by Kasha Rokshana
I went to bed last night when so many things stirring in my heart space… letting in of new alchemy that’s long been birthing, letting go of Gabriel on another level, letting in of the good time my beloveds and I had last night, letting go of a way of being in life more and more. With each in and out breath of letting in and letting go, there’s a sacred womb rumble that moves up, into and through my heart space to be felt emotionally and not just analyzed mentally.
It took me until this morning though to realize that it was my womb and not another part/aspect of me who was rumbling and feeling last night. I forget how much she holds sometimes and that she has her own reactions to things that come up in life and relationships. She has her own clearing she needs to do with me, as I feel every person and every piece of sacred alchemy too that she’s been holding and responding to. She expands out quite far and then needs to contract again to come back to herself and to be recognized by me too for everything and everyone that’s been living in her.
There can be such a strain on our wombs as women as we navigate life in this matrix we were born into. We’ve even been asked to diminish what it means to have one, to be less feminine as if being feminine is a swear word, to impede on the masculine expressing from within and outside of us as if he too is obligated to meet us in our often false/matrix-influenced femininity rather than support her arising and discovery and full range of expression from unsentimental (yet loving) fierceness to compassionate, open-hearted softness.
We’ve also been asked to acquiesce to a reality of tyranny and fear-mongering, to over-sexualization, to under-inhabiting our true self-worth, to accepting that a reality of suffering over suffering is all we’re meant for if we want to become worthy of anything at all, let alone the dreams that live on in our hearts (and wombs). When we dream, it’s not just for the sake of it. It’s for the sake of soul memories of the goodness, romance, high-frequency realities that our souls have known and that our wombs hold the memory of and that so extend so far beyond what we’ve often known in this lifetime. When our wombs are stifled, over-exerted, and stuffed-down, we’re encouraged to forget the sacredness that she remembers and holds so dearly… including the blueprint of our sacred/divine femininity which is a gift to open up and allow into our being, not a cross to bear – though this experience is valid to feel and explore too, especially since that’s how it’s felt in other lifetimes of persecution especially.
There’s really so much to feel with this aspect of us as women, an aspect that holds such power and ability to be still but also become activated as needed and desired. It is such a powerful process when we engage with her consciously, treat her as an energy within us that needs as much love as any other part or soul aspect, and truly begin to regard her as the sacred portal that she is and is meant to be, for ourselves and others in service and even romance too. She needs conscious clearing and healing along the way, and space made for her to express how she needs and wants to.
Join me and Jelelle as we explore womb healing and activation on our upcoming women’s call this Sunday, August 21st. The call is by donation and you can attend live or just take in the recording if that suits you more. I highly recommend coming live if you can, as the Womb Room we create during these calls is so warm and heartFULL! You can find more information on our website here.
So much love, honouring and warmth to you and your womb, for whatever she is holding and responding to, and whatever she desires to feel and move through with you.
Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.