Seeking The Payoff Of Being Felt

By Raphael Awen

Every impulse of energy moving through you and around you is an expression of something that simply wants to be felt.

What you are doing or not doing today; where you are going or not going, is all about an energy flow of choices that are seeking the payoff of being felt. This is also true for everyone around you.

It isn’t money that makes the world go round, but rather feeling. Money is only one of many different feeling containers.

We are learning that consciousness itself is what underlies all matter. In that we are also learning that what we previously called ‘inanimate objects’ are not only capable of feeling, but produce measurable feeling state reactions to changes of emotional energy.

Your heart, and your willingness to feel the reactions that are happening inside of you and all around you are the animation system that move you through life and onto your next places.

Are you craving a certain kind of change in your life? Being willing to feel that craving and what it’s deeply about is what allows it to flow into your life, rather than leaving you stuck in an unfulfilled craving.

Feeling is an exchange, a ‘from’ and a ‘to’. It happens in relationship, and in that, it doesn’t occur where only one exists. Relationship requires an other. When you are feeling yourself, you are showing up as this other to feel a part of yourself. As you feel yourself more and more in this way, your relationships with others shift in order to take on this same feeling quality.

This is also true of the Divine, whom we all are and are all subpersonas of. The Divine couldn’t know the flow of feeling were it not for the feeling flowing through you and your life circumstances.

Feel your next impulse that you might choose. What is wanting to be felt underneath that impulse? Are you going about on autopilot? What is the feeling payoff for a part of you to remain on autopilot? Maybe it’s a kind of not-feeling payoff. But being numb is also another feeling state that like all feeling states, actually wants to be felt. It needs to be felt for it to move onto what is beyond it.

No matter how challenging a set of life circumstances you face; no matter what admitted ‘wounds’ you may carry, there is something soooo fundamentally and profoundly right about you!

You are love out seeking to know and feel love. Love at its core wants to be felt. Love wants to reward you for your willingness to feel. Love wants to fill your cup.

You are love’s beloved.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

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The 3D Self And The 5D Self – Day 5: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

Today, for Day Five of my 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about how parts of us compartmentalize our realities, keeping areas of our lives separate from other areas of it. In SoulFullHeart, we acknowledge seven areas of life that are being impacted by ascension and awakening: spiritual, emotional, social, mental, physical, financial, and environmental. In that way, the compartments are meant to be ‘flooded’ by love with none being separate from each other and with no parts of us dominant over certain areas.

I then talk about the 3D/4D/5D self and how it shows up in your life. We start in the SoulFullHeart process through sessions with this article about these selves and how they show up in each area, which would be a good one for you to take in as well to get more clarity about your desires and frustrations in each area:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

The 3D Self is your conditioned self, ego structure you could call it, and majority of energy is expressed as the energies of the Inner Protector. You can feel it when your ‘guard goes up’ or when you feel ‘defensive’, probably in a more subtle way at this point. The Protector is the vigilant, loyal, masculine energy that has a warrior vibe to them. The Protector came in with lots of armor to help you live in 3D life, especially as a baby. They are often ‘a guard in the room’ of your Inner Teenager and your Inner Feminine. The Protector is usually the most vigilantly guarding the social area and relationships, because parts of you have experienced the most harm and hurt in this area. The Protector usually sees ‘you’ as a Teenager that it needs to protect until you as a 5D self start connecting with it and separating from the Teenager/Child.

These are some questions that I offer in the video that you can ask and answer about your 3D Self/Inner Protector:
How have you felt the energy of protection over you in your life?
In what situations do you feel this guarding energy come up?
What do you feel could be the benefits of connecting with your Inner Protector?
What are your concerns about connecting with your Inner Protector?
What kind of relationship would you like to have with your Inner Protector?

I also offer that there is no ‘past’ in the sense of the emotional body and for parts of us. As these traumas and wounds are happening in the Now, in the moment, and are still being energized. So in responding to what has happened to you, you become less linear and more multidimensional about how you feel it and process it.

The Protector forms a protective bubble around you and you as a 5D self are invited to create a bridge to this energy in order for this bubble to move. Most people are not conscious of this guard in themselves, especially perhaps spiritual people. Not being vulnerable is a sign of this guardedness. Spirituality does not often equate to being vulnerable; healing of the Inner Child and negotiating with the Inner Protector allows for access to the Inner Child in the true frequencies of it.

This is not a quick fix process of just ‘healing in an instant’ these frequencies of Inner Child or other parts; or something that can be done and moved and cleared by someone else in a ‘one time’ healing session. It can feel evasive and even leave a sense of violation too by some parts of you, especially by the Protector, when you experience these kinds of approaches. The Divine Feminine sense of this healing process through parts work is of gestation, of process, of layers being felt and moved. You create a home inside for the Protector and other parts of you to grow trust with them over time and patience and with love.

These are the questions that I offer about your 5D Self, your awakening self, your soul self, your Higher Self aspect in your body, your authentic self, that moves you through all areas of life, etc.:
How would you describe your 5D Self?
What in your life supports your 5D Self to express?
What in your life limits your 5D Self from expressing?
What spiritual activities support the growth and expression of your 5D Self?
When do you feel ‘the most’ like your 5D Self or your authentic you?
What is your sense of your service of love purpose/mission here as your 5D Self?
What gets in the way of you fulfilling and BEing this purpose/mission?

This is the video series about the seven areas of life covered in SoulFullHeart with Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

This is the group call and guided meditation about the Inner Protector:https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc…

Thank you for joining me on this fifth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

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 You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.
Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Connection With The Divine And Guides – Day 4: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle and Raphael Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

Today, for Day four of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, my BEloved mate Raphael joins me and you get to be part of one of our soul and heart provoking conversations that happens frequently in our home! He is my most favorite collaborator and conversation partner and I am captivated with how his heart/soul/and mind works even after almost a decade together! This is the blessed experience of a true sacred union with a Counterpart Soulmate….it is stimulating, engaging, and resonant on deep levels.

In this video, Raphael and I talk about feeling Ascension in a personal way, an intimate way, and also relating with guides in a personal way too…..not as ‘better than’ you yet as intimate with you. It’s all personal and meant to be experienced as such, even while being a collective invitation toward ascension.

Making it personal is feeling the unworthiness and shame that can block letting in personal connection with the Divine and higher dimensional and vibrational guides/aspects. This unworthiness and shame come up from undigested traumas in the emotional body and parts of us that hold onto these frequencies until connected with and healed/moved.

Raphael talks about his journey to experience the Divine in a personal way after most of his life as a Christian, parts of him feeling unworthy and sinful to experience direct connection. Connecting with these parts of himself has allowed Raphael to claim, name, and BE with higher vibrational guides/aspects and Divine Frequencies in a playful and yet poignant way too. This has also opened up his intuition and ability to experience powerful altered states and love with guides. Raphael shares about this journey in his journaling series, Journey To The Demiurge. Go here to read the entries in the series: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/by…/journal-to-the-demiurge/

We also talk about using God and spirituality to bypass going into deeper emotions and the ‘mess’ of the emotional body, being ‘delivered’ from feeling, rather than going into feeling with Divine support which is what we offer in our SoulFullHeart process. We experience that Divine frequencies and love hold space for the exploration into the emotional body.

AND, we also talk about experiencing fear-based BEings/energies AS guides and why you might draw this because of undigested fear and soul experiences drawing these experiences to you as a mirror. This can lead to experiences of being ‘attacked’ rather than responding with love and so experiencing love.

Thank you for joining on this fourth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI
You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.
Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

This is the guided meditation to connect with your Ascension chakras and your Higher Self that Jelelle mentions in the video: https://youtu.be/NzpoGL8Gt4I

Jelelle’s new book about ascension Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Embracing Your Bliss Mess – Day 3: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

Bliss Mess Beacon Quote 2

Today, for Day three of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about what I mean by the ‘bliss mess’ of ascension and why I advocate for the embracement of it. Bliss Mess is essentially the recognition and acceptance that we have had a messy emotional experience here in 3D and to desire to feel that in order to heal it…not just attain blissful states all the time. The attainment of bliss states can be used to bypass or transcend more difficult emotional places, woundings, and traumas that NEED to be felt and healed.

I offer a process for feeling any resistance in parts of you that may come up to feeling your ‘messes’ and going into that area. It is most likely your Inner Protector who would feel this way, usually doesn’t think that you can handle what would come up. The Inner Protector often related to you as an Inner Teenager, the energy that it has had to guard all your life. Negotiation with the Inner Teenager and the Inner Protector starts to separate their energies from each other, allowing more space for you to act as ambassador and negotiator. More about these parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

I also read a passage from my new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension (it is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books):

“We have been Star BEings, Oneness consciousness, much more than we have been human BEings. We are here to experience the bliss mess (yes, both) of feeling. The bliss mess, the highs and lows, the ups and downs, the suffering and the joys, the tears and the laughs.

Oh, this is our humanity in all its glory. Angels and Star BEings are watching us, admiring us, merging with us (when our consciousness and emotional body are ready) more and more to experience this emotional experience of reality through and with us. They are not judging our emotional states, yet do hope for the end of our suffering over suffering and for us to heal from the karmic patterns that can unconsciously haunt us, so that we can merge with them some more and create something completely new.

Our hearts are the beacon that shines across the stars and draws attention from around the galaxy!!

It is necessary to experience both the bliss and the mess to ascend, awaken your soul, enloven your heart, enlighten your mind, crystalize your body. To just reach for and want the bliss aspects of ascension is to miss out on the gifts that going into your deepest densities and shadows offers you. There is a wealth to your woundedness. Not that you need fixing, yet, going into your woundedness and healing it allows you to free up your essence and bigness from the wounded frequencies. This is a spring loaded process that just happens organically as you open up to experiencing both the bliss and the mess.”

Going into the wealth of our woundedness with MUCH care and compassion for all parts of us allows so many gifts of integration, growth, and, yes, eventually experience of bliss and joy….without leaving anything behind or covering over anything!

Note: Sound is a bit muffled today as we had strange noise from my computer and had to edit it out….will be using my video camera starting tomorrow 🙂

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Thank you for joining on this third day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance. An organically arising community may form out of the shared experience and energy of taking in the series….a love-based group Merkabah!

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.