Equinox Energies: Finding Balance During Transition

By Jelelle Awen

The EQUInox passage happening ongoingly and peaking today….an invitation for balance in a phase of seemingly extreme upheaval in Gaia’s weather manifestations, SOULar storms, disclosure revelations, and some personal inner chaos too to push up the most tender and core wound levels to be felt and healed. How do you find balance in the midst of such a collective and personal time of transition and shifting consciousness?

Coming into balance has a changing definition during this phase of the Ascension process then it did before. It isn’t about just finding calm, peacefulness, centeredness, not being reactive, suppressing all ‘negative’ emotions. It isn’t about just meditating away your tensions and anxieties and fears. It is about integrating what got downloaded to you during the total eclipses and Lion’s Gate and all these recent SOULar activations that offered your highest timeline service of love here…integrating this download WITH the reactions that come up in response to this from your emotional body.

You are being given tastes, glimpses, dreams, senses, synchs, new connections, resources, transitions, death AND rebirth opportunities to embody this new timeline choice point by choice point. You are being offered external shifts that are ‘happening to you’ and yet really are happening WITH you on the soul level IF you hadn’t proactively made some of these changes yourself. Experiencing seemingly random ‘weather events’, for example, can offer this opportunity in a catalytic and powerful way (in collaboration with your soul/higher self) that parts of you may not allow you to make otherwise.

Balance in the Now comes from the return to a sense of trust and surrender even when (and ESPECIALLY WHEN) your life is in upheaval. Even when loss is much more common than gains; even when you are saying ‘no’ more than ‘yes’. Even when material things have been taken from you; even when what you previously thought was your soul purpose work has fallen away; even when your most beloved animal companions have left you (which seems to be happening quite a lot right now!); even when your previously comfortable relationships no longer work for you and need to complete.

When it seems as if the highest timeline dream is farther away than ever AS the old collapses around you, and yet somehow you return to trust that it is ALL right in the bigger picture. You feel how what is being lost is only making room for the new to come in. You are experiencing the necessary void before the new manifests.

Balance is discovered in holding space for the process of feeling it all, reliving it with the 3D parts of you that are experiencing it.

Balance sometimes looks like trusting that you ARE being guided even as you are more lost than found…..somehow feeling secure even in the jumping off of cliffs into the unknown rather than clinging to what has been known. Turning away from consciousness states that feel good and high in order to ‘go down’ to be with what most needs your attention.

We are being invited to TRUST what is happening to us as we align with what we are here to BEcome and live out as we continue to move into the new together……finding a NEW kind of balance from within as connected to Divine Source while going through sometimes extreme transition!

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her for women and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

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Moving Out Of The Void Space – Day 16: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

We are halfway through the series!! In today’s video, Day 16 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about some possible shifts in perspective that you may be feeling at this point based on what I’ve been offering about the parts reality especially. I also invite you to engage with the videos in whatever order based on the subject that draws you, rather than feeling that you need to ‘catch up’ on them or ‘stay current.’ I give you a sense about what is coming up next in the series too.

I talk today about the void space, which I describe in this writing: “Then, there is the void. It feels like many souls will be in this as consciousness continues to shift and change. Maybe you are in this now or, at least, in moments? The void is the space in between the dips of necessary purgings and clearings and the peaks of feeling connected to Divine love, All That Is, the sense of your Higher Self kNOWingness. The void is the place that is the ‘during’…….the AFTER of the old and yet BEFORE the new has fully come in.”

I share about my experience of a deep void space living off-grid on a remote ranch, without much money, going into a cocoon of deeper soul awakenings especially……..to emerge out eventually to serve and share about one and a half years ago now. I needed this void space to be with myself, heal my parts, and deepen my connection with nature as well. Yet, it was important to move out of that space as well to come into my service of love self.

The invitation is to let love come into the void space through community, intimacy, and connection. To move out of that void and into letting love in and trusting love again. It can be challenging for parts of us to trust love again, such as the Protector who feels protective of our Inner Teenager, who feels like it will be rejected to trust relationships again. You can get into suffering over suffering if you stay ‘overlong’ in the void space.

Go here to read the full writing that I shared today – Moving From The Isolation Of The Void Space: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/10/28/moving-from-the-isolation-of-the-void-space-and-into-being-filled-up-with-love/

Go here to read more about the Protector and other parts of you that we connect with in our process: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

The book I mention sharing my experiences in my void space at the ranch called Keep Waking Up! is here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

Thank you for joining me on this sixteenth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at https://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Meet Your Inner Protector – Day 15: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 15 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk more about the Inner Protector, the part of people that we connect with first in our SoulFullHeart process. Related to parts work, I mention Hal and Sidra Stone, two psychotherapists who have done extensive subpersonality work including recognizing a “Protector/Controller’ part in people, plus Carl Jung, who recognized subpersonalities as well in his own way and method.
 
I describe the common characteristics and energies of Protectors, based on people we’ve worked with in session space, especially during the last year. Starting your connection with your Protector gives you access to other parts of yourself, such as the Inner Teenager, Inner Child, Inner Punisher, etc. It is the part that is ‘standing at the door’ to protect these more vulnerable or shadow-based parts.
 
The Protector energy seems to come in right away, usually at birth, to shield you from the harsh, third dimensional frequencies here. They are a very necessary ‘suit’ to guard you in 3D life, yet get overly protective over time and ‘fused’ to your 3D reality consciousness, forgetting that their more porous and angelic nature. They can return more to this energy as a guide and channel through connection with you.
 
I recommend doing the guided meditation in Day Six of this series to meet your Protector, then do a letter exchange with them back and forth where you offer that you would like to connect with them and get to know them. Then, write down their response back. You can then do these sentence completions as well with the Protector answering as many times as they want:
 
Mom always/never; Dad always/never; the good/bad things about mom are; the good/bad things about dad are; current/recent romantic partner never/always; The good things about the 3D world are….;The bad things about the 3D world are….; I feel protective of you whenever….; Love always/never; Feelings are….;The 3D God picture is…;Money is….;The good/bad things about birth family are…
 
This beginning connection with your Protector can be hugely supported and bridged by engaging in SoulFullHeart sessions with a facilitator, as you can then differentiate further your energy from theirs, plus others parts as well. More about sessions here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
 
Day Six Guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector that I mentioned in this video: https://youtu.be/7ciJIvrn0xA?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI
 
Go here to read more about the Protector and other parts of you that we connect with in our process: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
 
Thank you for joining me on this fifteenth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!
 
Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI
 
You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at https://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.
 
Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

It’s Ok Not To Be Ok – Day 14: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 14 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I offer about a sense of self permission that comes from offering to yourself and parts of you that, “It’s Ok Not To Be Ok”.

I read from a previously shared and popular writing…..”It’s OK not to be OK….putting down the masks of OKness or being positive all the time. Being vulnerable to show what is really going in your heart. Sharing your tears, your fears, your concerns, your pain with those who can feel you. Being real with what parts of you are feeling and reacting to in every moment. This self permission space allows the feelings to BE, to be felt, and eventually to heal.”

Here is the link to read the rest of the It’s Ok Not To Be Ok writing: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/10/07/its-ok-not-to-be-ok/

I offer about not going to battle with our feelings or numbing and drugging them, yet rather seeing them as offering a heart and soul story for us and to respond to them with compassionate curiousity. If you had been told “It’s Ok Not To Be OK” as a child and felt in your feelings, you could have learned how to hold space for yourself and your feelings. Instead parts of you learn how to protect, distract, deflect, etc. due to 3D conditioning from your caregivers.

Very often in spiritual offerings it can be about finding the positive; don’t get ‘too low’ in feelings; find only bliss. This creates a gap between your awakening high states and the reality of your emotional bodies’ wounding and reactivity. More bliss and joy can come up when there is no energy going toward transcendence or suppression of feelings. I offer that the Divine wants us to feel ourselves and our parts of us; to be real about what we are feeling; and to feel what is real.

I also share some of my process over the years with parts of myself and my discoveries of my emotive ground of being and where reactions were actually coming from. Go here to read more about parts of you that we connect with in our process: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Thank you for joining us on this fourteenth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at https://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Seeing Yourself As The Divine Does – Day 8: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day Eight of my 33 Days Metamorphosis series, I share one of my most popular writings as offered from Metatron and the Divine:

I wish you could SEE yourself as I do. That you could SEE your light that wants to glow, show, come through every living cell. A star in human form, walking around star shine BEAMING, and star dust stuff in your every molecule of DNA.

I wish you could FEEL yourself as I can. That you could feel your precious human heart that is the JEWEL of your species, that which makes you a beacon in all the Universes. Every tear containing the codes to unlock compassion, gratitude, forgiveness, and empathy. So many levels and layers to each feeling!

I wish you could BE yourself as I perceive you to BE. That you could be authentic without hiding, conforming, shrinking, or denying to anyone or anything. Your self consciousness or self judgement held by parts of you could be released and healed and your TRUE self FREE to BE in all moments.

I wish you could REMEMBER yourself as I remember you. That you could remember you are a reflection of Divine Source, that you ARE Infinite Love in human form. Your reclaiming of your birthright around this embodiment providing waves of trust and support as you undergo your journey of awakening and remembering.

I wish you could SERVE yourself as I serve you. That you could serve love TO yourself and all the parts of you that need your compassion, care, and re-parenting. That you could serve love to all the soul aspects from your Metasoul that are hurting, in trauma, suffering, all alone, existing in many timelines. ~

(You can read the rest here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/i-wish-you-could-see-yours…/)

I talk about how this message is an invitation to your 5D Self to show up and see yourself as these higher dimensional BEings and the Divine does. This message is an invitation for you to share and serve love TO you and parts of you AND from that overflow, then, WITH others.

Parts of you start changing how they see themselves because of the mirror you show them, which is in more alignment with how the Divine sees you. I talk about the Inner Punisher part of you that may flatten desires, dreams, and filters your ability to see and feel your own bigness. This part is created due to our 3D culture that judges, contends, criticizes, and compares. Often the inner judging/punishing is a defense and protection that is going on inside of you and these energies are internalized to ‘put you down first’ before someone else can.

So much projection can be put onto God, the Divine, Angels, etc. that comes from a punishing energy inside that is projected onto the outside, saying that you need to be saved, redeemed, etc in order to be worthy of connection and access to these BEings. The message I’ve received and share here is about how big you really ARE, not broken, not needing fixing, and that the Divine wants to celebrate you remembering this. This message doesn’t have a punisher in it, doesn’t make parts of you feel shame; it is something that is based in love.

I also talk about transactabilty and relationality with the Divine and Guides and how much they want to ‘land’ and have their message go out. The gifts go both ways without anyone ‘losing, without a cost or with someone as the victim or ‘something bad’ happening. In 5D relationships, no one loses anymore and everyone (and every BEing) gains love!

Thank you for joining me on this eighth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog athttps://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

 

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension and the book I mention in this video Keep Waking Up! is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Moving From Caterpillar To Cocoon To Butterfly – Day 7: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

I didn’t know this would be my topic today, but I had a lot of fun going full into a metaphor for the awakening process with the analogy of the caterpillar becoming a butterfly! In today’s video, Day Seven of my 33 Days Metamorphosis series, I talk about Metamorphosis – the process of transformation during Ascension. I compare the caterpillar to the 3D self, with its destiny just spring loaded inside to become a Butterfly, as it is in our DNA to become what we are meant to be as sacred humanity.

Your 3D Self caterpillar goes into the cocoon to bake in soul juices and soul frequencies. This creates the 4D Self…this is often experienced as a Lone Wolf Phase, cozy cave, and going into the void…..it can be a consciousness of frustration, wanting more than you currently have. 4D is not just a peaceful cocoon; it is also a mess and thrash, death and rebirth.

Cocoon phases can look and feel very different for everyone. Some are experienced within sacred union and community, as I have signed up and designed for myself. Or, it could be very important for you to be alone and in more isolation as you pull away from 3D relationships. 3D relationships are about comfort, safety, familiarity, and playing roles with each other. Staying in ‘locked in’ reality, not a lot of ‘play’ or to room to arise into anything new. Your Protector aspect may actually be ready for something new in relationship, while your Inner Teenager could be holding on.

I offer in the video an invitation for you to look at your awakening and all seven areas of life (emotional, spiritual, mental, social, physical, financial, and environmental) related to if you are being more of a caterpillar (3D self), cocoon (4D self), or the butterfly (5D self). We offer a similar assessment for you connected to the 3D/4D/5D self here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

Moving out of the cocoon phase and more into your Butterfly self happens not through force but through love in the form of soul family support, your Higher Self/aspects, the Divine, getting to know parts of you yourself, and you too!

This video today reminds me of a writing that I shared last month about becoming your Butterfly self!

“You are outgrowing that previously necessary cocoon. That safety place to bake, to ache, to create. That place removed, sometimes isolated, sometimes feeling dark void space. No longer able to be in a lesser 3D ground where others may be more comfortable meeting you there, even as you are growing taller than their imaginations can imagine yet.
You have been surrendering to the process of BEing the transforming caterpillar until now. Tucked into the birthing space, sometimes gestating, sometimes thrashing, sometimes searching for a deeper and wider understanding. Sometimes missing your precious forms, shapes, and ways that were in the known. You are becoming more comfortable in the unknown and in the space where Infinite Possibilities pose no obvious limits.
You are BEing created as you are creating the life and timeline that you most want and desire. The timeline shimmers like a mirage in the distance, yet it comes ever closer with every choice of love. With every choice to love even fear, even darkness, even denser, even differences. The timeline of your highest purpose to serve love comes closer with every shift of heart from comparison to inspiration; from judging to compassion; from taking to sharing; from polarization to unification.
You are BEing created as your Butterfly Self….to eventually emerge, to burst out of any kind of safety or limits, to always be growing. You are BEing the metamorphosis into your arising Sacred Human in fleshy form. You are ready to be born. You are ready to spread your wings. Now, you are ready to FLY!”

Thank you for joining me on this seventh day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

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You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension and the book I mention in this video Keep Waking Up! is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Metatron/Sophia & Your Protector Guided Meditation – Day 6: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day Six of my 33 Days Metamorphosis series, I talk more about the process of working with, connecting with, and recognizing different aspects of self or parts or subpersonalities that we offer in SoulFullHeart. The benefits and gifts that I have received from engaging in this process myself with SO many wonderful, amazing, and BEloved energies/aspects/parts of myself over the last 13 years has been just incredible. I have changed SO much. My life has changed SO much. This is the way that has allowed me to navigate the changes and opportunities offered by the Ascension process. I also offer that session space with me or one of our facilitators is the BEST way to differentiate and deepen this process, more information about sessions here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

I’ve been sharing in my other videos about the primary 3D Self part, which we feel is the Protector aspect of us. They are a masculine feeling energy, warrior-like, guarded, vigilant, and loyal, in general.

Today, I guide you in a meditation at 11 minutes to meet this part of yourself. We get the help and support of Archangel Metatron and Goddess Sophia. Their high frequencies of Divine wisdom, Divine Masculine and Feminine, Love, and help with the Ascension process opens up your heart space and supports your 5D Self. I guide you to connect with, visualize, feel, talk with your Protector in this meditation. Whatever you experience is PERFECT and meant just for YOU!

Thank you for joining me on this fifth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

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Check out our other video series about the seven areas of life covered in SoulFullHeart with Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

This is the group call and guided meditation about the Inner Protector that I mention and there are others on our SoulFullHeart Experience Youtube Channel:https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc

More information about our group call on January 13th is here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The 3D Self And The 5D Self – Day 5: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

Today, for Day Five of my 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about how parts of us compartmentalize our realities, keeping areas of our lives separate from other areas of it. In SoulFullHeart, we acknowledge seven areas of life that are being impacted by ascension and awakening: spiritual, emotional, social, mental, physical, financial, and environmental. In that way, the compartments are meant to be ‘flooded’ by love with none being separate from each other and with no parts of us dominant over certain areas.

I then talk about the 3D/4D/5D self and how it shows up in your life. We start in the SoulFullHeart process through sessions with this article about these selves and how they show up in each area, which would be a good one for you to take in as well to get more clarity about your desires and frustrations in each area:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

The 3D Self is your conditioned self, ego structure you could call it, and majority of energy is expressed as the energies of the Inner Protector. You can feel it when your ‘guard goes up’ or when you feel ‘defensive’, probably in a more subtle way at this point. The Protector is the vigilant, loyal, masculine energy that has a warrior vibe to them. The Protector came in with lots of armor to help you live in 3D life, especially as a baby. They are often ‘a guard in the room’ of your Inner Teenager and your Inner Feminine. The Protector is usually the most vigilantly guarding the social area and relationships, because parts of you have experienced the most harm and hurt in this area. The Protector usually sees ‘you’ as a Teenager that it needs to protect until you as a 5D self start connecting with it and separating from the Teenager/Child.

These are some questions that I offer in the video that you can ask and answer about your 3D Self/Inner Protector:
How have you felt the energy of protection over you in your life?
In what situations do you feel this guarding energy come up?
What do you feel could be the benefits of connecting with your Inner Protector?
What are your concerns about connecting with your Inner Protector?
What kind of relationship would you like to have with your Inner Protector?

I also offer that there is no ‘past’ in the sense of the emotional body and for parts of us. As these traumas and wounds are happening in the Now, in the moment, and are still being energized. So in responding to what has happened to you, you become less linear and more multidimensional about how you feel it and process it.

The Protector forms a protective bubble around you and you as a 5D self are invited to create a bridge to this energy in order for this bubble to move. Most people are not conscious of this guard in themselves, especially perhaps spiritual people. Not being vulnerable is a sign of this guardedness. Spirituality does not often equate to being vulnerable; healing of the Inner Child and negotiating with the Inner Protector allows for access to the Inner Child in the true frequencies of it.

This is not a quick fix process of just ‘healing in an instant’ these frequencies of Inner Child or other parts; or something that can be done and moved and cleared by someone else in a ‘one time’ healing session. It can feel evasive and even leave a sense of violation too by some parts of you, especially by the Protector, when you experience these kinds of approaches. The Divine Feminine sense of this healing process through parts work is of gestation, of process, of layers being felt and moved. You create a home inside for the Protector and other parts of you to grow trust with them over time and patience and with love.

These are the questions that I offer about your 5D Self, your awakening self, your soul self, your Higher Self aspect in your body, your authentic self, that moves you through all areas of life, etc.:
How would you describe your 5D Self?
What in your life supports your 5D Self to express?
What in your life limits your 5D Self from expressing?
What spiritual activities support the growth and expression of your 5D Self?
When do you feel ‘the most’ like your 5D Self or your authentic you?
What is your sense of your service of love purpose/mission here as your 5D Self?
What gets in the way of you fulfilling and BEing this purpose/mission?

This is the video series about the seven areas of life covered in SoulFullHeart with Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

This is the group call and guided meditation about the Inner Protector:https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc…

Thank you for joining me on this fifth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

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 You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.
Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Connection With The Divine And Guides – Day 4: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle and Raphael Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

Today, for Day four of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, my BEloved mate Raphael joins me and you get to be part of one of our soul and heart provoking conversations that happens frequently in our home! He is my most favorite collaborator and conversation partner and I am captivated with how his heart/soul/and mind works even after almost a decade together! This is the blessed experience of a true sacred union with a Counterpart Soulmate….it is stimulating, engaging, and resonant on deep levels.

In this video, Raphael and I talk about feeling Ascension in a personal way, an intimate way, and also relating with guides in a personal way too…..not as ‘better than’ you yet as intimate with you. It’s all personal and meant to be experienced as such, even while being a collective invitation toward ascension.

Making it personal is feeling the unworthiness and shame that can block letting in personal connection with the Divine and higher dimensional and vibrational guides/aspects. This unworthiness and shame come up from undigested traumas in the emotional body and parts of us that hold onto these frequencies until connected with and healed/moved.

Raphael talks about his journey to experience the Divine in a personal way after most of his life as a Christian, parts of him feeling unworthy and sinful to experience direct connection. Connecting with these parts of himself has allowed Raphael to claim, name, and BE with higher vibrational guides/aspects and Divine Frequencies in a playful and yet poignant way too. This has also opened up his intuition and ability to experience powerful altered states and love with guides. Raphael shares about this journey in his journaling series, Journey To The Demiurge. Go here to read the entries in the series: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/by…/journal-to-the-demiurge/

We also talk about using God and spirituality to bypass going into deeper emotions and the ‘mess’ of the emotional body, being ‘delivered’ from feeling, rather than going into feeling with Divine support which is what we offer in our SoulFullHeart process. We experience that Divine frequencies and love hold space for the exploration into the emotional body.

AND, we also talk about experiencing fear-based BEings/energies AS guides and why you might draw this because of undigested fear and soul experiences drawing these experiences to you as a mirror. This can lead to experiences of being ‘attacked’ rather than responding with love and so experiencing love.

Thank you for joining on this fourth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI
You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.
Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

This is the guided meditation to connect with your Ascension chakras and your Higher Self that Jelelle mentions in the video: https://youtu.be/NzpoGL8Gt4I

Jelelle’s new book about ascension Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Embracing Your Bliss Mess – Day 3: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

Bliss Mess Beacon Quote 2

Today, for Day three of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about what I mean by the ‘bliss mess’ of ascension and why I advocate for the embracement of it. Bliss Mess is essentially the recognition and acceptance that we have had a messy emotional experience here in 3D and to desire to feel that in order to heal it…not just attain blissful states all the time. The attainment of bliss states can be used to bypass or transcend more difficult emotional places, woundings, and traumas that NEED to be felt and healed.

I offer a process for feeling any resistance in parts of you that may come up to feeling your ‘messes’ and going into that area. It is most likely your Inner Protector who would feel this way, usually doesn’t think that you can handle what would come up. The Inner Protector often related to you as an Inner Teenager, the energy that it has had to guard all your life. Negotiation with the Inner Teenager and the Inner Protector starts to separate their energies from each other, allowing more space for you to act as ambassador and negotiator. More about these parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

I also read a passage from my new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension (it is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books):

“We have been Star BEings, Oneness consciousness, much more than we have been human BEings. We are here to experience the bliss mess (yes, both) of feeling. The bliss mess, the highs and lows, the ups and downs, the suffering and the joys, the tears and the laughs.

Oh, this is our humanity in all its glory. Angels and Star BEings are watching us, admiring us, merging with us (when our consciousness and emotional body are ready) more and more to experience this emotional experience of reality through and with us. They are not judging our emotional states, yet do hope for the end of our suffering over suffering and for us to heal from the karmic patterns that can unconsciously haunt us, so that we can merge with them some more and create something completely new.

Our hearts are the beacon that shines across the stars and draws attention from around the galaxy!!

It is necessary to experience both the bliss and the mess to ascend, awaken your soul, enloven your heart, enlighten your mind, crystalize your body. To just reach for and want the bliss aspects of ascension is to miss out on the gifts that going into your deepest densities and shadows offers you. There is a wealth to your woundedness. Not that you need fixing, yet, going into your woundedness and healing it allows you to free up your essence and bigness from the wounded frequencies. This is a spring loaded process that just happens organically as you open up to experiencing both the bliss and the mess.”

Going into the wealth of our woundedness with MUCH care and compassion for all parts of us allows so many gifts of integration, growth, and, yes, eventually experience of bliss and joy….without leaving anything behind or covering over anything!

Note: Sound is a bit muffled today as we had strange noise from my computer and had to edit it out….will be using my video camera starting tomorrow 🙂

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Thank you for joining on this third day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance. An organically arising community may form out of the shared experience and energy of taking in the series….a love-based group Merkabah!

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.