Letting Love in is to let Love flow. To let Love flow is to open up to all possibility, to our vulnerability. I felt myself a bit constricted this morning after being in so much goodness. It is an interesting mechanism to keep feeling.
As I bring my awareness to the part of me that is still needing to govern the flow of Love, I feel compassion and to say ‘I Love You’ even in the constriction. In that, they loosen. My masculine and feminine. They see each other anew. Not in conflict, but in union to open the curtains more to let in and let out the flow of Divine Love that is inherent in us all. Universal and Eternal.
Feeling leads to alchemical healing. Healing opens the gates to more Love, more Truth, more Joy, more Passion, more Intimacy. The Infinite at our doorstep.
Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator. Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.
It’s hard to share and write as much when I am in the depths of feeling darker emotions and shadow aspects of myself. It feels so vulnerable for my parts to show the depth of grief, unworthiness, self loathing and entitlement they are feeling. For younger parts it can feel dangerous to show these feelings, as they are so conditioned to be good, nice and keep quiet. Yet to show up as the woman I know I am, this process of welcoming, owning and revealing the darkness feels like a key part of maturation and embodiment.
As I danced this morning with the darkness, I could feel how alive and juicy it feels to dance, feel and express these darker emotions. There is a power within them, that feels so connected to embodying and stepping into my Queen. To push intensity and darkness away, to hide from it and make it ‘not ok’, I feel like I am pushing away essential parts of myself as a woman. My passion, my pleasure, my joy, my purpose are all being suppressed along with them.
There have been times these past weeks where my parts feel like they are drowning in the darkness, like they will never find their way through. To be honest that can still feel like the only reality as I, Deya, am still growing my capacity as a space-holder for my parts, and am still becoming the container that they can rest into and feel held within, rather than becoming them.
I don’t think I have ever felt so shaky in my life. Even as I feel a strength in sharing these words in the moment, once they are out in the world, the unworthiness, fear and anxiety will surely arise as they keep doing. The more I am choosing to step up and shine, to be more authentic, to follow my desire to be in service to Love and to be in intimacy with others, the more these shadows are being revealed.
It feels like there are now no other options, no more hiding places; there is no way to go but IN. To be authentic, to serve and to live in joy includes all of the uncomfortable emotions, to Love and be in intimacy with myself, with life and with others includes them all too. To be a Queen means being willing and brave enough to face the shadows. To be a Queen means to lead by example with a loving, empathetic heart to the feelings of others, because she is in a deep, real and intimate relationship with her own and knows the challenges that will be faced on this journey through her own lived experience.
Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc
This past month has been a deep dive with my Inner Teenager, Yasmin. We have been digesting so much together and navigating many timelines collapsing and arising.
It has been a very tender time of feeling the reality of her experiences in this life, especially how she has been in relationship with others. Yasmin has always been such an open book, I have felt in this time of less sharing how her openness hasn’t always come from a place of self love. I’ve been feeling how she has shared such deeply intimate details of her life with others, with anyone really, because she so deeply longed to be felt, seen and heard… something she didn’t receive much of.
As we digested together, I have been writing but when it has come to sharing publicly, I am becoming more sensitive to her vulnerability. I am learning that instead of sharing, I can let her land more inside of me, letting her feelings be felt and validated by me, by Jelelle Awen and by those closest to me, who I feel safe with. Rather than trying to understand, I am learning to listen. To listen to her stories, the ones she has buried deep down and disconnected from. Feeling all the things she could not feel in other times of her life because she wasn’t safe to.
I am realizing all she has ever truly wanted was to be welcomed in all that she is and all that she feels, rather than only being desired, wanted or welcomed in certain energies of who she is. Her tears were so close this morning. I feel how other parts of me have learnt to try to fix her or push aspects of her emotional reality away. I feel how she also experienced this in all of her relationships to varying degrees.
As I moved and danced, I welcomed all of her in closer than ever before, all her tears, all her longing. She felt unsure at first, as tears have always been hard for her to feel without someone else holding space. As her tears were always hidden and not welcomed, it has taken me a long time to realize that they can be. As I grow through this process as a space holder, I am able to offer her a new narrative around tears and sadness, as I see more and more how her longings and tears are the doorway to our desires for life.
She cried. She let go into me, resting more into the pain in her heart. It felt beautiful. It feels like the beginning of a new relationship, except this one is just with me. I want all of her because I know how much she has held alone, how much wisdom she holds because of that. I feel how deeply she loves when she is welcomed in all of who she is, and how the pain of not being welcomed has broken her heart open to life.
I sense some deeper layers of heartbreak arising, feeling the pain of relationships that didn’t work out and the times it has felt to her that people wanted her but only certain parts of her. The feeling of not being wanted in her fullness touches these tender tears. There is a growing sense of gratitude to those people who weren’t ready for all of her. I am a stronger woman because of it, who feels love for and loved by every aspect that makes up this expression of me. I no longer have to be more than or less than. I can be me, this beautiful bliss mess embodied as a woman. Trusting that as I love myself and see myself more and more, I will attract others who can only show up for the same.
Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc
You’ve so long been the lone light in pervasive darkness,
NOW you will become the lighthouse
helping to bring everyone safely home
to the Divine’s shore again…
where you have ALWAYS been anchored,
and now the others who are ready will remember this too.
Where you were previously separated,
you will be reunited
from within and with each other.
We see you and we support you!
We have never left your side through it ALL,
Yeshua and The Magdalenes w/Jelelle Awen
Here this message is in my voice:
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Happy Easter! This week we have a few digestions to share with some beautiful frequencies and offerings from Yeshua and some other energy updates as well. Read the full Museletter here.
Featured this week is a piece from Jelelle Awen which she wrote on Good Friday. In it, she channels a much needed and desired message from Yeshua about compassionate forgiveness:
“When upcoming disclosure brings you to hear about and feel sometimes very dark actions from what seems like ‘evil’ and ‘enemies’ and energies that are difficult to love, I am inviting you to remember that while one seeks vengeance against another without first seeking to understand and forgive themselves AND the other, the cycle of suffering continues. You will be moved to hate and fight, and I am inviting you to love instead.”
The ‘Free To Be’ group call series continues this Wednesday. It’s already week three! If you’ve missed the previous calls, you can offer a donation at any time and receive the recording and also the link to attend any of the future calls live if you can or want to.
During this week’s call we will be talking about how this life and other lifetime experiences of collapse can bleed through at this time, along with primal fears and the original separation wound from the Divine. You will connect with your Inner Child and/or Inner Orphan to provide support and love to them, in addition to aspects from lifetimes that have experienced collapses/plagues/starvation, etc. to offer love to them during the guided meditation.
There is a brand new video and guided meditation this week, led by Raphael and Jelelle Awen, and held as a sacred service for Easter Sunday. During this live stream recording, you connect with death and rebirth codes and they respond to your questions and also offer a reading of a Yeshua compassionate forgiveness message. They offered a guided meditation to connect to the available death and resurrection codes that offer a bridge into 5D New Earth/Indwelling Christ activation of “I AM the Light of the World”.
There are many new articles and audio blogs this week from SoulFullHeart Facilitators/teachers, Raphael and Jelelle Awen, as well SoulFullHeart Facilitants, Kalayna Solais, Gabriel Heartman, and Deva Yasmin. They are energy updates, personal process digestions, and ways to look at and feel what is happening on the 3D, 4D, and 5D consciousness levels.
Check out our ‘Quotes of The Week’ section for some quote cards you can save and share! If you can, please do tag us whenever possible.
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Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Healing!
Raphael and Jelelle Awen held an Easter Sunday sacred service to connect with death and rebirth codes, responding to your questions, and offer a reading of a Yeshua compassionate forgiveness message on Sunday April 12th during a Facebook livestream. They offered a guided meditation to connect to the available death and resurrection codes that offer a bridge into 5D New Earth/Indwelling Christ activation of “I AM the Light of the World”.
You can also still join us for our ongoing group call series Free To Be: Navigating the 3D Matrix to New Earth Transition. Our next group call is this Wednesday, April 15th at 10:00am PDT in which we will feel your inner child’s reactions to the changes going on and connect with possible collapse experiences from other lifetimes. You can receive the recordings of any group calls you may have missed and the zoom link to join future ones at any time by open donation. There is more info here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe
We highly recommend the book Anna, Grandmother of Jesus by Clare Heartsong and her other book as well channeling the Magdalenes that offers this higher dimensional feeling sense of Yeshua’s crucifixion and resurrection story and the years before and beyond in a deeply touching and healing way.
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The crucibles/’crosses to bear’, have been many for each of us. They’ve varied in intensity at times with some difficult phases being easier to move through than others. Every single one of us by now has had some sense of a ‘dark night of the soul’ phase, which is always an initiation even though the deconstruction and ‘burning away’ can feel deep and vast. So many are walking out their deepest phase of this yet and collectively we are ALL experiencing this, one way or another.
We are willingly being constricted, ‘nailed to a cross’, so that we can go inward and resurrect the soul, reestablishing the reasons WHY we CHOSE to come here.
Yeshua came to be a template for us in this. He worked, alongside his deepest beloveds, to master his own Ascension process and become a beacon of light, of ‘Christed’ potential inside of each of us. He knew the prophecies and saw the visions of what was to come. He knew the trials that awaited him and each one he met with more vigor and determination and even found his compassion for those who persecuted him, for it was their role in the ‘Great Drama’ that needed to unfold.
He remembered, always, his alignment with the Divine and that he came here with a profound purpose and a strong need to lead humanity in its next steps. So it is that we all came here too, though with more amnesia to work through to truly and deeply remember this.
We won’t have to move through what he did or face down the same challenges exactly, yet, when each of us look back on what we’ve been through, even recently or perhaps ongoingly, we can easily recognize our own versions of this story. Collectively, the ‘Great Drama’ that Yeshua and his beloveds lived through and found their own paths to Ascension through experiencing has continued on and we have all been impacted by it for many lifetimes on Gaia and we are continuing to walk it out together. It has raged and roared inside of each of us, between parts of us and within our Metasoul lifetimes too as well as on the outside in our daily lives. We have embodied both sides of this drama, this playout. We are all One, and we are coming to realize just what that means… and that we need each other, both persecutors and persecuted, to come together in order to heal it and move truly beyond it.
In my heart, I feel how possible this is, maybe even imminent… I feel my desire for it personally and my own ‘hiccups’ when it comes to deeply trusting this overall process at times. I mostly feel like I live in trust though, after years of feeling the mistrust. I find that I can surrender quite easily now to my own death and rebirth experiences, even when I feel parts of me digging their nails into the carpet of the old ground they cling to, as life takes us in another direction. I can quickly recognize now, after many difficult processes, when and how I’ve co-created my circumstances and the deeper reasons as to ‘why’ I did this emerge from there. There are always many layers to this and sometimes it’s quite painful to feel it all through, yet Divine love is always there from within and outside of me too to scoop up the reactions and put them in a safe container where they can be felt and processed and transmuted with gentleness and LOVE.
This ‘Easter’ weekend is the quintessential energy and symbol of ALL of our death and rebirth experiences. We are ALL ‘Yeshua’ and ‘Yeshua’ is us. We are ALL transmuting deeply what we’ve been through and choosing our next phases, co-creating them in this dance of life and Ascension.
I’ve felt deeply, even in the last day or so, how these processes are always about our great re-emergence back into ‘love consciousness’, which never left us and we never truly left either. Our parts may feel restless at times in this process, wondering what’s next or how to navigate it all in this intensely shifting, shaking world, but our souls know beyond any doubt what all this has been for and that even though the road tests our soul’s resolve to align with the Divine within and without through this intense and dense dimension, it’s all worth it and there IS a light at the end of the inner AND outer ‘tunnel’ of awakening and rebirth.
Now is the hour of our ‘Resurrection’… our next phase of Ascension, individually and collectively.
Much love to you on this GOOD Friday! We are in all of this together, whatever is revealed or not revealed in the collective consciousness this weekend and beyond…
A gift during this ongoing transition into New Earth reality and consciousness, is this by-donation, weekly Group Call series being offered by Raphael and Jelelle Awen: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe — Enrollment is ongoing, so whenever you offer a donation, you’ll receive the recordings of the calls already completed and the link to join in live on future calls if you desire! Much love ❤
Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant & collaborative assistant, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
“The energies of crucifixion from my lifetime remain in the grids of humanity’s suffering and polarity against each other. These energies are resurrected and held onto in ways that no longer serve your Ascension. Many souls are ‘celebrating’ these energies today. However, I would offer that which seeks to be celebrated is only that which comes from love, not that which comes from fear of love.
On this day, in my lifetime, I was not acting as a martyr in the way that has been so popularly held…yet rather I was demonstrating the powerful alchemy of death and rebirth that I had access to through many soul initiations. I was offering the codes of this resurrection process for all of humanity to download when ready for them.
And for those with hearts to feel, I was embodying complete forgiveness of those who were acting in violent ways with hatred and fear in their hearts towards me. I could feel the important part they had to play in the Divine plan that I was surrendering to completely. For those with eyes to see, I left my physical body, yet I did not leave the Earth Plane and I remained there in a higher frequency light body state for many years after my crucifixion, connecting with my beloved family in secret.
This is the ever important and pressing message that I offer today as well, in your timeline, while you are experiencing much revelation of what can feel like evil and darkness. You are going through a collective Dark Night before your rebirth into Sacred Humanity for which I and the Magdalenes and many light BEings helped plant the codes for in my lifetime.
When upcoming disclosure brings you to hear about and feel sometimes very dark actions from what seems like ‘evil’ and ‘enemies’ and energies that are difficult to love, I am inviting you to remember that while one seeks vengeance against another without first seeking to understand and forgive themselves AND the other, the cycle of suffering continues. You will be moved to hate and fight, and I am inviting you to love instead.
On this day, I offer a reminder not of my sacrifice in that lifetime nor of any action on my part that would lead to your salvation….yet rather an invitation for you to feel that YOU already have almighty powerful Christ energies within YOU.
Only you can save yourself in an ongoing process of feeling and healing that which keeps you in fear and separate from your Divine Essence…..and that the Divine remains and is always beloved parent to us ALL.
I love you and I am HERE for you in whatever ways you feel to call on me as your sacred brother, Ascended Teacher, and beloved friend,
I highly recommend the book Anna, Grandmother of Jesus by Clare Heartsong that offers this higher dimensional feeling sense of Yeshua’s crucifixion and resurrection story in a deeply touching and healing way.
Join us for our ongoing group call series Free To Be: Navigating the 3D Matrix to New Earth Transition. You can receive the recordings of any group calls you may have missed and the zoom link to join future ones at any time. There is more info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe
Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.
I am in the middle of a battlefield. It is a battle over hearts, minds, and souls. The forces on each team are polarized against each other, so long locked in this fight that they can no longer see and feel that they come from the same Divine source.
The shouts of pains and the screaming of hurts are loud here, the suffering nearly unbearable to feel. One side claims to be for the good, yet the fever pitch of their outrage and need for vengeance speak to an underlying deep and undigested fear and even hatred. The other side has embraced their darkness, finding solace in their shadows and in places that have become long numb to feeling any empathy for others.
I find Celeste, my healing Orphan/Divine child here in the middle of this battlefield. She is glowing, a bright white light emanating off of her in a six feet radius all around her. I am alarmed to find her here, in the middle of such intense and dark energies, although she seems to have a bubble of safety and protection around her. She toddles into my arms as soon as she sees me and immediately bursts into tears. I ask her why she is here and she answers that she couldn’t help herself. So many souls were in pain and she wanted to be an ambassador like me, she wanted to help them. I imagine there are many Orphan and Inner Children that feel the same way and have the same impulse right now.
I move her quickly away from the battlefield and to Kuan Yin, who has been guiding me on this journey to feel sacred humanity’s death and rebirth process. With Celeste safely tugged into my arms, I join Kuan Yin on the sides of the battlefield, sitting now in lotus with Her. I can now see that the battleground is tucked inside of a valley…what I have long felt to be the Shadow of the Valley Of Death in the Lower 4D dimension.
This is the valley that we ALL seem to need to journey across to move into the Golden Earth/5D Heaven on Earth waiting for us on the other side of it. This is the valley that holds our souls dark night journey, our reckonings, our push-pulls……for however long it lasts and is needed for our own growth. I can see that they are those souls engaged in the battle on the field, completely caught up in the light versus dark argument, lost in the defense of their own perspective, unable to feel the goodness in each other.
Then, there are those who are spectators, watching this battle from the sidelines. The spectators no longer wish to battle themselves. Yet, they cheer and they rally. They encourage the battle to continue. They are nearly as obsessed with winning as the players themselves, feeding each other on fear and temporary victories. They are still looking outward for entertainment, for answers, and for distractions.
I can feel now that the Magdalenes and Yeshua have joined me and many other Divine Feminine guides, Ascended Teachers, Angels, Higher Dimensional Star BEings, and awakened humans/teachers/wayshowers/healers. Suddenly we are each holding a lit candle in our right hands and a red rose in our left hand. Illumination being offered to the inner Divine masculine and stillness/arising beauty being offered to the inner Divine feminine, both of these energies within us ALL seeking to be in union and balance again.
We sit in silence yet our higher heart chakras begin to emit and broadcast a frequency of peace, forgiveness and love. It is a powerful yet very gentle energy. It is no ‘match’ for the shrieking and ampy energies on the battlefield as we cannot compete with that….yet, eventually, it begins to draw some of the souls on the field and off of it. They start to turn their attention away from the battle and toward our frequency of light.
Some of them begin to leave their positions in the spectator stands and join us. As they walk through the gaps we make for them between us, they are then transported/teleported to Golden Earth/5D Gaia. They are swept away to the Heaven AS Earth that is waiting for all of us. It is clear that every single soul needs to make this choice on their own timing. The choice to turn away from what they have been conditioned to find entertaining. What they have been taught is nourishing. The choice toward that which is subtle, that which is gentle, that which offers a middle way with no more battles inside or out.
We sit together as Ambassadors and we do not convince, we do not argue, and we do not rescue or save any of these souls. We can see how big each and every soul is, no matter how dark their choices. Every soul serves a purpose and has a role to play in the bigger Divine experiment. They ALL come from the Divine and so they are invited to return now…..or not. We are the midwives who offer support as each soul chooses to birth its Divine essence into expression….or not.
We will wait for them either way even as we remain anchored in the 5D energies that support us and don’t lower our frequencies to engage in battles again. We wait for them here…..offering the possibilities of moving beyond fighting, becoming sacred humanity. Offering the possibilities of becoming LOVE once again.
Jelelle Awen and the Divine Love Ambassadors
The picture is of an altar I was guided to create this morning by the Divine Mother…an altar of love for sacred humanity.
This is the audio recording in my voice of this message:
Please join Raphael and I for our six week group call series starting tomorrow April 1st at 10:00am PDT where we feel be teaching about navigating this transition from 3D Matrix/4D Battlefields to New Earth. These are the kinds of meditations that we will be doing together in the moment. You can join us live and you will receive the recordings. You can attend the calls by donation, whatever you can afford to give at this time for all of the calls is fine. If you feel called in your soul as a service of love purpose to be THERE, please do join us! More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe