to know and feeling all reactions there are to the not-knowing. We cannot ‘know’ our way through this Ascension process, only be with the unknowns of it and feel ourselves walking all of that out. This is the invitation of change and inner-rumble… this is the path to that which you’ve been most deeply aching for.

What are the desires you have for your experience of yourself, love, life, Ascension? What are you willing to move through in order to have and embody what you desire? Can you feel the parts of you that have a push-pull around letting that in?

It IS possible to hold what you want with a growing maturity and willingness to stumble through some darkness… and it IS imminent, that your desires are leading you to the happiness you crave beyond any previous ‘settling’ you may have been ok with for a while, and the fulfillment of everything your soul has signed up for. ❤️

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My beloveds, Jelelle, Raphael and Gabriel all offer exquisite space holding sessions if you’re curious to ride this unknown horse of your desires more deeply into the next sunrise of your life: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

From Living Room To Loving Room: Celebrating Sacred Group Process Space, Community Shifts And Changes

By Kalayna Colibri

At first glance, our living room is a mess, yeah? Well, if you could vibe yourself here to be in this room right now, the mess wouldn’t matter… this is the best room in Gabriel and I’s house right now. The warmth as I sit here and digest what moved between Gabriel and I as well as within us individually and within the hearts and souls of my other beloveds in this space today, I feel the warmth of the love container that held us all… the love energies coming from our hearts to our parts, our hearts to each other and each other’s parts. It’s a powerful energy to be in and around and not one that comes without cost, without constant and consistent choice, without courage and a deep trust within that love is carrying us to our next layers within and within relationship to each other too.

This was one of our last group healing spaces together before Jelelle, Raphael and Raianna go back to Canada, where we all came from 4 years ago, nearly to the day. It was a beautiful weekend of connection and process. It was a time of bittersweet celebration and abundance of love… digestions of our journey together so far and how much we are going to miss each other too.

We are choosing this next phase of separation so that Gabriel and I can build our kingdom together as a Sacred Union couple, an arising King and Queen. Jelelle and Raphael have their next phase of leadership too, moving on from this geography to be in a new phase of grist for their own processes and also to continue expanding our community. Raianna will be making connections of her own back in Canada too. In all cases, the intention holding all of it and all of us is to serve love… to ourselves, between each other, and with others. We ultimately want more of YOU to be able to access and experience what we experience together… the gifts and growth crucibles of soul family connections and the catalytic nature of this work.

So, a messy living room to some… but a warm LOVING room to me. And you’re all invited to take part in your next steps, feeling how they may even connect you more to us in the ways you’re ready for.

Follow along on all our Facebook feeds, our website (soulfullheartwayoflife.com) our blog (soulfullheartblog.com), our YouTube (SoulFullHeart Experience), and/or sign up for our free weekly Museletter on our website.

I wish you much love… from my heart to yours. ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Navigating These Times Of Change And Upturned Feelings Inside

By Kalayna Colibri

During these days and moments of so much coming in and going on, the constant invitation is to surrender to the tornado of reflections and changes, trusting that you WILL land somewhere soft and grassy… these times of upheaval actually press us upward AND onward, while encouraging us to go inward.

The preciousness of parts of you can be forgotten in the everyday shuffle and the ongoing dreamings of what you want to experience, be, have next. The need to see and actually be with what is now can be challenging. The emotional and spiritual pain and distrust that parts of you hold can become buried, even in a life that is genuinely good. The gift of these ‘tornado times’ is that this pain can surface and be felt again, made space for, healed deeper, brought with you to that new place the Divine so wants to take you and IS taking you, even if you can’t feel the surrender or see the ground beneath your feet at the time…

This is the ongoing offer, invitation, love we are granted and flooded with.

As hard as it can be and often is in these moments of poignant and pure feeling, there is always a Divine hand being held out for us to grasp onto, that encourages the authentic YOU to hold a hand out for the parts that are struggling in their fears and suffering in their pain, seeing and feeling the worlds – their worlds – that are collapsing in so many ways, while they reach out for a ‘more’ that they need reminding is not only possible, but already here…

In this bittersweet time of movement… of upswing and downturn… we learn to shift the gears into place, taking all of our precious cargo of self and soul with us. Bringing it all to that ‘Promised Land’ within, that does want to take us to all that we most deeply want and work to feel worthy of.

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My beloveds offer powerful session space for you to lean into if you’d like support through any changes going on and pain coming up: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Full/New Moon Brings Divine Feminine Healing Balm

By Kalayna Colibri

Since this year’s Lion’s Gate portal event and all of these eclipses, it has seemed as if some things have become a bit more chaotic than usual, maybe. At least for some. It’s the chaos of life intensifying in some ways perhaps, in order to reflect the chaos inside. It’s the flurry of sudden life changes that are either desired or not, that reflect to you where you truly are in your healing and Ascension journey.

This last full moon has felt like a coming full-circle around inner process and understanding outer conditions and circumstances… why you’ve drawn what you have and chosen what you’ve chosen, consciously and unconsciously. The energy of this moon has felt like a welcome healing balm from the feminine. A chance to feel the dust settling now amidst the upturning of so much… a chance to feel how you truly are a phoenix now rising humbly from the ashes of all that has had to burn and be let go of.

The process of feeling the layers of who you’ve thought yourself to be is forever a humbling one and yet an activation too. Peeling back the layers of window-dressing, self-image concerns and construction, and finding who you are in your heart is a process of feeling the parts of you that have been invested in the hiding of your truest light. In this discovery of another authentic layer of you, there’s an automatic and unavoidable activation of your 5D/Service-of-Love Self. This is something that can’t be put on or certified, but lived and loved into.

If you find yourself and parts of you looking around at what has crumbled or has been in the process of crumbling recently in your life, the invitation from these feminine healing balm energies is to feel and trust how this process has been and is necessary… that nothing you are meant for can ever be truly lost, though this is so hard to feel in the middle of it all. The feminine can be felt through any face of the Divine Mother that resonates for you, and She in any and all forms is holding you now and always, making space for you and inviting you to make space for Her, for You, for Love.

Much love to you as you continue your own journey on this path into and through your deepest awakening experiences, which can feel like a fire in your living room… you are yet alive, you are always loved, and you are meant for all of those “mores” you have ever dreamed of… ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: HIGH SOULar Winds Bring In Sacred Masculine Activations

By Jelelle Awen

A steady and strong stream of high speed SOULar winds have been blowing in for the last two days (August 20th and 21st). SOULar wind speeds reached the high 600’s km/sec yesterday (where typical speeds are more like 200 km/sec). These winds are forming into minor to active geomagnetic storms in the mid to high altitudes. Beautiful Aurora codes are lighting up the arctic skies in the early morning and can be connected to in the astrals too.

You may feel these SOULar winds as a higher intensity of energy moving through your body and your chakras and inside of your BEing. There is such a range of reaction to them, unique to each person. For some souls, these energies bring a sense of being ‘high’ and giddy, feelings of euphoria, bliss, and a renewed mental clarity and sense of purpose. Yet, some people may feel depression, fatigue, and sense of hopelessness….restlessness for parts of them over their current life trajectory, especially if there are still parts of them who are anchored to 3D traumas. These higher frequencies can also cause difficulty sleeping, headaches and light headedness.

Gaia’s atmosphere is the primary receiver of this stream of SOULar energies flowing out from a very wide coronal hole in the sun’s surface.  Gaia could be inside this stream of SOULar winds for days, even through the rest of this week, according to spaceweather.com. This stream brings in a high level of plasma with it….a mix of positively and negatively charged particles at extremely high temperatures, becoming more gas-like as these energies leave the sun and come closer to Gaia. Gaia’s magnetic field protects us from the severe damage that these particles could do and acts like a shield, repelling the plasma and redirecting it into the atmosphere again.

I was guided to study a little bit more (which I honestly hardly ever do, preferring to lead with my intuition) about the dynamics that are happening during high SOULar winds and how they can impact our telecommunications systems and our internal systems too. I have the sense when reading about mainstream science’s take on them of much undigested fear about the ‘destructive’ elements of the sun’s energy. Gaia’s magnetic field feels so fragile in this mainstream picture….repelling these powerful SOULar forces with only Her flimsy shield protecting us from all the possibilities of mass destruction and damage that could burst through at any moment.

There is some way in which this seems to represent the overall fear that comes up in response to the power of the sacred masculine. The sense I have been offered about these SOULar energies is that they are actually much needed by us right now. There is much awe and reverence to feel in the powerful force that these energies are….they serve as a reminder of the powerful force that lies latent inside of each of US too. The masculine CAN do damage and be destructive and violent too….yet overly fixating on that expression creates a repeated, self sabotaging cycle of its play out. Forgiveness of this abuse of power capacity in the masculine and genuine remorse from the masculine is possible as we connect with the masculine parts of ourselves that SO need our love.

These SOULar frequencies activate our sacred masculine, allowing for the collective healing and transformation of the wounded masculine that is MUCH needed during this phase of awakening. The wounded masculine is NOT just in men, yet in each of us, as embodied in our masculine parts in this timeline and from other timelines where we chose male bodies. This is truly a collective invitation to move into healthy masculine expression that each of us can personally take into our hearts, souls, chakras, and even physical bodies.

You have your own versions of magnetic shield, held by your Inner Protector, that can repel the energies when they are too strong and could do damage. Your Inner Protector so bravely and loyally holds these ‘shields’ in the face of 3D onslaughts of fear polarization, separation wounding, and disconnect/unworthiness playouts too. Here is a guided meditation with me to connect with your Inner Protector, which can lead to and open out a wonderful collaborative sacred union within: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ciJIvrn0xA&t=1170s

Ground these SOULar frequencies into the heart of your masculine. Allow your masculine to have a voice and energy in your life. An integrating sacred masculine brings direction, heart-based action, clarity, and healthy boundary setting. The repression/suppression/diversion of your inner masculine energy is what can create lostness, confusion, inability to focus, lack of clarity about soul purpose, poor boundary setting, and projection of masculine needs ‘outside’ of the self.

Embrace these sacred masculine energies as they blow in. Surrender to where He wants to take you. Ride the wave and notice how momentum can move through your life. Allow dynamic things to HAPPEN and the next level to MANifest in your world. Trust that love is holding it ALL and wants to bring it back into balance again….

Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

 

 

Energy Update: SOULar Energies Accelerating Repeating Numbers, Synchs, Awakenings

By Jelelle Awen

I woke up in the middle of the night and checked the time: 2:22am. Then I laid there for awhile, checked the time again: 3:33am. I felt this big WINK in that and a ‘hello’ from my Higher Self/Guides/The Divine. We also recently went to lunch and the total on our bill was $444 pesos (about $22 USD) and, that same day, a recent youtube channel that I went to had 444K subscribers.

All of these repeating numbers mean that the higher dimensional frequencies and timelines are dipping into and overlapping into ours. Either by us going more ‘up’ to meet them and experience them or by them coming ‘down’ to connect with us. Meeting in the middle is becoming more and more possible. Gateways such as what opened on 5/5 and seem to have STAYED open allow for this merging into consciousness. Sometimes we need the physical manifestation of such things to remind us of the Divine synchronicity that is play in ALL moments of our lives.

As I laid there last night feeling wide awake, I recognized the hum and buzz that was running through my body as a response to the geomagnetics picking up again starting yesterday. Not a full fledged ‘storm’, yet enough to feel them in your nervous system and chakras too. It’s as if you’ve had caffeine right before bed and the buzz of it is running through your system.

Heightened winds bring SOULar frequencies into Gaia’s atmosphere and our atmospheres too….activating whatever soul downloads and gifts need to be remembered and brought online. There was also a minor SOULar flare a couple of days ago, which is interesting since it is considered a Solar minimum phase for flares. Flares feel like a sudden shock of energy, a rush of plasma, or a jolt if you are needing that….or they roll into your bliss waves if that is what you are riding. I’ve been on the blissy wave for days now, so I didn’t feel the flare impacting my emotional body too much, although they certainly CAN.

Being on the receiving end of so much cosmic energy has accelerated the awakening process and the moving into our higher timelines for those sensitive and ready for it. It is also flooding all the compartments that you may have created/built in your life. Or that parts of you have constructed in order to keep THAT separate from THIS. Such as, if you have been keeping your spirituality separate from your romantic relationship. Your soul can’t do compartments as it wants to flow through ALL areas of your life. Love can’t do compartments either and will eventually roll into all of them, like the lava flow from Pele in Hawaii….bringing some death, yes, yet also rebirth into the NEW. I’ll be writing more about this soon as it is such a big and common crucible going on.

Repeating numbers, increasing synchronicities, soul family coming together, clearer direction/guidance, things ‘cleaning out’ that no longer serve…..THIS is the ground of Ascension in this now and it is just being intensified by these energies from the Great Cosmic Sun and the Divine. THIS is the time/phase of miracles and magic happening on a ‘regular’ basis. THIS is the New Normal which is actually more like extraordinary, where quantum healing and transformation can happen on multiple timelines, both personally and for the collective. THIS is New Earth Now!

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men, along with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators as well…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.