Illumination And Disclosure Through Crisis And Chaos

by Kalayna Colibri



Disclosure is happening on all sides and inside too… the thing with crisis is that we have needed it. We have needed it in order to illuminate what’s been happening inside of us and also in our relationships and the people around us. There is nothing like a death in the family, for example, to bring to light the true colours of parts within each family member – how you respond to each and every event in your life, is a chance to look into a mirror, no matter how extreme or intense the event is. What parts of you would rather pave over, pretend isn’t there STILL, even though it is staring you in your very eyes, is a choice that often leads to more drama, more crisis, more chaos. It’s not about going down the road of self-punishment, either… so many do this, often without realizing this is what’s happening on some level of their being. Often this inner response is so ingrained that it just feels normal.

This response is what spills over into a lack of genuine compassion for others who are walking out the crisis too. This response is what keeps you from feeling others AND yourself in a deeper way.

Whether you feel you are a lightworker or not, there is so much to let in around what real compassion looks and feels like. Anything that is dismissed as ONLY ‘victim mentality’ or ONLY anything else, is a black and white conclusion that does not serve love in the way your most genuine heart intends to. Others are suffering and their parts need to be felt inside of the pain before they can heal the victim within. Spill-over of self-punishment and criticism frequencies is something very powerful to watch and feel for, happening in the wildfire raging within, coming from parts that feel the crisis environment and aren’t sure how to be with it…

There is so much to be discovered within, within, withIN… there has been so much need for drama and crisis as more disclosure takes place and there will likely need to be some more because the light it casts into the darkness is the most powerful gift we could be given during these times. It does feel like eventually we won’t need this chaos anymore, and indeed we will draw it less individually if the chaos is felt and heard and healed within… one felt step at a time. 


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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at

Feeling Like There’s No Tomorrow: NTE – Near Term Extinction for Humans???


By Wayne Vriend

Let’s see if I can find some words to share what I’m feeling….which of course assumes that I know what I am feeling. I truly don’t. I’m digesting a series of articles which lay out a convincing presentation of facts from recent scientific studies detailing the earth’s recent average temperature rise. I invite you to take a look beyond the smokescreen debate about global warming, and to see the much greater climate chaos I’ve been convinced is coming, and even very much here now. Here’s one more presentation of the undeniable facts as presented by Guy McPherson, a former natural sciences professor.

Our current global average temperature rise is under 1 degree above our historic baseline when we began recording temperature at the beginning of Industrial civilization. Now if you’ve been lulled to a sweet sleep by the persistence of normalcy and our inborn native and understandable predisposition of our false self to denial, one degree or less can hardly be worth getting worked up about, right? There are lots of other things needing our more immediate attention than that.

Go back to sleep then, sorry I disturbed you. ‘Move along folks, nothing to see here.’ Never knowing what hit you might be the sweetest form of self love you can give yourself. I really mean that. If parts of you are not ready to see this, I so honour that you just might not be meant to see this. Most of the people on this population doubling planet have no way to grasp, hold, and process what is unfolding now. Others of us simply need to know and respond accordingly. Both are true and necessary to what is playing out.

Government and sacred civil institutions taking no overt action to alert or prepare people are totally doing the craziest things imaginable, which tells us they know major shit is going down, and their only hope is to keep the passengers on the Titanic in order. Iceberg slushies (complete with GMO-raised corn syrup and ‘natural’ flavours) for everyone. How can civil leaders justify horrid acts such as a total surveillance state, drone warfare, GMOs, fracking, etc.? It’s all in the name of the lesser of two evils. The powers that be in government and at the helm of our most sacred instituions know what most of us don’t know but are slowly waking up to: that all of us are about to be sideswiped by climate chaos involving near term human extinction. We’ve known and admitted that we are currently losing around 200 species every single day. We just haven’t seen ourselves as a candidate for this onslaught. Most people haven’t been able to see and feel the changes coming to them personally in a meaningful and alive way. The government has all the justification needed for treating us in any and all manner of inhumanity. It feels like: “I will preserve myself before I preserve you when I can’t see and hold meaning to my own mortality.” Only people who do not truly live are afraid of their own death.

For those with the ears to hear and hearts to feel, there is a ton of good news in this apocalyptic runaway freight train. First is that only what isn’t real or alive can actually die. All of life can only be transformed; nothing can be eradicated. We offer in SoulFullHeart that you are not who you think you are most of the time. Nothing changes that for people like a doctor telling them they have only months to live. Suddenly whole layers of meaning invade every moment and every relationship. We are in precisely that time. Which do you prefer, the bliss of ignorance of not knowing something, or the depth of meaning and aliveness found in feeling and facing your own mortality?

Around a near corner for us is a complete and sudden shutdown of the set of living arrangements that we were born into and accepted as normal. Call it the collapse of industrial civilization. We’ve extracted, fought over and burned in a couple of centuries the better part of the fossil fuels that nature took millions of years of process to put there. Nature so unsentimentally tricked us into this trap. I’m pretty sure of it. Mother nature is not afraid of death and rebirth, but welcomes it as a cleansing and natural process. That’s why our current patriarchal collective and our theologies of dominion have decreed that we should ‘subdue her, before she subdues us’. Check it out for yourself…….28 verses into the bible in Genesis. Possibly no greater and more succinct words can be found to grasp the source of our current dilemma. We went to war with nature.

As you can see then, this deal really isn’t new, in the way we think of it. When we learned way back how to grow and store grain, that was really the much deeper beginning of this present era of dominion. (It’s not really all Obama’s and Bush’s fault.) We’ve had some big empire experiments come and go since then, but not one event that so catastrophically and opportunistically changes EVERYTHING and all the things that matter to us in a one moment kind of way. We’ve had five prior extinction events in the planet’s history that we know about. We’ve just never teed up such a big deal as we have in the lead up to this present and sixth one…..making your life and mine a front row seat to experience the pinnacle of the greatest story ever told.

Our western world dominion achievment is truly shining, even with the current tarnish. Electricity coming from holes in the wall every 12 feet around the rooms of our McMansions, lifting a lever and getting clean drinking water coming out of a ‘tap’ often with many more taps and toilets in the house than people. Groceries on store shelves completely unimaginable to our recent ancestors, along with a functioning economic system and global wars to keep it all in momentum. A few dollars for a gallon of gasoline that is said to have the equivalent power of 300 man hours of labour at our disposal at filling stations. All of that abruptly ends though in the collapse of our industrial civilization. It is so truly amazing what we’ve built. Problem is we built it all on sand, and if that wasn’t enough, we went on to hollow out the pillars, making this sudden demolition drop our most spectacular to date. Crazy what you can build with disconnect and denial! Crazier still how you can set it up for the biggest fall that most won’t believe till they see it in ashes, and even then many may not have the ability to grasp it.

We need the industrial civilization to end if we are to survive as a species on the planet. There’s no question about that really, yet part of you may still be in denial about that if you’ve invested your money and self image irreversibly in the deal. But the end of industrial civilization actually isn’t as hopeful at all for our species, as we are just now learning. We need industrial civilization to prevent our 440 some nuclear reactors around the world from going Fukushima on us. Without a power grid, that’s exactly what they do. Mother nature just doesn’t care about what we care about most of the time. She never promised that. We, in a very entitled and bratty way projected onto her our demand for her blessing on our agenda of disconnection from her. She really has no problem with our choice to fuck ourselves. Mary can’t be hailed on this one.

It’s not that Mother Earth doesn’t love us with a penetrating and embracing love. The Divine Mother just has a different reality around love. She is not afraid of death, but welcomes it like shaking your etch-a-sketch, and getting to begin again. She knows and feels that only by our cycles of death and rebirth can She, along with our entire universe, come to know itself through trial and error. We don’t know what is ultimately going on because our Mother doesn’t know what’s going on. She’s doing all of this in the fun of finding out. It’s called never ending discovery. It’s not that our species is evil, but rather that in our journey to discover love we needed to play with evil. So while this collapse feels like an unimaginable big deal that we cannot relate to, it really is as natural and normal as summer, fall, winter, and spring.

She needs us like never before to accept the doctor’s prognosis, we only have months to live. Those months are made up of moments. And it’s only in a moment that you can feel. And feeling is what moves in harmony with death and rebirth. Not feeling is what our resistance to change and metamorphosis is made up of. Mother Earth, our Divine Mother, Our Divine Father, our own Divinity, Yeshua, Buddha and Allah all agree – It’s time to begin feeling like there’s no tomorrow. Because there isn’t nearly as many tomorrows as we’ve been so gullibilly been led to believe.

Wayne Vriend is co-creator and a facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit for more information.

On Mother Earth Day: Digesting The Reality Of Climate Crisis


By Wayne Vriend

Recently I took in three powerful and difficult to digest pieces about the climate crisis. It seems fitting to share them today, on Mother Earth Day.

The first is a writers’ recollection, who lived nearby Chernobyl of the days and hours following the meltdown:

and the second is Guy Mcpherson’s climate chaos you tube video from last year about how it’s most likely that we will experience a near extinction level climate crisis events by 2040.

And the third piece: RT released a piece on Chernobyl released on the 28th year anniversary (and it is part of the currently troubled Ukraine, no less!)

My god, I’m trying to digest how momentous a time we are in – RIGHT NOW – and let it in from the divine mother’s heart and urgency…

The piece from Chernobyl shows how the authorities react to any bad news in which it always justifies lying to the masses as the lesser of two perceived evils. We are in just such a time as that, but on a much bigger scale.

The other big piece I feel is how we collectively don’t have a way to digest this emotionally and spiritually, so we just haven’t digested it, (which is different somehow than flat out denial.)

Guy’s presentation is a lot of facts, and some context at the end. It beckons the heart and the soul to respond. The response is about accepting the earth as ‘in hospice’, rather than writing a letter to your congressman or member of parliament.

Mark me down for convinced, (though I struggle to know what that actually means). The world as we know bears little resemblance to the world that is emerging in the days, weeks, months and years immediately upon us.

Soulfullheart was born for such a time as this and I must admit, I am curious as hell as to how and if that will actually play out.

Wayne Vriend is co-creator and a facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit for more information.