The Challenge To Let In Love

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By Raphael Awen

‘The biggest challenge you will ever face in this life is the challenge to let in love.’

These words came to me many years ago from a trusted teacher, and I’ve often taken this encapsulated sermon in a sentence from a mental file to reflect on it. I still do believe it to be true.

What dawned on me today though, on this resurrection Sunday, is an addendum to this sentence, and pardon me if it doesn’t quite fit in a sentence so simple as the first one, but the awareness that came is that for there to be a letting in, there would need to be a letting out.

Like breathing, we take in oxygen, transmute it, digest it, and then release and expel carbon dioxide. Trying to remain in a continual letting in mode, without surrendering to a letting out mode, would limit the letting in very quickly, making the original challenge to let in love feel all the more impossible.

If that’s true, that letting out is equally important as the attempt to let in; and that letting in can’t actually be separate from letting out, then what might the letting out look and feel like?

And as I tune in beloved guides, what comes to me in a gush of a big out breath of awareness is that we are being invited to trans-parent this love in-breath into a vulnerable willingness to be seen and known for what we really are. Am I able to to let you (any and all others in my life) see me for who I really am? This washing away of these false gods of upholding self image require so much time and energy, and prevent me from letting in another drop of real love. The letting in pushes up a profound need for letting out.

If that’s all true, then the question comes up about where to practically apply all this as a practice. It can be very relieving to immediately put this into practice in your relationships with anyone, whether a deep intimate or a store clerk, yes, but what comes to me is the invitation to apply this all internally, me to me.

Where are parts of me struggling to gasp in another breath of real love and then are being prevented from letting out its effluent. What has not been trans-parented into the light of day between parts of myself? Where have parts of me been allowed to remain in suffering in the absence of my deeper heart bridge to them?

This is the resurrection we are invited into – that is here now. He is risen. She is risen. The fall has given way to the rising. You are the beloved and the beloved is you. A sacred romance awaits like you’ve never seen or heard tell of.

It’s a story that only you can tell awaiting your authorship.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

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Arising Anew From Grief And Remorse

By Raphael Awen

From the still place of having felt your grief and your remorse, incubates an unmistakable new energy of desire.

Arising in its own time, and in its own way, desire and appetite for an entirely new way of being comes.

Though you have been known by a name and a story, so much of that name and story is complete, and a new story and new name arises. You are in the nursery being looked at now through the big windows by many guides and beings who wish to support you and hold you into your next phase of your sacred journey.

This sacred new beginning, like all beginnings is encoded with its completion, which is what makes way for deep reverence for the present moment.

With this reverence in place, and the feelings of remorse and grief having had their full place, you cannot but move with grace and reverence, with deep support and guidance into the next phase of your sacred and most purposeful journey.

These are the words and feeling space that come to me as I had opportunity recently to be a big part of a Metasoul of mine in process with his grief and remorse for the suppression of feminine.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Journey Through Smallness To Return To Bigness

by Raphael Awen

Our garden variety anxieties and fears about running out of money, or losing vitality in our bodies, or losing connection with a loved one, are all testament to a much greater loss that occurred for us.

Embedded in our very DNA is a subconscious remembrance that we were expelled out of the garden of oneness, fractured and fractaled out of the Divine, seemingly sentenced to pay homage now to the taskmaster of the knowledge of the duality of good and evil….judgment of self and others now reigning where love once fully danced and expressed.

This fracturing from one into parts is also very apparent in our psyche as the Inner Child and Inner Teenager and Inner Protector are all evidence of this trauma of separation, as they await our awareness to reach out to them.

The really good news however is that embedded in this trauma is the key to not only our full remembrance, as magical as that alone would be, but also to an expansion beyond words or imagination, that we are invited to go find out what it is, living our way into a new garden of Golden Earth, and then integrating that with life in this dimension.

As you explore the traumas held by these parts of you and take their feelings into your heart, you unlock this full remembrance AND this glorious expansion beyond the former glory of what was, and beyond what was given up to the cycle of death and rebirth, into this expanding glory of what and what you really are.

Who are you? You don’t really know, and you can’t know until you do, and then too, as you come into more knowing, you must again surrender to the infinity of the Divine expressing through you, ever fathoming more and more and more.

You are this big! Are you ready to move out of the phase of your necessary smallness exploration?

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Following The Lighthouse Of Our Longing

by Raphael Awen

Our deepest longings that feel the most impossible are actually deep messages from our hearts and souls to our more conscious selves, that we are invited to feel.

We are not guaranteed the fulfillment of the outward picture of those exact longings, but rather the things those longings represent. We are guaranteed that the longing itself leads us into something much deeper from beyond the veil of forgetfulness regarding our truer essence and changes us in the process.

This is actually a frightful guarantee to parts of us. We cannot own and pursue the longing without being irreversibly changed.

Following this lighthouse of our longing, that carries the unexplainable homing skills of a pigeon, the longing and desire shifts and changes as we reposition ourselves in relationship to it, leading us to our true heart home.

The experience of the initial steps leads to the next ones. We are afforded exercise of the heart muscles that will be needed for the next steps. The first steps are just as magical as the later ones as each step brings the joy of coming into more and more of our infinite essence.

Falling in deeper and deeper love with our many varied selves, we overflow with true love for all beings and all life.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Grail Pursuit Of Soul Tribe

by Raphael Awen

The desire to find and be a part of Soul Tribe feels like it is increasing exponentially for many of us in the times we are moving through. 

It’s a feeling for me that has always been there in my life. At times, it has expressed in really applying myself to the tribe at hand, be it my birth family, my current circle of friends, my church family, a spiritual group, etc. What I found for myself personally was that the deeper I pressed into the family at hand, the sooner I found myself uncomfortably at the exit door to the relationship. While the exit door was usually an exit of my own choosing, as I was always welcome to drop what I was advocating for and needing, stop rocking the boat, and instead settle in for the life-long haul, I seemingly couldn’t stop myself from moving on.

Something has always felt at stake. Something has always felt that I needed to choose, to pursue, to desire, and to need. Something has always also felt that I wanted to be needed, to be chosen, to be desired, and to be needed. What has changed is the frequency bandwidth that I am broadcasting at in all of that wanting and needing. This then, in turn, led to natural moving on points, that I was being invited to step into.

Some people work hard to quell these feelings, and though there have been times that a part of me could envy living that way too, I keep coming back to a ‘search for the holy grail’ kind of living, and to do that with Soul Tribe.

My Soul Tribe is about the wanting, the needing, the desiring, the rocking the boat when the boat is needing to be rocked or even capsized. It is about the entering and the leaving. It is about completing one context of life so to be able and energized to enter the next context of life. It is about the endless curiosity expansion into the unknown. 

My Soul Tribe is about feeling all the losses along the way, to mourn them, to grieve them, to allow the next phase of Soul Tribe to arise and overflow into my life as I currently know it. 

My Soul Tribe is about feeling my truth resonate inside the tribe, where even a natural and healthy ‘conformity for love’ can breathe that isn’t a codependent grasping for love. I get to conform when I want to and need to. I also get to be uniquely different when I want to and need to. I get to do it all and be it all inside of community. I get to need and want love. I get to be loved. I get to feel all the parts of me who are in different stages of their own relationship to love and community. 

What is your Soul Tribe about? Are you in a ‘lone-wolf’ between phase that is preparing the courage to pursue again? Are their past tribe wounds that are wanting to be felt by you? Are there parts of you who refuse to ever risk again, while at the same time, other parts of you aching for real resonant heart and soul frequency community? 

SoulFullHeart is one such tribe. I belong to it and co-lead it. Session space is offered as the clear doorway into it. If it calls to you, I’d so love to host your inquiry further, all the way to the deeper and richer unknown that your soul can’t resist pursuing. 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

On Showing Up

By Raphael Awen

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Never before are we being asked to show up like we are right now.

But what does it mean to ‘show up’?

The show is the show of your life, as you know it right now, as its unfolding before you. It is who and what is in your face, in your inbox. It is who has your number. It is what’s happening in public and private.

There’s a new word in our culture for the disappearing act people play when they want to exit a situation without facing a goodbye. It’s called ‘ghosting’. ‘Love bite’ is another very real scenario where a couple meet and soar to some mega heights of intimacy and sexuality, only to have one party inexplicably exit the relationship, leaving the other devastated.

Until we face and complete a situation or a relationship, we haven’t grounded the lessons life was wanting to give us through that very real drama in the show of our lives.

But what would propel us to avoid such completions? Could it be that subconsciously we are simply afraid to go on to our next lessons? Like the now quite famous saying of ‘our greatest fear is not that we are small, but rather that we are great beyond measure.’

I so believe that we are in the school of coming to terms with our own greatness, and this is what is going on in our relationship playouts. Life is ever seeking to lead us to know, feel and integrate our own bigness, the infinite love that we actually are, but have willingly forgotten, in order to be remembered into an even larger version of ourselves from the us that chose and surrendered to the forgetting.

Life is ever seeking to take us out into the deep waters beyond the fear of our own greatness into entirely new terrains that consciously we have yet to be introduced to. Life provides the path and stepping stones for us, but it only works to the degree we are willing to show up for it.

Showing up is about knowing what you really and truly want, and being willing to claim that, and then being willing to show up further for any of the fallouts and fallins that occur because of that claim.

Showing up for anything or anyone in life is only real if it begins with truly showing up for yourself in this way. Many will expound the virtues of selflessness here as a way to mask their fear of their own greatness. Showing up for others when you are not showing up for yourself is actually a form of cocreated and mutual abuse between you and the person you are supposedly helping. It’s a pact of mutuality to stay safely small known as caretaking.

Then these ghosting and love bite scenarios are the only option that’s left for people when their self worth is worn too low to sustain any more perceived loss to that meager self worth.

All of this changes intensely however when one begins choosing this new integration of showing up for themselves. Simply becoming honest with oneself reverses decades and even lifetimes of self-disintegration.

Where is life asking you to show up right now? I feel I can promise you (hopefully without sounding too parental) that if you are willing to show up for your own desires in this way, life will meet you and grace you with all that you need to navigate that choice point. Your choices are a very literal portal into the next versions of yourself that life is wanting to birth in you.

I’m showing up for a men’s group call tomorrow and I want to invite you to show up for it as well if this juice and energy calls to you. The group calls we lead most weekends are about introducing a path that we call SoulFullHeart and I invite you to check out our website as fully as it calls to you at soulfullheartwayoflife.com. The men’s group link for tomorrow is below (and there is a women’s group call that Jelelle is leading on April 15th..)

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

SoulFullHeart Museletter Week Of March 6: Golden Earth Now! Vlog Series, Sacred Masculine Series, and Indigo Souls Series

By Jelelle Awen

Sharing…we are all four of us (me, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, andLeena Colibri) in a phase of sharing as it overflows naturally and organically from our hearts and souls in an alchemy of Divine creation. There aren’t questions for us of what to share and when, it just comes out and then is offered..can’t really work on ‘assignment’ when it comes to following Divine and higher self flow. This process of creativity allows us to see ourselves, to express our ‘leading edges’ of BEing, and to alchemize and manifest this expression ‘out’ in the world as it grows from within.

That these expressions of heart flow then land and resonate with others, with many of you who are offering hearts and thumbs and comments, is the downstream layer of nourishment for us after the creation. THANK YOU for taking US in as you serve our growth even as, hopefully, you receive the gifts too that support yours. This is the collaboration that we enter into together whenever the energy is exchanged through your receiving and our giving.

Our weekly ‘pool’ of sharings and offerings named our ‘SoulFullHeart Museletter’ is out today (as every ‘Friday’) and offers a dip into writings, videos, group call listings that you may have missed during the week or just want to take in again. Rich waters in which to swim offering much love and goodness to take in! This week launched many new ‘series’ with Raphael’s Golden Earth Now Vlog Series, Gabriel’s Sacred Masculinity Blog Series, and Leena’s Indigo-Rainbow-Crystal Soul Series!

Please msg Leena Colibri if you would like to receive these museletter in your email every week or email us at soulfullhearts@gmail.com. And we would so LOVE and APPRECIATE any love in the form of money donations that you feel moved to offer us as a energy exchange of appreciation for our sharings.

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Collapsing Timeline Possibilities As Ascension Unfolds

By Raphael Awen
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The following writing is in response this question: “I know nothing is for certain, but can you give me some insight on how timelines will work during ascension? Particularly this quote from what you wrote about Gaia yesterday… “As those souls who DON’T change either leave the body or experience a timeline running where things stay the same or get worse.”
Response:
 
Hello Ryan, thank you for the question. It’s a big question with a lot of facets to it, it feels like. Then there is how our personal fears and desires playout and affect the question as well. I haven’t made it a deep topic of mental study and research, but I do, like you find it most interesting. It feels like it is more of a discussion than any kind of factual detailing of exactly how it will playout. I like to feel the question and let it continue to change me and my consciousness, rather than to obtain any kind of final truth/knowing about it.
 
I feel one way for us all to feel into this question of future timeline playout possibilities is to feel them as they are playing out in the present. At present, we see people undergoing great transformational personal change, often marked by personal ‘death and rebirth’ kinds of experiences in their lives. Then we see others making no visible changes at all (both in people we would see as doing good and bad) who seem to be doing their damndest to keep things the same. This feels to me analogous to our question at hand in that each person is in their own sacred learning and classroom, where no one or no level is better than another.
 
When all of these personal timeline shifts intersects with a Gaia deep change event, such as a solar flash, (or seen more locally as in something like an earthquake which we all know to occur), it shakes up and changes the timeline of the individual. So does what we call death, which we could see as a major ‘gaia’ event of the human individual body. So does a teenager leaving home. All of these can be seen as ‘rights of passage’ kind of events.
 
The whole point is that the universe is learning its way to something more in every moment and at all times and seasons. We are inextricably a part of that personally and collectively. There’s no escaping that on any level.
 
And, there is no death, life itself is inextinguishable…it can only take on different forms. What we call death is only change. Timeline playouts are simply that.
 
It does feel like what we call catastrophic loss of life will be a reality for many for those who need to go through that. It also feels like another timeline will be presented for those who need to not be a part of the catastrophic timeline. Others it feels like will live through a difficult timeline shift to a more natural completion of their life and in their next life, will be allocated to a planet that supports their personal density. These three timeline playout possibilities that I mentioned just now is how I’ve heard it offered from the Law Of One scholar, David Wilcock, and it does resonate for me as true.
 
In this, if our Gaia is moving to 4D, then those needing to be in 3D school won’t be able to be allocated to this planet. It’s also been very expanding recently to learn that our universe is made up of a multitude of inhabitable and inhabited earth like planets. This helps us get into a much more reverent awareness of the scope of the universe and the scope of our own personal learning to love in relationship to the ALL.
 
That was all kind of a circular winding conversation just now, and I trust it helps you feel into what’s moving in your own heart…thanks for the hearty question from a true quester…
 
Raphael Awen
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