Love Stories Don’t End, They Start New Chapters

This was a hard post to write. It is always vulnerable to share about intimate pieces of our lives, yet in service, in transparency, and in honoring it is needed. This past month there has been a deep rumble in my union with Kasha. She and I have been in this process, community, and sacred journey for nearly 10 years together. We have been romantic for about half of those years, in and out. We even got married three and a half years ago to initiate our bond even deeper, even as that completed shortly thereafter.

There has been something deeply core between us and within each of us that has been challenging to reconcile. Each time we have gone in together, we have found new layers of intimacy together, yet also a pattern that has been undeniable between us. In our recent group session, we had to come to the honest truth that we are just not the pair-bond we thought we were.

Yes, we have so much goodness between us. Enough to power a typical relationship to the end of our lives possibly. Yet that is not why we are here. I am still coming to terms with what a sacred union even is. How scary and yet powerful it can be! There is something in me that has been polarized to letting all of that in. This inner split in me has come to my awareness recently and needs a lot of my attention and love. It has colored a lot of the way I have related to Life and Romance. I lost my Lover somewhere along the way.

I am curious how much of my soul history has been involved in these kinds of sacred bonds. I have a seed for union inside of me yet I don’t know how much it has been expressed in my lifetimes. Regardless of that possibility, I am in deep need of resolving something core inside of me that has been difficult to access in our bond together. I don’t want to be an anchor to where Kasha is needing and wanting to go in her soul around sacred romance and union.

There is a lot still to mourn and grieve around this for me. A lot to see and feel inside of myself that comes with me going forward. I said these words before and yet they still hold true today and will 10 years from now. There is always a peeling of the onion and each time we do, the tears fall. The heart gets heavy and the work begins again. Yet, for both of us, we ultimately want what is the highest calling for each of us, even if that might not be in sacred romance together. A tough pill to swallow when there is so much goodness.

A love story doesn’t always just end. It sometimes just takes on a new direction. We have been here before and we know what needs to be felt and addressed along the way. Because of what Kasha has given me, I get to see myself in a real way not only in a good way. This is the gift of sacred union whether they prolong or complete. They offer us back to ourselves and to the Divine in a new way. We see where we have grown and what still needs healing. I could not have done that without beloved Kasha. She has been a portal and catalyst for so much of my growth as well as my joy. We have had so many incredible moments together and in service.

So the road back to me begins again. The road to another layer of my authentic self and my relationship to the Divine in both Mother and Father frequencies. I have been blessed by these experiences with Kasha and have much to own on my side. Sometimes a spade is a spade, even if it looks like a heart.

Thank you to you all who have been a part of our love story. I know that there will be personal reactions to it. For those that have been around us long enough, know what we have had together and will continue to have in the decade to come. I will write more about my own process soon as I digest more of it in time. For now, thank you for taking this, and our former Usness, into your hearts.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Mary Magdalene Feast Day: The Flow & Invitation Of Her Energies

by Kasha Rokshana

Connecting with Mary Magdalene on her ‘Feast Day’…

She is the dance of a woman in love with the Divine Masculine in heart and human counterpart.

She is the rose of sensual pleasures in ALL senses, in all ways, guiding us toward a love affair with life, inhabitation of our sexuality, embodiment of our physical expression, all while letting in that we are also Divine.

She is the template of womb healing, clearing, and honouring… of feeling what has been held there, what new alchemy wants to birth from there, and of getting ready to welcome in the love of the Beloved in Divine and human form there.

She is the beacon of what comes on the other side of female competition, comparison, and control.

She is an exquisite model of what it means to surrender deeply to the Divine as a sacred human woman, being in flow with what is true now and what is yet to arise.

She is the Mother, Sister, beloved Divine Feminine in all energies and ways we wish to connect with her within us, outside of us, and in deep feminine bonds with others.

She is an invitation into what wants to be reborn and reunions that want to take place as this process of forgiving what was once true is truly and deeply felt in this lifetime and others.

She will always be a beloved guide to me, an energy which I love to bring through for myself and others, and such a loving support during all times of heartbreak, longing, desire, letting go, and letting IN too.

Blessed Be, beloved soul, as you also feel her with you on this day where she is recognized and honoured…

Love,
Kasha

Artwork by Tanya Torres

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Museletter: July 15, 2022

It’s a sacred time of new beginnings, challenging endings, and fertile reboots too. One aspect of our lives which is experiencing this cycle is our relationships, especially perhaps our romantic ones. Current energies moving through are supporting whatever process we need to be in around this and around our own individual Sacred Union paths if that is something our souls are called to embody and inhabit.

Featured this week is a piece from Kasha Rokshana, who shares about her own journey with Sacred Union and offers what she’s learned about this very humbling soul and heart path so far. She also invites any women who feel they resonate with Sacred Union, to join in on the upcoming women’s group call that will be hosted by herself and Jelelle Awen this coming Sunday, July 17th at 5pm WEST/12pm EDT/9am PDT. You can attend live or receive the recording by donation. 

Raphael and Jelelle Awen will also be offering a Sacred Union-focused group call for men and women this month. This call will be on July 24th at at 5pm WEST/12pm EDT/9am PDT and it will also be by donation to attend live or receive the recording. 

You can find out more information about these activating and powerful group calls here: soulfullheart.org/events

On this Museletter you can also find a video invitation from Jelelle and Kasha where they outline a bit of where take you during the women’s call and invite you to join them. 

Gabriel and Kasha have a new episode of the SoulFullHeart Current Podcast this week. There also two very special podcast recordings featuring Raphael and Jelelle on the AJ Roberts Show and also Soulogy with Todd Medina, which were very exciting opportunities for them and for SoulFullHeart!

There are several new articles and audio blogs in this issue, including energy updates and personal process sharings, as always!

You can find our current Museletter here: https://mailchi.mp/e9843738b119/soulfullheart-museletter-the-catalytic-sacred-union-journey

If you’d like to subscribe to receive our Museletters and other announcements in your own inbox, you can do so on our website: soulfullheart.org, or you can scroll to the bottom of this issue and click “subscribe”. 

Much love from all of us!

~ the SoulFullHeart Community

Being With The Ongoing & Catalytic Sacred Union Journey

by Kasha Rokshana

Part of me used to relate to Sacred Union as a sort of ‘ultimate destination’, wrapping it in romantic ideals and not necessarily understanding how deep of a process it truly is to be in it, let alone draw it to you. It was a feeling that it was some sort of ultimate reward for inner work well done, answering a deep soul-based longing to experience this sort of visceral reunion with a Divine counterpart.

In my lived-inexperience of it though, I’m getting that it’s actually an ongoing journey and a powerful and catalytic one at that. Though drawing a Sacred Union to yourself does show you a ‘graduation’ step (if your soul truly needs and desires to be in one), with every graduation comes a new beginning… and within Sacred Union it sure feels like it’s a near-constant feeling of completing and beginning again, with self, the Divine, and of course another soul or several along the way.

Preparing for and being in Sacred Union seems to not be so much about knowing anything, having mastery over anything, or really understanding what it’s truly about. The unexpected is meant to find you and bring you back to you as well as the Divine Beloved while in intimate connection with another soul.

Sacred Union seems to not be about anything predictable or controllable, including if it lasts for the rest of your lifetime, if it has its phase(s) of stops and starts, completions of old grounds between you and the embers of a new one being born, or if it needs to complete entirely.

Divine Surrender seems to be THE invitation… it’s a romantic bond where the unpredictable is held in the arms and heart of the Divine, wanting you to have the sometimes tough growth edges and mirrors of your goodness too (sometimes equally as challenging to let in) that seem to be offered in this lush ground of discovery. Plus, the Divine wants to express in an overflow of the love between your souls in order to SERVE love to and with others.

The Divine Beloved acts and moves through both of you, encouraging you to wade into the deeper waters of real love… a multi-dimensional love that doesn’t just want to move in with you, but wants very much to rearrange your furniture.

It’s a love that, when allowed to catalyze your growth, offers so many waves of bliss and laughter, along with so many mutual tears, both this-life and existential fears percolating and expressing, and sometimes explosive moments of truth-telling. Indeed, it IS the Divine expressing in sacred human form, learning about all the edges, swerves, and deep-dives there are to experience along with the highest highs imaginable…

There is no perfect way to be in Union… and perhaps that’s what makes it such a beautiful and enticing growth path!

As women, we seem to be especially activated around the desire for Sacred Union and everything it entails… craving the growth, the bliss, the love, the transaction ground that keeps deepening, and of course the yummy sexual grounds that can open out too. I’ve had quite a journey of my own to be able to even remotely let it in, and my journey continues to deepen in sometimes very surprising ways.

It’s such a sacred path that is always unfolding it seems, both inside and out. There is no real “end game” where you can feel like you’ve totally arrived, or so it seems to me so far. It’s actually far more humbling than that and even though the humbling can feel like looking into a mirror from a very awkward angle, I wouldn’t actually trade the mess, or the bliss, for the world.

Join Jelelle Awen and I for our women’s group call this coming Sunday, July 17th @ 5pm WEST (Lisbon)/12pm EDT/9am PDT where we will share about our journeys with Sacred Union and lead a guided meditation to feel and/or activate your own. It’s by donation and already looks like it’s shaping up to be a VERY warm womb-room! I look forward to meeting/feeling you there with us if you feel drawn. Feel free to DM me if you have any questions. For more info on the call, visit soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

You can donate for the call on our Shop: soulfullheart.org/shop or via PayPal: paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will email you the link to join. If you donate via PayPal, make sure you let us know your current email address so we can contact you. The average donation amount is around $15 CAD yet you can donate anything that feels good to you.

Lots of love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Immense Totality Of Love

Love is all around even when it just doesn’t feel like it is. Especially, when it doesn’t feel like it is. Love is found in so many places that we often normalize its existence. In fact, our suffering, grief, and despair are all evidence of this all-invasive Love that cannot be denied for it is, and in, All Things. Our temporal and illusory separation from it is what creates that response.

We will even go so far as to park in our intelligence, our shadow, or the comfort of safety to not feel the depth of our pain of this separation. Love is a patient and yet persistent reminder of our divine and storied human experience. It holds all the wins and the losses. It holds the holy and the unholy.

Everything you are experiencing is part of your ongoing remembrance that you are always held in and by Love. Even the shit and the shame. In the aggression and the repression. In the tragic and the romantic. Love knows you better than you know yourself and if you can lean into its super intelligence and its eternal and infinite care you find that it has always been there. Parts of you have just chosen not to listen or felt that they have not deserved or earned its affection and attention.

Love does not care-take you but It does care FOR you. It cares when you are not safe, not seen, and not felt. It cares when you have lost hope and when you have found bliss. It cares when you have hurt and been hurt. Love will appear to kick your ass when you are down, but that is partly how you receive it and partly a loving shove in its direction without training wheels. How you choose to relate to it is completely up to you. Love does not create victims, it creates heroes and gives inspiration and hope to the victims.

So regardless of your ‘relationship status’, know that you ARE Love, that you ARE loved, and that you can only ever choose to be out of Love’s embrace. It is up to each of us to find where Love does not live within us and shine its glorious light and warmth upon it until we begin to burn brighter with its power and its presence for the whole world to see and feel.

Let Love win when you are ready.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Sacred Anniversary

It is in deep intimacy with self and with others that we can truly see and feel ourselves. It is where we were hurt and where we can heal and grow. It provides us with the next layers to meet inside and out.

When I was a teenager I was in a back-and-forth, in-and-out relationship that was quite dramatic many times. A karmic tornado in a way. I was working my own insecurities and uncertainties of a teenage boy.

I eventually found myself in a healthier and more intimate union with my former wife, Jelelle. She showed me the gifts of true intimacy and how it can show us things about ourselves we may have never been willing to see until we truly trusted someone enough to do so.

We both found ourselves on different paths at some point yet somehow still connected in heart and soul. It was at this point that I went into a solo phase and felt a resistance to going into romance again. It is where some of my old patterns re-emerged and played out some of my former teenage consciousness that needed to run out before I found myself again.

After some unfortunate yet illuminating events, I set myself on a journey to heal my self-worth and find my true purpose here on this planet. Not so much time passed and I met Kasha on the same path. We were very different in many ways yet also connected in our souls. We found ourselves in a swirl of a romance at first that led to me leaving California and then moving to Canada.

From there we found ourselves on a years-long journey together where we have seen, felt, and moved through many shadow and karmic places together, both in romance and out. I have learned how much I have resisted real and deepening intimacy with myself and others, especially that of a sacred union.

I didn’t even really understand what that meant when I began this journey. I knew I wanted to know myself and feel better about myself but this sacred union journey as lead me to so much more. So much more challenging, scary, and yet alive and magical. I am not anywhere near the same human I was 10 years ago. Nor will I be the same in 10 more.

A year ago today, I crossed the space to offer my heart to Kasha after a long period of separation. It was a risk after what we had been through over the past, yet my heart and soul could only ever see and feel her as the one I wanted and needed to continue this ongoing journey. It was a leap of Love that I had been given another chance to take. Yet this time with more sobriety, realness, courage, and sacredness.

She has experienced myself at my most vulnerable and has showed up with a trust and her own worth to keep us both on sacred and deepening ground as well as the need to fly and unify. This is where I have learned that sacred intimacy IS a way of life and an ongoing process to show up to every single moment. It is the way of the Magdalenes. It is the way of this heart and soul lineage.

I feel all the 2’s this month signifying this Sacred Union path and lineage. It is found within and deepened with Other. I am blessed to have Kasha as my Queen and sacred mate. She leads me to my King, my Lover, and my Sage. She leads me to my most real and powerful self that I could not truly see or feel without her. For that I am eternally grateful.

It is intimacy that is the sacred ground we walk on with those in this community and will continue to espouse, exemplify, and explore. As a man, I know the difficulties to just even loving yourself, let alone another in a mature, healthy, and real way. That self-love is where it all starts and sacred union is where it all leads.

Thank you, Kasha, for this past year, the past years, and all the years that are meant to follow. I am ready for what we are meant to serve and create together as Magdalene mates and Divine Lovers and Leaders.

Happy anniversary, beloved. I love you…❤️🔥🌹

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Sacred Union & Sexuality Guided Meditation: Video 29 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

In this twenty-ninth video of our 31-day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about sacred union relationship with a mate and also the transaction of sacred sexuality.

We share about the importance of transactability in sacred union which relates to vulnerability, intimacy, and individual parts work/soul aspect access that allows more openness in the relational ground between partners. We also share about how sacred sexuality is a portal to your light body activation, your pairbond/twin flame frequency (if you share that), and life force/passion/desirability.

During the guided meditation, you connect to your current mate if you have one in the ball room in your Castle. Those who are single are invited to call in their future sacred union mate into the space. You connect with your mate to see what messages, choice points, places of discovery are revealed to you. You then are invited as a couple to go into a private bridal/groom/union chamber to explore sacred sexuality in whatever ways that feels right.

Here is a link to the sacred union and sexuality video from the Deepen 2019 series: https://youtu.be/diPaOZFiPBM

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about a Deepen 2022 group call on January 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

A Love Story: Part One (Heartbreak & Healing)

By Raianna Shai

I woke up this morning with the urge to create through writing but couldn’t quite figure out what I wanted to write about. I started scrolling through the notes in my phone and found several writings I wrote over the past two years that really brought me back to the moment and phase they were written. Interestingly, I found 6 pieces that seemed to represent a cycle from beginning to end and back to the beginning again.

This cycle in particular represented the phase of the ending of a relationship, to the beginning of a new one, to the end once again. It felt like a really beautiful arc of letting in and letting go and everything that goes on in between. I felt myself recognizing the patterns of relationships and realizing that even when things come to an end, they are so worth the journey in and out.

This isn’t just true for romantic relationships but for careers, geographical moves, finding your soul purpose, healing a trauma and moving into your next phase of growth. As humans, we continually go through cycles in every part of our lives and the only thing we can do is become conscious of them. After a death of a phase you may wonder, what’s the point? But looking back you may notice how much has changed from beginning to end.

Falling in love is beautiful, messy, painful, exhilarating and everything in between but just like any other death and rebirth, it’s so important in facilitating our growth. Each layer brings new realizations and understanding of what it means to find love and purpose in these human and divine lives of ours. We cannot exist without cycles, for without them we cannot understand the gift of being human.

To show what I mean I thought I would share these 6 writings as a marker of each layer that these cycles can illuminate and provide. Particularly in the context of relationships. The first one I felt to share is both the ending of one relationship and the beginning of another. Marking the phase of overlapping death and rebirth ❤️

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A Love Story: Part One
Heartbreak & Healing

I sit here
Gathering the pieces of my heart
Trying to glue them back together
The mismatched edges
And sharp corners
Almost fitting perfectly
And then not at all

You wait there
Patiently watching my broken pieces
That long for that perfect edge’s embrace
Slowly come together
All the while knowing
That one day I will come

I will come with just enough pieces
To hold together the contents of my love
When I am still chipped, but no longer broken

You are there
With your chipped pieces
Already glued together
With as much accuracy as truth can allow

And we come together
Look at that!
Our broken pieces create a mosaic of lost loves and tearful goodbyes
Not perfect, but beautiful all the same

Love,
Raianna Shai
SoulFullHeart Way Of Life

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Bridge To The Beloved: Guided Meditation From The Bridal Chamber | Raphael & Jelelle Awen (Video)

Divine Union guides, Counterpart/Twin Flame Mates and SoulFullHeart Teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen invite you on an initiatory journey into your sacred humanity through a video series called Meditations From The Bridal Chamber. We are recently in a renewed marriage and reunion place after a brief separation and death/rebirth together. We are feeling to share from the high frequency energies of our ‘bridal chamber’, where we are experiencing deeper frequencies of reunion with each other, within, and with the Divine.

Divine Sacred Union guides Yeshua and Mary Magdalene join us in this video series, offering initiations and activations as we channel their energies through our sacred masculine and sacred feminine hearts. Yeshua and Magdalene provide a template from the fifth dimension of a twin counterpart pair bond for your inner masculine and inner feminine to receive as a source of support, activation, and guidance. They have been beloved guides to us personally, in our union, and in service for many years.

In this first video of the series, we share a brief introduction of the Bridal Chamber energies and about the fears/resistances/testing that parts of us can do as we move out of separation and into more union within, with a mate, and with the Divine. As we have done during many group calls over the years, we then move into a collaborative meditative space to guide you in bridging to your ‘Bridal Chamber’ within while offering transmissions from Yeshua and Mary. The bridal chamber is offered to both women and men as a higher dimensional space to experience the embodied frequency of their Divine Self as beloved to the Divine.

Whether you are currently in a relationship or mateship; exploring your inner sacred union in singleness; or want to deepen your connection with the Divine AS beloved; this series will activate for you what it is meant to in order to help you move out of fear, resistance, and lack realities and into abundance, love, joy, and bliss!

We would love to receive your donations and energy exchange in the form of money for this series as it supports us to keep offering them and creates an intentional energy for you in which to receive them. You can offer a donation through a general donation via our shop at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop​ or via paypal at https://www.paypal.me/jelelleawen​.

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart community events and group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org​.

Information about 1:1 sessions over Zoom or in-person in Glastonbury, UK with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen or Kasha Rokshana for women and with Raphael Awen or Aurius Amara for men and women at https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Become a monthly donor member of our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks and gain access to exclusive content, share your experiences of the meditation with us, read longer writings w/personal digestions, experience a community connection with beautiful resonant souls, and MORE at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

My REunion with Aurius (Formerly, ‘Gabriel’)

by Kasha Rokshana

For you, with you… Within me…

I’ve fallen asleep beside you, only to wake up without you, but then realized with inner work and great patience (that sometimes boiled with so much ache I could barely hold it), how I get to (we get to) to claim this awakening all over again…

A light has always burned for you, stayed on for you, in my heart. A beacon has always been lit in my soul, cascading across the sky of the Divine, reaching somehow for you yet letting you go too.

When you meet the King that holds the keys to your heart AND soul AND body desires, efforts to cling or tug or ‘keep him’ actually flow against the tide of drawing him deeper into you, into your field, and into your mutual connection that spans so many lifetimes… And against the moving tides of change and growth within, that sometimes need to happen solo, without him ‘in the room’.

I am loving and appreciating this beloved man who I have known for nearly 9 years, anew. I am feeling and reeling in the depths and textures of our connection in ways I wasn’t expecting. I didn’t know he was about to ‘throw his hat back in the ring’ and claim a desire for me after this time ‘apart’ romantically… But I’m sure glad he did.

This adventure with you, Aurius, is one I glow with from deep inside… I feel it in places that have been sleeping, that have needed to let go of any dream of it. Now the blood flow of passion and desire is waking up these dormant places and I love every moment of our ‘waking up next to each other’ that is happening now… ❤️

I love this service-of-love life that we live inside of ourselves… And more and more inside of this sacred USness we share.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.