Digestion Of My Visit To Fatima’s Marian Apparition Sacred Sites

By Jelelle Awen

I’ve needed a couple of days to digest our recent visit to the sacred sites in nearby Fatima, Portugal as quite a bit was activated within my soul by going there. Nearby the town of Fatima is where one of the most famous Marian apparition visits occurred in 1917 when three rural children Lucia Santos and her cousins Francisco and Jacinta Marto experienced several visits with Mother Mary.

Many pilgrims flocked to Fatima and Aljustrel (the nearby village where they lived) to witness the visits as word of them spread, which occurred for six months on the 13th of the month. They culminated with the Miracle of the Sun event on October 13th, 1917, in which over 70,000 people reported significant shifts in the location, light quality, and intensity of the sun during this visit.

Only the three children could actually see Mother Mary and only the two girls could see AND hear her, yet many people reported being able to feel a sacred presence during her visits. Some pilgrims reported healings of disease and disabilities as well.

You can feel from the photos I’ve shared the massive scale and size of the group of Catholic religious buildings and structures in Cova da Iria that honors these visits. These sacred sites, including the nearby preserved houses of the children, draws several million pilgrims/tourists every year and thousands during the main processional days on the 13th of May and October.

The Basilica of Our Lady of the Rosary built in the 1950s is a massive church with beautiful marble columns and tombs containing the remains of the children’s bodies, stunning stain glass images depicting the stations of the cross, and vivid paintings and exquisitely detailed sculptures of the Marian visits.

While we were standing in the main area near the Chapel of the Apparitions, a tiny chapel that Mother Mary commissioned for them to build to honor the site of the visits, a processional began at noon with a long line of pilgrims following behind priests holding up a rose laden platform with a statue of Our Lady. As a priest with a beautiful voice sang a song to honor the Fatima visits, the whole group walked right past us and through the church area. This was a special surprise as we did not plan to see it, although it was the 13th of the month. Witnessing this processional was a moving experience for all of us as we felt devotional energies move through toward Mother Mary and the Divine Feminine. We also lit candles in honor of Divine Mother and offered prayers/blessings as well (I lit one in honor of Jacinta.)

I was previously aware somewhat of the Marian apparitions in Fatima and definitely the ones in Lourdes and Guadalupe, Mexico, yet had not connected to any in an exploratory way that could open up deeper healing. This exploration is served by being able to actually visit and take in the sacred site, as I repeatedly discovered when we were in Avalon/Glastonbury, UK and also when we went to the stone circles in the UK. I am now understanding more about why we were guided to settle here in Central Portugal where so much devout Marian energies are centered.

I started connecting in my Metasoul to a lifetime as the youngest seer and supposedly the most fervently devout child, Jacinta, a few weeks ago. I’ve been in healing spaces with her and Mother Mary, first visiting with her in the hospital where she died alone of the Spanish Flu in 1920 while in great pain and personal sacrifice (as did her brother Francisco in 1919). Mother Mary bridged to Jacinta patiently, repeatedly offering a reframe of the self condemning message of sacrificial suffering for all sinners that Jacinta had internalized during the visits.

Mother Mary shared with us that while the first visit with the children was genuine as it was only the three of them (which was Jacinta’s favorite one), the visits after that were somewhat hijacked by the Matrix False Light frequencies. The purity of Mary’s message of peace, an end to wars, and hope/love/support for ALL of humanity was distorted by this hijack and used to convert even more souls into the religious trap of self condemnation, seeking salvation outside of themselves, and False God Worship of the Papal ‘corporation’. Mother Mary offered that the Miracle of the Sun event witnessed by so many souls was also a Matrix hijack and tweak of the Matrix hologram in that moment.

Even with this hijacking and the eventual amusement park spectacle made of the events by the Catholic Church, there was still a genuine and sacred purpose to Mary coming to deliver messages to the children at this time. These children are Magdalene souls with high levels of mastery related to psychic access to higher realms. Before incarnation, there was an agreement between them and Mary Anna (as she is known as a Magdalene) for her to return and seed into them a message of peace just as the first world war was ending and before the second one. The hope was that these messages would usher in a new paradigm of peaceful resolution and diplomacy that might help avoid the second world war.

These seeds of peaceful resolution were planted by the Magdalenes into Gaia’s grids during their most important incarnational lifetime of Yeshua’s crucifixion and ascension. This seeding is beautifully and viscerally described in the Anna, Grandmother of Jesus book by Claire Heartsong that I highly recommend if you are drawn to connect to the Yeshua-Magdalene soul family lineage.

As Mother Mary’s TRUE message landed in the heart of Jacinta, her childlike innocence could return and transmute the self punishing shame that had led her to sacrifice herself. Jacinta became like the sun then, vibrantly curious and wanting to connect to other aspects of our Metasoul from other timelines and learn from them…..such as Lorna my high priestess of Avalon, and Ingrit, my witch/medicine woman. Jacinta didn’t like the ‘rules’ of the Church, so much emphasis on Hell and being condemned, the patriarchal energies of the Church, so she was fairly able to let the programming go when offered another option that was more resonant to her soul.

As with all modern visits to sacred sites and especially those so blatantly and commercially leveraged by the Church, there is a mix of both inspiration and frustration when you visit them. By going inward after the visit there in the physical, I was able to discover the core purity of the message and help free it from the hijack of the church….at least within my own soul and in whatever ways that could ripple out to the Collective.

I am so grateful for the SoulFullHeart process that I have leaned into myself for so many years as a means to lift the veils, transmute karma with love, end the suffering/self sacrificial energies within my relationship to the Divine Mother, and connect directly with these soul aspects so deeply on an ongoing basis. The richness of what our soul has experienced becomes once again accessible and also purified.

This morning, I got to host a reunion between soul sisters and cousins Jacinta and Louisa, who died in 2005 after devoting her life to being a nun in devout worship to Mother Mary. Their reunion was touching and we could connect to their bond together in Yeshua’s lifetime as two of his beloved Marys. Louisa’s healing digestion of the apparition visits was more integrated over her long lifetime, yet, also she tended to move into much self recrimination and unworthiness around being a chosen messenger of Mary’s. Connection with Jacinta now and with the TRUE frequencies of Mary Anna feel like they will offer her deep healing around this.

I am honored to be an ambassador of love to help heal and free up the message offered by the Divine Mother. All of us have a Divine Child within us that is pure, innocent, and a spark from the heart of the Divine. As our Divine Child heals from their separation wound and pain and reunites with our Divine Mother and Father, they arise into their embodiment as the bright, bright light of the Divine.

As Mother Mary keeps offering, “You cannot be unworthy of my love as it is always yours. You cannot be outside of my grace as it is always within you. You cannot be condemned by me as my acceptance of you is always there.”

If you feel a soul resonance with these events, I recommend watching the recent film Fatima as it recaptures a lot of the sacred experiences that the children went through yet also the challenges for them in facing the fear and skepticism it brought up in others.

Love from Fatima!

Jelelle Awen

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The Transmutation Of The World Through Our Own Healing

There are so many things for our hearts and souls to digest in the world today:

-A trial that represents the system of sexual abuse and trafficking that is under the cover of elite power and control.

-A pandemic of fear and censure that has given rise to an ongoing totalitarian state

-Cultural and informational warfare

-Political and medical malpractice 

-Environmental manipulation and social engineering

…just to name a few.

All of this gets corralled into the ‘conspiracy theory’ rubbish bin and then tagged as toxic which only allows the real toxicity to flourish in its place. This is not a new phenomenon. It has gone on for a millennia. What has appeared as profound change has been more of a controlled opposition. Letting some things shift in the name of the bigger game at hand. I know that sounds bleak and despairing, but it is true once you dive into the rabbit hole of censured history. 

We cannot not turn to the god of government or policy anymore. We cannot lend ears to false idols. Our institutions are decaying from the inside out and that is a blessing while it is also sobering. We have all had an investment in the system one way or another. We have all had our part. The time has come for each of us to claim where we go from here.

Personally, I know my role is to serve those that are seeking support and guidance on how to decouple from the distorted Matrix and replug into the Divine. I have been guided to keep feeling my leadership and my mission to help create a new world within for those souls that resonate and are drawn to this path. I feel a closer connection to the masculine Magdalene lineage that is ever arising inside of me and is still coming into more clarity that I will keep sharing about as it arises. 

This lineage is centered around the Divine Feminine and the Great Mother. She, along with Divine Father, are holding space for this shadow illumination process that is occurring on the planet today. While we may feel we have no way to bring outer justice into this world via our own actions, we can feel the cries and attempt to bring Divine Love into our own temples and let that do its own magic of healing and creation. 

The process is not a by-pass, but a direct entering of our own holy sepulcher of death and rebirth by feeling all the places we have held Love at bay and all the places that need it. Feeling our own wounded and frightened innocence, our own disempowerment and inner authoritarianism, our own neglect of our bodies, our truth, and our vulnerability. This is where we come to die and be reborn. This is where we find the courage to be in the world but not of the world. The place where Heaven on Earth is seeded and thus created. 

I have dedicated myself to this mission and purpose within myself, my community, and my soul kin, whoever and wherever you are. I leave the details up to the Divine as to what happens next while still taking my next steps forward into offering and embodying these sacred Magdalene codes.

I hope that you too are able to find your voice, your choice, and your courage, to let in all the Love and Grace that wants to be bestowed upon you and not allow anyone to veer you off your path. I pray for those reading this to find their community of deep resonance, initiation, and care. This is what will help to transmute the darkness into the light of Divine Love.

Many blessings and much love during this unique Holy Day season.

*****

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The Christened Divine Ambassador

This painting by Autumn Skye Morrison really illuminates something for me in my own ongoing journey as well as the journeys of so many.

This ‘shelter in the storm’ feeling is held by our deepening connection to our Divine Self and the Divine Itself. We hold the Light and the Love inside of us. It can never be extinguished or taken. Only hidden, forgotten, or given away.

This Divine Self cultivation is not easy with all that is occurring outside of us and inside of us as represented by the waves and the lightning. It is an inner storm that we are ultimately at odds with. In my past, I was the storm rather than relating to the storm.

I have been working for many years on healing the layers that have kept me from fully letting this Divine Self and Divine Love into my BEing. So many layers of unworth, self-doubt, and even fear of my own power.

These layers were energies that were held by parts of me that were stuck in some form of trauma, pain, and judgement from this-life wounding. They were (and to some degree still are) also layers of soul aspects that have been through their own trauma as well as misuse and abuse of power. A guilt-shame spiral that as lived in my Metasoul.

These parts and aspects have needed the time and space needed to unfurl their own healing, forgiveness, and letting in of love from my space-holders, myself, and the Divine. It is a process that takes the time it takes even if it feels we are running out of it.

We have been so deeply entrenched in and entangled with the Matrix to the point we have replaced our own Divinity with it. It has become difficult for these parts and aspects to sense life outside of it even as much as they desperately want to feel that at the same time. It is a ‘spaghetti pretzel’ that has been created and it takes time, courage, and soul choice to engage in its unplugging.

There are thick layers of protection, from our Inner Protector, and veils of forgetting, from our Gatekeeper, that have been placed in the way for very good reasons. They are not band-aids to be ripped off, but rather lovingly melted off by the power of grace and love. As these layers are felt and moved through our spiritual, emotional and physical bodies, they find a safe haven in our heart and expanded consciousness.

Our Christened Ambassador Self becomes more revealed to us and more embodied. It feels and chooses differently than we did in our past consciousness. It creates a boundary that healthfully protects, yet also beacons and receives. I am continuing to feel this in myself more and more with each movement along the spiral of healing and illumination that has come from this deep work.

From my Divine heart and soul’s perspective there is nothing more needed than this inner work to occur layer by layer. Self-loving choice by self-loving choice as well as challenge by challenge. This is what allows us to come from this brave and centered place. Our circumstances are calling this Being forward into the world each and every day.

The power of Love is greater than the love of Power.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: Christ Codes Supporting Forgiveness, Karma Clearing, Deep Feeling

by Kasha Rokshana

The codes that activate your inner Christ Light are coming in now and my sense is that they will intensify throughout this corridor of 11/11 to 12/12. They are tender, loving, yet bear an intensity in their illumination. 

They invite you, with so much care, into feeling and processing on deeper levels that will support you to clear karmic binds to other souls, arise more and more into your bigness/vastness, and truly experience unity within and outside of you. At the same time, the access to pure joy is also available and supportive, like bliss waves moving through every chakra, especially as you free up the access to them from deep inside of you.

You may feel these Christ Codes emotionally and spiritually especially, as if a portal is opening up within you and there’s an uptick in your porosity and sensitivity, yet you may also feel them on a physical level as love comes in to permeate and cleanse every cell. How you relate to and hold yourself on all of these levels is being illuminated and invited to shift into a new depth of self-love and acceptance.

Christ Codes are an opportunity for deep healing and reconciliation within, yet also with others. The process of forgiveness is potent and very real… one that happens in layers, with taking the space to feel all parts of you in their triggers, by feeling all Metasoul aspects who have been persecuted, harmed, or worse, in other lifetimes and helping them reconcile what has happened to them. True forgiveness is a high frequency not easily achieved or conjured, yet it can be felt into when you feel ready and guided by your Divine Self to go deeper.

Christ Codes are very much a “come as you are” invitation into the lap of the Divine, where everything you feel is welcome and every part of you is safe and held. They are here to help you feel whatever is REAL even when you feel waves of genuine rage, unhappiness, dissatisfaction, or even fear. They support you to fully inhabit, not diminish, the power of your depth of feeling, all the while guiding you toward those choices that will awaken and enliven you and everything within you that you’re here to do, become, and offer. 

Christ Codes activate and nourish the seeds planted in us by our experiences of being a part of the Magdalene/Essene lineage which you may resonate with deeply. They are constantly being watered, even through adversity, conflict, and the challenges of living in this day and age, through this messy phase of our Ascension. This time of year, especially around 12/12, you will likely feel them even more so, perhaps steering you in a new direction, opening your heart (especially to yourself), piquing your curiosity about yourself and others, and bringing you a new sense of context and the reasons WHY you are facing all you are.

Christ Codes remind us of our humanity AND our divinity and how they are not mutually exclusive or ever completely aligned, enlightened, and perfect. They are an invitation deeper into your own Christ lineage and unique Christ Light within. Your soul valiantly chose to be here, to experience all it has and bring that to the fore, and to find ways to express and inhabit your soul gifts.

Christ Codes are a reminder of the love you came here to embody, and the love that is supporting you always to embrace everything you are, feel, and desire too. 

May the love of these powerful Christ Codes be felt within you today and ongoingly… as you feel your unique process of letting them in, of allowing them to guide you inward and live into more soul-led, love-based choices during this next phase of your sacred journey.

Love,

Kasha ♥️🌹

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Guided Meditation For Relaxation & Physical/Emotional Healing W/Mother Mary (Music) | Jelelle Awen

This guided meditation with SoulFullHeart Teacher/Co-Creator/Facilitator Jelelle Awen offers a bridge to soothing and relaxing, yet very catalytic and powerful, healing energies during a time when they are very much needed. During this meditation, you access a high frequency of Infinitely abundant White Light from Divine Source through your Crown Chakra.

This energy is for the clearing and healing of physical body pain, ailments and diseases as needed, including a boosting of your immune system, internal organs, and every living cell. You also connect in this meditation to your emotional body and offer soothing white light and Divine love to any reactions, tensions, resistances or charged emotions that you may be experiencing.

Jelelle also offers a bridge to any part of you that comes forward into your awareness that needs your love and attention, especially your Inner Child. Divine Mother shows up in the form of Mother Mary, who offers comforting and soothing reminders of your essence as Divine love. You repeat powerful “I am” mantras for a higher frequency Ascension recoding. The music then continues for some more time to allow a deeper immersion into the experience.

You may get quite sleepy, relaxed, drifty and even fall asleep during this meditation, so it is best to be in a comfortable position with your eyes closed while listening to it. We recommend listening with headphones. Remember that whatever happens during it within you is perfect.

The music gratefully used in this video is from a channel with the best sleep music that we have found on YouTube, the Nu Meditation Music Channel. This music has supportive ocean wave sounds and binaural beats as well to drop you into a Theta/Delta brainwave space for ultimate relaxation: https://youtu.be/ISgfqlMwSrk

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Feeling Easter As Your Own Death & Rebirth Process

This has been a very rumbly week leading up to Easter. There has been a churning of death and rebirth going on inside and out. My sacred union with my beloved Kasha has been put to the ‘test’, so to speak, with so much new ground needing an old ground to burn away in order to come into our next level of conscious romance and leadership.

I have needed to be ‘off’ social media to let all of this digest and find its way inside of me. It has been about continuing to find my voice, speak my truth and needs, as well as feeling the fear of doing so. It is this truth that can change so much. It creates and it destroys, but not necessarily in the way that a part of us may feel like it will. It is this fire that is meant to be alchemical and not necessarily harmful.

I was starting to feel the ways in which this fear is more about embodying our true power in the world and what that can actually create. If power and truth in our soul history has been experienced or judged as a ‘negative’, then we will inevitably find a way to suppress said power. We will remain in a push-pull around it. Deeply wanting and needing it, while hiding it at the same time. This creates suffering rather than movement.

This power has been held as a control mechanism inside of me. A way to manage and maintain a particular consciousness while my soul and the Divine are strongly, yet lovely, inviting me into something more essential, more real. Something long forgotten or buried. This is where a tight grip has formed or an anxious fear of surrender. I realized how much a part of me has still clung to this control structure.

In meditation I saw a sand castle on top of a stream. The foundation of this sand castle was collapsing into the stream. The castle was starting to crumble and I could feel parts of me trying to build it back up with more sand in order to keep it up. There was a tiredness in that. A readiness to let go while fearing the unknown of it all. I felt the stream as the Divine Itself, as Love, as the Tao. It just wants me to be the stream. Be in active surrender to where it is meant to take me even if I can’t see around the bend or it winds up in rapids.

It is my vulnerability and truth that keeps me afloat. It is what allows me to flow with my currency and is my true power. That stored up power in the castle just changed form and into embodiment. As the castle fully collapsed, I shed tears. I felt myself collapse into the flow of Love. I felt baptized and renewed. I felt a new connection with Kasha and myself.

As a result, I found myself realizing I needed to go back to my previous name of Gabriel. A lot has moved for me since trying on Aurius, but Gabriel is the essence of who I am in my soul. It is my Divine name. I just needed to flush some things out and reboot it. My beloveds also have an affinity for Gabriel and so that was enough for me to choose to go back. I will keep Amara as my last name, however. It has a frequency I love. It represents my inner feminine.

Thank you for being a part of this journey with me, and I hope that it has a service to you in all that you may be going through at this time. I am always here to facilitate and hold-space for this process that has taken me to new worlds and embodied awarenesses inside of myself in deep terrain. It is alchemical and transformative.

Much love to you this Easter weekend and may you meet your next death and rebirth cycle with grace, compassion, and courage.

*****

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Spring Message From A Bird’s Egg

The symbol of the ‘egg’ can be explored so deeply and it’s actually quite an important metaphor for our ongoing growth and awakening phases, individually and collectively.

We each come from an egg inside our birth mother. We are encased in the ‘egg’ of our bodies after we are born. Our souls, it can be said, are always leaving and entering their next ‘eggs’ where we bake and gestate before we awaken some more. We are in a perpetual state of death and rebirth in this way, or maybe ‘birth and rebirth’ is another way to say it, yet embracing that ‘death’ is a part of all of our journeys, in many different ways, is important.

After all, you have to ‘die’ in a way to being in one life phase before you can enter another. It’s part of the cycle of living, learning, and relearning.

Mary Magdalene, in my etheric connection to her as a Divine Feminine guide, has been showing me many synchronicities around the egg she is often pictured with. It’s a symbol of the rebirth of Spring, both in our inner and outer worlds. We go back inward to emerge outward in whatever ‘seasons’ of the heart and soul encompass us in any given phase of our lives.

The other day while at the Glastonbury Abbey, I was drawn to walk along a path where I don’t usually walk, and there amongst the light-hearted daffodils was part of a cracked-open, bird’s egg shell. It felt tiny and fragile as I picked it up, yet the strength of the little baby bird that emerged from it could be felt too. It can’t emerge in any timing but its own, for if that happens, it perishes.

The mama bird can’t make it come out of the shell and experience the big, big world any sooner. Instead, she has to surrender to the cycle of life and allow her baby to come through and out of the egg when it’s truly ready. Its survival and ability to thrive too depends on its own built-up strength, its nourishment received while in the egg, and its overall destiny too — none of which can actually be controlled, but all of which has to arise on its own.

Every phase of being back in an ‘egg’ for us as sacred human souls in near-constant rebirth (especially these days) is about building up our strength and resolve to emerge. The Divine can’t make this happen for us. We can receive guidance, yet our emergence is up to us.

This cracked-open eggshell I found reminded me that it’s our core innocence and healing purity of heart and soul, along with our untethered desire to emerge and awaken, that moves us onward and also upward as we ascend and grow. If we can hold this desire to keep moving through — busting through at times- eggshell after eggshell, while blessing the experience and feeling grateful for it ALL, we ARE going to not only ‘survive’, but also find our deepest destiny on our journey back to love and leading with love to help bring us all back home.

I was so touched to be holding this egg…I felt it on a deeply personal level as I move more into my inner Queen/High ‘Heart’ Priestess power in this and other lifetimes. I also felt like this tender holding of this eggshell, which I’ve now made a place for on my altar at home, is the same preciousness the Divine feels for all of us and our parts/Metasoul aspects now and always. Preciousness that doesn’t caretake or enable parts of us to keep going toward harmful patterns, yet holds us each accountable and invites us, always, to feel, hold, and really own our preciousness and the deep strength and profound power of it.

Much love, from my ever-emerging heart and soul to yours!

Kasha


Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Mirror Of Sacred Sisterhood

By Deya Shekinah

Spending real, intimate time with women is such a gift to my heart and soul. I am recognising that there has been so much in the way of deeper bonds with women my whole life; competition, insecurity, unworthiness and jealousy being some of them. I feel how hard that has been on me and my parts, even more so now as I feel how deep the need for union with women really is. The uniqueness of the connection between women is so special and I feel how we do really need each other in a way that is different to our need for and with men.

I always feel so inspired and enlivened after deep union with women and deeply nourished by where women can go together when they feel safe and can rest and lean into one another. We understand and feel each other so deeply in wordless spaces and ways, which is something I feel I have looked for in my relationships with men my whole life and has brought a deep dissatisfaction to parts of me. Only now am I recognising how men are not really meant to fulfill our need for each other as women.

There is healing that needs to happen to let women in and trust women again after all the years and lifetimes of competition and hurt that has been experienced between us. I feel the pain of having had to turn away from one another to survive in a world where we are led to believe that we cannot do it without a man. How dangerous it has been at times to be a woman and still is for many women in the world today, and I can feel what that has led and does lead us to do to one another to just get through it.

I feel how the need for connection with women is so deeply buried under a lot of pain and distrust that it can be hard to recognise that need is even there. I am being invited daily as part of life within the SoulFullHeart community to feel my needs and desires that have been deeply buried in order to survive, and then invited to reach out to ask for what I want. It can feel terribly vulnerable for parts of me to even acknowledge that they need others, especially women, and I am still not quite sure why that is. As I do this though, I am getting to experience something new with women that is so deeply nourishing and healing in ways I cannot mentally track but I feel it as it ripples through my body and creates a deep rest and sigh of relief within my womb. 

I feel so deeply blessed to have wonderful women in my life and for all the women who have helped me prepare to let all this love in that I am experiencing now with my closest Sisters. Everytime I meet in deep, real, intimate connection with women, I am changed, and I remember more of who I am and more about why I am here.

Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana will be holding this month’s SoulFullHeart Women’s Group Call this Sunday 7th March at 5pm (London time) This month’s call is about healing and activating the Womb, work that is very close to my heart and I feel so supports this deeper healing between us as women. This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Let Go & Let Peace During This Dark Initiatory Time | Jelelle Awen & The Magdalenes

art by Michael Divine

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: Emerging out of my honeymoon and Bridal Chamber consciousness for which I’ve been happily indulging lately with Raphael, I can feel, of course, the intensity of events and energies that are occurring in the collective, 3D, Matrix with the lockdowns, restrictions, quarantine, v*ccine agenda, etc. Especially this is in my awareness as we have beloveds coming to and looking to travel here to Glastonbury and are going through a travel gauntlet of sorts to arrive safely here in Avalon.


My Divine Feminine anchored consciousness can’t really be separated in any moment from feeling and hearing the ‘cries of the world’…it is just what happens as you let Her into your heart, body, and soul.


I feel for those of us who are so sensitive to the cries of the world, the cries of the children, the cries of the womb/women that are peaking during this Dark Night for the collective….we ARE being supported to rise above this sensitivity at times, to ‘turn down’ the dial of our empathic radar. To not get too far ‘into it’ that we become deeply overwhelmed or frustrated. We will tend to take these energies into our wombs and hearts AS IF they are are own, which they are from the Oneness and Soul Family dimensions.


Yet, also, the reminder comes often, especially from Mary Magdalene who lived through much suppression in her time from the Romans/Cabal, ‘to let go and let peace.’ She reminds us that EACH soul is on their own journey through the dark night passages that they NEED to go through and that they have signed up for. It is not for our feminine hearts to rescue or save anyone, even when the urge is strong to do so.


To respect the bigness and sovereignty of each soul is to connect to the higher realms from which they originate. It can especially help to do this with loved ones who are still anchored and plugged into the 3D Matrix, still conditioned by the mainstream everything, and still believe others more than their own intuitive guidance. Connecting to their Higher/Divine Self to compassionately understand the reasons for their consciousness choices can assist you in this. Often the greatest mercy on both sides is to let them go, to stop tugging or convincing, to stop battling or trying ‘win’ any arguments. Giving yourself the gift of resonance and support rather around you allows you to truly serve and become love.


Covid has pushed up the divisions and polarities in world views and consciousness, in humanity’s matrix reality, so that we can see where we are resonant with others and where there is dissonance. It has illuminated that many souls are still not awakened to their sovereignty yet. Many more souls can awaken though now who are on the tipping point of doing so.
The v*ccines are a form of bifurcation or ‘sorting rod’ in that way as those who choose to get them are moving into an unknown place of altered DNA and RNA (some of them) and last gasp Matrix programming entering into their every cell. This is their choice to do so and, again, we cannot rescue them from it. The true impact/side effects of them is not known and won’t be for many years yet the ‘energy’ of them doesn’t feel good or healthy for the body ultimately, especially the immune system. Those souls who are awakened to a place to see the control agenda in the v*ccine and the very real harm to their light bodies and consciousness are easily and already aware of what it harmful about it.


The current energies are supporting us to ‘rise above’ whatever we need to in order to truly become ambassadors of love, primarily to ourselves and any parts of us that need it. This is a painful time of difficult choices at times, yet it is held in much Divine love for ALL of us. The divisions are being highlighted, yet Unity is the ultimate truth.

These current challenges are a form of initiation for each of us and for humanity. How we respond to them, how we process them, how we navigate them offers us an opportunity to heal on many levels.

The Magdalenes are here to help us water the seeds of Ascension they planted in other timelines/lifetimes. Ask for Mary Magdalene, Yeshua, Mother Mary, Joseph, whomever you feel drawn to, for assistance and guidance during your personal walking out of this tumultuous time and they will BE there for you. Magdalene/Christ consciousness has been seeded in many and, although distorted by the Matrix in the form of mainstream religion, still retains its purity in those souls who respond to it and awaken to it.


Raphael and I offered a guided meditation from the Bridal Chamber yesterday to connect with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene energies as a bridge to experiencing the Divine AS your beloved:

Much love from the heart chakra of Gaia…which is breaking it feels like in order to more fully OPEN,

Jelelle Awen & the Magdalenes
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Coming Out Of Separation and Into Twin Flame/Counterpart Union

By Jelelle Awen

I am emerging from my Honeymoon bubble with Raphael with a bit of wobbly legs, palpitating heart, fuzzy/altered mind, and hugely renewed sense of life/love/service! We’ve gone in deep together in the way that is unique to our bond in these last days….exploring physical body nuances and pleasures….I could share so much about the shared consciousness altering portal that is Yoni kissing, for example, and will someday!

We’ve also been diving into emotional areas that need to be felt and loved as well. Bringing realizations that arose during our separation and dropping in together into the parts of us that need to be felt in their fears, tensions, and doubts as well so that they can be bonded.

Rather than deny these parts of us or put them in shadow now that we are together again, we bring them forward to heard and felt by each other. We feel remorse as needed, advocate as desired, and LET GO of resentments/grudges and the past as guided. In this letting in and then letting go process, the past resentments literally dissolve between us as they’ve been felt so deeply by us as individuals. The new then arises out of this compassion for ourselves and each other.

Trying to transact EVERYTHING and resolve it just in the bond in a horizontal way doesn’t move it. It isn’t just about more conscious communication together or ‘staying in the room’ with each other or whatever a marriage counselor might advise as ‘saving the relationship’ type strategies. Sometimes a deep inner reboot is necessary where only YOU can hold the safe space that parts of you need to let go into, especially when you are connecting to archetypal energies and deep soul pieces that are many lifetimes in the making.

This was what Raphael and I were invited to go into by our Magdalene/Christ soul family recently. An intense initiation in which we couldn’t feel the hope for a future between us, where we truly needed to let go and lean into ourselves fully. We were gifted so much support during this arduous journey with our soul family here in the physical and in etheric connection with Anna, Yeshua, etc., as our soul family hardly ever went through these initiations alone. Avalon held the space for us with necessary activations and even the quietness of the winter season served us.

I felt during our vow renewal ceremony the Magdalenes celebrating our successful navigation of these grounds and endowing us with the gift of holding the mantle for pair bond reunion and soul family reunion for those drawn to us. Anna shared words with us of support and admiration and we all felt tears as she reassured us that she would ‘never ever leave us.’ And now lately has been the necessary celebration and feasting that comes after the initiation has been ‘passed’. The recovery and reaping the rewards that come from loved freed up from fear by truly GOING INTO that fear and transmuting it.

This is the process I feel Ascension is inviting us into in every moment, whether in a twin pair bond reunion or not….to move into our fears, even the ones at the collective level, and trust that love and the Divine will hold us through them. The bliss and joy I have felt these last days now surpasses the darkest hours of sadness and hurt and pain I felt during our separation. The grief is fading now….replaced by the pure ecstasy of rebooted appreciation and gratitude that flow out of a heart rapturously falling in love with the Beloved.

I can only experience the Divine AS Beloved most deeply and truly when I am with Raphael in deep union as he holds the Divine Masculine expression of it. This is how my soul ‘wired it up’ at the soul family monad level before individuating.

I have surrendered more deeply into this now as my purpose for being here to experience this reunion and am wanting to teach/serve from this awareness more deeply as well, even as I am constantly learning from it.

If you feel drawn to experience the clearing of the pathway to experience the Beloved through deep inner connection and through a pair bond supported by soul family, do feel into a 1:1 session with one of us and/or attending a group call event (like the one we are doing on Valentine’s Day February 14th) and to join our online community Portal. More information at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

So many of you on our social media accounts, especially facebook, have expressed your support and resonance withur separation and reunion so you very well may be feeling a call and draw to come closer. There IS a reason you are drawn to our story and that you feel deep resonance with it. Exploring that reason could open up a whole new timeline life of goodness and love!

The home of the love with the Beloved is waiting for you. Claim it and all the love you can possibly let in can be yours….love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community portal, and writings/books at soulfullheart.org