‘Apocalypse’ Can Be Self Lovingly Negotiated

by Raphael Awen

Who’d have guessed that we’d have both Armageddon as well as New Earth playouts/narratives underway at the same time, all the while being collectively stuck bored at home?

Feeling the part of you that doesn’t quite know what to make of all this, even if you are on the inside track to ‘what’s really going on’, feels really important as we nurse and hold ourselves through this birth canal.

I find that the more inside knowledge I track, have or adopt, the more questions I also have, and that makes for discomfort for a part of me, understandably so.
The calls for breathing and patience are renewed every hour, in response to the impatience and ache for what wants to come.

Standing in line outside at Whole Foods yesterday, doing the 6-foot thing, I made it to the front of the line and watched a guy hurriedly walk out with a basket of groceries without paying. It felt like someone hungry and out of money who said ‘fuck it, I’m going for what I need’.

How much more of that will we witness as people check out of the game they’ve played, as they feel the game around them crumble?

How will your world fare as the world around you goes through its necessary death and rebirth pains?

Those external questions can’t really be answered, except with new questions that can be answered internally.

What parts of you are checking out of the games they’ve played and supported in 3D?

How will you support that movement in self-loving and negotiated ways?

What new games truly worth playing can you offer them?

This gets really practical and personal for each of us, and it needs to. Life, money, needs, relationships, all of it is undoubtedly changing.

Apocalypse can be self lovingly negotiated to the degree you are willing to lean into life and love and show up for the parts of you in turmoil. The turmoil is a transmutative portal.

Much love,
Raphael Awen

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Please join Jelelle Awen and myself this coming Wednesday for week two of our 6-week, by donation, Free To Be Group Call series, where we’ll be speaking about ‘navigating practical transition with your inner masculine’.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

444 Portal Day: We Are ALL On Our Way To The NEW

by Kalayna Solais

During my dark night experience late in 2019, I saw the number sequence 44 or 444 quite often.

I looked up the meaning and some of what I read resonated, but it wasn’t until I asked someone in person what they felt it meant based on their own sense of number sequences, that I found an explanation that truly landed…

44 as a number pattern reminds us that we are on our way, that we are doing the work necessary to fulfill our intentions, that we are ‘on track’… And that even though it’s a challenging and winding road and we may feel wedged in between timelines, the timeline we most desire to be part of IS emerging as we emerge from the inner darkness and the growthful paths we’re on now.

In other words, I could really feel 44 and 444 as an alchemy of light meets dark, of emerging from difficult situations, especially inside, with our dreams not only intact but enhanced, as we upgrade from the inside out everything within us.

When parts of me could let in this message at that time, it helped let in some Divine air that everything was flowing as it needed to, even if I felt reactions, mourning, sadness, and a ton of uncertainty. Where this whole phase of my life led me was to deeper alignment with my heart and soul purpose, a graduated and deepened sense of who I AM and what I most deeply wanted but humbly knew I was in the process of getting ready for. It lasted a couple of months and then I was reunited with soul family in a deeper way than ever before or that I was even remotely expecting, though I held the beacon of possibility very close to my heart.

444 today feels like it offers the same or similar energies of accepting a darker phase before the real alignment and real light, especially from within but also in our outer worlds, comes up and out.

The disclosure process we’re in now, seeing and feeling so much rumbling below the surface, is all so important to access the greater light available to us all. It’s a dark time but there are pockets of hope, possibility, and a very real transition to a New Earth/5D experience of life as a whole!

Much love to you on this auspicious 444 day…

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant & collaborative assistant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.