By Raphael Awen
This morning, I continue feeling an angelic connection, and this is my best and momentary interpretation into words of his energy and message. I invite you to feel it for yourself. I think your own Angels will want to dance with you around this subject. 🙂
If there is a sense inside of you that you desire life as you know it to be different in some way, it means you are alive.
How does it feel to be you, inside of your body, inside of your mind, inside of your emotional body? Is it normal for you to have and feel and experience the wanting of something different? Something new?
Of course you do. It’s the foundation of every sales pitch that’s ever been made and ever will be made to you in your life. If you are alive, you want. The illusion of being totally satisfied with life as you know it is not actually possible given the infinite ever expanding reality of life and love.
You may well have constructed the illusion that life as you know it is as good as it gets, but life itself doesn’t support this illusion, and soon enough, you have to again face your wanter.
So great is this unrelenting power of life itself, (that you chose to be a part of incidentally, there are no victims here), that many have worked long and hard to envision a spirituality that is shorn of all want. It is in wanting and seeking they say that all suffering originates. I say the exact opposite. It is in suppressing your wanting and desiring nature where your suffering is found.
You see, to have a want is one thing, but to admit it, to feel it, to make it conscious is a most vulnerable thing, and for this reason, most will need to find more courage to come to this place. The vulnerability I speak of is found in this conscious admission of a desire that you are asked to feel when there is not a conscious guarantee that you will ever have the desired thing or attain the desired state of being.
To what degree are you willing to feel a desire, to let it really come alive in you, when you can’t see or feel that thing emerging on your horizon? Then of course the next question comes; what life form or God would implement such a form of self abuse, to be given to longing for things you have no way of obtaining?
Let’s let that question bake for a moment and come back to it later. Let’s return to the earlier question. Do you even have desire? Feel it from a chakral perspective. In your grounding in the earth, do you feel a desire to feel more secure, more loved? In your creativity and sensuality, do you feel desire there? How about your personal power, do you feel power in life? Go to the heart chakra now, can you see more room for more self love, more and deeper connection with others? What about your expression in the world, your voice, any room for more there? What about your third eye experience? Any desire for deeper clairvoyance, clairaudience, clairsentience, to enter the magical and mystical as normal as walking the dog? Moving to the crown chakra, could you handle some more God connection? Could you handle feeling more like the God-human that you are? What would that look and feel like?
Okay, that was a lot just now. Thank you for hanging in there with me. When I feel each of my chakras, I feel desire flowing from each one. I am profoundly dissatisfied in the midst of my deep and profound satisfaction. I want more. The more I taste and feel love, the more I want. If this is not your admitted reality, I must ask, to what degree are you even alive?
Is that question offensive? Of course it is to the satisfied soul. Offence is a risk I am willing to take, for it is a much smaller price to pay than losing you to the cult of false satisfaction. If I must part with you for lack of resonance, let it be sacredly and lovingly marked with this soul angst and conflict. Let us not dis-serve ourselves in an illusion of unconditional love. Not here, on this all too important ground.
Bear with me, bear with desire, bear with these words a moment more. But only if you want to.
Yes, you desire. I desire. Truth be told, sometimes I feel like nothing more than desire.
Returning now to the question we left to bake a moment ago…is it not pure sadomasochism to hold this kind of desire with no ability to attain those desires? Of course it is. What kind of universe would ask you to long and desire for things only to gloat in your not being able to attain or obtain them?
Can you feel where this is leading? The desire itself is programmed to take you to its fulfillment. You must begin with owning desire and then let desire lead you to all the courage and grace necessary to walk that out.
I will pause here, and let you digest this opening of your desire.
Love your desire, let your desire have its rightful place in your being.
Thank you for taking this in, feeling and digesting this energy together. Let’s feel where our desire is leading us.
Raphael Awen is co-creator and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more.