Moving Beyond Fear-Based ‘Tolerance’ Of Dissonance During Awakenings & Growth

by Kasha Rokshana

“Tolerance” is really such a terrible word. I don’t particularly like it. Because it makes parts of us feel like they are obliged to let things go that really they shouldn’t have to. It’s one of the most misinformed tenants of modern society. Tolerance is not compassion or understanding, let alone love, and it actually typically comes from fear, especially the fear of you yourself not being ‘tolerated’ let alone actually felt or understood.

If you find yourself tolerating a dead marriage, a dead relationship to birth family, a dead connection to your livelihood, rather than seeking and humbly taking risks for the sake of aliveness, then you’re likely in a place of having been coached, told, conditioned into feeling like as long as you’re tolerating these dead things, you’re ‘doing something right’ and dare I say, even reaching the carrot of ‘enlightenment’.

No one is entitled to your tolerance, not even the parts of you that ask for it. Just as people on the outside of you basically tell you ‘don’t look over here, you have to accept me as I AM’, parts of you can do that too. They don’t want you to see their manipulative strategies or ways of controlling the people in your life that you don’t resonate with so that they don’t have to experience real and true growth and what actually COULD become possible in ALL of your relationships.

Tolerance becomes intolerance, sometimes quickly, as awakenings happen and these awakenings lead quickly to depression and anxiety when this intolerance is not honoured or felt. You are changing. And if you’re a big soul, you’ve likely felt how quickly you change and shift at times and are oftentimes tiptoeing around your relationships rather than letting your awakenings truly ride with you into a new life phase.

Death and rebirth is always a part of awakening, whether it’s the kind of death and rebirth that is very, very dark for a time or the kind that is actually much easier to move through. I can assure you though, that if parts of you still buy the 3D Matrix or New Age Spirituality Matrix shit of ‘you have to find a way to make this work because that’s what real love does’, then you are in for more difficulty, not less, whether it manifests in physical illness, emotional waves you fall under rather than feel able to come to terms with (note, I didn’t say ‘control’), or a feeling of existential crisis that keeps growing until parts of you can no longer stuff it down.

Awakening, truly expanding into your heart and soul and letting them lead, is not about tolerating anything or anyone. Yet, as this intolerance is felt and honoured, true compassion can be felt as well as authentic passion. You change, and even if the people around you can’t, you are empowered to navigate your way through that and find new people to be around, even if you need a phase of being ‘alone’ (which is never alone, truly, for the Divine is ALWAYS there and sometimes it takes the lonely feelings to actually drop into Its arms at last).

If you truly have a penchant for your deepest growth, you’ll find a way to feel what you’ve been allowing that actually doesn’t feel good to you. Our gut honesty is what brings us the most growth and the most Divine alignment, even in all its messiness and absolute dearth of glamour. There is NO such thing as an ‘ugly cry’, especially when what you’re feeling is the grief of what perhaps once worked, what once was beautiful and resonant, and you’re feeling into letting it go for the sake of all involved…

I love you. Keep feeling. Keep moving beyond tolerance and you WILL find your truth, whether you end up needing to move into deep life change right away or not. Your awakenings will deepen and your experience of your soul will too, even in all of the waves of exquisite sadness, necessary rage, and openings into bittersweet bliss.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Museletter: May 16, 2022

Big lunar eclipse love to you! Some powerful Supermoon eclipse energies are moving through now and with them some new alchemy is being sparked within our community as we lead and offer from our embody of our beloved process and way of life.

Featured this week is an announcement and the first episode of a brand NEW podcast led by Gabriel and Kasha, called the SoulFullHeart Current! They are both very excited about this new venture and to be bringing in other community members and leaders to talk about a variety of different topics, share their personal processes, etc. This first episode is about giving a lay of land in terms of where Gabriel and Kasha would like to take this podcast and what they hope to offer through it.

We have two new videos for you this week. One is the recording of yesterday’s livestream/energy update with Raphael and Jelelle where they digested the lunar eclipse energies and led a powerful guided meditation to support you to connect in with those energies personally. The second video is from Kasha, who felt in her heart to digest the main causes of spiritual/inner work/ascension ‘burnout’ which many people have been feeling about lately and in the last few years, especially.

Many new writings in this issue as well, including very current energy updates, personal process updates, digestions of the process of living on light, and invitations to bridge your humanity with your divinity in deepening ways.

Next Sunday, May 22, Raphael and Jelelle will be leading guided meditation group call for members of the SoulFullHeart Portal. If you’d like to join the Portal, click here. Monthly membership is $22 USD/mo.

You can find our current Museletter here.

If you’d like to subscribe to receive our Museletters and other announcements in your own inbox, you can do so on our website or you can scroll to the bottom of this issue and click “subscribe”.

Much love from all of us!

~ the SoulFullHeart Community

Energy Update: Lunar Eclipse Energies Offer Sacred Feminine Activations (Link To View Online)

By Jelelle Awen

Blood Supermoon total lunar eclipse energies coming in! As I’ve said before, these are my favorite type of eclipses for the sacred feminine activations they offer. Plus the opportunity for relief from the hijacked Moon Matrix transmission so we can take in Luna’s true planetary consciousness that once existed unfiltered in our skies in the Lemurian age.

There have been intense energies entering the eclipse window already and over the last 24 hours! I especially feel the clearings happening on my physical and energectic levels as I tune into bringing in more prana during this ongoing juice/now water only fast….with an experience of some discomfort in my body yesterday opening out into bliss in the same day!

Connection with our guides, Divine Self, galactics is always thin during an eclipse and they are def. here to support us. All our clairs are activating too and messages/visions/inspired thoughts/clarities/emotional breakthroughs can come through.

I find that watching the live transmission can be very activating, esp with meditative music. It is a LONG eclipse lasting over five hours, so any portion of it is good to catch with the full eclipse lasting almost 90 minutes! You can watch a livestream of the entire eclipse here: https://youtu.be/MII89TZ63NE

That same feed has a great listing on their web page of start, peak, and end times for the eclipse in all the different timezones, yet in general starts at 3:00am here in Portugal/London; 10pm EDT; 7:00pm PDT. You may be able to view it yourself as well in certain parts of the world if the skies are clear.

Also, I hope you can join Raphael and me at 5pm London time/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT for a livestream on FB at https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen where we will feel into these eclipse energies and how you may be experiencing them on physical/emotional/soul/energy levels. We will offer a brief guided meditation as well to help with digestion and integration of them. You can watch us live or catch the recording.

Happy eclipse day! This is a good one to go inward, reflect, feel what you are wanting/desiring for your future and tap into your sacred feminine depths (for both women and men.)

How are you experiencing these eclipse energies so far?

love,

Jelelle Awen

More info about 1:1 sessions, online community SoulFullHeart Portal, books/writings, at soulfullheart.org.

Introducing Our New Podcast: The SoulFullHeart Current

My beloved Kasha Rokshana and I are so excited to host the first episode of a weekly podcast from within the SoulFullHeart process, community, and way of life which is so beloved to us and which we have been a part of for the last decade.

In this episode, we share a bit about our personal journeys and draw to this process and community. We also give you a very brief overview of what the process itself offers along with some pieces about what makes it challenging yet beautiful. You’ll also hear a bit about our personal intentions for this Podcast overall.

You can find our podcast in many different places:

Anchor.fm: https://anchor.fm/soulfullheartcurrent
Spotify:https://open.spotify.com/show/2LUIpz0KHOr46Utheqfl5C
As well as Apple Podcasts, Google Podcast, and Amazon Music. You just need to search for “The SoulFullHeart Current”. If you listen to us on any of these platforms please follow us so you get notified of upcoming episodes!

We will also be adding it to our YouTube channel:
https://youtu.be/wAkHfq4btRk

We’d love for you to join us weekly as we share our personal digestions of emotional and spiritual healing, sacred union, ascension energies, current global events, disclosure, and more through the SoulFullHeart lens and embodiment we share. We’ll also bring in different members of the SoulFullHeart community, and also our mentors and SoulFullHeart co-creators, Raphael and Jelelle Awen, to contribute to the conversation and share their own experiences.

The word ‘current’ represents what is happening in the Now with us and through us. To be ‘current’ is to be open and honest about how we are feeling, not just what we are thinking. It is being vulnerable and real, truthful even when it’s hard. It’s a journey that starts inside of you yet then is meant to overflow outward too as you share your truth out loud.

It also represents movement, like a river or electrical current. We’re on an ongoing conveyor belt of ascending consciousness as humans living on Gaia We are Love seeking a way back to Itself through our human experiences. It is rarely, if ever, a straight line. Where we go or how we feel one day may be different the next depending on new information or circumstance. We flow on that current by being ‘current’… being real, feeling what’s true in the moment. It’s a mysterious journey that wants to lead us back to our Essence, Being, and Truth.

Currency is also about what we bring into the world and the soul gifts we each have to exchange with others for theirs, in service of love yet also in our intimacy with those we’re close to. It’s the gifts we’re endowed with to spend in the world when we’re able to transact these gifts with others, to receive and exchange. This podcast is about what we each have to ‘spend’ from the wellsprings of our personal soul and heart gifts, yet it’s also about connecting with you and yours and supporting your own connection inside and with others too!

We appreciate any ideas for future podcasts for us to delve into as they arise for you. You can email those to us, along with any other comments to soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

You can find our online community, the SoulFullHeart Portal, on Mighty Networks at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co. We highly recommend joining our online community where for only $22/month, you’ll have access to what could be the deepest and most meaningful soul family connections you’ve yet to experience, exclusive videos/guided meditations from us as well as Raphael and Jelelle Awen, and more personal pieces being shared from each of us in our intimate community.

Thank you for being in The Current with us. It is where we strive to let go, let in, feel, heal, see, be seen, and seek resonant community!

With Love and Currency,

Gabriel & Kasha

Personal Update: Fasting/Transitioning To Prana Journey

By Jelelle Awen

As I move into my fifth day of juice fasting/transitioning to living on more prana, the sound bowls are food right now, as is my daily soaks in the sun and Himalayan/epsom salt baths and vinyasa yoga flows. I also engaged in a deep pranayama breathing practice this morning that brought me into a deep bliss and relaxation space, theta brainwave place, for over two hours.

It’s amazing how your soul kicks in when you start letting go of what you’ve been previously been using as ‘fuel’. All of the ways of bringing more energy/light/love into your field and body come forward, out of more need and necessity than previously. Eventually it just becomes the new ‘rewired’ system as the old programmings fall away.

I feel that I’ve moved out of the detox phase where all the yuckies you’ve eaten start coming out of your pores, coating your tongue, making some aches in the back, etc. Other than a period of having a headache for awhile and a coated tongue (relieved by a tongue scraper), I haven’t had many detox symptoms this time. The first time I did a water fast three years ago, the detox was so intense that I had to stop after a few days. I’ve learned now how to negotiate this phase and what supports me through it.

EVERY phase and stage of this body detoxing/upgrading process is sacred and needed. There isn’t an ‘end goal’ or ‘failing’ or ‘succeeding’. It is a linear process yet rather a circular one that invites you into different initiations as you go.

This does feel like such a supportive time to moving into a phase of letting food go/fasting (for however long you feel to), with the continual solar flares and CMES coming in (even if they don’t interface with Gaia’s atmosphere.) Just laying out in the sun for even 10 minutes brings in a powerful supportive energy boost that feels like you’ve eaten a full meal!

I can feel the lunar eclipse in the grids as well and the relief from the Matrix moon hijack that it will offer. The sacred feminine pure frequencies can flow through during that 84 minute window. Join Raphael and I on Sunday at 5pm London time/12:00pm EST/9:00am for a livestream on FB where we will feel into these eclipse energies and how you may be experiencing them on physical/emotional/soul/energy levels. We will offer a brief guided meditation as well to help with digestion and integration of them. You can watch us live or catch the recording.

Galactic activations are strong right now too….as we move into crop circle transmission season and I can feel the codes I received when I visited two of them in the UK last year coming through. My Arcturian aspect Binkh is coming into my awareness again, offering inspirations and some channeled messages that feels like will start to be shared too.

I missed her even though she never left me….my consciousness went where it needed to go into lower 4D to do some mega karmic soul clearing of priestess lifetimes. I feel freed up, lighter, less reactive over all, and as if the lighthouse lens of my soul beacon has been cleaned up!

If you feel drawn to connect around any of these places I’m describing and receive a personal bridging around them, I’m available for 1:1 sessions or a free intro with women, more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Much love to you on this ‘sacred’ day of Friday the 13th as the Divine Feminine arises anew in all of her forms,

Jelelle Awen

I describe more about my process of transitioning to living on more prana and less food here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/my-process-of…/

And I had some feline assistance today while I played my sound bowls! Ravyn our cat has become fascinated by them after initially running out of the room whenever we played them (pic above of her paw extended to touch the heart chakra bowl while I played it!) She is vibing into the frequency now as animals are SO tuned into energy, they are a good barometer around if energy is good or not.

My Process Of Transitioning To Living On Prana/Light

By Jelelle Awen

Binkh, my Arcturian aspect, came forward at my request today because I am wanting to upgrade my body, cells, DNA, digestive system, endrocine system, etc. to ultimately make the switch over from needing physical food to living on prana/light energy. I’ve now started an extended juice ‘fast’ (day one!) which is really about engaging the light body’s innate ability to live on prana.

This morning I was inspired to listen to my own guided meditation video to connect with Arcturian energies and an Arcturian Healing Chamber. It felt very supportive, touching, and also activating as I connected with Binkh and drifted in the healing chamber for awhile. I could feel the necessary karmic densities I have been exploring and clearing for awhile, ready to move now into integration and release.

The meditation is here if you’d like to engage in it:

I’ve done 30+day fasts with no food and water/juice in the past and particularly felt a significant switch over with Binkh one time who rewired my digestive system to run on light and not physical food. For the last year or so, it has felt like I am saying goodbye to physical food and eating what I enjoy, yet still vegan, mostly no sugar, no gluten, organic etc. There were still parts of me attached to some social aspects of eating and related to being a mother as well.

It now feels like time to transition again as my body is putting on weight, storing fat, because my sense is that it really doesn’t need the food I’ve been eating. I also feel this is contributing to my ‘aging process’ experience and more intense perimenopausal symptoms. Plus, I am having bloating and indigestion with everything that I eat now no matter how healthy or light it is. My soul/Divine Self is offering that it is time, also easier with all of these abundant sun codes coming in too (which are a ‘food’ of their own, along with Gaia/nature codes, sound healing, sacred sexuality, etc.)

The first stage of this extended fast/transition in my experience is always a detox of any processed foods, toxins, densities that have been digested. This is the only time I’ve experienced ‘hunger’ which is usually more about indigestion and difficulty processing the food as it is moving out than it is real hunger.

The next stage is a deeper detox as the cells clear, autophagy and ketosis kick in. These are more the usual fasting phases. Deeper emotional attachments to eating and food can come up at this stage too, to be felt and held. There can be feelings of deprivation or forcing too, although it is then good to just go back to eating something to ease this if it is very strong, negotiating with parts/soul aspects as needed. This is not about forcing anything or ‘will powering’ your way through it.

The next stage is when the soul starts kicking in. I’ve received major downloads and upgrades of support at this stage from metasoul aspects of mine who also lived on light to some degree/did extended fasting for spiritual/religious reasons. Also, support from Binkh and galactic aspects who have never eaten physical food. The overall feeling is increasing energy levels, increasing soul clarities, less sleep needed, and less thoughts/needs for food.

The next stage (which I would like to experience) is the true detachment from food, where it truly is a choice and an option. Many of those who don’t eat and live on prana for many years may choose to still have a bite or two occasionally. Yet is the freedom of choice and my body running completely on light that is most desirous to me.

I do feel that living on light is eventually inevitable in humanity’s ascension with many phases that we would go through before then. Starvation is a very convincing Matrix programming that keeps so many souls trapped. Our ‘food’ now is hardly food, with so many toxins, chemicals and processing going on…not to mention the killing frequencies of eating animals.

I’ll share more as I go on my transition journey as people are usually curious about it. I have noticed that not many awakened souls have fasted, even for a day or longer, and that feels to me like it represents the deep conditioning/programming that we have about the necessity of physical food and a fear to let it go, even for a short while. I do highly recommend fasting, esp now during this eclipse window, as many benefits/gifts come from it.

Our Divine Self and souls remember many lifetimes esp in Lemuria where there was little food consumed and only the most fresh fruits/vegetables. Tapping into our soul’s memory beyond the matrix programming is a huge support!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

I am so open to mentoring/coaching on this as well if you’d like to explore it in a session with me and feel/see your relationship with your light body/3D body/parts and aspects etc., esp if you have ongoing suffering/struggles around body image, eating, etc. more info at soulfullheart.org

The Causes Of Inner Work & Ascension ‘Burnout’

by Kasha Rokshana

It’s not uncommon to hear about how burnt-out, frustrated, and DONE people feel when it comes to their own Ascension and awakening journeys. There are so many things that can make someone feel this way and there are different ways to look at why this is happening, from the inside out. 

Join Kasha as she launches into a discussion about what’s in her heart about this topic/obstacle and what the factors may be that have led up to it. She offers her sense of how being inundated with ‘spiritual teachings’ and mandates around ‘do this, not that!‘ can play a role in making parts of you feel overwhelmed and ready to give up. Also, many offerings don’t seem to truly give you handrails and active support, let alone heart warmth, and also can blow you/parts of you out (sometimes even on purpose) with over-confrontation and an outside-in orientation to healing that does nothing to empower you to hold your own process. Kasha offers that while confrontation may be necessary at times, peak experiences or intense ‘retreats’ can actually traumatize your parts/Metasoul aspects more so than offer true healing, integration, and a sense of who you truly are.

Kasha goes into more details about all of this and more surrounding what may or may not be your specific circumstances around feeling ‘burned out’ on your personal journey. This is just the tip of the iceberg too, as really this is such a big topic to dive into and is really so personal to everyone who feels it.

Here is a guided meditation to help you connect with your Gatekeeper: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Blood Supermoon Eclipse Window Offering Opportunities For Integration

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: There is a DEEP integration happening during this eclipse window, this space between the two eclipses with the second happening on Sunday. This is my most favorite of eclipses where the big old full moon (hijacked feminine) enters Gaia’s shadow (sacred feminine) in totality and for a long time…a blood supermoon total lunar eclipse that is going to be 84 minutes long. The hijacked lunar energies get to slip into Gaia’s sacred feminine shadow and ‘bleed out’ what is needed. I’ve also felt that these eclipses provide a space from the moon matrix frequencies broadcast for a little while to allow more soul integration.

It’s been two years since the last one, which is an interesting marker as well…a connection to what/where/who you were two years ago. There are resources online to watch it live or take in the recording which I highly recommend with your favorite meditation music.

Raphael and I are going to offer a livestream on FB to connect to these Supermoon eclipse energies and a guided meditation/transmission as well at 5:00pm GMT (london)/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT. You can catch us live to ask questions/leave comments or watch the recording later. https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

The integration process occurring is the response to ALL that was pushed up and activated during the last few weeks of powerful solar activations, planetary alignment, the solar eclipse, and the 5/5 gateway. These were energies that everyone (us sensitives anyway) seemed to be feeling, especially on the physical and emotional body levels.

Many were experiencing physical purges and clearings with head aches, body pains, indigestion, massive fatigue/sleepiness, brain fog, and more. And on the emotional body level I experienced (and others too) that the reaction/response cycle was greatly accelerating. Reactions would come up in myself and what I could witness in others as intense, peaking, charged and deep. Reactions that may not have happened even in quite a while.

Yet the response to those reactions was immediate, loving, deep, and nourishing so that the reaction could land in a place of love and awareness. For me, that is in a specific way of feeling the part/soul aspect who MOST needs me in that moment and is actually having the reaction. Rather than relating as just an “I” experiencing everything (which is SUCH a soup and so hard to sort out), I have for many years now seen and felt that so often it is either a part of myself (esp the 3D self/ego structure) or a soul aspect from another lifetime that is having the reaction.

Just in the last couple of weeks alone, I connected to my 3D self/Birth named part named Jillian around renewed service and some trauma from the past; a new inner mother part named Hera about aging with grace rather than fighting it; and my priestess aspect Lorna around going into deeper collaboration/union with Raphael. I shared about some of these experiences on my feed. Each of these processes was about moving into a deep feeling space with each of them as needed, bringing in Divine Mother and my primary guide/Divine self Anna, and experiencing a transmutation through that in which the heavy despair/pain/trauma is gone.

This eclipse window is offering the opportunity to experience the integration of responding to the reactions in this loving and pin-pointed way to the energies that ACTUALLY need them most. The integration has an elated feeling to it, a renewed passion, clarity about next steps, soul purpose reactivation.

Something heavy and deep is lifted and your heart is freed up. Your soul is freed up. Life and love can enter and flood your field in new ways.

I feel a renewed honor in holding space for others to discover just how specific their reactions/suffering loops etc. can be and how to BE and FEEL the parts/aspects that are having them. It is in the vagueness of the ‘fusion’ to these reactions were there can be a lot of stuckness, a thicker veil, feelings of looping, and hitting a ceiling.

This is a powerful opportunity for healing during and after the eclipse window. I keep seeing some souls in my field that are ‘waiting’ for the right timing to meet with me and perhaps it is now. I have some openings for those women drawn to meet with me for a free intro or who just want to dive in for a 1:1 session for 90 minutes for $77 USD. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions and you can PM/DM me as well.

Wherever you are at in your activation/integration process, the celestial bodies are supporting it. And Divine love too!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

I also highly recommend taking in whichever of our 31 Deepen 2022 videos you are drawn to with teachings and guided meditation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y…