Empowering The Inner Masculine, Feeling What You Really Want

by Raphael Awen

Time now to think about everywhere you’ve given or are giving away your power.

Remaining in unaddressed anxiety over money or debt, under its suppression, is giving away your power.

Remaining loyal to an old set of values thinking that is one’s path to the good life or a better life is giving away your power.

Remaining grounded in someone else’s truth that isn’t yours (ie. all social pretense of dead relationships, compliance with others or the government’s rules or laws, that oppose your truth is giving away your power.

What do you really want?

How are you going about owning that?

Who really knows your truth? Who needs to know it? Who doesn’t?

This is the empowered masculine arising within you. He knows that in the end, you can and will have what you actually want. He just needs reassurance that you are ready to have the truer things of what you really want. He doesn’t want to be your downfall. He doesn’t really want a shitstorm of reaction either from any part of you that might well get upset about losing their comforting game of victimhood. He wants to provide and he wants to be acknowledged. That’s what he’s built for. It’s up to you to lead the show, and then he can show up for a game truly worth playing.

You host this new game by beginning to feel what’s really going on inside, awakening your Inner Masculine, and awakening a swooning Inner Feminine. From there, anything and everything will change at a pace that can be negotiated and self-loving, without needing to disown anything, without needing to deny anything.

This is the opportune time that is here now where the game isn’t only changing but being reinvented by you and I as we come to terms with what we really want.

Jelelle Awen and I would be so honored and blessed if you would come join us for a six-week group exploration over Zoom starting next Wednesday, April 1st at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) with teachings and guided meditations from us and space for individual sharings! The calls are two hours, by donation and whatever you can afford to give at this time of deep money transition for many.

You can join us live and you can also receive the recordings at any time after the calls. We have some amazing soul family already signed up to come to this and we see a virtual community forming around these calls of resonance and support…MUCH needed during this time of so much shifting timelines and possibilities!

Details here on FB at https://www.facebook.com/events/1095703627430395/
and at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/Freetobe

You can offer donations through our shop at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Much love to you during this time of dynamic transition into the NEW!

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Inner Child Rising Up In Times Of Less Doing

By Deva Yasmin

Sometimes the quietest parts of us hold the keys to our deepest wisdom. These parts can feel like they had to give up at some stage of trying to be heard, instead dimming and downplaying their wisdom, as it was not valued in this 3D world. I have always felt a curiosity and care of this world and its people, which I can now feel is the natural essence of the Inner Child. Their soft, gentle innocence becomes subdued over time, covered over by the intensity of a world that programs them not to question anything.

My Inner Child would try to bring her thirst for learning to the world, which would get lost in the sea of debates and arguments of right and wrongs. The adults she looked to for knowledge were already too plugged into the program themselves. This left no space for a curious, creative, playful inquiry into life, which feels to my Inner Child a more exciting, organic way to connect and learn.

I feel this transition we are in right now is creating more space for us to spend time with and feel our Inner Child. We now have time to BE, and are being called to BE, more curious and creative with our time. Our logic and problem solving is not needed or serving us in the same way right now.

I feel this time giving the Inner Child opportunity to Rise up, no longer needing to Roar to be heard, as we have more quiet time to listen. I feel their sensitivity and simplicity being valued, feeling the gift that they are, and how soothing it is to parts of us to connect with them, feeling their gentleness and openness. How healing it is, taking time to look at the world through their eyes, seeing the awe in EVERYTHING around us, in Love and in Joy with the whole of existence.

As we sink into rest and reset, we have space to feel how other parts of us striving for success and purpose have been driven by the pain of the Inner Child. They have been driven from the lack of validation and genuine care they received in a 3D world that has not been considerate of their sensitivity and imagination, causing them to seek to be something or someone more than they already were. They were molded from a young age to live life in the striving-for-survival Matrix, where they are never enough and can never get enough.

I feel Yasmin, an aspect of my Inner Child, trying so hard to be heard and, when that didn’t work, she shutdown. She decided to listen instead, but as she disagreed with so much of what she heard, she numbed out. Trying anything she could find that was loud enough or toxic enough to quiet not only her pain, but the beating, aliveness and deep desire to create a new world that was echoing and calling in her heart.

I feel many of us being asked to feel, heal, and let go of the ways in which we numb out to not feel pain held by the Inner Child and other parts that have learnt these kinds of coping mechanisms. With daily life on lockdown, now is the perfect opportunity.

As we enter into curious, loving inquiry with these young parts, as they feel more relaxed and feel safe, they can lean in more. This helps us to STEP more fully into our king or queen essence, a simple, calm, confidence growing enabling us to respond in a new way to times of chaos in the world and in others. Instead of being reactive, we can stay grounded, taking self-responsibility for the things that support us to do so, enabling us to offer a stable presence in the world and with others.

Our ability and courage to speak up for what we believe in and share our visions of a New Earth, is no longer offered from a place of needing validation but from a genuine Love and care, for ourselves, our parts, and our kingdom. Remembering our Life’s service is to serve the rebirth of the inner and outer worlds.

We no longer need to be successful or powerful to be validated. We can lead by loving example of how TRUE power honors that which is in relationship with and including our sensitivity, our gentleness, our need for play and rest, and our innocence. The world many of us felt possible as children feels like it is coming more into being now, through these reboots we are going through. Feeling our parts and Inner Child is our service towards creating Balance, Peace, Love and Unity on our planet and is a way of supporting ourselves through these intense times on Earth.

This is why we came here and the reason why we have experienced so much of what we have.  Life teaching us of pain so we can know Love; teaching us of suffering so we can know compassion; teaching us of loneliness so we can truly know togetherness; and teaching us of separation so that we can truly value innocence and simplicity as we are being returned to it.

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

It’s OK Not To Be OK: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Oct 7, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

We are so often told either directly or unconsciously, that it’s not OK to feel badly, to feel anything ‘negative’, and that we need to deny or transcend these ‘lower frequencies’. In this week’s featured article, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Co-Creator, Jelelle Awen, offers that it’s actually in the making space to FEEL these and ALL feelings that we can then create more space for the higher frequencies to come in and live within us more and more:

“The most amazing high frequencies of bliss and joy find MORE room is made for their arising when the deeper pains are being felt. When no feelings are being denied, there is no energy going toward suppression, no energy toward transcendence of feelings. Then, this energy is freed up and your heart space opens for yourself, for these parts of you that need you, and bliss can flood in again eventually finding rich, grounded soil in your open heart.”

There will be a Group Transmission led by Raphael and Jelelle Awen tomorrow! The focus of this group on Saturday, October 12th at 10am PDT is to learn more about the light body activation process that is ongoing as our carbon-based, 3D conditioned/programmed physical bodies transition into crystalline, living on prana/light energy bodies. The process of this seems to come in phases and cycles of detoxification of 3D chemicals and toxic food digestion energies along with activation on cellular, DNA, levels. They will especially focus on what the best fuel as food is for the light body to support its transition.

Jelelle Awen and Kalayna Solais will be leading a virtual women’s group towards the end of October. The focus of this SAFE group on Sunday, October 27 2019 at 10:00am PDT over Zoom is to provide a continuing conversation about what the sacred feminine is and isn’t, plus the process that is needed (both to let in and to let go of) for more embodiment of the sacred feminine. Jelelle and Kalayna will teach about sacred feminine embodiment from their own years-long exploration into it through working with women in session space….plus, working with parts of themselves (both masculine and feminine), Metasoul (soul fragments) from other lifetimes, and the Divine Mother as a beloved template and bridge.

There will be another online Group Transmission coming up in November with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. The focus of this group on Saturday, November 9th, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to learn more about the Ascension codes that are coming in through cosmic energies (from sources such as our Sun, the Great Cosmic Sun, other Planets/Galaxies, etc.) and from Gaia and Inner Earth as well. We will also talk about what codes ARE and how to bridge to your personal experience of them as images, sounds, number sequences, etc. We will also talk about the parts of you (such as Inner Protector/Gatekeeper) that need to negotiated with to bring the codes into your field through the crown chakra and what the fears/resistances can be to doing that stemming from other lifetimes/timelines.

We will be having another four-day community gathering this December 2019 for the Winter Solstice. The gathering starts at 10:00am on Wednesday the 18th of December and goes through 5pm on Saturday the 21st (each day’s events are from 10:00am until 5:00pm).

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

There are many new articles and audio blogs this week by Jelelle Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Solais. They are sharings from their personal processes, energy updates including digestions of the 10/10 portal energies that are still moving through now, some discussions about truth-telling and transparency, as well as what it feels like to be in a Sacred Union.

Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. They also each offer free 30min Intro Calls for you to explore and discuss what this process could offer you and help you move through and heal in your life and Ascension process.

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It’s Ok Not To Be OK: Feelings As A Portal To Your Multidimensional Self

By Jelelle Awen

It’s OK not to be OK….putting down the masks of OKness or being positive all the time. Being vulnerable to show what is really going in your heart. Sharing your tears, your fears, your concerns, your pain with those who can feel you. Being real with what parts of you are feeling and reacting to in every moment. This self permission space allows the feelings to BE, to be felt, and eventually to heal.

Why do we need to receive this self permission to feel? The 3D world operates on the suppression of vulnerable feeling. Analyzing feelings rather than actually dropping into the emotive ground of them. Numbing and drugging our feelings with ‘anti-feeling’ drugs such as anti-depressants, anti-anxiety, etc….relating to our emotions as if we need to go into battle with them. As if they are diseases and illnesses that need a cure. As if they are evidence of our brokenness.

Your feelings offer a story, an important telling of what parts of you have experienced in 3D reality and what may remain emotionally undigested. They tell a soul story too…often from other lifetimes even, BIG emotional charge there sometimes, that is waiting for bridging and to be felt and held and responded to.

Your feelings provide a portal to deeper understanding of yourself in this life..and in other lifetimes too. They are a portal to your multidimensional experience of reality in so many timelines going on all at ONCE.

There is so much social lack of acceptance around feeling ourselves and being REAL about what our feelings are. Even in spirituality, there can be so much focus on the light and the positive that transparency and integrity (that come from being REAL about what you are feeling) get lost and covered over. Abuses of self and others occur then in ‘spiritual circles’ with emotionally immature teachers perpetuating toxic cycles from using spiritual frequencies to cover over their own woundings.

It’s OK not to be OK…..if you had been told this, offered this in childhood rather than the 3D message of “Get over it. Don’t be so sensitive. Stop crying”…you could have naturally learned how to hold space for your feelings and the parts of you that feel them. Instead, parts of you learn to protect and defend your feelings. To turn the judgement of your feelings inward and develop a punishing energy (an Inner Punisher) that carries the message inside of your unworthiness.

Then, you are called eventually to become the loving and accepting parental energy (fuelled by the Divine) that you probably did not have. Your pain calls you to this. Your pain offers where there still remain places inside that need your love.

The most amazing high frequencies of bliss and joy find MORE room is made for their arising when the deeper pains are being felt. When no feelings are being denied, there is no energy going toward suppression, no energy toward transcendence of feelings. Then, this energy is freed up and your heart space opens for yourself, for these parts of you that need you, and bliss can flood in again eventually finding rich, grounded soil in your open heart.

Trusting the flows AND the ebbs, the natural cycles of closings and openings. Trusting and being curious about the reasons that your tears exist, the reasons that your pains exist, and the mirror they are offering you OF you. The Divine, especially Divine feminine frequencies, WANTS you to feel yourself and all that calls your heart to respond to it. Divine love supports this process of not being OK, being real about it, and the dive in exploration of it too.

The Divine wants the pains of the 3D experiment to be felt and moved as more of Its essence can be let in…..which is actually YOUR essence as Infinite Love returning to you as a felt reality the more and more you are willing to feel what is real.

Here is a guided meditation to transmute traumas by feeling them with love: https://youtu.be/H20_fT-tKYg

Love,
Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions available with SoulFullHeart Facilitators RaphaelGabriel and Kalayna : soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Join Raphael Awen and I for our monthly group transmission live or to receive the recording on Saturday, October 12th at 10:00am PDT for $15 CAD donation. We will be offering teachings, meditation, and a sound healing with crystal sound healing bowls to help activate your light body, bring in any galactic/ascension codes in your ‘field’ and raise your frequency. More information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/467546737430726/

Or here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/grouptransmissions

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Reflections From Our Interconnections: A Poem

by Kalayna Solais

Digging IN
my heart remembers
what it only can with you.
And what’s always true
is the plan of living
and the exquisite pain
of letting in
while also letting go.

Ecstatically
the heart opens and closes again
echoing thoughts and words within
the pulse of beating hearts
and timelines crossing timelines.

Instinctually
the forbidden mind
starts to mine
the experience of the heart
and integration of lined-up soul pieces
that flow and flee and double-back
into the next full circle
of healing miracles
within.

Reflections, ALL
move inside the current being
now seeing
what couldn’t be seen without them
moving into the heart space and out again
leaving me with more gain
than loss.

No matter the next
and next
and next
reflections and reactions and reactivations
the following places
pace in a dance
that races then recedes
in a way wild
uncontrolled
and absolutely
ALIVE.

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Art by Rassouli

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Seeking The Payoff Of Being Felt

By Raphael Awen

Every impulse of energy moving through you and around you is an expression of something that simply wants to be felt.

What you are doing or not doing today; where you are going or not going, is all about an energy flow of choices that are seeking the payoff of being felt. This is also true for everyone around you.

It isn’t money that makes the world go round, but rather feeling. Money is only one of many different feeling containers.

We are learning that consciousness itself is what underlies all matter. In that we are also learning that what we previously called ‘inanimate objects’ are not only capable of feeling, but produce measurable feeling state reactions to changes of emotional energy.

Your heart, and your willingness to feel the reactions that are happening inside of you and all around you are the animation system that move you through life and onto your next places.

Are you craving a certain kind of change in your life? Being willing to feel that craving and what it’s deeply about is what allows it to flow into your life, rather than leaving you stuck in an unfulfilled craving.

Feeling is an exchange, a ‘from’ and a ‘to’. It happens in relationship, and in that, it doesn’t occur where only one exists. Relationship requires an other. When you are feeling yourself, you are showing up as this other to feel a part of yourself. As you feel yourself more and more in this way, your relationships with others shift in order to take on this same feeling quality.

This is also true of the Divine, whom we all are and are all subpersonas of. The Divine couldn’t know the flow of feeling were it not for the feeling flowing through you and your life circumstances.

Feel your next impulse that you might choose. What is wanting to be felt underneath that impulse? Are you going about on autopilot? What is the feeling payoff for a part of you to remain on autopilot? Maybe it’s a kind of not-feeling payoff. But being numb is also another feeling state that like all feeling states, actually wants to be felt. It needs to be felt for it to move onto what is beyond it.

No matter how challenging a set of life circumstances you face; no matter what admitted ‘wounds’ you may carry, there is something soooo fundamentally and profoundly right about you!

You are love out seeking to know and feel love. Love at its core wants to be felt. Love wants to reward you for your willingness to feel. Love wants to fill your cup.

You are love’s beloved.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Opening Your Heart To Feel What Is REAL

By Jelelle Awen

Open your heart to feel the pains there, the fear there, the tears there. FEELing this, letting it BE, holding yourself and parts of you in the mourning and the letting go. Opening your heart to be REAL about what your feelings are, especially the ones of unhappiness and distress over current relationships and situations in your life.

Over and over, I invite this heart opened realness in my sessions. It comes back to this so often too with every woman that I hold space for. It is really a space being held for feeling, for reconnection with the emotional body while bridging to the soul. A self permission I reflect back/mirror/offer to feel, to allow the TRUTH of your emotional reality to come up, to hold space for yourself and parts of you to FEEL.

Why does this self permission to FEEL need to be mirrored and offered over and over? Our 3D conditioning is to suppress, to numb, to cover over, to protect, to guard, to settle, to repress. Energies form inside of you (such as the Inner Protector) to block the natural and organic arising of your emotions because it is judged as TOO MUCH. So it is judged by your culture, often by your birth families, maybe even by your mates….your sensitivity is too much, your emotionality is too much, your heart breaking sense of life is too much.

Yet, actually, is it JUST RIGHT. That sensitivity is your heart porosity and your capacity to LOVE. And, as it heals from being allowed to be and flow, so it floods out more and more from healthy compassion, empathy, service with others. You can then feel what others are feeling while they are feeling it because YOU have embodied this WITH yourself and your own parts over and over.

Open your heart to feel the pains there and the joy can come into the space that is made.

Intimacy with self and other can come into the space that is made.

Vulnerability can come into the space that is made.

Love can come into the space that is made. And love can be the FEELING that flows most in most moments.

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I have some available session times next week M-F for women over 35 for a 1:1 90 minute bridging session with me for $55 USD min. donation. And my beloveds/facilitators (Raphael AwenGabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Colibri) do too if you are drawn to meet with them! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men, along with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators as well…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.