You Are Infinite

By Raphael Awen

As a being, you constantly express this infinity that you are, whether you are aware of it or not. This infinity manifests in you as both the desire for all things as well as the deep gratitude for all things. There is nothing in the universe that is not you, nothing that is separate from you.

Even the apparent created reality of a separate and distinct self, a finite self, is a created reality that we dialled up from our infinite self, to learn within. The finite was parented from the infinite.

Even the relationship you have with life wherein lack has been made the main story and conscious  waking reality are also a powerful manifestation of the super-abundant reality that you ARE. You, AS INFINITY, dialled up an all too real feeling storyline of lack in which parts of you are the main characters living out something so far removed from the super abundant infinity that you are. Your waking conscious reality is actually one still very much asleep possibly.

Your soul knows that the letting go of the original conscious awareness of this super abundant infinity of being in order to enter an amnesia and subsequent awakening/re-membering process IS where the true gold of being is found….where each of us is reborn into something so much more than we were, even compared to who and what we were before we chose the amnesia. Even our original bliss state was undiscovered and immature. 

Many dream of winning the lottery only to find that those who do cannot digest the instant rise to super abundance as they have not had a process of acclimating themselves to the wealth. The dream of ‘having it all’ comes from a subconscious knowing that they already ARE and have it all, and the inability to hold the All (lottery winnings) also comes from the unintegrated subconscious deep storylines of lack.

If you and I already possess it All, but we are living in a self-created story of something less than the dawning realization of that, then the present story we find ourselves in is the creation of our super abundant infinity.

And if we created this and are creating this, then we did this in order to awaken to THAT, and to feel all there is to feel in relation to the present created reality. Like a movie producer and story writer, we gave ourselves these dramas in order to feel the things that we as a soul knew we needed to feel in order to realize what we set out to realize. We are out and about ‘real’-izing the infinity that we are.

If this is true, then we have our work cut out for us. The ‘work’ has up till now gone on even in our unawareness and unawakened state, as we now awaken to an ever more conscious state of choice, intention and effort towards inhabiting what we most deeply and truly want. We discover that our waking reality is actually a bad dream and a sleeping reality that we wish to awaken from, that we get to awaken from, and that as unpleasant as this bad dream was and is, it is actually all originating in love, and part of love. 

We’ve been given the seeds, the soil, the sun and the water, and now, the awareness that we ARE the gardener who is growing the garden of self, of love, of surrender to the divinity and infinity moving within our souls.

Our mandate now is ‘just feel what there is to feel’ and thereby to let-in this transmutation of our being that we are living out in each moment.

Each of us has new and powerful story lines awaiting our choice and appetite to step into. We chose this. Infinity itself is watching you with wonder and awe at what you will choose next.

If you are seeking a conscious awakening into the more that you already are, I offer a free initial consult into what ongoing sessions within the SoulFullHeart process could look like and feel like for you. Please check us out at our website below and be in touch.

Much Love,

Raphael Awen

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Feeling The Fears Of Deepening Intimacy In Sacred Union

by Raphael Awen

When we hide and compartmentalize our deeper truths to ourselves and others, we are rolling a stone up a hill, that gets larger and larger with time. Eventually, that stone gives way and demolishes those compartments, and reveals much about our fears, our shadow, as well as our light.


I have found this as a pattern that has shown up in my earliest relationships this life, and also in my Metasoul family as well. It came up yesterday (again) in my deepening intimacy with Jelelle, where even the finer attempts at compartments falter sooner and sooner. Ultimately, those compartments are about the fear of intimacy, and strangely (or maybe not so), even a fear of a deepening and proven intimacy.


To a part of me and in my Metasoul, it is still like the deepening intimacy is the stone being rolled up a hill, rather than the withheld truth. Then ‘the truth’ can be used as a threat in an attempt to return back to safety, to manage the fear, which gets into control and manipulation.

I was churning on all this last night and got out of bed to digest with Yeshua and Magdalene as well, being the perfect guides for a gender and Sacred Union need. They both assured me that this is the growth edge of the masculine and feminine now to lead with their vulnerability and their truth, in that order. They were also kind of amazed that I would seek to first find that reality inside as the source of the outward manifestation, as this wasn’t the deeper conscious reality in their lifetimes here on Gaia.
They also energized so much gratitude to me for being willing to walk this out, which spoke deeply to the remorse and almost shame I felt for causing hurt or blocks to intimacy in all of my relationships, regardless of the degree.

This I feel is the new playground ‘I Am’ being invited into, one my soul has always craved and longed for – truer and truer Sacred Union within and without.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

You Are The One You’ve Been Waiting For

By Raphael Awen

Never before in our lifetimes has there been an opportunity like the one that stands before us now, in the Now. Every longing and ache you’ve experienced to inhabit new energies, new unfolding timelines, realizations of your soul purpose expression, drawing the deeper mateship of deep heart, soul and body resonance; all of that and more is at the door in a way that it hasn’t quite been before.

If that feels true, for a part of you, it can produce anxiety around the questions of how, or will I actually be able to take advantage of this time, or worse – who am I to think I could actually see dreams come true. That only happens in fairy tales.

Well, your life is a fairy tale.

The fairies are waiting to tell the tale of you as you make the changes that your heart is calling you to, in this do or die drama that you find yourself in. The fairies along with hosts of other dimensional support beings await your courage and choice to embrace this birthright of your being.

Never before has the feeling of possibility been so pitted against the feelings of ‘it will never happen.’ Where is all this madness coming from you ask? It’s coming from inside of you. Between you and life as you know it and these unmistakable dreams that never cease to haunt you lies your emotional body, and visceral reactions coming from parts of you to this opportunity that is here now. Never before have they wanted what they want like they want it now. Never before have they felt such hopelessness at the same time. Who wants to step into this chaos, and who would step into this chaos should one choose to do so?

A Higher Self version of you, a Super-Me, as I heard it called this week, is wanting to lead you into the centre of this chaos, at least what feels like chaos to a part of you. This Higher Self version of you doesn’t see this chaos as anything but an opportunity that your soul has longed to inhabit. Your Higher Self version of you isn’t waiting for any outside authority to issue you a licence or an authorization to proceed. That authority can only come from you. Your Higher Self cannot and will not act independent of you, the you that you normally think of as you. You came here to learn about your power and your choice. You came here to learn about the distraction of giving your power away to outside-of-you authorities and then from there, to come to learn the comparative difference of what it feels like to be in your power, and then from that new there, you get to be a broadcast of that very thing into the collective for others to tune into for their own becoming.

The biggest choice to engage this power is to no longer deny this domain of what has felt like chaos to you, in your emotional body, the feeling reactions coming from parts of you that have deeply shaped your life as you know it today. The reactions of deep despair in relationship with your unrealized dreams are the portal to the path of actually fulfilling those dreams. The first step onto this path of realization is just as fulfilling as the next, and the one after that, and strangely not any more exciting than a week or a year from now. It’s all unfolding you. The courage you will foster and grow within this new arising you will be called upon to embrace new journeys in this unfolding of your fairy tale of the infinite love that you are.

What if a romance novel or porn addiction is only a shadow version of these aches and longings awaiting your escort into a new life? What if the battles with money and work life chaos is only a drama awaiting your embrace of what’s real inside? What if illness in your body is only a call inward, nothing more, that resolves itself in self loving inquiry? What if it’s all YOU waiting and wanting to come into the ripe possibility that every cell in your body is attesting to being here Now? Love is wanting to prove something to you, something new, one profound and magical step at a time.

You and only you are the one you’ve been waiting for.

I offer a free initial consultation for those drawn to the SoulFullHeart process of deep healing and awakening. More here: soulfullheart.org/sessions. I’d so welcome hearing from you if you feel I and SoulFullHeart is part of your next steps on your awakening journey.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

 

‘Apocalypse’ Can Be Self Lovingly Negotiated

by Raphael Awen

Who’d have guessed that we’d have both Armageddon as well as New Earth playouts/narratives underway at the same time, all the while being collectively stuck bored at home?

Feeling the part of you that doesn’t quite know what to make of all this, even if you are on the inside track to ‘what’s really going on’, feels really important as we nurse and hold ourselves through this birth canal.

I find that the more inside knowledge I track, have or adopt, the more questions I also have, and that makes for discomfort for a part of me, understandably so.
The calls for breathing and patience are renewed every hour, in response to the impatience and ache for what wants to come.

Standing in line outside at Whole Foods yesterday, doing the 6-foot thing, I made it to the front of the line and watched a guy hurriedly walk out with a basket of groceries without paying. It felt like someone hungry and out of money who said ‘fuck it, I’m going for what I need’.

How much more of that will we witness as people check out of the game they’ve played, as they feel the game around them crumble?

How will your world fare as the world around you goes through its necessary death and rebirth pains?

Those external questions can’t really be answered, except with new questions that can be answered internally.

What parts of you are checking out of the games they’ve played and supported in 3D?

How will you support that movement in self-loving and negotiated ways?

What new games truly worth playing can you offer them?

This gets really practical and personal for each of us, and it needs to. Life, money, needs, relationships, all of it is undoubtedly changing.

Apocalypse can be self lovingly negotiated to the degree you are willing to lean into life and love and show up for the parts of you in turmoil. The turmoil is a transmutative portal.

Much love,
Raphael Awen

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Please join Jelelle Awen and myself this coming Wednesday for week two of our 6-week, by donation, Free To Be Group Call series, where we’ll be speaking about ‘navigating practical transition with your inner masculine’.

More here:
https://facebook.com/events/s/free-to-be-virtual-group-call-/1095703640763727/?ti=icl

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@peterlaster

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Co-Creating The World We Dare Dream For Ourselves

by Raphael Awen

It feels so strange to consider the possibility that there isn’t actually a dividing line between reality and imagination.

The imagination is kind of like the movie writer and director who did such a great job, that all they needed to do was remove the end credits, and the viewers seamlessly slipped into another timeline of reality.

Make no mistake, the reality you and I love in, personally, collectively, globally, galactically, is completely ‘made up’ and not at all ‘real’ in the sense of what we mean when we use that word. In other words, It’s a reality being generated from somewhere. Reality and imagination are just opposite ends of the same measuring stick, and that stick is essentially you, along with me and the rest of us.

We lean into and adopt a given reality as independently true when that reality is completely dependent upon the imagination that generated and continues to uphold the projection we call reality. The movie reel is the imagination. The movie projector is also the imagination. The viewer is also taking in the imagination and then co-creating and co-signing ‘reality’, which in turn spawns new imaginations, a bunch more layers of creative reality projections to support the first assumption that reality is just real, and then the illusion becomes quite watertight and we have the experience of losing our awareness that we are making all this shit up!

And if we are making all this shit up, then we can change the recipe and make big ol’ batches of heaven instead.

I can think of favorite foods and get a physiological response to happen in my body. You can too, right? I certainly can dream romantically and sexually and have that take me somewhere, quite exquisite actually. Right? So what else is yet untapped in our working knowledge of employing the imagination to create the new reality we might dare to dream?

If any of this is accurate, we may well ask yet an even deeper question; ‘What would then prevent us from assuming our power and getting on with creating the world we dare dream for ourselves, the world we dare dream for one another?’ I don’t believe it is simply a lacking of awareness of our creative power. We are ignorant of it, yes, but there’s something underneath that willful ignorance. We need something more, more than the message that we are the creators.

What I feel that ignorance and something more to really be about is our inability to bear joy and sorrow. Joy and sorrow are the open-ended extremes of being alive in polarity. You can’t have one without the other. You only find and know love to the degree you are willing to be vulnerable to losing that love. What’s so great about having a child, for instance, is the knowledge that you could lose that child, and if not to death, then simply to growing up. That’s the knowing that affords you the reverence you need to afford you truly ‘having’ in the moment. The dream of having a child truly comes alive when you feel the vulnerability and even guarantee of losing that child. We then enter the moment where all gain and loss occurs and we experience awe and reverence.

The universe doesn’t spare anyone of us with any guarantee of the present remaining unchanged, or that we won’t lose; only insurance policies attempt that trick, which is akin to trying to purchase something you already own but are unaware of. Instead, the universe promises you, that you will lose what you gained, and therein are you afforded the grace to really be with the joy of having, and when you’ve had all the having you can handle, you enter the grace to let it go and to allow it to return to the abundance from whence it came – and you don’t actually ‘lose’ in this process of loss, because you are this joy, you are this sorrow. To be human is to sign up for joy and sorrow, for winning and losing. What game is any fun that you are guaranteed to win every time? The only ‘real illusion’ of security is the one you create for yourself being held in the arms of infinite, unending love, come what may. You are love and only love can’t win or lose anything because love is All and always will be. The imaginations and their created realities are all expressions of this unchanging love. Love couldn’t change itself, so it chose the next best thing, to create the illusion of loss, through which to expand itself and know itself more.
We are in these throes of everything changing, and when you feel it internally, it doesn’t really matter what’s changing or not changing externally. You can dial up anything you need to be in love, to be in light, to be in love’s embrace, to be in love’s radiance.

This, in turn, makes for a pretty exciting new dance ground for your inner feminine and inner masculine to show up for. Sex and love are only reverence and awe taken to higher heights.

These are the times we created for ourselves, personally, nationally, globally and galactically. Time now to invite your dreamer forward if you haven’t already.

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Join Jelelle Awen and I for a six-week group exploration over Zoom that started this  past Wednesday, April 1st at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) with teachings and guided meditations from us and space for individual sharings! The calls are two hours, by donation and whatever you can afford to give at this time of deep money transition for many. You can offer a donation for the entire series or just one at a time.

You can join us live and you also receive the recordings after every call and can watch them at any time after the calls if you cannot make it live.

Details here on FB at https://www.facebook.com/events/1095703627430395/
and at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/Freetobe

You can offer donations through our shop at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

We look forward to connecting deeper with you! If you have any questions, please email Kalayna Solais at soulfullhearts@gmail.com or send her a message via the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life Facebook page.

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@anniespratt

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

You Are The Insider Truly On The Inside

by Raphael Awen

In the end, what parts of us really need to know is how you are relating to the unknown, so they can settle into your holding of it.

With so much information swirling right now about what’s really going on behind the scenes; what’s coming next and when, it can get really intense for parts of you trying to track and predict, which in turn amplifies the underlying anxiety. Then, the further you get into trying to be informed, there’s all the crediting and discrediting going on about whose info is correct and whose isn’t, that you have to wade through.

The information you really want and need is that which comes from within. From within, there is a core feeling place that you can connect with and from which you can navigate sudden and even big change. Without that connection, all the knowing in the world won’t amount to much.

With this heartfelt connection, there is a palpable beauty beyond compare, that you get to feast on and radiate superabundantly to others. You get to have your Golden Earth now, amidst the shakeup, the collapses, the deaths and rebirths. You get to be right on time, in the deeper knowing. You get to be the insider truly on the inside!

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Jelelle Awen and I would be so honored and blessed if you would come join us for a six- week group exploration over Zoom that started on April 1st at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) with teachings and guided meditations from us and space for individual sharings! The calls are two hours, by donation and whatever you can afford to give at this time of deep money transition for many.

You can join us live and you can also receive the recordings at any time after the calls. We have some amazing soul family already signed up to come to this and we see a virtual community forming around these calls of resonance and support…MUCH needed during this time of so much shifting timelines and possibilities!

Details here on FB at https://www.facebook.com/events/1095703627430395/
and at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/Freetobe

You can offer donations through our shop at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Much love to you during this time of dynamic transition into the NEW from our USness to YOU,
Jelelle Awen and Raphael Awen

Here is a recent livestream with Raphael and I to give a sense of what the group calls will be like: https://youtu.be/cPRr6d1pxBw

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@koullislp

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Empowering The Inner Masculine, Feeling What You Really Want

by Raphael Awen

Time now to think about everywhere you’ve given or are giving away your power.

Remaining in unaddressed anxiety over money or debt, under its suppression, is giving away your power.

Remaining loyal to an old set of values thinking that is one’s path to the good life or a better life is giving away your power.

Remaining grounded in someone else’s truth that isn’t yours (ie. all social pretense of dead relationships, compliance with others or the government’s rules or laws, that oppose your truth is giving away your power.

What do you really want?

How are you going about owning that?

Who really knows your truth? Who needs to know it? Who doesn’t?

This is the empowered masculine arising within you. He knows that in the end, you can and will have what you actually want. He just needs reassurance that you are ready to have the truer things of what you really want. He doesn’t want to be your downfall. He doesn’t really want a shitstorm of reaction either from any part of you that might well get upset about losing their comforting game of victimhood. He wants to provide and he wants to be acknowledged. That’s what he’s built for. It’s up to you to lead the show, and then he can show up for a game truly worth playing.

You host this new game by beginning to feel what’s really going on inside, awakening your Inner Masculine, and awakening a swooning Inner Feminine. From there, anything and everything will change at a pace that can be negotiated and self-loving, without needing to disown anything, without needing to deny anything.

This is the opportune time that is here now where the game isn’t only changing but being reinvented by you and I as we come to terms with what we really want.

Jelelle Awen and I would be so honored and blessed if you would come join us for a six-week group exploration over Zoom starting next Wednesday, April 1st at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) with teachings and guided meditations from us and space for individual sharings! The calls are two hours, by donation and whatever you can afford to give at this time of deep money transition for many.

You can join us live and you can also receive the recordings at any time after the calls. We have some amazing soul family already signed up to come to this and we see a virtual community forming around these calls of resonance and support…MUCH needed during this time of so much shifting timelines and possibilities!

Details here on FB at https://www.facebook.com/events/1095703627430395/
and at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/Freetobe

You can offer donations through our shop at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Much love to you during this time of dynamic transition into the NEW!

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

“You Are Moving Into Love’s Reply To The Darkness” – Yeshua

by Raphael Awen

Raphael – Yeshua, this is Raphael. I’d sure like to ask your take on this Corona Virus reaction around our planet.

Yeshua – Hey, Raphael. Thanks for asking, but what is your question more specifically?

R – I feel how surreal this all feels for me personally. I feel parts of me wanting to stay ahead and be in the know of what’s really going on, and I feel reality itself being changed on so many levels. I feel hope for a true new world order of things and yet, I also feel how deep the conditioning goes around living under the taken-for-granted oppression that has been here my entire lifetime. How do you see all of this from where you are?

Y – I say ‘pinch yourself’ man! This is real. It is what has been longed for, for so long. The longing is and was part of the manifestation, so was the suffering and the deep darkness – all of it is connected and vital and all of it is love’s awakening journey. Love couldn’t be known, not to itself and not to an other, were it not for fear and what is called evil. Evil itself, and harm originated when love birthed both duality and other out of its original state of oneness. Love needed both contrast and ‘other’ to know itself.

R – It was hard to type those words just now, that harm and evil originated from love. I can’t see that being very popular of a message, Yeshua. Aren’t we intended to right the wrongs, to stand for the good, and oppose hate, fear and harm?

Y – Raphael. You were birthed into duality and individuality out of oneness, but you never were separated from love in the process, it only felt like that, understandably so. The great fall was a fall in perception, yet all too real at the same time. The great awakening is equally an awakening in perception, that similarly creates a new reality.

R – But Yeshua, the pain, especially to the innocent children feels so off the charts, so evil…

Y – The children are the greatest testament and trigger to the awakening – there are so many tears that are needing to be cried and cried.

R – I recall the text where you told the disciples ‘Suffer not the little children to come unto me, for of such is the kingdom of heaven.’

Y – Heaven has registered every last price paid in this awakening journey of love itself to itself. The children, like we all were, and yet are still at heart, are heaven’s biggest debtors and creditors both. Those who have suffered the most will know the greatest fullness and all will be forgotten and forgiven. Their debt will not and does not go unacknowledged. It simply cannot. When ‘evil’ makes a stride, it invites love to meet it. You are moving into love’s reply to the darkness that has held a long and deep hold.

R – So it’s like then, the evil or harm is the agent of love, the agent that calls love forward?

Y – This is so new to feel, and even new to me, so don’t feel bad. I had a big deal investment into fighting the evil for a long time too, until I no longer did. It’s a big, big piece to awaken to, but when you do, it changes the foundation of everything. It’s all love. There is no evil in the sense of something separate from love.

R – …but there’s still big contrast…

Y – …bigger than ever…

R – …in this heightened drama of duality

Y – …where love is wanting to complete what it started, where love IS completing what it started, where love itself is suffering, where love is birthing an expansion of itself, a reconciliation to itself, and you get to watch it all, and be a part of it all….and even more, You are this unfolding. It’s all you.

R – You’re like too much sometimes, but in a good way.

Y – I’ll take that as a compliment then.

R – Thanks, Yeshua. You always help so much!

Y – Good! Stay in touch!

R – I will!

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

The Creative Force Of Death & Rebirth That We Actually Are

by Raphael Awen

When the old game gets boring and no one really wants to play it anymore, the game itself wants to die, but struggles to do so because people keep showing up trying ever harder to keep it alive.

The game itself is a living thing that takes on a consciousness of its own because of all of the consciousness that is invested into it. Money is maybe one of the starkest examples of this – a game created by us, as we mutually agree to a set of rules, and as we then try to abide by those rules, that game then takes on a life of its own and becomes a mediator of life. We speak in homage to money when we say things like ‘you can’t live without money’, when in fact money and physical life have no correlation other than the one we created for it in our perceptions of the importance of money, thus giving it god-like status.

The money game we currently play is built on mountains of debt that are so far beyond repayable, no one wants to talk about it, because to talk about it is to acknowledge and look at the ending of the game, the end of us. Games are toppling all around us. The social games we play of showing up for people we don’t actually like or no longer relate to life in any kind of shared values is another game that aches for its end, but struggles to find. The spiritual games of giving our power away to an outside of us authority in some form of a guru-devotee dance is another. The emotional games of trying ever harder to stay away from what we really feel is another. One crumbling game is intertwined with another.

Something wants to die and it’s call keeps getting louder and louder. Something within also wants deeply to live and thrive at the same time.

How do we relate with both?

When we accept that the time for denial is complete, we move through the stages of grief, to feeling our anger, our fear, our need, and eventually to acceptance and even thriving in a new reality.

Nature demonstrates this process of death and rebirth over and over again. When we feel how life can’t actually ‘die’, but can only change, we accept at a deep core level our own relationship to being life itself – in movement with death and rebirth.

The ‘infestation’ of the tiny Pine Beetle in North America’s forests in recent decades is a powerful example of this. It was and still is seen through a 3D lens as a blight, a scourge, a VIRUS that is killing our precious forests and economy. Many attempts to stop its advance were made and failed. Then came along some people who were willing to look at and feel the problem from a higher place of awareness. They learned that the Pine trees in North America were and are in a state of stress brought on by the warming climate. Then they learned and proved that the trees under stress actually emit a physical sound and they recorded it. Then they realized to their utter amazement that what the Pine Beetle actually was, was likened to an agent of an assisted suicide. The Pine trees pined for their own death. The Pine Beetle heeded their call in such astonishing numbers that seemingly came out of nowhere.

I believe this so speaks for what is going on for us collectively and individually. What once felt very sustainable and comforting no longer is. Parts of us want to die and exit. Other parts of us fear death. Other parts of us so want to thrive. Only as you are willing to feel each of these parts of you are you able to navigate a truly responsible life, by your response to what now undeniably is.

The Coronavirus, whether the virus itself or the scenarios created by our layers of reaction to it answered a call we didn’t even know we were making. Playing victim to the virus and the circumstances may be the phase many are necessarily in, as they need a bringer of death to life as they’ve known it, but can’t admit it. Others with awakening consciousness see and feel that the changes and deaths are what they and life itself called out for. We are in a funeral and a birth canal at the same time. Life as we’ve known it will not be the same in so many ways.

This is the creative force of death and rebirth that we actually are. This is our next phase of consciousness evolution lapping at our shores. Holding and feeling yourself in this transition is your service to others and is your highest calling.

You get to be in your highest calling now, even sustain your life through sharing your deepest gifts of life. Just when you couldn’t find the courage to quit your day job, life came along and killed it for you. Now you get to explore what you really want now! You get to have fun and you get to play! Your day job might return, it might not, but you will be in a new flow that you longed for more than you realized.

How did we ever think it was sustainable to exchange something less than our most passionate living and loving in exchange for money? We thought that because it seemed true enough for a long time, but that’s changing now – ‘dying’ now, as you and the parts of you that makeup ‘you’ are called to an emergency meeting to feel and explore a stark new emerging reality.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Demonstrate Trust By Admitting Your Fear

by Raphael Awen

My easiest access point of connection to self, other and the Divine is the owning of my fears, my needs, my confusion. Anything else is a stress-filled, very tall-order-kind of posturing and hiding. In my weakness, I am strong, and in my strength, I am weak.
When the collective rumbles and activates the resolve of its deeper shadows with these Coronavirus playouts and reactions, it’s going to activate something for each of us to feel and be faced with personally, no matter how attained (and beyond fear reactivity) I might consider myself to be. We all created this together and I don’t actually have an option to not participate. I do however get to choose the set of my heart-sail.

In this time of business as unusual, I get to demonstrate my trust by admitting my fear. I get to access love by deeply feeling and admitting my fear of its loss, and how that fear shows up. I get to connect with you around owning the weakness of my fear of connecting with you and then wanting to disconnect from you.

I am love out learning its way. I am the Divine out divining. Fear, panic, hatred, anxiety, shadow, and even the darkest and most despised acts of suppression and violence are a part of the Divine learning of itself, and come from the Divine, which I AM. There is no battle of good vs. evil except the one we create in our own minds and reality because of our disowned fears. What we call evil is only and nothing more than love’s opportunity. All evil wants to finds its way back to the full embodied remembrance of love, from where it was born and to which it is in process of returning, while never having lost its essence of love. Love birthed everything. Consciousness is finding its way through you as you trans-parent it with your transparency.

If this wild picture of reality is true, then how does that apply to the current news cycle and where you are right now? It offers you the courage and opportunity to feel your deepest fears that up till now have in all likelihood been off your radar, understandably. It offers you the opportunity to feel, admit, and be nourished by and because of your deepest need for love with self, other and the Divine.

You get to cry the uncried tears of many lifetimes that you’ve never cried before.

Now you get to feel like the real champion you’ve always wanted to feel like. Now you get to all that you’ve so longed to become.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.