In The Beginning Was A Story

By Raphael Awen

If a big part of your life feels boring, disengaged, blah, and nothing to write home about, then that’s what’s true to a part of you, but it’s so far from what’s true about you and your life.

Fused to this part of you, there isn’t any other truth. End of story.

However, in relationship with this part of you, where there is an emerging you differentiating from this beloved part of you, there is magical quest and journey to get to know and feel why a part of you would be closed down. Beginning of story.

This part of you has been off your conscious radar and has, in your absence, effectively taken your consciousness hostage. The words of your mouth are a dead give away. ‘I’m so bored…’ ‘I can’t figure out what’s going on.’ ‘I need some excitement’. Here, there’s no movement. There’s no space for movement. ‘It is what it is’, as parts of us like to say in resignation, furthering the spell they hold over our waking consciousness.

These parts of us know and have seen a whole lot more than our conscious mind can access. They have their own very valid reasons for setting up a non eventful and tamed existence inside of us. They’ve seen and experienced things that they prefer ‘you’ remain asleep to. The boredom or shutdown has self loving reasons for being.

Awakening to this spell you’ve been held under having been lured so deeply into the cult of Single Personality Disorder, you now begin a subtle, but very profound shift and rumble through your consciousness, and consciousness itself, by changing the waveform frequency broadcast coming from your mouth.

Instead of ‘I feel…’, it’s ‘a part of me feels…’. Now, with curiosity as our personal redemption, we’re getting to the plot of unfolding and eventful story.

Right here and now, you’ve altered the course of your history and herstory into an alternative dimension.

Word is ‘palabra’ in Spanish, and ‘parabol’ in Latin from which we get parable, or story. In the beginning was the word, the logos, the story, and the story was god.

Your life is a creator story, that you create, and to change your story, it will involve something so simple as a choice of words, a choice of parable, new script and scriptures, a new parable that is the spark that ignites fires that consume entire domains.

Even if you’re wanting to light your fire in the dead of a sleepy long cold wet winter, this alteration to the articulation of the frequency broadcast system of your BEing will lead to the opening out of the space for you make a great leap in your waking consciousness to begin to bridge to this wider and larger self version of you. You may not be ready to burn down an entire world when what’s needed first is a fire sufficient to warm hands and heart, leading to one self loving and felt step at a time.

This new world already exists, just maybe not in your present waking consciousness yet. This is good news. Your words don’t actually need to make up something that doesn’t already exist. They only need to dial in a different frequency, that creates a very different spell, a different story, a different reality. It’s still ‘a’ reality. None of us get to exit the realm of story itself, we only get to choose our story and change our story when and if we are ready to.

Part of me, once bored, now is really excited to get on with the journey before ‘us’, as in the story before all the parts of me, as well as the story before all the parts of us in the collective. These parts of me have been bridged to and related to and negotiated with. These parts of me once bored and shutdown are now eager and ready to return to full adventure and let in the events that want to eventualize and actualize our deeper and onward journey into the more that awaits me, and us, and You.

Much love,

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

1:1 Healing Sessions For Women With Jelelle For Year-End Support

By Jelelle Awen

I was asked today if I am offering 1:1 sessions with new clients, so it felt like a good time to post that I AM with more information about sessions with me for women. It’s been a joy to work with new clients/faciltants in bridging sessions again recently, to meet with those new to the SoulFullHeart process and the magical journey of working with parts of yourself and your soul. It’s like a honeymoon moment to first connect with these beloved aspects of yourself, to realize they have just been waiting there for you, so eager to be loved and so wanting to heal their fear.

As the year ends and a new decade begins, there can be quite a lot coming up to sort through and feel/digest (I will be sharing an energy update on this later). NOW is a powerful time to go into these deeper waters, beyond the conscious mind and the veil of amnesia to receive clarities from your soul/Higher Self/Higher vibrational soul aspects and your Inner Protector too.

You’ll be guided in a loving and gentle way by me and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman meet with women and men in 1:1 sessions, plus offer a 30-45 minute free intro call if you’d like to find out more about the process.) 1:1 sessions are 90 full and rich minutes over Zoom for $100 CAD (about $75 USD). Contact me via this blog if interested or soulfullhearts@gmail.com and here is more information here about questions to answer prior to the session: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

You can purchase a session here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/1bridging-session-w-jelelle-awen or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

I have session availabilities even THIS week if you are feeling more urgent too!

Here is a touching recent testimonial from a lovely and brave soul I’ve been working with for year now…….with more on our website!

“I’ve been having 1:1 sessions with Jelelle for almost a year now. When I started I was struggling badly with severe depression and intermittent suicidal feelings. I’ve been working with and through my issues in therapy for 20 odd years, and whilst I have tried a wide range of healing modalities, often my emotions were ‘too much’ for the facilitators I worked with. This reinforced the feelings I had experienced with my birth family, and others, of being too sensitive, too emotional and too difficult to deal with.

The difference I have experienced in working with Jelelle, has been her openness, willingness and deep dedication to her own process. She has herself moved through deep, dark shadow spaces and traumas, without judgement, and with ever deepening love for her inner parts and Metasoul. SoulFullHeart itself has been an organic evolution from her own process. Through this opening and deepening in love, she has transmuted and transformed her own life and experience, and offers that through the SoulFullHeart Process.

From this space, she has met me. With no judgment. Just deep soul understanding and an open and loving heart. And by doing that, through little steps, she is helping me to learn to meet myself, in all my aspects, from my inner parts to my Metasoul.

I don’t feel depressed any longer. I understand that a big part of my soul’s gift is learning to be with my own darkness and shadow, finding deep love and appreciation for it, as I then transmute the traumas that led to it, both in my inner landscape, and in my Metasoul. In this way, I have learned to appreciate the gift of my depression as a portal to my soul’s wisdom!”

Love,
Jelelle Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Love Has Places To Go In You That It Can’t Find Anywhere Else

By Raphael Awen

We couldn’t actually know love were it not for what feels like ‘not love’. We couldn’t know break through were it not for resistance. We couldn’t know joy were it not for sorrow.

Both polarities are needed and both are sacred. The Divine itself is living out these discoveries through us. Love has places to go in you, that it can’t find anywhere else.

The name of the game however is to not suffer over what we could relate to as our necessary suffering in this polarity dynamic we find ourselves in. How could we truly give love to all parts of ourselves who are struggling to find their way through the polarity?

Someone who seems naturally buoyant and happy all the time can be about that they ARE actually in a healthy flow state, OR it could be about parts of them using buoyancy like a drug used to not feel other aspects of their inner polarity that is pressing in on them, wanting to be felt. It’s pretty easy to tell genuine joy over this kind of ‘medicative’ happiness.

Another thing that surprises me is that I’ve discovered that genuine spiritual attainments are not necessarily one and the same with genuine joy in love and life. All too often, some genuine spiritual attainment or expanded state of consciousness can be detrimental to a person’s true fulfillment in relationships. So many spiritual seeker type people who’ve been around the block with spiritual teachers can attest to this dynamic in spiritual teachers. Does this mean they are fakes, or does it simply mean they have a lopsided awakening that’s awaiting some further awakening? My sense for all of us is that it’s the latter. We’re all in a never ending evolution.

If that’s true, then there really is a level playing field where our shared common denominator is this reverence for, and humility before, love’s ongoing unfolding – in polarity. We’re all in this together, yet as individuals. One person being ‘ahead’ is only a storehouse placeholder that belongs to all. Your adoration of someone who embodies a true spiritual attainment is actually being afforded a recognition of your future self. You get to download that attainment as you’re ready too, as your system can handle it.

Life – it’s in you to live!

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

I offer a free intro call for 45 minutes or so to discuss what working in ongoing sessions space with me could look and feel like for you and for where you’re at. There’s more info at the link above. If this interests you, I’d love to hear from you.

Recent Photo above by me! (I so love the fall season of death and rebirth AND I also find that I especially need to feel the parts of me in reaction to the intensity of the death and rebirth season, hence the grounding in nature)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Playing The Game of Hide and Seek

By Raphael Awen

In your seeking and awakening journey, a surprising finding occurs that ripples through your entire being.

You come to realize that not only are you the one with the desire to expand, to grow, to discover, to awaken, but that you are also the one responsible for your hiding and sleeping.

I believe that as a soul journeying through the illusion of time, you hid (past tense) your essence, so that you could rediscover (present tense) this essence and go on to become (future tense) something that you already were and never actually lost.

You can see this dynamic looking at your life journey so far, you can see it when looking at what you know as your soul journey. You can see it when you look at how you are journeying through a single day, or a single moment.

It’s like I’m in the boat, tossed to and fro on the stormy seas, only to realize that this grand tempest is inside of a teapot with none but my own hand on the handle.

But what then would be the purpose of all the dharma, the drama, and the trauma along the way? This is the bigger quest and question we are left with on the other side of this pivotal discovery, that I fear we best not be too quick to satisfy the quest of which with short pat answers lest we fall back asleep.

My deepest suspicion so far in an attempt to respond to this quest is that it has something to do with beginning to feel the edges of an awe and wonder that arises as I cycle in this phasing in and out of this ongoing forgetting and remembering.

Could it be that this is the process whereby infinite love is coming to know itself, through me and my up till now perceived ‘insignificant’ life?

And just how would this infinite love want to come to know itself through such an arrangement?

I believe that infinite love comes to know itself (satisfy its quest) in any moment that you as a conscious being reach out in love to another conscious being. We could call this making love in the truest sense of the phrase, as in how ‘Adam knew Eve’ in the biblical sense. This is love having a ‘from’ and a ‘to’ transaction that it couldn’t have were it not for a forgetting and a remembering. Both are equally necessary and both are equally sacred, and what they make for is something we call process. Love forgot (gave up something) in order to remember (bring back into membership). Love stepped out of itself in order to step back into itself.

And what ‘other’ conscious being would be the best one to reach out to? Your children, your friend, your mate, your siblings, or humanity in general possibly? These are ‘others’ right?

But wait, you’ve skipped over you. You are full of others awaiting your lovemaking. Your Inner Protector has been largely living your life as you in this absence of your now presenting higher self on the scene. You Inner Child who so wants to come back out to re-in-form your world with play awaits your outreach. Your Inner Teenager who wreaks havoc in your world from time to time only wants your attention in exchange for an energy source you’ve truly been missing.

Skipping over these others from within to reach out to the others without would have been deemed selfless up till now. Now, however, we are all seeing the falseness of attempting to give love to an other that we haven’t first given to ourselves – the many selves that live in our psyche and soul consciousness.

You get to make love with yourself. Truly, magically, profoundly. It’s about coming to terms in ongoing process and negotiation with a limitless world. You didn’t come here to awaken in a single moment. You came here to feel process, to feel each moment of the journey.

You have everything you need and the only valid teacher now is the one who helps you realize you need nothing. The phase of our codependence on teachers and belief systems, was necessary, but is now coming to a close for many souls who are at this stage in their process of coming to terms with being infinite love.

The love wants to flow and dance. Let it begin with you.

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

I’d love to help you find your inner guidance if who I am and what I offer calls to you. The link above will take you to more in-form-ation. 🙂

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Awakening In The Dream Of Our Lives

By Raphael Awen

Parts of me are getting really curious about time travel as well as teleportation. These parts of me, I believe are feeling the imminence of these things opening out into our consciousness. It’s what’s next for us collectively and it’s underway already.

Can you imagine what that will do to national boundaries, or to our consciousness being largely confined to a single planet to call home?

We’ve learned with our current technology to transport our voices as well as images of ourselves to any place on the planet. We’ve also learned through creative visualization to go to and experience another timeline or place with our consciousness. Most of us, however, are yet to bridge these experiences into a physical body relocation into other times future or past, or to another current location.

I’m being told that we are already in a time travel reality as well as a teleportation reality, we’re just somewhat habituated to one place on the dial. We are moving forward through time at a familiar pace. What happens when we learn to reverse the direction? I’ve learned that it’s quite easy to access your Inner Teenager or Inner Child and their reality regardless of what age one is. You find their timeline being and happening in the now. It is a form of time travel I believe to access these parts of you. This brings us how time itself is emanating from the now somehow, so by feeling the now moment that your current, past and future you is emanating from, you are given access to all of those yous. Try writing a letter to your future self and see if you get a response.

Wild, huh? To say the least! Parts of me are admittedly a little bored with the familiar, and so want to grasp the next pieces.

Your physical presence stuck in one location as you and I have become overly familiar with is similar in that you are not a physical being as you’ve thought yourself a physical being. You are a consciousness broadcast that materializes somehow – think holograph.

This all sounds wild to our current conditioning, but when you feel into it, you can feel your heart opening to it. Your desire begins to awaken and a portal is being created.

Another way of seeing these things is that they are all just unfolding phenomena of the one Infinite Creator unfolding in us. You and I are having our own localized experience, timeline and personal history – and that too is a projection or broadcast. The Divine needed the data of all of our individuated soul journeys, including through our present 3D consciousness with what now feels like limitations.

The phenomena of the confining feeling is just as magical as the breaking out of it. The Divine needs all of that data.

And here’s another thing. Do you notice how we all normalize and soon take for granted breakthroughs of consciousness? Cellphones have become quite boring to many of us, even repulsive when we feel enslaved by them, and yet they are a wonder of our current timeline. We joke about people being on or in their phones at a restaurant table instead of with the people they are with, and how true this is. The phone is a portal to take you somewhere other than you are, not a bad thing in and of itself, but something to bring our awareness to, in order to relate to its power and potential in ways that we truly desire instead of resent.

This so shows how what we give our attention (consciousness) to is a portal to that place. Less and less external technology is needed to get us somewhere.

If you really creatively visualize a favorite food, and the perfect setting to have that food in, and the people you’d like to be with or not while having that food, it’s not that difficult to get your mouth to water, right? Yet, no actual food or smell is present, right? But wait! What is food and smell, but a projection dialed up by consciousness? And so here we see the veil thinning between the quantum reality and our conditioned perception of reality.

Who over the age of fourteen hasn’t had a sexual or romantic experience that was purely in their imaginations?

Are you getting this, it’s all in the imagination. The real world is an imagined world, emanating from an imagination. You can interface with it (you actually are right now) through your imagination.

I think this will take some getting used to, yes? If I was able to travel physically anywhere in the universe to any dimension, I’d probably not be here writing about it. You’d likely not hear from me for some time. How helpful (to myself or others) would it actually be to wake up one morning having popped into the reality to be able to time travel or space travel anywhere, anytime, without being gradually attuned to it?

Possibly wading into this reality and it’s wonderworld of experiences is the more self loving approach. Quite possibly, my consciousness needs this ongoing upgrade phase to be able to be with expanded reality so that it isn’t detrimental, but rather helpful.

If you are feeling similar desires for these expansions of consciousness into time and space travel, then you are already in the process of the switchover. You are leaving one reality and entering another, the necessary sacred in between phase where certain things can only be felt and incubated so that when you are fully in the new reality, you’re not as bored or as lonely as you are now.

My god, the worst thing I can think of is that I’m fully awakened to time and space travel, have normalized it into my waking reality, and I’m not in wonder or joy or reverence.

Possibly that’s what the process of awakening is about. Our soul doesn’t want to get any higher in frequency without the ability to truly be in awe and wonder while in that higher frequency.

This then brings up a crucial ‘how to’ if part of you is looking for one to speed up the process. It seems our souls know that the point is the reverence, more than the discovery. Our soul and Metasoul has already discovered it all, it’s not about discovery, it’s about integration.

Your life as you currently know it has all the ground and grounding needed for your greatest leaps forward. The now can only be accessed from the content of what’s in your now, now.

Letting in the wonder of your being as you currently know it is what moves the current into new phases of wonder and integration.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Swapping Out The Handrails Of Your Life

By Raphael Awen

To the degree we are willing to feel that everything about our current lifestyle and life content is our own creation, whether conscious or unconscious, whether directly by our choices or indirectly by joining in with the collective choices; this is the degree we are then able to recreate a life of true recreation.

I’ve undergone some major lifestyle and life content changes, but I’m not beyond the place where a part of me no longer chafes at some of the content/lifestyle still in my life.

On a related note, I’ve watched many spiritual teachers gain popularity because of the projection by them or their followers that the leader is somehow beyond this life dilemma. This feels like a co-created bypassing strategy to not feel; an unwillingness to feel this ownership of unpleasant or unwanted lifestyle or life content. If it’s there, it’s safe to assume a part of you very much wanted it or needed it there, regardless of how much another part of you may want to disown it, or honestly change it. Denial plays a huge role in the spiritual teachers or paradigms we are drawn to. It has for me.

To feel what is uncomfortable to feel and see is to see the discomfort as a portal or an entrance into the thing or changes that we long for. We need to become ‘entranced’ at this entrance with all the feelings of what lives there. It’s only energy that is waiting, wanting and needing to be felt. The energy and emotion when it is felt provides the key to enter the change. All it takes is the heart of an ambassador who truly and curiously wants to meet with its counterparts at the furthest reaches of his or her kingdom or queendom.

Now the desired changes are inevitable because where two or more polarities were in a push pull, they are now in synch. The necessary duality has found its way to love.

What is the most uncomfortable thing in your life that feels the hardest to feel; that feels like the most unwanted thing in your life? Can you even think about it long enough to identify it, let alone feel into it? These are your true entrance points of moving from being entrenched to becoming entranced in the new life you are willing to dream of.

Maybe you are willing to start with something smaller. That’s perfect. Feel it all. Journal with it. Hold space for it. Get ready, though, because the equilibrium of your life that relied on a handrail of suffering will need to get used to the new handrail of trusting enduring goodness.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Questing With Our Questions Into the Quantum

By Raphael Awen

In a quantum world of infinite possibilities, why is that we find ourselves all too often seemingly locked into one possibility? Why does that one possibility seem to persist ‘ad infinitum’ – to infinity, without end, with little hope of desired change?

How did infinite possibility get swapped out for infinite impossibility?

Could it be that this has everything to do with parts of ourselves who have so mastered the art of creating the world they actually want, albeit a small, narrow and safe world, while other parts of you so ache to break free of this pattern persistence in your life?

Has one powerful part of your being scripted your life with a scripture of its own, and you are just now awakening to it; through your feelings of confinement, through your desire to break your unquestioning allegiance to this scripture; through your desire to awaken from what feels like the bad dream that another part of you feels your life has become? And to let the chips fall where they may?

And what would you propose to alter this trajectory that you call your life? And which part of you would be in charge of alterations?

Maybe some kind of a more powerful self help kind of agenda is needed, where a campaign of mandating a new world order for yourself is the order of the day? Maybe a trip to the bookstore is in order?

Is there even enough gas in the tank to carry this whole agenda forward? And if there was plenty of gas in the tank, do you actually want to undertake that initiative and see it through to its desired end? Is there another part of you who could care less about this new initiative, and even seek to sabotage it?

If you made it through the gauntlet of all these questions, there’s still more questions. What would the desired end game even be, after you arrived at your envisioned new world, assuming you’d even know when you had in fact arrived there? Being free of an unwanted limiting dynamic in your life is great, but is that enough of a picture of a new life?

If you really did your homework and visualized what your ‘there’ would look and feel like, then the question comes about what would you do following your arrival at this desired place, once your ached and longed for bliss becomes your everyday normalized waking reality?

Maybe, a part of you, unbeknownst to the you that you think of as you has thought through all of these questions quite deeply and silently come to the conclusion that it’s just not worth the effort. Maybe this part of you reasons that a better or best life, somehow without fail, becomes normalized, taken for granted, neglected, and ends up in unfulfillment. Why not settle then for the life we have now, rather than reach for great heights, the great heights of which only to make the fall into despair that much more painful?

I believe life and love are asking us to feel all of these questions that have gone on in us somewhere, but haven’t been made conscious. We haven’t yet consciously been introduced to the parts of us who have scripted and created the life we are presently living, and then from there gone on to dream, negotiate and script a new reality based in the divine play of infinite arising possibility.

Only as we take up this deep quest consciously, with a higher self embodiment of us leading the way and playing host to all the parts of us who have been in conflict, can we sanely take our next steps into life and love, or step out of bed in the morning.

My world wants to be recreated into ongoing recreation – play, where the end game is an ever changing game without limits, where awe, reverence and wonder is a never ending arising reality, only to be overshadowed by one greater.

I believe; even more than believe, I FEEL the Divine, in its curiosity is wanting to create and play this game through you and I, inseparably with itself. We have been invited. The invitation is sitting on our desk.

If you are feeling and conceiving such a possibility, you are like the man Jesus spoke of who happened upon a field that contained a hidden pearl of great price, who went out and sold all that he had to then go and purchase that field.

The field is the quantum field of divine play in infinite possibilities! The field is your life. What are you ready to sell to raise the funds to redeem your life from the one possibility it has slipped into to restore it to the infinite possibilities that you ARE?

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

I’d love to help you find and take your next steps into the infinite possibilities of your life. I can’t think of anything more rewarding. Please check out my sessions link above and be in touch when you’re ready.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Receiving The Gift Of The Current Lion’s Gate Portal

By Raphael Awen

There’s a ton of support available in what’s called the Lion’s Gate Portal, that is at its height today on the numerologically significant date of 8/8, a period that opened on July 25th and remains open until August 16th.

During this time, there is loving support to access connection with your Higher Self and feel through current life changes from a more expansive, heart open place.

One evidence of this can be counterintuitive, in that feelings of heightened despair or longings can come up to the surface that usually remain subconscious to you and off your radar. If this is happening for you, you are being invited to feel this as a big invitation into a solid step forward. You don’t need to pave over any part of you to get to any higher ground.

I had a profound and deeply touching experience yesterday that was a long time in coming, and deeply treasured that has to do with serving men.

I’ve felt for many years a resonance with King Arthur and Camelot, which was about a deep lament over the loss of this powerful round table of men united in purpose and vision. With the help of the Lion’s Gate Portal, (along with some help from Jelelle), I was able to feel the heightened sadness, as well as an ease and grace to connect way more directly with King Arthur, simply through my Metasoul connection with him. As we felt through and discussed together the reactions that he has simmered in for a long time, his heart was able to rise again, back to vision and to the powerful service of love self that he has wanted to activate beyond the failed right/wrong picture that he previously served under.

This makes for what feels like a ton of freed up energy in my soul field that I can feel already shifting my relationship and experiences to come in serving men in particular. Men have been conspicuously absent from heart based explorations in comparison to women, and that is in the process of changing, I feel.

Be sure to give whatever attention and heart space you can to this opportunity today and into the next 8 days to come.

Join Jelelle Awen and I today! for Lion’s Gate at 10:00am PDT over zoom for a powerful group transmission event! We will connect to the 4D matrix to unplug from it and bridge to the higher frequency Lion’s Gate codes themselves, opening the higher heart. You can join us live or receive the recording for $15 CAD/$11 USD offering the donation here: paypal.me/jelelleawen or here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop

more info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2168911176740089/

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Conditioned By Our Conditions

By Raphael Awen

It’s my conviction, at least down to the place of it being my working hypotheses, that any and all conditions in our lives, be they outward circumstances, inner emotional realities, relationship configurations, etc. – both the things we treasure and the things that we detest, that all of these conditions are there in our lives for a couple of very significant reasons.

One reason is that as a soul BEing, we chose these challenges. It’s like anyone can be a champion on an equal playing field, so we chose to tie one hand behind our back, just to redefine what true championship could look and feel like. We wanted not just to be challenged, but to be profoundly challenged.

Another reason these conditions are there is because a part of us actually wants them there and keeps them there. A limiting condition is a familiar condition. When we entered this dimension, from where we came from, nothing felt familiar, or known, so parts of us are left in trauma grasping for anything to call or make familiar or to know as ‘family’. We are meant to be comforted. Just because a part of you aches for something to be gone, doesn’t mean other parts of you want it gone.

When we take ownership of this immense power of our souls choices and take responsibility for the very understandable reactions going on for parts of ourselves, we then can recreate our lives in alignment with true self love. We move our being from being grounded in victimhood to the true power expression of our heart and soul. We lead a different frequency expression that seeds profoundly in the collective. We change the world as we change our world.

Our lives look and feel the way they do not by chance, or by the grace of any god, but by the power and grace of our own sacred BEing that we are either awake or asleep to.

What does awakening look and feel like for you and the life you lead now?

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Relation-ships – Me, You and Us

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By Raphael Awen

Every relationship that we enter, that we chose to remain inside of or that we choose to leave, has powerful effects on our souls healing journey.

Yesterday, I met with my sister, Brenda, after not having almost any contact for the past ten years. It was meaningful for a part of me to receive a mini update on my mother, two other siblings, my former wife, two daughters, nieces and nephews and even my own grandchildren whom I haven’t met, as well as more distant family.

In 2009, I chose to largely break off contact with family. I always felt and still do feel that what I was saying no to, was to meet inside of family gatherings where my own changing views of life, and particularly my leaving of Christianity were not welcome as part of the conversation. I also couldn’t expect any of them to be okay with any kind of demand on my part for them to be curious and genuinely interested. What moved for me recently was a desire to be accountable for any hurt I caused in my abrupt departure from family.

I came away from our coffee shop reunion feeling quite a bit of mixed emotions. I had an expanded sense of how all of us in this human experience gravitate to or away from relationships has so much to do with a deep wound we carry inside, mostly subconsciously of our feelings of having lost connection with the Divine, how we were birthed out of a bliss oneness place into individuated consciousness that leaves us with a deep residual separation inside and outside that we are left to integrate. This feels to me like the true hero’s journey, coming back into remembrance of our true essence, that we never actually left or lost any of our divine essence, but rather were given the perception of loss, as a deep wound, that when and as we heal from that wound, we grow into even more than we were in our original state of bliss and oneness.

On a more human level, I felt how ten years had gone by with my family, and how it was hard to see from my perspective where much in terms of growth had changed emotionally or spiritually. I know that’s a judgment on my part, but one I can’t deny. While in connection with family, I was constantly tugging on them to see beyond what I felt were limitations on growth. Even while inside of Christianity, I was constantly jumping camps and switching loyalties all in an effort to break out of something and to break into something more that my soul knew was there. I grew tired of that tugging and so did they, understandably. I get how each of us has a different clock speed setting for our growth, but yet, I believe that this too is something we can consciously shift if we desire to. We awaken to how much parts of us are allowing or disallowing in terms of our growth. We are not victims of fate, or of the Divine, but rather, parts of use the perceptions of victimhood, to govern the pace of our growth.

It was difficult to chose to leave the family circle, to face some of their angsts, to engage or not to engage in communication. I knew I needed and deeply wanted community in my life and I still know that. Community, at heart, I’ve been learning has to do with our kindness, acknowledging that despite our very real differences, that we are still of the same kind. Both are true. We are one, yet we are individual. We have resonance and we have dissonance in relationships. We came here to have that juice.

I am left with a deeper digestion that the relationships we keep and how we keep them is something profoundly sacred for each individual. Some relationships are given to us for the growth we will encounter in leaving them. Ultimately, every relationship we enter, we will leave on this earthly plane. Knowing and feeling that, we are invited to be present in the present with the present of what we have now – to hold it with reverence for the Divine in all of us. This is why we have funerals, a place to return to feeling for the reverence of all of life. We enter the feeling of death to more fully enter the feeling of life.

Deep profound deaths and rebirths are something that we can enter here in the course of our lives, without needing to wait for us to leave the body. I recently went through the most heart rending completion of my relationship with Jelelle, where we ‘broke up’ and have since magically found our way back to the deepest of reopenings, where the magnitude of the pain of loss only compares to the magnitude of joy on the other side. Losing my relationship with Jelelle also seemed inextricably intertwined with the losing of my beloved SoulFullHeart community that has been my family for the past ten years. It felt like history repeating itself all over again. I could also feel Metasoul aspects of mine who know the pattern of excommunication and we’re still stuck in their suffering loops and reactions around those dramas. Feeling these Metasoul aspects and helping them shift felt like it gave me a big gift in this dimension to go to my next places of growth.

I feel how we are all being invited, when we find our heart breaking, to let it break open, to parts of ourselves, to the Divine, and to one another – not with duty and obligation to old caretaking ways of being, but with love, transparency and our deepest desires leading the way.

This is the journey we signed up for; gain and loss; joy and sorrow, even the inevitable of hurting others and being hurt.

We return to our divinity as we return to our humanity only to find there is no difference.

I also see how we, at a deep soul level, don’t actually leave any relationship even if we break off contact or interaction. Our souls are so much bigger than what is or isn’t currently happening on the earth plane, conducting business for our growth regardless of how much of it we can see or feel, or from what paradigm we are consciously coming from.

Much love to each of you in the one family that we all are!

Raphael Awen
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