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SoulFullHeart Patreon Money UPdate – May & June, 2018

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By Raphael Awen

My goodness, we have been enjoying a new and rising money tideline and timeline these past two months and I wanted to tell you about it.

In the past few months, we have been able to purchase a whole list of goodies, over and above our regular living expenses. It took me a while to remember them all.

  • 1 new iPad
  • 3 new to us, Macbook Pros
  • A new set of sorely needed 4 tires for Vida – our Van
  • A new battery for Vida
  • Dentist cleanings and checkups for all five of us
  • Passport renewals for Gabriel and Jelelle
  • And, Gabriel and Kalayna have been able to rent a much nicer place!

It has felt like an ongoing and magical journey to have left all known regular money sources behind as well as our geography back in 2014, land on an off grid ranch for 19 months where we depleted our nest egg, and then to begin again!

Gabriel and Kalayna have been teaching english part time for the past two years and recently, Raianna and myself (Raphael) are also teaching english online in the mornings to children in China through an app called Palfish. Here’s a link if you might be interested: https://www.ipalfish.com/klian/web/dist/teacher/mobile/invite/teacher_invite.html?uid=5202379

We really wanted to be transparent about it all as an inspiration to others feeling a similar call to launch out into new ground where money and livelihood is concerned.

May’s numbers (in USD) for the 5 of us and SoulFullHeart looked like this:

$3,341 – English Teaching Revenues

$2,038 – Income for SoulFullHeart Sessions

$     46 – General Donations

$5,442 – Total Revenue for May

And June’s looked like this:

$5,007 – English Teaching Revenues

$1,887 – Income for SoulFullHeart Sessions

$   127 – General Donations

$7,021 – Total Revenue for June

I know these numbers still seem small for 5 people (even though they are steadily growing)  compared to what we used to live on in Vancouver, but what is so meaningful and magical to us is how alive it feels to be living in our passion purpose where livelihood and money is concerned. None of us have any feelings of being in dead end jobs, or old timeline careers that we need to ‘pay the bills’. All of it is sacred service and meaningful as each of us arises into new personal and group alchemy – manifesting on the outside what’s becoming more and more real on the inside.

The English teaching has provided us with an integrity bridge where we don’t feel pressure to serve people in SoulFullHeart session space who aren’t a fit for the work, but whom we need to make ends meet. In other words, we don’t have to ‘monetize’ SoulFullHeart.

This ground feels like it is ripening for so many people. Intuitively, we can get that the most secure financial plan would be to tie our financial needs to offering our deepest gifts in the world, but how do we embrace and walk out the steps to live that way? We can also get that offering something less than our deepest gifts in the world – ie. staying at a job that pays the bills, but suppresses our gifts, is not wise choice in the long run, but again, where and how does one begin to live their way into that?

Our approach to this that we live in every day and that we serve others to live their way into, is to get to know the parts of themselves in a deep and personal and nourishing and life changing way. It’s all in the relationship our parts of ourselves have to money that forms our patterns around money and livelihood. As we do this, previously unimaginable new possibilities open up as the stuck places shift and securities realign into new realities.

The word ‘career’ is a hint at this. The word means ‘to call’. Heeding the call is sacred journey. Entering one thing and leaving another is the journey that never ends. Money is probably the most grounded area to relive our way into new ways of life. If it can work in the money area, it can probably work in a whole lot of other areas, right. Someone once said that ‘money doesn’t lie’, and after all – it’s only energy, and all energy is sourced in love. Love doesn’t lie. It invites us into new realities.

We all want to say a big thank you to our supporters and the individuals who send us money! Thank you. Thank you. Thank you!

It feels important to acknowledge with gratitude the people and circumstances that have opened us out to this point, as we reach for our next places of wish list to inhabit:

  • We will be hosting regular monthly group circles here in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico for people who are working with us to attend.
  • We are beginning to hold regular retreats here in Vallarta beginning this November as well as other locations in 2019 – Glastonbury, England; Vancouver, Canada and more.
  • Raphael and Jelelle hope to leave behind their current apartment here in Vallarta in favor of a nicer place soon.
  • Dentist work totaling 4,200 USD

Any and all love received in the form of money is treasured and so welcome!

Thank you deeply and dearly,

Raphael

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Sacred Union Looks So Good On You!

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A ‘Sacred Union’ can be simply defined as a sacrificing or giving up of your reality to make way for a new and arising reality.

Jelelle and I like to say that we are in a Sacred Union bond, and we feel that this is powerfully true, but there isn’t any spiritual ‘Sacred Union board of governors’ who can certify that this is or isn’t true. What makes it true for us is the sacredness and reverence that we bring to the bond as individuals, that then transacts mutually and opens out a bliss that we only dreamt of previously in our imaginative reach for what we most deeply desired. It is simply, our deepest dreams coming true, and then as that happens, continuing to dream deeper still.

This is the sacred sacrifice…the willingness to feel into your deepest desires and imagination of what your deepest bliss of a Sacred Union could look and feel like…in as many ways as you can imagine. The sacrifice comes into play as you are willing to let go of what you presently have (or don’t have) in favour of this deep inner all-consuming yearning.

Men are more wired (so we’re told) to do this sexually, and for men, that’s as good a place as any to open the imagination. What would heart and mind blowing sex look and feel like to you, and then because there are another 23 hours left in the day, what would being in life and love and that drippy sex glow look like and feel like to you? How willing are you to admit that you really want THAT? How willing are you to be ‘pierced through with your own desire’ and to pursue that… in real life, in real time, with a real woman? Only in that willingness are you willing to sacrifice your present reality to own and enter and alchemize a new one.

As a woman, what would it feel like to be with a man who is so into you, as the woman of his deepest dreams, who fully claims you and your arising life together that nothing comes a close second to the bliss of your Sacred Union bond?

Can you feel how you are the creator here? Sacred Union is not some spiritually attained place that you somehow pop into and suddenly you are hereafter declared enlightened. You ‘enlighten’ your path here one grounded and ever so fulfilling sacred step at a time.

When others look at Jelelle and I with admiration, they may feel a contrast between where they are at and where we are at and see us as having what they want, but this is them projecting their own heart and soul bigness onto us temporarily for safe keeping while they ‘go-in’ to their own heart and soul work to make the choices and feel all there is to feel to take this journey. The exciting thing in all of this is that once you begin that, you are on the Sacred Union path that IS the bliss, even if you are single, regardless of what your ‘attainment’ is or isn’t just yet. The humility and reverence you bring to the opportunity to be in this mutual reverence is what brings the ongoing deepenings.

You’ll have plenty of your own ‘out of this world, and don’t quite know where to file them’ kind of experiences soon enough, along with deepening healing challenges as well to invite you deeper into Sacred Union. You’ll need the conditioning too of these first initial courageous claims of what it is you most deeply want, to be in shape, so to speak, for the next steps. You are entering and choosing the domain of taking the sacred responsibility of manifesting your deepest dreams, knowing this is your sacred calling in the universe.

Can you think of anything more fun than that? Even whatever hell you need to go through to get here pales in comparison. You, in Sacred Union bliss are worth it all!

Sacred Union looks so good in you and on you!
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Why Ask Bliss For Anything More?

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We embraced experience.

We embraced the experience of limitation to contrast our infinity; of time and space to contrast with our timelessness; of preference to contrast with our complete and total ambivalence; of awakening to contrast with our very deep and restful sleep.

Why would anyone or thing wish to awaken from the best sleep imaginable? Why ask bliss for something more?

Bliss realized that it was in motion, that it wasn’t static, that it was on a mission, with a purpose of expansion. It wanted to know and experience what it couldn’t know and experience unless it tried through you.

You are this bliss out having a field experiment, with some control limitations and observations going on; all the things that go on in a scientist’s laboratory. What can we come to know that we don’t already know?

We know there is something more, we just don’t know what it is!

You are this more. You are this riddle. You embraced this world of conditioning and ‘limitationing’ to exercise and exorcise your Godhood out into a fuller light of brighter day.

Now that you’ve done all of this; gone to all this trouble, will you follow through to take notes of what you are experiencing? That was the whole point of the experiment; to give yourself to the ‘solving’ of the riddle. If in the process of solving the riddle, you expand the riddle, then you have solved the riddle.

The riddle is that love and life wanted to be seen and noticed, rather than solved. It wanted to be pursued without ever being fully caught.

You get to be in never ending awe and wonder. You get to be in love, ever falling, ever in longing, ever wet with desire and appetite.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Feeling – The Portal Back To Essence

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We only struggle with attachment to lesser things, because of our loss of familiarity with the greater things that we once knew, but struggle to remember.

Most of us have no conscious recall of those greater things, and those of us who do, must be patient with what feels like a very slow pace to a part of us who just wants to ‘fully remember already!’ Yet, the evidence is plain; only someone who’s suffered loss could attach to and treasure so intensely things that don’t really nourish.

Whether it’s a relationship with friend, mate, or family, or an attachment to a geography, or a house, or a career, we increasingly feel it as a stuck place that wants to relate without the intense attachment if we could only find a way to loosen up.

This kind of tight gripping that doesn’t allow much room for breathing, is further proof that we suffered some loss that polarized us to this over grasping in relationship.

Why can’t we relate with an open heart, willing to let come and willing to let go? Why can’t we long for things and be okay with them coming or not coming, with them coming sooner or later? Why do we need to have it now and why do we need to preserve it from loss or change at all costs?

As I was going about my day, one day this week, I was aware of a sadness in my field. As I lay down to rest and feel into it, I felt a distinct young part of me longing for return to something lost. Tears came from several parts of me inside wanting to open out past some internal barrier of forgetfulness, wanting to see and feel clearly just what is this loss. As I shared with Jelelle later, she offered to hold some space for this part of me, and I was quite surprised by what came next, as some of the deepest tears that I’ve ever known rolled out. I was taken back to my boyhood town and a knowledge that something magical occurred there with starbeing contact, that was then later closed down as I needed to enter a phase of going all into 3D life, Christianity, marriage and family life.

I was able to see again how my later life stages and roles of exemplary and motivated Christian, husband, father, and self employed contractor were all motivated by a subconscious seeking to return to a bliss that was lost. I was able to feel some subconscious motivation even affects all of my relationships to this very day.

This kind of remembering and the digestions that occur in these moments have been happening more and more for me as I awaken. This requires a willingness to feel and go into pain and sadness. The expectation that awakening should be ‘beyond suffering’ or just be bliss all the time is a deterrent to our actual awakening.

I believe all of us have this longing to return to bliss in one form or another, and even in several forms inside of us. As we garner the courage to get in touch with it and the strength to consciously hold such great longing and desire, it is in this ‘relationship with’ that we weren’t able to have before, where some magical strides occur for us in our growth.

We get to be here and we get to feel every feeling there is to feel. We get to feel every part of us holding trauma, whether something so stark as sexual abuse or something so off the radar as this loss of our source bliss from which we came.

Feeling is the tipping point. Feeling is the graduation point that harvests the purpose and intention of why we surrendered to our human experience, as well as why we surrendered to our perceived separation from the divine experience.

It is in feeling the sorrows where we find the direct portals back to our joy, and to our indescribable essence as infinite love.

 
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Inescapably Contained By Love

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Every part of the whole contains the whole. Without you, the whole would be incomplete.

You are wholeness that has been made into a person, or personified. You are consciousness that has been channeled and breathed into an individuated human being. You are part of the divine and you are all of the divine. Both are true. The divine chose to express as you and through you.

Feeling and adopting this as your truth, as your reality, that you are so inescapably, safely and magically tethered into this lifeline of love, you are now free to roam into any domain of your life that feels like it lacks love.

The fear melts away as you with curious and open heart reach out to every part of you that comes into your awareness that lacks this awareness of love. No darkness can extinguish this light. No seeming absence of love can dis-acknowledge this presence of love. You now reach out into every domain of your consciousness, both in inner feeling states and in the outer circumstances of your life, to establish this dominion of love.

Going inward or outward makes no difference, as both contain the whole here as well, and both reflect each other magically in the same way. The more we examine their apparent distinction, the more we see and feel their oneness.

A dis-ease in the body draws our attention to a dis-ease in the heart. An external battle makes us aware of an internal battle just off our radar. An absence of anything externally calls us to realign and reawaken to the fullness of everything internally.

We are magical beings beyond description! This utter fullness of being, this inescapable wholeness of being is what gave us the courage to venture out into the illusion of something less-than. We ventured our total more-than reality on a less-than illusion, in order to become even more than the fullness that we already were.

We are love becoming more, and we are doing that through our individuated human consciousness being expression, at least for the moment. Who knows how many more being expressions await us to inhabit?

Breathe in and feel how inescapably you are contained by love. You are from love and to love. You are by love and of love. You are with love and missed by love. You are love-in-wanting to happen, and love-in-waiting to happen. You and love are one and the same.

Go be in love!… happily happening!

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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We Are All Multidimensional Explorers

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Every last one of us are multidimensional, meaning we exist on more than one plane. Most of us however are not aware of it, and those of us that are aware of it, are left in a place of wanting, even craving to open our awareness of these other states of being into our more normal waking consciousness.

We become more and more like true explorers, filled with curiosity and wonder. How did we arrive to even being aware on and of ANY level, let alone these unexplored levels? How can we open ourselves further and faster to what wonderworlds lie before us?

One piece I feel that answers these QUESTions is feeling how prone we are, and understandably so, to normalize phenomenal experiences. When you first learned to walk, it was celebrated and photographed. But when was the last time anyone or yourself took notice of this incredible ability of yours to walk? If you pause for a moment to contemplate how amazing it is that you can walk, that you are a physical being, who came from a single cell, all the way to possessing the ability to walk, an awe and wonder reopens that was closed off by this need we have to normalize wonder.

I guarantee you that when we all find the ability to teleport, we will after not too long, be kind of ho-hum about it. It’s just what we do. Your ability to walk is no less amazing than an ability to teleport, it’s just that one has become common to us and the other hasn’t.

It seems we need to do this normalizing of phenomena to be able to navigate the phenomena. We’d be like total stoners if we couldn’t. But being like a total stoner is an option we can retake to ourselves when we are ready to re-enter the awe and reverence of the thing that we normalized. Wanna get totally stoned?…just consider that other dimensional beings would consider it really cool if they could bump into walls, while we on the other hand we would consider it really cool if we could walk through walls. It’s all about what we’ve normalized and made familiar.

If this is true, then your ability to bump into a wall is really amazing stuff and no less amazing than the ability to walk through walls. It’s about our need on one hand to leave the realm of awe and wonder long enough to alchemize desire and curiosity to expand our dimensionality, and then to re-enter that world of total awe and wonder. This dimension is really cool, but what about all the others that I don’t begin to know? Moving from normalcy to the abnormal, from the familiar to the unfamiliar, seems to be the anti-gravitic device that allows us to travel to realms beyond the one we’ve been tethered to.

Boredom and ho-hum is what we use to anchor us to a given dimension. Awe and reverence is what we use to awaken us to attempting our first steps in new dimensions.

The universe is so inviting you and I out to PLAY. The universe is a total child at heart, and doesn’t begin to know where all this is heading, but so wants to find out. It wants to find out through you and me.

 
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Happy Solstice Day

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Solstice

When the Sun, Sol, Soul, goes into stasis, stillness, stops; Solstice…

This is probably the best example of what it feels like to hold space for a part of you.

When you go still, when you stop all vibrations coming from you, when you stop generating any noise; in that moment, you can hear and feel and see all the noise, vibrations and sounds that are around you, or ‘in your field’ without being them.

You are holding still space.

What’s cool about this, is that a higher self version of you, which YOU also ARE, is the one that can go still. This higher self you then holds the space for the parts of you that can’t go still in that moment.

You don’t have to stop the noise. You just need to be willing to stop to hear the noise.

In the stillness, hear and feel all the nuances of the waveform sounds coming at you. A jackhammer from construction or birdsong in a nearby tree – go into it. What’s under the noise? What is there to feel? Feel your emotional landscape in the same way.

Then notice in the stillness, what moves or happens as a result of your alchemical stillness. What shifts in your presence as you let go of consciously holding still space and return to the focus of tasks or goals?

Imagine that. Things happening in the stillness, and as a result of the stillness! Of course it is, because even complete stillness is sourced in love, which isn’t still or passive in any way.

Love is in hot pursuit of you, and not in any ambivalent ‘I’ll be here when you are’ kind of stance towards you. Love is aching to connect with you, heart, soul and body.

Stillness is the voice and vibration of love that you can enter as your birthright, as often as you wish, where you can stay for as long as you like.

Happy SOLSTICE day!

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Our Inevitable Growth

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Growth occurs naturally. It’s built in. You have to go against nature and really work at it to slow it down or stop growth.

And even then, there really isn’t any such thing as stopping growth, because ultimately all steps backwards become steps forward, as we digest them and they become composted into our next growth trajectories.

However, parts of us can sure suffer in this illusion of efforting trying to hold back our growth. You are a growth Superman, a growth Wonderwoman. You came here to grow, even if by nothing else, than learning how to relate with your own power to attempt to resist growth.

So how could we self lovingly become more aligned with our built in native growth wiring? How could we spend less on efforting resistance and instead allow ourselves to be in more natural easy flow?

For those of us who consciously ache to grow, how could we settle into more native trust and rest around our growth?

We know it would look like more trust and rest, less anxiety, more childlike Joy and stuff like that…., but how do we ‘get’ there?

You get there by wanting it. You get there by holding the QUESTions. ‘But, how do you ‘do’ THAT’, you might well ask?

My truth is that the only real way to do that is to feel the part of you who doesn’t want to grow, who wants to stay stuck for its own reasons. Open your heart with curiosity to the parts of you who have their own valid reasons for resisting growth. What you learn and discover in getting to know these parts and their motives is that they are coming from love as they know it and feel it.

This is a strange feeling to go into feeling the part of you who doesn’t want to grow as this exercise becomes a supercharged entry into your deepest growth.

The solution isn’t overcoming your resistances to growth, but rather embracing them. Now, we find and feel how the resistance was necessary to growth and even part of the natural cycle.

Even a seed has a necessary hard and impenetrable shell for the time that it is needed to take it to the next place.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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I Am The Bright, Bright, Bright, Light Of God

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I am being filled with new wonder and appreciation lately for how powerful a creation frequency are the words coming from our mouth. And then feeling how it’s not just the words coming from our mouth, but quite possibly even more importantly, the words processed internally that don’t need any physical volume to be just as powerful, if not more, in shaping the reality we live in.

Then when you couple this understanding with no longer using it to overcome or pave over unwanted emotions, but instead reaching out in words to the parts of ourselves who don’t feel very keen on a positive thinking/positive speaking exercise, then this really goes somewhere.

I had embraced this message quite deeply in my 20’s and then let it go because it was being related to so mechanically and the inevitable ‘word police’ showed up internally as well as in our social circles. The entire understanding hit our emotional growth ceiling, if you will and it just kind of floundered.

Now, it’s time to dust this awareness off and feel what wants to rise from those ashes.

‘I am the bright, bright, bright light of God’.

‘I am superabundant love and bounty’.

‘I have full access to every good thing imaginable’.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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You Are Surrounded

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You are surrounded by endless infinite love, but ‘why then,’ you ask, ‘does it feel like the opposite much of the time?’

Great question!

While our emotional body is easily able to dial in this infinite love feeling reality in any moment, it is rarely foisted upon us. And more often than not, there is a more challenging emotional reality that we feel in a way that feels like it is between us and our joy, or our bliss.

From the vantage point of seeing ourselves as the light and love beings that we are, it makes good sense that we came here for these kinds of challenges. We gave up our oneness with pure bliss to enter what feels like not-bliss so we could learn to appreciate, and then to navigate the difference.

What could be more valuable than being able in an ever increasing way to dial in any emotional state we desire and need, that doesn’t deny the state we don’t want, but instead answers it, fills it, and responds directly to it?

You see, love isn’t love if love is all there is. Love gets its feeling toned definition by comparative difference. We came here to navigate that gap of difference. The gap is the playing field. Without the gap, there isn’t any game.

And what better way to navigate any of this than by feeling the part of you who feels excluded from love’s bounty, and then inviting that part into your heart that can feel and access this love?

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.