444 Portal Day: We Are ALL On Our Way To The NEW

by Kalayna Solais

During my dark night experience late in 2019, I saw the number sequence 44 or 444 quite often.

I looked up the meaning and some of what I read resonated, but it wasn’t until I asked someone in person what they felt it meant based on their own sense of number sequences, that I found an explanation that truly landed…

44 as a number pattern reminds us that we are on our way, that we are doing the work necessary to fulfill our intentions, that we are ‘on track’… And that even though it’s a challenging and winding road and we may feel wedged in between timelines, the timeline we most desire to be part of IS emerging as we emerge from the inner darkness and the growthful paths we’re on now.

In other words, I could really feel 44 and 444 as an alchemy of light meets dark, of emerging from difficult situations, especially inside, with our dreams not only intact but enhanced, as we upgrade from the inside out everything within us.

When parts of me could let in this message at that time, it helped let in some Divine air that everything was flowing as it needed to, even if I felt reactions, mourning, sadness, and a ton of uncertainty. Where this whole phase of my life led me was to deeper alignment with my heart and soul purpose, a graduated and deepened sense of who I AM and what I most deeply wanted but humbly knew I was in the process of getting ready for. It lasted a couple of months and then I was reunited with soul family in a deeper way than ever before or that I was even remotely expecting, though I held the beacon of possibility very close to my heart.

444 today feels like it offers the same or similar energies of accepting a darker phase before the real alignment and real light, especially from within but also in our outer worlds, comes up and out.

The disclosure process we’re in now, seeing and feeling so much rumbling below the surface, is all so important to access the greater light available to us all. It’s a dark time but there are pockets of hope, possibility, and a very real transition to a New Earth/5D experience of life as a whole!

Much love to you on this auspicious 444 day…

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant & collaborative assistant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Inner Child Rising Up In Times Of Less Doing

By Deva Yasmin

Sometimes the quietest parts of us hold the keys to our deepest wisdom. These parts can feel like they had to give up at some stage of trying to be heard, instead dimming and downplaying their wisdom, as it was not valued in this 3D world. I have always felt a curiosity and care of this world and its people, which I can now feel is the natural essence of the Inner Child. Their soft, gentle innocence becomes subdued over time, covered over by the intensity of a world that programs them not to question anything.

My Inner Child would try to bring her thirst for learning to the world, which would get lost in the sea of debates and arguments of right and wrongs. The adults she looked to for knowledge were already too plugged into the program themselves. This left no space for a curious, creative, playful inquiry into life, which feels to my Inner Child a more exciting, organic way to connect and learn.

I feel this transition we are in right now is creating more space for us to spend time with and feel our Inner Child. We now have time to BE, and are being called to BE, more curious and creative with our time. Our logic and problem solving is not needed or serving us in the same way right now.

I feel this time giving the Inner Child opportunity to Rise up, no longer needing to Roar to be heard, as we have more quiet time to listen. I feel their sensitivity and simplicity being valued, feeling the gift that they are, and how soothing it is to parts of us to connect with them, feeling their gentleness and openness. How healing it is, taking time to look at the world through their eyes, seeing the awe in EVERYTHING around us, in Love and in Joy with the whole of existence.

As we sink into rest and reset, we have space to feel how other parts of us striving for success and purpose have been driven by the pain of the Inner Child. They have been driven from the lack of validation and genuine care they received in a 3D world that has not been considerate of their sensitivity and imagination, causing them to seek to be something or someone more than they already were. They were molded from a young age to live life in the striving-for-survival Matrix, where they are never enough and can never get enough.

I feel Yasmin, an aspect of my Inner Child, trying so hard to be heard and, when that didn’t work, she shutdown. She decided to listen instead, but as she disagreed with so much of what she heard, she numbed out. Trying anything she could find that was loud enough or toxic enough to quiet not only her pain, but the beating, aliveness and deep desire to create a new world that was echoing and calling in her heart.

I feel many of us being asked to feel, heal, and let go of the ways in which we numb out to not feel pain held by the Inner Child and other parts that have learnt these kinds of coping mechanisms. With daily life on lockdown, now is the perfect opportunity.

As we enter into curious, loving inquiry with these young parts, as they feel more relaxed and feel safe, they can lean in more. This helps us to STEP more fully into our king or queen essence, a simple, calm, confidence growing enabling us to respond in a new way to times of chaos in the world and in others. Instead of being reactive, we can stay grounded, taking self-responsibility for the things that support us to do so, enabling us to offer a stable presence in the world and with others.

Our ability and courage to speak up for what we believe in and share our visions of a New Earth, is no longer offered from a place of needing validation but from a genuine Love and care, for ourselves, our parts, and our kingdom. Remembering our Life’s service is to serve the rebirth of the inner and outer worlds.

We no longer need to be successful or powerful to be validated. We can lead by loving example of how TRUE power honors that which is in relationship with and including our sensitivity, our gentleness, our need for play and rest, and our innocence. The world many of us felt possible as children feels like it is coming more into being now, through these reboots we are going through. Feeling our parts and Inner Child is our service towards creating Balance, Peace, Love and Unity on our planet and is a way of supporting ourselves through these intense times on Earth.

This is why we came here and the reason why we have experienced so much of what we have.  Life teaching us of pain so we can know Love; teaching us of suffering so we can know compassion; teaching us of loneliness so we can truly know togetherness; and teaching us of separation so that we can truly value innocence and simplicity as we are being returned to it.

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

Demonstrate Trust By Admitting Your Fear

by Raphael Awen

My easiest access point of connection to self, other and the Divine is the owning of my fears, my needs, my confusion. Anything else is a stress-filled, very tall-order-kind of posturing and hiding. In my weakness, I am strong, and in my strength, I am weak.
When the collective rumbles and activates the resolve of its deeper shadows with these Coronavirus playouts and reactions, it’s going to activate something for each of us to feel and be faced with personally, no matter how attained (and beyond fear reactivity) I might consider myself to be. We all created this together and I don’t actually have an option to not participate. I do however get to choose the set of my heart-sail.

In this time of business as unusual, I get to demonstrate my trust by admitting my fear. I get to access love by deeply feeling and admitting my fear of its loss, and how that fear shows up. I get to connect with you around owning the weakness of my fear of connecting with you and then wanting to disconnect from you.

I am love out learning its way. I am the Divine out divining. Fear, panic, hatred, anxiety, shadow, and even the darkest and most despised acts of suppression and violence are a part of the Divine learning of itself, and come from the Divine, which I AM. There is no battle of good vs. evil except the one we create in our own minds and reality because of our disowned fears. What we call evil is only and nothing more than love’s opportunity. All evil wants to finds its way back to the full embodied remembrance of love, from where it was born and to which it is in process of returning, while never having lost its essence of love. Love birthed everything. Consciousness is finding its way through you as you trans-parent it with your transparency.

If this wild picture of reality is true, then how does that apply to the current news cycle and where you are right now? It offers you the courage and opportunity to feel your deepest fears that up till now have in all likelihood been off your radar, understandably. It offers you the opportunity to feel, admit, and be nourished by and because of your deepest need for love with self, other and the Divine.

You get to cry the uncried tears of many lifetimes that you’ve never cried before.

Now you get to feel like the real champion you’ve always wanted to feel like. Now you get to all that you’ve so longed to become.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

What We Are Experiencing Now Is Not New To The Soul

By Deva Yasmin

It has been impossible, it feels this week, to not have been touched or affected by all the talk of the virus. Being sensitive I am aware of and feeling the rumbles of fear and panic in the collective. I have felt confused at times as people begin to go into lockdown. Going to the local supermarket and walking the streets in my local town a few days ago felt eerie and very strange with less people around and so many bare shelves.

Having the anchor of feeling my parts really is supporting me to navigate what is going on within me in response to the events that are happening. Feeling the reactions in my parts also bridges me to feeling what my soul knows, has experienced and may still be experiencing of health epidemics/pandemics and civilization collapse in other timelines.

In times like this in the collective, I have felt many times an aspect of myself that feels anxiety and helplessness. Connecting in and feeling this today, I met a new part called Cayalisia, who is currently in an Atlantis timeline. I could feel with her, how her experience of Atlantis is bleeding through into what I am experiencing in my timeline. Both of us watching and feeling people scared and in panic, as life as we have known it, rumbles, crumbles and shifts throwing us ALL into the unknown.

I could feel how her inner work had given her a greater capacity to be in the unknown, although she needed support to deeply feel her own reactions to it all. She felt sad for people and how they were being affected, helplessness too as she inquired into how she could serve people opening and hearing the message to support the possibility of moving into the New. This is something I too feel often, but especially in times like these. This is the gift of feeling these aspects of our soul, they help us feel into our deeper responses, reactions, emotions and knowings, as our timelines all happen in the NOW, serving, merging and impacting one another.

It feels like timelines such as Atlantis, Ancient Egypt, etc. can be reminisced about, painted in a kind of Utopian way. As I kept feeling I could feel how any world especially on Earth has shadow. How aspects of our Metasoul have experienced in many timelines, many times, transitions through collapse, disaster, disease and destruction, and what we are experiencing now is not new to the Soul.

I feel in my Soul and in many other Souls, a longing to return to more simple ways of life, feeling this as an answer for how we can change the world, or for some parts, hide from it. The more simple life feels true and very much a part of my higher timeline vision and yet, as I checked in with Anna (grandmother of Jesus) she was open and honest about how the shadow aspects cannot be run away from anywhere, that the shadows of being human in a body on Earth, were very much alive in the Magdalenes and in their timelines of communal, nature-based living. They lived very simply and this DID support a more balanced, healthier way of life in alignment with our Earth Mother but that they struggled to bridge that to a larger portion of Humanity, which is what has always been needed if we are to truly transition into NEW Earth reality.

She offered that we are in a unique moment in time on Earth, a time that other civilizations have evolved to but have not succeeded in transitioning to yet. A time where it feels very possible for us to bridge and connect the sacred and the mundane, the heart and the mind, the conscious and unconscious, the scientific and spiritual. To create harmony and restore balance between our inner and outer worlds. We have the tools, the technologies, the opportunities to share our wisdom with one another. Through the internet, more people can bridge the new to MORE souls than ever before. This did not feel possible in Atlantis, a timeline that feels to me like it was more about individual Awakening, as I am sure there are many more timelines in our Souls of this theme.

This is a time of Awakening, Serving, Co-Creating the NEW, Together. We have only ever gotten so far trying to change alone. I could feel this anxiety, helplessness, and sadness connected to so many beings who are desiring to know and live into their purpose. Not yet realizing we are stepping into a time of joint purpose, of remembering our Interconnectedness and showing up for the healing inside that it takes in order to truly let others in.

That NOW is a time of letting go of considering only what is good for me, what I can get for me and how I can keep me safe. This is a hard place to feel and navigate, as I feel how many times what I have thought of as working and being with others has actually been about what I can get from others and what best serves my interests, coming from a Fear of being alone. Through parts work, I feel the new way of being with others being bridged, as it is inevitable that my inner experience of Union flows into the outer layers of my life. An experience our Soul knows and feels deeply, that can be remembered through the excavation of our healing hearts.

It does not matter who you are, where you are or what your beliefs are, all that matters is if there is a burning desire in your heart and Soul for change, and a distant knowing of something More. If you feel reactions and fear arising in response to current events, You are NOT alone, all your parts are waiting and willing to connect with you, feel with you, heal with you and serve with you.

And, there are so many others here with you too, ready to walk hand in hand. A huge gift of our time is the internet, which can bridge time and space for those of us who have felt responsible for holding the torch into the NEW alone, in this life and for so many lifetimes.

Jelelle and Raphael Awen offer one-to-one sessions in the SoulFullHeart process. These sessions bridge to feeling how your parts are experiencing life, how they are navigating relationships and letting in what you deeply desire for your life and humanity.

SoulFullHeart is also a bridge to navigating and co-creating a NEW Earth Together. I feel so many of our Souls waiting for and wanting to BE with each other. I feel aspects of our Metasouls needing to know they no longer have to walk these death/rebirth cycles out alone, as they may be experiencing. Offering them the healing heart space to feel what they feel, opens an exchanging of gifts that can support both of us as we transition in and through the Unknown.

Much Love to you and your parts as we continue to navigate all there is to feel in response to Coronavirus.

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Feeling What You REALLY Want And Need During These Turbulent Times

by Raphael Awen

When the rumble of the collective fear of death goes viral through the collective by the aid of a media-hyped and created event, we do well to feel each and every part of us that resonates with that rumble.

Trying instead to stay ‘high-vibe and positive’ invariably proves to be an exercise in denial and lying to oneself and others if we are not willing to be honest about the parts of us that actually are freaked out if they in fact are. You can’t stay high-vibe if you aren’t there already, and you can’t get to high-vibe if you’ve denied yourself a way to feel the parts of you who are low-vibe at the moment.

You were given a range of vibes for a divine creator reason and as a divine creator. That reason becomes very obscured and flattened when you are only permitting one polarity to live in you. What good is a piano with only the high notes?

What this Coronavirus actually is in terms of any real threat and in what scale is something that will only be known in hindsight. What is real is the fear that you feel that is kicked up by the story that is being spread far and wide. Our collective is so long overdue for a collective bowel movement and this one may well be one big dump, one that relieves so much. We’ve all had a hand in creating this need.

Because we are all one in a higher level of reality, we also do well to feel what this collective shift in consciousness is opportuning us to feel personally.

When I feel parts of myself, I feel aspects of me that want the future to be safe and bright and exciting and alive. I feel the parts of me that want purpose and engagement, as well as creature comforts. All of these goodies are threatened by the looming Coronavirus story – asking me to pare down my desires and settle for the story of the goal of survival. I feel the parts of me that aren’t yet assured of a bright and exciting future and wonder if we shouldn’t just settle for an outlook of mitigating disaster rather than full-on thrival.
Now grounded in what’s real in the inside, I get to actually process and create movement inside of myself from fear to love. I couldn’t actually get to the love were it not for the fear as my starting place.

And I also can’t get to the love I’m needing when I’m spending all my time staying up on the agenda of the Dark Illuminati/Cabal/Black Hats versus the Alliance/Q-anon picture of things as a way to distract myself from what’s really going on inside of me to me.

And when I don’t actually get to the love I’m needing and wanting, my vibe is invariably lower, I’m broadcasting that vibe as a reality generator to those around me before I utter a word or take an action. In other words, your and my greatest service to others begins and ends with the greatest service to self. ‘Selfishness’ isn’t a bad word at all in 5D.

Whoever gave us the ‘service to self’ versus ‘service to other’ dichotomy was still living in the reality that there is actually any separation between self and other. This is the old picture of separation of spirit and matter, the separation of good and evil, the battle for supremacy that is being found more and more to be the root of all conflict inside and outside. There isn’t actually a ‘whoever’ to blame here; we gave that picture to ourselves as a way to live our way to and through a movement of our reality.

We are this big, and our lessons are this epic! We get to do this and we get to do it as a collective and as individuals at the same time.

Allow what you really want, feel, and need, without denial, to guide you through these waters.

I’d be delighted to help you through your personal rumbles if what I’m sharing resonates for you. More here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@renebbernal

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

It’s Ok Not To Be OK: Feelings As A Portal To Your Multidimensional Self

By Jelelle Awen

It’s OK not to be OK….putting down the masks of OKness or being positive all the time. Being vulnerable to show what is really going in your heart. Sharing your tears, your fears, your concerns, your pain with those who can feel you. Being real with what parts of you are feeling and reacting to in every moment. This self permission space allows the feelings to BE, to be felt, and eventually to heal.

Why do we need to receive this self permission to feel? The 3D world operates on the suppression of vulnerable feeling. Analyzing feelings rather than actually dropping into the emotive ground of them. Numbing and drugging our feelings with ‘anti-feeling’ drugs such as anti-depressants, anti-anxiety, etc….relating to our emotions as if we need to go into battle with them. As if they are diseases and illnesses that need a cure. As if they are evidence of our brokenness.

Your feelings offer a story, an important telling of what parts of you have experienced in 3D reality and what may remain emotionally undigested. They tell a soul story too…often from other lifetimes even, BIG emotional charge there sometimes, that is waiting for bridging and to be felt and held and responded to.

Your feelings provide a portal to deeper understanding of yourself in this life..and in other lifetimes too. They are a portal to your multidimensional experience of reality in so many timelines going on all at ONCE.

There is so much social lack of acceptance around feeling ourselves and being REAL about what our feelings are. Even in spirituality, there can be so much focus on the light and the positive that transparency and integrity (that come from being REAL about what you are feeling) get lost and covered over. Abuses of self and others occur then in ‘spiritual circles’ with emotionally immature teachers perpetuating toxic cycles from using spiritual frequencies to cover over their own woundings.

It’s OK not to be OK…..if you had been told this, offered this in childhood rather than the 3D message of “Get over it. Don’t be so sensitive. Stop crying”…you could have naturally learned how to hold space for your feelings and the parts of you that feel them. Instead, parts of you learn to protect and defend your feelings. To turn the judgement of your feelings inward and develop a punishing energy (an Inner Punisher) that carries the message inside of your unworthiness.

Then, you are called eventually to become the loving and accepting parental energy (fuelled by the Divine) that you probably did not have. Your pain calls you to this. Your pain offers where there still remain places inside that need your love.

The most amazing high frequencies of bliss and joy find MORE room is made for their arising when the deeper pains are being felt. When no feelings are being denied, there is no energy going toward suppression, no energy toward transcendence of feelings. Then, this energy is freed up and your heart space opens for yourself, for these parts of you that need you, and bliss can flood in again eventually finding rich, grounded soil in your open heart.

Trusting the flows AND the ebbs, the natural cycles of closings and openings. Trusting and being curious about the reasons that your tears exist, the reasons that your pains exist, and the mirror they are offering you OF you. The Divine, especially Divine feminine frequencies, WANTS you to feel yourself and all that calls your heart to respond to it. Divine love supports this process of not being OK, being real about it, and the dive in exploration of it too.

The Divine wants the pains of the 3D experiment to be felt and moved as more of Its essence can be let in…..which is actually YOUR essence as Infinite Love returning to you as a felt reality the more and more you are willing to feel what is real.

Here is a guided meditation to transmute traumas by feeling them with love: https://youtu.be/H20_fT-tKYg

Love,
Jelelle Awen
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The Aliveness And Love In Feeling It ALL

by Kalayna Solais

As I look out at the horizon, the abundance of natural gifts around me, I feel the vastness of my own future and the potential for all in this human family.

I feel the realness of our struggles. The ways in which we try to bypass but not feel. The feelings that we’d rather not have to experience or relive in order to grow. The past which we would rather forget about than realize parts of us are still living in.

Our true sense of presence is not from obscuring or falsifying our memories of life experiences from this or any lifetime, but from feeling the parts of us and Metasoul aspects still resonating and literally living in these timelines and stories, that still feel the pain we thought we’d healed by now, that still bring all of these feelings of living in these situations into where and who we are now.

As I breathe in and out, feeling my body fill up with prana and light energies, feeling my parts and Metasouls who are vibrating in this and any moment, I feel how alive FEELING makes me. How distinctive this love for myself that grows with each process is from any ‘love’ I’ve been taught or talked at about. I feel this love expanding into the horizon I take in and breathe in. Echoed back by nature, shared with my beloveds, offered to anyone who is ready to take it in and let it support their own journeys.

The love of this world far outweighs the severity of the turmoil… Holds space for it… And IS bringing it into something new, with all of the permission we can give it to do so starting from deep within each of us.

Much love! ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

It’s Worth It To Keep Feeling: A Message From The Divine

by Kalayna Solais

“It will be worth it,” the Divine offers, “just keep feeling”.

We dive in. We swim in the emotional waves, exploring the caves and crevices long-hidden beneath them. Parts of us feel as if they are drowning at times in the intensity, but then the wave ebbs and they surface, breathing new air.

It’s worth it because the new air is worth it. It’s fresher, cleaner, purer than what you settled for before. It reminds you that everything you feel has magic in it and revelations too that relieve so much even if the revealing is bittersweet to taste.

Each wave of feeling has its own power and place in your heart where it wants to be held.

Not bypassed.

Not fixed, nor gotten rid of.

Just held. Honoured. Loved.

“You’re worth it all,” the Divine reminds us, “and you’ll soon have it all, sooner than you think, if you keep feeling, trusting, being, and loving everything you are”.

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Painting: Divine Love by Chanchal Ganguly

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Love The Dark Into Light

By Raianna Shai

Loving yourself is so much easier said than done. You can have the knowledge that you are a good person and that you deserve the world while a part of you feels the complete opposite.

Sometimes a movie and treats can help. Or a good cry and a big hug. Sometimes you just need to talk or write it out. Sometimes just some sleep will help you gain a new perspective.

But other times it’s not that easy. There are phases and moments that feel like a heavy fog is hanging down on you. Like you’ll never feel the same again or you don’t want to be here anymore.

I don’t have any one-size fits all answers for this but what I can say from experience is the importance of feeling. Without shame or guilt if you can. Let the tears flow, let the unworthiness surface. Cry until your head hurts or scream until you lose your voice. Write until your hand cramps and talk until there’s only you left to listen.

“…tears water the foundation of new growth…”

These parts of you that feel heavy and sad and unlovable have just as much a right to be felt and heard as the parts of you that feel joy and happiness. These are the parts and the processes that allow you to feel love and joy even deeper. These are the very furthest corners of your heart and soul – the ones that need the most love and light.

Then watch as you blossom into something new. Watch as the world around you turns from gray to a kaleidoscope of colours. Watch the little things you notice about people – the little habits they don’t even notice themselves. Feel your heart start to bubble with joy when you see your loved ones smile. Notice those dark corners start to let in the light and realize what you’ve known all along – that they are beautiful and lovable and deserve the world.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling is Healing

By Raianna Shai

Healing and awakening are very often incredibly difficult things to do. It’s not always high frequency, good vibes, and love and light. It’s diving deep into the shadow, letting go of what once meant everything to you, and realizing what needs to be shed and felt in order to continue your growth.

I had a day today where I felt like the last thing I wanted to do was heal and grow. I felt a deep sadness that, when in the middle of it, feels immovable and permanent. It was a process that required many rounds of tears that I couldn’t quite place. They were triggered by something specific, but were clearly about something much larger.

A part of me didn’t care where they came from to be honest, and just wanted to feel sad. She wanted to medicate all of the sadness away and forget about getting to the other side of it. But even though it was hard to feel in the moment, I knew that each time I felt this sorrow, I was healing something deep on a bigger scale.

Each tear that drops from our eyes, each feeling of unworthiness, anger and fear, each time we feel how hard it is to be here as deeply feeling humans, we feel something for everyone else in the world. We cry for every human – past, present and future, for every timeline that affects our here and now, every one we are surrounded by and touch every day.

Everything we feel is sacred and as difficult as it may be, your desire to feel it rather than suppress it is changing the world. We may not be able to rid ourselves of our suffering immediately and certainly not for everyone, but each choice we make towards love (including feeling how far we seem to be from it) is making an impact collectively.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.