To You, Waking Up Soul

By Jelelle Awen

You, waking up soul… can SEE your wings. They are still there, even if not visible to your everyday eyes. Unfurling now, when for so long they had been pressed down and resting.

You remember your Bigness, your purpose, your reason for BEing here. You connect to the energy of ALL the angels singing in all the dimensions, hear their chorus calling you to join in. You find these angels in THIS life, human form, soul family reuniting. You share the song to remind others of what IS and love’s tune.

You, healing precious heart….you FEEL how tender you actually are. Your Inner Child is peeking out, wanting to come out of shy, come out of hiding, come out of being protected. To dance again in JOY, to feel the magic of every moment that is just waiting to be experienced and shared.

You have the capacity to FEEL your vulnerability, your innocence, your goodness COME back to you again as you transform and transmute the emotional energies that are NOT these frequencies with LOVE.

You, arising sacred human…you ARE a wonder of Infinite Love Possibilities in human form. Your body is becoming MORE light, infused with health and vitality. Radiating OUT with physical juice that flows from your care, your reverence, your LOVE for your fleshy self and every living cell.

Your sacred human IS the best of your soul, the best of your heart, the best of your body COMING together, being revealed as the layers of the OLD drop away and you ARE newly born!

Jelelle Awen (with help from some Angelic aspects)

Reach out. Ask for what you need. Get ready to receive!
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men…more information here. Visit for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Becoming Childlike, Angelic, Sacred Human

By Jelelle Awen


Becoming childlike, you remember the innocence and purity of your humanity. Embracing your inner child within, your inner teenager, your 3D adult too……the joys and the hurts, the magic and the pain, both held in your heart with tender love and curiosity. The vulnerability emerges through this holding….the magical access emerges through this loving….the reverence emerges through your reverence for self…..the authenticity emerges through this genuine holding.

Becoming angelic, you remember the expansiveness and sacredness of your divinity. Embracing your inner angel within, your galactic and higher self, connecting from the ‘outside’ with guides in order to remember and become the angel that you ARE more and more. The soul bigness arises through this holding…..the soul purpose expression arises through this communion….the soul gifts sharing arises through this exchange of self to self soul gift love.

Becoming sacred human, you remember the BEST of what makes you human and the BEST of your sacred, soul nature. You remember and, also, BECOME something NEW in this embracement of roots to wing, integrating the human consciousness experiment into NEW frequencies of Divine expression. All is held with love, all the capacity, the FULL range of your BEing in its Creator God and Goddess expression.

Photo taken by me of childlike soulfulness (sacred human!) taking in with mutual reverence the beautiful sunset here in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico.

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc

Beyond Peak Duality: Claiming Your Sacred Humanity


During these ascending times, you are being invited to claim your truest essence as sacred humans.  To claim your fullest expression that is void of limitations and impossibilities.  You are not being asked to leave your humanity behind, but rather to take all that you have learned during your time here in this dimension to fully inhabit something new that you get to add in Love’s quest to know, feel, and explore Itself.  

There is something in you that “knows” you are not all that you could be and ARE in this moment.  It is a heart and soul knowing. It is in your cells and DNA.  It is just what you are and all you can do is choose not to BE it.  That is a claim.  That is a choice based in your free-willed creative power.  OR you can choose to claim the greatest expression you can possibly dream of.  You can claim the Love that is reigning over you…as much as you can let in.  To truly claim the depth and breadth of this you must feel your own reverence as a human BEing.  

Being human can and has been felt as a prison sentence to some souls as the weight of this dimension has had its effects.  It trials and tribulations.  In this state of Peak Duality, separation had been the only game in town for many.  But now the tides are turning in Love’s favor.  We are literally propelling back toward higher consciousness with Gaia as our cruise ship. It is at this time that you came to heal all the karma and blocks that keep you apart from your true essence as a sacred human.  To claim that you are God, the Universe, and Infinite Love there is a bit of doubt and unworthiness that must be felt to clear the decks for Love from multiple sources to make its way in.  
You are being asked to BE on equal footing as angels, star beings, other aetheric energies, and even God Itself for you ARE all of them and they you.  This is a big pill to swallow and it is the process of claiming that brings you the healing you need to open up to what Metatron with Jelelle has referred to as Conscious Dualism and Sacred Humanity.   To be in a state of feeling the Oneness with All That Is while at the same moment feeling our individual expression within the Dual.  To revere your guides, angels, and star BEing family while at the same time letting in their reverence for you in all that you have been through and get to experience in this kaleidescope dimension of extreme variation of expression and feeling.  There is a birthing of something new for all of us in this magical connection and reunion.  We are not being saved.  We are being united as One.  That is a pretty cool picture but one that takes claiming and healing.  I look forward to the new vistas and magical possibilities that this continued expansion and reuniting will bring for all of us in the new world of higher dimensional consciousness…oh, yeah..and Love too.  🙂  

Gabriel Heartman is a facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at

The Exploration Into Conscious Duality And The NEW Sacred Human

By Jelelle Awen


Waves of PURE love are washing down on us right now from Divine Source, from the closest degrees of split off from the Divine, taking the form of angels and spirit guides and star being selves. All of these forms are a reflection and aspect of YOU, embracing them as such WHILE having a relationship with them is ‘conscious duality.’ When the frequencies of Archangel Metatron come through I can feel him as a separate energy from me, a distinctive frequency that is not like mine. Yet, also, I can feel that he IS me, he IS an aspect of me, and his energy IS me too. Both are true in the same moment. This is conscious duality as it invites us not to be fused to the dualistic experience and the illusion of separation WHILE it invites us to be in relationship WITH other..

The mind cannot understand conscious duality; only the healing heart and remembering soul can EMBODY it more and more as the ties to a 3D conditioned life are let go and the soul consciousness floods your Being more and more. Duality has been made bad in spirituality, yet it has been a sacred and Divinely guided experiment that we all chose to engage with. It has taken us as a species in some very interesting and growthful directions, experiences, and expressions. The dance between light and dark; masculine and feminine; love and fear….the contrasts and edges bring up such interesting angles in our mirrors for us to SEE and experience ourselves that couldn’t any other way.

Unconscious duality has expressed itself mostly in clashes that lead to wars, violence, greed, sexism, poverty, and so many other things that we all know and feel with sadness in our hearts. Even THIS unconscious duality in expression has been an important phase in our evolution, necessary in our growth, necessary in our transmutation into sacred humanity. It is from this ground of so much fear and pain that the new buds of our sacred humanity are born and rise. The ground has been fertilized by all of our experiences, our trials and tribulations, our struggles and challenges. And also it has been fertilized by our romances, our emotions and our joys, our desires and our successes. And, above all, by the love that we ARE.

Moving out of unconscious duality into conscious duality has been a collective awakening….some souls responding more deeply and consciously than others. Yet, it is a collective movement that we can call ‘ascension’. Gaia herself as a planetary consciousness is choosing to move into this new ground and inviting us to come with her. Conscious duality invites us into relationship with other in a ground for which ALL are respected and loved, their sovereignty seen and embraced. This still leaves room for differences, for the edges that make life interesting when they touch and rub. Yet nonduality and the frequencies of no-thing-ness, All That Is, Infinite Love and Stillness….these frequencies HOLD the exploration of these conscious and loving relationships. These frequencies create a sense of reverence, non-attachment, appreciation, gratitude, and unity.

This is new, this conscious duality exploration, and it is about holding the exploration not with answers but with questions and desires for how it could be. My star being selves and family don’t KNOW what conscious duality actually is as it something COMPLETELY NEW for them and for us. It is a merging of their consciousness of one mind, androgyny, merged experience with our consciousness of separate mind consciousness, feminine and masculine expression. The result of this merging is what those of us who are called to be wayshowers have experienced in more and more moments in our own lives.

I am very excited about conscious duality, it feels like a huge gift to us from Divine Source. It acknowledges our humanity and its beauty, especially the goodnesses of the duality dance and even the goodnesses of the denser frequency experience that Gaia offers us. The star beings seem to be very excited about conscious duality too because THEY get to grow and learn from it. They want to be in equality with us, to learn from us, to receive the best from us and us from them. It is not about them being better (as SO many channelers seem to offer and come from) but rather about us claiming and embodying our sacred humanity WITH them. With unhealed unworthiness and congested ego, it can be difficult to let in how star beings and even archangels desire this equality.

Claiming our sacred humanity and conscious duality grows from within each of us. As we go within and re-connect, re-align, remember, re-union with aspects of our soul consciousness, then so we embody more and more a merged consciousness of individual self with our higher self and star being self frequencies. Going within and inviting in these aspects while healing the aspects that are in pain and in struggle and in subconscious shadow. We offer a path for navigating this ground WITH you through our SoulFullHeart way of life path and process.

This is SUCH an exciting phase of the human experiment and we CHOSE to be here, you and I, together to explore this NEW ground of consciousness evolution. It can be messy, it can be sticky, it can be and IS hard….and yet, we are birthing something BRAND NEW and always, the challenges of doing this are SO WORTH IT for what is produced from it. In very simple terms, we are birthing LOVE in human expression from the ground of what we have learned and grown into. ALL that we have experienced is greatly honored, none of it made bad or wrong, just honored and watered as Divine Source beams at us with more and more waves of love.

Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more

From the Realm of the Watchers



It’s okay if you don’t remember.
We aren’t going to leave you.


It’s okay if you don’t know.
There’s not much to know,
just to experience over and over again
until experience turns into the page love is written on,
not the words of love themselves.


It’s okay if you don’t know who you are.
We don’t care how many carousels you ride,
how many spins you take,
you will still have your essence in the end.
In the end, the only path that matters,
is the path you chose in every moment.
And no… we don’t care how you were or weren’t,
just how your experiments end.
The inconclusive conclusions you come to
along your way back to




The only Ground Zero.
The only ground from where you rose,
and the only ground on which you fall.
The place where seeds are scattered,
and growth happens no matter what.


Yes. All else is an illusion.
It’s the illusion you need.


That holographic something isn’t nothing.
It’s the most important thing
right now
right now
right now.


So… walk, run, fly, dream, make love, make war, make peace, get messy, clean up, climb up, and fall down.
Your sacredness won’t break, for it is not porcelain.
Your birthright to live into all realities remains intact.


Here we sit.
Here we watch.
Here we wait for you to remember
that the path is love,
the game is love,
and the light, dark, hard, easy stories
are the love you are learning
and remembering that you are.

Leena Colibri is an apprentice facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit for more information.

Love Your Desires And Let Them Have A Rightful Place In Your Being

By Raphael Awen


This morning, I continue feeling an angelic connection, and this is my best and momentary interpretation into words of his energy and message. I invite you to feel it for yourself. I think your own Angels will want to dance with you around this subject. 🙂

If there is a sense inside of you that you desire life as you know it to be different in some way, it means you are alive.

How does it feel to be you, inside of your body, inside of your mind, inside of your emotional body? Is it normal for you to have and feel and experience the wanting of something different? Something new?

Of course you do. It’s the foundation of every sales pitch that’s ever been made and ever will be made to you in your life. If you are alive, you want. The illusion of being totally satisfied with life as you know it is not actually possible given the infinite ever expanding reality of life and love.

You may well have constructed the illusion that life as you know it is as good as it gets, but life itself doesn’t support this illusion, and soon enough, you have to again face your wanter.

So great is this unrelenting power of life itself, (that you chose to be a part of incidentally, there are no victims here), that many have worked long and hard to envision a spirituality that is shorn of all want. It is in wanting and seeking they say that all suffering originates. I say the exact opposite. It is in suppressing your wanting and desiring nature where your suffering is found.

You see, to have a want is one thing, but to admit it, to feel it, to make it conscious is a most vulnerable thing, and for this reason, most will need to find more courage to come to this place. The vulnerability I speak of is found in this conscious admission of a desire that you are asked to feel when there is not a conscious guarantee that you will ever have the desired thing or attain the desired state of being.

To what degree are you willing to feel a desire, to let it really come alive in you, when you can’t see or feel that thing emerging on your horizon? Then of course the next question comes; what life form or God would implement such a form of self abuse, to be given to longing for things you have no way of obtaining?

Let’s let that question bake for a moment and come back to it later. Let’s return to the earlier question. Do you even have desire? Feel it from a chakral perspective. In your grounding in the earth, do you feel a desire to feel more secure, more loved? In your creativity and sensuality, do you feel desire there? How about your personal power, do you feel power in life? Go to the heart chakra now, can you see more room for more self love, more and deeper connection with others? What about your expression in the world, your voice, any room for more there? What about your third eye experience? Any desire for deeper clairvoyance, clairaudience, clairsentience, to enter the magical and mystical as normal as walking the dog? Moving to the crown chakra, could you handle some more God connection? Could you handle feeling more like the God-human that you are? What would that look and feel like?

Okay, that was a lot just now. Thank you for hanging in there with me. When I feel each of my chakras, I feel desire flowing from each one. I am profoundly dissatisfied in the midst of my deep and profound satisfaction. I want more. The more I taste and feel love, the more I want. If this is not your admitted reality, I must ask, to what degree are you even alive?

Is that question offensive? Of course it is to the satisfied soul. Offence is a risk I am willing to take, for it is a much smaller price to pay than losing you to the cult of false satisfaction. If I must part with you for lack of resonance, let it be sacredly and lovingly marked with this soul angst and conflict. Let us not dis-serve ourselves in an illusion of unconditional love. Not here, on this all too important ground.

Bear with me, bear with desire, bear with these words a moment more. But only if you want to.

Yes, you desire. I desire. Truth be told, sometimes I feel like nothing more than desire.

Returning now to the question we left to bake a moment ago…is it not pure sadomasochism to hold this kind of desire with no ability to attain those desires? Of course it is. What kind of universe would ask you to long and desire for things only to gloat in your not being able to attain or obtain them?

Can you feel where this is leading? The desire itself is programmed to take you to its fulfillment. You must begin with owning desire and then let desire lead you to all the courage and grace necessary to walk that out.

I will pause here, and let you digest this opening of your desire.

Love your desire, let your desire have its rightful place in your being.

Thank you for taking this in, feeling and digesting this energy together. Let’s feel where our desire is leading us.

Raphael Awen is co-creator and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit for more. 

Afterglow Of Our Tears: Feel, love, and heal

By Raphael Awen


Upstream of the negativity, we find our deepest fears, our un-manifest soul longings, and our regrets as well as our remorse, that will need to be brought out into the light of day and into the hearth of your heart for any epic change to occur to the flow of the magic in your life.

Lately, I’ve been feeling retracing some steps into a career thing of the past, and have been faced with some fears of simply repeating the past as opposed to inhabiting a new place and way of being inside of myself that is a much deeper manifestation of my true soul power. In my quandary, I feel a guidance coming from an angel connection that I envision.

The Angel’s name is Marcel, and these are the words and feeling tones he presses upon me and offers me to feel as well as to share as a new reality offering to live into:

There is never actually a lacking magic or power in your life. There is never the absence of the largesse of your being in your life. You will not one day learn how to be or do something more or differently than you presently are and then have a more fulfilling life or more magical life.

Your power and largesse of your magnificent being is here and fully present right now. This potent power may well be in subconscious service to your fears and staying small, but the power, your power is not absent or un-manifest, or lacking.

A powerful magic is currently directing, leading and populating your life as you know it right now.

The only thing that can bring true and deep change in your life is you awakening to and taking responsibility for this present power and magic of yours….making it conscious. Only then can you place your power in service of living into your bigness instead of your smallness.

When you make this choice, you will face directly the conditioning, the fears, the pain that underlies the current or past configuration of your not so magical feeling life. For this reason, most have not yet found the courage to embrace their power. However, facing and feeling and healing these ‘negatives,’ is the only way to the life you seek and desire.

Humankind moved in the direction of the solution to identify positive thinking as an answer, and to recognize the power of negativity, but has largely yet to look at what underlies the negativity. Here, upstream of the negativity, we find our deepest fears, our un-manifest soul longings, and our regrets as well as our remorse, that will need to be brought out into the light of day and into the hearth of your heart for any epic change to occur to the flow of the magic in your life.

When, and as this happens, everything changes. Nothing can stay the same, for the power holding an old configuration in your life has been fundamentally and irrevocably changed.

Feel your desire for these changes. Allow to come up to be felt every feeling energy that opposes this desire. Feel it, love it and heal it. This is not anything like cycling in a suffering loop of negativity. This is the bridge you must cross, that most aren’t yet willing to cross, out of the fear of their own manifest bigness.

Ask for help. Feel the divine feel you as you feel and heal all there is to feel. Let the dam of your tears break out. Feel the fear of never changing, of remaining stuck, of remaining un-manifest, of not showing up for your life. Don’t leave a single tear unshed.

Now, in the afterglow of your tears, there is an unmistakeable grounding and support – your always present magic, but now manifesting an entirely new arising world and universe.

You are now entering a parallel universe that is nothing less than your deepest dreams and desires arising into life as you never knew it before.

If these words resonate for you, I’d love to feel what you are feeling as you resonate. Say something! Claim something for yourself. I’d like to help you in any way I can if you are ready to take these steps to help yourself.

Love from Raphael and Marcel

Raphael Awen is co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit for more. 

DNA Activation Made Simple: Meditation Conversations With Archangel Metatron

By Jelelle Awen


Archangel Metatron came to me when I called. I didn’t call him personally but, rather, held in my heart a desire to understand more about DNA activation and asked for an Ethereal Being to help me. The concept of ‘hidden’ DNA strands that when activated raise our consciousness level was intriguing to me. The articles I had read online about this topic were often written in a way that were difficult to understand, almost as if I had walked in on a conversation already underway for many years!

I was engaging in the white energy staircase meditation and holding the question of DNA activation in my heart, asking for guidance and help from any angels that would like to help me. When I was around the 111th step, I felt the presence of my healing angel who is named Coral. She has a comforting and loving energy, yet she immediately seemed to be in a more intense and focused mode than usual. I knew intuitively that she wasn’t going to answer my questions, as her gifts are more in the domain of chakra activation, cleaning, and protection. She is a healing angel, after all, and she has shared with me that we all have one, although most people never consciously connect with theirs. The healing angels usually have names that correspond with earth elements such as stones, crystals, or other natural formations.

Coral and I stepped into the ‘elevator’ that sits off the platform on floor 111 and shot up to floor 222. I felt a surge of energy move through my body as the elevator journeyed upward. We reached this level and she pushed the next button, landing us on floor 333. In the past, I had been quite vigilant about progressing up each individual stair at a time, but Coral told me that I was ready for a more accelerated ascension. This was after a week of being physically ill with many symptoms similar to the stomach flu. It had been a challenging time and I felt deeply ‘cleaned out’ and cleansed from the experience. I felt lighter and that I had purged some necessary toxicities in the process. My body felt less attached to fear related to the ascension process.

We stepped out of the elevator and were surrounded by goldish white clouds swirling around our feet and all around us. It felt lighter and more airy, similar to traveling to a higher altitude where the air is thinner and it becomes a bit harder to breathe.

I asked my question again about DNA activation and I heard his voice respond to me immediately.

“I am here to help you and answer your questions,” he said to me (in my head in that way that all ascended beings and angels seem to do.)

“Who are you?” I asked, trying to feel out if he was polarized to the light or polarized to the dark. I can tell by my heart’s response if a Ethereal Being is coming from love or from fear. I couldn’t feel much of anything coming from him other than the clear vibration and timbre of his voice, which I liked very much right away.

“I am Metatron,” he said.

“Megatron?” I replied. “That sounds like a robot or something!”

He laughed, heartily, in my head. “I am going to give you some advice which helps you understand my name. Always keep the big picture in mind. Do not get lost in content and remember the context.”

“Ok, yes,” I said. “I get it. You offer a ‘meta’ perspective on life. I’ll just google you when we are done connecting to read more about you. I think I have read your name somewhere. You are an archangel, yes?”

“Yes. I like to make complex concepts more simple and easy to understand for as many people as possible to grasp.”

“So, this concept of DNA activation is one that needs some simplifying, I believe. And it needs to be more accessible. There are healers out there charging $5,000 to activate people’s DNA codes and ‘teach’ them how to do it for others. Surely, it is simpler than this and something that anyone can do?”

“This is why I am here to help you, Jelelle. Your soul is a bridge and I want to assist you in doing that. I love that you will not pretend to know something that you don’t know and actually revel in being both the student and the teacher.”

As he was offering what he loved about me, I could finally feel a wave of it in my heart chakra. It was a sweet feeling that I let flood over me for a moment. He seemed to pulse with love and light for many moments before continuing to speak.

“It will take some time for you to feel me or to see me more clearly as I am at a much higher vibrational frequency than other Beings that you have connected with in the past. You have a strong clairaudience ability which is why you are able to hear me now easily,” he paused to let me digest this. “Now, back to DNA activation. The human species currently has two physical strands of DNA, which carries the genetic code, and is shaped like a twisted ladder called a double helix.”

He sends me a picture of the double helix, which is familiar to me from biology class in college. “Your species actually has twelve strands of DNA, two that you can ‘see’ in your third dimension and ten that you cannot that exist in higher dimensions. In your human history, you have used more strands than you are now. I won’t go into the reasons for their shut down right now. But, returning to operation from all twelve strands is a key aspect of the process of Ascension and to raising the vibrational frequencies of mainstream consciousness out of fear and into love.”

“So when all twelve strands are operating, we can more easily experience our essence as Infinite Love and union with our Divine creator?”

“Yes, exactly, and also the reactivation of the latent, unused areas of the brain along with the reunion of the right and left sides of your brain. As this starts to happen, you begin to feel the powers you have of manifestation, overflowing creativity, psychic and paranormal abilities, clear past life recall, and access to the Akashic Records, among many other things.”

That all sounded wonderful to me and exactly what I have been wanting to accelerate in my own life.

“So, how do we activate our DNA codes?”

I felt a wave of energy move through me and the picture of the double helix appeared in front of me again. I also felt my chakras light up one by one from the root to the crown. “We energize and reignite them using white energy together. And, even more importantly, you continue to shift your emotional, spiritual, and mental filters of life by healing any blocks, woundings, congestions, and self limiting patterns in order to lighten your energetic field.”

“Oh, ok,” I responded, almost feeling disappointed that it wasn’t a more dramatic process.

“You are already activating them through your awakening process, Jelelle. As is anyone who is engaging in heart and soul consciousness work…the process is already in motion. Rather than some dramatic ‘moment’ where all the DNA codes are suddenly activated, it works best if you let time and your process organically allow it to happen. It is the most kind and self loving method for the body and the mind.”

I know intuitively from my own experience that he is right. Yet, it seems so tempting to just ‘get it over with’ somehow.

“We will continue to talk about this over time as there is more I want to share with you about DNA and its connection to the chakras and to dimensional communication as well.”

“Thank you, Metatron, for what you have offered me today. I am starting to feel the love that you are and the love that you have for humanity and it is deeply touching to me.” Tears begin to roll down my face as I speak these words. I feel that he is touched and another wave of love rolls over me. I feel our mutual respect for each other and I can feel the student inside of me that is eager for another Ethereal teacher, as I experienced lovely openings through my conversations with Kuan Yin.

I then finished my meditation and after sharing with Raphael what I had experienced, I turned on my computer and was soon looking at paintings and images of the beautiful Being that I had just had the honor of connecting with…I was excited for the new questing adventure that had begun and the places that he and I would go to together!

Jelelle Awen is co-creator and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Go here to connect with Jelelle on facebookVisit the SoulFullHeart website  for more information about virtual sessions with her.