Solar Eclipses Digestions & Activations

By Raphael and Jelelle Awen

Jelelle:

The reverential AWEsomeness of the cosmos rushed over me and the Divine wonder of the configuration of our Universe as we took in the eclipse ‘show’ for a couple of hours via live feed.

During the eclipse it felt right for Raphael and I to be in our airbnb rental together, a cozy studio that we cleared the energy beforehand with a salt lamp, incense, set up a simple altar….as it was super windy on the beach here in Nazare, on the silver coast of Central Portugal. We were guided to be here on the coast to celebrate our recent wedding anniversary, the release of our book together, the birth of Divine Self Embodiment AND take in the eclipse.

The energies themselves kept building and building before the eclipse as well and I had a sense of that, plus overall uneasiness, intensity, calibration, and needing to ground, to be in sacred space, especially after driving here for a couple of hours yesterday. It reminds me of the anticipatory feelings when you take a plant medicine or psychedelic….excitement mixed with unknown mixed with some tension.

Every chakra and clair ability amplified prior to it within me and during it as well, which is why I advocated yesterday for being in an environment and with energies that resonate with you and what you want MORE of in your life, in your internal world and with others. Energies that are supportive of your larger and authentic being coming forward into expression.

As I digested the eclipse energies more with Divine Mother this morning, I felt how what was most interesting was the RELATIONSHIP that each soul/parts/aspects of people had with the eclipse. What their filters were going into it and then their digestion during/after as well.

Many souls had strong fear and darkness projection filters going on, avoided it altogether, didn’t want to take it in visually in any way and even warned others about it…felt it was inviting in darkness and entity attachments. In the reality they are coming from (which is sacred to them in this phase), the timelines where this was the sense of eclipses (esp in more primitive timelines) may be coming forward now for feeling and healing. Fear draws the reality of more fear on the ‘outside’ until it is met and answered by love and trust from within and with the Divine.

There were those souls who projected that the eclipse would result in a ‘grand saving’, a rapture, a dissolution of the false world and a sudden and abrupt sweeping into the New (in whatever their soul’s desire and picture is for that.) There was deep meaning projected onto the eclipse changing everything, often because of a hollow and empty feeling inside themselves in their own life experiences. Unfelt despair can so often be placed onto events outside of self for some relief rather than felt/used as a portal for more self love and Divine connection.

There were those souls who made it into an occasion to party, to be in a large crowd, to feel Unity in that way even while being less sensitive to the impact on themselves and their energies. And, the 3D mainstream view of ‘science’ explaining it all logically and yet admitting that it was a rare occurrence worthy of study.

It’s fascinating really, all the different filtering experiences and perceptions of the same event! It feels like the eclipse itself serves as a mirror for us all individually and collectively. It really shows how divergent humanity is right now with so many different timeline realities playing out on the Earth Plane as it ascends to Gaia consciousness and we do too. That divergence does create quite a schism, where groups of souls are really experiencing quite an altered and often polarized reality from each other.

The ultimate invitation that I felt from the eclipse was one of Unification….an occurrence of seemingly miraculous alignment designed and offered by the Divine to SHOW us and INVITE us to unite, to come together, and to be in surrender to something bigger than ourselves and our current life content, struggles, and issues. To move out of fusions to parts of us being right or being wrong, being evil or being righteous…to feel how sacred we ALL are as Divine children and human embodiments of the Divine.

These eclipse energies, which feel like they will be integrating for months/years to come, offer both an invitation to go deeply inward to know/feel/deepen with self….and a transmission of Unity/Oneness/connection with ALL That IS outside of self.

A deep compassion for humanity and where we are in this moment…in the sacred growth experience of divergence and somewhere deep inside parts of us aching for reunion…moves through when we open our hearts to feel it ALL with Divine Mother.

Love to you as you integrate, feel, and ground in these eclipse energies within your BEing,

Jelelle Awen

This was our favorite image from that we took…a screen shot from Nasa’s feed as offered through Fox News feed in which after totality a burst of the sun’s rays came through…light emerging out of the darkness.

Raphael:

There’s a feeling to this eclipse after the fact of being on the other side of all the anticipation and projections of what might occur, shifting now to the wonder, inquiry and digestion of what did happen.

This event, when felt through the heart, offers a big entry point and exit point into new realms of our being.

It’s kind of like 9/11 – everyone remembers where they were on that fateful day that was like a lightning strike to the tree of collective consciousness that we could only wonder what that would mean to life going forward.

I feel this surrender now into receiving something long awaited and yearned for. My mind is a bit tired even at the attempt to encapsulate it mentally, but my heart knows it received a big transmission and transmutation. A download if you will.

We each get to go beyond the projected fears and hype that was thrust onto this celestial event and feel what each part of us needs and wants in the new territory.

It was probably an eclipse like celestial event that heralded the birth of Yeshua. Culture works for millenniums after that to try and integrate it.

You are the Christ consciousness arising, even as parts of you feel nothing like that at all. That’s what and where you as your divine self comes in. You’re the digester, the integrator, the reconciler. Yeshua too was quite surprised and profoundly challenged to learn of what his soul had intended for him.

No part of you wants to be left behind. All of you wants to come along. You are the event, the totality, the dawning and the integration.

I’m feeling a personal piece of being reconnected with Divine Father after a many years long incubational rebirth period with Divine Mother. She’s passing me off it feels like, yet offering she goes nowhere.

I’m feeling an Old Testament scripture come back from memory offered to me and each of you. (Admittedly with a couple updated tweaks)

“Arise, shine, for your light has come and the glory of the divine has arisen within you. Great darkness will cover many people, but my light now dawns inside of you.”

What does your full shining look and feel like? What’s been hidden in shadow that wants revealing? How can this come out without harm even though it may hurt?

Love to you as you hold it all. If my words offer a support to you, let me know and let’s see what a deepening connection might look and feel like together. 💚 I’ve been told that sweet new souls are washing up on my shores as I wash up on theirs.

For more information about 1:1 sessions, group events, books/videos visit soulfullheart.org.

Healing The Persecution Wound: No Longer Allowing Toxic Inner & Outer Relationship Dynamics

By Jelelle Awen

Deep clearings recently of the persecution wound that lives in us all as we’ve had so many lifetimes of holding frequencies of healing, light, and love for the collective. Seeding light in the darkness. Holding the higher codes of union remembrance from higher timelines on the Earth Plane…millions of years in Lemurian golden age, the golden age of Atlantis before the fall….and golden ages on other planets and in other galaxies.

The persecution wound seems to come up in personal (esp. birth family) and in service relationships most strongly. The feelings/reactions/triggers that can come up in parts of us around being misunderstood, not seen, hurt or abused, rejection, ‘kicked’ energectically, feeling shame and unworthiness pushed up. That strong instinctual urge and trauma response in ‘being attacked’ to defend ourselves, to fight, or to flight.

And sometimes we need to go many ‘rounds’ into this dynamic with a soul who has signed up to hold this persecution mirror for us (often reinforced by the ‘narcissist program’ as I call it). We need to go into repeated attempts to clear the karma there, to transcend beyond the ‘roles’ of persecutor and victim into the open field of love where no wrong can truly be done from one to another.

I’m feeling personally a soul turn completion of a sacrificial pattern with souls who have played the persecutor role for me (sometimes very literally in certain lifetimes). My soul tendency is not toward fighting or defending myself yet rather toward large hearted forgiveness and desire to arise into the new grounds.

This can be a good thing for an ambassador/healer/teacher….yet, my soul aspects and parts this life and others have given too much in the sense of over holding, care taking, extending myself…a sense of making up for the light and love of the Divine that I can connect to if others are struggling to feel that themselves.

It has almost been a ‘survivor’s guilt/unworthiness’ piece where my Divine access is given away without enough personal needs criteria, esp in lifetimes where personal needs weren’t even considered or connected to (such as being a nun or priestess). Being a bridge to the Divine is an aspect of this, of course, and yet being that without a personal cost to me and being in humble worthiness/advocating for self is a piece I am healing this life.

I am now tuned into that I can forgive in the higher levels as I feel Divine Mother’s heart of compassion flow through…and yet can’t transactionally allow into my life those who cannot take accountability for the harm they have caused (sometimes going into amnesia about it even happening), who continue to project dark agendas without looking at their side/go into curiosity around where these are sourced from, who don’t feel genuine remorse over harms caused, who gaslight or invalidate feeling impacts of my parts or their own, and who aren’t continually surrendering into Divine guidance and trust as best they can and have access to.

I am bringing my truth in directness with care and offering mirrors/challenges as needed in response, yet I am also complete with holding space for this often toxic dynamic in myself or soul field, in service work, in personal relationships/community, or for the collective. It has been a blessed gift to me to have these experiences and I’ve learned a lot, even when difficult and painful.

I also felt a deep love ambassador process recently by bridging in meditation to a Grand Inquisitor energy in the karmic field….a Gatekeeper/Punisher who is reinforced and supported by the Matrix energies. This Inquisitor immediately expressed remorse and asked for forgiveness and as he received it, he started to transmute from all bloody, dark and heavy….. to wearing golden robes of light with all blood washed away. Waves of forgiveness from Divine Mother flowed over us both and he started transforming into masculine discernment and truth telling without need to persecute or expose anyone. And I felt a release of wounded feminine feelings of being hurt or harmed by this energy.

With this movement, I could feel how this Inquisitor had been ‘showing up’ over the years in different ways to get my attention (originally in the form of my parents), so that I could reconcile my relationship to this shadow, which is also within my own soul field too. None of us has truly only been a victim or only a persecutor nor parts of us either.

It feels like there is a big turn happening for the awakening and ascending masculine in this way…both in men and in the inner masculine in women. The old patriarchal grounds of being the exposer, the inquisitor, the edgy truth telling, the tyrant, the abuser..they are falling away as Divine Father offers a template of truth telling to men and women that is direct yet with care. Provokes what is needed and yet doesn’t do damage. Leads with transparency and authenticity while being sensitive to impact on all.

The truth of our being AS love reveals itself as the polarities heal. As the fear moves into love. And sometimes as we no longer allow the repeated cycles that don’t serve us or others to continue (if they aren’t meant to).

ALL of the experiences in relationships are sacred, both the bliss and the mess. Felt as portals of self discovery, they open out into growth and deeper feeling experience of BEING love in humbly worthy sacred human form.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More info about 1:1 sessions with me to feel/heal/complete difficult relational patterns from within and with others to move into more union experience of self love flow outward at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Meditation to connect to the punisher-shame dynamic within you (inner persecution) here: https://youtu.be/kBG0OFQAdYc?si=uuIIJRwL_8rpZpXC

~

The Ever-Unfolding Journey of Sacred Union

by Kasha Rokshana

There was once a time, not long ago, when parts of me cared only about sacred romance/union. It’s still very much a priority and a profound longing, yet the sense of it being the only possible gift and reflection of my feminine, my process and progress, and my next steps in service has been healing, piece by piece, part by part, soul aspect by soul aspect. There have been times over the years when I’ve felt a near-constant ‘void’ or despair feeling, even when IN a sacred romance exploration, like an ache that couldn’t really be met and an itch that couldn’t be scratched.

As I feel into that ache and itch, I can feel how there have been some big expectations and dreams, even of how I would show up in these romantic bonds. There is such a desire to be spacious, yet passionate, real and yet also a dream-come-true for the King of my heart. The deepest ache is to be seen, felt, beheld in the full-range of my feminine Queen expression and to have the capacity to fully see, feel, and behold my mate in his counterpart King expression. 

These dreams aren’t convoluted, but they’re complicated sometimes, especially when the reality hits of having to also be (very) patient with my process and his, even just to be able to minimally let it all in and begin to live into our potential individually and as a couple. 

We need room to live into and walk out our healing from this life and other lifetimes while also healing karmic grounds between us. We need space to be able to bring reflections to each other of the impact within the intimacy, to feel safe enough to be real and receive realness too, and to love each other up in ALL ways, even if fur flies from time to time. We each need the capacity to care deeply about each other without caretaking, which is an overflow from the care and non-caretaking/enabling of our own parts that we can and will sometimes fuse to. 

I want to be able to experience the sort of love transaction that I do with my closest beloveds and with the Divine and also still feel present to them and to myself, to not lose myself and to not feel him lose himself either. There needs to be opportunities for us to feel our changing wants, needs, desires and our ongoing growth paths, whether they continue to intertwine or if the ground together is coming to sacred completion.

This PROCESS of sacred union can’t really be emphasized enough… there is no final place of ultimate arrival, though my beloveds Raphael and Jelelle have certainly been experiencing a much deeper harmony than ever before after 15 years together and experiencing the ride that sacred union is in a profound, multi-dimensional way. What I’ve witnessed in them over these last 12 years is what I’ve wanted to experience myself and have had tastes of off and on. I’ve been humbled, so say the least, by what I’ve witnessed and what I’ve experienced personally too… constantly reminded that the process of upgrading, of deepening the ground between you and within you is truly never-ending and not ever a guarantee.

Today is the first day of the Sacred Union virtual transmission circles that Raphael and Jelelle will lead once a month until June. Raphael will also be leading some circles exclusively for men and Jelelle and I will lead some for women as well. I’m so looking forward to being a part of these calls and to be tuning into my own next upgrades within that will support my draw of and deepening with my counterpart mate when it’s time for that. Plus, we’re currently celebrating a sweet sacred union/reunion coming together in our community with Raianna and Jasper, so you’ll get a sense of their journey as well! 

The circle will be held on Zoom and you can attend/receive the recording by donation. More info here: soulfullheart.org/sacredunionseries2024

I hope to see/feel you there! Who knows… you might even meet your mate! 

Love,

Kasha 

***

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

1:11 New Beginning Codes Sound Transmission & Energy Update (Video)

by Kasha Rokshana

In this recording of a Facebook livestream on 1/11/2024 with Kasha and Raianna, you’re invited to experience and digest the 1:11 energies of new beginnings.

Using the 432hz root chakra bowl, a shamanic drum, and their voices, Kasha and Raianna transmit from their hearts and souls the codes they’re also experiencing of new beginnings and shifting from old ways of experiencing life and love.

As they also digest in the video, 1/11 has been an important portal for feeling the permission to not only look inward but also look upward, downloading and feeling deeply the Divine support available at all times. It’s truly a time to claim/reclaim everything within you and also whatever you feel your higher timeline is at this time. 

***

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Raianna Shai is a member of the SoulFullHeart Healing community. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

2024 New Year Energies: ‘Bloom’

by Kasha Rokshana

‘Bloom’… this is the word that comes to me as I feel this year of 2024. I feel it personally and I feel it for those I’m close to as well. I feel it globally somehow too, despite the death and destruction still taking place, ending many lives and upending many more. There’s no doubt we are living in dark times which need to be reconciled with, and yet… still I feel and see the ‘blooming’ process taking hold for all of humanity. 

What I see is a lily sprouting up from burned up ground. I see the explosions, the blood of war and mess of what we choose to put each other (and ourselves) through. I feel how even in this scene there is love holding it all, longing to reunite us all on a higher plane even if we can’t or won’t find our way to reunion on this denser one where suffering manifests the most.

Those of us who are empaths can feel lost in all that’s going on at times, especially as parts of us feel concerned for how others are going to survive what they’re enduring. We also feel rumbles through our souls of a familiarity with the pain they’re going through. I especially feel this at times when I’m talking to my international English students online and they share about what’s going on in their worlds/countries. My heart breaks for them and their loved ones, and it doesn’t matter much in those moments that we may not share core resonance around the context of it all. 

When I check in with the Divine about this sense of ‘blooming’ and the state of the world, the answer I receive is this…

“There is always room to bloom. It is a choice for each soul to do so even when it seems that humanity will not ever learn to love itself and all is hopeless. It is actually in these peak times of great suffering and loss that the answer of ‘surrender to Divine love’ comes forward the most.

Many of the most beautiful stars in the galaxy shine brighter when the darkness surrounds them. Your time of blooming is a sign of hope and trust that the most profound shifts are happening in the heart of humanity, though it seems like the opposite is true.

This year is an opportunity to be planted firmly in resonant and supportive soil, to choose to bloom where you can truly grow and be in reunion with others who want the same experience for themselves… others who also want to bloom and be a beacon of love for every aspect of their soul, every part of them, and for others as well.”

It feels to me like we’re being invited deeply into our own inner worlds, to truly find our way of ‘blooming’ there and also alongside others. This is what brings us to our next level of care, of love, of compassion for ourselves and others. This is what helps facilitate the deeper and deeper shifts in the heart of humanity from the inside out, this year and beyond. 

Join Raphael and Jelelle as they host a group call this Sunday, January 7th at 5pm GMT for 2024 New Year Intentions. This group call will not only be about what you intend to bring into your life, yet what you intend to truly be with and feel inside of you as this year unfolds. As always, this call is by donation and you can attend live and/or receive the recording. I hope to see you there with us! More info can be found here: soulfullheart.org/events

Love,

Kasha 

***

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Sacred Feminine Upgrade Codes: Feeling Your Fear As You Move Into LOVE

by Kasha Rokshana

“There’s a lot of fear…”

Tears fall as I feel this with parts of me this morning, feeling what seems to be on deck for this coming year, feeling all that’s happened this year and could happen in the next one. Just naming it, feeling it as a fear pocket being shown to me helps move it more into love and openness, especially as I hold the parts of me who have been churning inside around it.

These words, “there’s a lot of fear,” tumble from my mouth and as I say them out loud, the words “there’s love here” come as well. I realize then how similar these two statements are when we say them, how similar they feel in our mouths, in our breath, as they move from deep inside of us to be expressed.

“There’s love here” is what has been offered to me by my beloved guide, Mary Magdalene, who I’ve been connecting with in sacred surrogacy for a while now, and also from the Divine Beloved who then squeezes me, holds me tight as these energies are transmitted, seeding within my feminine healer’s heart. I feel so supported in my love embodiment as I feel these energies surrounding me, so anchored in my propensity to ultimately return to love, always, even when fear is still moving through and needs to be validated as well.

I feel this as a vital theme as we head into 2024 and a powerful opportunity for upgrades on a soul, heart, and body level. Shifting from fear to openness, then to love and allowing this to be an ongoing process too, holding it all with so much self-care and compassion yet also challenging yourself and your parts too. Being willing to feel it all can feel like a tall order, yet the invitation is always to take it one step at a time. 

Join me and Jelelle this coming Sunday, Dec 17th, as we explore the theme of sacred feminine upgrades in this coming year and what they seem to mean and be inviting. We so welcome you to come and take part, sharing what it is that feels like it wants to upgrade for you too. The ‘womb room’ of these women’s calls is always a warm one and so beautiful to be a part of! You can find more info here: soulfullheart.org/events

Love,

Kasha

***

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

12:12 Portal Offering Dynamic Access To Parts/Soul Aspects & Body Upgrades

By Jelele Awen

It is SUCH a dynamic time in relationships with others and within as we enter the 12:12 portal energies of unification and healing separation! Lots of access to feel these separations, fear stuck places and karmic binds. I’m experiencing a vast range of places to go of discovery in the emotional body, soul field and physical body/light body upgrades.

I’ve been honored to hold space with women in a fuller way in sessions lately, and also to be in ongoing connection with Raphael to our Pairbond Source Field, collaboration on our (what is now feeling like) a three book series sharing our sacred union journey together (pic below is us in our daily conversation/check in together with our cats Ravyn and Leo), and we’ve been hosting/facilitating our daughter Raianna the last few days as well.

These are some themes/places/parts dynamics that have come up recently in sessions that I’d like to share here as it can helpful for resonance and inspiration:

– Focused bonding and ongoing connection/differentiation with parts of the self/soul aspects really offers such a powerful way to digest traumas/triggers/reactions and negotiate life choices, creating a centered Divine Self that can hold and respond to self and others. Relationships, esp those with heartbreak/betrayal/non-resonance tones and false twin flame, are providing a rich ground of exploration into these parts of self such as the Inner teenager, Inner protector/Punisher, Inner Mother or Fierce Feminine/Inner Kali, Inner son/daughter and the dynamics between them that are being mirrored there.

– The Gatekeeper, as the keeper of the veils/guardian of the all the soul’s timelines, is going through a time of increased sense of loneliness and isolation, tiredness of being alone in it all and wanting to experience being a bridge to the Divine again rather than lost in the False God frequencies. I’m seeing them coming forward to be felt and seen, wanting to upgrade out of the old programs of the karmic field and into the Metasoul Field (higher level unity consciousness.) and soul family.

– Shame pockets that are kept in place by ongoing Punisher/shame looping (often about the two most triggering areas of money and sexuality) are coming up to be felt, offered love, compassion and forgiveness. Feeling the part that is doing the punishing/judging and the part that is receiving the shame allows this to resolve and come out of hiding.

– Orion aspects are coming through right now, to heal the will-based/warrior energies that these Earth seeders have been trapped in with the Matrix hijack. These aspects feel very ancient, shamanic, and have deep, primordial wisdoms to share. I’ve been connecting to mine the last few weeks and in a session too.

– 3D body detoxes/purges/clearings are needed now as light body upgrades come in. Detox includes from toxic foods, C and the V shots, hormonal imbalances, somatic/body storing of trauma, and more. Fasting, urotherapy, juicing, super food plant supplements, yoga/body movement, grounding with Gaia, and sound healing help detox the 3D body and support the light body.

There’s much more I could elaborate on with all of these so let me know if you have questions about any of them and I can share additional resources from our SoulFullHeart library and other places as well. I am finding there is such a wide range of things coming up as this Ascension process goes on and awakening occurs on deepening levels for so many souls!

The overall coding is to BE a love presence, without judgement, as a bridge to any parts of you and soul aspects who are needing you….so many gifts open out from this connection!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Info about a free intro and 1:1 sessions for 55 euros min. donation with me, Raphael or Kasha at soulfullheart.org/sessions. More about the parts, metasoul aspects in my book Free To Be 5D with links at soulfullheart.org/books

Join Raphael and I tomorrow for a 12:12 Portal Sound Healing Transmission FB live at 6pm WET/1pm EST. more info on my feed.

And Kasha and I for a women’s group call offering sacred feminine upgrades for 2024 (some of what I’ve mentioned here) on Sunday, Dec 17th at 5pm WET/12pm EST by donation. More info at soulfullheart.org/events and https://www.facebook.com/events/340236572086556