trust – Page 2 – Divine Self Embodiment Blog (Formerly SoulFullHeart)

By Jelelle Awen

Trusting the process, trusting yourself, trusting the curiosity that comes up in response to ALL that you are feeling and starting to see and BE. Trusting the arising into the new that wants to rearrange your life WITH love. Trusting the draws and urges that may turn your previous life UPside down.

Trust the process…….This message comes through clearly today as the intense Lion energies seem to be calming down and settling in just a bit….maybe to allow us a breathing in and an exhaling out again before it picks UP again. Always does a Divine grace orchestration seem to modulate the flow of these catalytic energies so that it is at a rate and pace that we (and parts of us!) can bear. These energies are not meant to ‘blow us out’ or ‘take us down’ even if they tumble us a fair bit or bring up hard things to feel and be with. Especially if you are WITH the Divine in the process and surrendering, then you can experience how nothing is being done to you….yet rather with you and with so much care and love FOR you.

I feel something soft, comforting and feminine always there too. She is more mysterious and elusive and you may need to connect to Her consciously to feel Her. So much focus can be given to the masculine activation of this ascension process….the pushing up and the purging and UPgrading. So much trying to understand and locate what is going on. Yet, too, the feminine HOLDS the space for the process and invites us into not knowing. She is the mother that gestates the baby just in Her BEing of stillness. She is the mother allowing you to form and shape and grow while just loving all that you are and forgiving all that you are still too scared yet to be. She is the reminder that you are enough just as you are in this moment while holding all the potential and capacity of what you could someday become.

The feminine also brings you out of the mind, if parts of you have a tendency to go to the lower vibe frequencies of the mental body that want to kNOw, sort out, analyze, prove it all, track it and locate it. I feel that this mental activity is a block to flowing into feeling and the emotional body and to the intuitions of the higher chakras that allow creativity and ‘unexplainable’ experiences. It can block the emotional body awakening that wants to be felt and allowed. This can be a challenge for men, especially, as so much conditioning supports this mental body filtering. The masculine inside of women (the Inner Protector energies) can revert to this too and question what is coming through or spin out in obsessive thinking loops. There seems to be a connection to the Archon and fear-based Reptilian fusion experiment too where unhooking and unplugging from these frequencies can help with letting go of the mind more. ALL of this exploration of mind needs to be held with much love and not ‘against’ the mind energy as that is what allows it (and the parts that use it) to let go.

Trusting the process……..this is leaning into the BIG picture and context of ascension as a collective experience, connected to the sense we are going through this (on varying levels and degrees) as a species moving into our sacred humanity and into embodiment of everything higher in all our bodies…physical, emotional, mental, chakral/spiritual/energetic, social.

This is a surrender to the masculine and the feminine aspects of this process and how ultimately they are seeking balance from within you through expression AS you.

Trusting the process may also be inviting you to seek and ask for support from others as space holders, teacher, waySHOWers, and within community too. This has been crucial to my ongoing, deepening trust in the process….I have needed many space holders, a couple beloved teachers and lived in community for many years too, which I co-lead, teach, facilitate, and offer to others. All of these ‘outside’ resources ultimately reflect you to you and help to deepen trust in yourself for however long or deep these connections go.

Trusting the process, yes,….the moment by moment walking this out and BEing with it too. Allowing change to move you where you need to go next. Most of all, trusting the love that holds it all and YOU!

I have a tender place in my heart for this guided meditation that came through with Mother Mary that offers comfort, soothing energies for all the bodies during the ascension process….many people fall asleep which is so OK as it goes in as it meant to and sometimes the conscious mind has be UNconscious for it to go in!

https://youtu.be/nkTbTJBBlHE

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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There is one word that I feel has more influence on us in our healing and emergence as sacred humans than almost any other and that is TRUST. It is the bridge that connects us to the Motherland of Love. In our pure essence, the word just doesn’t exist (not that any word does but you know what I mean). We just ARE. We flow, move, and accept all that IS because we are in harmony with Love. But if we were pure essence, I wouldn’t be here writing and you wouldn’t be here reading. We would be ONE. And we ARE.. essentially. But we chose to live and experience in this differentiated/ fractured dimension to experience ourselves as Love outside Itself to experience Itself. Learning to trust Itself back to Oneness.

This separation was/is a scary thing for us. And for Love. If we experience this existential terror then so does Love. It too is diving off a cliff to see what happens. But the one thing Love has is Trust that it will reclaim Itself no matter how hairy things may get. I feel for us in our human expression, this is a very epic lesson. If Love has trust, and we ARE Love then what makes it so damned hard to trust sometimes? We clearly have a part of us that still hasn’t drank the heart-shaped KoolAid cup yet. Welcome to the relationship with our 3D self.

We so badly want to let go of all that holds us back from experiencing Joy and Purpose. And we have on so many levels. I don’t believe there is a single soul on this planet that doesn’t have an issue with trust. It may be less of an issue for some, but there is going to be something that kicks up this very human relationship to fear. It is why we are here. To continue this healing toward Pure Trust or Ultimate Surrender. The chasm between where we are NOW and this desired place is different for all of us. It is through experience that we learn to trust. We have to act upon something. Make a choice and see what happens. The results that occur are not always going to be the ones we are hoping for. Just because they don’t happen doesn’t mean that we didn’t receive something we were meant or dialed up to learn. If the result is traumatic then our level of trust will determine our ability to let in the deeper meaning, while we allow for all our reactions to be had in response to said event.

There are also other life experiences and soul woundings that have great impact on our relationship to trust. By asking our guides for assistance we can be shown many different soulscapes that provide much heart data to what is THIS life wounding and what is part of our larger MetaSoul picture. What is in our fractal that contributes to this trust wounding? There are stories to be unveiled and felt.

Can we hold the Meta-space of Trust while we navigate our journey into our new sacred humanity? It becomes our life-preserver. Our invisible stepping stone or set of forgotten wings. It provides a container, a Merkaba, for our entrance into and through unknown portals of experience. Without it, we stay stuck and stagnant on some level, even if we have access on others. Ultimately we want ALL of us to come with us into this new frequency of existence. If there are soul aspects that still have issues of trust, we can have a relationship with it to bring more of our essence of Love into the heartscape.
The Separation is a uniquely 3D traumatic experience, I feel. In 4D consciousness we have the tools to hold space for that within us but we need support along the way. So many times have I taken leaps of faith and taken the fear with me. I was also gifted with not just my own guidance from angels and other aetheric beings, but also that of soul family. Our 3D self needs it. There are those that have been across many trust chasms and have found their way on the other side. Leaning into that experience is essential. I feel this is an ongoing journey for us. Continuing to embody our own bigness and gifts, while continuing to lean further into the forgotten territories of Galactic Love Consciousness to bring more and more Joy and Bliss to our collective creation. Trust is the way across and into this new territory. Finding the distrust and feeling its very real reasons for not trusting provides us the ground upon which we may take one step at a time.

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com