Tag: spiritual growth

How Spirituality and Growth Differ

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By  Raphael Awen

Growth and becoming spiritual can be far from the same thing.

Growth is hinged on the quality of your intentions and responding with your deepest courage and integrity to the choices before you, in the sacred life before you as you currently know it.

You can become quite spiritual through a long list of practices like meditation or yoga. But the practice doesn’t determine growth, but rather the why behind what you are doing, irregardless if it’s meditating or feeding the dog.

We’re invited now to sift through our intentions, which is the real leverage point of our desired growth. Clinging onto or coveting spiritual routines and attainments can actually be detrimental to our growth.

Sort the intent and you may just find that everything you choose to do in life is equally spiritual. Then you can literally do whatever you really want and find growth traction, and be having too much fun in the process to be beating yourself up with another spiritual discipline. 💚

~ R ~

This pic came from this weeks wonderwalks in the area here.

#raphaelsphotonics

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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We Choose Our Own ‘New Normal’

Published on by Gabriel Amara1 Comment

I have been taking time to continue my ongoing soul awakening during this Deepen video series, hosted by Jelelle and Raphael Awen, and I have been really sensing how we are all on this journey in our own way. Each of us is called to something unique and inspired that has greater meaning than just ‘getting back to normal’.

This IS our normal now until we all choose something different from the inside out. There are two realities going on at the same time, one based in reason and intuition and the other in psychological warfare. It is this ongoing state of War that has kept us in a prison for millennia. Any attempt at fighting the war keeps us enmeshed in its frequency and gravitational pull. If we are free from our cells are we free from the prison itself?

As I have been exploring more of my soul history through conscious connection with the aspect we call the Gatekeeper, we are both learning how each of us is on a path of this awakening, healing, unplugging, and remembrance. I see how these aspects of us have been in their own form of virtual reality, a hijacked and inverted reality created by forces of our own devices for a Divine purpose we have yet to fully understand and reconcile.

As the heat of totalitarian, psychological warfare continues to turn up, we are all being called to some form of action whether it is inward or outward. I am in the Inward Conscious Community camp. It is here that I feel my purpose is rooted. I go in to find all the places my soul is in the clutches of the Program and feeling where it has played itself out in multiple timelines in multiple lives. It is an organic process that is given life and reflection by those that I am in community with.

It is about feeling, forgiving, and releasing. It is about integration and reconciliation. It is about sharing and ambassadorship. It is bringing in more of Christ Light into embodiment and into consciousness for All. This is what I have called to do for myself and offer support for others to do the same. It is about creating a new community of consciousness that is no longer attached to, yet still a part of, the Old.

Something is dying. We can all feel it. We all know it on some level. Some are meant to aid in its death and others in its rebirth. That rebirth is seeded from the Love that is cultivated and embodied from within.

Gabriel Amara
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For more about the SoulFullHeart process and paradigm I invite you to check out the ongoing Deepen 2022 series. You can find more info and the videos here at our website: https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

Reflections From Our Interconnections: A Poem

Published on by Kasha Rokshana2 Comments

by Kalayna Solais

Digging IN
my heart remembers
what it only can with you.
And what’s always true
is the plan of living
and the exquisite pain
of letting in
while also letting go.

Ecstatically
the heart opens and closes again
echoing thoughts and words within
the pulse of beating hearts
and timelines crossing timelines.

Instinctually
the forbidden mind
starts to mine
the experience of the heart
and integration of lined-up soul pieces
that flow and flee and double-back
into the next full circle
of healing miracles
within.

Reflections, ALL
move inside the current being
now seeing
what couldn’t be seen without them
moving into the heart space and out again
leaving me with more gain
than loss.

No matter the next
and next
and next
reflections and reactions and reactivations
the following places
pace in a dance
that races then recedes
in a way wild
uncontrolled
and absolutely
ALIVE.

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Art by Rassouli

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Expanding Gap During Awakening

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By Raphael Awen

As our consciousness expands and the veil lifts more and more for each of us, it’s important to feel the part of you who very understandably may be feeling overwhelmed by the expanding gap of where you perceive yourself to be in your everyday life and where you desire to be.

This gap between the two is said to be where all growth and even meaning comes from. It’s where we get our motivation from to reach for more. At root, it is love inviting us into more. Life is essentially about this gap.

But this gap can also be used by a part of us to self inflict judgments. Part(s) of us, it seems feel it necessary to slow this process of awakening by using self punishment for fear we won’t be able to bear it.

I felt several mental trajectories this week about how I was or wasn’t spending my time or money, what I was or wasn’t eating, about how present I was or wasn’t to the moment, etc. As I found space to feel the undertone of self judgment, I could so lovingly feel the part of me reaching for some handrails in the midst of this accelerated growth phase. I had sweet tears as I connected with this part of me and it’s reaction/digestion of so many recent changes going on in my life.

You and I are truly such amazing beings, beyond what we’ve ever dreamed, where even our wildest dreams and even convictions about more only begin to scratch the surface. If that’s true, then it really makes sense that there’s some ongoing inner negotiation and ambassadorship necessary to hold all this from blowing apart.

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@joshuaearle

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Bigger Picture For All ‘Soul Groups’ & Their Healing/Ascension Paths

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by Kalayna Colibri

There is not one ‘soul group’ to arrive on this planet without a specific purpose and gifts that need to unfold and be discovered. It’s not a matter of one group (or in 3D terms, ‘generation’) being more necessary or gifted than another. Even the ones who came here to deeply inhabit 3D had a consciousness they signed up to become, even in the ways they may be accountable for causing much pollution and other issues on Gaia (something that it feels like Gaia was actually prepared for all along as a necessary phase of Her Ascension).

This is what’s true for any incarnated soul on Gaia during this and any phase… some are more connected to the here and now, some are visionaries for the future, and some are still moving through tension between ‘home’ or Star Family consciousness and the dominant consciousness on Gaia right now, and grounding that somehow into their lives and into the overall Ascension process. There are walls to bump up against and other levels of consciousness to consider and collaborate with too at times. There are obstacles to meet especially inside of us, as we reach down into the layers, barriers, and veils to our love essence inside and lovingly learn to be with them, love them, appreciate why they’ve been there and begin to transmute them into something NEW.

I for one have felt deeply challenged by trying to live in 3D for as long as I can remember. I’ve had trouble with my body weight off and on. I was born highly sensitive and intuitive into a family that could nurture that to the degree in which they were comfortable but then the ground ran out and my search for healing and realization of self, soul, and soul family continued to deepen from there. I learned to drive a car in my 20s, not in my teens, and I’m still not very ‘good’ at it. Parts of me could never stand the idea of a long-standing career that wasn’t spiritual, creative, or very helpful to others. Relationships of all kinds were challenging too, whether ‘spiritual’ or not. I’ve had layers and layers of self-punishment to feel with Inner Punisher, Inner Mother/Father, and Inner Protector parts of me around all of this as the messages kept coming in that I needed to find my way in all of these fronts, find a way to deal with being in 3D. Yet, even with that going on, my soul could never ‘forget’ its pull to something so much bigger and more multi-dimensional.

If you have also felt like this, no part of you is ‘wrong’ for feeling this way and knowing this about your ultimate purpose. Yet, we still have to navigate 3D in all areas of our lives until we just don’t anymore and the natural graduation happens. It’s been a challenging thing to learn how to feel empowered in 3D and even 4D realities on Gaia. Yet, without these platforms to ground into and press up against, the necessary healing and eventual Ascension beyond these frequencies could not be happening.

I’m with you on this journey. We are all learning. Being OK with this learning process is what’s most difficult for parts of us. Because it’s scary for them to live in a world, inner and outer, that they feel they have no control over and that seems sometimes to be offering them more pain than healing. The only way to begin to move beyond this suffering and see the beauty of all pitstops and triumphs of this ongoing Ascension journey is to continue to feel what’s real. To go into the reactions to find the real places of vulnerable fears and feelings underneath them. To realize that as difficult as being in 3D can feel to parts of us, it IS navigable and there IS help in many forms to move us into a more healed and healing relationship with it and with life itself.

My beloveds and I are so willing and desirous to hold space for your explorations into all of this and beyond on a personal level. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information on our space-holding offerings and where sessions with us could take you if you feel resonant with us.

Much, much love to you on your journey! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Intense Energy Waves Lead To Deeper Healing & Change

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By Kalayna Colibri

Been in more waves of change personally as we finally transition to a house where roots can be planted in nourishing soil… this isn’t coming through without tension also moving through, making room for the new and all possibilities. It feels like a time for this, a time for stepping into your highest timeline, and feeling the reactions and tensions moving along with that. It’s a time where stepping into your highest timeline may not look and feel like the perfect picture in the moment, yet you can so trust the vision as it’s unfolding and hold onto it as more than a wish, but something you are deciding to fully show up for… even as there are steps, sometimes many steps, to realizing it in its entirety.

There’s still density to move and be with, to acknowledge and to challenge within, especially as you continue to be invited into new and deeper perspectives. These new strata of seeing yourself, of feeling your parts and how they’ve moved in and reacted to the world, are landing in your field and waiting to be let in as you sometimes shake with old rage and deep hurt as parts of you live into their pain and in some cases have a very hard time letting in healing. Actually, this shaking and vibrating with old reactions often IS part of the healing and is just as sacred as the feeling of release and relief as you let in new waves of love into dark corners of your being that have so needed it.

These higher perspectives want you to see yourself and your parts in a more profound way, to see where the pain is and why and to feel compassion for how you’ve been in this world up ‘til now. The debris of the old needs to come loose before it can be lovingly swept up. And, the timing of this sometimes chaotic-feeling shake-up process is sacred and soulfully personal to you. You can’t know the exact timing of WHEN it will be more healed, yet you can hold onto a trust that it’s all in process and there IS an other side.

Connecting with your Inner Protector might be timely for you, as this part in particular may be quite stirred up right now. Both Raphael and Jelelle Awen have created powerful guided meditations to help connect you with this precious part of you. You can find them and other beautiful guided meditations on our YouTube channel: SoulFullHeart Experience.

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Being With Post-Holiday Emotional Indigestion

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By Kalayna Colibri

I get the sense today that there’s a lot of lingering ‘indigestion’ going on coming off of Thanksgiving weekend in the USA, both in the physical and the emotional…. being with friends and family members who are no longer resonant with who you are and are becoming often creates a strain inside as parts of you shape-shift and adjust to the energies at the dinner table, suppressing how they are really feeling and reacting. Something that is becoming harder and harder to do as truth-telling parts of you like your Inner Protector, who has been observing and managing your relationship with your family and old friends, are becoming less and less tolerant of what isn’t resonant or feels like real love to them.

This suppression leads to intense indigestion in your emotional body, leaving you with physical and emotional pain too. If your body is reacting to the amount of food you’ve taken in, it’s likely also reacting to the energy of its preparation and consumption too. Checking in with your Inner Protector is a great way to feel them in their ongoing rumbles and to connect with the other parts of you they have been protecting as best they can from the sometimes quite invasive energy of those around you on these holidays that can be especially intense and charged with all sorts of unfelt and uncared for emotional realities and reactivity.

There are several guided mediations on our YouTube channel, SoulFullHeart Experience, for you to explore a connection with your Inner Protector.

The invitation is always to feel what you want in your heart and what you need for your soul. The real soul food of resonant relationships and soul family community is a potent energy to lean into for growth and deep nourishment. The reflections offered to you by non-resonant relationships are eventually no longer needed as the care offered from those who are doing the same degree of inner work as you is no comparison and is all you and your parts eventually will want to experience. It’s a sacred journey to arrive here to this place where the comfortably uncomfortable feeling of being around family members and friends who do not nurture your journey nor let you in enough to have you nurture theirs, is no longer desired. And, it’s just as sacred to feel all there is to feel, including the fears and anxieties in parts of you as you begin to let in true soul family connections and embark on the journey of continued growth and expansion in all of your intimate relationships.

Much love as you navigate all of these themes and tones in a way that is most meant for you at this time… ❤️

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There’s so much deep support my beloveds and I offer through affordable, 1:1 sessions if you feel drawn to ask for help in the digestion of what has been indigestible: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Photo by Cristian Newman via unsplash.com

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Welcome To The Upside-Down, The Birthing Of Golden Earth: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Nov 19, 2018)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

“This is a time of expecting the unexpected. Situations both politically and environmentally that will not follow former historical patterns.”

Gabriel Heartman invites us to feel the intense current events happening globally as an aspect of what he calls the ‘upside-down’, where not much makes the sense it used to make, and yet it’s all part of the process of birthing Golden/New Earth.

He offers that with everything occurring, the time has never been riper to go inward and be with the reactions and pain that is surfacing:

“There is a tsunami that is on our shores and that is Love. It does destroy and it does upend. It is meant to as what is Not Love can only ever be returned to that which Is Love. This is about feeling inside of you where the Not Love lives and bringing this Love Wave to it.”

We have two new videos this week from SoulFullHeart Facilitator, Kalayna Colibri. The first one invites you to join Kalayna as she vulnerably brings some important aspects of her most recent process and celebrates being once again available to hold space for others.

In the second video, Kalayna shares Divine Feminine frequencies moving through on this particular day when the Divine Mother/Feminine energies were high, via her heart and soul as well as the beautiful natural setting surrounding her in Brentwood Bay, BC, Canada. She also shares a precious message from Divine Mother about leadership and birthing into your Service-Of-Love Self.

There are several new writings and audio blog recordings from Kalayna, Gabriel, and Raphael and Jelelle Awen. They invite you this week to digest a few energy updates and take in new perspectives on current events such as Thanksgiving Day. There are also several deep messages offered from the Divine about personal process and leadership grounds opening up.

There will be a SoulFullHeart retreat taking place February 15-19, 2019 in Victoria, BC, Canada. If you’re interested in coming, please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events for more information.

1:1 Galactic Activation Sessions with Jelelle are available for booking. They are a $55 USD minimum donation for 75-90min and will involve checking in with your parts and Metasoul/Galactic Aspects, helping you reunite with your Star Family, activating your Ascension Chakra vortexes, and much more… email soulfullhearts@gmail.com to book. For more information, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/galacticsessions

Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna (Kalayna is available to serve women 25 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

We Are UPgrading Our Service-Of-Love Consciousness

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by Kalayna Colibri

Our next level EVERYTHING’s are being invited UP now… next level of self-love, next level of service of love, next level of consciousness, awareness, seeing and feeling of the meta-picture holding us and it all…

You may not feel consciously ready for this, yet your soul is holding steady on its course. The trust that is inherent in you may not be something you or parts of you feel intimate with just yet, but it’s coming and it’s here already too.

Visiting with the Divine Mother this morning in the form of Sophia and Mother Mary brought this message to me for me yet for me to share as well. I feel how words themselves can be so hard to use to try and describe it all, yet the main thrust of the messages being brought in can be typed out here to the best of my ability… I’ll likely do a video later today to help bring out the frequencies I’m feeling coming in and through now.

Mother offers, “yes, everything is being invited to soften, to lengthen, to hold more space within you for the service of others. The sacred journey of self-discovery is one that is meant to open out into this place of offering a temporary space for others to lean into on their own journeys of healing and self-discovery. You are a step on a staircase for others’ Ascension just as they, in leaning into you, are a reflection for you and your own process. Whether this leaning is for a long time or a short time, comes in spurts and waves or in long-term flow, matters not much in the wake of their own very personal soul trajectory and story unfolding… all have much to offer themselves and others at this and all times.

Service of others is a calling while the service of love is an unending vocation that lives and breathes in you as you embody it more and more. It has no face, no glamour, no pulpit. It just IS… and it just serves as it does, moves as it does, clears and heals as it does, eventually moving to a place where it’s no longer ‘service’ but just life itself.”

11:11:11 was an important and potent portal for us all as we re-commit to whatever the process is inside that aligns us with the ever-awakening Golden/New Earth reality birthing. Much is being moved out in intense ways right now, showing up in weather and in the physical too. This is the purge that makes room for the new… and shows us all where and how we and the love we have to share is most needed to flow inside of each of us personally and with others too.

Time to BE with the UPdraft of movement into the new, the more expansive, the more super-conscious and loving self, heart, and soul.

Much, much love… ❤

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My beloveds and I offer Bridging Sessions if you feel you’d be supported by our energy and what we offer to help you bridge to yourself, your parts, your Metasoul, and your own service of love expression: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Photo by Matthew Meijer via unsplash.com

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

‘Returning’ To Service

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by Kalayna Colibri

It was several months ago I decided to bow out of serving actively for whatever amount of ‘time’ felt right, fully surrendered to the process I was in that had to do with service and space holding and my own love overflow that needed much tending to. You can’t exactly share a harvest that is only still in its seedling stage, though the potential and power of the garden itself is there to be felt, seen, and envisioned from the get-go.

The call to serve has lived in me since I was a teenager, if not even before that. I had to go down the route of the “performer” for a while in the name of self-discovery and necessary self-absorption to some degree. I had to venture down the highway of big conferences and spiritual events, thumbing my way to the next teacher and teaching that resonated, which fed the vision of being a sort of sage-on-the-stage. Over the last years of my personal healing process I’ve chosen to really look at this and differentiate from it, especially recently. I’ve realized where there has been more of a performer present than an integrous and heart-centered healer. For some healers, there’s not much difference and in some cases they actually need to be both. This is not what I’ve signed up to inhabit this life however and I would prefer to only be on a platform if I am bringing my heart and soul integrity fully with me into the fray and even the spotlight.

I’m choosing now to step back onto the stage and offer service to others on this beloved path we call “SoulFullHeart”, taking this humbling process I’ve been in along with me. I’m choosing to space-hold for young women age 25 and under only, for this phase. My life, healing, and Ascension experience I’ve had up until now could really serve those who desire to lean into it in a collaborative and empowering space. I’m here to be a love conduit for the Divine Mother and Sister. I’m ready to serve as the needs arise in others for my flavour of service! 🙂

If you’re interested in a Bridging Session with me or one of my beloveds (who serve both men and women), visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session for more info. They are one-on-one and are a $55 USD minimum donation.

Much love to you and your journey, wherever it takes you within and without! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.