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Healing Perfectionism With Divine Love

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By Raianna Shai

Perfectionism is expressed by many different parts of us, in varied ways and for so many reasons. I’m sure many of us can relate to the constant need to control the outcome or appearance of everything we do. The fear of doing something wrong or being judged for it is running in the background of our minds even in everyday, simple tasks. We often feel tension and anxiety when something unfolds in a way we did not expect or control. Maybe it comes up when you have reactions you don’t want to have, or there’s conflict you wanted to avoid, or you chose to do something that you realize others would judge.

Perfectionism is often used as a way to protect the most precious and vulnerable parts of us which has been so needed in certain phases of our lives. Overtime it becomes so ingrained in us from messaging by society, matrix coding from as far back as birth, personal desire to appear a certain way, and to avoid judgement and loss. But it gets to a certain point where it prevents those vulnerable parts from growing into their bigness and recognizing that they don’t need that protection to the same degree anymore.

Perfectionism for myself has been so strong my entire life. I strived to be a perfect student, perfect friend, perfect girlfriend, perfect daughter, perfect community member. And slowly but surely I’ve come to unwind this ingrained desire to avoid any and all judgement and conflict. Much of this has been rooted in the idea that I’m not good enough and that I’ll lose everything I love so much. The moment we separated from the Divine, we were given an underlying feeling of guttural and tragic loss of our home frequency of love and connection. So much unworthiness stems from that loss and everyday we try to prove we are good enough to the divine in some way, shape or form.

Freedom can be found in the moments when all parts of us are nourished and aligned: heart, body, mind, soul and spirit. When we allow ourselves to let in true divine love, we are then able to realize that we can truly do no wrong from the perspective of the Divine. This is really the only place we can find unconditional love and acceptance. When we let go of expectation, obligation and self consciousness – we find liberation.

Freedom for me was felt in the picture I’ve attached to this post. That week I felt the words from the Divine rumble through me when she said “You are my everything”. The energy and truth of these words started to unlock this strong hold parts of me had on the idea of not being good enough. We truly are everything to her – everyone of us and in every way. In the moment of this picture I stepped away from something that was bringing me tension and took in beautiful nature and sunset codes with my beloved Kasha and every part of me felt nourished and aligned.

Freedom is found when we take the time to remind every part of ourselves, even the ones that are hard to love, that they always have been and always will be good enough. Even when there’s room to grow, even when there are regrets, even when the future is unknown – they are good enough and more. And the more we see this bigness in ourselves, the more we can see and feel it in others. And from there, the love spreads like wildfire.

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Inner Protector Awakening Guided Meditation: Video 3 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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In this third video of our 31-day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen talk about the process of working with, connecting with, and recognizing different aspects of self or parts or subpersonalities that we offer in SoulFullHeart. We introduce you to the Inner Protector, a usually masculine feeling energy, warrior-like, guarded, vigilant, and loyal. In our 1:1 sessions, we begin with this aspect as it is the Inner Protector who opens up access to all the other parts/soul aspects and has often been bypassed in other modalities. We guide you in a meditation to meet/deepen with this part of yourself through a visualization of visiting your ‘castle’, which represents your essence right now. We receive help and support from Divine Father and Divine Mother with their high frequencies of Divine wisdom, Divine Masculine and Feminine, Love, and help with the Ascension process that opens up your heart space and supports your Divine Self.

We guide you to connect with, visualize, feel, and talk with your Protector in this meditation. Opening out this connection with them leads to more negotiation and navigation of life and more open-hearted experience of it.

Thank you for joining us in this video….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeB…

To watch another video with Jelelle Awen about the Inner Protector from her Deepen 2019 series, go here: https://youtu.be/2FzBzK5vgck

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about two Deepen 2022 group calls on January 16th 30th, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022.

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D with more writings about the Inner Protector, videos, and events, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Amara, and Kasha Rokshana, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Inside SoulFullHeart Sessions & The Ongoing Process (VIDEO)

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Kasha and I expanded on to our last video about SoulFullHeart sessions to describe what happens both within session space as well as in-between. We also talk about the ongoing process and the benefits/results that can happen when they are consistent and embodied.

These sessions are meant to help bridge you to all the parts of you that may feel lost, depressed, anxious, in fear or in pain. We generally start with the Inner Protector that is the one that has holding these parts in place just to navigate and get through life as it is in this dimension. They hold the trauma as well as guard the innocence and the brilliance.

We discuss what the session is composed of and what you may expect in the beginning. We talk about how they are different than parts-work therapy and the places that we can go beyond the 3D trauma body.

Kasha and I will focus an upcoming video on the Metasoul, Gatekeeper, and the timelines that our soul aspects live in to go more into the spiritual trauma and gifts that lay within looking for discovery, recovery, love, and integration. We are also planning one on couples sessions as well. So stay tuned!

For more information on booking a session or our free introductory call, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions

This is a continuation of their first video, Why Have A SoulFullHeart Session, which you can see here if you have not already: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=__XUG6uIhhE&t=0s

They also have a video about a free intro call that was mentioned:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dzw-rRQk7Tg&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvKKghnf_RVHanDp8Moh0wEI&t=0s

Meet Your Inner Protector Guided Meditation W/ Kalayna

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by Kalayna Solais

 

The Inner Protector is an important part of you that formed in order to help you and other parts of you to be in life as safely as possible (though sometimes trauma still happens and they usually have strong reactions to this, often strengthening their defenses). This defense/protection that they offer often expresses itself in different ways in all areas of your life, which you may begin to feel more once you’ve begun a relationship with this part of you.

In this meditation, you’ll meet up with masculine and feminine guides and walk with them to your castle, which represents YOU and may show up in a different way each time you try this or any meditation where you visit it. From here, you are led to meet your Inner Protector, who is likely keeping vigilant watch over it. This first meeting could be the first of many as you continue to bridge to them in your daily life and feel a relationship with them begin to form.

There are MANY benefits to getting to know this very necessary part of you! As I mention in the video, they begin, eventually, to let YOU lead more as the trust between you grows. They are here to collaborate with you throughout any life choices and changes and navigating your life steps with them is a deeply enriching experience that changes your life from the inside, out.

If you’re curious to find out more about a session with me, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

You can also read more about me and my journey at soulfullheart.org/aboutkalayna

Much, much love to you and every part of you! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Awakening Of Your Gatekeeper For Quantum Healing

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By Jelelle Awen
These are the shorter days and longer nights of this winter SOULstice passage. Even with the busyness of the holiday season, there is a deeper invitation to REST and to move into more STILLNESS in order to open up more inner grounds.
 
It is often in the still place that you can connect more within, into the magical lands and places of shadow. These can be difficult places to journey into with blocks and filters and veils in place to kept them hidden. As a guide to this deeper inner regions of the shadow in the heart and soul for many years (and lifetimes), I have experienced that it takes extra love and care (even gentleness) to open up access to them. It is not a matter of remembering in the mind as much as it is awakening of the soul and expansion of the heart.
 
Most of what you have experienced as traumatic and painful and may still have reactions/triggers about IS connected to what your soul is experiencing on a quantum level in many lifetimes and timelines in the NOW. So much of this-life is about a recapitulation of this soul trauma, usually at a lesser level yet with the same energy tone/frequency to it. Focusing just on the local experiences of this life is a limited picture that doesn’t ultimately resolve or heal the soul wound at its source.
 
Now is a powerful time of increasing capacity to heal on this quantum level and complete our cycles of incarnation here into denser timelines. It feels as if many of us have chosen to complete the need to come into 3D timelines for our growth.
 
I have discovered through my own process and working with others that there are important inner guides and guardians within us that are key to opening up these places. Your Inner Protector stands connected to the 3D experience of this life….your ‘local’ experience of this timeline, which is a challenging one as Gaia and humanity transitions out of the Dark Night of 3D into the revelatory phase of 4D and eventually into the Heaven within the body experience of 5D. Your Inner Protector is primarily concerned with your safety and care, especially of your Inner Child.
 
You can connect with your Inner Protector here in this guided meditation: https://youtu.be/2FzBzK5vgck
 
Your Gatekeeper (a higher dimensional soul guardian aspect) is watching the timelines of your soul play out, all the scenes of tragedy, horror, and difficulty especially…often running on a never ending loop. They feel powerless to do anything about the karmic looping, the incarnational cycle that repeats itself over and over as your soul learns what it came to learn for and with the Divine.
 
I have been connecting with many Gatekeepers lately in sessions who are ready to wake up, lift the veil, allow access to these timelines so that they might finally heal and complete. Your Gatekeeper becomes the bridge to these lifetimes and the channel of Divine love necessary for the transmutation of them. They are able to modulate the opening to these Metasoul aspects (as we call them) so that you are not overwhelmed by their energies (which is often the primary concern of the Gatekeeper.) 
 
Now in this completion passage of so many cycles of 2019 and moving into clearer vision 2020 is a powerful time to connect with your Gatekeeper. You will probably be amazed at what they will give you access to of your OWN soul knowledge, gifts, and experiences. It can take time and spaceholding with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator to provide a bridge to them. There is more info about 1:1 sessions with us here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
 
Here is a guided meditation and teaching to connect with your Gatekeeper: https://youtu.be/-IZQYBoE6Cg
 
Love,
Jelelle Awen
 
Last night, the sky was on fire with a surprisingly bright sunset! Powerful codes!

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC (next one is March 20-23), writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Halloween Message: Importance Of Shadow Integration For Ascension

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By Jelelle Awen

“It is precisely because we resist the darkness in ourselves that we miss the depths of the loveliness, beauty, brilliance, creativity, and joy that lie at our core.” ~ Thomas Moore

Resisting anything in ourselves just leads to more pain, more resistance, and more pushing out of life and not letting it in. Resisting the darkness is understandable when we have been taught in 3D culture to fear that which we don’t understand, that which isn’t socially acceptable, that which may hurt or harm others or ourselves.

We have been taught to fear our fear and the fear of others as well. This fearing of fear JUST leads to more fear being generated. This creates a fear-fuelled energy cloud that rumbles inside of us and through all the strands of the collective emotional body web for fear-based BEings to get more energy from.

On these days of celebration of Samhain’s and All Saint’s Eve, Halloween, Dia de los Muertos, Diwali…..the shadow is actually acknowledged, recognized, and even celebrated within our cultures. The shadow sides can come out in costume; they can put on masks that are actually more authentic to their frequencies. The darkness can roam a bit without fear suppressing it. Souls that have left their human bodies and passed on can be opened up too and be felt by their loved ones without the fear of ghosts or being haunted blocking the connection.

As we BEcome more of our Higher Selves in our human body, gifts of mediumship naturally arise and we become less fearful of the spiritual realm. We see, feel, and hear Ethereal BEings such as Angels, spirit guides, spirit animals, and more. We can connect with our passed BEloveds through our common Metasoul threads and heart cords, as none of us really cease from being energized in the Now in SOME form. We can connect to other Metasoul partnerings and playouts with these SAME people, yet in different dances. Maybe, someday, we’ll be able to change or alter timelines to prevent dying and live out in Infinite Awareness with no time together IN a human body that will no longer age or get diseases.

With the veils between dimensions becoming so thin already in this now of intense phototonic light activations, it feels like there IS an opportunity to connect with spirits in a much deeper way today. To lead with your heart and your intention and ask to receive communications, being open to these contacts coming in unexpected ways, and trusting that love wants to see this happen for your own healing and theirs.

There is also more support to being open as well to how your shadow aspects might be needing you and wanting you. Your shadow often contains sources of power, soul gifts, soul purpose clarities…once the fear and resistance frequencies have been felt, cleared and healed, then these powerful soul gifts can be revealed. More of your power can be revealed and, often, more of your vulnerability as well.

All of this discovery may require negotiation with the part of you that protects and guards your shadow, what we call the Inner Protector in our SoulFullHeart process. The Protector (and also the 4D Gatekeeper) may not feel that you are truly ready to connect with your shadow and embody your soul power expression. They are in a stance of keeping you ‘safe’ rather than allowing you to risk feeling something painful and difficult (even though they will often allow and even contribute to repeating suffering loops inside you).

As your Higher Self comes into your body and your higher heart opens and expands, you become able to bring love to all the fear places inside of you. You can then also bring this love to the fear-based energies in others and serve as facilitator to this clearing of fear process in them too. This bringing love to fear then reverberates and expands throughout the entire Universe and the collective emotional body too. Bringing light to the darkness is above all about offering energies of compassion, forgiveness, understanding, and willingness to feel what is real.

Becoming a ‘warrior’ or going to battle against darkness just perpetrates the cycles of fear meeting and matching with more fear. This is often just the Protector in another form of ‘light warrior’ that is ultimately based in non-vulnerablity and resistance.

Invite parts of you to put down the swords and share with you why they are holding them, WHY they are afraid to go into the shadows with you, and you’ll open your heart up even that much wider, able to experience the love that makes up the essence of it all, including your shadow!

Here is a guided meditation with me to meet your shadow selves with MUCH love to hold the space:

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free intro calls and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Bridge To Your Higher Timeline Guided Meditation 5/11 Live Stream with Gabriel & Kalayna Solais

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by Gabriel & Kalayna Solais

Discovering your higher timeline possibilities is a sacred and deep process that also asks you to look at the steps in front of you that you need to take in order to inhabit it or draw it in more.

During this live stream which aired on May 11th 2019, Gabriel & Kalayna Solais offer teachings and a guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector and begin processing with them as you visit your often exciting yet also quite sobering Higher Timeline possibilities and the steps toward them.

The meditation helps you to connect with the different frequencies and pictures of your Higher Timeline. The more often you do this meditation or one like it, you may notice that the picture you see/experience shifts. This is because of your personal healing path/process and where it’s taking you. You may also find that one day your Higher Timeline feels farther away and on another day it feels as if you could reach out and touch it. All nuances in this meditation are there to help you tune into YOU, parts of you that need you and could be afraid of the Higher Timeline or the steps to getting there, and to activate your heart, desires, and soul gifts.

Please feel free to leave a comment if you would like to share what you saw in the meditation!

Much love! ❤

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s Facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess. 

Individuating From Birth Family Guided Meditation: ‘Discover’ Vlog Series With Gabriel & Kalayna Solais

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by Kalayna Solais

Healing, awakening, becoming who you are meant to be is a process with many layers, reactions, feelings, openings, and completions.

Often this process leads us to a necessary individuation from birth family as well as other significant relationships we have in our lives.

This process of finding your identity apart from the one which your birth family primarily knows you to have is sacred, tender, and often very challenging.

As Gabriel and I explore in this video, there are many parts with many different needs and reactions around this process. Ultimately, it is a process of finding yourself, discovering what the most self-loving choices are for you and your path, and letting go of relationships that no longer resonate, all at a rate and pace that is manageable for your parts and for you as a growing, healing, and ascending heart and soul.

About halfway through the video we lead a guided meditation to help you connect with your Inner Protector, who will likely have strong feelings about this topic and process, and the part(s) of you that are most anchored into birth family in some way, shape, or form.

The biggest benefit to taking on and letting in this process of individuating from birth family is what you’ll discover about yourself and what you really want in ALL of your relationships. The vacancy created by letting go of relationships that don’t match your frequency and path can eventually be filled by relationships that DO resonate with where and who you ARE as an ever-shifting and awakening being.

Follow-up questions you can ask your Inner Protector and the part(s) of you that you met during the meditation:

What is hard about the relationship with birth family?

What is good about the relationship with birth family?

What is the fear of taking space from birth family?

What would be good about it?

For more about support through SoulFullHeart sessions, visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤

Much love!

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess. Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist. 

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Moving Out Of Resentment & Into Forgiveness, Starting From Within

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By Jelelle Awen

We are being invited to move into frequencies of open hearted remorse AND forgiveness at increasing rates now. Moving out of bitterness and resentment, not as a bypass of these feelings, yet with an acknowledgement of the parts of you that feel these denser, edgier things and WHY. Discovering the why source of the resentment (hurt covered over by self protective rage usually) inside of you allows for an accelerated movement into vulnerability.

Our Inner Protectors can get ‘parked’ in resentments with a looping pattern of shame and blame (both inside of us and toward our ‘perpetuators”.) The Inner Punisher joins in to the ‘fight’ and can build quite a strong case to keep the resentments boiling and toiling….often for years after the actual circumstances and conflicts.

But there is a cost to holding onto resentments, bitterness, grudges, etc. remaining inside of you. The cost is to the depth of which you can experience returning to love essence frequencies again. The cost is to the sensitive and precious Inner Child who literally feels heart break at ANY of these harsh and fear-based frequencies transacting toward them (this is what was so often experienced in childhood.) The cost is to experiencing your BIGNESS that can forgive in an instant both yourself and others.

These bitternesses/resentments are 3D and lower 4D frequencies that are aching for healing and transmutation now…especially as they live inside of the wounded masculine within us all and the collective. Holding onto these perceived resentments may feel like a ‘win’ in the moment to the part of you defending itself….yet it is ultimately a ‘loss’ for love transaction.

This process of forgiveness has to start from within. Going within to feel where the resentments exist and shimmer between parts of you allows for less projection of this outward toward others….and less drawing of situations that bring this up and create this energy with others. Resentments can run deep between an inner mother and an inner father for example, as often templated by birth parent relationships. Also between an overly protective Protector/Punisher part and an Inner Child/Teenager there can be big resentments.

This playout can also be HUGELY karmic, with many patterns of this expressing out in many timelines/lifetimes in different scenarios of betrayal, persecution, murder/killing, etc. Connecting with your Metasouls (soul fragments) in these lifetimes and really feeling/healing their experiences of these cycles can lighten up the experience in this life too and the drawing of more situations like this.

Being an ambassador of love to these inner relationships and other timelines/lifetimes experiences, offering much diplomatic and compassion space holding for each of these parts of you allows them to let go and truly move on.

We are ALL being invited to let go of the old hurts and the old patterns of shaming and blaming, both inside and with others. The Divine Mother offers a beautiful template of this forgiveness that also embodies remorse and compassion.  Lean into Her energy as She offers forgiveness and compassion to ALL parts of you and you can then extend it toward yourself and others too.

This is my 33 Day Deepen series offering many guided meditations to begin this compassionate space holding and healing for this life and other lifetimes too: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Gabriel Solais and I will be co-hosting a live stream tomorrow on April 3rd here on FB at 10:00am PST to digest the March energies we’ve experienced and feel into April energies too!

1:1 sessions available to feel, heal, and reveal! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Equinox & Supermoon Live Stream & Guided Meditation

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This journey of today’s Equinox and tomorrow’s incoming Supermoon has been a mega time of upheavals and transitions, changes and deep transformations, shadow illumination and possibilities for healing on all levels. During this live stream, SoulFullHeart Facilitators (and newlyweds!), Gabriel and Kalayna Solais, offer a powerful guided meditation to help call in and ground in the incoming energies from the sun and moon. They also offer a digestion of the incoming energies and what they may be pushing up for you or helping you with on your ongoing journey of transitioning to higher and higher personal timelines.

This live stream was recording live on Facebook on March 20, 2019.

Kalayna and Gabriel both wrote about the incoming energies in different blog posts, two of which can be found here:

https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/03/20/equinox-supermoon-bring-support-for-transitions-into-the-new/

https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/03/18/equinox-passage-illuminates-shadow-4d-cycle-of-fear-to-heal-and-integrate-with-love/

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