Finding Genuine Empathy & Compassion Births Our Sacred Humanity

by Kalayna Colibri

Sometimes the cries of the world just need the space to move through your heart. It’s the tears of a benevolent universe that has witnessed and held all of the pain and trauma… that has felt and experienced it all along with us and wants to move through it, heal it, bring us all with it to something new.

It’s these moments, these poignant moments, of crying tears that aren’t necessarily ‘ours’ but are about what others have been through and in some cases are still going through as this world continues to transition and ascend. These crucibles have been chosen on a soul level in order to boost this-life healing and karmic healing from other lifetimes as well, yet this does not make them any easier to truly feel, to digest, and to somehow, by some miracle of personal will and soul bigness, find another side to.

I feel the oneness field which we all share and through which we can all experience what others have, whether literally or just in our hearts. This is the love field of Sacred Humanity. This is Home in so many ways.

I feel how these tears are what water the seeds of New Earth… actually, all tears we shed do this, especially when we are feeling them for the sake of our personal healing and experiencing a deep movement with a Metasoul or a part of us. We aren’t here to overhold the tears that others need to feel for themselves, yet to feel your heart open to feeling their pain WITH them is one of the deepest gifts of being alive and being human… and is what creates real intimacy and opens up the channel for more love to be exchanged between all of us.

Our compassion is worth feeling, starting out by feeling it toward parts of us and then overflowing it to others. It is worth the process it takes to move into this place of opening the heart and genuinely caring. It is worth all of the tears you’ll shed for your personal process as you then serve others in feeling theirs. And… it’s worth finding and feeling the parts of you that don’t feel compassion, that are blocked to feeling real care. These are the parts that need your love the most, and these are the parts that also hold the most gifts of genuine empathy for others.

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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Processing Rage Into Passion With Care

By Kalayna Colibri

Rage sometimes pours out like volcanic lava, ready to burn and melt down, create a reset or reboot as it moves through. We’re barely into 2019, yet already we are feeling what it’s pushing up… more to look at within, more to feel rage at but then find the real hurt and vulnerability underneath it. Anger and the parts that feel it need to be validated. It’s meant to help elucidate what isn’t ok anymore, what needs boundaries set around it, and what needs shifting in any area of your life.

Rage can also become an addiction, like anything else. It can be used by parts of you to self-medicate and avoid feeling vulnerability. It can also be used to avoid feeling others and your impact on them, which, even though they may answer your anger with their own and not seem impacted in a deeper way, they have been… as have you. Your anger has impact on your parts too, especially the ones that do feel more hurt and sadness, self-consciousness, ache for love.

There’s nothing to control here, but there’s a ton to feel and keep feeling. There are so many questions to keep asking. The fire of anger and frustration is needed in phases of awakening and moving forward in your life, yet ultimately it wants to be transmuted into passion and taken in the direction of creation, not destruction. The direction of love… heart-centered and fulfilling.

We cannot skip this step of truly feeling it and getting the good stuff on the other side of it. There’s so much it needs to rumble with yet also so much it needs to shift into as the dust and ashes settle on the new ground being birthed within. The rageful warrior inside holds an invitation to move into a role of ambassador of heart and soul, dropping the sword and baring the heart. This is important to remember, even as the fire burns you up from the inside and wants to spread into your outer world too.

There is ultimately no ‘other’, even when you feel opposition. And if that’s really true… there is always a ton of reflection to take in and be with, get real about, and start loving from these increasingly passionate places within.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Ascension Love Energies Invite Healing Of Contention In Our Parts And Metasoul Aspects

by Kalayna Colibri

The illuminating LOVE waves cascading over us now and always, are shedding light on the knotted places inside. The places that, when touched, send ripples of what have become knee-jerk triggers flowing through our hearts and bodies. Feelings of defeat or a need or contend, feelings of loss or a need to over-compensate for what has been lost, feelings of needing and wanting to “fight” – for revenge, for retribution, in defense, in anxiety – ultimately, out of fear on some level. Contention and the temptation towards it that parts of us and Metasoul Aspects have is the BIG one, it feels like. It has been the main default for when we feel reactions. It’s either time to go to war, or it’s time to hide. And the middle ground doesn’t often get navigated, for even to claim to be a ‘light” or “love warrior” still throws down the gauntlet and invites a battle of some kind.

Love, because it is SO powerful when it’s in its purest, most real form, has the power to elucidate this reactivity and does draw out the desires in parts and Metasoul Aspects to fight in some way, often against it actually, because genuine love is a challenging energy to let in and presses on all of the unworthiness within us. Sometimes we need to walk this out and obviously as a species, human beings have been attached to this sort of play out in conflictual situations for a long time now. We cannot fault or blame the parts of us or others who have embodied this, as we’ve all co-created it in so many layers and sometimes even in subtle ways, and, these parts have NEEDED these energies. Especially in the harsh reality of 3D where there is competition, abuse and violence on MANY levels, socio-pathic ferocity without consideration of its impact, and misguided use of power, so often rooted in an intense need for more self-worth and love within.

At times, contentious energies seem to pop out of us, sometimes unsolicited, sometimes fully invited. These energies and emotions, like any others that come through us in waves, sometimes need to take the floor. Choosing to make space for this, to own it and feel it and get curious about it too, opens to the door to much, much healing on this ground. To the degree that we have contention still brewing inside of us, quite often from part to part or very much alive in a timeline (or many) of our Metasoul Aspects, we will draw it, even look for it, on the outside.  In this incredibly complicated world that has been so violent and painful at times to face and be part of, reclaiming our power IS to go inward and become the loving parent to parts of us that so need a humble adult heart to lean into. We’ve all felt the distrust that arises and the lostness feelings of needing to claw our way up and out of the wells we’ve found ourselves in. Contention has so often been the only way that parts of us could grab onto to help themselves out of the well, often exacerbating the situation instead of resolving it, especially within where the real contention is and has always been…

With these Ascension love codes helping us feel all of this now, comes an invitation to continue feeling our next places and especially where those more contentious triggers within us are still living. We get to be with these energies as they live inside parts and Metasoul Aspects of us and help them find and feel a NEW way that lives in and from true self-love and an overflow of abundant compassion and love from us to the world and back again. This is the way of drawing the new day of the New Earth into our Now, not as an event to wait for, but a reality that emerges from within and contagiously and courageously flows outward.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Our Greatest Strength Lies In The Gentleness Of Our Heart

By Jelelle Awen

Someone thanked me recently on one of my energy updates for my “gentle explanations that are so helpful.” What was most touching about that for me was their use of the word, ‘gentle’. I will take ‘gentle’ over ‘accurate’ or ‘convincing’ any day. Gentle allows for the message to be received as an invitation rather than seemingly force fed onto anyone as an assertion. Gentle allows for personal resonance that comes from a place of sovereignty and empowerment. No one is bowled over with gentle….or disrespected or made to feel bad or wrong.

It has actually taken MUCH personal work for me (and parts of me) to be more gentle in my energy. To allow feminine energies of kindness and compassion to sooth wounded masculine frequencies that didn’t remember how to BE this way. These masculine aspects in me (and in the collective) only knew how to be forceful, how to fight, how to be a warrior.

It has taken much personal process to be gentle with my truths and insights. For parts of me to not judge myself so harshly that self consciousness keeps me from sharing my truth at all. For parts of me to shift from this intense self judging into loving discernment, heart-based and soul-based wisdoms that can be offered WHILE being open to alternative viewpoints and others realities. It has taken much inner process with parts of myself to offer my wisdoms that come from my own experiences without being contentious toward others.

Are you being contentious or are you being invitational? This is the question that I’ve been asking myself and parts of me for years now. Parts of me definitely had phases of being more contentious, of being just plain ANGRY…..especially when injustice was perceived or experienced. As these parts healed and relaxed and rested into compassion, then could they let go of the contention as it was just rooted ultimately in unworthiness, in shame, in distrust. They could let this go as they let go into love with ME (the Higher Self Me, the embodiment of Divine Feminine Me).

To be gentle is so undervalued in our 3D culture. To be gentle is the healing feminine in us all. The embodiment of the Divine Feminine’s gentleness that comes from a deep well of compassion for Herself, for others…..for YOU.

What place does gentleness have in your life and in your heart space? Are you gentle with yourself? Do you feel parts of you (especially what we call in SoulFullHeart The Inner Punisher) that are harsh and contentious with you? Do you feel gentleness toward others or do parts of you tend to get more charged and outraged?

To BEcome gentle requires trust that this softer frequency will be enough. To realize that gentleness actually HAS tremendous power in it. The power comes from being based in the openness and willingness to be vulnerable; to be seen; to be heard even with soft voice or soft heart leading.

I ache for our world to become more gentle….and I lead with this frequency in whatever ways I can. And I invite you too as well, as I feel the Divine Feminine inviting us ALL into Her gentle heart to receive Her modeling and to facilitate our own remembering.

 

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings athttps://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Energy Update: Sleepiness, Third Chakra Rumbles, Intense Dreams As Big Energy Surges Move Through

By Jelelle Awen

 

“Big Energy surges the last 24 hours with sleepiness, intense dream activity, solar plexus (3rd) chakra rumbles…..moving UP, going in.” I posted this as a status on Facebook this morning, receiving much resonant response already to it. This kind of statement is a precursor to the deeper feeling that I do into how cosmic energy activities may be impacting you on an energetic, physical, and (most importantly) emotional body level.
The energy surge of the last couple of days brings in a sense of constant sleepiness, feeling groggy no matter how much actual physical sleep you are getting. This can lead to sudden ‘crash’ naps that can last for a couple of hours and sleeping many more hours in a row than usual. Intense dream activity comes during these long sleeping hours to populate the landscapes, sort through subconscious emotions, and offer triggering scenarios to feel emotions that need digesting and processing.
You may have the sense during your recent dreams of truly BEing in parallel dimensions, alternative realities, and other timelines. There are these adventuring kind of dreams that act as portals to these realities that your Astral Self has access to. There has been so much bleed through from other timelines lately that this is also impacting our dream spaces. I write more about that here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2018/02/21/energy-update-timelines-bleeding-through-offering-deep-karmic-healing-and-unification-of-your-metasoul.
There are the dreams that seem to push up suppressed emotions of anxiety and unease, even terror sometimes. These don’t feel like nightmares, as much as energetic purges that move usually quickly if you’ve been engaged in shadow work healing and can consciously divert them before they turn into suffering loops.
Our third chakras are UPgrading from being personal will focused (or ‘service of self’ as some people and the Law Of One calls it) to service of others AND self through service of love. We are BEcoming service of love as the ascension process deepens and accelerates. We are moving out of ego-focused, 3D reality processing….and into self love focused IN ORDER to eventually overflow love with others from our healing heart.
The phase of BECOMING self love is what the collective is being invited to embody as well. This is not ego-obsession or selfishness, yet rather tuning into ALL parts of you that need your love and compassion in order to transform in an organic way into your service of love self.
The ultimate purpose of this transformation is not for self image-based glory or just for money earning or gaining influence over others, yet rather to serve love TO yourself and all those that need it to embody their service of love self too. This is about feeling a deep connection to the cries of the world even AS your attention can lovingly turn inward. You recognize in this that the source of your power to change anything on the outside comes from within you. You are serving the ALL when you serve yourself in this way.
These recent ascension energies are cleaning out the third chakra of the 3D conditioning that looks to the outside for identity and sense of self. They are moving you inward, to find your power center THERE. They are inviting you to feel your Inner Protector that has often ‘fused’ to the 3D externalized power structure out of necessity and self survival strategies. The Protector often ‘lives’ in the third chakra, along with the Inner Punisher as well. Through the SoulFullHeart process that we offer, the Protector transmutes to self loving boundary setting and guide to access ALL of your parts and your Metasoul/other timeline aspects. The Punisher transmutes to humble discernment, heart-based intuition, and wisdom. More about these parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
The Higher Heart chakra (a combination of the heart chakra and the throat chakra) has been receiving pulses of activations since the beginning of this year. The Higher Heart seems to be replacing the third chakra as the main energy center for which you process energy as you increase your vibrational frequency. Divine Feminine illuminations seems to facilitate and hold space for this process of transformation, along with galactic activations and connections with your Star Family and Metasoul Aspects. Healing your Star Seed woundings experienced during abductions (which are actually Star Family visits) is important to activate the Galactic Higher Heart.
Processing energy through your Higher Heart allows you to expand your capacity to feel the cries of the world with a deep compassion while remaining centered in self love. This process seems to be accelerating as frequencies of self compassion and forgiveness are most needed at this time. The Divine Mother provides these frequencies in a visceral way. She floods love into your heart space, your solar plexus space, your third eye space….all the spaces and places and parts inside that need it. Here is a guided meditation that I recently recorded offering these forgiveness frequencies with Divine Sophia: https://youtu.be/0yuiBDIp2Oo
We are being held in all these activations and integrations with Divine love for us and WITH us at all moments. Connect to this Divine love and support through your Higher Heart. This provides a heartline as you navigate the murkier waters, unify with your shadow aspects, and FEEL the emotions that are sometimes most difficult to BE with. This heartline offers a trusting frequency in the BIGGER process that is going on here….the continual embodiment of your sacred humanity AS love.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

Guided Meditation To Activate Your Higher Heart And Self Forgiveness W/Divine Sophia And Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Sharing the love! Here is a NEW guided meditation by me, recorded yesterday, spontaneously and in the moment….letting Divine Sophia energies come through, flood into my space, and into yours. I’ve been wanting to record a guided meditation with Her since the music that plays in this meditation ‘found’ me a few months ago. There is a beautiful bridge of our divinity/angelic nature in this meditation TO our sacred humanity and the BEST of what makes us human….our heart’s capacity for FEELING, forgiveness, and compassion.

These frequencies of self forgiveness that can then extend to others are SO needed right now as we journey into the depths of 4D (fourth dimensional or death/rebirth) transitional consciousness as a collective and individually too. Sophia reminds us that ‘we are already forgiven’ by the Divine as there is NOTHING that parts of us or Metasoul aspects of us are doing or being that isn’t part of Divine align.

The main energy of this meditation is creating the space to FEEL, to be with what comes up….to fall asleep with peace in your heart or to sob out what needs to come up and be released. I have always experienced that the Divine holds space for this range of my BEing and feeling and I am sharing that cocoon space with you here….

Here is the description:

SoulFullHeart teacher, facilitator and author Jelelle Awen leads us in a beautiful and touching guided meditation to connect with the Divine Feminine frequencies of Sophia. Sophia is the feminine bridge for humanity during the ascension process. Jelelle guides you through cleaning and connecting with your ascension chakras (seven main ones plus others), especially focusing on your higher heart. Higher heart activation is the focus of the ascension process on the energetic or subtle body level.

Sophia then leads you to a golden pool of self forgiveness, goodness, and compassion. Jelelle helps you connect with your Inner Protector part, who is invited to come along too. As you soak in the waters of goodness, Jelelle channels Divine Sophia’s inspiring message of affirming love, ready forgiveness, and your innate belovedness.

Here is another guided meditation with Jelelle Awen that she did during the recent lunar eclipse Supermoon to activate the Higher Heart with Divine Sophia and Metatron: https://youtu.be/UZ5OdHPqfPI?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

This is the music gratefully used in this meditation: https://youtu.be/tFTlr0wGdWw

To read more about the Inner Protector and other parts accessed in the SoulFullHeart process, read here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

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Ascension Invites Us To Feel Our Humanity And Serve Love With It Without Martyrdom, Self-Sacrifice

by Kalayna Colibri

We are learning to serve love, serve our fellow human beings in stride with love, through our humanity. This is why it can feel so hard sometimes to be around each other’s pain, let alone our own pain. So many attempts are made to bandage the wound instead of healing it because the sight of the festering is too much for parts of us to bear and reminds us intensely of our own places we still need to go. It can be a momentous effort to actually stay in the room with ourselves, let alone each other, and to try and offer any amount of love in that context can be so challenging for parts of us that really would rather try and not go there or look here.

There can be no ‘perfect healer’, at least not in human form, as far as I can feel it… we can work to become purer and purer channels of love through continued work on ourselves, in conjunction WITH service of others, which is actually the bigger mirror for us. We can be transparent and vulnerable with each other about where we are still needing to go inside of us, what shadows seem to be peeking up, what we have gone through and are walking out for the sake of our own healing. Perhaps one of the most beautiful things about our humanity IS our messes and our courage, our insurmountable, wonderful courage to just, keep, going.

I think we have been pre-disposed to going to battle, serving ‘god and country’ because we are actually quite wired for service, period, and instinctively know this, feel this, believe this! We are meant to be in the ‘trenches’, yet not in a literal sense… we are being called to the mistaken, old, worn-out battlefields within others to apply medicine of heart and soul balms. Yet we are called to our own inner worn-out battlefields first. Peace cannot begin to move through our world without this, without our efforts to heal our own hearts and not transcend them or ask anybody else to transcend theirs either. Humanity cannot begin to mature beyond this mentality of needing to fight, needing to ‘other’, needing to find opposition in order to find itself, without looking inward on an individual basis first.

The singular agenda for humanity as a whole feels like this piece of remembering that we are of service… and what this even means. What is service without martyrdom, without self-sacrifice, without climbing up onto a soapbox to shout at the obscene and unfair crucibles of the world, without going to war or battles? What does it mean to be human and still serve love from the deepest hearth of our hearts, admitting when parts of us feel fear, shame, sadness, anger, rage and finding the vulnerability in being with that? Sometimes loving others means setting boundaries. Sometimes healing others means allowing, showing them they have the power to heal themselves, with the genuine love and support that comes from authentic soul family/tribe connections and a heart-based connection with the Divine that is not theoretical but felt and experienced.

How to serve other human beings while serving our own selves and our own humanity is an unfolding quest, actually, and an unavoidable one at that. In SoulFullHeart, we offer parts work and this is what works so deeply for us, as everyone, even and perhaps especially the people we serve, are all reflections for us to take in, of where we’ve gone inside of ourselves, what we’ve already cleared and healed, and what we have left to clear and heal, too. Yet we are also always learning more and more what works best for us, who we are meant to serve, and how. I doubt there could be any human healer on this planet who isn’t meant to feel this humility of not always kNOwing what’s best for another soul, for this is what invites us all into deeper collaboration with each other and with the Divine, who is always working through all parties involved in the healing effort, finding, rediscovering and ultimately healing Itself back to wholeness too.

This all makes serving love as a human being a trial at times and rather challenging, yet we keep going into it because we know, we trust, that LOVE is worth it, that everyone on this planet (and beyond!) is worth it… that WE are worth it. We are heading in the direction of love with every feeling space given to ourselves and others, and with every ounce of our vulnerability we bring to ourselves and the world around us. We are goodness, we are Angelic, we are the ones here to move along with Ascension and love along with Ascension. We are of service. We are beacons. We are amazing. And so it IS. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Transmuting The Fear-Based ‘Love’ Lens Of Modern Spirituality, Starting Within

by Kalayna Colibri

love transmutation

It’s becoming more apparent than ever, how ‘love’ has been offered in very many different spiritual healing modalities and practices, and yet not lived into deeply by those who are teaching about it. What becomes very intense to feel, is the way in which love is often mixed in with intense amounts of fear and non-vulnerable responses to others and especially to the self. Words like ‘unconditional love’ are offered, yet often coupled with energies of shaming, criticism, and judgment, subtle or not. Judgment and punishing energies come from parts of us that need our love and attention and their intensity is often off-gassed, put onto others without a sense of personal accountability or consciousness. Judgment, in and of itself, is not ‘bad’ and, in fact, has been a necessary thing when it comes to moving through 3D life, and with work, it can heal to healthy discernment and a letting in of deep compassion. The primary energy though with which we tend to hold judgments is another thing entirely and is typically an expression of a need for more time within you. Healthy discernment and expressions of intuition come from many years of working with Inner Punishers/Judgers, which is a powerful way to find your authentic sense of compassion and Love too, starting, always, from you to you. Until these frequencies are given space to heal within, they actually can run through every area of our lives, dulling our sense of wonder at ourselves let alone others, and taming our reality of and access to higher frequencies of Love.

It has been really coming to light lately, that heavy-handed judgments from healers who are supposed to be offering deep healing to others are actually the norm. There are judgments and invasive read-outs being offered that are disguised as ‘love’ and assumed to BE ‘love’ by those receiving. There have also been SO many fear-based messages given without consciousness and often touted as channellings. Indeed, what we have learned is ‘love’ and have felt to BE ‘love’ so often misses the mark and is actually based in immense fear…. understandably so in some ways, given how harsh and challenging 3D reality has been, yet this reality is being invited to shift in every moment of our ever-expanding consciousness and our ever-opening and healing Sacred Human hearts.

Perhaps this is one of the main sources of pain in all of our bodies, physical, emotional, etc. right now during this phase of Ascension… we need to clear ourselves of the false love we have taken in from so many, so we can re-calibrate and learn what real Love IS… and that the only source of ‘unconditional love’ we can rely on is inside of us and with the Divine. It IS possible to experience deep love in ALL relationships outside of ourselves and in fact, we need to hold out for it, settle for nothing less than it, and we also need to let go of the label or expectation of it ever being ‘unconditonal’ when coming from another. We can recognize each other as expressions of Infinite Love and feel Love and authentic compassion for each other based on this picture, yet this can only really happen if we can feel this inside ourselves first in all ways and in all parts of us too.

The Love we are truly made of and deeply wanting more of, consciously or unconsciously, is right here, waiting for those moments of entry into us. The more we choose to express Love within ourselves, including being with parts of us that need us and Metasoul Aspects too, but also including the food we eat, the ways in which we treat our bodies, the meditation practices we sit in, and the relationships we have and inhabit. There is so much that Love, in all of its many shapes, colours, and textures, wants to come into you and show Itself for what it really is and how it really feels when it is truly, authentically, REALly there inside and beside you… ❤


If you are ready to begin or continue the process of going deeper into your own Love overflow that offers you a real sense of PURE Love starting within, you can have a look at: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess and feel into having a free 30min intro session with one of my beloveds or myself. We would love to support you on your journey and the nourishment of doing so, so goes both ways! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Conversation With My Spine: Day Three- Feeling And Healing With Compassion

Osteopathic belly massage.


M: Good afternoon, spine. This has been a hard day.

S: Yes. A lot to take stock of. The spasms are a tough one to be with. I can feel the storm of energy that swirl in them. They remind me of solar flares. Interesting that they are in your solar plexus area.

M: I was catching that today. So much of a feeling of powerlessness, lack of control.

S: That feels significant to me. The wounded masculine heartspine is so very focused on control. The arising of the Yin will challenge that control in a very invitational way, but the old Yang can only see it as an opposite control. It is a sad state of lost in translation. One that is aching, no pun intended, to be healed and balanced within you and the collective. Let`s keep it personal today though. I feel that is where you need it the most.

M: Yeah, for sure. After all that has happened to me physically the last 6 months in regards to romance, it is all a clear indicator a part of me has some major resistance to going in. With the others in the past it felt as if I was trying too hard to feel something that just wasn’t there. But even that feels like a resistance too. With Kalayna, it has this potential for amazing heights yet here I am in a state where I can only feel pain and not love flow. It is a convenient way for a part of me to go back into a bubble. Then of course comes some guilt as well which really only serves to widen the space and block the love.

S: This type of romance is so unknown to your soul it feels like Gabriel. That you have many metasoul lives of tragic romance and if this has played out several times between both of your souls then it does make sense why a part of you, your protector, would feel major reservations. It has been easier for many of your aspects just to go solo and never let in the kind of love that can take you to realms forgotten.

M: When I feel my protector, he says that is very true. “Why go in when it only winds up in a tragic ending?” I feel where my heart wants to respond to this, provide the healing space for it, so that it can release and I can offer more of what I know I feel for her and to be able to let in more. In the moment I am feeling this goes the same for my protector’s relationship to the Divine. It has a been an up and down experience for him and I am feeling a more devoted time spent holding him in that.

S: I feel you are speaking to the collective spiritual wounding here as well, Gabriel. It is important for others to feel their own protection against love is also a protection against the Divine.  There is no greater press on our hearts than a romance that is centered on vulnerability and sacred sexuality. Takes you to the doorstep of your own fear and shadowland.

M: I am beginning to feel how this physical manifestation is in response to that. I feel a compassion in my heart around that now, whereas before I was feeling judgement and the fear of the pain itself. This is a portal in new territory that my heart has long “forgotten” or attended to with deep reverence and curiosity. The gift in all of this is arising new for me in the moment and that helps a part of me to rest into it more. Thank you, spine.

S: My pleasure, Gabriel. This is all happening in my backyard, amigo, so I too want to feel it resolve and integrate for you. To inherit all the GOODies you are being invited to let in and embody emotionally, spiritually, and physically. It has been a long time coming for your weathered and worn protector. All protectors for that matter.

M: It is a brave new world for us all, isn’t it? To take all this fear and show up to it with our compassionate and self-loving heart. To be willing to let go of all the things that parts of us have held on so tightly to in order to maintain some smaller version of ourselves that was sacred in its own right. It has actually taken more energy to continue the protection than it does to surrender to the vulnerability of the fear of love itself. I am feeling a new admiration for it all and expanded sense of the nature of my current condition…that it is all energy in a compressed and guarded state.

S: That feels like a big felt awareness toward the road to recovery and integration. The personal process that includes your 3D and 4D selves that also connects to the larger context of the birthing of the sacred human BEing. No simple road to take, yet not one that goes in circles either. It is a hero’s journey you and everyone are on to get to the heart of the heart and the soul of the soul. The challenges are different for all and this just happens to be one that you dialled up to get you there. Feel the sacredness of it all and the healing shall follow.

M: I will take those words with me through my day as I connect and feel the parts within me that need my love. I so appreciate our daily connection, spine. I am wanting to call you another name but I feel it is still important to connect you to what is current with me.

S: That is okay, Gabriel. That will be in time. Though in the moment I like LIghtnin’ Rod Steward.

M: I am almost afraid to ask….but I am going to step in it. What?

S: I am like a lightning rod, man. Moving energy from the heavens the earth below. I am a great alchemizer, brother! A spring-loaded love apparatus stewarding megawatts of joy and creativity, partner.

M: Oh….wow.  I don’t think I have any words right now.

S: That is what I am sayin’.

M: Um….yeah. Let’s chat later….Rod.  Oh, good grief.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Illumination And Disclosure Through Crisis And Chaos

by Kalayna Colibri

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Disclosure is happening on all sides and inside too… the thing with crisis is that we have needed it. We have needed it in order to illuminate what’s been happening inside of us and also in our relationships and the people around us. There is nothing like a death in the family, for example, to bring to light the true colours of parts within each family member – how you respond to each and every event in your life, is a chance to look into a mirror, no matter how extreme or intense the event is. What parts of you would rather pave over, pretend isn’t there STILL, even though it is staring you in your very eyes, is a choice that often leads to more drama, more crisis, more chaos. It’s not about going down the road of self-punishment, either… so many do this, often without realizing this is what’s happening on some level of their being. Often this inner response is so ingrained that it just feels normal.

This response is what spills over into a lack of genuine compassion for others who are walking out the crisis too. This response is what keeps you from feeling others AND yourself in a deeper way.

Whether you feel you are a lightworker or not, there is so much to let in around what real compassion looks and feels like. Anything that is dismissed as ONLY ‘victim mentality’ or ONLY anything else, is a black and white conclusion that does not serve love in the way your most genuine heart intends to. Others are suffering and their parts need to be felt inside of the pain before they can heal the victim within. Spill-over of self-punishment and criticism frequencies is something very powerful to watch and feel for, happening in the wildfire raging within, coming from parts that feel the crisis environment and aren’t sure how to be with it…

There is so much to be discovered within, within, withIN… there has been so much need for drama and crisis as more disclosure takes place and there will likely need to be some more because the light it casts into the darkness is the most powerful gift we could be given during these times. It does feel like eventually we won’t need this chaos anymore, and indeed we will draw it less individually if the chaos is felt and heard and healed within… one felt step at a time. 

 


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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.