From Victim To Ambassador Amidst An Apocalypse

By  Raphael Awen

Seeing stories more and more of what only looks like concentration camps 2.0 in the name of protecting people, it strikes a fear chord inside of me.

How far is this thing going to escalate? How prepared is prepared?

What shall I do? How will I know what to do and when?

I gave these feelings and questions some heart space inside of a Divine Mother and Divine Father womb space this morning and was invited to feel some larger awareness around it all.

When we see the polarity increasing between two sides of any conflict, we are antsy to find the right side, and once we feel we’ve achieved that, we tend to expound the virtues of our side over the enemy’s side. We become virtuous warriors regardless of the side we’ve chosen.

Regardless of the conflict, if you feel into the energy of both sides, a quite surprising common denominator is seen. Both the designated perpetrator and victim are feeling and acting out of a place of fear of losing something precious to them. Though they are at polar opposites as to the solution of the crisis at hand, they are totally cut from the same cloth when it comes to what is motivating them.

If that’s true, then I need only look at myself to get a window on what’s going on deep in the heart of my enemy’s camp.

Deep at core, I don’t want to lose my life. I may feel I’m higher consciousness about this than I was before, even realizing that my true being can’t actually die, but only change forms, but still I’m not outside of this deep core motivation to preserve something precious and avoid something feared in the here and now. And in those somethings, is where I was told this morning, that we find resolution, both personally and collectively.

Now, I can only possess these kinds of fears if there is still ground in me of distrust towards my outcome, without which, I could be rest assured of a good and pleasurable future.

Is this the exact same world that my enemy lives in, regardless of our perceived and chosen oppositeness?

It feels to me to be the case.

This whole polarity world is maybe no better pictured than in our relationship with money. I must have money to survive, or I can’t be of use to anyone, let alone myself, unless I survive, so getting and obtaining money comes first. Period. Me first, you second, in a world of scarcity and separation, that is in the domain of money as we know it.

This perception of the world skews our relationship so deeply with all of life, and really gets backlit when there’s a perceived active threat.

Then this week, as I’m seeing the ugliness getting uglier, I can’t help but ask, ‘who are the real lords above all this conflict’? It takes one into the science fiction realm of off-planet realities and beings who would appear to possess a consciousness level higher than ours, able to pull strings and levers to get their way.

But if these beings are not science fiction, then what might really be motivating them?

Well, what motivated all of us to create factory farms, the concentration or containment camps for the animals? I say ‘we’ because if you’ve ever eaten an animal, you have a share in the whole endeavor. That includes me and you and that’s a ‘we’. We perceived ourselves to be of a higher consciousness than animals, so we felt and found a way to obscure any arising pang of guilt towards the whole operation.

But when the Nazi’s did the same thing with humans, that was ‘wrong’?. Well, not to them it wasn’t. Then there were the people’s countrymen who turned on their neighbors turning in the lessers to the new superiors, amidst all the chaos of the deeply polarized traumas. People were forced to take a side.

But what forced them? It seems to me that what really ‘forced’ them was not any outside authorities, but rather this shared common denominator of unconscious need to preserve oneself.

When you feel that both victim and perpetrator, (regardless of which side you perceive yourself to be on), both share this identical motive ground, you step up to the table of resolution and true ambassadorship.

First owning how deeply it lives in you to survive, and where your own fears of death lay, or fears of a diminished future, live inside of you, you are now able to see your enemy for who they really are.

They are you.

Now, the judgments and polarities are able to be resolved, because the sacred purpose of those judgments and polarities are completing. Their purpose was to bring us back into remembrance with ourselves, which is one and the same with bringing us back into being re-membered with one another, and putting behind us our necessary dismembered phase of consciousness.

The whole point of the polarity that we all signed off on was to leave oneness, so we could return to it, and expand it in the process, to give love a chance to see itself that it didn’t have before. Time was needed. Space was needed. Drama and trauma was needed. But we never lost this essence of being love, and that’s what haunts our fears of loss.

We know way beyond any kind of mental knowing a deep knowledge of being divinity, and when parts of us feel like they’re stuck in anything less than divinity, it strikes this chord of fear and anxiety. Will I ever get to return to really knowing and feeling what I truly am? This is the shared ground and it is called vulnerability. No matter how protected or powerful, no matter our chosen and championed side, we can’t escape this vulnerability.

These vulnerabilities are the portal doors back to full rememberance that we all must journey through in our glorious and awaiting experience of being re-membered with love.

Love really is this big of a deal and it needed dramas this freaking large to come to know itself.

If you remember, we all remember, as we are all inextricably connected, even as we journey through a necessary phase of perceiving ourselves as a separate self.

Love this separate self, get to know it and love it, find out how and why it ticks, toks and talks. It is your personal path of full discovery, full disclosure, complete reconciliation and total revelation.

My guidance circle said to me this morning, ‘Though it contains some needful apocalypse, I assure you that nothing could be more rewarding, fulfilling, fun, than this homecoming. It is the future that is filled with good things and you are well programmed for it, quite beyond any imposed ‘enemy’ programming’ or highjacked matrix reality.

Much love, I hope this helps you in some deeply inner way, but also helps to answer the many practicalities and choice points you are feeling, just like the rest of us.

If you feel I could be a resource to you, I offer 1:1 session space and would love to hear from you. There’s also 3 more of us facilitators here at SoulFullHeart who might also be a better fit for you. More info here: SoulFullHeart.org/sessions.

Also, Jelelle and I are embarking on a daily video series release come January 1 for 31 days, that I invite you to bookmark if you’d like to get acclimated to us a bit more. You’ll find that in the new year at https://youtube.com/c/SoulFullHeartExperience and a lot more is there in the meantime.

Much Love,

Raphael (and Jelelle )

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Ascension Update: 4D Matrix Is A Shell While The 3D Matrix Runs On Fumes

By Jelelle Awen

After checking in this morning with the Matrix reality at the 4D level of False Light/False God (the source of the ‘broadcast’ of mainstream 3D reality), I wanted to share what it felt and looked like as it might be helpful during this time. Appearances in 3D are that there is an intense battle going on between one side and another….political and spiritual warfare, it is being called. And, yes, there is a collective and individual choice point going on for many souls that is pressing and very real. It is a heightened time of choosing whether to remain anchored to the Matrix reality (as it is always actually a soul’s choice and never a prison) or to move into the New Reality that is being seeded first in our consciousness and then into physical reality here on Gaia.

Physical reality will always seem to lag behind what we can access in our higher consciousness states while going within. Physical reality ‘looks’ and ‘feels’ like things are much more polarized than they actually are. The narratives feel more real than they actually are.

The Matrix at the 4D level has been basically abandoned by the original programmers of it. These programmers had been like a television production crew in the control room….watching, taking notes, tweaking and adjusting. They had been there since the formation of the AI Matrix at the final fall of Atlantis to try to control the humans that were left and keep their consciousness capped in order to try to prevent our rise into our sacred humanity again and our galactic consciousness DNA activating.

Yet, they seem to have left that control room now…off to reconcile with the Divine and their soul most likely. And the plugged in humans and Reptilian self entwinements are also much less fused together then they were. They are many ’empty’ plug in sites now as the Reptilians who were innocent victims in their own ways are guided to a new planetary home. As the human wakes up to the Matrix reality (as is happening worldwide!), the Reptilian ‘twin’ can wake up in their dimension as well. I saw this entwinement during sessions many times and in my own process and the mutual liberation has been key to unplugging from the Matrix.

Here is a guided meditation to meet your Reptilian Self: https://youtu.be/pA7ZjZj2K8M

The 4D Matrix therefore doesn’t have the beacon it used to and is a ‘shell’ of what it once was. What you are seeing in 3D is downstream from the echo of its broadcast. “There is no there there”, I have been offering now for awhile. So much of the opposition now posing as the Cabal are former ghostly versions of themselves, perhaps even clones of the original humans, already stripped of power and in reconciliation mode.

There are still, of course, many souls who are choosing to remain plugged into the 3D matrix and, therefore, the divisions and polarities are being illuminated and highlighted right now. Yet, ultimately, I share the same sense I have from the beginning….that all of this is in Divine hands, the tides have indeed turned to love, and what you are mostly experiencing here is in the inertia and habit and pattern from so many years lived in the Matrix.

Choosing to connect to your 5D, Heaven Within, Golden Earth frequencies brings them into your consciousness. Golden Earth becomes the filter for which you experience physical reality. You radiate love and new possibilities rather than absorb the fear created by the ghosts of what used to be. It really has always been about making a conscious choice…and now it is even more freed up to make the choice of LOVE.

Love from Avalon and Golden Earth within!

Jelelle Awen

Join Raphael and I for our next group call transmission on Saturday, November 14th at 5:00pm BST by donation where we will connect to Golden Earth/5D energies to create a bridge for you to your inner Heaven and Divine Self. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/357124312188561

Join us at our SoulFullHeart Portal online space for exclusive writings and videos plus community connection to discuss this writing in a private setting at a deeper level with others: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

More information about the 3D and 4D Matrix and the ongoing Ascension process in my book Free To Be 5D, with links to purchase at soulfullheart.org/books.

Arising Anew From The Collapse Of The 3D Matrix

In the midst before me, I see a dying story. A matrix of beliefs and conditionings that we have all, to one degree or another, found ourselves playing a part of. We have written and acted in the play together, to sheer perfection.

But we have crossed certain markers in our path too many times now to begin to recognize that the house we contracted to build together is burning. It is running on the fumes of a fear of fusing to the building itself. We are not burning. The house is.

This can be a very existential experience to our 3D self as well as a very triggering remembrance to our Metasoul brothers and sisters that have experienced a collapse before. They have not been pretty, nor self-loving. But that doesn’t mean they can’t be.

Deaths are never easy and have their own energies to be with, yet if we can find that essence within us to hold the space of this transmutation then we may find ourselves like the rose among the ashes.

Connecting with your 3D & 4D selves with the aid of your 5D/Higher Self, a managed collapse is possible and also very self-loving. That is not the same as easy, just setting the suffering gauge to as minimal as possible. It is really up to you in the end.

How we leave is who we enter as.

Our fear can come with us as long as we are willing to go into it and feel it. This is the process that is supported in SoulFullHeart. It is holding the Light so that we can transform the Dark. We are both.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Connecting & Healing With Star Family: My Recent Encounter

by Kalayna Solais

Parts of me were crying. My heart and soul were crying. Sobbing. Nearly wailing. The waves of pain moving through were great, coupled with so much longing for New Earth. For a dimension that feels truly like ‘home’… much more like ‘home’ than 3D has ever felt.

Everything in me was reaching out to me to hold it, but also reaching beyond me, to my Galactic aspects/Star Family that sometimes can’t be ‘seen’ even within my third eye, but can be felt within every cell in my body. They are part of me and I am part of them. We are inseparable and always in love. The kind of love they don’t tell you about in 3D. The kind of love that isn’t sold in magazines or written about in newspapers. It’s the kind of love that can’t be defined, only experienced, and only really let in as your heart heals the barriers to it.

As I sobbed, I felt my soul’s ache. I felt the pain of what it’s really been like to be in 3D. I felt it for myself and I felt it for others. I felt the repression… the suppression of truth, the rejection of real love. I felt tired, so tired, of stark polarities being played out and even worshipped by those who can’t see or feel it all, and those who just simply don’t care. I felt tired of judgments from Inner Punishers… the layers of my own that I’ve felt over the years and the ones that are being fused to by so many others right now. I felt a youngness in parts of me and I could give them permission to just BE young. To just FEEL, without judgment, without needing to be older than they are and to allow these Star Beings, these ancient and otherworldly energies, to just hold them with me.

My eyes were closed to allow sensations to be heightened. If my eyes had been open, they would have been searching for my Star Family beloveds instead of feeling them. They love to enter through the heart and answer our calls. They may not always materialize in the physical but they are there. They are always… always there.

I reached out in front of me, eyes still closed, to invite them even closer energetically. I invited in their touch and could feel the tiny hairs on my body ripple with their energy nearby. My elbows started to bend back towards me and my hands, no longer simply ‘mine’, found my cheeks. They explored my tears, fascinated by them, feeling my heart in them, letting me know that even though some of them don’t ‘feel’ the way we do as humans, they love us deeply. The ones who can feel us because in some ways they’ve BEEN us, offer such deep empathy and compassion that it’s hard to describe in anything but light language or simply energy. Just ask to experience this kind of love when you are ready and they will be there, offering as much of it as you are ready to let in…

I felt then, how they were here representing my own Star Family, yet also everyone’s Star Family. They offered a transmission then, which I published here. It was a transmission of encouragement, of deep feeling of us, and a beautiful reminder of how they are ALWAYS here with us and how everything we are experiencing now, no matter how challenging, is necessary and not without purpose.

I feel them inviting us all to ‘keep looking up’. Keep looking for them, physically and energetically. Psychically too. Keep ‘looking up’ for context whenever we feel parts of us still bound to 3D minutia and details and conditioning. Keep ‘looking up’ for breaks in the weather as we continue to move through all we are now, to become all we are meant to be.

If you need a guided meditation to help you along in connection to these energies for yourself, there are several from Jelelle Awen that I recommend as a powerful bridge for you:

Meet Your Star Family

Arcturian Healing Chamber

Also! ‘Free To Be Two’, the NEW 6-week group call series with Raphael and Jelelle Awen starts this coming Wednesday, May 20th: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2 — this is another way to connect with Star Family AND Soul Family too!

Much love, from my Star Family to yours… ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Free To Be 2: Navigating The 3D Matrix Collapse To New Earth Transition Six Week Group Call Experience Starts May 20!!

By Jelelle Awen

In mid-March, I could feel the shiftings that I had been sensing on a 4D level (especially in the 4D AI Matrix/Reptilian level) for a couple of months start to manifest in our world. This was when businesses started to close, schools sent children home, non-essential travel was discouraged, and life as we had known it for so long went on pause. As it became increasingly clear that this was a significant global awakening event (far beyond just a restriction due to a virus), I felt the call to offer a shelter in the storm during the beginning phase of it. I felt there would be much to digest and feel about what would be disclosed during the detox to 3D life.

That shelter took the form of a weekly group call series over Zoom that we felt guided to call “Free To Be.” I put together the topics for each group call in about ten minutes, letting my soul download what would be needed in a loose way that would also allow for meeting the needs of the moment as we went along. Raphael Awen, my beloved mate and co-creator/teacher/facilitator of our SoulFullHeart process, showed up WITH me for those six weeks, trusting that the structure, the content, and the participants would flow and find their way.

We were amazed when the call generated over $2,300 CAD in an unexpected and very welcome revenue for us through the offering of completely optional donations. The donations ranged from $5 to $160 depending on what people could afford to give during this time of pressed income earning and economic shutdown. Over 66 souls signed up to join us on this journey, to either attend live every Wednesday at 10:00am PDT or to receive the recording and listen when they could.

For six Wednesdays in a row, we gathered in our ‘zircle’ to connect in an organically formed community together. Raphael and I offered expansive teachings from the SoulFullHeart paradigm and process, plus sharings from our personal processes and experiences during sessions with others. The presence of the Divine Mother and Divine Father was felt throughout the series, showing up mostly in the form of Yeshua, the Magdalenes (Mother Mary, Mary, Anna) and Kuan Yin. The guided meditations during every call were rich visualization journeys and high frequency Divine love energy transmissions, providing an invitation to go deeper within, bridging to parts and Metasoul aspects from other lifetimes that needed connection and comfort, plus necessary digestion of all the shiftings going on in the collective and in our personal lives during this event. We bridged to the inner masculine/Protector, the part of us that is most involved in our relationships, the Reptilian Self, aspects in other lifetimes, the Gatekeeper, and much more.

Every call we had at least 30 souls show up with us, which felt like such a blessing to feel their virtual presence contributing to the Unity Consciousness vibe. There were active sharings and conversations on the chat, and individual sharings during the calls from those who felt moved to do so. The energy amongst the group was supportive, empathic, compassionate, and resonate….a true balm to the contentious energies moving through in so many interactions right now! We formed a community during these calls, with many choosing to share more about their experience on our SoulFullHeart Facebook group after the calls. Eventually, we also started offering follow-up discussion group calls with SoulFullHeart Facilitators/Collaborators Kalayna Solais and Gabriel Heartman to allow more digestion of what was happening during the calls and a more intimate space for connection. You can read more about the Free To Be series here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

It was clear about halfway into the first series that we wanted to offer another one. It felt like an abrupt cutoff to a shared experience that was offering so much to all of us! So, out came the next offering from us during what feels like the next phase of this transition….reopening. Free To Be Two: Navigating The 3D Matrix Collapse to New Earth Transition is our new six week group call series, again occurring every Wednesday at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time). The series starts on Wednesday, May 20th at 10:00am PDT and runs until June 24. There is more info about Free To Be 2 here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

We are offering this second installment of our Free To Be Group Call series experience as a bridge to becoming more aligned with your Higher (5D) Self during this time of 3D/4D Matrix collapse during this Coronavirus event and beyond it.  Through this Free To Be Two series, you will feel empowered to think about and feel through the practical steps to walk out at this time, including a focus on money transition to soul purpose livelihood. You will also feel the social area of your life and connect to the ‘black sheep’ and socially rejected part of you who wants to step out into their truth in a new way. You’ll receive more sense of the 3D Matrix/Cabal collapse that is going on in order to unplug from it and deeper galactic support/activation from your star family. And finally, you’ll realize your potential to BEcome an Ambassador of Love and 5D Bridge into the New Earth to others and other parts of you as well.

You can attend the calls live with us and you will receive the recordings to keep and listen to later if you want to or can’t make it live. You can donate to join us at any time with ANY amount that you want to offer after May 20th and we will send you the recordings of those group calls you might have missed. You do not need to have attended or listened to the six group calls from our first series before coming to this second one. Although, we do highly recommend listening to the recordings from the first Free To Be series.

You can offer a donation to attend and receive the recordings of the Free To Be Two Series; to join the follow-up discussion group calls every Saturday during the series; and purchase the recordings from the first Free To Be series at our shop or via: paypal.me/jelelleawen. If offering via paypal, please provide a note letting us know what you are purchasing.

We are excited to see where this next Free To Be journey takes us and to connect with those of you drawn to join us! We look forward to connecting deeper with you!

If you have any questions, please email Raphael Awen at soulfullhearts@gmail.com or send him a message via the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/SoulFullHeart-Way-Of-Life-

Love,

Jelelle and Raphael Awen, Kalayna Solais and Gabriel Heartman

We are now offering a free consultation call for 30-45 minutes with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen or Kalayna Solais for you to learn more about the SoulFullHeart Process, what happens in sessions, mutually determine if the process is a fit for you at this time, and if so, which Facilitator to meet with in sessions. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

“I could sense that the ‘Free To Be series’ was going to be a huge portal for me and my parts, I knew I was being invited into BIG shifts if I was ready to jump in. Sometimes there is only a sense of something that draws or calls you in, a knowing, this is going to be HUGE. The topics of each week somehow felt like they were designed to support me through what was next, the Divine knowing what was coming even as me and my parts did not. I did not want to miss the opportunity of expansion that I know continuously comes through the SoulFullHeart process, or being in the circle of BIG Souls that it draws too.” Deva Yasmin, Free To Be participant, SoulFullHeart Collaborator -Read rest of writing here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2020/04/23/free-to-be-series-digestions-reflections/

3D/4D Matrix Is Collapsing: Revelation/Rebellion/Liberation For Humanity

By Jelelle Awen

This really is a momentous time in humanity’s experience of falling into deep densities of 3D duality/polarity to Ascend again into unity consciousness! This phase feels like the disclosure and revelation that needs to happen in order to wake up more souls into awareness of the enslavement and control systems that have been in place for so long. The phase of awareness, knowing, and learning is an important one and each soul goes through that in their own ways. Some souls respond readily to facts and proof; others follow their intuition and ‘gut’ knowing to discover the truth; others need to see action and take action.

This waking up phase was always going to be messy. Clashes of opinions and perspectives; power struggles from those not wanting to lose control being challenged finally by those who had so long been suppressed; peaks of control and manipulation so that the necessary rebellion would finally spark. It seems that we are at this time of peak New World Order/Cabal/Deep State/Elites agenda of population mind control through the mainstream media/medicine, etc. being implemented during this supposed quarantine. WHILE, at the same time, this previously hidden agenda is being more and more revealed and resisted. The Q/Alliance movement has been blowing on the sparks of this revelation and rebellion (coming still from a polarized good vs. evil energy) yet providing a necessary fuel for the death and rebirth process to ignite.

This revelation seems to be possible because of the 3D Matrix collapse and detox that is going on right now in this previously unprecedented way. With most of the world shut down from the usual 3D routines of work-eat-sleep repeat, there is more time for learning, for seeking, for feeling/processing (the stages of grief) and for rebelling. There is more time for awakening!

Rebellion is a necessary phase of this awakening too. Rebellion is personal truth and sovereignty being accessed and a ‘NO!’ being declared to the energies that have previously controlled, manipulated, and enslaved. The seeds of rebellion often exist in our Inner Teenager, who received invalidation rather than initiation into their soul frequencies, so their rebellion against the 3D conditioning and programming wasn’t able to express. This rebellion happens on a 3D and 4D level as necessary, because these are the dimensions where duality of victim/tyrant/saviour experience are even possible.

During this revelation and rebellion phase, many souls will go against each other, take sides, create enemies to fight and battle against, be one of the ‘good guys’ or one of the ‘bad guys’. If their consciousness is still anchored to this duality, then they need to do this…moving into the polarity in order to emerge out the other side of it in more of a neutral, compassionate, and non-charged place. On a higher soul level, there aren’t any real bad guys or evil, as ALL of it is of the Divine and returns to the Divine. Yet the experience of being harmed and of fear IS real in the lower dimensions for the parts of us and Soul Aspects that need to be felt, digested, and cleared in a validated and compassionate way.

This revelation and rebellion is also possible because of a seemingly significant collapse in the Archon AI 4D Matrix. As I’ve shared about before, this 4D Matrix (which is the source of the 3D matrix) has required the enslavement of many Reptilians to entwine with their human counterparts in order to keep it operational. The Reptilian is used as a battery or power source to project the 3D Matrix reality to and through the human (and sometimes even a group of humans). The Reptilians themselves have often been captured and held against their will, the AI using their Unity Consciousness frequency bandwidth ‘against them’ to broadcast their One Mind control programs through them.

Many people during the revelation phases of their awakening become fixated on the Reptilians as the ‘ultimate evil ones’ (once they move beyond the Global elite/Satanic bloodline human level), when actually these Reptilians are puppets and slaves in similar ways as many humans as well. I have met so many beautiful Reptilian Beings in sessions who are able to be connected to and unplugged from the AI Matrix by their human counterparts once the layers of fear and resistance to them are moved through.

The true power and control has been at the level above them, the Archonic Realm or Archonic Group or just ‘The Group’, who seem to be shadowy figures (who didn’t feel Reptilian) with mostly AI functioning, devoid of empathy, and playing their roles too in running both the 3D and 4D matrices of control. When I connected with the Archonic Group recently, they were turned away from the Matrix programs, as if they were no longer interested in them. They told me that Reptilians and Humans were now ‘released from the program, let go and free to go.’ The Archons were now going to go into ‘reconciliation’ mode to digest the harm and suffering they had caused on the Earth and 4D planes. I got the sense that they signed up to play this role in order to somehow move into feeling emotions again and reactivate their empathy as a collective which happens as they receive Divine forgiveness for their actions.

I felt the significance of this as it was being shown to me. The sense was that we truly are now FREE. The prison doors have been unlocked and are now OPEN. It is now up to us as emancipated prisoners to walk through them and claim our freedom. This is true on both the human level and the Reptilian level. Mutual liberation is important as without that process, the Reptilian’s consciousness in 4D remains anchored to AI Archon mind control programs as a ‘default state’.

On a higher soul level, we CHOOSE these roles to play and these things to experience along with a deep veil of amnesia in order to fully immerse into it. The time of amnesiac immersion into these dualistic playouts is completing and we are now being invited by the Divine to rise into our sovereignty and freedom again.

We are being invited to ‘do no harm’ to ourselves and to other sentient beings while the exposure of the deep harm, abuse, and violence of humans (especially children) and animals is being disclosed.

We are being invited to see and feel no one as truly an enemy even as we come into revelation of them, yet extend forgiveness as it is ready to be received.

We are being invited to become Sacred Humanity and become the Infinite Love that we ARE and to create a world that reflects that truth of our essence once again!

love,

Jelelle Awen

Here is a guided meditation to meet your Reptilian Self and unplug them from the AI Matrix: https://youtu.be/pA7ZjZj2K8M

We’ll be sharing more about this in our group call, the fourth in our Free To Be series, on Wednesday, April 29th at 10:00am to attend live and/or receive the recording. The topic will be about accessing the 4D AI Matrix, along with the 3D Matrix, and connecting with your Reptilian Self around this to deepen the unplugging process.You are welcome to join us and/or receive the recording for a donation. More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

Thank you to Gabriel Heartman for the graphic art for this post!

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. Jelelle is no longer offering 1:1 sessions yet for more information about  1:1 individual sessions with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls with Jelelle, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Finding Compassion As We Calibrate To The Truth Of Our Times

By Kalayna Solais

Pretty intense head and neck pain this morning which started last night… a detox and a calibration too after going down more ‘rabbit holes’ which has become a daily venture lately. I don’t feel much emotional reaction to it all anymore now aside from waves of necessary tears that open up to swells of deepening compassion even for the ‘culprits’, as I can feel they are still my ‘brothers and sisters’ and how we are always connected.

The world of celebrity (which is one of the main rabbit holes to go down right now) is one of duality, of separation, of energizing ‘I am a god/goddess and you are not’ and with the recent WHO support concert, ‘Together at Home’, this gap and separation has been praised and preached on in other ways too, encouraging the audience to embrace all of the now mandated social/physical separation as a new lifestyle. It’s an ‘Elite’ agenda disguised as a message of hope from on high, just as so many dark and covert messages have been disguised for decades, masked by propaganda and many mind-controlled ‘puppets’ in the world of the rich and famous and in the mainstream media too. This article I took in yesterday made some amazing points about it all: https://vigilantcitizen.com/moviesandtv/together-at-home-was-an-infomercial-for-the-global-elite-and-its-agenda/

The veil is becoming pretty thin around all of this now though with more information more easily available and more souls ready to take it in and feel all they need to feel about it, running the gamete of mourning reactions from denial to anger to sadness to hopelessness. I feel how this is what’s supposed to happen now as these ways of celebrating duality in these dark and ultimately very, very painful expressions are running out of ground and about to reach a new level of healing that’s becoming accessible as those who were once considered powerful are now realizing they are quite vulnerable and grasping at straws trying to avoid truly feeling that in themselves.

It’s so easy to feel disillusioned and depressed at this time of awakening and many souls will need to be in that for a while… the ‘sheen’ is wearing off of what was once considered shiny and attractive about celebrity, about immense business ‘achievement’, about the real and often gritty work of awakening through these intense and challenging birth canals of expanded awareness. I for one didn’t know much about the Elite pedophile rings until now and it’s been VERY important to allow myself and every part of me to be with the reactions and feel them, even the cognitive dissonance that does eventually lead to deep tears of feeling the young ones involved in all of it. Through these feelings I find context again though and was offered strongly last night to ‘not be afraid’ and to remember that even those souls who have chosen to be the perpetrators are my ‘brothers and sisters’ and often they aren’t fully aware of what they’re doing or, they are walking out the expressions of extreme polarity that they’re meant to in their lifetime to help us see and reconcile our own darkness.

Enter now our awakening connections (though still largely unconscious for many of us) to our Reptilian aspect(s) in other dimensions who are witnessing all of this and awakening themselves. I felt my own, whose name is Skeevra, come in last night to feel this all through with me, everything that I’ve been reading and downloading and feeling. I began my conscious connection with Skeevra a couple of months ago and she was dazed then, just coming out of ‘hive mind’ and realizing she had an individuality to now embrace as well as a connection to the rest of my Galactic aspects who quickly took her into their care. She feels quite cleared of that cloud she was in now and wanted to be with me this morning as I write this piece, for some of these playouts of AI mind control, pleasure at any cost and always in close relationship to pain, lack of empathy, etc, originate from the Reptilian dimensions yet are also being reconciled there as more and more of them begin to heal their separation from the Divine and from Love itself.

Skeevra doesn’t have many ‘words’ but sends me pictures as we communicate. I saw her molting today and felt how this is happening for me too, layers and layers that have kept my heart from feeling more compassion for others and served me to stay in outrage reactions and an over-fixation on dissonance in my life rather than nourishing the resonance. These are all Reptilian energies and they are in reaction/response to the newly evolving self-awareness in many of them that awakens as WE awaken for we cannot separate from them or any other being in this universe.

These reactions are in fact normal and necessary to feel and there is so much Divine compassion for all of us, no matter what we are feeling in reaction to what we hear or read about right now or at any time. There is always, though, an invitation to move through it and let the Divine support you on your way back to love consciousness, back to an awareness of WHY this has all been happening, what we are to learn from it all about TRUE and DEEP compassion and empathy, and why we absolutely need to have that for ourselves, within ourselves, on our journey to feel that deeper with others. Feeling this for and with our own individual Reptilian connections feels like a key to this deeper movement/healing.

In all of this, I keep coming back to the same context… that we wouldn’t have been walking this out, living out these patterns and this duality if we didn’t NEED to on our path to Ascension. Ascension is, ultimately, a return to Divine love and consciousness, a return to beautiful awareness of our Divinity and Christ-light within. We have steps to be with on the path to this embodiment and all of them are sacred… even in these extreme and sometimes incredibly shocking playouts of ‘other-ness’.

Much love from my ever-finding-its-way and VERY humbled sacred human heart to yours… ❤

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I highly recommend connecting with Jelelle Awen’s guided meditation to meet your Reptilian aspect if you’re curious about that for yourself: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pA7ZjZj2K8M&feature=youtu.be

Also! THIS coming Wednesday, April 29th, Raphael and Jelelle will be talking about connecting with your Reptilian aspect and unplugging from the AI/4D Matrix during their next group call in the “Free to Be’ series. More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

Raphael Awen and I are available for 1:1 sessions to help you explore these reactions and connections within yourself… for more info on sessions, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Navigating Practical Transition During This 3D Matrix To New Earth Transition: Group Call On Wed. April 8th W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen

Join Raphael Awen and Jelelle Awen for our explorative and expansive Free To Be Series six week group call series running until May 6th! Ongoing enrollment is open throughout the series so you can join us at ANY time. The next group call is tomorrow, Wednesday, April 8th at 10:00am PDT over Zoom about Navigating the Practical Transition from 3D to 5D New Earth.

In this call, we will be teaching and talking about the practical transition that is happening now as the 3D Matrix/Coronavirus Shutdown is happening, including light body activation transition, money financial/reset, geography choices, shifting to service of love as your livelihood, etc.

In the meditation, we will connect with your Inner Masculine to open up negotiation and provide support to them.There will then be space for personal sharings and to receive reflections from us and others via the chat. You can attend this call live and we will send you the recording of this call and the first one from last Wednesday if you missed it. There is more info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe

This Free to Be Experience serves as a bridge into the 3D Detox/3D Matrix Collapse to 5D New Earth Transition we are all experiencing right now through the Coronavirus reboot. We are offering this call series experience by ongoing donation and enrollment as a bridge to those of you who are wanting to deepen your integration of your awakenings and experience yourself as becoming more aligned with your Higher (5D) Self. Connecting with other resonant souls during the calls plus membership on our SoulFullHeart Experience Facebook page provides a much needed community during this time of transition.

The Group calls are two hours, you can attend live and you’ll receive the recording. The calls are every Wednesday starting April 1, 2020 through May 6, 2020 on Wednesdays at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada timezone). You can join us at any time during the series and will receive the recordings of any calls that you missed.

Here is a timezone converter: https://www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/converter.html

Weekly Topics of the Group Calls: (please go to https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe to read more about the content and the guided meditations)

Week One – Navigating The 3D Matrix Switch Over and New Earth Transition W/Your 3D SelfGroup Call: April 1, 2020 at 10:00am-12:00pm PDT – RECORDING NOW AVAILABLE
Week Two – Navigating Practical Transition w/your Inner MasculineGroup Call: April 8, 2020 at 10:00am-12:00pm PDT
Week Three – Processing Collapse Experiences W/Your Inner Child and Other Lifetime AspectsGroup Call: April 15, 2020 at 10:00am-12:00pm PDT
Week Four – Navigating Relationships During The TransitionGroup Call: April 22, 2020 at 10:00am-12:00pm PDT
Week Five – Unplugging From the 4D AI MatrixGroup Call: April 29, 2020 at 10:00am-12:00pm PDT
Week Six – Becoming A New Earth/5D Bridge Group Call: May 6, 2020 at 10:00am-12:00 PDT

Donation: Enrollment is open to the public and to all men and women over 18 ongoingly. You can offer a donation at ANY time to receive the recordings and/or attend the calls. There is no minimum donation, so offer what you can afford and feels comfortable to you at this time. You can offer a donation for the entire series at once or for each call if you want although you will receive access to attend all the calls or receive the recordings anyway.

You can offer your donation via our shop/stripe here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop
You can offer a donation of $10 CAD or $15 CAD or multiples (2 for $20 or $30, 3 for $30 or $45, etc.) or a combination of both for the entire series. You can also offer donations after every group call if you’d like to or at once.

Or you can offer whatever donation amount you would like via paypal in CAD here: paypal.me/jelelleawen

After we receive your donation, we will receive an email with the Zoom link information to join the calls live and will also email you the recordings of the group calls after they occur and any you might have missed. Please make sure that the email associated with your accounts is current and note that you are purchasing the Free To Be group call series if paying by paypal.

Please contact Raphael Awen on this blog or via email at soulfullhearts@gmail.com with any questions.
Fore more information, please visit: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe
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Testimonials after week one:

“I was on the live call today and it was such a loving safe space that was much needed for me, so thank you very much for showing up and holding this series!”- Stephanie

“This was such a warm call! I enjoyed interacting with everyone on the chat too, feeling what everyone is digesting right now. This is just the beginning of this 6-week journey, which is going to be quite epic in its movements and the deep opportunity for resonant community to arise too, which we all need big time.” – Kalayna

“Thank you so much for offering your services and heart space this way! Very appreciated! I loved your energy, Jelelle, and Raphael’s btw VERY much, you guys are such beacons and role models for a sacred union, such beautiful Love emanates from you and is flowing between you!” – Bianca

“It was so amazing to be a part of all of this focused heart energy. I feel like a deluge of rain has just landed in the once desert part of my soul and now flowers are blooming. Thanks so much to you Raphael, Jelelle, Kalayna, and Raianna for putting this together and bringing us together during this time.” – Gabriel

“Thank you so much for this experience, for facilitating this group meeting and teaching, for providing us with many useful tools! It was amazing.” – Maggie

‘Apocalypse’ Can Be Self Lovingly Negotiated

by Raphael Awen

Who’d have guessed that we’d have both Armageddon as well as New Earth playouts/narratives underway at the same time, all the while being collectively stuck bored at home?

Feeling the part of you that doesn’t quite know what to make of all this, even if you are on the inside track to ‘what’s really going on’, feels really important as we nurse and hold ourselves through this birth canal.

I find that the more inside knowledge I track, have or adopt, the more questions I also have, and that makes for discomfort for a part of me, understandably so.
The calls for breathing and patience are renewed every hour, in response to the impatience and ache for what wants to come.

Standing in line outside at Whole Foods yesterday, doing the 6-foot thing, I made it to the front of the line and watched a guy hurriedly walk out with a basket of groceries without paying. It felt like someone hungry and out of money who said ‘fuck it, I’m going for what I need’.

How much more of that will we witness as people check out of the game they’ve played, as they feel the game around them crumble?

How will your world fare as the world around you goes through its necessary death and rebirth pains?

Those external questions can’t really be answered, except with new questions that can be answered internally.

What parts of you are checking out of the games they’ve played and supported in 3D?

How will you support that movement in self-loving and negotiated ways?

What new games truly worth playing can you offer them?

This gets really practical and personal for each of us, and it needs to. Life, money, needs, relationships, all of it is undoubtedly changing.

Apocalypse can be self lovingly negotiated to the degree you are willing to lean into life and love and show up for the parts of you in turmoil. The turmoil is a transmutative portal.

Much love,
Raphael Awen

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Please join Jelelle Awen and myself this coming Wednesday for week two of our 6-week, by donation, Free To Be Group Call series, where we’ll be speaking about ‘navigating practical transition with your inner masculine’.

More here:
https://facebook.com/events/s/free-to-be-virtual-group-call-/1095703640763727/?ti=icl

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@peterlaster

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

444 Portal Day: We Are ALL On Our Way To The NEW

by Kalayna Solais

During my dark night experience late in 2019, I saw the number sequence 44 or 444 quite often.

I looked up the meaning and some of what I read resonated, but it wasn’t until I asked someone in person what they felt it meant based on their own sense of number sequences, that I found an explanation that truly landed…

44 as a number pattern reminds us that we are on our way, that we are doing the work necessary to fulfill our intentions, that we are ‘on track’… And that even though it’s a challenging and winding road and we may feel wedged in between timelines, the timeline we most desire to be part of IS emerging as we emerge from the inner darkness and the growthful paths we’re on now.

In other words, I could really feel 44 and 444 as an alchemy of light meets dark, of emerging from difficult situations, especially inside, with our dreams not only intact but enhanced, as we upgrade from the inside out everything within us.

When parts of me could let in this message at that time, it helped let in some Divine air that everything was flowing as it needed to, even if I felt reactions, mourning, sadness, and a ton of uncertainty. Where this whole phase of my life led me was to deeper alignment with my heart and soul purpose, a graduated and deepened sense of who I AM and what I most deeply wanted but humbly knew I was in the process of getting ready for. It lasted a couple of months and then I was reunited with soul family in a deeper way than ever before or that I was even remotely expecting, though I held the beacon of possibility very close to my heart.

444 today feels like it offers the same or similar energies of accepting a darker phase before the real alignment and real light, especially from within but also in our outer worlds, comes up and out.

The disclosure process we’re in now, seeing and feeling so much rumbling below the surface, is all so important to access the greater light available to us all. It’s a dark time but there are pockets of hope, possibility, and a very real transition to a New Earth/5D experience of life as a whole!

Much love to you on this auspicious 444 day…

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant & collaborative assistant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.