Living And Healing Into Trust

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Trust is one of the hardest things to lean into when it feels like the world around you and/or inside of you is collapsing.

We are comprised of so many experiences that can point to the opposite of trust and thus induce anxiety and despair. This is a big ship to turn around. The energy can be thick and soupy. Yet, when you come to meet this energy inside as a PART of your BEing and essence, a larger container comes to provide a breathing space of compassion and curiosity.

Parts such as the Inner Protector, Inner Child/Teenager, Inner Mother/Father, Gatekeeper, and Metasoul aspects contain a plethora of feeling data that can shed light on this distrust. It is also contained in the collective.

As you begin to unravel and heartfully feel these parts and aspects, within the space of another open-hearted experiencer, the clouds of this distrust begin to give way to the deeper Trust that lives in ALL of us.

What would life look and feel like if you could fully lean into that faint voice of intuition, passion, and desire?

The more you can lean into that and divest of any particular outcome, life takes on a whole new organic and sacredly mysterious quality that can only serve your highest well-being and purpose. The root of this begins where distrust lives and breathes…inside the heart and soul.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Energies Encourage You To Take A ‘Leap Of Faith’ Into Your New Timeline

by Kalayna Solais

Plans are moving forward pretty quickly lately… feeling like we are living in several timelines at once feels apt to say, considering that that is the nature of shifting timelines.

Much to let in as we keep letting go… remembering that the grieving process is as sacred as the excitement for the new. All parts have their own reactions to change, to risk-taking, to moving forward and onward… and ultimately UPward as we deepen our heart and soul’s trust in the Divine and the incoming Higher Timeline.

I felt so many tremors and tensions yesterday… like an earthquake was moving through while the logistical choices, research, etc were felt into by Gabriel and me as we co-lead our next movements toward Europe as not just a destination, but somewhere to BE for as long as we can be. Somewhere to continue to upgrade our service of love, somewhere to continue to explore the timelines and lifetimes alive in a geography so rich with ‘history’ that isn’t really ‘past’ at all but billowing and vibrating in the NOW.

This is a time when in some ways we are being asked to jump. To take a leap of faith and trust, even if that feels beyond reach for parts of us in moments as anxieties about money or the ‘how’s’ of everything surface. This is not just a process for us personally along with beloveds of ours who we will be making this shift with, but also for many others who are at the crux of big changes and collapses of their current timelines.

To unplug, to move on from, your current and known reality always requires a leap of faith. This faith is not just in some force or power outside of you, but in YOU and your soul, ultimately. It is an invitation to take some known risks, to be at the edge of discomfort and explore it all. To get curious about what’s rumbling and how deep instead of avoiding the rumble and what it brings up.

There’s so much more on the other side of each process, no matter how big, that we inhabit around action-taking, next steps, ways to approach our impending timeline possibilities. There’s so much MORE that we get to BE and experience ourselves as once we are through the forest of choice points and challenges that come up with every big life change.

To not be alone in this feels big… to recognize that feeling parts of you is actually another way to feel accompanied, along with feeling Star Family and Metasoul Aspects of you in other lifetimes too. There’s a lot of support coming in to help you feel through it all and the support you need in human form could be at your doorstep too…

The corridor of big life change is opening up. Will you take your next step into it, even if for now that step feels small?

No choice is as small as it might seem… it’s all rooted somewhere in your soul, as it navigates its own sacred way back to the love it knows so well. One felt step at a time. ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

March Clears Way For Deepening Process During April Frequencies

By Kalayna Solais

Feeling a deep movement that wants to go even deeper into the trust I need personally for the unfolding of the next (and higher) timeline…. I’m sure many of you can relate to this feeling too, especially as March clears and we can sort through the debris and intensity of what moved and is still moving through.

April feels like we will have some more balancing possible, yet maybe not for too long… As the burning and learning process of this past month continues to unfold. I feel like we are being expedited now, brought through what is no longer necessary for our next phases of our personal growth as we are invited to hunker down and feel within what truly needs to move, heal, and be loved UP.

I feel so much the impermanence of everything… Every relationship, geography, career/job, physical weight/look of the body, and even spiritual beliefs and what resonates. I feel how every single relationship to anything or anyone in our lives is invited to be held with this lens and we are all invited to keep holding the parts of us that are afraid of change and letting go, or even letting in deeper what is already in motion in our lives.

I’m very much feeling my own process in all of what I just offered… How much deeper I need to be able to trust what happens next and lead my parts into a deeper trust too…. In me, in the Divine, in love itself.

April is here, March is ‘over’…. It’s time to move on from what was to fully experience what IS and allow the unfolding of what will be.

If you need support during this time, Jelelle, Gabriel and myself all offer catalytic and empowering space-holding through one-on-one sessions: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Much love!

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Profound Experience Of Grief

by Gabriel Solais

Grief is a profound experience in the wake of Loss.

It opens the heart to the bedrock of our humanity and our divinity. It can be where the two join hands. Ultimately in our highest heart and soul essence, there is no loss, just a death and rebirth, a transmutation of energy.

Of course, the circumstance and specifics of the loss can be quite jarring and extremely painful. To lose a child or other loved one in a tragic way holds so much energy than if it were in a natural one. Tragic grief is one that has so many dimensions to it that needs the time and space necessary to be as real and expressive as possible.

Grief is held by parts of us for so many reasons. It can be an inner child or teenager, inner shame and guilt, rage, and/or hurt. It is held in our SOULullar memory as another lifetime in our Metatsoul that may have multiple experiences of that same circumstance playing out.

Holding the grief as a part of you, even as you are in the throes of the pain, helps to offer love to it from a different place as opposed to being the grief itself. You can move with it. Love it. Learn from it. Grow from it. It is actually a gift as it opens the heart into realms that were previously hidden and unconscious.

You can arise out of the ashes of grief with a renewed sense of surrender, acceptance, purpose, and self. You can feel yourself as divinely connected to Source, and even the expression of Source Itself. It is not meant to be a suffering loop or to be glossed over with any numerous distractions.

The fear of getting sucked up by grief is what keeps the pain in place. That is another protective part not wanting you to feel any more pain than you already have in this and other lives. That is tender to feel and yet is also important to negotiate with this part how much you really want and need to feel and heal, once and for all.

This experience may be the most alive that many of us have ever felt. That is the gift in it as well. It offers a permission to feel all the pent-up rage, hurt, rejection, and existential pain. It is cathartic and transmutative.

So as we focus on the joyous side of being alive, there is also the sorrow side that gifts us what joy truly feels like in contrast. And for that, we honor it and love it just as we would any other emotion that helps us to authentically feel our humanity.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s Facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Current Emotional Fluctuations And Loving Them UP

By Kalayna Colibri

There’s a deep fluctuation moving through… swinging from one pole to another inside. It’s a ‘mood swing’ on one level, but it’s deeper too. There are waves of change upending and creating tension, or more like evoking tension that has already been there for eons. It can feel almost crazy-making, the way these swings happen. One minute there’s a feeling of bliss, then the next there’s irritation, and maybe even rage. All feelings are alchemical. All feelings are data. All feelings give you a roadmap into you.

I’ve been feeling my own ups and downs this past week, as moving through big life changes tends to bring up a lot for me, especially around trust. I feel a deepening trust happening now. I feel how I am being asked to keep going into it all, to keep feeling it all, as even the feelings of distrust bring opportunities to feel more love…

I feel even in this moment how bringing out some anxiety and distrust in the bigger picture and ultimately the Divine helps bridge me back to my heart and soul. I feel from my heart too, how nothing is actually ever up to us. It’s up to love. That’s kind of a rough answer sometimes, isn’t it? Because… why would love want us to move through suffering of any kind? I don’t have an answer exactly… but what I’ve experienced is that even through the suffering, we are always held. Even in those dark moments where we don’t have a clue as to the WHY of anything… we are always loved… and we are always love finding its way. You, even in your suffering, are love finding its way to health again, in all ways.

In fact… sometimes we’ve needed the suffering in order to feel love again. Without having a process of feeling what isn’t love inside of you and in your life and relationships, it’s much harder to feel the deep love that the universe has for you.

So, even if you’re feeling some intense swings between this way to feel and that way to feel, there’s an opening to more love wanting to happen in your being. These edges of tension and also happiness are part of these birth contractions waiting and working to pop you out into a new you. Your sacred humanity is awakening and evolving, even with all of these feelings going on… that, I feel no doubt about. That, I trust, with my entire being. ❤️

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Your Protective Layers As Downloads Rain Inward – 11/11 Gateway Invitation

by Kalayna Colibri

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NEW inspirations are downloading for you now. Sometimes they trickle in like a light rain from bloated rainclouds. It depends on what you’re ready for and what parts of you are opening up to. Your Gatekeeper, who is another layer of your Inner Protector, gages and siphons off these downpours and INpours of INspiration that want to come to you, to move you into new places in your life, to help you see and make those tough choices and take those challenging steps to reclaim, re-energize and reignite the flame of self-empowerment and love.

The energies leading up to the portal of 11/11 this weekend feel like a soft caress and rock music, all at the same time… there is understanding and love from the Divine and the Multi-verse, and there’s a strong invitation to shake off the dust and awaken to where love is flowing in your life and where it may not be. It’s not a violent shake, yet for some parts of you it may feel that way in moments, as the awakenings come in and take hold of your consciousness, or at least try to. Doorways, portals opening, yes, as they have been continuously, and the most powerful one imaginable is the one that begins to open up to a wider aperture inside of you. This is the one that truly invites in more energies, more upgrades, more loving ways to be in this world. It brings in desires to tread gently yet powerfully, acknowledging how this can seem like a paradox to those who haven’t experienced that you can hold both of these frequencies at once without violence or outrage or wounded masculine expressions of toil and strife, or battles and martyrdom.

If you feel ready for the downloads coming in, you can ask for them, but you cannot bypass what needs to be felt before they can integrate in the way they need and want to. For them to truly go in with love takes a lot of conscious and ongoing holding of the parts of you that don’t want them to or aren’t sure it’s okay. Your Gatekeeper, who I mentioned earlier, is the main aspect of you that is used to holding and blocking so many threads of your potential awakening that they haven’t deemed you to be ready for quite yet (and that they haven’t been ready to let in themselves, either).

My own Gatekeeper, who I first came to know as a defensive Inner Protector or Guardian, is offering to me that my readiness is ripening after what has now been several months of working with her, yet several years of working with parts of me that were dominant aspects of my personality. She says, “the soul and heart maturity level need to match with the maturity level of the arising, conscious Sacred Human, who is striving for spiritual consciousness, not in a mentally-based way, and is deeply exploring their heart and wanting to know more, FEEL more, about who they are and why, who/what the Divine is and why, as well as who they could be destined to become in conscious and empowered co-creation with the Divine… It is important to let in the process AND the downloads, to not simply try and open floodgates that are meant to and need to be there… for now. And too, the Gatekeeper needs to feel this relationship with you as your healing Sacred Human self, to trust the Divine through and with you, as so many (myself included at times, in some layers…) still feel very consciously and unfairly separated from the Divine and therefore, from the powerful force and trance of love that wants so much to flood into you and them too.”

It is a major process to feel into, this acceptance of what is being brought in, and there are many understandable defenses that want to keep it out or filter it in a way that is perhaps more digestible for now. There is nothing that can truly be missed out on here though, as each opening within you does create this ever-widening and expanding portal of access to YOU and to the Infinite Love that is the Uni and Multi-verse we exist in and through.

So perhaps the greatest invitation and inspiration being extended to us all with this 11/11 portal, is more of the same of what comes in with all of them… to continue to acknowledge and deepen the work within, to let it be and arise and take a stronger, more self-loving hold on your heart and soul. To invite in a reality that is heart-based, that works with the mind and not against it, and with the soul in a more sober way. There is so much still to feel and on the other side of that, so much more to just keep letting in as we continue our paths of deep inner transformation that continuously transform and upgrade our entire world as we kNOW it and rediscover it, today. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Trusting The Ascension Process, Leaning Into The Divine Feminine

By Jelelle Awen
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Trusting the process, trusting yourself, trusting the curiosity that comes up in response to ALL that you are feeling and starting to see and BE. Trusting the arising into the new that wants to rearrange your life WITH love. Trusting the draws and urges that may turn your previous life UPside down.

Trust the process…….This message comes through clearly today as the intense Lion energies seem to be calming down and settling in just a bit….maybe to allow us a breathing in and an exhaling out again before it picks UP again. Always does a Divine grace orchestration seem to modulate the flow of these catalytic energies so that it is at a rate and pace that we (and parts of us!) can bear. These energies are not meant to ‘blow us out’ or ‘take us down’ even if they tumble us a fair bit or bring up hard things to feel and be with. Especially if you are WITH the Divine in the process and surrendering, then you can experience how nothing is being done to you….yet rather with you and with so much care and love FOR you.

I feel something soft, comforting and feminine always there too. She is more mysterious and elusive and you may need to connect to Her consciously to feel Her. So much focus can be given to the masculine activation of this ascension process….the pushing up and the purging and UPgrading. So much trying to understand and locate what is going on. Yet, too, the feminine HOLDS the space for the process and invites us into not knowing. She is the mother that gestates the baby just in Her BEing of stillness. She is the mother allowing you to form and shape and grow while just loving all that you are and forgiving all that you are still too scared yet to be. She is the reminder that you are enough just as you are in this moment while holding all the potential and capacity of what you could someday become.

The feminine also brings you out of the mind, if parts of you have a tendency to go to the lower vibe frequencies of the mental body that want to kNOw, sort out, analyze, prove it all, track it and locate it. I feel that this mental activity is a block to flowing into feeling and the emotional body and to the intuitions of the higher chakras that allow creativity and ‘unexplainable’ experiences. It can block the emotional body awakening that wants to be felt and allowed. This can be a challenge for men, especially, as so much conditioning supports this mental body filtering. The masculine inside of women (the Inner Protector energies) can revert to this too and question what is coming through or spin out in obsessive thinking loops. There seems to be a connection to the Archon and fear-based Reptilian fusion experiment too where unhooking and unplugging from these frequencies can help with letting go of the mind more. ALL of this exploration of mind needs to be held with much love and not ‘against’ the mind energy as that is what allows it (and the parts that use it) to let go.

Trusting the process……..this is leaning into the BIG picture and context of ascension as a collective experience, connected to the sense we are going through this (on varying levels and degrees) as a species moving into our sacred humanity and into embodiment of everything higher in all our bodies…physical, emotional, mental, chakral/spiritual/energetic, social.

This is a surrender to the masculine and the feminine aspects of this process and how ultimately they are seeking balance from within you through expression AS you.

Trusting the process may also be inviting you to seek and ask for support from others as space holders, teacher, waySHOWers, and within community too. This has been crucial to my ongoing, deepening trust in the process….I have needed many space holders, a couple beloved teachers and lived in community for many years too, which I co-lead, teach, facilitate, and offer to others. All of these ‘outside’ resources ultimately reflect you to you and help to deepen trust in yourself for however long or deep these connections go.

Trusting the process, yes,….the moment by moment walking this out and BEing with it too. Allowing change to move you where you need to go next. Most of all, trusting the love that holds it all and YOU!

I have a tender place in my heart for this guided meditation that came through with Mother Mary that offers comfort, soothing energies for all the bodies during the ascension process….many people fall asleep which is so OK as it goes in as it meant to and sometimes the conscious mind has be UNconscious for it to go in!

https://youtu.be/nkTbTJBBlHE

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Trust: The Merkaba to Infinite Love

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There is one word that I feel has more influence on us in our healing and emergence as sacred humans than almost any other and that is TRUST.  It is the bridge that connects us to the Motherland of Love.  In our pure essence, the word just doesn’t exist (not that any word does but you know what I mean).  We just ARE.  We flow, move, and accept all that IS because we are in harmony with Love.  But if we were pure essence, I wouldn’t be here writing and you wouldn’t be here reading.  We would be ONE.  And we ARE.. essentially.  But we chose to live and experience in this differentiated/ fractured dimension to experience ourselves as Love outside Itself to experience Itself. Learning to trust Itself back to Oneness.  

This separation was/is a scary thing for us.  And for Love.  If we experience this existential terror then so does Love.  It too is diving off a cliff to see what happens.  But the one thing Love has is Trust that it will reclaim Itself no matter how hairy things may get.  I feel for us in our human expression, this is a very epic lesson.  If Love has trust, and we ARE Love then what makes it so damned hard to trust sometimes?  We clearly have a part of us that still hasn’t drank the heart-shaped KoolAid cup yet.  Welcome to the relationship with our 3D self.  

We so badly want to let go of all that holds us back from experiencing Joy and Purpose.  And we have on so many levels.  I don’t believe there is a single soul on this planet that doesn’t have an issue with trust.  It may be less of an issue for some, but there is going to be something that kicks up this very human relationship to fear.  It is why we are here.  To continue this healing toward Pure Trust or Ultimate Surrender.  The chasm between where we are NOW and this desired place is different for all of us.  It is through experience that we learn to trust.  We have to act upon something. Make a choice and see what happens.  The results that occur are not always going to be the ones we are hoping for.  Just because they don’t happen doesn’t mean that we didn’t receive something we were meant or dialed up to learn.  If the result is traumatic then our level of trust will determine our ability to let in the deeper meaning, while we allow for all our reactions to be had in response to said event.  

There are also other life experiences and soul woundings that have great impact on our relationship to trust.  By asking our guides for assistance we can be shown many different soulscapes that provide much heart data to what is THIS life wounding and what is part of our larger MetaSoul picture.  What is in our fractal that contributes to this trust wounding?  There are stories to be unveiled and felt.

Can we hold the Meta-space of Trust while we navigate our journey into our new sacred humanity?  It becomes our life-preserver.  Our invisible stepping stone or set of forgotten wings.  It provides a container, a Merkaba, for our entrance into and through unknown portals of experience.  Without it, we stay stuck and stagnant on some level, even if we have access on others.  Ultimately we want ALL of us to come with us into this new frequency of existence.  If there are soul aspects that still have issues of trust, we can have a relationship with it to bring more of our essence of Love into the heartscape.  
The Separation is a uniquely 3D traumatic experience, I feel.  In 4D consciousness we have the tools to hold space for that within us but we need support along the way.  So many times have I taken leaps of faith and taken the fear with me.  I was also gifted with not just my own guidance from angels and other aetheric beings,  but also that of soul family.  Our 3D self needs it.  There are those that have been across many trust chasms and have found their way on the other side.  Leaning into that experience is essential.  I feel this is an ongoing journey for us.  Continuing to embody our own bigness and gifts,  while continuing to lean further into the forgotten territories of Galactic Love Consciousness to bring more and more Joy and Bliss to our collective creation.  Trust is the way across and into this new territory.  Finding the distrust and feeling its very real reasons for not trusting provides us the ground upon which we may take one step at a time.

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com